#plan your first trip

[blujayonthewing]

pitched battle inside my brain between the part of me that's desperately shaking myself by the shoulders going "YOU HAVE GOT TO ACTUALLY LIVE THE KIND OF LIFE YOU IMAGINE INSTEAD OF JUST SITTING AROUND IMAGINING IT UNTIL YOU DIE!!" and the part of me that's clutching my face going "is this allowed? is this allowed?? is this allowed???"

#trying to plan a solo cicada pilgrimage and getting brainworms about it yeehaw #'making a lot of plans and never actually doing things in real life' has been a problem for literally as long as I can remember #but I also feel like I've developed a learned helplessness over the last several years that's gotten worse as I've gotten older?? #me age twenty: I think I'm gonna take myself to chicago next week because I feel like going to the zoo #me age thirty: am I allowed to go camping alone. am I allowed to do a solo road trip. I need a grownup #to be extremely clear I am very much allowed and this is not justin's fault and I don't know where it comes from #like I'll run things by him lowkey seeking 'permission' that I don't even need and he'll be like 'yeah that sounds good to me' #and then I STILL won't do the thing because like. my brain keeps insisting there needs to be a grownup in charge?? HELLO I'M GROWNUP #anyway I'm doing cicada trip solo BECAUSE-- the drive is so long I want to do five days because two of them will just be driving #and he can't get that much time off work right now #AND because I literally only want to Be Camping and Looking At Bugs but he'd get bored of a week of that he likes Activities #me this morning getting insecure and weird: what are your thoughts... on cicada voyage.... #him after at first not even understanding the question: I'm SO excited for you?? you deserve to get to go absolutely feral??? #I do.... ;n; 💕 why am I so scared to be a person....... #about me #cicada journey

[cantsaythetword]

fuuuuuck ive dug myself such a massive hole and there's no climbing out now

#he speaks #love lying to my parents about how my uni career is going #cause i know they would cut me off from EVERYTHING i care about if they find out im failing anything #so just softening the blow by being like hey im barely passing #(which was still a DIFFICULT convo) #and saying oh im struggling heaps keeping up with readings and assignment deadlines so im just doing the bare minimum cause im exhausted #cause adhd #and them wanting to be super helpful and being like oh give me a list of your assignments and their due dates and your readings #and ill read the stuff and look at your assignments #cause you said you were doing summer semester to catch up on your classes from the trip #but in reality youre not you just said that so your parents would let you go #but now youre gonna have to do assignments over the summer break (aka for the next 4 weeks) and then be stressed about getting set up #and now youre so far in that you have an elaborate plan that you've “talked to the academic advisors” about your struggles and your adhd do #and both said you should go part time #so that it looks like youre graduating “on time” #but in reality youre just catching up on the courses you failed #and still struggling and hating full time #i stg if there were ANY other way to get the qualifications i need for this job #i would have left uni after first semester #i actually fuckin hate it #sorry for the rant lmao #kinda a vent post

[stars-inthe-sky]

UGH.

#went on my first real work trip in FOUR YEARS yesterday. had one meeting. #woke up this morning and was getting ready for a day of stuff with another one tomorrow #only to find out that one of the only five other people in the wednesday meeting just tested positive for covid #and another had found out she'd been separately exposed as well #so today turned into doing all my meetings on zoom and rearranging travel plans #and now instead of a professional thing i'd been really looking forward to and then a fun weekend add-on with the fam #i'm flying home late tonight to isolate in our third-floor guest room while boyfriend parents etc. #at least we got credit for his and bébé's last-minute flight cancellations #and we decided to leave the dog with the sitter that had already been arranged to just have one less thing on the collective plate for now #but UGH #and what's extra infuriating is that i am probably fine. i got boosted just a few weeks ago and wasn't like hugging anyone or whatever. #but you just don't know and when there's an actual case it's reason to be actually careful #and i'm just so exhausted and bummed about a lot of things already and had so been looking forward to this whole trip #best laid plans #as they say #anyway cross your fingers for me and the battery of rapid tests i'll be taking this weekend #and in addition to staying negative i'm also very concerned about whether anyone will be comfortable will me at thanksgiving #so that's a whole other thing #UGHHHHHHH #fucking #coronavirus

