#the planet would be gone

[essektheylyss]

I am now thinking about Essek as, essentially, Anna Ripley for the Ruby Vanguard, and it's genuinely horrific to imagine but it's not a real timeline so it's hilarious. It is so funny in concept. He's a glorified postdoc with no mandatory ethics trainings, no future, and nothing to lose. Also he just got handed the power of a thousand suns with absolutely no oversight and a mandate to "do your worst".

This has such extreme "horse loose in a hospital" energy. No one knows what Essek will do next, least of all Essek! He's never been in control of the power of a thousand suns before! He's as confused as you are!

#it would be DISASTROUS #I'm laughing so hard at this concept #the planet would be gone #essek is so funny because he is both SO intensely at the mercy of the narrative and the world #and also he could genuinely destroy exandria if he was left entirely to his own devices and bored #this is also true of fjord for the record but fjord is even LESS at the mercy of the narrative and world #he makes the narrative his bitch #but fortunately he is far too principled and sensible to actually get that far so exandria is safe from that fate. for now. #anyway I have such a terrible headache and the fact that this keeps making me laugh is nOT helping but it's fine #however I am going to go take some meds and lay facedown in the dark. #essek thelyss #critical role

[bonefall]

longtime dc fan and i think a lot of people are angry because alex is obviously one of the most culturally relevant instances of misogyny in media. that being said being more culturally relevant doesn’t mean it’s the worst instance of misogyny and i think bumble definitely experiences more profound misogyny in the way the actual content is presented, if that makes sense

I get you, and that's a charitable way of looking at it.

I think what's rustling my jimmies is that like, there was a couple of WC fans being mildly dismissive of Alex in that note minefield, after dozens of comments of "fuck you how could you let the fridge woman lose" and "Bumble didn't deserve to win ANY rounds" and "how could A CAT experience misogyny." But then WE get blamed for the toxicity because THEY were butthurt that the Funny Cat People have the 'audacity' to win something they feel entitled to.

Like, we've gotta be endlessly charitable as we get openly insulted because they're upset about Alex losing, a very well-known and culturally relevant character with a legacy so massive we have a whole term named after her. But condemnations of "She's just a cat, letting WC into this poll was a mistake, Bumble can't even be a victim of misogyny" only started coming around once I started talking about it.

as if it's OUR fault people got passive-aggressive or even OPENLY aggressive towards us, and that we're "just as bad" for retaliating

But like you said, it's not a "Most Culturally Relevant Misogyny" tournament, it's a "Canon Misogyny Victims" tournament. And you're not even supposed to give a shit that Bumble died. The fat, woman abuse victim is beaten to death by a dictator, and your takeaway is meant to be, "It's so sad that Clear Sky is being blamed for murdering her, now they're all preparing for self-defense against a homicidal maniac, oh nooo :("

And I think that DOES make her deserve the win here! Alex is a MARTYR. Everyone with a brain agrees what happens to her is bad. It happened in her canon because it was bad. We talk about her and keep her memory alive. Bumble gets dismissed entirely out of hand because she's "just a cat in a kid's book" as if that doesn't make it worse, and as if the kid's book didn't treat a domestic abuse survivor like a moron for even asking for help.

Anyway, just to reiterate, I love DC fans. It's not all of you guys. Alex was done dirty and deserves justice-- and it's even kind of a shame that all she became is "The Fridge Woman." I haven't even heard people talk about how she was a wary, responsible person who was still ready to rock with Kyle's new weird glowstick powers, or that she was a journalist, or that she just got brought back in another edition as a Green Lantern only to be revealed as an illusion and re-absorbed back into Kyle's mind. Nope. Even her fans just remember her as The Fridge Woman.

