#that I shared my past with and my future

[bunny-b-b-baby]

Love having low self esteem bc when I get treated like shit for no good reason and people talk about me behind my back and say awful things about my character that I KNOW are unfounded and I KNOW I did nothing wrong I still am like “damn…. Maybe I’m a bad person”

#IM NOT #IM REALLY NOT #IM NOT PERFECT AND I MAKE MISTAKES AND THERE ARE THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE DIFFERENTLY #but I genuinely did not do anything to these people #and not only do they still make me feel guilty for doing absolutely nothing to them #they then gossip and bad mouth me with someone who I thought was my best friend #the girl who was supposed to be my maid of honor #that I shared my past with and my future #the person I’ve cried with and laughed with #who I’ve held while she had breakdowns and was supposedly supportive in mine #I can’t believe our several several years together are now at end over people you’ve only known for a few months #i’m destroyed #devastated

[bambiraptorx]

i found the unfinished draft for this and finally did something with it lol

#rottmnt #rottmnt au #i'm not dead yet au #imndy au #rottmnt raph #future raph #raphael hamato #rottmnt baron draxum #rottmnt fanart #rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #my art #this would happen shortly after raph arrives in the past i think #because he stays with draxum for a while after arriving because he has some injuries to recover from #and he's. well not a horrible roommate but an annoying one #and draxum is pretty unused to actually sharing his living space with someone else meanwhile raph's done it his whole life

[suntails]

silver scribble i did earlier just to feel something <3

#i love him. sneef. i love him so much. my SON im grabbing him an extra blanket im kissing his head #ive been fucking around art-wise the past lil bit i needed to draw him as per usual again to keep a groove #im working on something much more intensive for him but tis for a zine so it cannot be shared </3 alas. perhaps a future day #he just woke up. so true king #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #silver vanrouge #suntails

[izloveshorses]

how do you guys like your one-shot collections? normally when i read a collection of short one-shots unrelated to each other on ao3, i don't mind it being on a single work (meaning each chapter is its own fic), as that's what i've read before and it's easy for me to bookmark. but some folks are saying they prefer people post the fics separately and just put them in a series or something. i suppose it's easier to find individual stories that way, but doesn't it clog up the ship tag? what do you think?

what do you guys like? whether it's a collection of tumblr ask prompts or drabbles or a monthly/weekly writing exercise or something of the same sort, do you like the fics posted separately on their own or do you like them all in one place?

feel free to put your reasoning in the tags/replies :)

#fanfiction #polls #i have a one-shot collection posted as one work #(aka the first option) #and that's what a lot of my writer mutuals have done in the past #and that was once the really popular thing to do #but y'all won't hurt my feelings either way ahlkjsdf #and i just don't know that i'm in the loop enough anymore to know what the girls are doing now #i suppose it doesn't matter and i can just do what i want ahsjkdfk #but idk i thought i'd ask #bc..... we may or may not be considering sharing more ****** one shots in the future idk #.... for the girls

[torgawl]

i'm so in love with wrio. that man is the embodiment of mercy and compassion. he is so... human. despite the deep disdain for atrocious acts that hurt others, especially acts that remind him of his own pain and traumas, he is able to keep himself in check and hold on to his values. despite being so proactive in fixing the wrongdoings of people that actively harm those under his care and assuring that everyone is supported in the best way possible; despite knowing he could have not controlled other people's hearts once they were in too deep in their own sins, he still feels helpless and incompetent. he recognises he cannot fully empathise with those who have been hurt for he has not experienced what they have and he understands that some wounds might not be able to heal even with all the attention and efforts, or at least not that easily. and it pains him. his whole life he's been trying to protect others. all his hard work during his time at the fortress and taking over it's administration has granted him the power and resources to actually change lives in a more restorative way, with a bigger amplitude than just the people who he's close to. yet he's only human. and not everyone wishes to be saved. and he doesn't hold back from breaking his own rules if means he is guaranteeing the best outcome for the greater good, for the well being of all of those he's sworn to protect. and although he earned himself a respectable title and even got used to being referred to in that way, he doesn't see people at the fortress as innmates but as equals. he never stopped being the little boy that was sentenced to live over a decade of his life there. and he is so good at what he does and he is so successful at restoring people's hopes in life, at giving them a second chance to become who they want to be, that there's people who actually want to stay there. he is the literal personification of turning your own pain into goodness, into love. love for community and love for others. he found meaning in making the world a better place and i just think that's really fucking beautiful.

