#so u don’t miss what’s happening

[prettyboysmlm]

markiplier saves the day once again

#i was watching a nexpo video #and decided to scroll thru the recommended videos #which on mobile you can just swipe up and it’ll show all the thumbnails and they’ll cover the video #so u don’t miss what’s happening #well #i was doing that #and then the video started talking abt jeff the killer #and it showed that one image (u know the one and if u don’t don’t look it up) #and LUCKILY #a markiplier video was covering most of it so i didn’t see it #which is good! bc that image gives me nightmares every time i see it #i also think it was the scarier version of the original #which i hate even more #idk but the way his eyes look. and his mouth. #even think abt it puts me on edge #i hate it so fucking much #anyways #i was enjoying the nexpo video but decided to switch to markiplier to save my sanity and the sleep i’ll get tonight #that was fun #k.txt

[twinstxrs]

the gorgug-porter conversation is interesting to me because like. yea for the overwhelming majority of the conversation porter’s being shitty & trying to fit gorgug into a box that gorgug just does not fit into by trying to make gorgug’s relationship with his rage more focused on the aggression aspect of it. but then there’s also this specific thing that brennan brought up again in the ap, which is that gorgug’s relationship with his rage is wholly “this is a tool i use to protect my friends.” which isn’t a bad thing! but that’s his Whole relationship with it, & gorgug seems to place next to no value on his rage in relationship to himself. which is problematic, because it’s first & foremost his rage.

being raised in a household with a sort of toxic positivity largely meant that, whether or not it was his parents’ intention, gorgug internalized the message that more traditionally “negative” emotions such as anger are the wrong response to something. part of the reason he prioritizes his artificing is probably because it’s “fixing” things. in comparison to being a barbarian, which gorgug associates with “breaking” things. good vs. bad behavior, in his eyes.

it’s a totally unacceptable bar to measure a 16 y/o by, but i do think part of porter’s reasoning for not letting gorgug multiclass is him recognizing that gorgug generally does not value anger as a valid emotional response to something, at the very least for himself. & that directly conflicts with what being a barbarian is, because whether you like it or not, that rage is what fuels you. but again, barring a kid from pursuing something they deeply care about in part (not entirely, porter has a lot of more bullshit reasons) because of their fundamental values & world outlook is crazy.

so yes, 98% of porter’s reasoning is pretty shitty, immature, rife with a toxic view that there’s only one proper way to access rage, & generally not a good thing to do as a teacher, but also within that reasoning is the 2% of ‘there is a fundamental part of yourself that you only value if you can use it to take care of other people & you need to accept that as something that can take care of you, too.’ but that’s something to discuss with a therapist or a guidance counselor, not something that should hugely impact gorgug’s academic future.

#gorgug thistlespring #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #btw these r just my personal opinions u r 100% free to disagree #gorgug & his rage interest me so deeply because of how deeply that rage existing seems to be against gorgug’s own will #like mechanically classes are choices & you can switch stuff around any time. but gorgug as a barbarian always felt like an unwilling choice #like that 14 y/o kid did not want to have rage. & that really interests me. #i’ve seen people before be like ‘what if gorgug dropped barbarian & went full srtificer’ but i feel like that simply can’t happen?? #mechanically yea sure but it always felt like a core part of gorgug that the rage will always be there & it’s a matter of how you channel it #idk. dnd classes narratively being treated as ‘you can not lose this part of you’ even though you technically can #gorgug could be lvl 19 artificer & he’d still have 1 level of barbarian. because that is part of who he is. #btw i don’t think porter truly cares about gorgug valuing his rage only as a way to be a human shield #i think porter just sees that as ‘wrong’ but like. not as in ‘you need to take care of yourself’ & more ‘you aren’t conforming’ #he thinks it’s wrong for the wrong reasons. the nastier ‘this is how you should be’ reasons #ppl being like ‘we r being too hard on porter. it’s an 150% courseload gorgug will be overwhelmed’ i think r missing the point bc like. #that is 100% a valid reason to not approve gorgug for multiclassing! but that’s also 100% not the reason porter rejected him. #that whole interaction was basically porter shoving his percieved version of conformity down gorgug’s throat. was v neurodivergent kid coded #no hate to anyone saying that last point btw these r all just opinions #thinking about last ep wilma & digby being like ‘you’re a great barbarian. you’re so great at it. but look at what you made!!!’ like. #they would never mean it like that. but when you only understand half of your son he is going to prioritize the half you do.