[notasapleasure]

A tale of two Georgias

Note: I wouldn't normally share subscriber-exclusive content from this news site, but I think Shota Kincha's opinions are too important to hide away in an exclusive email this time. If you're so minded, please consider supporting open journalism in the Caucasus anyway and sending some money OCMedia's way.

Highlighting is my own. Of course I support Georgia joining the EU, but absolutely not under conditions that ignore the recent rolling back of democratic freedoms.

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By Shota Kincha, for OC Media.

On Wednesday, Georgians celebrated a long-awaited recommendation from the European Commission for their nation’s candidacy for EU membership, leaving the country’s candidacy pending just final approval from the heads of EU member states in mid-December. But the Commission’s assessment of the government’s ‘progress’ seemed to be based on wishful thinking, rather than its actions. 

On denying Georgia the status last year, the European Commission outlined 12 ‘priorities’ Georgia would need to address for the decision to be reconsidered — preconditions that largely reflected the spirit of the April 2021 agreement brokered by European Council President Charles Michel between the government and opposition groups.

When the unforeseen possibility for Georgia to formally apply for membership presented itself in early 2022, Georgia’s leadership had already failed on some of the key components of the previous year’s accord. 

Instead of addressing the ‘perception of politicised justice,’ an apparent euphemism for the imprisonment of opposition leaders, most notably Nika Melia in early 2021, the Georgian court imprisoned another prominent government critic, Nika Gvaramia, only five weeks before the European Commission was due to assess Georgia’s readiness for EU membership candidacy.

Instead of the ambitious judicial reform promised in the 2021 Michel deal and mentioned in the EU’s ‘12 priorities’ last year, the ruling Georgian Dream party has continued to shield corrupt judicial officials with a stranglehold on Georgian courts, resulting in more politicised administrative fines and criminal cases against civil activists, political leaders, media managers, or youth with ‘confused orientation’ who risked their freedom to defend Georgia’s pro-Western choice on the streets.

In the run-up to the European Commission’s latest decision on Georgia, the government and security services run by oligarch Bidzina Ivanishvili’s goons artificially created an anti-Western parliamentary group, gifted them private channel PosTV, and made violent extremist pro-Russian Alt Info immune to obstruction or challenge. 

If the last five years under Georgian Dream rule had been a steady decline in democratic freedoms, the government’s actions in the months since it applied to join the European Union — including their recent initiatives to clamp down on Georgia’s civil society and constrain protest — far surpassed any and all negative predictions.

But listening to President of the European Commission Ursula von der Leyen, one could have assumed she was discussing an entirely different country. 

Despite Georgia’s government persecuting free media, parroting Russian propaganda against the West, refusing to undertake institutional reforms in a way that included other groups and stakeholders, and satisfying only three of the twelve conditions set last year, the European Commission complimented them with no substantial criticism.

I do not believe the EU should approve Georgian membership candidacy later this year, as the move looks set to validate and entrench the government’s precipitous lurch towards authoritarianism. 

The European Commission’s approach may be based on the belief that denying Georgia candidate status could lead to Georgians becoming disillusioned with the EU and the West. But Georgians have been staunchly pro-Western for decades, perhaps even centuries. 

The real danger to Georgians’ trust in the West comes from the West’s indifference to anti-democratic moves by Georgia’s government, which, if left unchecked, will continue to use state institutions to slowly but steadily shift popular mood and policies towards Russia. 

Even were we to allow that recommending EU candidacy status was a justified decision in Georgia’s best interests, doing so did not obligate the institution’s leaders to legitimise the country’s government in the way they did.

