#thats a lot of fucking toys

[elitewrestlinghoe]

#just dog dad things #thats a lot of fucking toys #trent? #trent beretta #bo and ruby #rhubarb

[anunsweetenedpeachtea]

Ok ok ok I've been thinking about this scene all day and I NEED to share it because it's driving me insane

Like we all know Daffy from TLTS has basically zero money to his name, right? Someone had to buy all those toys and it certainly wasn't him. So I guess what I'm trying to say is that I think Bugs bought those toys just to give to Daffy and no one can convince me otherwise.

#i just like the mental image of bugs going out of his way to buy daffy toys and letting him play with them :))) #ik it doesnt have to be specfically bugs who bought them but SHUT UP LET ME HAVE THIS #also i really like the idea of daffy from tlts using age regression as a way to cope with his shitty childhood #since they dropped a lot of hints he did have one #buts thats a whole different post #baffy #maybe???? #daffy duck #looney tunes #the looney tunes show #tlts #canon aimed at ur head #peachy fucking keen

[istherewifiinhell]

beast wars second. is a show.

it contains many things. sage advice

[ID: 1. The mandrill character in bot mode, saying "Those who are drunk should quietly stay in a safe place." 2. Scuba, the squid, in beast mode saying "'Eat moderately', these were my grandmother's lasts words". END]

the jointron episodes

[ID: 1. Gimlet, the lobster memeber of the jointrons, in bot mode. Behind him, but mostly obsured, are the other jointrons, and party decorations. He's saying "We're such passionate and close brothers, that we even go pee together, Santa Maria!" 2. The jet destrons, Dirge and Thrust, in bot mode, scratching their heads sheepishly. One says "We are an Osaka-Latino-style family after all." END]

things to say to ur friends

[ID: 1. Megastorm, a green and purple tank, in bot mode. He's clenching his hands together, saying "Damn, that guy can do math..." 2. Bighorn, a buffalo, speaking to Tasmanian Kid [tasmanian devil], and Diver [a frog]. He's angrily saying "Quit yer whinin'! Warriors ain't got no tombs nor other to pick up their dead corpses, ya know!" END]

Scuba....

[ID: 1. Scuba, in squid mode, a single sweat drop, looking about as apprensive as his squid face can. Saying "Yes, I squid think so that I am a squid, but I was just passing by, and now I have to be squidadling along." 2. Scuba in bot mode, he stands next to a diagram, holding a pointer, as if presenting to an audience. "That's why it took me a while before I returned." END]

#some shit #its not called cisformers #JUST. a lot of images like. ohhhh i could post them by their own. BUTF hjadfgadbhfgadfk. well. anyway. #rapid fire. the mandrill eng toy b'boom has a bad jpn name. but what a face. #the jointrons all have very grating speech affectations. santa maria. said in english #THE. not being able to do math bit was honestly very decent for a kids show. [or a show i was fucking head off mainlining] #they were using fractions and if kept track it was clear they had reached a totality lol. #SCUBA...... thats what i have to say.

[waywardsalt]

how much does sonia matter to the story of totk

sonia... is certainly a character in totk, but right now i want to take a look at her appearances within the story and see just how much of an effect she actually has on the narrative of this game. i will only be looking at memories and actual story beats, things such as those floating tablets (idk what they're called i never bothered with them) will be omitted because they are entirely optional content and have nothing to do with the actual story, i'm only considering the memories and present events that most players intending to experience the full base story will see. (i'm not even sure if the floating tablets have anything story-relevant in them, anyways, from what ive seen its just world-building and little character moments.)

it's worth noting that i do like sonia, and i don't particularly think she's a bad character; i enjoyed her, but it's questionable just how relevant as a character she is to the story. i also have a generally negative opinion of totk and its story, so that might alter the way i think about this game and it's story. feel free to take what i say here with a grain or two of salt.

spoilers for a fair bit of totk ig

(post is extremely long yknow how it is 2,581 words under the cut)

sonia is definitely present for the story in the past; she is a comforting presence for zelda and a supporter of rauru. she has power over time (recall, i suppose), and is the queen of the hyrule that rauru has founded, and was formerly a priestess before meeting rauru.

before really starting, i want to bring up that the first time the public got to see sonia was in the 3rd trailer; specifically it is where memory 6 is edited, specifically making it appear that sonia, with her hand outstretched and glowing, is the one therefore shooting the beam of light in the very next cut. in reality, in the actual scene, rauru is the one shooting that beam, but i want to keep this specific edit made in the final trailer in mind, since i want to talk a little bit more about sonia's presence in the story in general at the end, because, again, i personally like her, and am admittedly frustrated with how the game and its story ends up using her.

