#so i barely got to freak out

[panye]

HELLO I AM QUITE LITERALLY UNWELL

#SHIALL #HELP #omg i was helping a friend move today #so i barely got to freak out #and now it’s hitting me at 1 am #NIALL AND SHAWN ON STAGE??????

[money-and-dandellions]

Apollo has seizures every time a prophecy is spoken so it is painful

and when the Oracles are established, they do not go away, just become less painful

#leto and artemis would freak out so much the first few times because they simply don't know what is happening #like imagine a small apollo who is barely healed after python having seizures (because the oracle got claimed by him) and he also doesn't #doesn't understand what is happening and his eyes just start to glow and smoke and stuff and there is some sort of a prophecy #a small one like 'its goibg to rain tomorrow a lot so be mindful' (because i refuse to make him say something huge for the 1st time he is #is just a baby and his family is also stressed there is no way i am making him say something big #and he passes out (as expected) and then wakes up to artemis (shhhh no one saw a thing #a thing that didn't happen nuh uh) sleeping near him with theor legs tangled #and leto is also near #and then it happoa few more times so they learn to recognise the symptoms #leto #apollo #artemis #headcanon

[turtleblogatlast]

Huge missed opportunity to have more teleportation hijinks with Mayhem and Leo tbh

Could have so easily been made into a great April & Leo episode 😭

#rottmnt #rottmnt leo #rottmnt april #rottmnt mayhem #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #and if another of the boys needs to be there as well then I personally would love it to be Mikey but I could see arguments otherwise #I just love the Gumbus dynamic too much lol #anyway yeah god I need more one on one April and Leo interactions rather than the Barely Any we got in the show #and Mayhem deserves more screentime!😤 #if it’s not just an April and Leo bonding ep and one of the other boys is included then- #could easily incorporate Mikey’s mystic abilities briefly overloading and causing a nearby Leo and Mayhem’s teleportation to freak out #thereby teleporting everyone to an alien planet WHOOPS #for Donnie I could see him desperately trying to scientifically explain teleportation as an amused April and Leo proclaim that it’s magic #for Raph I can see him trying so hard the whole ep to pet Mayhem and failing every time #bonus points for all of this if Leo figures out how to more easily straight up teleport rather than just make portals or go between swords

[moonpaw]

given the size is bigger than a normal sized human but probably too small for a giant, do you think with the pop up mentions of the lunarian's and the fact that king knew about joyboy, that joyboy was originally a lunarian?

i know with the vague silhouette we got (if we can accurately go on it) that there were no wings visible, but there's been a small little detail in skypiea that i've noticed that all the gods (ubau, enel, gan fall) did not have wings, at least at the time where we meet them

i don't believe this is ever explained by oda? but still, it makes me wonder! it can't be that all three known gods just coincidentally not have wings, do they remove them after claiming their title? did bilka have a similar custom and that's why enel had them removed by the time we see him take over skypiea? or did he already know skypiean custom and removed since he had a massive god complex?

the shandians, at the very least have some sort of connection one way or another due to the poneglyph, they were entrusted with it after all so there's the connection at least that they must've met joyboy at some point

#one piece #one piece spoilers #wano spoilers #im sorry its probably already been pointed out but im slow <3 #god i just finished rewatching skypiea yet again and went huh... gan fall doesnt have wings..... #i just. got so used to him #even though i kept questions why enel didnt have them #i guess its because gan fall isnt showing his bare back to the world like some freak #then i caught that the god from 400 years ago didnt have wing either so its like. #HMMM.... what's being said here

