#the pain becomes unbearable

[newgroundstier]

idiot baby kill credit fight

#drift #rodimus #transformers #maccadam #driftrod #kinda. its driftrod by proxy of me being the guy who drew it #mfw i become a casualty of war* and the dudes that killed me start arguing like its the worlds biggest cod lobby #*technically this wasnt a war related conflict but. the species wide kajillion year war is kinda related to. everything these guys do #EDIT: APPARENTLY THIS GUY LIVES LOL mfw i get stabbed thru the head and the dudes that did it argue like its the worlds biggest cod lobby #while i lie on the ground in unbearable pain. then get thrown in jail

[mustangs-flames]

Alternate doctor : You will be a little sensitive to light after Luci's.... "intervention" , so just try to keep away from any too strong light source for some weeks , alright?

Six : *holding super rare photo of Mark smiling*

Six : So shinny...

A.D : Wait no

jfsdhgjhsfdg I like the implication that alternates can be doctors for other alternates lmao /lh

they might be able to help with the recovery process but there's no cure for humanity and attachments I'm afraid lol

#hail true body au #mustang answers! #htb six #poor six though because he wasn't allowed to heal in the void after what lucifer did to him #so he had to spend a lot of time in other forms because his physical one was too painful #i mean all his other forms hurt too. but a tad less than having to be in a solid one #guy was having a miserable time for years #and is still in constant pain which becomes nigh unbearable whenever he's in his true form #angel/divine wounds are brutal like that #they heal but they never stop hurting

[celestialdevils]

DC massacred Barbara’s entire character and made their most iconic female disabled hero abled body just so they could market her to younger girls as this quirky and sarcastic #girlboss batgirl… all while Steph was RIGHT THERE.

Like I just can’t explain how stupid of a decision it was. Barbara was a grown 30 year old woman who was done with Batgirl before she became paralyzed. She wanted to grow up and get a degree. But DC now portrays her as an immature 19 year old who’s whole life was ruined by not being able to be Batgirl. BARBARA WAS DONE WITH BATGIRL BEFORE JOKER! HE TOOK NOTHING FROM HER!

Barbara as Oracle is the peak of her character. She’s a literal god of information, a one in a million. What’s she as Batgirl? Another person in Gotham who punches ok? She didn’t even want to be Batgirl. The name wasn’t her choice, and she had no emotional connection to it. To Stephanie, Batgirl is her peak. It’s the culmination of her acceptance of her new family and acceptance of herself. To Barbara, Batgirl is the childhood play pretend before she grew up and found her actual superhero calling.

Barbara had been Oracle for over a decade by the time they started clawing at the walls trying to reboot her as Batgirl. While they could have put all that effort into properly marketing Steph’s Batgirl run… cause Stephanie is the snarky teenager they want Barbara to be so bad! Make merch of HER on 10 year old’s backpacks and dolls! I don’t want to see T-Shirts of Barbara with random OCs or Gotham girls she’s never interacted with in canon with a slapped on “girl power” tagline! Give me Cass and Steph merch! You know! The actual batGIRLs. Barbara is a WOMAN!

#Stephanie brown #steph brown #Barbara Gordon #batgirl #Batman #dc #batfam meta #I hate babsgirl so fucking much #I miss Barbara’s 2000s writing like someone would miss their lung #its painful to see a character I adored become so unbearable #they stripped her of everything that made her special #she used to be on par with Bruce in terms of authority and so many new Batman fans don’t even know that….

[daylighteclipsed]

cant stop thinking of brenner stranger things’s quote abt the nina opera in relation to sora kingdom hearts forgetting riku’s sacrifice/death I am fr mentally ill

#‘it’s the story of a young woman whose lover was killed in a duel. Nina was so traumatized that she buried the memory. #It was as if it never happened.’ #as soon as i heard that my brain leapt to Them. the brain rot is real and incurable #but i am just. so fascinated by the concept of magic or other worldly forces being used to depict trauma #of which st rgu and kh all hit on #(com specifically has done this already) #like even if sora’s memories have been magicked away it’s what that represents #the complete rejection and repression of traumatic memories #and what makes me so insane is that he watches all his friends die and he can process every death except riku #it’s all a horrible terrible experience but riku’s death is where sora’s heart and mind cut it off #when the pain becomes just unbearable #and it’s going to hurt so BAD when the mental wall - magic or otherwise - is knocked down and he remembers #but it’s also deliciously tied up in a potential realization of romantic love #riku’s self-sacrifice. such a horrible moment. such a wonderful moment. such an overwhelming memory and flood of emotions attached to it #how terrifying

