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skitskatdacat63 · 9 months

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Boy King AU | Vettonso + Martian | 1.3k

There's something about putting the future emperor of the Holy Realm on his knees like this. About how easily he goes, how willingly, how obediently. What would his adoring public think if they could see him now. If they saw their beloved king pressed down like this, in the cramped space between Fernando's legs. When they realized their little boy king took it like he was a little concubine instead.

Fernando's bitterness is lifted away in moments like these, like taking off a heavy cloak on a winter's day. It was hard to feel humiliated about his own situation when watching Sebastian debase himself like this.

He always gives himself up so easily. When Fernando threaded his fingers through his thick curls. When he pulled them, and then when he pressed his face down further down into the vee of his legs. Sebastian rubbed his cheek into the coarse fabric of Fernando's breeches and blinked up at him. Fernando had to smother an embarrassing sound; he was just like a little cat!

Sebastian quirked his lips up into an odd little smile and slightly rose up on his knees, "What's funny?" Fernando swallowed lightly and schooled his face back into being impassive, "Nothing. As you were." Sebastian simply smirked at him and let himself be pushed back down by the fist clenched in his hair.

Fernando scoffed internally, there was only so much pleasure in putting the other man in his place when he instead acted like this, this degrading action, was his birthright. He took to ruling and indulging in carnal pleasures as if they were of equal gravity. To be privileged to hold such high station and also let himself be taken apart like this…Fernando felt embarrassed for him.

He is dragged away from his musings when Sebastian moved to settle his hands in Fernando's lap, clutching his hips over the fabric and slightly squeezing; Fernando fought against the urge to shiver. Sebastian pushed up the skirt of Fernando's waistcoat and smoothed his hands over the opening flap of his breeches.

His eyes darted up at Fernando again, a daft smile on his face. Fernando scowled at him, "What?" Seb's grin sharpened, "You could stand to be a little more gracious. This is your future emperor, and future husband might I add, kneeling for you on this dirty, depraved, derelict- ah–" Fernando tugged on his hair again and hissed, "Well then, why don't you show me how eager you are to perform your marital duties?"

Seb licked his lips, completely unconcerned by Fernando's annoyance, and unbuttoned one side of the closure to Fernando's breeches and moved to open the other–

The door to the carriage flew open, arrival announcement dying on a wheezing breath as the servant took in the image the two kings made. One splayed across the seat, exuding power, the other kneeled, debauched, between the former's legs.

One would be hard pressed to determine which was higher on the totem of power and titles.

There was something gratifying about this to Fernando, about being caught. He had been humiliated enough throughout the entire courtship, what was one more thing? And, certainly, what was one more thing if he could drag Sebastian down into the dirt with him.

"Oh Mark, don't act so abashed! It's nothing you haven't seen before, in fact, we have been in this very position not even a fortnight ago!"

Oh. Yes. That.

It was hard to be completely pleased when he remembered how Sebastian had already spent years prior to their engagement sampling the palace's ample selection of fellow high-born men. And how all those men seemed to be completely and utterly wrapped around his little finger.

Fernando released his hand from Sebastian's hair as if it had burned him. He did not understand why he felt ashamed with Mark looking in on them like this. Fernando was the one marrying Sebastian, not Mark; Mark was just a lowly courtier who had the esteemed duty of spending practically every waking hour with the brat…something he himself was decidedly not looking forward to.

Sebastian stayed kneeling, staring impassively up at Mark, still fiddling with the clasp on Fernando's breeches. Fernando gritted his teeth and looked up from where he was watching Sebastian's clever little hands; Mark stared back at him placidly.

Mark's indifference made the entire situation worse. Fernando now felt as if he was not doing anything unique, not doing anything particularly new. How many other men had Mark caught Seb with in this exact position? Fernando felt like he was just another plaything of the boy king, soon to be boy emperor, except his position was forever, permanent. He was the "Kept King", the king who only kept his throne due to the whims of a boy who doesn't even understand what power is.

Mark coughed, "Well," he says, "Your Majesty, I do believe you have a meeting to attend." Seb pouted at him and whined, "We were just getting to the main course," but still braced himself on Fernando's thighs and got up off the carriage floor.