#She wasn't even ONLY brought back as a green lantern btw she also came back as.... #full disclosure I'm not a DC fan this is from My Best Friend + Wiki Education #...as a cool ass evil zombie black lantern #Only for Kyle to have to put her down like Old Yeller #Because he can't handle her Zomgirl Swag #How cunty of me would it be actually if. IF. Bumble sweeps the whole tournament and I go back and write whole essays for-- #how each one of her opponents were worthy adversaries and explain exactly how deep the misogyny of canon went against them #Bones ''King of Women Appreciation'' Fall #Especially Chichi actually. If it had been Alex vs Chichi I would have gone to bat for Chichi. #Chichi was done dirtier than Alex. And also I would go PRETTY hard for my girl Android 18 #And ACTUALLY? One of the WORST victims of DB's misogyny? Don't @ me? Gine. Goku's mom #Behold my race of evil monkey space soldiers and how their violent nature has been exploited by a galactic capitalist dictator #Look at how in-depth I go to suggest them overcoming their battle-centric nature and show how in a different context this can be-- #--applied for heroic ends #Watch the death of my main character's father and show how his last thought was comforted only by visions of how his son would one day-- #overcome the dictator and avenge his death #Only for that to have been subverted because Goku didn't actually give a shit about revenge. Frieza simply threatened his friends. #NEVERMIND!! HIS MOM COULDN'T HAVE BEEN BLOODTHIRSTY BECAUSE SHE'S WOMAN #HOW CAN YOU FEEL BAD FOR THE DEATH OF A WOMAN. A WHOLE PLANET. IF HER HUSBAND DOESN'T LOVE HER AND SHE ISN'T A PERFECT LOVING MOTHER #SHUT UP SHUT UP. GINE KILL THIS MAN #10000 GUNS IN GINE'S HANDS #ouuugh and her husband saved her sooo many times on their expeditions because she sucks and thats why they fell in love :) PERISH. DIE #BAD TORIYAMA. BAD. #JAIL FOR TORIYAMA 10000 YEARS #And Saiyans apparently didn't even really develop romantic bonds between mates but nuuuuh #Gotta have these two be a perfect husbandwife pair with their little nuclear family #Anyway. Aromantic Vegeta with Bulma as QPR partner and coparent be upon ye #stop teasing me by retconning romantic feelings into ur aromantic alien species to ship them im a shaking chihuahua. #also ur all lucky we're not going to be facing Sakura in the next round guys #Sakura is my fucking white whale

[coockie8]

i once had an anti tell me to stop sexualizing their trauma on a story i wrote that was a word for word retelling of my own actual trauma but with names changed and its been 2 years and i still cant stop thinking about that

Ah, yeah... Unfortunately a non-insignificant number of antishippers seem to genuinely believe they own the concept of trauma, so any story they read that they believe to be portrayed in a romanticized or sexualized light therefore must be romanticizing/sexualizing their trauma specifically.

I couldn't tell you the amount of times I've gotten the "stop sexualizing my trauma!!!!!!" or adjacent comments from antishippers that universally garner a response that basically boils down to

Like, bitch! I'm talking about my trauma! I literally did not even know you existed until you fucking commented!

#proship #proshipper #anti bs #just anti things #glad to know antis assuming every story about trauma must be about them specifically seems to be a universal proshipper experience lol #like *how* am I sexualizing *your* trauma when I literally do not even know who you are? #like if you hadn't commented I would've gone my entire life not knowing you even exist #if I had omnipotence like that I certainly would not be using that power to sexualize the trauma of some random fucking stranger! lol #you think my petty ass would be doing *that* instead of the infinitely more infuriating thing of spoiling every show you love at any chance #jokes aside though like seriously get fucking real #I hate to burst your main character syndrome bubble but nobody fucking cares about you #not in the ''nobody loves you and you'll die alone'' sense #but in the ''you are just Some Guy™ and the 8 billion other people on the planet have their own problems to worry about'' sense #if someone is writing about trauma maybe take your self-centred goggles off for 5 fucking seconds #and maybe you'll realise that it is 1000000% more likely this random stranger is writing about *their* trauma #and *not* the trauma of a person whose entire existence they are not even aware of #I do believe the tiktok trend of referring to strangers as ''NPCs'' has at least contributed to this epidemic of main character syndrome #people you don't know are *not* ''NPCs'' you fucking robot! #they are human beings just like you with lives and dreams and loved ones #you just don't know them #sorry but I genuinely think I'd go to jail for murder if I ever heard someone refer to me as an ''NPC'' out in public #'cause genuinely who the fuck do you think you are!?