Listening to the widely televised announcement by the European Commission on Wednesday, Georgians could reasonably have concluded that democratic backsliding, state capture by big capital, and a politicised judiciary are consistent with Georgia’s pro-Western aspirations, or that related warnings from local activists and media have been baseless or overblown. 

The announcement could also have created the impression that the ruling party has been delivering on reforms demanded by the EU, a powerful notion less than a year before the country’s next general elections. 

The truth is, however, that in inviting Georgia to join the club while neglecting to call out the government’s shortcomings, the EU is playing a dangerous game, and one it has played before. The EU does not want another Orban, and the South Caucasus definitely does not need another Aliyev.

I may be wrong: perhaps granting Georgia candidate status will still be a wise choice on the EU’s part. But even in its recommendation, the European Commission could have sent a clear message that business as usual would no longer be tolerated. 

What Georgia’s leadership heard instead will become abundantly clear in the coming months. 

#ქართველები მიყვარხართ - ძალიან ძალიან მიყვარხართ. მაგრამ ეს არ არის დრო. #ამ მეთოდში ევროპული კავშირი ვერ გეხმარება ქართულ ოცნებსთან. #ეს იქნებოდეს ჯილდო უსამართლობისთვის #i'm seeing so many celebrations and it fucking breaks my heart #membership. will. not. fix. you. #you have to start that yourselves! #and the eu isn't perfect it needs to take a stricter line with hungary and orban. #they got lucky with poland voting their way out of a hole but that won't happen in hungary so easily - #and if they act like georgian dream have done enough when they have done worse than nothing they will be in a very good position next ge #and don't @ me for saying you need to start the work yourselves. #i have a friend who used to work in politics there and tried to change the election culture #he couldn't even get people to agree to a covenant saying they would refrain from using misgynistic language in campaign season #because people thought it was meaningless and unimportant #well sometimes you have to fucking start somewhere or you get scenes like the misogynistic language used in georgian parliament recently #i know i'm just ranting from very far away and can't possibly understand it all #i'd hoped to visit for the first time last month. but the university called off the planned research trip #because of concerns about the government's repressive legislation and actions #and if the eu grants candidate status for you without demanding actual concrete change then that's just going to carry on worse than ever. #i'm sorry i want to see you join. i believe the eu needs change from the inside too. #but they aren't your saviours riding in to fix things if they don't hold GD accountable #georgia #it's been a depressing few years to be a student of georgian i can't fucking imagine how much more depressing it's been to be there #but you have campaigners who give me hope still. #it's just that this decision by the eu would not give me hope for your future sorry #საქართველო #caucasus #oc media #shota kincha #eu politics

[iamthescalesofjustice]

idk if anyone has done this before but da2 au where you think at first its a both twins lived au and then find out bethany died and thats actually non-warden amell posing as her. something something escaped with jowan maybe, found her relatives in lothering, sought refuge with them and when bethany ended up dying it was way lower profile for amell to take the place of her cousin than try to get in to kirkwall with them as a non-immediate family member (especially given that leandra is publicly coming in as an amell and theres a resemblance and its known revka had mage kids taken to the circle and im sure theres a bulletin out or whatever for an escaped apostate matching amells description). points if people comment on how ‘bethany’ clearly takes after her mother. leandra is not normal about it. aveline knew the real bethany at least in passing bc of living in the same town and treats this as a reason for her distrust of hawke and co and one of the reason she sabotages carvers application with the guard. 