[teeth-draws]

Couldn’t sleep so sketched formal/ball!trouble from @shepherds-of-haven || view full size bc I don’t care to check ratios before I upload aaaa

#shepherds of haven #trouble alder #cog games #clochus is the demon I hate most of all because due to my stats I have to miss the ball and go with chase to avoid using a WOP #i would much rather be dancing n looking fine n you know maybe knocking over expensive things on purpose…! #this picture exists in a fantasy timeline where mc is not passed tf out and they find trouble somewhere after the party #he’s processing what just happened but also trying to figure out if his distaste for the grandeur of the party is something he can get over #we see how much party food we can ‘confiscate’ and have it distributed to the masses #thanks prihine!!! #so generous! #i know I don’t have any consistent art style right now like this was just a sudden sleep deprived need #and the hair…? teeth vs trouble’s hair vol. 39 #this party is the catalyst to shaving it into a mullet #torn between wanting to look hot and resenting conforming to the beauty standards of nobility #can you imagine him saving a bunch of nobles from a rabid demon and they look up towards their newfound hero and he’s sporting a mullet #look in his eyes like ‘I just saved your life I dare you to say something lol’ #love u trouble ur a g #+ honestly thinking about how he’s not just dense and gos with the most romance flags in the game #his low self-worth actually saves him from a lot of heartbreak considering more often than not mc DOESNT like him back in ‘that way’ #in favour of (often) his 2 best friends #BABES DW YOU HAVE FANS I PROMISE YOU #also do you think trouble weaponises puppy dog eyes or is he unaware of his most powerful weapon…

[starheirxero]

HAVE YOU SEEN THE NEW TSAMS EPISODE YET?!!!

Bloodmoon might be coming back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LITERALLY JUST WOKE UP AND THIS ASK SENT ME FLYING ACROSS THE ROOM OMG. WATCHED IT AND HOLY SHIT. I’M LIKE ?!?!!!!! IM GENUINELY SURPRISED HE’S COMING BACK ???? I WAS SO SURE BLOODMOON WAS GUNNA STAY DEAD THIS IS FASCINATING. ESPECIALLY RUIN’S IMPLICATION OF ALTERING THEM ???? WHAT IS HE GUNNA DO 2 THE BOYS……. IM VERY INTRIGUED

#asks #crack-a-lackin-max #honestly tho i rlly can’t stress how much i thought bloodmoon was going to Stay Dead????? #Like don’t get me wrong i am honestly terribly excited because i miss bloodmoon a LOAHT and if they return that means I can pick apart- #-their character more!!! #however to Me this is so out of left field that i’m also just like HUH AHDISNKDLC #i wonder if ruin is going 2 put bloodmoon thru the horrors tho…… #modify them 2 make them obedient is what ruin said. that is smth they have Never wanted to be and I can imagine that will be Maddening if- #-it works. but also like. this isn’t exactly a revival like it is with Lunar. Bloodmoon /died/ died. No nanobots left #A second version of being built. A new version is being built. It’s likely that the new Bloodmoon won’t have any memories #So can you imagine waking up with an insatiable urge to maim and kill and the one person you want to do it to has a failsafe to make sure- #-that you can’t do that and everyone around you seems to know you already and has a deep fear of hatred towards you? #wouldn’t that be more frustrating and confusing than the ever-present hunger? Wouldn’t that drive them a little insane? #sorry this probably won’t happen but could u imagine AHAHBSJABS #sun and moon show spoilers #tsams #bloodmoon #xero thoughts and rambles #bc of my tags LMAO

[lovefromkelly]

ok the past few years I’ve spent enough time around protestants (marrying pastors son) to confirm what I always knew: catholics are so much more chill than y’all fr

#catholic priests wanted to commit all those crimes but in return they made it so ‘ehhh nothings really that bad u can get forgiven easily’ #but protestants are like oh no demons are fr and witches were out of control in the 90s #I grew up only knowing Jewish people and catholic people so as a result I am BAFFLED by people #being like oh Catholics are so intense like mass is more formulaic yeah but you believe in the rapture happening rn! #and weed puts demons in u!! #literally have been doing an informal poll w Catholics in my life bc my husband didn’t believe me and they’ve all been like #yeah demons were not mentioned once wtf y’all think that was LITERAL??? #crazy shit!!!!!!!!!!! #anyway #I have GOT to talk to more Catholics again I miss us #thinking about this cause I read Marrying the Ketchups and realized how much I loved reading it written by a Catholic! #the narrative of Catholics being intense and protestants being chill is just bc they have acoustic guitar but guess what! #they have their songs memorized and we don’t!