[tanglepelt]

Dp x dc idea 88

The GIW successfully invade the infinite realms. The Fenton parents were more then happy to provide weapons. Anything to deal with the awful body snatchers.

Danny was revealed, the GIW brought evidence of him being phantom to Jack and Maddie. They two vow vengeance for their dead son.

Danny barely managed to escape with his half-life and fled to the realm. Only for war to happen.

The GIW don’t even have to win battles. Just place anti-ecto bombs strategically in the realm. They can’t win actual battles.

Those in the realm keep disarming them. Some go off, only enough to damage little sections/haunts. If the realm goes the entire multiverse goes. The infinite realm connects every universe and afterlife.

With how unstable the realm becomes the universes are just getting way more natural portals.

Danny and Danielle get caught in an explosion. Just in time for a portal to open and drop them in dc. Without the ambient ecto from the realm the two are forced back into human form.

They run into Constantine. Total coincidence he definitely wasn’t investigating the influx of portals. Danny can feel that he had been in the realm before and is desperate to get back. He panics and info dumps on John.

Now as the two are drained. He can’t tell they are ecto-beings. The assumption the JLD come up with is the two are children from the attacking universe. Obviously they didn’t agree, as the two are adamant that they have to get back and stop dp before every dimension is destroyed.

Now the JL and JLD have to get back into the realm and help stop the destruction of every single dimension.

All while trying to keep the only two who know how to make a stable portal from jumping into every unstable portal that pops up. The portals are only staying for mere seconds and getting shorter each time but increasing in amount formed.

#dp x dc #dc x dp #dp dc crossover #dp x dc crossover #dp x dc prompt #justice league #bad parents jack and maddie #jazz and crew in my mind are dead #the JL and JLD may get attached to these gremlin children #despite there frantic and desperate attempts the two would definitely still be sassy #dp universe defintley gets destroyed #or at least planet earth destroyed #Danny and Danielle get relocated #they are still human after all #the two are defintley covered in bruises and wounds when they first showed up #I’m pretty sure john has walked back to esp from the afterlife #so I’m this he would of had to have gone through the realm #for plot purposes missles don’t work #maybe after the first attempt technus managed to find a way to stop projectiles from entering #it’s too big of a problem to not involve the JL much to johns annoyance #maybe the GL get involved #it would make being a cop hard if the entire universe was dead #Danny ends up transforming the minute he is within range of ecto #the JL and JLD were. or expecting that #he didn’t have the meta gene. #the ran blood work and medical test. with permission #there was no signs of mutation as he literally drained himself dry #idk maybe he saved a hero in the process #Danny and Danielle are tired #let them get help

[aprilshowersanimation]

Happy 20th Anniversary (!!!) to another important movie from my childhood and one of my all-time favorites, Treasure Planet! 🪐🌠🌙

#art #treasure planet #treasure planet fanart #jim hawkins #outer space #two decade anniversaries in less than a week? it's more likely than you think #i would have gone for the solar surfer scene but that was too obvious #so I went for the underappreciated map scene which RULES

[dootplusone]

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Thinking. Abt this but with Bones. Like. Post-Tholian Web? Post-Mirror Mirror?

For AOS, could be after Into Darkness and/or Beyond.

A Bones who's just. So anxious. So stressed. So overwhelmed that it starts taking a toll on his health. Maybe he doesn't even realise - or maybe he does and tries his best to push through it until it knocks him on his ass. Kind of in the vein of "You don't actually know how tired you are until you stop. And then you just physically cannot start again." It becomes his new baseline, a problem that just brews and storms in the distance.

