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animealways · 3 years

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hermione x fem!reader

''what do you guys think you're doing here!?'' hermione said clearly mad that her friends were watching her behind a bookshelf. harry and ron looked at each other both trying to think of a good excuse. ''well we couldn't leave you alone with her! what if she does something to you?'' ''wow you sure trust your friends alot'' ron and harry were surprised to see you next to them. neither had notice you walking next to them. hermione now walked around the bookshelf and stood next to you.

''what do you want?'' ron said with a somewhat aggressive tone. you sighed knowing where this conversation is going. ''look i get you don't trust me. i know draco is probably the biggest bully here that there is but don't you think you should trust your friends abit more? she has a right to choose her own friends and who she hangs out and so do i. do you really think draco wants me to hang out with hermione-'' ''wait since when are you 2 on a first name bases!?'' ''since she ask me ronald.'' hermione said in a stern tone. ''look i'm not telling you to trust or like me but hermione is her own person and there for gets to make her own choices and same goes for me. you don't have to believe me but just because i am malfoys friend doesn't mean i am just like him'' ''how do we know your telling the truth'' harry spoke up but unlike ron he didn't sound angry. just skeptical. ''if i really am like draco i wouldn't even be here. after all can you see draco studying with hermione? or be this calm? if i really am like draco i would have insulted you by now.''

you turned to hermione looking at her and nodded towords ron and harry. silently asking whether she wanted to talk to them alone. she nodded ''i'm gonna chill at the lake if you want to talk afterwards kay?'' with that you walked towords the table got your stuff in your bag and out of the library. ''i can't believe you guys!'' hermione said in a angry tone but made sure it wasn't too loud since there in the library ''what we had to protect you!'' ron protested ''no you don't! both of you are so immature!'' ''what do you mean with that!?'' ''spying on me and acting like you're not in the wrong! why can't you be more mature like y/n?!'' she huffed out ''hermione you only had know her for a day how can you say she more mature then us?'' harry argued back ''i might have know her for a day but i can tell she more mature then you guys cause she handled this situation far better then you 2'' she walked back to the table and started to get her stuff. ''beside i can take care of myself perfectly fine'' she said with a huff and left the 2 boys in the library.

she went to the lake and you kept your word. you sat on the grass in all black clothes and were reading some book. ''i am guessing it didn't get any better after i left?'' you close the book and put it in your bag ''no it didn't. those 2 didn't think they were wrong...'' ''figured that much'' you sighed ''they probably thought it was alright since they did it to protect you. too bad they didn't think about how this is your choice to make.'' hermione looked at you trying to see whether you were upset because of the whole ordeal but you just looked at the lake with a stoic face ''i'm sorry about them. they can be so stupid sometimes...'' she said pretty soft. you couldn't help but think how sweet it is that she care about your feelings despite everything els about you.

''its alright i never expected my time here to be easy and i'm kinda used to people jugding me anyway'' you said with shrug but hermione just looked confused ''what do you mean with that?'' ''i know my friendship with draco ment people would think i was bad news before they met me because this is draco were talking about and back at home my family is know as the most powerfull wizarding family that there is. so everyone just judge me based on my last name its the reason why i pefer hanging out with my family then anyone els it felt like i could be myself and not just a name i had no controle over when i was with my family'' ''that sounds annoying'' she gave you a sympathetic look

''you get used to it beside nobody ever insulted me for it unlike with you. coming from a no-maj family'' ''no-maj?'' ''yeah your pare- oh right you call it muggle here i forgot'' ''oh you call non magical people no-maj?'' ''yep in america they also care alot less about how 'pure' your blood is'' ''really that sounds nice'' ''i know when i got here people kept telling how i shouldn't get near you cause you're a muggleborn and i'm a pureblood but honestly idc you're a student at this school wich makes you just as much a witch as i am and thats a fact'' hermione couldn't help but smile when you said that. you're the first slytherin that she could feel safe with. despite the 2 of you only knowing each other for a day she could tell you're genuine.

you sighed ''alright enough of this depressing talk. how about we go to the kitchen's and get some food i'm starving'' hermione nodded you both got up and went to kitchen asking the elfs for some food. you ended up talking alot about america and you both told stories from each other childhood's. ''say hermione'' you said while walking thru the halls with student staring and wishper about the 2 of you its not often a slytherin and a gryffindor talk to each other let alone a slytherin thats friends with malfoy. ''yeah?'' ''what was it like finding out that you are a witch? after the schock wore off of course''

you always have been curious about this. after all a family's world view basicly got turned upside down. ''my parents were really happy and glad for me but also abit worried since they new nothing of the magical world of course'' ''reasonble althought i don't want to know how they would react to the whole troll incident'' you said jokingly ''yeah they were pretty worried of course but after i told them i was fine and safe they calmed down'' ''your parents sound chill if my dad found out something like that happend to me well... lets just say the teachers would probably gone deaf'' hermione couldn't help but smiled at the thought of your father yelling someone ears off especially since you said your father is pretty big goofyball. you ended up spending the entire day with each other. even forgetting dinner it was just so easy talking to you. your laid back attitude helped hermione relax something no one in the entire school seemed capable of. wich is why hermione started to spend almost everyday with you. something about you seemed to make things easier for her.