#gamlen has fights with leandra about it and both of them are uncomfortable with the situation in their own ways #if amell ends up recaptured and taken to the gallows cullen is obviously a massive threat to her #im thinking ignore the dai retcons of his character and actually yknow. look at what his creepy dao characterization and position in the #kirkwall templars would reasonably amount to in a person and have him threaten that he can have her exposed as amell instead of bethany any #time he feels like it (and thus get her made tranquil or executed) so its up to her to try to make sure he doesnt feel like it #by doing whatever he wants her to. this is actually slightly more cunning than you would expect out of this guy but he has plenty of #other kirkwall templars to ape this particular kind of plan/behavior from. it would fit really well with a bunch of the canon stuff we see. #and much in the same way that the bethany you end up with as a non-mage hawke is fundamentally a different character than the bethany that #had another mage sibling to grow up with and thus was not as isolated and in a position to blame herself for #i think an amell that ends up in this situation is not the star student of the first enchanter. i mean she couldnt fight well enough to #affect the ogre or heal well enough to save the real bethany. and she wasnt brought on the expedition despite not having leandra's 'leave #your baby sister out of this dangerous trip' happening bc as weird as leandras relationship to a #amell is its still one where if amell could be doing something to try to prove herself useful to the family she would #if she was straight up escaping kinloch with jowan i think she had reason to believe she was more unsafe than usual in the circle #and lacked the 'safety net' of the first enchanter giving a shit about her. so. probably at risk from cullen. hah wow this is a much darker #au than i first anticipated which given the initial concept is 'emotional problems from posing as her dead cousin' centric says something

[butterballbuttnakey]

Shawn's fandom is full of vampires because yall take and take and take and when shawn enforces a boundary or pulls back to recharge, yall have the AUDACITY to double down and shame him for taking care of himself

Yall are the reason he never talks to us unless he's selling something and if he decides to walk away from music completely I'm blaming yall (and his raggedy ass team)

#hes been so open with his struggles with being vulnerable and how it's impacted his mental health #and yall are mad that yall booked nonrefundable hotel rooms #take the trip anyways????? find other shit to do???? #be a tourist. go to a museum. see some sights other than your miserable ass house #my friends & i literslly planned a three day trip around our show thats no longer happening and guess what? #we're just gonna plan more activities to fill in what would've been concert time lol #yes it's upsetting and less than ideal #but sometimes putting yourself first means inconveniencing other people 🤷🏾‍♀️ #shawn mendes #shawn peter raul mendes

[violintrees]

Fanfic Writer Appreciation Week

Day 2:

Gen -

The Cotton Candy Incident by @cdarkheartzero - A lot of the IZ cast, Post Florpus, OCs, Multichapter, In Progress

Delightful, fun, intense, well done fic with a lot of good twists and turns and great OCs. Also comes with a bunch of amazing art by the author! Very excited to see where things go next.

Gift of Peace by spaceliquid - The Banner Saga, Post Canon, Three shot

LOOK I finished all 3 long ass Banner Saga games in like 4 days, the story SLAPS & there are so few fics. This author gave EXACTLY what I wanted several times but this is my fav. Its such a sweet and wonderful epilogue. Game spoilers in the tags if you want some context.

Domestic -

Trust Me by Anon - Zadf/r, so much fluff, One shot

DELIGHTFUL short one shot by a mutual who is no longer online. And yes it is set in a hotel which is not exactly domestic but also its my list so I do what I want. Consensual Pak removal and taking care of your partner. So soft.

Smeet Army AU by @palenoface - Zadf to Zadr, Zadr Smeets, READ THE TAGS OF EACH FIC, There are some explicit, but I am still linking to it, Fic Series, In Progress

This series is not all domestic stuff, but again I recommend the entire thing. GREAT disaster domestic family life. Everyone is some flavor of neurodivergent or disabled in this house but they all CARE so much and it SO GOOD. The Zadr is also delightful and goes through a lot of development. Fantastic read.

Pre Canon -

Tales from the Irken empire (and also some other planets) by @myrskytuuli - Tallest Miyuki, Tallests Red and Purple, Zim and Dib, Prof Membrane, Lard Nar, In Progress

Not all pre-canon but again I highly recommend this whole series. I love how this author writes the Irken empire. It feels very alive and takes things from our world while making them fit in this one. I also highly recommend their other IZ fic for similar reasons, though it is Zadr and explicit. Excellent stuff.