Seb pranced down the steps Mark had placed next to the carriage, miming tripping sown the stairs, snickering when his action made Mark reflexively reach out to grab him, and then playfully skipped off the final step.

Fernando couldn't help but stare as Mark made the weirdest grimace in response, and he inexplicably felt all his mortification seep away from him. Huh. Maybe Mark is-

Seb then turned around and frowned at him, seemingly disappointed, but his eyes are deceivingly sharp, "Fernando, I regret to inform you that I have other duties I must attend to, you will simply have to wait." He then grinned up at Mark next to him and giggled as the other man stiffened when Sebastian looped both of his arms through Mark's.

He leaned all his weight on the other man, Mark not so much as shifting his weight, "Oh Mark, won't you carry me back to the palace? I'm so very tired after all the horse riding," Seb looked up at him imploringly.

Fernando observed as Mark rolled his eyes and shrugged off the man, though notably not pulling his arm from Seb's grasp, and he got the distinct feeling that this exact scene had been played out countless times before.

Fernando clenched his jaw as he watched Seb turn and saunter off, Mark trotting alongside him like a loyal dog. Fernando was supposed to be the unaffected one in this partnership, the unflustered one, the unconcerned one. And yet here he stood, in broad daylight, in a foreign kingdom, on the steps of a carriage with his breeches half unbuttoned and his cravat in disarray.

He heard a cough from beside him, jolted and looked to the side. Sebastian's loyal Horse Master stood there, lounging against the side of the carriage. Fernando had forgotten who had even been driving the carriage in the first place. After Seb has let himself be pushed down, his hair still windswept from their ride together, everything else seemed to fade away. His thoughts were reduced only to how he could mess up the younger man's hair further.

Jenson grinned at him wolfishly, and casually crossed his legs, "First time?" he inquired. Fernando glared at him. The other man laughed openly at him, "What? He's a busy man with big prospects. You're not his majesty's only conquest, you know. Now your throne on the other hand…"

Fernando seethed, it was one thing to be humiliated by the future emperor, but to be patronized by the king's horse boy? No. It would simply not do. He closed his eyes in annoyance, pinched the bridge of his nose, exhaled, and prepared a speech about how he was not about to be talked down to by a man who didn't even have a throne to speak of!

But when he opened his eyes again and opened his mouth to begin his tirade, Jenson was already wandering away to tend to the horses. Dios mío, Fernando was not mentally prepared to spend the rest of his life with all of these impertinent morons.

#i love how i kept saying to people: no no i shant write any fic for this. only art.#me like two weeks later: hey guys :)#this is just: i was sitting in class and had a drawing idea but then im obv not drawing *this* in class so my brain went into narrative mod #not exactly 'baby's first ficlet!!!' but moreso ive not written in a while so i hope its alright???#but aaahhh this was actually pretty fun!! idk i think it was bcs i was also being brainrotted by the image of seb kneeling....#maybe ill draw it. but it felt like something that needed the context of narrative and not just oo here is a drawing!#anyways you can always ask me for a directors cut-(PLEASE PLEAE BEGGING PLEASE)#see this is why im not cut out for writing fic #its not like i dont think it can speak for itself. more that im just an overly reflective person who wants to explain all my thoughts #if i wrote fic itd really be just: chapter 1. chapter 1.5 chapter 2. chapter 2.5 #anyways i think its pretty obvious but this is before their wedding and just like peak bitterness.#well not peak. peak would be the first year- first few months of their marriage #but this is fernando who is only just realizing how naive all his expectations of seb were and getting a glimpse of his future #but mostly: mindgames and power play and: whos actually really winning?#also my god jense is literally the best chara in this au. he is vibing and basically just witnessing ye olde reality tv #mark and fernando are always in a weird powerplay with seb(even if seb isnt even consiously doing so) and jense is just free from it all #hmm now how does one go about tagging fic #vettonso #f1 fanfic #formula 1 fanfic #f1 #formula 1 #martian #sebmark #also idk why im always so concerned abt tagging when im basically just writing this for my little boy king following i have somehow formed #hahaha! it is art to me!:#catie.art.#boy king au

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mirrortouchedsea · 19 days

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wip wednesday

Loosely based on @sausagepastry 's lighthouse keeper/merman au

Once the boat was beached on the rocks, Niki scrambled out and pulled it closer so that it wouldn’t get washed away. Kohaku should have been keeping an eye on him and would be down to help in a moment, but Niki was still baffled by the uh, tail, and now that he wasn’t distracted by the rocking of the boat, the fact that there were gills and fins on the merman in front of him.