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asurin · 5 years

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Boring question perhaps, but how was your day? ^_^

I constantly thought about ways of killing myself, i almost had an INTENSE breakdown at h&m because i saw my body, i had to keep it together because my mom was with me and she jugdes me when i have a breakdown, i had to look okay, forced myself to smile while the only thing i could think about was that if i had a gun in my hand i wouldn't hesitate a second to shoot myself in the head. When we got home my mom was so angry at me and i shut up and didn't say anything and yet she yelled at me, in every possible way she could, she criticised why i wasn't emptying the dishwasher "properly", she yelled at me because i didn't go to her quickly, she yelled at me saying i was stupid and retarded because i was "acting up" over nothing, which was when i wasn't responding to her attacks, then she yelled at me saying that i could just go to hell, and that i didn't appreciate how understanding of a mother she was because before we went home she pointed out what a tolerant mother she was and wanted me to praise her, i did, but she didn't find it enough. She then yelled at me and said that i deserve what happens to me and that i am just "this" i am "nothing more than this" and because i put some knives the "wrong way" in the drawer she started to aggressively correct them and tell me that just how incompetent, clumsy and a loser i am because i didn't put them the right way, and then that her hands hurted while arranging the knives and this is what i was doing to her, that i planned to put the knives wrong that she would hurt herself arranging them. She then proceeded to yell at me for taking a shower when we came come and that i "invaded" the toiled and she couldn't wash her hands, which she could do in the kitchen, i told her that she could have washed her hands in the kitchen and she started to yell at me about how her hands were sensitive and that i was the only one in this house that is pretentious about my hands being sensitive (i am not) and then she started to yell at me because i had wet the bathroom floor while i was taking a shower, then she started to shout at me saying that i wasn't doing enough work in the house and that she was tired but since i didn't empty the dishwasher sooner she had to do so much work and get tired and worn out and exhausted emptying it and that was my fault. And when i was drying my hair with the hairdryer she told me that it was buzzing because i was turning it on and off "too hard" and that it was my fault. In between all her shouting she was talking about me in a way that mocks me and talking to herself about how ungrateful i am because of reasons i don't know. She just suddenly started acting like this. And then she insulted me more before going to the toilet.

This was my day. thank you for asking

#ask

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xox-hitorabu-xox · 5 years

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You misunderstood my words, I definitely think Izaya doesn't need a lover in canon in order to have a personal resolution, I just named the Shinzaya, Shizaya and Izamika ships because they're objectively the ships with more potential (and quantity of material) to evolve into something else, where situations are ambiguous enough (especially with Shinra and Shizuo) to be read in both ways. I mean, it's really easy to think Izaya might be in unrequited love with his "best friend" who doesn't (2)

give a shit and is totally obsessed with a monster or that is in love with his lifetime rival but in extreme denial because Shizuo’s first rejection hurt him deeply and since his heart is so fragile to break if filled with human love, betrayal or rejection, convincing himself to hate him while destroying his life, is the ultimate form of self-preservation (+ other additional stuff that came later), etc. It’s just a step from the two interpretations, that’s why it would take nothing to (2)

write something about Izaya’s past with Mikage and Kine, he didn’t because he lacked time. No big secret behind it, he was and still is involved in too many projects and lately even got sick and just recently recovered. Dude don’t get mad, I’m not saying that there is 0 potential between Izakage, like they’re already more steps ahead from Izanamie but still doesn’t seems like she’s one of the people who had an epic impact in his life, if by any case it’s revealed that she is, good for you. (3)I’m not really against anything and I read a bit of everything, but if someone comes at me asking: “What Drrr ship has the most potential/double interpretation material to build over in order to make it romantic?” and oc I’d reply Shinzaya, Shizaya and Izamika because I just have eyes to read and what I read tell this. It’s not like I prefer them or something, if Mikage was in Shinra’s place to give an example, that’d be the other way around. It’s nothing personal against the Izakage ship. (4)

If people don’t see potential in something doesn’t mean there isn’t in general, if Shizaya is so popular is specifically because so many people can see it because it’s really easy interpreting certain behaviors in different ways. It’s just Narita who can’t see this or any other mxm ship because is limited by homophobia and all ships need to be straight. But here we’re talking about potential not what will happen in canon, that’s why I say is all wasted unexplored potential. Too bad for him.(5)

Maybe I’m the only one who thinks IzayaxMikage is more or less on the same level of KadotaxIzaya. Like both know Izaya pretty well, they shared the high school period and know and acknowledge his flaws, still they still see some positivity in him. They’re impartial in jugding him, contrary to others who see him as Satan himself or Shinra who knows him more than anyone else still doesn’t care. Difference? None. IzayaxMikage has simply more chances because is a straight ship and that is sad af.