i consider a character to matter to a story when they do something that impacts or helps move it along. for example, despite being very non-characters, i would consider the old sages to be important as they provide exposition directly to link and the new sage as well as bestow upon them their blessing and their secret stone. they have some kind of effect on the story and other characters and carry out a specific role. if you erased the old sages, you would be missing characters that provide more information to the new sages and properly mark them as their successors in the present. even though they aren't really fleshed out in any sort of way, the old sages play an important role in the central plot of the story. the story needed them to play their specific role in order for the game to progress and for the narrative to continue as intended. they do something to shape the path that the narrative takes, they have an effect.

sonia is a character who technically only ever appears in the memories. i'm completely ignoring her appearing after the final boss simply because she has no dialogue at all and its really nebulous what she and rauru even do. worth noting that she is not alone in that scene; rauru is present with her.

sonia is introduced in memory 3 and then is killed in memory 9, i'm also ignoring her, uh, cadaver in memory 10 for obvious reasons. sonia is therefore active in the world of the past for 7 memories out of the total 15 that take place in the past. sonia is alive for less than half of the memories. furthermore, of those 7, sonia only actually appears in 6 of them, memories 3, 4, 6, 7, 8, and 9, and has dialogue in memories 3, 4, 8, and 9, barely over a fourth of those memories.

noting when she appears and when she speaks is important, since because of the fragmented nature of the past memories, character dialogue is very important in knowing what they do and what information they impart. sonia has a purpose in the memories where she doesn't speak, but i'll get to those after looking at the ones where she does speak.

what sonia does in memory 3: she is the first to approach zelda and her touch is what wakes zelda up. sonia is much gentler with zelda, giving her her name and reassuring her that she is safe.

what sonia does in memory 4: she's mentioned by rauru to have a secret stone and likely used as the example of a secret stone holder due to her own time powers. sonia is the one who says that zelda has both light and time powers, and also says that she can also somehow tell that she and zelda and blood related. sonia nudges rauru for (i think) being a bit cold, and is once again the one to comfort zelda and provides her with a place in the past. she is gentle and patient with zelda.

what sonia does in memory 6: she has no dialogue, but is present to... i'm not sure what she and zelda do here, but i'll say that sonia is supporting rauru's magic with her own. she prompts zelda to join her, and reacts to zelda's magic, telling us that zelda is unusually powerful by comparison.

what sonia does in memory 7: she does absolutely nothing other than be specifically noted by ganondorf for having a secret stone as well as being a hylian woman that rauru took as his wife, and smiles comfortingly at zelda.

what sonia does in memory 8: she recalls a cup that zelda knocks over (the only the we see her use time powers), inquires about zelda's well-being, gives an explanation on how zelda could learn to use her time powers (as well as this being somewhat of an explanation of how recall generally works?), shes comforting again and brings up zelda's light powers, and is the one to bring up link.

what sonia does in memory 9: before the memory, she agrees to meet with the fake zelda (knowing that it is truly not zelda) and clearly planned with the real zelda to confront it. she is the one to point out that the fake zelda is... fake, and controlled by ganondorf, and then is killed after fake zelda disappears.

sonia, from then on, is not present in any future memories, and only ever makes an appearance in the present at the very end with rauru.

so. how much does sonia matter to the story?

she definitely matters as a supporter of zelda and as the one to truly help her feel comfortable in the past and gives guidance about her powers. she's the queen of this ancient hyrule and rauru's wife and a holder of a secret stone. these have relevancy to the narrative, but they don't mean anything in the long run unless they actually effect the plot. she supports zelda, but it doesn't really change anything major, just helps her feel comfortable until things come crashing down again. she helps zelda harness her time powers, which we really only see zelda use against ganondorf and presumably to collect the master sword (and considering that her time powers never show up again, i guess zelda transfers them to link), but zelda is already shown to have great power from the start, and we never actually see zelda training or even struggling to use those powers, she just talks about not quite understanding them, and the first time she uses them she clearly has great control.

sonia conveys the information that zelda has time and light powers, and that zelda is related to sonia and rauru, both of which are fairly important, but sonia saying zelda has these powers merely spells it out for us, it doesn't affect anything about those powers, and zelda being related to sonia and rauru does nothing except explain the origins of her powers. she brings up link in front of rauru, but rauru could've easily learned about link any other way, most notably from zelda herself, so sonia bringing this up just changes when rauru learns about link.