“Hey! Wake up!” He tried shouting and shaking the merman. It had grabbed onto the boat out in the water and looked like it was breathing as much as Niki could tell. How something that may or may not have both gills and air breathing lungs would be able to show he was breathing, Niki wasn’t entirely sure, nor was he sure he wanted to know that answer.

“Niki-han, did you find anythi--oh what is…” Kohaku came to a stop next to Niki, looking at the merman. “Please tell me I’m seein’ things.”

“I don’t think so, Kohaku-chan. He won’t wake up but I don’t want to leave him in the storm either.” Niki shook the merman’s shoulder again, gently slapping its face to no avail. He pressed a finger to its neck to search for a pulse but he didn’t even know if that would yield any results. There was a faint throbbing though, something like a heartbeat. Could they stay out of water? If only the damn thing were awake and could answer their questions.

Another lightning strike jolted them back to reality. “Kohaku-chan, start running the bath and get the stove heated. I’ll try and get him in the house.” Kohaku nodded and ran back inside, while Niki contemplated the best way to get the merman back. There was a wheelbarrow somewhere that would probably work well enough to get him up to the door but trying to wheel it up the steps even when it was empty was a challenge. His stomach growled and Niki decided to just grab it and maybe he would just dump it through the door and he and Kohaku could carry it to the bathroom. Yeah, that would work well enough.

#shay writes #wip wednesday #i just added like 850 words to this in 25 minutes in a state of delirium.#anyway you probably saw me on my main go a little insane in your notes #i'm a historical lighthouse keeper so uhm. you can imagine why i'm so invested in this #it needs to be edited so bad but waiting til i have a nice base for the first 'chapter' or section before i do that #this is almost certainly not gonna be the final product at all but i wanted to do wip wednesday for the first time in like a month.#i could go on about lighthouse keeping... kohaku is there since you never have just one person at a lighthouse #and we r just making him assistant and whatnot. incorporating part of actual practices into this #but yeah its mostly so someone can always be manning the light especially during storms #or when the head keeper has to go back to the mainland for shit like groceries #they can also have any number of assistants. i think the one i work for had like 3 at one point?#even though its not even an isolated lighthouse its on the mainland.#anyway this makes me want to gnaw on things and i wanted to get smth out #since i bullied atropos into telling you i was working on it <- JOKE. i joked that they should and then they did #but anyway. i've rambled enough i should maybe do anything else.#i have the yapper job for a reason it seems......

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kyouka-supremacy · 1 year

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Btw today is a month since this blog was shadowbanned 🥳🥳

#Uhm.#I don't have words #Anyways I was suspending the queue thinking the shadowban would be temporary (and exams)#but given it clearly isn't. temporary. and I have stuff to post / reblog I will probably resume it with February #(Well. not tomorrow because of the episode or the second because of the chapter–#but unless sskk goes canon or something the third shall be it)#Also because like. I miss sskk and there's too many sskk posts going from June it'd be too bad not to post #I'm mostly sorry for the Akutagawa side blog tbh? Like with this blog I kinda came to terms with the accomodation of keeping it reblogs–#focused and the other original posts centered.#Despite the initial trauma it isn't even that bad because before my original posts kept getting lost in reblogs so it's a nice solution!#(Wow I just realized. After all the pain I went through when this blog was first blocked‚ the last stage of grief really IS acceptance)#But the Akutagawa blog got shadowbanned like one week after creation and although I love running it and looking for pics.#Idk I wish it got a little more traction before disappearing to the void #But there's little I can do I guess. Trust me when I tell you I tried anything I can do– well‚ besides messaging staff every day #But how could I ever do that 😞#I feel my mental state deteriorating day after day and it's always harder to do things during the day #but it's okay tomorrow is Wungo Wednesday and that's sure to fix me <33 #random rambles

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daisychainsandbowties · 1 year

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Soooooo excited for chapter 4 of star wars au. Are you gonna hit us with 40k again?

