#overwhelmed by the discourse

[atthebell-moved]

i think that some of you do not understand that you are not actually required to keep up with all lore at all times and that due to the nature of minecraft smps, yes even the qsmp, being largely decentralized it is not one clean narrative where everything is cohesive and perfectly balanced. yes there is a lot of lore right now but that is not a bad thing, MOST fans are watching 1-3 povs max, and it's not an overarching plot, it's different streamers doing their own thing.

if you're not going to get annoyed at fit for introducing his own lore why would you complain about q doing the thing that is the point of the server (if it's adding a new group of streamers) or doing federation lore (the actual central storyline alongside the eggs). like, i get that keeping up with absolutely everyone is kind of a lot, because im also trying to do so, but no one is expecting that of you, you do not have minecraft roleplay homework, and moreover, quackity does not control what every streamer does or even what egg admins decide to do. it is not on him that richas and leo and many other people also have their own lore rn. that has nothing to do with him aside from if his character interacts with them, and his administrative decisions, which are likely reliant on a pre-established schedule with the new streamers, don't have anything to do with individual lore from people.

also i think throwing in germans right now would be funny.

#bell.txt #discourse #you being overwhelmed is valid and i understand #but it is not a singular narrative written by quackity alone. thats not how mcrp works and he knows that #this is not me trying to be mean also i just need you guys to get that quackity is not actually writing every monent if this #he has nothing to do with leos lore whatsoever #he has nothing to do with most people's lore! bc its theirs!!

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

all i did is calmly state that nonverbal autistic people do communicate because you said you HATE a group of people that's primarily comprised of them. theyre at the fucking forefront of the push to recognise autistic communication and you're inciting a targeted harassment campaign at me getting people to spam me and stalk me and send shit on month old posts and anons telling me to kill myself and that i'm a retard and you BEGGED for that

woke to this and not really sure what go on because had to avoid tumblr few days but you send many and respond direct to only this one because overwhelm and not sure understand all long thing

1) not sure imply though all messages that am one also doing harassment send thing in inbox? because am not. been avoid tumblr been on few time look mutual post and post if remember only one thing explain still upset but not know how communicate (was plan direct respond to you) and look at you profile once. but not able post beyond that and did not send anything in inbox.

if already not know how put thought to word then definitely not going send thing to inbox because hi spending all time try explain self

2) to people who send hate & harassment, send w word send kill self stalk go through entire blog comment: that not okay that NEVER okay that awful. if did this, please unfollow me block me because not want you here. you not activist you not ally you just bully who use defend nonverbal person as excuse. thought made that clear long ago but guess not

to you who receive: sorry for that, not know that going on, did not ask for. know sorry not really erase what went on

3) you say i one “inciting targeted harassment” to you. if look back entire time only ask for help “tell” help “explain.” very first post use word “deal” because not have access all word not able pick choose, but is clarify as able find more word, tell & explain. use beg, that in same context. which, ask other help explain thing am not able explain, has been thing so many times because. communication impairment not able do explain, so ask others.

because not been on tumblr much, not know all thing happening (only read few post in your blog & got upset early & left so if talk about it somewhere deeper did not get there), not able see everything, only vague know people respond to my post because get notif but not able really read all because overwhelm & receptive language impair. and. general not aware things. not able know or even think about thing that happen behind scene beyond what able see, because theory of mind.