through memory 6 we learn that zelda is, in fact, especially powerful specifically because she is being compared to sonia, who expresses surprise, though, again, this changes nothing, it merely brings attention to something already present.

sonia is suggested to have caught on to the fake zelda's ploy and we can assume that she had a hand in setting up the 'trap' that she and zelda spring on it. she implies that she, while knowing, agreed to meet with it and set this trap with zelda. after fake zelda disappears, she is then killed and removed from the story, though her death motivates zelda and rauru and marks the shift from a tense peace to outright war with ganondorf, and her death is what allows ganondorf to get his hands on a secret stone.

in a sense, sonia does matter to the story. she conveys information for the player and for other characters' benefits, she is an important person in the world of the past, and her death is a major turning point. but... at the same time, sonia does not really matter to the story.

she conveys information that doesn't really change the course of the story. her biggest decided-upon action was done off screen and with supposed help from zelda (and perhaps even rauru) and the biggest impact she makes, the one thing concerning her that actually causes things to move along or change in the course of the story, is her death. a character's death doesnt necessarily mean that from then on they are no longer important to the story, but with sonia, she is completely out of the picture. she motivates zelda and rauru, yes, but that's not exactly the same as mattering to the story. either way, if ganondorf declares war after stealing a secret stone, zelda and rauru are going to fight back with the sages.

sonia's death matters to the story. sonia herself does not matter to the story.

sonia doesn't do anything. she talks, conveys information, comforts zelda and gives her little pointers, but not once do we see her do anything that matters in the greater narrative. nothing she does in the past has any relevancy to the gameplay the players experience, or the side of the story that concerns link. she doesn't play a role that further aids our protagonists asides from maybe helping zelda learn to use her time powers. any information she conveys could have been learned through other means, or otherwise wasn't actually important to the events of the plot.

the most we really see her do is lure out fake zelda, but even then, zelda is the one to actually act in retaliation of the attack, and the most sonia does in that one scene, aside from convey more information, is die. and it's the only thing she does that actually causes a development in the plot or matters in general.

in addition to this, sonia does not do anything alone. she is always related to another character: she comforts zelda, she's rauru's wife and queen, ganondorf kills her, she and zelda corner fake zelda, she supports zelda and rauru. nothing she does she does on her own, there is always another character involved, she plays an extremely supportive role and does absolutely nothing outside of that. she exists to give the players information, she exists to support and motivate zelda and rauru, she exists as a character for ganondorf to kill to prove his evil and steal a secret stone. she is not an independent character within totk's story. she doesn't matter to the story as a character because she is barely even considered an independent character within that story.

when we see her at the end, the one time she is relevant to the present, she appears with rauru.

you could remove sonia from the story and swap her out with just having her secret stone hanging around the castle somewhere and the major events of the story would not change. sonia being the queen and rauru's wife only matters because then her death can motivate rauru, and by extension, the kingdom. sonia being so tender with zelda only matters because then her death motivates zelda. sonia having time powers and being related to zelda only matters to explain why zelda has time powers at all. these qualities do not matter outside of these characters that she is always shown with. the only thing about sonia that matters to the narrative is her death.

and. i don't dislike sonia! i like her! i think she's a good character, she has a personality and manages to be likeable even though she is always attached to a separate character! but she has no effect on the present and doesn't do anything that is relevant to any plot points. and it's so frustrating to see!

she's a major character in the past, and yet is hardly important, has four scenes total where she speaks, and dying is the most important thing we ever see her do. the only effect she has on the present is that the secret stone that ganondorf has was stolen directly from her.

it's just... frustrating to see yet another female character exist mostly just to die and motivate other characters, to see a major female character's only defining traits be that she is kind and nurturing and motherly and you never see anything beyond that.

and i come back to the game's third trailer.

just with the fact that sonia is shoved in a corner and is yet another female character that does not exist independent of others in this story, that we see her use her unique power exactly once to rewind a teacup, that's enough to frustrate me. sonia could've been a much more important and impactful character, but the most important thing concerning her is her death, and not even in a 'haunts the narrative' kind of way- she dies, motivates others, and is never brought up again.

and yet, in the third trailer of the game, memory 6 is cut up and presented in such a way that implies this at-the-time mystery female character had shot that beam of light, and that she would therefore be a powerful character. nothing is done without a reason in fiction, and this applies to game trailers.