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

Oh by the way. Life update cause I’ve said absolutely nothing recently

#the semester is kicking my ass (what’s new) #my next semester will not having marching band so it cannot be more miserable #i applied for a job I’ve wanted for ages and I have a great resume for it #I’m still very much in love with my ex #my therapist is not very useful at all. she’s an intern. she just wants me to vent and offers completely inane advice #it’s like. oh your financially dependent on your parents? get a job #ok man. 9$ an hour is not gonna pay my monthly rent of ~$575 #seriously this town has shit options for jobs it’s so bad #oooh. another favorite. I’ll tell her I really love my ex and she’s my best friend but there are times where I know I deeply need to get #over her. and my therapist is like. idk why u can even stand her. break your lease and cut her out of ur life #bitch????? did u miss the party where I said she’s my best friend whom i love very very much?? #or the. well why don’t you just tell your parents you don’t have to come home for Christmas and don’t #and it’s like. yes I want to visit for a few days I just wish the flights weren’t so busy. also the financial dependency would kick my ass #i get my adhd assessment results on the 18 #hopefully I will start antidepressants at least by my birthday in January #i still get along with our third roommate. that’s never happened!! ever!!! #she’s so great she’s awesome we love her so much #if she doesn’t resign this lease I will straight up die. I’m resigning it for her #she cleans?? it takes me so offguard every single time???? crazy. it’s great #i have not gotten to play a lot of games. hardly any at all #my beloved ex and I played a couple we were here games #those were super fun #i got drunk for the first time a couple weeks ago #took somewhere from 10-15 shots to do so. i think I started getting drunk at about 12 #went shot for shot with military man my landlord #king. he’s my favorite guy out here. his wife?? equally as great. they live right below us it’s kinda fun #my room is a hot mess. this week upcoming is finals. i hope I get a chance to deep clean #and oh god. do laundry. the laundry needs done so bad #anyways. that’s what’s new #soup talks

[pinkfey]

i don’t think i’m built to work with teachers in the school district 😔

#i’m autisming too hard today #like i cannot be librarian again after this job bc this one teacher can’t stand me and i don’t know what i’m doing wrong #she told the principal that i cut their library time short because i didn’t want to do story time?? when that isn’t what happened at all #the cutoff point is six minutes until the next class. if it takes her class that long to pick out books then there isnt time to read a story #because we’ll go overtime and the next class will have to wait!! #so i told her i don’t think we have time for a story today so if you’d like for them to keep reading that’s fine #and u can leave whenever you’d like !! #like hello ?? what am i missing !! what did i do wrong !! #the principal confronted me about it and i said i could tell the teacher was upset when i told her #and the principal said she gets upset about a lot of things 😟 so #idk i just. i can handle mean parents but i can’t deal with a mean coworker i just can’t #everyone else is nice to me but when i see her talking to them in the break room it reminds me of like. #the socializing i struggled with in school. i just can’t do it #like this on top of the abortion is just demolishing me today #anyways.txt

[ahalliance]

i don’t get how people can complain about the writing “doing Martha dirty” when that same writing gives her an ending that addresses her treatement over the course of the season, allows her to finally put her to foot down, to establish her self-worth as an individual and to air out her grievances, and gives her the most respectful and satisfying exit from the TARDIS we’d yet seen in the show . like it’s one thing to dislike the direction the writing team took with her arc and to criticise it (perfectly fine) and another to somehow miss it entirely lmao . the ‘martha feels out of place, second best, and like a rebound’ is an intentional piece of writing that gets resolved by the end of the season . like that wasn’t smth they threw in for shits and giggles, it had in-story repercussions

