My big kiddo is still struggling at school and it’s just getting worse. So I’m at the end of my rope and it’s all going to happen now. That full IEP eval can get done because whatever bandaid options they pushed aggressively on me are useless. The pediatrician provided forms for assessment, and we’ll get a callback once they’re all returned and reviewed.
I am in full scorch the earth mom mode. I have tried to move through the channels as the school wanted me to. We tried small steps and small fixes and this issue has gotten totally out of hand. Months and months have passed and my kid is suffering. I don’t hold any resentment at any individuals stuck in this bullshit process at the school, it’s probably even more frustrating for them to live this shit!
I have a lot of feelings about it all, but this weeks focus is on pushing on all paths for all solutions available. Her spending half her class reading in a chair in the office isn’t going to fucking work for me. I keep being told she’s “on track” but suddenly she doesn’t know what the book they read was about……. No shit. Probably because she was walking laps around the building when you taught that lesson. Or maybe she was melting down. Or just sitting quietly wishing for the windows to fall out so she could feel less terrible. Poor kiddo.
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if it has "orders" that vague, would showing obvious enough dismay that Jean doesn't accept his agreement to them be "refusing"? In a situation where he is aware that having those tells caused him to get out of the order
I envision that as part of the ramping-up: the magic, as it grows out of control, starts actively reacting to anything Kaeya does to evade Jean's orders. Enforcing less and less explicit orders over time comes hand-in-hand with shutting down each new way Kaeya finds to work around them.
In fact, the cause-and-effect might even be the other way around! I'm tempted towards the notion that aside from the issue of a Vision's power being way more than the spell needs (and the Pyro-on-Cryo complications), the fact that a Vision responds to the intentions of their bearer is also playing into this. At the time Diluc does this magic he is still reeling from the revelation that Kaeya was deceiving him for all those years, and afraid on some level that he's going to somehow be able to wriggle out of this safeguard by fooling Jean as well. He does not want Kaeya to find any loopholes! And if I go with that, then the spell, turned by the Vision into an active rather than passive restraint, closes said loopholes as soon as Kaeya finds them--each strategy, including that one, has only a limited window before the magic starts triggering on it. And if that's what's happening, then forcing indirect or non-orders is just part of that overgrowth, because 'she didn't make it a direct order' is just another loophole, as far as that nasty mess of Abyssal magic and Vision power and Diluc's mistrust is concerned.
Even if that's not the specific mechanism I go with for why, I do know the magic is shutting down even that kind of passive resistance. The incident that makes Kaeya decide he has to tamper with it involves him being completely unable to give Jean mission-relevant information because it would have changed her strategy and the magic takes that as 'arguing' even though she would want to know. People get hurt because of it (including him)! No one gets killed this time, but... it's worth the risk to him not to put Jean in the position of being unwittingly responsible for someone's death. Because Diluc's coming home someday, and there's "so uh we might have anchored this on you without your knowledge or consent," and then there's "so uh someone died because we anchored this on you without your knowledge or consent," and there's both a moral event horizon here and, on the personal level, only so much forgiveness they can beg.
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AS I’ve said before posting on here really do be feeling like screaming into the void but I’d just like to announce that I saw my ex post something today (by accident, it was on an old account I logged into to change up) and I saw her face and read her words and now I have chest pains and it’s almost three am.
Someone PLEASE tell me they relate. To any of this. I feel so fucking alone.
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I've fallen deep back into my gorov brainworms and I think I've finally decided for my purposes that Goro is 5'8"/173cm and Valentine is 6'2"/188cm. Still need to go back in some older fic and adjust because originally I was imagining them both around 5'10".
It's always incredibly fun to write physicality between them, because despite always meaning to work out Val doesn't, and so has the muscle mass of a giant nerd. Goro could presumably thigh press a car. He makes an effort to let her affectionately push and pull him around, because it would be a lot more difficult for her to shove around heavy cyberware if he didn't. It's one of those little things you might miss unless you think about it- then they get a little carried away and he just easily picks her up without warning. Can't forget this man is a very dense and compact killing machine. If he's playing nice it's because he chooses to.
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