i just don't understand why sonia was framed in such a deceitful way in that trailer. i can understand misdirection for the sake of avoiding spoilers, but... when it comes to characters like sonia, who in reality have very little impact on the narrative in this way, it just feels... almost a little devious, and it's so frustrating to watch that part of the trailer that teased a powerful female character (not a new concept for the zelda series, either!!!) and then, when the game rolls around, all of a sudden not only is she not the one with that power, but she is merely supporting the male character with that power.

there's absolutely a whole thing that can be said about female versus male characters in media and video games just with contrasting that part of the third trailer versus the actual in-game scene.

and i just can't help but feel bad for sonia after all of this, a character who could've been an important figure in totk's narrative, who just ended up being a character defined by the moment they stop being relevant.

so... yeah. sonia doesn't really matter to the story of totk, and it's in a really frustrating way. though i have a generally negative and almost spiteful attitude towards totk, none of that spite or anger is directed at sonia- i really wish she had a better role in the story, and i think she honestly deserves it and i don't think anyone is at fault for being fooling into thinking she would be this important and powerful figure. there's serious potential just with the pieces the story does give us! it's just all squandered to make her exist for the sake of other characters.

this might've gotten a bit off-track from that i wanted to say at the start, but... unfortunately, sonia as a character doesn't really matter to the story of totk, and i really wish that she did.

#loz #legend of zelda #totk #sonia #totk critical #salty talks #fyi while i just skimmed the yt vid to see what memories sonia shows up in i just watched in 2x speed to figure out if she talks #so it was just kinda really funny despite a lot of the memories being just standing around talking #do yourself a favor and watch the cutscenes on 2x speed #i watched them in 2x speed bc i dont want to waste too much time on this fucking game but it was at least entertaining #imo sonia got done so dirty in this game. its the only one she exists in too which sucks even more #like when zelda/tetra gets fridged or whatever its like. we see her in other contexts at least but with sonia thats it. damn #this did start off bitter and angry at the game but just ended up kind of like. sadly upset at what was done with her #bitching abt totk #adding that one so this gets lumped in with my other totk salt posts but this one def has a different tone #off topic but man zelda having time powers was some bullshit that only mattered in the past and to give the play a rewind toy #and to allow for some plot stuff obviously. sonias fucking powers are more important than sonia is

[a-gay-little-cat]

one day i'll sit down and bother with drawing tiger's cybernetics properly but i am thinking about his sandevistan, it doesnt fully imbed into the back for a stylistic choice more than anything, strengthening the spine and all that, but it also isnt fully external as to not be in the way when lying down or anything of the sort its got vents along each little section, able to open up and allow for cooling as needed, creating spines as it does

#hes got so much shit going on thats gotta cool down somehow!!!!! #a lot of times he doesnt really use everything at once just as needed #so he doesnt run the risk of overheating #he can overclock the systems and exceed it to an extend #but not for long before the failsafe kicks in shutting everything off so he can cool off #you could say most of the time he runs at using maybe 20/30% of shit he's got installed #which is all custom made also mind you #paid good money for everything #which yes yes i know maybe overpowered whatever im having fun playing toys and tiger is my special guy!!!!! #his back is basically a sandy/serker combination #BUT! he cant netrun #its never been his thing as fascinating as it can be #(though he does think of netrunners to be.. a little pretentious sometimes knowing full well they could just fuck up his systems. cheaters) #tiger #BWABWAWA TALKING ABOUT OCS AND PLAYING

[jiimwii]

cyberpsychosis could maybe be so cool if it was people being possessed by some sort of rouge ai,or as part of a corporate conspiracy. like as a planned obsolescence thing where certain parts during production are programmed to make people Do That after a certain point so you have to buy the next new 20,000eddies cannon arms to replace the nearly identical previous model or else you might kill everyone you love and die because your cyberwares "outdated". or untraceable viruses infecting competing corporations cyberware using their rival's customer's livelihoods to sabotage their profits. and maybe any one of those things works in such a way that its designed to detect atypical brain chemistry in a host,and thus triggers more frequently with them to tage advantage of and use those people as a scapegoat and a way to further fear monger against them,and you can uncover that this is the case. or something along those lines. and the more cyberware someone has the more likely it is that they could encounter any of these scenarios. but no it is just #crazy people being too #crazy.