[derpinette]

girls being nice to me gets me higher than ecstasy ever could

#SORRY for the corny post but this is how i truly feel not waxing poetic here like literally it does #i just met the cool girl i keep talking about & IT WAS SÅ FREAKEING ÅSUM ^_^_^_^_^_^ YAY #HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY HAPPY HAPPY JOY #OK sorry for screaming But i really am very excited... #turns out she is autistic & we discussed our neuroses while eating & ugh she is just as cool as i thought she was #always tell people you think have Swag that you noticed it on them see how it worked for me #i was so scared of spilling my spaghettis but turns out that was exactly what i needed to do to be friends ^_^ YAY #we went to a lot of different libraries together & i got a small old eyeless bunny plush from the event we went to caus i felt bad for it #i even showed her my pony art & i told her about my cringe interest (that music event i like...♯RealOnesKnow ) #& she thought it was COOL.& i felt like it was really genuine & she talked about reading BL LOL we discussed fujos together #we even talked about finding moids ugly #it was so awesome she was so cool & Nice To Me... i feel like i am on CUMULONIMBUS ( cloud 9 ) ^_^_^_^_^_^ #talking to her in person was so much better than online OMG now i wish i really was friends with you muties IRL #i wish you a Girl Friend experience just like this to those who post about wanting them i really do #also the reason why i even like my Music Event so much is because the first time i watched it was with a bunch of women #& i had so much fun & they were so nice to me i keep returning & now that Event means so much to me & I LOVE IT sorry (NOT) #i know this sounds like tumblrina fiction i would not believe it either IDK what to say to make it sound legitimate 0_0 like it is so crazy #to me as well IDK i can barely get over it & IDK if i really want to so um well YAY ^_^ AIMU SO HEPI :DDD

[dreamlogic]

2024 year of charlie gets a fucking break (hopefully. maybe. tbd.)

#ctxt #i'm on medication that's reduced my post-hysterectomy pain by about 70% #i have an intake appointment with a physical therapist in march & a referral to start trigger point injections #to hopefully finally recover as completely as possible from the nightmarish neuropathy that's plagued me since uuuhhhh #going on 2 years ago. holy shit. genuinely can't believe i've been surviving & functioning as well as i have for this long #while suffering a disabling & extremely painful surgical complication. fuck my original surgeon for brushing me off during that time #but the new provider i'm working with is so responsive & thorough in her approach & seems genuinely committed #to helping me finally get relief after all this time. she listens to my feedback & is flexible in her approach #and her assistant is a great communicator who's been handling most of the logistics of care coordination for me #and what a huge fucking relief that is. to not have to drag my doctors kicking & screaming towards maybe treating me eventually #i wanna cry. i finally feel like i'm being taken seriously and cared for. and i'm not BETTER yet (might never be the same as i was pre-op) #but i actually feel optimistic for the first time in over a year that i won't just have to deal with this agonizing pain on my own forever #i might actually see enough improvement that i can start to get back to living my life instead of just surviving it #money is tighter than it's been since i got laid off during early pandemic and that's stressing me out #but i promised myself that i would put my health first in 2024 and that means only working the bare minimum needed to pay my bills for now #genuinely i so fucking needed a break. i felt like i was trying to swim through a meat grinder last year #and it wasn't until i ended up in the ER about it that i finally was able to take my own pain seriously enough #to put my foot down & make some necessary changes that are now letting me focus on Getting Well With Myself at last #in hindsight it's like. really freaking me out how thoroughly i was able to compartmentalize & dissociate from how miserable i was #bc nobody who had the ability to help me would take me seriously & my shitty boss was like. extremely textbook emotionally abusive #and on one hand that was a survival mechanism that kept me on my feet during one of the worst times of my life. so props to myself there #but it was also very maladaptive how long & unnecessarily it went on before i snapped out of it & escalated things for my own safety #it was the same helpless frustration i often felt as a kid of like 'well nobody is on my side but me so i gotta suck it up & help myself' #and i think the family trauma shit that was going on last year definitely contributed to that. idk sense of doubling across time? #and things had to get Extremely Bad before they were bad enough for me to realize that although i felt like it #i am no longer an isolated & parentified island of a child who is beholden to the whims of ignorant & indifferent adults #i actually can and should take action to advocate for myself bc i am an adult and i CAN now change my circumstances as needed #instead of just enduring them as if i'm stuck there with no agency or chance to change things #and i have a really solid support system who helped me feel like it was possible to stand up for myself to get the help i desperately need #chronic blogging