#cerberus preventing the dead from leaving the underworld vs wrio whose compassion makes people not want to leave the fortress #god he makes me go feral #sorry for wrioposting everyday shjshdh he never leaves my mind #i saw someone point out the 3 heads possibly meaning past present and future and how we get to see a bit of all of those aspects through #his quest and i think that's really cool #also how the main themes surrounding his character are redemption and retribution #dwelling into these topics is just fun and i think they did it really well and again i think wrio is incredibly well written #i just think it's cool to see a character in a position with power to punish others be someone who was also judged by that same system #i think it's cool that rather than blindly following authority he used his power to change and reform the system #he created this utopia of the perfect living conditions and managed to sustain them #it makes you feel a certain type of way when you strive or wish for this type of equity and justice in the real world too #obviously it's only a slice of the cake but it's a relevant slice of the cake #not to enter a socialism and politics conversation but wriothesley and his quest share a very radical ideal and i think it's relevant #to acknowledge it #something something stories about revolution #i'm a bit sleepy tired it's so late but well i had to write something bye #genshin thoughts #genshin impact #my post

[jacksprostate]

sorry this is once again my monthly 'i'm in love with people and our capacity for compassion even in the face of deep deep cruelty, even though i've seen worse and worse things, come to terms with so much, it's my love of humanity that has let me avoid rotting, encouraged me to grow and chase my own place in helping everyone around me" post

#im really excited for the job im starting. still about a month or so out but heading towards a career change sort of that im really excited #for. im just... i actually used to be very cynical and i struggled to see the point through all the terrible things in the world #but for many reasons #even as i discovered worse and worse things #ive developed... resiliency i never thought id have #born out of this appreciation for those and the world around me #and i wish i could share it. i see so many people in my old shoes #im still growing. so much to do #but im at a level of contentment.. idk. i couldntve dreamed of #and it took effort #it is not /easy/ to face things and believe in good regardless #but. its rewarding. i wish it for all of you #on a similar but different note ive been reaching a point of being more myself in social situations rather than just a chameleon #and ive been lucky enough to have the people around me the past two years or so be very supportive in a way that has truly let me grow and #become a better version of myself #and its sort of been this positive feedback loop. because the more confident and passionate you are the more people are delighted by your #eccentricies #i used to be so beat down #i still struggle so much #but. im at a place i never thought id be #no doubt there will be struggles in the future #hell its not like things are perfect now #still so much. major things to improve on #but idk. i am happy #and its a very full sense of happiness. #full and aware and strong #thats what i wish for all of you :)

[junk-culture]

👍

#today i suddenly remembered that dress + tshirt is a combination that exists and allows you to wear summer dress in winter + not get cold. #really cool innovation. #today i am going to lidl then cleaning out my food cupboard well my one shelf in my shared cupboard then im going to draw hopefully #and because i did some revision yesterday i don't need to do much in the way of studying today which is good because the questions are exce #based and my screen time over the past few days has been diabolical and my eyes are crying and might explode if i look at a computer today #so im going to try to be hashtag offline today. #< says this while literally on tumblr #if i put some red in this outfit id be very sofad core actually. noted for future reference #anyway happy sunday everypony #^ there's a typo up there i meant excel #we worked on paper last semester but now we're doing some accounting on excel i was worried at first like oh nooo i have to learn a new #program but then i remembered im literally a gamer.not the best gamer it has to be said but i mean i 100% pw on the psp so i think i can #s rank microsoft excel.