#they kinda toyed w something like that in earlier drafts. with dollchips and the project ghost thing thats too much to explain in tumbletags #but yeah #honestly w how little its present in the final game beyond Go Herd Them Up And Beat The Shit Out Of Them So They Can Recover In Therapy #Offscreen In An Optional Sidequest With Literally No Conclusion they couldve easily just retconned its existence in the world entirely #especially since really the only reason why it exists in the lore in the first place is so the humanity system in the ttrpg keeps your #character from becoming too overpowered from too much cyberware. like thats it. #but for how much they dont wanna flesh out any other conspiratorial type stuff for the sake of ''It is a Mystery👻'' #and how much they went with ''idk where cyberpsychosis comes from we dont know if its even real'' ingame #edgerunners and mike pondsmith himself sure have a lot to say about it and exactly how it works #we cant even leave that up for interpretation for players to find some way into coping themselves into believing its not as weirdly ableist #as it is #and we cant do anything else with it that would actually be cool. or make sense. in universe and just logically. #however. im a dumbfuck and am not beyond thinking about how like. in a hypothetical scenario where melissa welles is still around #And jackies bled out corpse is still used for the arasaka supersoldier program and is going around killing people.i cant not think about ho #mama welles would have to handle both of her kids dying and also going on rampages out of (mostly) anyones control. like think about that. #heart wrenching and whatnot. could you fucking imagine with everything else shes been through. #anyway sorry for talking about things that very literally probably less than a dozen ppl know/care about its just. interesting. #i froth over the potential that it had #that im tricking myself into believing that it had

[mechahero]

@outofthiisworld asked- 18. entry made discussing a childhood memory. (there are…..too many good ones to choose from oough) dear diary (accepting)

(slightly long post and a brief mention of child abuse under the cut. it's one line but still.)

I kind of just remembered this one thing that happened when I was a kid and I don't really have anyone to talk to about it, so I guess I'll put it here? It's not like I got anywhere else to go with this.

I remember this one time me and my sister were goofing around doing, I don't know, anything? We were what? Around 6 or 7 at the time? Anyways, I think we were playing with this metal barrel we found in an area near our house? Yeah. Like, we just took turns climbing into it and rolling each other down a hill. Which looking back on it now, we should NOT have been playing that thing! That thing was rusty. I'm surprised neither of us got hurt! But that's not really the point. It was fun though, I won't lie. And then Mom caught us.

She was so fucking mad. I mean, she's always mad but she was pissed about the barrel. Which I guess I can get but also I still don't really get it? Anyways, getting screamed at and not being able to sit right for a week? Totally worth it. I'd do it again.

...I miss my sister.

#//im pretty sure what happened to lambda and his siblings was a form of abuse but even then im like ehhh is that what to call it? #//it probably is but im sorry if its not? i can always retag or change the wording on the warning if thats a problem for anyone #//but yeah lambda and his sibs spent a lot of time outside fucking around and playing with whatever they could get their hands on #//if it existed it could be a toy to them #//because hey! its something and its there! it was SOMETHING to do aside from staying home #he's a killer queen... {ic} #why are you botherin' me? {answered memes} #outofthiisworld #tw child abuse #tw child abuse mention #//again if i need to retag let me know

[wabblebees]

never never never in my life gonna be able to beat the weirdo theatre nerd allegations. its midnight and for the last few hours ive been (voluntarily of my own free will At No-One's Behest) doing some character research for the show we're working on (which at a certain level is Absolutely Necessary!! but at *this* level is Absolutely Not. lmfao)(and so... ik for a fact if i mention this in rehearsal tomorrow im gonna get a whole lotta blank stares ((or TERRIFIED looks from the freshmen wondering if they should be doing this much work lmao))

but anyway so about 10 minutes ago i found a fucking essay (just 9 pages out of this philological collection from the 60s) that just the idea behind the Very Simple title made me so excited i had to stand up at my desk to start reading it and fully forgot to sit back down until i realized i wanted to start TAKING NOTES..... WHICH I GENERALLY HATE DOING WHILE READING........ BUT IM TOO EXCITED AND DONT WANNA FORGET ANY OF IT.................. SO IM TAKING FUCKING NOTES

but anyway beyond tHAT the thing that actually made me pause to start typing this post though is the fact that just now, four pages in, this essay finally put something into place that ive been puzzling over in my head since i very first read the play which... made me happystim so hard i almost knocked myself out of my fucking chair. hdkdgsjfkfhdgskdgwrdjfk.

