i cannot believe it’s taken my nth rewatch to notice how toothless’ wings unfurl directly behind hiccup during the new tail scene i am once again going insane
me trying to come up with literally ANY type of explanation to the aous ending that wouldnt mean what it most obviously means because i am so devastated
How do you do the typey typey and have it word good
How do you word so englishly
You know what I mean rieueghuvt maeyfee?
Yehwhe?
Uhhhhhhhhhhh well. Look. This is a very broad way of approaching how writing happens and I am not in the right headspace (sobriety) to answer it in an articulate manner but just. Man you just gotta think real hard sometimes.
Writing is just a lot of thinking and research stacked atop itself in a trench coat.
A lot of people have said very smart things about how to write in better words than I can and they all have some form of truth in them but writing is art and art is subjective and it's different for everyone.
The one thing I can definitely say is to just know what you're writing. In many ways. Like. When I started writing I would get mad at myself for what I'd created because it wasn't right but I didn't actually know what I was wanting. I was just trying to write things and getting mad when I didn't hit that goal post but that's not a goal post that's just a fucking telephone pole you mistook because of all the fog. Why is it a telephone pole, you're supposed to be on a field? You've actually walked off the field. You didn't know where you were going.
You get me?
Be kind to yourself as a writer. If you don't know what you want don't be mad at yourself because you didn't magically do it. If you've never achieved something narratively before then it's not gonna magically happen because you threw up some words on a page. That's what drafts are for, to figure out what the hell you want when you have no idea what that thing really is.
Art is making stuff out of nothing and writing is no different. Sometimes things happen easy and sometimes they don't. Sometimes things happen and they're not what you want, but they let you figure out what it is you don't want. You can fill in the negative space from what you don't want. That's what practice is really. It's just filling pages and saying 'well that wasn't it, let's give it another crack but not do it Like That this time'.
Sometimes you find it easy, sometimes it takes time. That doesn't make you bad. That doesn't make you less of a writer. That just means you're still halfway through making the thing.
hrhrgrgh i've got a bunny and the bull (2009) theory bouncing around in my brain
heavy spoilers below the cut
so you know how the entire film is a study on the idea of an unreliable narrator, the tendency of the storyteller to exaggerate, and the fickle nature of memory.
obviously its pretty unlikely that someone with no bullfighting experience would be able to pull off Bunny's bullfight. I think the surrealism of the scene and the contrast with the abrupt realism of the bull's final charge could be intended to draw a line between imagination and reality. my theory is that the clockwork bullfight dance scene was added in Stephen's retelling.
as bleak as it sounds, I think the bull actually gored Bunny pretty much straight away. the dream-like matador sequence is Stephen's way of confronting the event and making it bearable. I think it's also his way of honouring Bunny and remembering him as he would want to be remembered. leading up to the bullfight, present-day Stephen knows that Bunny is going to die, and at this point the audience has probably guessed it too. but instead of seeing it as a pointless death from a stupid bet, he makes it into something beautiful - an epitaph to his friend who was so full of excitement and thrill and life - and because of this he's able to face the reality of what comes next.
(side note: this is just some thoughts I had while watching the film, I'd be curious to see if other people thought this too. I'm not trying to definitively prove either way - ambiguity rules - just speculating.)
just watched the Name of the Rose for the first time!!
it was really good. i mean except for the sexism and homophobia but it's the 14th century catholic church that's a given.
but like!! murders!! logic vs belief in god! books!! the fucking setting and music!! also i love salvadore (is that how he's spelled?) and also i'm kinda real fucking proud that i understand everything he says bc he speaks like 4 languages all mashed into one (i mean i do know 4 languages, including latin which is the foundation of most of those languages)
and also i gotta flex that I CALLED IT. I FUCKING CALLED IT. spoilers for the film and it's fantastic solution obviously but like I KNEW it was the licking fingers touching pages!! like ok i didn't really stay with it all the time but that's cuz im so bad at predicting/guessing films and like to focus on just enjoying it that i rarely think abt it but like i said it!! after the second guy died I FUCKING CALLED IT HAHAHAHAHAAAA
what can i say, i never see even the most obvious things coming and this was a real great solution (tho there *were* lots of hints you could piece together) and i knew it that's pretty fucking cool. props to my dad who managed to act normal about it until it was actually revealed tho
(also i could marvel at the pacing and lack of dramatics with no weight to them other than the drama itself etc etc but i say this abt basically any old film i watch (im right abt it too) so pretend i said that lol)