Day 1 | Day 2 | Day 3 | Day 4 | Day 5 | Day 6

#fanfic rec #fic rec #Invader Zim #The Banner Saga #Iz #Zadr #friend art #Okay so for the Banner Saga fic; good context to have #Dredge are these dark rock guys that were banished underground ages ago in a war #Iver is a Varl which are these horned giants that live a long time #And he fought in that war and killed a super powerful dredge #by stumbling across her nursing her child #accidentally killing the child and then killing her #thus the first chapter of the fic #I also generally highly recommend the games if you like turn based strategy #and choices with consequences #And since this one tags more people #IM PLANNING ON LEAVING LONGER COMMENTS ON YOUR WORKS #IM JUST BAD A MANAGING MY TIME AND HAVE A TRIP TOMORROW AAAA #Thanks for all that fic writers do for us

[icewindandboringhorror]

‘being one of the only people in your entire area actually still taking the pandemic very seriously and following safety measures while every single person around you rapidly decides they completely no longer give a shit’ moodboard

#my bastard in hell i have fucking health conditions #maybe you want to gamble your shit but I simply cannot take those risks dude #and it is increasingly hard to interact with literally any other human being when it seems like we both live in alternate realities #AND if they won't even give the basic respect of just being careful around ME #just a basic 'okay I know we apparently disagree somehow but at least while you're around me could you take these precautions #to help protect me' then it's immediately just *deeply personal reason against it* *argument entirely based on how the person #feels and not any actual current data or pandemic statistics* *random personal anecdote* *reckless nihilism based in #reasonable and understandable exasperation but still missing the point and not ultimately practically helpful in terms of genuinely preventi #ng things from getting worse and simply worsening the conditions that foster the nihilism and exasperation in the first place* *ableism* #*the weirdest fucking argument you've ever heard in your life* *some other entirely personal sentimental reasoning* #*some argument that basically boils down to the fact that they don't trust or respect or care about you and your boundaries or health* #like gHHHGhhhhhhhhhh #JUST STAY AWAY FROM ME AND WEAR A MASK FOR 30 MINUTES whY does it have to be a debate WHY is that SOO hard #also people I know keep planning stuff and trying to force and guilt trip me and others in my household to go do stuff with them #and are like planning vacations and all this stupud bullshit and now I'm constantly having to put up with it and seem 'mean' or whatever #one of my roomates is fine but the other one is more emotionally volatile and definitely prone to being pulled in by being Lonely #or wanting to do stuff with loved ones and compromising on safety because they're being manipulated by the people around them #into feeling like they're being a burden by asking people to wear masks or etc. so its a constant trust issue where I have to just desparate #ly hoep that when left on their own they're ACTUALLY going to stand up for themselves and stick to their beliefs #and not just like come home and lie about following sfatey measures then secretly give me covid or something.. hhh... WHICH wouldnt be a pro #blem if EVERYONE on the earth wasnt just acting like the pandemic is over and deciding to be reckless - because then it's a matter of #social conformity and peer pressure and following the Culture instead of the data and even people who were safe before will see everyone aro #und them taking things less seriously and decide maybe now it's reasonable to do the same thing themselves or etc. etc. #and it's like... nothing with the VIRUS ITSELF changed lol.. the response changed and the culture changed but the part that matters is the #SAME....the virus isn't looking around like 'hey people seem more chill about this now - maybe I should just relax a little bit and not #infect people for a while. i really dont want to get in the way of their pool party summer vacation and all of that. i'll just step back' #HHHHHHHHHHHHH anyway.... oi am goin inshane lov........... #covid mention #covid tw