so yeah. never beating the nerd allegations. lmao

#''IT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE TO TIE THE PLAY DOWN TO ANY PARTICULAR CONTEMPORARY SITUATION'' ITS A THOUGHT EXPERIMENT ITS A THOUGHT EXPERIMENT #OF COURSE IT IS. IM JUST OBLIVIOUS. BUT. GWRRGDJDGRFDJKFRWRDGWRGDJSHKFRK IM GONNA EAT MY FUCKEN SCRIPT #ahem. hm. pardon. #its just my brain is full of lightning atm you see. because i am unwell about poetry and theatre and philosophy and this is. OUUGHHH #its like the universe decided that since this week was so weird and uncomfortable i deserved little a treat #and gave me smth to growling shake around in my head for the next several days like a fucking mental chew toy #we've been talking a lot in rehearsal about why this play why now why this version which is always important and great to do #but some of the things people have said made me internally go ''mmmmm. no. no i dont think thats correct but i cant decide why exactly'' #& its bc theyre taking it as its supposed to be literal but !! these characters arent necessarily supposed to each be recognizable people !! #theyre here to QUESTION A THEORY #''THE GODS ARE NOT ON ANTIGONE'S SIDE. IS ANTIGONE (EXCEPT ACCIDENTALLY) ON THE GODS' SIDE?'' #IM GONNA EXPLODE #anyway um . #thanks for coming to my ted talk lmao #ive literally been pacing as i type this bc im so . OURGHH. THEMES THEMES THEMES THEMES THEMES. GRRWAAUGHH. #kreon tag #<-*slaps the roof of him* oh i am gonna fit so many character choices into this bad boy #.......... #i um . may be avoiding my homework #oops. #bee speaks

[dsgustng]

Sometimes I think Abt how all of my comfort objects in school were either confiscated, stolen or destroyed by other kids and teachers like man wtf was up with that

#i remember i had my dax skelanimal that id take everywhere and it got stolen from me #i had a sonic plush that some girls took and cut apart after i said i wouldnt give it to them #i had a toy octopus sharpener that a kid yoinked from my hand and started cutting up and filling with glue #and whenever i told the teacher the teacher was just like 'thats why you dont bring toys to school' :/ #and like countless other things teachers took and destroyed or just never gave back to me #i remember having a toy skeleton on my desk that i wasnt even playing with i just had it sitting there bc it was comforting #and the teacher took it away and never gave it back aka she fucking stole it #i was pretty poor growing up so i didnt exactly have a lot of nice things either #ableism #i remember like being so anxious and school like trembling and fidgeting bc i needed something to hold and comfort me so bad #and id resort to humming or my foot would tap and then id get snapped at #theres literally no winning if ur a neurodivergent child in public school

[dizzybevvie]

I love you analysis I love you awareness of negative tropes I love you recognising that media isnt perfect I love you not being able to handle negativity I love you different interests I have different relationships with I love you the way that changes my perspective on criticism

#/gen #Like Mystreet is something that- for me - the criticism is built in. Ive nevee had a truly positive experience with it bc the relationship- #i had with the show was based on hope something would happen; and then it didnt. #How To Train Your Dragon feels like finding an ugly childhood toy you forgot about that you only have positive experiences with #If anyone talks about Naddpod i am immediately on edge because if they say something vaguely not positive i will collapse dramatically #like a footy player #Be More Chill is. complicated. depends what mood im in. #bc it bounces between 1. broadway bmc sucks lmao and 2. They went fucking OFF with Loser Geek Whatever like it BANGS #not even a will rolland fan but he did really good #also bmc has a lot of like. rep ig is the word? #between (at least) 2 ND leads and 3 Asian leads (the love interest of which is both) like. cool #plus michael is from a queer family #(IK joe said theyre all queer but thats not in the musical) #And i will gush abt it and then immediately rant abt how bad it is 2 secons later #but anyway. i like how media feels like personal relationships because its never the same #apollo says stuff #httyd #naddpod #aphmau #mystreet #aphmau mystreet #bmc #be more chill

[toytulini]