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#hello darkness my old friend. I have insomnia again #it seems i wont get back to sleep. making this the 4th night in a row of 4 to 5hrs sleep. woof #is it insomnia or am i on the bleeding edge of hyp0mania? idk its weird. i can feel the strain in my head #my thoughts dont connect as well. its like im being pulled in two directions. my brain becoming spaghettified. growing thin around the #middle. but im not as tired as one might expect. ive been pretty productive and optimistic but anxiety and internal restlessness are up #like im tired but also i need to get up and pace around. maybe jump up and down. maybe run in circles. #the energy comes in waves. sitting in lectures or sitting for the extended addition of l0tr has been somewhat unbearable #bc im so contained. i would not ever get up and walk around while those things were happening but i desperately wanted to #ugh. whats my problem? who's to say. could also b the medication. i see the psychiatrist next week and i think ill beg to b put back on #lam1ctal. just bc when i was taking it on a super low does i had a week or feeling the most normal i think i ever have in my life #anxiety and evil thoughts were so small and i felt happy in a way im not sure i ever have been #like i think under normal circumstances i just have a low capacity for joy. at most i feel neutral. like i was telling my friends how i #might do some field work in winter and they were enthusiastic abt it and i kno y bc it sounds cool but idk i just dont feel anything abt it #i cant see past the pain it will take to get there. and i mean mood wise i feel alright on 4bilify like in a nutral way but stable isnt #the same as feeling happy. but maybe its all just in my head. 25mg lam1ctal shouldnt b enough to b effective #but idk i think im just sensitive to the chemicals in my body. including hormone fluctuations. idk. i hope she lets me switch. #itll b a pain in the ass to readjust in terms of going off what im on now and it might not work #but theres literature on retrying lamicta1 and they say to avoid inflammatory reactions in the first 2 months. which i did not do. oops #not that i was trying. i didnt think abt it until id had a million holes poked in my skin and was experiencing a mild tatt00 allergy #ugh. anyway. tbh id prefer this being hyp0mania vs insomnia bc then at least i can continue to function a bit during the day #ive never done anything that wild while hyp0manic aside from injure myself from over exercising and make bad choices in how i spend time #ie become insane abt something and not b able to think abt anything else. ugh. and i guess at this point ive tentatively accepted the idea #of being bip0lar. so i swear to christ if i was misdiagnosed ill b so mad. its just that if i fill out an 4dhd and bip0lar checklist. i #get a way heavy positive with bip0lar and the 4dhd is meh. so i think i just have overlap in symptoms due to dyslex1a and 4utism #ugh. me and my collection of diagnoses. so it goes #unrelated

[goldentemplariumcrow]

To the hospital I go!

#》ooc #//the spikes of pain are becoming unbearable #//cya later guys

[duhnova]

guys don’t get asthma, -100000000/10 would NOT recommend.

#— [ 💭 ] nova thoughts #can’t believe people are out here breathing in 8k HD #steroid inhalers taste horrible though and are a pain in the ass and such a hassle????? #i don’t even remember to do mine half the time which would explain why i CANT FUCKING BREATHE 🧍🏻‍♀️ #i also just forget my rescue inhaler exhausts so i just sit here wheezing the whole day until it becomes unbearable #inconclusion i am dumb and i hate asthma

[samwisefamgee]

my tooth hurts so bad I can’t sleep

#I’m visiting friends #it was supposed to be a relaxing break 🙃 #because now that it’s dropped below 30 degrees living in the trailer gets a lot harder #so ya know it’s nice to visit and beat the cold for a while #but nah instead I’ve been having a really really quiet breakdown for two hours while my friends sleep #cause they gotta get up early for work ya know? and my anxiety already makes me hate being here even though they invited me #because it’s still on the pretense of getting out of the cold and even though they’re friends I don’t want them to feel obligated to me just #just cause it’s cold out. that’s not their job #so they bring me into their home to do me a favor and I repay it by being neurotic in the middle of the night. sorry. again #bruh I just wanna catch a break. even my breaks are exhausting #the tank is running empty yall #I haven’t been able to afford going to the dentist for over a year and a half #and I’ve desperately needed to go. I wasn’t even able to afford everything I needed the time I went before that #so my teeth have been extra shit and only getting worse #I just hope the pain goes away #this was supposed to be a break….. #if I don’t focus on other sounds the ringing in my ears becomes unbearable #I’m sitting near a rather noisy heater and it’s drowning even that out at times #and as per usual. god won’t let me die