[wundrousarts]

Found one of my oldest Mog drawings and wanted to compare it with one of my latest. Being a fan of a book series and actually pushing myself to make fanart for it is so fun because then I can see both the progression of my art plus the progression of how I envision characters. <3

#I’m procrastinating on work and wishing I was drawing nevermoor fanart instead so might as well share this here #my 3yr anniversary of being in the nevermoor discord is coming up and I’m in retrospective mode and thinking abt past present + future mogs #anyways. enjoy. I may or may not keep this up but who knows! #morrigan crow you are everything to me <3 #nevermoor #nevermoor series #nevermoor fanart #morrigan crow #btw if anyones reading this far I’m back from the dead and abt to have more free time so my inbox is extra open for nevermoor requests again

[tainted-sweet-meats]

and that's all the oc lore I'll be posting for rn owo;; Thanks for looking and enjoying. I usually keep everything to myself or things I do post of that nature I keep on my website once it's published. but through Id share it with you guys since tumblr folks seem to be more into that and liking it vs any other social media. I'm tired now... gonna go eat muh pizza

#asmtsm rambles #deff gonna be sharing more wolrd building stuff in the future... I got too much of it honestly #Im usually a big bag of STFu when it comes to lore stuff mainly cause Ive had pple from my past put me down for themes to realistic and dar #or having dark or bitter sweet endings... im like such is life..fuck it #or some folks going as far as saying my art/ concepts is scary meh #but feeling more confident about it now

[enrapture]

stay alive.

#the happiest people can be going through shit #the saddest people #the meanest of people #all walks of life you could never know what they’re dealing with #life is so hard so fucking difficult #I didn’t think I would be here #so many years before this one I didn’t think I would be alive at all #honestly? I didn’t think I’d live to see today a few days ago even just the other day I felt it #it’s really hard to stay tonight even with a good thing like meeting my favorite band right now on the 31st #internally I won’t share these feelings and thoughts allowed y’all don’t care about that or even wanna hear what I feel and what I think #but yeah #I just wanna share this because I’m struggling with it sand sometimes it’s a good and bad thing to keep finding reasons to stay #but you should stay because you want to be here to experience life with others and to help others #that life wouldn’t be life without you and you would want to see your near future self happy among your childhood past near past selves #evolve and be happy you’re staying and relive your childhood and grow as a person #you’re meant to be here if no one else tells you that #means a lot being heard and understood #staying is just a. little difficult rn #I never thought I’d make it this far and I don’t like the act of growing and I don’t like how life is a lot of the time #but that’s a story for another time if desired and shared #I’m gonna hop off now #bye #internally I won’t share these thoughts #these feelings aloud because y’all don’t care y’all don’t wanna hear about the dark parts that stay and stick in my head or pass through #but I just wanted to share it for those that needed a sign to stay #to stay because I too am one of those that could use it #spread love #be there for those that struggle #life is so fucking hard #take it one day at a time

[lotussokka]

Tagged by @kittlyns (back in march lol) to share my lock screen, last song played, and last picture saved

it didnt specify how many people to tag so im going to tag 10 people bc kittlyn tagged me on my blog's 10th anniversary: @girlwwx @rudiecantfail @yokoyas @glitteratti @booksnbarricades @sonyachni @ettelwenailinon @smiliestboye @sisyphuslnabyss and @hopefulqueer

#i found this it in my activity and i knew i would never have a better last photo than i do at this moment in time #(well the actual most recent photo is just a png of the 2 lime green Xs that i separated out to make future versions of this easier) #the context of the meme is talking about songs being stuck in my head‚ not my general feelings toward them #and its about the great comet of 1813.mp3 not the entirety of great comet #also the pallas cat represents me bc my discord profile is that photo #you dont care #tag games #if you saw this on discord… um hello?? im trying to keep these 2 identities /Vaguely/ separate so pls like… dont share this blog over there #but youre welcome to stay and look around at... my 10 years of complaining and oversharing in the notes 😬 #for the people i tagged: i chose you bc youre all people that i interact with/have interacted with in the past #thank you for being here. you obviously dont have to do this if you dont want to! #sorry im never on here anymore its bc i access ao3 through the tumblr app rather than a regular mobile browser so i cant really use mobile #and my internet makes it difficult to use tumblr on desktop #not me being like 'damn i cant believe NONE of them saw this yet' only to realize its been in my drafts for 3hrs #since i wrote this up i listened to zayn's leaked demo 'hurt' but im not updating this now #partially bc the idea of writing the alt text for the album cover i made makes me irrationally nervous

[bookwyrminspiration]

you're telling me a pea nutted in this butter?