at the moment what i have planned for this chapter feels like it’ll take me about 20k to cover. it’s all from beatrice’s perspective - a little bit about love as a slowly-mending bone. a little bit about surviving in a very dark place.

with the lilith scenes i’ll be putting up (separately, for that sweet sweet e rating) this whole ‘section’ of luminous beings will probably end up closer to 30k.

i am as ever very grateful for every person who has given LB so much love 🥰

#wn star wars au #ty for the ask!#i’m trying to keep the chapters shorter so they can happen more often!#seriously burned out after the last one (in a good way) so it took me a while to even approach ch 4 #but yeah gonna toss out the first lilith scene this weekend #mostly they’ll be snapshots of their time on the station #also just extremely self-indulgent smut

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lollitree · 1 year

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is liros story a nuzlocke or regfular story?

will it also just be the exact same story of xy or?

It's just a regular story, though Liro's team and some battles will be based on my actual playthrough of the game! (I did consider a nuzlocke, but they're too limiting in what story you can tell with them)

And it wont be the exact same! I want to change some things around that'd make the plot make more sense to me and add a bit more to it! (and just in general focus on developing the characters more)

It'll start branching off more at the end of this first chaptery thing (I'm very excited for it)

#I felt very strongly when I started that the beginning needs to remain as similar as possible so I can point things out later #after the first chapter I'm going to start focusing on more original stuff but it'll still follow the same path #I mostly just want to prove to myself that the plot doesn't need to change much to make sense and be impactful #also by some battles I mean I only started writing down things properly about my playthrough halfway through hah #it took me a while to properly commit to actually making a comic #so for the beginning I was mostly just taking rough notes of what was happening #then after meeting sycamore I began recording all the important dialogue #and then towards the end I was writing down EVERYTHING including some reactions -I- had to things in case I wanted to play off of it later #I am so serious about trying to give XY's story a fair shot I've done so much research and even then I feel like I haven't done enough #XYLiro

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petrichorium · 10 months

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Happy anniversary of the time I wrote 20k words in a week and got ghosted by the artist who was supposed to make art for the fic lol

#it’s been a year I can be bitter now right #for a SINGLE DAD BAKUGO FIC r u kidding I should have had artists lining up to make the art and instead I get shafted #I don’t fully blame the Big Bang staff. I think it could’ve been handled better but it’s mostly on the artist #but wow that rlly happened huh LMFAOOOOOO #shoutout to Shay for being the most supportive friend through all that truly #I got to live vicariously through her assigned artist who was amazing && also she drew me some stuff that was adorable 🥺#if anyone wants to know why sleeping is taking so long to write it’s bc I was fueled by spite and a deadline for the first chapter and now #I am just. kinda bitter and sad abt the rest #which sucks bc I love the fic I rlly do #hopefully I can get over it bc it’s silly to let something like that ruin the fic entirely #SO insane tho. the way I was the only one who made the cut and didn’t get art too #not even bc I didn’t get picked but bc my artist was a sham. nice. love that truly #the staff was okay. I’m not gonna pretend I felt supported but I get that it’s a complicated and stressful event #and it was a difficult situation bc my artist insisted they were working on stuff. never got an official ‘sorry I’m dropping out’ message #so I get it. but I’m also still pissed :) abt the whole situation not. at any singular member or staff or anything #mostly at the artist #but again could have been handled better fr

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gribblehusband · 5 months

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just wondering and take all the time you need but do you have any plans for taking dotf off of hiatus or is it going to stay on the back burner for awhile? either way is completely fine i was just curious

its gonna be a hot second because im fixated back on undertale, so im picking back up on those fics that i started a few years back. for i am naught but a puppet bound to the whims of his adhd. HOWEVER i do have chapters 21-23 completely finished! ive been kind of considering, because it will likely be a while before i start posting again, if i should just drop the chapters i have finished now rather than wait until i finish chapter 30. because if i wait it will be a WHIIIIILE. unfortunately. not THAT long probably because dotf is easily my favorite thing ive ever written and i love it so much, but it will be a solid minute.