And he just carries on. And keeps going and going and going until one day he realises that 'Oh fuck, I'm not okay' and has about 5 seconds of warning before he straight up collapses, doesn't matter if it's on the bridge, in the madbay, on a planet - he's going down. (Maybe a repeat of Tholian Web where he just straight up faints into Spock's arms? Full whammy, why not)

Maybe it's a high-tension situation getting resolved that does it. The pure relief of it reminds him of how tired he is. How tired he's been for a while. His body sees that momentary rest and goes "More of that, please. And I'm not asking."

And he's so rendered by it that he doesn't grumble about being coddled like he normally would when he wakes up. He knows not to fuck with the medbay staff - they're just as firm as he is on recovery, and that's not by accident - and he knows that Spock and Kirk will be hovering, because they see any problem as something they, too, should shoulder the burden of.

...And because they're some of the most protective people in the damned universe. And that goes for pretty much all the people on board the Enterprise.

In some scenarios, it's just a case of letting his body and mind rest properly. In others, there's a lot more recovery involved than anyone initially expects. Luckily for him, he has a found family who are determined to be there with him at every step. It just takes a couple reminders, every once in a while.

#leonard bones mccoy #star trek tos #star trek aos #whump #back on my bullshit #aos bones fretting over Jim and Spock and their injuries; completely forgetting that hes also a little worse for wear #thinking back to dustykneed's post abt him being fucked up and grieving after ST:ID and. Lets just make it even more physical #After the issues they face from that; Spirk are more aware of Bones' tendency to brush things off. are more equipped to take care of him #when he needs it; just as he does for them. He's so stubbornly self sufficient and it worries them. But they're equally as stubborn and #loving. Unstoppable Force meets Immovable Object. I feel like post ST:ID is where they kind of Learn that Bones keeps shit on the down low #Because like. Bones will complain. Unless it's smth that's just affecting him. And then he suddenly keeps it to himself. When he complains #abt that whole fiasco he complains abt Jim dying. Abt Spock almost dying on that planet. About how they all almost died. But he doesn't tal #about how HE almost died from that fucking torpedo almost blowing up on him. Not a word. Jim forgot it had even happened until like. Carol #brings it up in passing. Maybe she has nightmares on the incident. But he realises Bones has just NEVER fucking mentioned it despite him #being the master complainer. That sets off the first alarm bells. And then maybe Uhura asks Jim how Bones is doing bc she knows that Bones #would just say he's fine. But Jim is like ??? Bc why wouldn't Bones be okay. And then she realises that HE HASN'T realised that Bones is th #kind of motherfucker to suffer in silence. and she's like Jim. Jim he literally ran himself to the ground trying to revive you. Jim. Are yo #kidding me have you NOT TALKED ABOUT THAT??? ANY OF IT??? Thus... Jim realises or maybe even Remembers what Bones is like #bc maybe at some point he DID know Bones well enough to know when he's fucking himself over. But all the Bullshit that theyve gone through #and the fact they work in entirely different parts of the ship kind of. Alienated them a bit. And suddenly hes like. Oh. Oh No. Oh FUCK. #because Jesus how the FUCK does he even approach this. But he manages it. And Spock gets in on it too as he slowly gets to know the doctor #And then post-beyond its like. Yeah. All three of them gang up on each other. That includes Spock and Kirk making sure Bones is as Fine as #he always says he is. #anyway. Yeah. I just think Bones probably stresses and overthinks too much but god forbid anyone comfort him. Self sacrificing bastard #wow this is a lot of alphabet soup im so sorry AHAHA

[what-the-fuck-khr]

may twenty-eighth

#lambo bovino #khr #katekyo hitman reborn #khredit #khrgraphics #my shit #character birthdays #birthday roundup #28th of may #l #anyways in comparison to every other character #Lambo’s TYL characters have the most impact and the most importance to the story #if it were not for Lambo they would not have gone to the future to save the planet in the first place #thank you Lambo #so I wanted to showcase all three for him #and bc he’s hated so much I decided he gets smth special <3 #ipin will also get a special post too <3 #also we are ALL pretending I posted this on his birthday #and not three-four days late

[cruelsister-moved2]

literally any public discourse about what a 19 year old girl should or shouldn't have said to the violent misogynist sex trafficking serial abuser 2x her age who was harassing her is stupid I got so mad opening the news and immediately being bombarded w thinkpieces about how shes a hero or problematic or everything inbetween like none of that is news...