#shitpost #nsft #going 2 put this in my drafts so future me can rediscover it go holy shit i didn't remember that at all #and then post it like look what odd and amusing thing past me said #<- (future quil) you’ll never believe what just happened #oh this is horrible I must share it

[glitterghost]

brb mourning all the past mutuals/friends/followers that I've had delightful conversations or interactions with, who either have deactivated unbeknownst to me, or have changed their handles since we've last spoke and I may no longer recognize.

#you all make everything ten times better #and my heart hurts when i think of past mutuals i loved talking to dearly #only to find out one day in the past present or future have deactivated #and ill probably never find again #know that i wish you well in everything you do or have done #and my love and support follows you like a trail of ghostly lights making sure you're safe #that all the moments weve shared meant worlds to me and i can only hope they were the same for you #miss you forever and always and tucking away all the sweetest memories into a box to brush off and open sometime down the road #only to think of you fondly once more with a tenderly aching yet loving feeling in my heart and mind #sorry for the lengthy rant but i can remember users who have just dissipated like a mist into what i hope is a better place beyond #i hold those memories like fragile spun glass now #though they felt like cotton candy memories full of lightness & joy & pure undiluted happiness #that is all & now i must take this nostalgia sword out of my heart and press on #all my love #your very own glitterghost #✨️👻

[ionrillis]

@piliyi

#privating ion! #i havent been comfortable writing him for a while for various reasons #im still developing him in private because hes one of my fav ocs ive written in the past couple of yrs #but i just dont feel comfortable putting his lore on the dash anymore! #maybe thatll change in the future but i cant see it changing anytime soon #idm sharing discords and writing our charas in private ! #but in the meantime if youd like to continue to write find me on my multi where i write 300 other charas /lh #or feel free to unfollow this blog. idm ! it was fun

[king-minyard]

Just a few more years...!

#mine #i'm so close #setting all this up... living well and happily! #finding myself! finding others to share love with! #i want to hold my past self's hand and tell her we made it so much farther than we thought we would #i want to pick her up and swing her around and tell her i'm proud of her #i can see myself in a few years!!! i can see a future for us!!! isn't that amazing?

[skunkg1rll]

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#i havent been wanting to get out of bed in the morning at all lately :(( #i just dont want to :(( #today i should be going to the gym w my mom nd then stop by the store nd library #tmrw i have to go to school #but omg i rllyyyyy dont want to i wanna cry #i feel like skipping it today even if then i dont get the book i wanna read bc they'll send it back today #plus there r some things i'd like to get at the store. but ugh i just wanna stay in bed and stay in my room #and i had an unpleasant dream of my school years :/ #i dream of that and my class all the time and it fills me w such anxiety :( #stuff like that. that anxiety most ppl fill me w. reminds me how badly i only want to be w him #but maybe it's ruined now. bc of miscommunication.... i havent even dared checking the app #bc im sooooooo scared to open it and be met w the unread sign. that he hasnt even seen my messages #that'll hurt me so much so i just dont even open the app. now i have no idea if he's seen it or not nd thats all i can deal with atm #it makes me so sad tho bc if he rlly wanted to he could have me. and i have such a big heart w sm love to give to someone :(((( #he's like the one person i've met who fills me w calm instead of that anxiety #which is somewhat funny to say bc he also makes me so sad sometimes :(( nd frustrated #but ohhh even now all i can think abt is being w him nd having a future. even if idk if nd when we'll even simply talk again skskksksk #sighhhhhh i was so happy to have talked to him almost every day the past week... i have things i wanna share w him constantly!!!!! but then #i ofc made a mistake w i always do. i just wish ppl could come to me nd talk abt it instead of just getting upset and pulling away :((