4) with all that. going try say this as calm as can, think you really should learn more about entire nonverbal experience, because look like you only know part. think this because first few messages, and now responses to me.

many nonverbal people not just “not able mouth speak but can do everything else like speaking person.” because way understand is seem you think part this.

some’s struggle with expressive language/communication may end at mouth talk, but able communicate perfect other ways, AAC letterboard etc. this may be closest thing to that but still not quite because many in this category struggle many with motor. not all like be call impair & deficit, so not use, but struggle even if only mouth talk sometime still consider expressive language/communication struggle. even though all communication valid. because it something you not able do, and that not able do create hard thing even with accessibility aid. AAC slow, letterboard slower. less spontaneous. not able do same as mouth talk as you think, not able do fast flow. that struggle. AAC letterboard allow communicate and that need be heard but attempt erase difference wrong.

but for others, many other of us. language communication struggle much more that. can see this in how me act through this.

throughout this can see repeat many time have thought have feeling not able put words. not able write that type that, but also not able put thought into word in own head. trapped in head trap in thought trap in own world not able get out. that very frustrate and that communication impair.

few word do able have, not accurate not able elaborate. like “tell” & “beg” - in head mean please someone explain to them that not true & what me meant. this lead to misunderstand. that communication impair. yes speaking and/or allistic people may also struggle understand, but not mean me magic not have impair.

and when misunderstand happen, not able fast defend self. not able clarify what mean. and you see what this lead to. that impair. if able respond faster or even if able clarify more by what mean “explain,” this not happen. that impair and it affect other people, you living it. but am even lucky in this, able defend self after while if spend many hour even some days spend all that time think how put thought to word. because many nonverbal people not able to. know nonverbal people who even with best AAC best modeling best teach, still not really able communicate with word. know nonverbal people who even struggle reliably voluntarily use nonverbal communication like gesture like sound. that struggle, that impair.

and, be nonverbal & higher autism level & bunch other thing, one of mean is struggle control emotion at all. if get upset angry not able think right even less able find right word which lead to unclear communicate or none at all.

me type like this write like this. that communication impair. still able communicate and deserve heard, yes, but still impair because not have as much able than other. both true.

so after this after all went through still think all autistic not have communication impair, really not know what tel you.

5) this idea that “all i did was nonverbal autistic do communicate and you treat me like THIS.”

first, no what you said not “nonverbal autistic do communicate.” what say was i wrong for say nonverbal autistic (specifically me) not have communication deficit/impair, that i wrong for say that for self, that say that because have negative view for self.

all communication valid but not all communication same & able do same thing. try go through entire day without any word any speak any type any AAC. only nonverbal communication. yes able communicate and should be listen but see how limiting. cannot talk abt dreams talk about more complex wants n needs cannot talk about abstract cannot talk about future goals cannot talk about anything that not have something physical able point to.

do not need you “defend” me (first comments), against other or self. not need you save me. you came in tell me i not correct for own experience, that my experience factual incorrect. you spoke over me & whether meant to or not, decide i not able decide for own self that need someone help correct. that wrong and rude, and seem like through your many message now you still not see that wrong. not need knight in shining armor. not need you save me from “my negative view of self” because admit have impair have deficit neutral fact not negative. not need you explain me to me.

similar to how do not need abled people tell me (or you) you not disabled you just differently abled have ability in own way. or like wheelchair user me not mobility impaired just differently walking (yes wheelchair help get around but not erase me not able walk right.

you not talk when young not mean you get speak over me about me experience, something am experiencing now. stop weaponize that. even other nonspeaking nonverbal people not get tell me how i able or not able describe self.

you not innocent victim for me get mad and upset at what you say (and only that part, rest of like harassment that genuinely sorry not deserve).

and, for some reason you dragging & doubting autistic catatonia into this. for record, it not even “only US” thing like you say, majority research coin done by UK psychologists through entire complex research approve process and peer review. trust you more than you, especially since look like you only google search.

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#long post #discourse #disabled drama #<that filter tag for friends who overwhelm by stuff like this cannot change wording or else not get catch by filter #answered

[allhailthemightyquattro]

I really don’t like how tumblr now has the option for my followers to be able to see posts I’ve liked on their dash. I turned that off on my blog for a reason. I like certain things instead of reblogging them for a reason. Many different reasons, actually. It’s great that I can control my own dash and not see what the people I follow are liking, but part of curating my own experience is the ability to control what posts I put out there as well as what posts I see, and I would like that option back please.