[smile-files]

literally me

#melonposting #spoof #it's so funny. i got a therapist specifically to talk about gender stuff but i've been so busy with school i've barely talked about it #i'm always like 'i have fifty million things to do and i'm freaking out' and he's like 'you can do it :)' and i'm like 'if you say so' #<- gross oversimplification #anyway yes i stole this screenshot from a post i just liked. sorry #i know i'm genderqueer. i do have a connection to my girlness but i'm certainly not wholly a girl #i'm girl-adjacent at most and i've felt that for a long while now #but in terms of what gender i am? i just haven't had the time to think about it :'D #maybe when i stop worrying about literally everything else i'll take a moment for it (spoiler: that'll never happen!)

[lanshappycorner]

im gonna meet my new roommate this weekend........i hope that they r normal

(ramble in the tags)

#for context last yr (or this yr . but last school yr) i had the most insane roommate #she was like an insane clean freak and she was also really loud and kept moving my stuff and I SUSPECT she even stole smth but idk #she also lied to me a lot and attempted to gaslight me to turn me on our other housemates . she made me cry multiple times </3 #i lived in an apt of 5 ppl and everyone all hated her but i shared a room with her. and the thing is that they all liked Me but not Her #so whenever there were arguments id end up having to be the middle ground like even when i went home for summer vacation #i was called over on the phone to solve household disputes bc yknow she only listened to me and i was the only person capable of not- #-like blowing up on her bc she'd say some pretty unreasonable things sometimes and my other housemates r all pretty hotheaded #(my roomie included) but i . i do not get angry like ever so im able to calmly deal with things #when i tell you i do not get angry ever im so srs i know i say shit on here but my housemates have never seen me angry even once in 2 yrs #but anyways sometimes my housemates take me out for drinks and theyre like are u sure ur okay lan how do u live with her 💀💀 #anyways yeah last yr was a shitshow i hope my roommate this yr is normal like just the bare minimum is fine #ive only ever had insane roommates like my first roommate was a party animal and shed come home drunk at like 4 am #there was even a pregnancy scare once but anyways at least i got along with her rly well #i miss her actually :((( #my second roommate tho. she scares me

[floral-hex]

Somehow one of my old high school notebooks ended up at goodwill and not only did someone buy it, but they found my phone number and texted me 😬😬😬 which is… not cool, but also they turned out to be nice, so whatever, I guess

#I got this and started kinda freaking out because I had no idea what was in it #and how do people keep finding my phone number??? #damn I kinda hate this digital world #anyway I figured out that one of my trash bags got mixed in with my goodwill donations a couple of weeks back #and some goodwill worker actually looked through all the trash and thought ‘yeah someone will buy this old used notebook’ #anyway they sent me a pic of a couple of pages and I’m prettttty sure it’s all just dumb highschool stuff for tv broadcasting #but they were nice and it made me feel nostalgic to briefly talk about it with someone so I can’t be too mad #I mean… I dunno #maybe it’s some bored teenager and they find this weird notebook and want to know more about it #not that there’s anything too wild in there #really I vaguely remember flipping through it before tossing it and I don’t remember anything eye catching #if it had anything I really thought was important I probably would have kept it #and it’s about 15 years old so I’m of the mind that it’s aged past my need to worry what’s in it #eventually you get old enough that the stuff you did in your teens feels like someone else’s bullshit #like… 15 years on I’m barely the same person #whatever is embarrassing in there is embarrassing for teen Ian not current Ian #but wow… I really hope they didn’t pay for that #or that they at least got a few laughs out of it #that would actually make up for finding my number #if someone else can even briefly enjoy some of my old dumb stuff then that’s pretty cool #but also… how’d they get my fucking number!? #bleghhhh #for a second I hoped it was one of my old poetry books. #I would love to get one of those back #I used to have so many notebooks of my poetry #but ya know dumb teen-to-twenties Ian had to get all moody and trash them #well… that’s life I guess #ok anyway sorry to bother you #mine #text