[diapause]

not my mum trying to explain to me what my joint problem feels like ma'am you developed arthritis in one joint last year I've been dealing with this shit my whole life kindly shut the fuck up

#'if that had Actually been that bad you wouldn't be able to use that limb at all :-)' #there's this crazy thing called you and dad forced me to grin and bear it with all the pain I went through when I was younger #like you are the Reason I refuse to let it show until it's genuinely unbearable and unbearable for me is triple what it is for you #and You Did This! #will never forget the first time I got x rays and they found Multiple old fractures that you never got me medical attention for because you #were just so sure I was overreacting #but of course even now #'you're not in that much pain kyle I'd be able to tell if you were!' #sorry this has become a bit of a rant I'm just. so angry #joint problem in question is ehlers danlos syndrome if anyone has read this far

[zersk]

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#the west is a poison on the mind and soul #The few who realize this feel a great pain in their hearts but the many many people of these lands #They neither realize nor concern themselves #May they be cursed for this. May the poison soon become unbearable #Until their children can only damn their names to hellfire forever

[maletomboy]

getting high recreationally is awesome but needing to be high nearly 24/7 for survival is so ass. honestly

#literally not feeling great #whenever i try to do less benzos and weed the pain becomes actually unbearable and like idk maybe im just weak but yknow like im so tired #im tired of being high too i dont even feel high anymore like high is my normal rn and i hate when high is my normal #but i hate the pain even more so yknow #sooo tired of this stupid chest tube and not being able to shower #and sleeping like dracula on the very edge of my bed and being in constant pain no matter what i do #btw. 100% sure i can only sleep in that position because of all the drugs #naturally i am a rotisserie chicken rotater sleeper. its the best way to sleep. and the only way. for me. #i miss being able to sleep on my side at all now tho #at least before even if i couldnt lay on my right side i could on my left :(((

[lovingsalem]

i put off health stuff til the very last minute. my wisdom teeth r all the way grown in with holes in my gums and it hurts to eat, but i really do not want to go get them taken out

#of course i’ll call to make an appt now finally after a couple years #bc the pain is starting to become unbearable! #p

[slugandthorn]

pain and agony of having so much to learn to make more things but I need a job/further schooling to learn but I have to have made the things first

#.txt #Painful cycle unable to find value in my art but I already gave up and I'm already trying again some one needs to make this easier #And I think my life would be simpler if I just focused on drawing over 3D and tech anim but the time it would take #To function at a professional level as some sort of concept artist. #Also fine artist and concept artist community is well. Unfortunately unbearable. #Lacking so much animation experience in 2D and 3D I'm having trouble focusing on it to move forward. #The most experience I have is in 3D character art at this point probably but inability to finish things which also plagues #Every other concentration. As well. #I am sitting alone in the room trying to find something of value to express and it will never reach anyone. Existential dread like. #I think it's the searching for storytelling skills limiting me because I do not have the competitive nature #To be that into raw technical skills. Which is killing my ability to make a portfolio. #If I had more time to just keep on keeping on at my part time job I think I would just make the graphic novel I want to make. #To have something expressed and in the world. And then I could actually focus on technical things. #But this thinking has just become a roadblock it is not feasible but I do have several paths planned I just have to. #Recognize what is useful to me. But not just giving up anytime I have a new idea. #My interest goes between implementing animation within a greater scene and also the technical minutia I think is whats killing me. #Making multiple portfolios at once. Which isn't so bad bc ideally I'd be doing generalist work. But generalist means more time limitations. #My brain is convinced it can just work past time as a factor. Which is how we reach the problem I am having now (need money). #I think something I need to recognize is I've always thought my perspective and understanding of stories held some value. #But that only stands from my own perspective and it does not have value outside of that. #Even if it does reach other people it does not retain interest. And while it benefits me internally. I'm not making a career of it. #Which is fine. #I think the things I valued from story can still be found in technical skills. And anyone can develop a technical skill with some time. #If I keep my focus. #I think that's something close to a resolution I've been looking for. Been needing some profound change in my life and I think the desire #And constant failure of communication has been what's preventing me from moving forward. #I want to go out and do things. That is possible. Focus on skill and ability. Maybe the other stuff will come later. #Digesting this and hopefully not spending my days sleeping anymore.