#To my followers #if you have this option switched on #forgive me for the random x reader fics you may see #and the pictures of Ben Barnes #and fandom discourse posts #and the random political posts that I try not to subject you all too #because tumblr is a hobby space for many people and I know how overwhelming too much politics can be #tumblr update

[innsjovide]

huge pet peeve of mine is if you kill off a beloved character in fanworks (or like. actual works if its the canon story) or even suggest it, no matter what narrative significance this might have on the story being told, you'll suddenly be flooded by a billion people being like 'NO U CANT KILL THEM THEYRE IMMORTAL THEYLL LIVE FOREVER THIS IS WRONG'

#yes this is about korra yes im still pissy about it #the avatar fandom has such negative media literacy for a fandom of such a well written show #* lok isnt super well written but the original show is #if yall didnt know i used to write an 'earth avatar after korra' fic with some of my ocs #and while it was generally well received (for reasons ill never know the writing was trash) the overwhelming sentiment I got in feedback wa #HOW COULD YOU KILL KORRA SHES IMMORTAL I LOVE HER #like yeah i am number one korra stan too I love her but like. do you not understand the story I'm trying to tell here. #this discourse is coming back since atlas popular again and there was a teaser about canon avatar after korra (which is apparently a man ew #also its ironic bc korra fans all the time say 'lok isnt about aang it's korra's story now'. but yall are hypocrites #anyways LMAO #been thinking about my girl ever hadiyah saeed again #earth avatar extraordinair #it was like legend of genji but gay and i actually wrote 99 percent of it #so take that #innsjotxt #rant over

[zahri-melitor]

There's a thought circulating in my head about the current Wonder Woman and Amazons Attack storyline and the disproportionate response of the US government and how this response is falling largely on completely unconnected Amazons and even associated characters (Mary Marvel simply gets her powers from the Greek female pantheon! Despite having been spending time with them recently, she's not an Amazon!) and real life parallels to current conflicts.

On top of that the way that Lizzie is being written so disconnected from her own culture.

Plus the fact that this is written by Tom King as he's working out his 9/11 fallout feelings again.

Honestly I don't think King is deliberately doing anything about this, given the lead-time on creating comics and when he started plotting this story. But it is. Hmmm. Notable.

#please do not start discourse on this #the US government is frequently overreactive in terms of overwhelming shock and awe for offences against them #as are other countries #it's just...interesting in this time and place that this story is happening

[bogkeep]

i have tragically uncovered a new Pet Peeve and it's when someone shares a helpful art resource and calls it "not gatekeeping." it makes me so annoyed that it keeps me from reblogging the post with the resource. guess that makes me the true gatekeeper

#i heard this was a thing on the clock app but now ive run into it twice on tumblr TODAY #first of all this isn't what gatekeeping means!!!!!! #second of all lots of artists are so happy to share tips and tricks and resources and their entire process #third of all giving good art advice is genuinely a lot of work! it's labour! #whenever i get an art advice ask it may easily take me an hour to fully write it out #fourth of all ive seen like... enamel pin designers not share their manufacturers because doing so would overwhelm that particular manu #people usually have reasons not to share info and it rarely keeps you from making your art!!!!!! #the fact that art tools cost money is normal!!!!! #god im sorry i sound like the monthly art discourse on twitter

[kiradical]

I'm watching 90 Day Fiance: Before the 90 Days and this girl is so confusing to me. I know about uhaul lesbians but good lord. She really doesn't think asking to move her whole life to England and move in with her partner after just like a week together is a bit much and could be overwhelming.

Like. Listen. I'm aware that the two times I've lived with a partner it happened fast but both times there was extenuating circumstances. And I know that long distance can mean stuff like that happens a bit faster (or slower!) than local relationships but like... You cant just spring that on someone with out having conversations about it first?

Liiiiiiike ask about her timeline first? Where does she see it going? Don't just be like "hi here's a really romantic date night, now can I move in with you?" (Also thinking about it now that actually seems really manipulative?)