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First off, Narita has broken the INCEST taboo, literally having Kurui and Mairu, both girls and sisters, kissing, (whether or not they hold and attraction for Aoba/Kasuka as a side attraction is beside the point) so I HIGHLY doubt he’s a homophobe or worried about every ship being straight, that’s just you being salty over Shizaya not being canon(and don’t say you’re not, because otherwise you wouldn’t care about or have an issue with Narita not acknowledging Shizaya). And it’s not nice to accuse people homophobic unless it comes out of his own mouth, especially considering all the gay jokes and vibes throughout the anime and novels.

Nextly, all of this is you pushing your ship onto me and putting down my ship, which is just rude. On top of that, Claiming that Shizaya has SO MUCH potential while telling me my ship has next to none is also incredibly petty of you. I’m not gonna argue about Shinzaya or IzaMika one way or another, (KEEP IN MIND THAT I AM IN NO WAY BASHING SHIZAYA, I FULLY SUPPORT THE FANART AND FANFICTIONS FOR IT) but Shizaya is honestly the worse pairing to compare to IzaKage or ShinCelty. Unlike with all the other ships in Durarara!! Shizuo and Izaya hate each other, they try to kill each other on a daily basis, they can’t stand each other, they don’t like or admire anything about the other, and would never want to, it’s not even remotely love. It’s pure unrivaled hatred. While I enjoy Shizaya in fanfictions, I would NEVER wish for that pairing to become canon.

And since you have basically put down ShinCelty and said that I shouldn’t go on about what isn’t healthy, let’s go on about what IS healthy. Unlike Shizuo and Izaya, Shinra and Celty never try to kill each other, they are physically attracted to each other, and above all else, Shinra makes Celty feel like an actual human being and Celty inspires Shinra act like a human being and keeps him from making terrible and inhumane choices on more than one occasion(like stopping him from killing Aoba). Celty is the one who encouraged Shinra to go make friends, Celty is the one who looks after him and his wounds after he was attacked by Adabashi, Shinra is the one who helps Celty find happiness and humanity. Yes, Shinra manipulated Celty and Celty was mad at him, but his feelings for her were still genuine, even if he was selfish and very questionable, arguably having even less morals than Izaya. But he never tried to have her killed, they don’t throw huge objects or knives at each other on a daily basis, they don’t frame each other for crimes, they don’t tell each other they’re not allowed to come into Ikebukuro or act like they own the town, they don’t prevent the other from making connections, or any of that. Shinra may have lied to her on more than one occasion, and may be twisted and done a lot of twisted things, but in comparison to Shizaya, Shincelty is innocent as hell and to even try to compare Shizaya to ShinCelty is really looking bad on you. I don’t ship ShinCelty or Izakage because it’s a straight, I ship it because of the mutual understanding and appreciation I feel they have for one another.

I don’t see Shizaya as having potential in canon, Because Shizuo and Izaya bring out the worst in each other, they make each other’s lives worse(And Izaya literally wants Shizuo to become a monster, and can’t stand when he acts nice or like a human, unlike Shinra who would support Celty no matter what path she chose). Shizuo and Izaya want to avoid each other, especially in the novels, yet they keep picking fights and could NEVER get along. So comparing that level of toxicity to the level of toxicity of any of the mutual couples in Durarara is redundant. Hell, SHIZAYA MIGHT AS WELL BE DIOxJOJO FROM JBA BECAUSE IT’S JUST THAT BAD OF A HATRED. Though knowing you, you probably ship that.

Unlike you, I’m looking at logic. Hate is hate. That’s just a fact. Hate to that extreme doesn’t turn into love.

On top of that, while maybe Izaya was angry about the rejection, he wanted to use Shizuo. And their first interaction wasn’t even in the novels from what I recall, that was anime only. But Shizuo had heard about the kind of person Izaya was beforehand, and Izaya had heard about Shizuo as well. Izaya approached Shizuo with the intentions to manipulate him. And Shizuo doesn’t help anything throughout the series. He only makes everything worse. Again, I don’t like fighting over ships, but you’re the one who came onto MY post and started attacking me, putting my ship down, and spamming my inbox with biased propoganda about why Shizaya would work and why IzaKage wouldn’t. Quite frankly, I’m getting tired of this.Also, just because something is super popular doesn’t always make that great. A lot of people out there ship pedophilia (30 year olds with 12 year olds or younger) more than they ship the actual canon pairings of some of the anime out there, but that doesn’t make it okay.Anyway, I’m done arguing about this.(I realized too late you said it WASN’T that you thought it had no potential. I feel like an idiot now, but I’m not taking back a lot of the other things I’ve said.

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