[arowrath]

i washed my old binder from when i was like 15 last night and its way too big for me like i barely binds at all but wearing it with a sports bra under is like. not a lot of compression but it makes me feel better. and i havent noticed any pain so. 👍

#text #its like. falling apart tho. like disintegrating. its kinda cool #but it works so #i have been getting incredibly anxious wearing binders tho since i got hurt which is cool #like rven if theres no pain. idk why #and its like barely compressing so im trying to likr. keep myself calm. so once im totally done with my rib pain era i wont freak out when #i wear my tighter binders. idk. anyway good morning

[makkie-is-screaming]

think I’m gonna have to try and recover from my ed because I haven’t had my period since the first week of December and googling amenorrhea is scaring the shit out of me

#But there’s no one I can tell so I’m just gonna have to do this myself which is terrifying #but being forced to recover if I decide to quit is scarier #this is gonna be really fucking hard and I’m scared but I can’t keep going the way I am #I need help but there’s no one #can’t tell d bc we barely started talking again n we’re not close #can’t tell Q bc I’m scared she’ll leave me n it’s not her responsibility either way #Can’t tell my sister or cousin bc I don’t want to scare/trigger them n they’re too young to be responsible for this #can’t tell my brothers bc ones 10 and the others a dickhead #can’t tell my parents bc they’ll either freak out and micromanage everything I eat as long as I live with them #or invalidate me and ignore it #I wish I could tell Q though I’m so scared and stressed and I think even just taking to her in the phone about it would help #But she’s already dealt with so much if my shit and last time my ed got bad she kinda ignored me #I mean she tried at first but then got distracted by her bf n yeah… #Screaming

[derpycatsu]

im so glad there are other people out there who hate the feel and texture of velvet because everyone that ive ever talked to in person loves it and i have to look at them and continue the conversation and pretend that im not about to blow up

#is it an autistic thing like #i will look at or barely touch velvet and freak out #i start gagging and i start to curl up like ITS BAD I HAVE SUCH A STRONG REACTION TO IT #that and foam(?) i had to put a cover back on one of our couch cushions and i literally got a headache from having to touch it so much #i genuinely felt sick afterwards #do you guys have any textures that feel like the worst thing known to man #felix post

[beanmochiii]

omari au but also everyone lives

#think abt this au a lot #what happens is mari pushes sunny instead of sunny pushing her #and for a second mari consideres hiding the evidance but is like wait no i need to call for help. this is my little brother #she considers hiding him btw cuz she is obsessed with keeping the idea that she is perfect alive #basil still sees the whole thing but because this is perfect mari doing something wrong hes too scared to go into the room #and he goes to hero and is like i think something happened in sunny and maris house i think they need help #hero goes and calls the ambulence #mari lies and says that sunny tripped #sunny lives but is in a coma #later when hero is updating everyone on the sitch basil hears the lie #and decides to comfront mari #she freaks out when she finds out he knows and half threatens basil to not tell anyone #basil is rlly freaked out cuz he barely knows wtf is going on #eventually basil tells either hero or aubrey in a breakdown that ‘shes lying why is she lying?! why did she yell at me?? how dare she take #sunny from us #n thats all i got so far #hoping to draw more of this au too #omari au #tw blood #omori #omori mari #omori hero #omori sunny #my art #omori spoilers #forgot to tag that…. does it even apply… idk

[coldshrugs]

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#my cat has barely eaten anything for 2 weeks and we finally got an answer from the vet (on the second visit) that she has a GI obstruction #now she has to have emergency surgery #i am. freaking out #she's so weak and has lost so much weight. and we have no idea how much this will cost #so uh. that's been my week. #this time of year is always somehow the worst for me. thanksgiving week is just. a blight in my life T^T #i'll share a daphne update when we know more