Also so few of these people on these shows are willing to compromise lmao. Like not even a little bit.

#in which kira watches trash tv #90 day fiance #plz dont be weird in my notes #i am not seeking discourse #i just think its silly that she doesnt even a little bit see how it could be overwhelming for someone #especially if the other person hasnt lived with someone else before

[molluskmirage]

((so idk, theres things I don’t understand and views I hold))

i am going to be rambling about my grief/frustration about the admin situation on the qsmp.

since im not behind the scenes and am not business savvy I really am trying to keep tentatively optimistic and open minded but I do have some strong opinions.

my thoughts/they may not be right/naive:

qsmp is of a nature and scale that to me should have NEVER had volunteers. ever. Its not charity work it’s entertainment. Streamers are making thousands by being there and to have those working alongside, the same or more work, to ensure the success and playability for both cc’s and audience members, doing so for free, Out of the love and passion in their hearts-It is difficult to wrap my head around. art, writing, and acting are so poorly paid professions but to have a project of this scale with so much money ‘around’ but not to half of those that make it so……

((this topic means a lot to me, I do not like seeing people taken advantage of (particularly young people as its rampant) and I was also taken advantage of to the point of illness and homelessness))

to me now here’s where my complete ignorance is (perhaps quackity had already paid or believed his workers were paid so had nothing when the time came) but to me having discovered this situation everyone should be paid living wage for this month, even when firing or letting go, then releasing merch to be able to afford back pay. Then everyone should be on a salary based pay.

maybe they’re handling it in a way I don’t understand/have access to info but what I do know is that many admins are in limbo without pay which also makes me feel incredibly uneasy. The stress and anxiety that state can cause, many were already working for free anyway but now there still unpaid in a state their not even sure they can do what made things enjoyable.

I am passionate about people getting paid for the work they do. I don’t believe people are cartoonishly evil, people can be sneaky and greedy at times though, theres a lot that cc’s have to know to navigate, and theres also a lot that others have to know as well. Theres a lot that happens bts and a lot of context and full picture things I dont have access to but there are things I know from experience and there have been alarming and unacceptable things from even the little info we have had. Again I am sympathetic to how that can happen but the fact is it still happened, people got hurt, they are hurting. An accident can be an accident but that still doesn’t mean that damage is not done.

monetary value gets thrown around a lot in talks, which is deeply the root of the issue, but theres so much psychological non-physical issues that are hugely linked to those issues as well. The stress that working for little or free on something you feel is important and are passionate about. Its a huge toll.

I do believe that things have the potential to be handled with grace, will it happen is simply the question and hope.

#Qsmp admin discourse #Felt like venting however dont want anyone who feels overwhelmed or overloaded by this topic to really pay it any mind

[sbnkalny]

Wow! neat how spiders are a blessing to this world And everyone clapped, and the queen have not truly experienced the love, courage, hope and holy Up.” she longed to inform him exactly How little interest she had in his hobbies, but It was going to be hard to get over my desk* really activates my macadamia.

#QUOTE #DAY 7 #He's back again and Every time i Look in the notes of a Discourse post and die By your strength may you find PEACE in the next world and eve #And the queen is killed #the swarm is overwhelmed by chaotic tendencies

[dennistakesamentalhealthday]

hi i finished my degree last week

#LMAOO #i dont know the grade for my dissertation and ive actually convinced myself of all the reasons it sucks so #i feel like im awaiting doom hahahahahahahahah but at least its done #i know i said before i will probably be offline and then was terminally online #rn i dont know #i love sunny and dennis but i get like hyperfixation fatigue with it #theres 2 much going on irl and also nothing at all so i feel weirddd #idk how active ill be across off season but since idk how long this off season will be im not like #gonna be away until we get news you know #also im mad i wasnt online for the s16 filming #ANYWAY! im alive and having fun etc #well now im having fun because im not doing schoolwork LMAO #i feel too overwhelmed to scroll the dash or look at discord servers but i hope my beloved friends and mutuals are well #and like i dont have the time or energy for fandom discourse or ship discourse or even just analysis and meta discussions #esp with the type of content sunny has #so idk im trying to figure out how i want to interact w these spaces but like this is a sunny blog its not that deep #i just miss people