#asks #dotf #especially want to post 21-23 because the content in them…. idk i went crazy #i love vos’ pov hes so insane #and dont even get me started on the monster by lady gaga chapter #i listened to that song on repeat for HOURS #he ate my heart… he a-a-ate my heart #anyway let me know if you have any opinions on the matter it wont take a lot to convince me to post 21-23 #ill do the usual wednesday updates for three weeks if thats what you want #in the mean time. if you like undertale aus boy amd i writing shit for that #none of my undertale fics are as Wild as dotf though mostly because kaon and vos are off the shits always #but nemesis & nike’s first arc is a mix of a survival horror and a dating sim if thats your thing #not to hawk my other fics #im rambling now ive lowkey talked myself into posting 21-23 so if you want to stop me speak now or forever hold your peace #okay done rambling thank you for the ask i love to talk #if you couldnt tell

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devotedlystrangewizard · 6 months

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my thoughts on fire emblem will never be coherent because on one hand you have the nerd part of my brain who hates fire emblem three houses for every second it spends outside of traditional fire emblem gameplay flavours and on the other hand you have the gay idiot who just rewatched ferdinand & hubert's A+ support for the 5th time this year and also has about 280 hours put into fe3h

#'i dont really like 3h' i say starting yet another fucking playthrough #when 3h peaks it PEAKS ok. its just that im not a fan of p5r for the exact same reason. the Life aspect for ME takes away from the main draw #id like p5r more if it was mostly just dungeoncrawling with turnbased combat (i know this because i have and enjoy smtv)#and id like fe3h more if i could skip through the months with no repercussions. now that im chaining ng+#and yeah thats on me for wanting to make s rank everything byleth a reality. i know. i just get bored during the months #and also just the entire first act of the game because again. ive played through it so many times #theres a reason i appreciate fates having the option to just skip to the part where the path diverges on subsequent playthroughs #im so tired of tutorials...#'wow byleth have you considered standing in the trees' WHEN THIS GAME RELEASED I WAS 15 ISH AND AT THAT POINT I HAD ALREADY BEEN STANDING IN #FIRE EMBLEM TREES FOR AT LEAST 2 YEARS. ID BEEN AWARE OF THIS MECHANIC FOR 3 OR 4 #I GOT MY FIRST FIRE EMBLEM GAMES WHEN SHADOWS OF VALENTIA DROPPED STOP TRYING TO TEACH ME OLD SHIT WAHHHHH #i am once again asking for separate toggles for general fire emblem gameplay tutorials and gmae-specific tutorials #also bring back having harder modes skip tutorialization entirely #i dont even mind playing the prologue or the first few chapters that much i just hate the constant interruptions #only for jeralt to tell me that i can stand. in the fucking forest.#fe3h blew up the franchise. ok. i get the tutorial is necessary for newer players because fire emblem can get really confusing #especially when youre new #but pleas.e... separate toggles... let me turn off gameplay hints including the forced tutorial in the prologue..... im begigng

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tamaharu · 2 years

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urrragh yoocroft clutches my head. i dont put a lot of stock into the presented timeline of events that happened in rounds one and two - so much happens, especially in round two, that it never really feels like sing-shong was attempting to lay out a clear timeline anyways - but ouuugh. like at the point of annas betrayal, yjh has likely already lost his kid at this point, and iirc in the birthday side story, nmy has literally JUST died in the 45th scenario. so hes already dealing with all that, and he comes back and nigh immediately gets betrayed by anna? insane. he is absolutely going through it.

and. idk on annas end, this might partially be a reaction to yjh dying in the first round, and failing. and if she doesnt remember the 0th round, there might be some degree of anger that he can come back after he failed like that. well, if he wants to save the world so bad, she may as well use him to save the world, whether he likes her methods or not.

#in my specific hc for his first death (to the paradise tree) itd be interesting.#bc anna is someone who wants to save the world and the people in it‚ but shes never been someone nearly as noble as yjh about it.#so depending on how the paradise tree would go it might be both a reaction to his failure‚ and a reaction to his seeming unwillingness to #do whatever it takes to save the world‚ even if it requires sacrifice of innocents or companions. so the 2nd round might also be a #demonstration of 'look‚ its better to use every mean you have to get to the end of the world‚ even if it hurts people.'#'here‚ yoo joonghyuk. youre hurting‚ youre alone‚ and you trust me. but none of that matters if i can reach a satisfying end.'#idk i havent really hit a ton of anna-heavy chapters in my reread yet. mostly just the constellation banquet methinks?#i GOTTA study her when i get to her heavier parts.