#sorry for logging on making 1000 psots and immediately leaving sorry #she couldve gone to his house n killed him n i would say good for her and moved on #making it news and commentary like. ppl r dyingggg #the only take is that it's really fucked up she had to do that and he should be in jail forever #and we should work harder the protect young ppl in thr public eye esp young women #the way ppl treat her is so fucked up like shes just public property #it's not even like she's a celeb she was literally just a kid who wanted to save the planet #like a 40 year old woman making a 19 year old autistic girl her activism idol/avatar is also fucked up to me. #leave her alone and start recycling and taking the train and refusing to attend destination weddings..

[bardicious]

You've heard of star trek planet modeled after small towns of the old midwestern United States, now how about planet modeled after 1960s sci fi show.

#Where No Man Has Gone Before and Then Some #star trek #strange new worlds #snw #lmao #make a planet that looks like tos #I dare you snw #it would be so funny

[fiddlepickdouglas]

Your girl finally got a fucking apartment!!!!!

#if i had gone for this place on any other day i would not have gotten the deal i just did on it either #THE PLANETS THEY WERE ALIGNED

[kariachi]

Sorry-not-sorry I'm back on my normal 'Kevin and Argit were so small' bullshittery.

Because they fucking were. Kevin was twelve when Servantis tossed everybody, and Argit couldn't have been far off. They were middle school aged. 'Puberty would be starting about now if we weren't wandering the Null Void and therefor likely not eating near enough' aged.

A pair of children, with minimal education, no paperwork, no homes, no guardians. Wandering the Null Void and then the Milky Way, on their own. One a prime target for the slave trade, both prime targets for adults looking to take advantage of them (*coughcoughOttocoughcough*). With only as much security as they could provide themselves and each other. Only able to rely on themselves for the basic necessities of life.

And then this show has the audacity to try to tell me that they turned to crime due to poor morality. That they're money focused because they're just naturally greedy. That they don't trust people and look out for themselves because they're bad people that either will always be bad people or will only improve because of the power of Tennysons.

What options were there for them? What jobs are there in the Null Void? What jobs are there in the galaxy that'll hire barely-teens, if even that, with no paperwork or educations, that wouldn't ruin them as badly and pay worse than the crime they already had experience with? Will keep them fed and clothed and sheltered? When one of them already has a criminal record, for violent crimes at that? When there's nobody there to stop even the 'good' adults from taking advantage of them?

The show will sit there and tell you that Kevin's violent crimes were the result of a rough childhood, but he and Argit's non-violent ones? Totally on them, no excuse, wholly a matter of greed and not giving a shit about other people. Fucking bullshit. This is a pair of kids who had to grow up way too fast, up against an existence that saw at least one of them as easy profit, with nothing but themselves and each other, and no opportunities. They're a pair of traumatized kids who grabbed the opportunities available to them with both hands and were molded by the problems they faced.

Of course they're money-focused, unlike the Tennysons they don't and haven't had anybody making sure they had enough to get by. They've had to support themselves and live with the constant worry that something is going to go pear-shaped and they'll have nothing.

They spent years with anybody and everybody being a potential threat (even between the two of them, Argit's noting that Kevin's snapping while he worked for the Rooters was the worst he'd seen 'before or since' makes it quite clear he's seen him on and passed the edge at least as much if not more than we have), of course they're going to be slow to trust, quick to toss people aside, and unwilling to help their enemies without some sort of payout, they've been burned before.