[a-moth-to-the-light]

this is how i feel when i see jk rowling’s name yet again

#annoyance + exhaustion have overwhelmed my passion for engaging in Discourse

[magnetic-dogz]

I feel like a lot of people are still stuck in 2016 with the way they view Tumblr tbf

#cookie.txt #''the fandom discourse site'' idk about you but i don't see Any of that anymore #all the huge fandom discourse has migrated to twitter tbh #but like if tumblr overwhelms you i think that's perfectly valid #i remade because my old account had me so overwhelmed! #but this site - when you actually Learn How To Curate Your Dashboard - is a lot calmer than other social media sites #i feel like a lot of people forget that. #that it's much easier to curate your feed on this site than others #doesn't mean you won't see annoying shit #but if you do?? unfollow the people posting it dude #you don't have to like. put up with it. #EVEN if it's someone whose blog you really like

[daeluin]

it really be like poc folks have to work thrice as hard as white folks to be noticed, only to be sidelined for the soggiest unsalted cracker 😭

#ok ok this is my last post about the Discourse but really man...... what else do y'all need #this really doesn't merit much more but i had a bad day today & ive been dealing with bandom/emo/rock/alt spaces policing how we non-whites #present ourselves in their overwhelming predominantly white spaces and what constitutes “real” vs fake #like geez u can prop your specialest white guy without shitting on non-white folks #also the caucasity of bringing up ONE (1) black guy as a 'no see i wasn't being lowkey racist! here's [token black man]' #& being unable to bring up one poc from the scene.... OK #let's move on

[teethcore]

i received a DID diagnosis today

#echoes from the void #a bit overwhelmed #i mean it's hard to find reputable sources of information #it seems like all i can really find #is discourse on social media especially tumblr #strange mysticism around it and spiritual ideas that don't really resonate with me #stuff that says ''this doesn't exist and they're all pretending'' #and then of course surface level ''DID is when there are two or more distinct personality states'' and no further info #sigh #i know nothing about this really

[aphverse-confessions]

Hey guys, I do not want to be the mediator between heavy discourse like the previous ask and the prior one that was responding to. I will be deleted any further asks related to this topic.

#I thought it would be unfair to delete the previous ask after posting the original one that launched discourse #but it is overwhelming to be placed in the middle of this topic #please keep this kind of discourse on your own blogs #thank you #aphmau #aphblr #aphverse #aphmau confessions #posting the inital ask was a lapse in judgement #I will be reading asks more carefully to avoid such topics

[lesbiankizzer]

i think one thing that really bothers me is that even in the community people feel the need to emphasize that we are loving platonically. actually, i said to you “love of my life” and i meant to say it just like that. why do we equal love to romance? love is, after all, love. in all its shapes. i fall in love and i’m arospec. i am in love, and i will continue to do it and no i won’t emphasize the state of my feelings for you to understand or accept their existence.

i have to deal with the idea of romance/romantic attraction as the epitome of life shoved down my throat every day, all day. i’ve had to, since always. it sits at the core of my trauma. so yeah, no, sorry you will have to deal with me holding my partners’/friends’ hands and kissing them and proclaiming my love to the wind without any further explanation. and i will still be aro.

#arospec #aro #aromantic #aromanticism #aroallo #alloaro #queer #i think people look down on platonic love bc we dwell so much in trying to differentiate it from romantic attraction/love #and that leads them to believe they’ve won!!! #i’m aro and i feel so so so sooo much love all the time it’s overwhelming #but if i specify my love people will dismiss it #so i wont!!! i refuse!!! you think i’m talking romance? well that’s on YOU #discourse #personal