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#toy txt post #i guess i just need to find a different job since this one seems to be. not great for me #but i also like. dont know what wont be bad for me. like sorry i just dont think there are jobs that are accessible to me that arent going #to feel Like This #at least in some way. and this one has good insurance and shit. and if i can get my shit together it has fucking. paid community service #time that i could theoretically use to like. volunteer at the aquarium or smth and have a day off for it and get paid by my job #which could be a foot in the door to a career that i am interested in but im just fucking. stuck and fatigued and in pain and wallowing and #have no fucking energy and i cant do anything and im fucking nocturnal and i joke about it and i was fine with it but i hate it i hate #not seeing the fucking sun and i miss my old job which is INSANE but i know what i miss about that job was #that it was part time. and i regret not doing more with that #but im also allergic to normal hours i guess i dont fucking know #i know part of it is prolly just feeling profoundly out if control of my life so i just stay up bc at least thats quiet time for me #w no expectations but thats not even tru bc i shoukd be at least doing my fucking laundry or smth cos it would make sense #and the fucking answer to so many of my issues rn is like just do that then or just stop doing that then but i cant i dont know why im just #like this ive always been like this stupid useless cant fucking do anything cant fix my shit just fucking wallowing and angry and doing #nothing and its just gotten worse cos now i have fucking chronic pain and fatigue and now i REALLY do FUCKALL #im depressdd and anxious and in pain i should get a therapist but thats hard and i dont fucking trust ppl #i should move out and maybe that would help bc i wouldnt feel like i have to wear a mask around my own house but im barely functioning #as is w a lot of support from my mom i cant fucking live on my own #not to mention the whole country being so fucking. Bad rn. ive done nothing all day not even resting #and tomorrow ill wake up too late and be in a rush and in pain and tired and just #i dont fucking know #im so miserable and lately so many topics can just send my stupid little brain just Spiralling but i dont want to say that i dont want ppl #to feel weird for talking about fucking college. i dont want to sit here being so bitter that something in my brain broke about school #im happy for ppl who can do their fucking college shit i just. smth wrong in my brain and i cant dwell on it and i try not to be too #outwardly negative about it cos i dont want ppl to feel like they cant talk to me about it or smth idk #rambling and venting and im gonna hit tag limit lmao for sure #been having the same goddamn problems nonstop for my whole life and its just that i cant fucking do anything #i have too much shit i should rid of #whatever

[miscellaneous--bones]

a couple sleepy poses to get color down, may or may not loose the tail stripes

#i thought they'd be cute but with the bones it just breaks the motif and #busies the design #other n that the colors are based off of the scortch ty toy dragons because i love them #i was gonna do green claws and horns and shit because thats the colors on scortch but i backed out cuz it didnt fit wth the purple hair #and the rest of the markings and such #might still fuck with those idk. ill fuck with it as i go #at the moment tho im havin lots of fun #art #doodles #meeee #the vertabre are as annoying to color as they are to cut out i swear to god

[sntoot]

various minion things that ive forgotten to post! (featuring @asleepinawell ‘s little hyth)

love having proof tiny hades picks out all my outfits for me

#i put all these together and then found a folder of screenshots of more thats just hyth and hades 😭 #so there will be another post soon of just them #that lil garden is getting a lot of use from me #its perfectly minion sized #ffxiv #hyth lodaeus's tag #batu's tag #i just love the lil cat head in the corner of the one pic like what the fuck is going on here #my gpose tag #teeny tiny toy hades n hyth tag

[art-legetable]

I have weird dreams man

#So like #a lot my dreams that I remember all happen in one cohesive place #mainly centred around my home town and the house i grew up in #but its all very Different #Like there are extra spaces. things are cut. very odd. #My most recent dream of the variety. I think it was the one my brother handed to me #wasn't a bad dream but at the end I was in the basement #my brothsr will know where this is. it was on the left side to the left of where the couch was #there was a door #it was a vast room full of toys #all of them were mine #i just Knew #and as I went in to explore (there were two other people with me I don't remember who) #I saw a large computer structure set up along the wall above the door #it was also mine. all of these were mine and I had abandoned them to this pit. #anyways the computer woke up and so did everything else #and they were all angry #and they were getting ready to do something about it before I managed to stumble out of the room. #and thats all I remember but its a lot of familiar places with fucked up architecture

[pizzapizzadickz]

I often times find myself wondering when interacting with people "am I doing this right?'"

It used to be even more often, I probably was really anxious about it back then. Now... not so much? I still find myself worrying a bit. And especially trying to find the correct "answer" or action to say or do. But. It's not really by any fault of my own. It's just what's expected of me in social situations doesn't always come naturally. So I'm awkward. But idk. While I'll always probably try to find the right answer for things, I'm a bit less worried than I used to be. And I suppose that's something good in a way.