Just- Damnit these two come from some shitty fucking situations, the effects they had on them are obvious if you bother to fucking look, and they both deserved better than the series just going "oh yeah they're assholes what do you expect they're criminals" and moving the fuck on. Like, for fuck's sake at least acknowledge that they're like this because life was a fucking lead pipe to the teeth to them! We know Kevin's situation was shit even before they met, we got to see it, but even if Argit had a perfectly good life beforehand (unlikely) the earliest we see him is being held captive for illegal experimentation purposes by law enforcement! These two have been through shit! At least acknowledge it!

Fuck, they could've replaced Color of Monkey with that, hitting on the differences between how Kevin and Argit adapted to their circumstances, give us upfront the Tennysons being a safety net that let Kevin heal (rather than just 'oh the Tennysons taught him morals because they're the Good People') while Argit's issues and lack of security kept him stagnant. It would go better with what we see of him over the course of OV leading up to the Rooters arc, and what we're shown in the Rooters arc. Give us him still being far from great or on the up-and-up but improving with the stability that comes with his 'hero' status, a repairing relationship with Kevin after that arc, and a flourishing, above-board business. Rather than backpedaling on any good the writers had thrown at him like they'd realized they were coming up against a cliff.

Shit that makes you want to get the writers by the shoulders and shake them mercilessly.

#the fact kevin's willingness to leave his enemies to their fates is treated as a character flaw resulting from his being immoral #rather than a result of the traumatic-ass shit he's been though and these enemies continue to put him through #we *really* needed a scene between him and gwen where it's made clear that just because she and ben choose to forgive people #doesn't mean kevin has to and that his desire not to help people who only want to hurt him is entirely reasonable #argit has gone through so much shit too and it was understandable it didn't get touched on in UAF because it hadn't been established #but OV has no fucking excuse #bastards really went 'argit is a more accepting partner than rook and selflessly saved a lot of people's lives at least once- #-and cares about kevin and went through so much trauma alongside him and is the wielder of the omnitrix in at least one parallel universe' #and then turned around and went 'but also he is actually an even worse person than UAF showed- #-no really we know we just showed him being the type to selflessly save lives- #-but he's totally down with kidnapping and selling small children to be eaten' #these boys deserve better #honest to fuck they had argit selling children as food directly after showing us how he was treated as a thing by adults as a child #when we know kevin was a victim of the same shit and that argit held it against at least servantis #when we could have had an episode where kids are going missing in Undertown and the heroes learn because Argit called them about it #when we could've had something hitting on he and kevin's trauma from the shit they went through alongside argit growth #as he at the very least refuses to let other little kids go through shit like he and kevin did #which would play well with what we see of him in the rooters arc #*and* what we see in The Purge when he's the one who responds to the FK bullshit not by fleeing the planet but by informing Team Tennyson #despite being shown to have the *ability* to flee #we'd even still get to see scary post-rooters 'don't fuck with me' argit it'd be great #missed fucking opportunities all over the damn place doing these boys dirty

[kenzie-ann27]

oh cool it's getting real bad again

#i just. i don't know anymore #i wish i mattered to anyone #i wish like. idk #i could disappear off the face of the planet and not one person would even fucking realize i was gone #that's how little impact i have on anything and it just. i fucking hate it #people just forget i even exist and it hurts so fucking much and it doesn't even matter! i don't matter! #and they just go on like i never was anything at all #and i'm the horrible one for caring. i'm the horrible one for being nice #i don't understand it and it makes me go insane like #i get it i'm the only person who has zero friends so like obviously i care too much #when you're popular you can afford not to care #and it's fine when i get upset because no one even fucking notices #makes me want to tear my hair out like what the fuck #what did i do wrong #and no one will answer #fucking no one ever answers

[idiosyncraticrednebula]

Radfems and Alt-right'ers aligning with each other is one of the most incredible things to come out of the 21st century lmao