#and if u don’t think those repercussions were Enough then that’s totally cool and smth to start a discussion over #but . don’t act as if they didn’t happen lmao?? #i just . yells #like i have my own criticisms about the writing (giving the ‘i feel second best to this dude’s past love interest’ to the first POC #companion was . probably not the best of choices let’s be real #though there’s some leeway there as im assuming the character was written before audtions . but still . could have been reconsidered #idk i totally understand why people aren’t fans of the storyline itself (outside of how coherent the writing is) but i think it’s a shame #that many others just kinda seem to miss the point because it’s such a unique and interesting arc to give to a companion #i like fresh ideas!! i like the doctor Actually being portrayed at someone who is clumsy with relationships and emotional intimacy!! #i like it when his trauma spills over in ugly and complex ways like we see in season 3 in regards to his friendship with martha #and i like it even better when his accidentally cruel actions and mistakes get brought up and criticised by the narrative!! like it does in #the end of s3!! it’s so good!! #i enjoy 10 because he’s my favourite wet cat but also because he is allowed to fill up room like a real traumatised individual would #it’s like . okay i enjoy ‘ooo the doctor is the oncoming storm ooo he’s hurt and killed so many people ooo’ #but it’s also good to See the actual ramifications of that shit you know . hearing about his legend status is always fun but damn man #is it satisfying from a character analysis POV to see him hurt the people around him . to see him treat his friends poorly on accident #because of his own character flaws . like that’s GOOD #and it just sorta irks me sometimes bc people will have this smug attitude of ‘well MY blorbo isn’t a rude piece of shit and is actually a #paragon of morality’ and like girl i don’t give a shit . that’s fine in small doses but it’s not what’s compelling #people tend to like interacting with ‘angsty traumatised edgy characters’ if their edginess is contained in a nice little box that doesn’t #overspill . fuck no give me the characters that are loud and ugly and unpleasant about their trauma THAT’S THE REAL SHIT #jay rambles #dw.txt #10.txt #marthaj.txt #sometimes u wanna treat the blorbo from your show like a real person sure but sometimes it is better to remember that they are fictional #and there to be considered as part of a bigger story and as an item to analyse . case in poiny #point #maybe i shouldn’t be surprised by this though since people still get hung up over rose quartz

[teruthecreator]

trying so hard to be normal but i really don’t think i could survive going to the psych ward and i’m rlly like. bothered my siblings are pushing it so hard

#in neg city #they were rlly like ‘we can’t force you’ but then just kept fucking talking about it #even as i’m crying and saying no no i don’t want to go i’m not going i really don’t want to #and like. idk. when ur sister gets sent to the psych ward at a pivotal point in ur childhood #and that subsequent action adds onto the trauma u were already experiencing at that point like idk man! maybe going to the psych ward would #in fact be very very bad!!! #like any time i think abt the psych ward i think abt my sister one day just disappearing from the house. i think about when the doctors #withheld my letters and i thought my sister either hated me or was fucking dead. i think about having to hide all this agony behind polite #smiles while i was also being bullied mercilessly at school and my CHOIR TEACHER WAS DYING OF CANCER #i think abt the car ride when my aunt told me and my brother that she had to go back in #i think of empty houses and missing places at the dinner table and arguments and so many fucking arguments #i cant go into the psych ward i won’t. and it just felt like that’s all they wanted me to do #and then it became well michelle how do u want us to help u? LEAVE ME ALONE #THATS HOW U HELP. YOU LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME FIGURE IT OUT #i get rlly overwhelmed and stressed when too many people are trying to butt their heads in #and i know they mean well but it just feels like they’re both gonna become mom and i’m not talking to mom for THIS EXACT REASON #idk i just don’t think they can help. i get that they’re rlly worried but i can’t let them help i don’t know what they could do #and they wanna talk about this again tomorrow so now i don’t wanna sleep bc i don’t want tomorrow to happen #but i don’t have anything to do bc i’m in such a terrible mood #i rlly wish i wasn’t alive sometimes #clearly i’m putting too much stress on my siblings and mom is probably worried sick but i’ll never kno bc we aren’t talking #i’m just ruining everyone’s life i rlly shouldn’t be on this planet anymore

[awek-s-archived]

just watched speak no evil and it was literally so promising until the last 30 minutes when it just went to pure shit. it’s like the (very single and lonely) creators got bored of their own premise and decided to throw it away at the last second.