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emelkae · 2 years

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Gonna gush about my own writing for a sec, don't mind me

#aaahhh i had such a good writing session and i havent for a long time so I'll just rejoice in the tags #after some adjustments my first chapter calls to mind a few nasty things that happened at the end of book 1 but it's mostly fine #but chapter two!!#chapter two is rougher because of what happens during the inciting incident #turns out Sharpe has just been parroting stuff his abuser told him and he doesn't have the self awareness to realize #meanwhile some sweet dialogue from chapter one becomes sinister in chapter two and Sharpe doesn't even know that but the reader does #so many parallels being set up #I'm just really happy haha #me.

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cornbeefcycles · 2 years

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the thing im most excited for when chapters 3-5 drop is actually being able to experience a toby fox game without any prior spoilers whatsoever

#deltarune #i mean technically i didnt have spoilers for deltarune chapter 1 but thats mostly because i was too busy descending into anime to notice #chapter 1 coming out in the first place lmao #i mean i knew it came out bc my friend told me but like i did not pay attention at all #and then chapter 2 came out and i watched my friend play the end of chapter 2 bc i didnt think id get sucked back into this fandom #and therefore did not care about spoilers #but oh boy was i wrong #i only managed to play undertale for the first time in 2022 despite me being super into the aus and stuff back in 2016 #and prior to even playing i was watching a lot of speedruns so i knew what the fuck was going on in the game #still loved everything ofc but like. the experience of playing it on your own for the first time mustve been so amazing and #i want to experience the same thing too #so i hope i can set aside a couple of days to play through the chapters so i wont drive myself too insane on the social media blackout

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the-dragonlich · 2 years

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There is a book I am desperately trying to think of and I am so pissed I forgot both the name and the author because it was one of the books that I read that left a genuine impress on me as a kid

#ramblings #I’m not exactly sure if I could say what sort of impact it had on me but I do feel it was of the things that shaped #me in some way or another #both because it was a out of my ordinary anthropomorphic animal books #and in general was just one of the very few contemporary books I read because I mostly stuck to fantasy #I’m not sure if I’m ever actually going to find it again because the records of me ordering it from the library lost on me at this point #it was like at least 7 years ago so not surprising #I really wish I had the focus to fucking read anymore in general #I fucking loved reading so much as a kid but now I can barely bring myself to finish a page even though I am interested in the premise #is it just ADHD bs and even though I’m interested I’m not interested enough to give the brain enough dopamine #I really need to get medicated maybe then I could start doing at least a chapter a day and ease myself into it #like when I first started reading big chapter books as a little kid #maybe I should try reading the Reckless series again because looking back on it that series was likely aimed at adults #and little 12 year old me got a hold of it because it was in the fantasy genre #where was going with this?#⬅️ bitch who is unmedicated

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james-stark-the-writer · 2 years

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I love being insane and rambling/loredumping for over an hour in a voice note about a niche thing in the lore/world of my nonexistent book that will probably never come up and is probably not important to the story at all that I know of because I haven't really started writing it yet besides two chapters and some snippets that were like a few years ago because I cannot be bothered to do research for a different WIP that is not even past the basic stages (the real inciting incident hasn't even happened) bc it's not a current priority before finishing the first draft that I have been working on for the last four years or the first draft of the other WIP I've been working on since the year two thousand and sixteen.