[smute]

you know what? i am just so glad that we dont have to worry about the climate crisis anymore. apparently it has all been resolved and honestly, it is so so good to see that everything is normal and the world makes sense. i have to see my thesis supervisor in january. a flight from hamburg to stuttgart with a stopover in munich is both cheaper and quicker than a train ticket for the same dates 6 weeks from now. it just makes sense! i swear it makes sense. haha 😀 i could fly to london ON FRIDAY (that is the day after tomorrow) for €28,39 (granted, with ryanair, or i could wait until next week and fly with a real airline, BA, for €60 😃) but it would cost me anywhere from €12 to €25 just to get to the airport half an hour from my house. (half an hour by car that is. two hours by train lmao) i was also thinking about visiting my dad sometime between xmas and new years. sure, it's a busy travel week, so €121,80 for two train tickets doesn't seem too bad, right? only for €137 i can book a return flight with lufthansa. and that's 50 minutes on a plane vs 4+ hours on a train. 😌 what a world we live in! i mean honestly, they could PAY me €137 and i still wouldn't book a domestic flight. this is germany, not fucking australia. but please explain to me how any of this makes sense. you cant. because it doesnt. but yeah. it's even more infuriating with intra-european travel, and especially travel between mainland europe and the uk. like isn't it so wonderful that the channel tunnel is treated like some sort of carnival ride and you have to include 1-2 hours of check-in time in your itinerary because eurostar have delusions of grandeur and make you take off your shoes airplane style and also close their ticket gates 30 min before departure so they can sell you overpriced coffee and sandwiches? isnt that fun? like come on be serious for a moment. its a train. choo choo bitch why is your platform walled off? it shouldn't take a degree in international relations and 5-7 years professional experience in passenger transport for me to book a train from redacted germany to london england and yet here we are. i mean right now you can't even book eurostar trains via deutsche bahn directly lmao, and if you do a silly little preisermittlung, DB will charge you more for the eurostar train than what you'd pay if you booked the eurostar train directly on the eurostar website (rofl even) so of course you buy two separate tickets. but then if you arrive late in amsterdam or brussels or paris and maybe get stuck in the security or uk border control lines eurostar will just close the gates on you and go whoopsie ha ha bummer you have two separate tickets did you really think 2 hours transfer time was enough lol. and even if all of your trains happen to be on time and you do make the connection in a-dam/brussels/paris, you have to be so generous with your planning that you end up turning what could have been a 7 hour train journey into a day-long ordeal.

#this is not a hypothetical scenario btw #i went to london multiple times in 2019/20 and got stuck in brussels TWICE #the first time they said fuck you #i had to book a new ticket for the next day and get a hotel #the second time i got lucky and they just put me on the next train #like i am a certified plane hater #i am a licensed train lover #i actually WOULD be willing to pay a small premium if the experience was genuinely good I WANT THIS TO BE GOOD I WANT IT TO BE GOOD SO BAD #I WANT it to be a PROPER alternative to air travel #i want to be able to RECOMMEND it to people #but if its between this #and a 90 minute flight that is also cheaper?? #like come on #anyway #this wasn't meant to turn into a rant #also gemma and diana if youre reading this #i know its been 86 years (well. one and a half) since we planned this trip but i really hope that i can make it happen soon #ish #🥴 #&

[milo-is-rambling]

Someone tell me how to make me not hate myself and make my family not think I’m a bitch and make me want to see my family or drive back down the coast or stay in strange places or do anything other than kill myself I mean whaaatttt haha what a weird thing to say *stares directly into the camera knowingly*