#i don’t mind spoiling tf out of it bc I’m harshly judging anyone who watches this willingly (myself included) #basically it’s about a Dutch family and a danish family meeting on holiday in italy and becoming friends. after they leave the danish send #a postcard to the Dutch asking them to come spend a weekend w them bc their kid son misses their kid daughter and they all had such a good #time together. they go but these ppl are freaky as hell. but they’re kinda put forward as cultural differences. #like disagreements about lifestyle (meat eaters vs pescatarians) or raising children or restaurants. class difference etc #but then the dutch dad sees the danish dad spying on them as they have sex and the dutch mom catches the danish couple sleeping w her #daughter in the bed while they’re buttfuck naked #they go back for reasons unimportant bc the danish promise them a great last day but fuckin hey Ho that doesn’t happen #the son won’t stop crying in the night so his dad drowns him and the other dad goes to investigate and finds his body. he also finds #photos and luggage from previous families and in a compilation of photos u find out that #the danish couple basically kidnap families #steal their children #and kill the parents #and then pretend the kid is theirs. and they cut out the kid’s tongue so they can’t tell anybody #obviously that’s what happens here too but it’s fucking wild bc they get away ans then it gets so sloppy and stupid #the dad could’ve pushed the car that got ‘stuck’ but instead decided to swim a fucking river to get to a house in the distance ????? #wife somehow got signal and called the killer couple to help them????? #killer couple take them to the middle of nowhere and someone comes and holds the mom…… who just yells and girls at his arms a little….. #while the other woman cuts her daughters tongue out……… #then the rando guy just takes the kid. who just kicks her legs a bit in protest and yells. and then the mom just beats on the window and #screams. no attacking the psycho lady or anything #the dad says nothing he’s just vibing like 🧍🏻in the passenger seat #then they take them to the middle of nowhere. make them get naked. and then make them stand a metre away #AND THROW ROCKS AT THEM #LITERALLY #JUST THROW ROCMS AT THEM #TIL THEY DIE……. #no escape plan both just completely submit to their fate im like #this entire movie u have fought tooth and nail for ur daughter and now ur like #well <3 she has no tongue now so <3

[transphilza]

c!dream /pos hatred post. or /neg lovepost? that guy is such a good villain. he is so scary and unnerving and every scene with him makes me so on edge, he is so much fun to hate and root against and he’s so evil and fucked up and i loooove it. his relationship with tommy is so obsessive and disturbing and it makes every interaction they have so intense and hold so much weight. he’s enigmatic and creepy and we know just the right amount about his motives for him to be nuanced but not anywhere near sympathetic. having someone so malicious moving the plot forward has been invaluable to the narrative and the role he plays is so incredible to watch. shoutout to cdream that guy sucks <3

#don’t be a cdream apologist not just because that’s fucked up and harmful toward narratives about abuse #but also bc UR MISSING THE ENTIRE GREATNESS OF HIS CHARACTER BEING SHITTY!!! HE SUCKS AND ITS AWESOME!!! #i hate him and it’s awesome #dream smp #c!dream #like. we hate him. so nobody ever talks about how GOOD his role is #so here i am #shoutout to dreams acting in particular amen #him being horrible beyond saving is IMPORTANT and it MATTERS that u see him as a villain!! it’s the role he’s supposed to play!!! #and as justifiably OR unjustifiably ignorant other characters can be about his role in-universe #the important thing is that the audience knows he is the bad guy #otherwise you misunderstand the entire server and every event that’s ever happened #bc the whole point is he’s meddled and manipulated Everything Ever yknow #that’s what makes him scary #he sucks and i hope he dies and that is awesome

[katierosefun]

i am very confused by a particular american singer

#caroline talks #ugh iykyk #celebrities are always performing in some aspect or another and no i will never have the full picture #but whatever is happening rn feels so. like. come on miss girl #u don’t have to answer just ‘cause they asked you or whatever #but also? HELLO? what is going on?

[pepprs]

ok. i have got to stop doomscrollimg i came on here to doomscroll i don’t feel any better after having done it and it’s not even helpful to me or to anyone (duh and duh and duh). but fucking hell

#purrs #it’s moments like these where i doubt my ability to do the work i do so much. because if my hope and belief and sense of the great golden tr #truths of the world falters even slightly then how can i be effective in helping ppl to draw from their stories and liberate themselves and #each other and build thriving communities etc etc. like this is so scary and im scared but also scary things happen every day and some of #them i end up experiencing the consequences of and most of them i don’t or they’re so vast or im so young that i can’t even fathom it. idk b #but is being alive like just you wake up and you have to burn thru a million things while the world burns all around u. that sounds so clich #cliche im just exhausted and not making any sense or articulating anything well. also i say im so scared but i actually feel deadly calm #rn but also there’s this ache freeze in my veins or something which is fear it’s just im calm and normal about it lol. it’s like what wendy #Willis said about when shit like this happens you wonder if anything you’ve ever done in your life to try to make things better has been all #wrong and like you’ve missed your chance and the world is burning etc. literally i read that last night for my lit review and here we are 24 #h later LOL. but i know i haven’t and no one has it’s just this is scary and everything is disempowering. but we have each other and we will #get thru and build a new world or whatever. idk everything i say sounds cringe snd derivative im so tired i have to go to bed #delete later #this particular topic is painful because i wouldn’t exist without it and neither would my entire immediate family basically. lol