#just writer things #truly hate my brain sometimes like why am I getting trivia for a book I have barely written like 2 #20K* words for like I haven't even opened the doc for it in like 8 months and I haven't actually added anything for over 2 years now so.#I don't even have any particular plans to get to it until I at least finish the 2 WIPs I'm working on rn—#which includes one I've been writing the first draft for since 2018 and a basically done first draft of a WIP from like 2016 #both are missing the 3rd act bc I suck at writing cliamxes + my writing style for either books isn't suited for that so it'll take a while #like the 2016 one is at 120K words and literally only needs 1 more chapter and an epilogue so maybe like 20K more words.#there's supposed to be a big climactic battle which intersects the stories of approximately 25 named characters until the actual climax #which is another battle but more small scale but also more epic bc it's personal and magical #and I've literally already written the second battle but the buildup to the first fight is hard and so is the actual battle #then there's the WIP that's haunted me for the last 4ish years which is at 160K of an expected 200-220K and is entirely missing the 3rd act #like I have some stuff written and I did plan a structure for a bunch of the main plot stuff bc the book takes place over a strict timeline #but like the actual climax is mostly missing like I have the ending written. the ending is fully done.#I've had it written and planned for a WHILE bc it's supposed to lead into a future story and it has to happen this way #but idk how to get there just yet with a cast of almost 50 named characters to keep track of and 6 'main' plots although it's really 3 #like it's a lot to balance bc I prefer writing with larger casts and just getting things done is so hard #bc I physically can't do 'write later' to stuff bc those are some of the most important interactions to me and idk how characters act if—#I don't have those written precisely. it's sort of a story about the effects of the mundane. I literally can't 'write details later' this.#and in the middle of this nightmare — a 4 month writing drought — my brain in like 'here's a bunch of shit about a third story'#god sometimes I simply hate my brain #anyway yeah lol #truly just writer things #owad #anyway guess this is me sort of pivoting back to vomiting about writing on this blog #writbelr #writblr #james rambles #James yells in the tags

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trench2018 · 2 months

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need to eat lunch 🫡 and shower 🫡 and then it's black butler time 🫡

#im so excited......#and also a bit disappointed in myself cause back in december i told myself i'd be caught up with the manga #by the time the new season started . but in typical me fashion i did not get further than the first five chapters😭😭#whatever !!!!!!!!!! that was mostly just so i didn't feel like a fake fan #like i've been into this anime since i was 10 and you're telling me i haven't read even the first volume of the manga🙄🙄🙄#but who gives a fuck really. i don't ♥️#txt

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ariaste · 9 days

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So listen i have this book coming out in uhhh 10 days and I am Worried about it, because it is a Comedy, and comedy is really hard to market (why????? it's funny pirates, what's not to like??) even when it is, yanno, normal mainstream comedy.

It is even worse when it is Unhinged Comedy That's Mostly Going To Be Funny To People On Tumblr. (For example, the main character being a supreme gremlin made of 90% memes by weight (examples: carries around a bag that is never called anything but his "little rucksack"; has a near-verbatim "stick me legy out real far" moment; talks about his metaphorical "orphan gruel bowl" which is a direct reference to that one Oliver Twist gif) because those are funny to me personally.) Unhinged Tumblr Comedy is difficult because tumblr is not a platform where it is easy to market things to people, because we are generally violently anti-capitalist and LOATHE advertisements and reflexively resist being marketed to for most anything. I LOVE that about this website. Except for right now, because I have bills to pay and a cat to feed. So look, fellow tumblr gremlins, I am just trying to say that if your personal brand of comedy is laughing at the kind of jokes that could only be produced on this hell website, and:

you like pirates

you're queer and want to read more books by queer authors

you want your fictional queer characters to be a hell of a lot more Messy and Unhinged than they often are depicted as being

you're interested in seeing a love triangle (M/M/NB) that resolves into polyamory

you want books where the hottest character gets to makes Passionate Speeches about rebelling against oppressive institutional regimes like governments and organized religions

you believe that capitalism is the most oppressive institutional regime of them all

you think it's fun when two characters have been in a 15-year-long relationship where the vibes have been "We're Newly Divorced" nearly since day one

you believe that All Cops Are Bastards and want to know what to do when you get pulled over by the boat cops

you think the Great British Bake-Off would be improved with weaponry, ritualized bribery/coercion of judges, and elaborate shit-talk

then this book might be for you. Beneath the wall-to-wall hijinks, it is political and it is righteously angry and it is the funniest thing I have ever written (which is saying something, because I have written some funny shit). It's called RUNNING CLOSE TO THE WIND. Here's a picture of it.

If all that sounds cool, you can read a review of it here and the first chapter of it here to see if it as funny as I am claiming it is, and then if you think that it is, you can preorder it here. It comes out on June 11! Ten days from now!

Thank you for letting me market to you for a minute. Signal boosting would be very much appreciated.

#alexandra rowland #comedy #books #booklr #pirates

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