#normal #oh. i dont have to be like this. i can do something different #who the fuck am i really. #diary #personal #i honeslty didnt even think this would turn out to be positive. like. i thought its be a bit more down. #but idk. despite knowing im probably doing a lot of things wrong. im still a bit happier this way. #its been a long while since ive just done things that are more true to myself and now worried about the consequences. so its kinda nice #idk. obviously in places like work i mask much more. but at a coffee shop. or talking with friends. or even alone in my bedroom - #i do it much less. i used to be so self-conscious. i wouldn't even dance alone in my room. its strange to think thats - #just how much pressure society exibits. its impressive really. id try not to do things incase it wasnt #i think in a way the internet really saved me from a lot of that. yeah it probably exasperated some of my problems but it also helps too? #i can find communities and learn about things i love even if i dont participate. #i suppose its nice just knowing #and thats opened up a lot of avenues for me. like. knowing i dont need to be in a relationship. that i can collect stuffed toys. #that i can be obsessed with something stupid. just. a lot of small things like that? it sorta takes off that huge pressure to conform. #idk. i used to be so fixated on conforming and participating. and my mom quite litterally taught me to. #she always used to tell me about how when she had to move around she had to make consessions like that. #or how she didnt like it either just talking with the girls or whatever. so i sorta just thought of it all as normal. #so i just tried more and more and more to press myself into a mold without ever really caring what i liked. or thought #like. i knew what i wanted. but that wasnt right. so i id just. cut off bits n peices of myself. #i remember being oh so frustrated thinking and its so odd to think of now. #because now i just am. and even when im sad im happy. its peaceful really. #really though. being able to label things. and figure out stuff about myself and psychology and everything was amazing #im really glad ive both changed so much - yet really not at all at the same time #i still like the same things i did when i was 6. im still exactly the same at my core tbh. #but im much different from who i was in my teens. to me it really feels like just accepting who i always was. #and like. letting myself be who i was and am. i am me and thats sorta that? #idk. im just philosophizing myself yet again. but i also really enoys doing that XD

[marblerose-rue]

OK getting content regardless / info below the cut for the sake of saving space!! and partial dsmom spoilers

click for better quality !! idk why tumblr nerfs it so often

these 3 are the main characters of the au pretty much . after strange and america (who renames herself spangle leapthrough, she enjoys her time in equestria for the most part but strange legitimately cannot stand it. and only begins to warm up by the time they're able to leave [he also refuses to change his name]) they land in a mlp-ified universe where all of the problems seem superficial and a bunch of mcu characters who are dead are still present. they figure out theyre not the only ones who dont belong in the universe though, and *thats* where the real problems come. they try to get as much info on this dangerous cosmic being that threatens the universe theyre in from spellcaster (strange's pony counterpart). and he doesnt want any help, because hes claimed the lonely title of 'being the only one competent enough to stop it'. strange wants to be the one to fix it bc like the worm, theyre not from equestria . so obviously he has to do it. its p much a power struggle between them and its pretty much up to spangle to get legitimate help because spellcaster is insistent they use as little magic as possible (and for good reason bc the worm absorbs residual magic to grow stronger) so that puts a lot of pressure on a lot of ponies who use magic . i thiiiink thats it

#you need to #knock that off. the others will not be finding out we were toy ponies. #my art #do not copy trace or steal #ponyverse #< that is my mlp marvel au tag #when theyre able to leave and return to their original universe america draws her and strange as ponies. at first hes like but then it gro #theres a lot more but this is as condensed as i can get it #most of this is like filler content i like. like a sitcom. if u will. blinks #OH YEAH the reason spellcaster is all dolled up is bc the first encounter he has with the worm (its actually a wyrm but its just a #miscommunication that stuck) he almost dies but he lives bc plot armor #BUT YEAH im struggling so much w drawing rn this is the best i can do atm . i got new brushes and i think its fucking with me #ive also got a summer job + a lot of appointments ive had to schedule/reschedule/coming up so thats probably also a factor s #so my time is a little blegh . on top of me playing minecraft like my life depends on it BAHA #BUT YEAH another thing thats not necessarily important but it is to me . bc of spellcaster being so fixated on the worm he essentially #outcasts himself so he can safely monitor it. and he reaches out to ponies who possess powerful magic (i.e scarlet static [and a few others #im still working on that part] BUT. he kinda breaks his own rules by using his own magic to create a double of himself (a lot more cleaned #up to keep folks from worrying) to pop up every now and then to keep suspicion off him. scarlet kiiinda knows but not enough to get her #to attack it bc if she does it'll power it up enough to unleash chaos . ANYWAY THATS A LONG TANGENT so when strange and america/spangle #land nobody really questions it/they treat him as normal bc they think thats just spellcaster and his new apprentice who nobody seems to #know . i hope that makes sense it makes sense to me