#and don’t say take your medication #fuck. my moms sitting here like I was under the impression you had this all figured out and I’m like well I was under the impression you #we’re going to fucking sit down with me and help me book a room for the last night of driving bc I can’t book and I have to find somewhere #between like three states that will let me check into a hotel room bc if I get somewhere and they don’t let me stay I’m fucked and have no #where to go or sleep bc I can’t sleep in the car on the way back bc my car is packed to the FUCKING top with my brothers shit fuck fuck fuck #fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck #it’s just like being a kid I can hear my family making fun of me for my emotions in the next room over FUCK I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE T #THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS #I think I’m having caffeine nic and med withdrawals at the same time while pmsing #AND WHILE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT A PLAN FOR DRIVING BACK DOWN #I think I’m the biggest bitch on the planet rn #i was listening to father by tfb in the car and there’s a line about something about falling asleep while you drive and I apparently sang iy #with a lot of passion bc my brother said ‘please don’t’ and that was literally the first time anyone has called me on my recent musicchoices #but it really has all been like I need to go anywhere but where I am right now and I need to die far away and that’s it #no more starting over no more self hatred no more family shit I just need to stop #I want to hire someone to drive my brothers shit down to Florida and then I want to kill myself in New England #Anyways. I’m gonna go try to eat something and take my meds and then move stuff around in the car and also try to get a room somewhere by #the end of my trip and I don’t have much time at all and I need to kill everyone and then myself now now now now now now now now now now now #every time I move my body the entire world spins and idk if it’s anxiety or med withdrawals or being tired or what but I am losing it and I #feel like I don’t have it in me to drive any fucking more this trip and the way back is only just beginning #and in less than hour were supposed to check out of this hotel and go to my aunts for a big family celebration of my brothers graduation and #Mother’s Day and I’m going to see all my family who still has a fucking father and I want to be fucking dead I hate all of this I hate it #I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it

[cheekblush]

i don't get people who just insert themselves into others' plans....

#like i'm so baffled rn.. #for context: my friend & i are going on a weekend trip to another city next week #she just texted me asking if a friend of hers who i don't know can come with us #apparently she told her about the trip & now she wants to come with us even though she doesn't know me??? #at first my friend asked if she can stay in our hotel room & i said absolutely not like wtf???? #then she asked if it's okay if she books her own hotel room & just hangs out with us... #i reluctantly said yes bc i don't want to be a bitch but like i can't be the only one who thinks this behavior is super weird?? #like when someone tells me about smth they have planned my first thought isn't to ask if i can join??? idk this is so strange to me #idk if she's gonna be in the same train as us as well bc we booked everything weeks ago #i was really looking forward to this trip but now i'm kind of disappointed already.. #my friend clearly thinks it's not a big deal but plan your own trip with her maybe??? #idk am i overreacting?? this is an introvert's nightmare tbh 😭😭😭 #like what if i don't get along with her?? and i end up like a third wheel bc maybe they're closer friends??? #my first impression of her already isn't the best bc in all honesty who just inserts themselves into others' plans like that??? #asking to stay in our hotel room??? like the audacity??? idk i could never #girl i was really looking forward to this trip but now i'm just worried i should've just said no but as always i have to be too nice 🙄 #☁️

[aro-ortega]

going to italy/greece to draw sites/monuments for ~2 months, yall have anywhere you recommend / would want to see drawn

#definitely going to genoa + rome + naples in italy. definitely athens in greece and i would like to go to mykonos #these are the only places set in stone idk where im going or what im doing really #the first 5 weeks of my trip is an archaeological field school so i figure ill solidify a post plan eventually #op #if youre wondering how i can afford to do this the answer is i cant btw. im doing it anyway

[kyouka-supremacy]

Still firmly believe that the moment Atsushi definitely fell / realized what he felt for Akutagawa was love was when Akutagawa smiled at him in chapter 88 I'm sorry I can't take criticism on this

#I already made a post on this I think but seriously... Yeah #I could pick literally any other moment but apparently I hate myself #I just think. The tragedy of realizing what you felt for another person was /love/– #the moment they lose their lives is very fitting for sskk lmao #Also dead sure Akutagawa fell for Atsushi first- that's always been a firm point for me. #Akutagawa realized he had feelings for Atsushi way before him but never acted after them because he (rightfully) thought– #Atsushi hated him and that his love would have never been requited. He didn't plan on confessing ever- and not the kind of #“he doesn't plan to confess (but will anyways at some point)”‚ the kind of #“he'd never put himself through the humiliation of confessing his feelings when he's 200% sure they're unrequited– #and will definitely die without confessing (which. is canon btw)” #Akutagawa fell somewhere between the guild arc and the Fukuchi fight #(maybe it was when Atsushi said “Dazai-san has already recognized you long ago” #because let's be honest that's everything Akutagawa ever wanted to hear lol) #But probably didn't admit to himself he was in love with Atsushi until Dazai told him “you know the reason yourself‚ don't you?” #That's also why he was so angry through the whole cannibalism trip that's because he was in full denial lol #But also I'm entirely confident Akutagawa went into the fight against Fukuchi knowing he loved Atsushi. #Which didn't necessarily change anything because again Aktgw had the mindset of taking his feelings to his tomb and never acting on them #so in his mind liking Atsushi didn't really have to change anything between them #(also because he's not delusional‚ he knows it could never be) #Akutagawa is the “so what if I'm in love with you mind your own business” textpost lol #But it's still EXTREMELY important to notice Akutagawa went into the fight knowing he loves Atsushi and with the full intent to protect him #And that's beyond what Dazai asked him to do. He wanted to protect Atsushi because he loved him‚ and he died protecting him #I rest my case goodnight

[trans-xianxian]

crazy thing about being 20 but also having a Lifetime Worth Of Trauma is that I'm Mature For My Age tm and have been forced to acquire a lot of skills and knowledge that other people my age have not but also I have never stayed in a hotel room alone before

#I am ahead of many of my friends and peers in terms of life experience and maturity #but also I still have to call my dad sometimes to help me with Important Documents #visiting my bestie who lives in fl in december is like. the first Real Trip I'm planning as an adult #w/o any help or input from parents or other adults #and I am just being hit w how very 20 I am. how do I check out of a hotel?? #its funny like I've lived on my own and worked many jobs and have experienced many things that have forced me to grow up very quickly #but I am also very clueless about seemingly mundane adult things like planning a trip #I've traveled on my own many many times but not like this 😭 #idk its just very strange. being in your 20s is crazy dude #ghost posts #text

[dikiyvter]

       ... You know, if Gio were ever truly free, and wasn’t pressured to continue being some sort of entertainer, nor pressured to taking up medical work w/ the skills he already has -- He would 100% try to become some sort of lawmaker or lawyer. Outside of that, regardless of profession, he is absolutely an ANNOYING advocate towards whatever governmental body he ends up living under. Someone who takes his duties as a civil citizen very, very seriously.

#❄ ⤚ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴊᴏᴋᴇs ( ooc. ) ⇾ #i think i tend to underrate how like. #argumentative gio is and how much he debates with people #how pushy he is about topics he feels strongly on #v much a ''if you believe in something then stand up for it. what are you worth if you dont?'' kind of person #which is another uh... #contradiction? not quite the right word but. another thing that rly #sets him at odds with rigatello who believes in keeping his head down and just keeping the peace rather than Fighting for change that he #doesn't believe he has the power to enact #anyways hi im. admittedly going on a nostalgia trip and listening to some songs from hamilton. which-- yes hamilton bad but like. #i was obsessed with it when it first came out bc i was a cringy teenager its Nostalgic for me #but the whole notion of like. 'why do you write like you're running out of time' and the general like. vibe of the song non-stop #is v v gio-like #i think then too that a lot of the sentiment under burrs parts can be attributed relatively well to riga #even down to smaller stuff like ''why do you assume you're the smartest in the room? soon that attitude may be your doom. '' #but. but. #'' i'll keep all my plans close to my chest / i'll wait here and see which way the wind will blow / i'm #taking my time watching the afterbirth of a nation / watching the tension grow! '' v v riga..