#txt #the only reason they even pay attention to them is because radfems hate transgenders particularly the mtf's with a burning passion #you got radfems involved in right-wing circles and they actually get along with them #even the damn men and i don't know how the f*ck that can possible when radfems want all men to die #this is truly amazing #honestly though they still shouldn't associate with radfems because they don't get that their terf mentality doesn't come from anything els #but their insatiable hatred for men. it doesn't have anything to do with transgenderism itself #“you can be friends with somebody you don't agree with” there is that and there's being friends with somebody that wants you gone from this #damn planet man #but oh well #they are suddenly fine because they tell mft's that they will never be women or whatever #the fact that y'all have reached this level is all sorts of amazing to me #it's gotten to the point where the rw is really associating with a group of people that f*cking hate them and would personally kill them if #they had the chance to actually do it #i'm saying all of this as someone who isn't either left-leaning or right-leaning. screw both sides #on the radfems i don't get it don't you hate all men and think all of them are inherently evil? so why the F*CK are you aligning yourself #with a whole group that you explicitly hate distrust and can't even look in the eye without feeling disgust??? you are a part of something #that they created and that you have explicitly stated on numerous occasions that you find it to be patriarchal misogynistic and sexist #i don't get it???? specially if you are christian you should DEFINITELY not even align with them #if you have that mindset with the jews you should have it with them too. they have a hatred for god jesus christ and christianity because to #them christianity is at the core of women's “oppression” (i mean they direct that at religion as a concept but christianity has been their #scapegoat for over a hundred years at this point #i mean you can still have love for them but they reject jesus. all we can do is pray for them and hope that they embrace jesus christ as #their lord and savior. that's the only legitimate way they can be saved. there is no other way

[kidrat]

guys I love them so much

Toby, Lou, and Tzipporah from left to right. minor characters under the cut lol this is a post for meeee

Top row: Toby's friends Josh, Spencer, and Aisling

Middle row: Tzipporah's little sister Yael. Her love interest Sturdy

Bottom row: Toby's parents Alexei and Ruby. His girlfriend Daisy. Who is dead! That's definitely not just Lou pre-transition!

#Sturdy should have a choppy shag. straight haired ellen ripley. #i just chose the closest thing that was giving gay. also dont think they'd wear traditional clothing much but she DOES wear that colour lot #and none of the other outfits worked at all #also CONSIDERED giving Toby the little blue and white striped tshirt bc he Would... #but thought w the cigarette he might look too french #hes not. hes eastern european and jewish/space southern american #if ur interested toby and aisling (at 17/18) and tzipporah and josh (twenties) #were both victims of well why not relationships. theyre all still friends #tzipporah avoided josh for like three years but the breakup was amicable she's just like that #also if ur interested ruby and alexei run ruby's family's farm #mostly sheep :) #aisling's family are in horses #i dont think the other two of toby's group were brought up *on* farms but they know what theyre doing in that regard #josh works for aisling's family and spencer studied mechanical engineering #tzipporah did history with french #and then moved to a planet where no one speaks it. after The Traumas #lou barely has high school level education #toby was happy being a farmer pre Space War #but in another universe he might have gone to college sometime in his twenties and done men. (badum tsshh. he'd have done philosophy) #louniverse

[ehlnofay]

in the midst of a little depressive episode at the moment I fear and it's causing me to Ponder... in a weird way I'm almost grateful. like this is UNBELIEVABLY better than it used to be, even as much as it sucks in the moment. I wish I could go back to find myself at twelve years old hiding out in the school toilets and tell them that as long as we stick it out for long enough then one day the outsize bad emotions will be triggered by actual definable events and they'll be a noticeable change from our baseline. I'm not ✨recovered✨ and I don't know if I ever will be - I think I might have spent too many developmental years creating terrible patterns and associations to be able to straighten it all out - but it's Better and I'm able to know that it can continue to get better, too. and that's fucking huge.

#fay gets uncomfortably personal on her video game blog. NOT SORRY. #idk it's just crazy to think about #I really struggle to tap into this space enough to remember when I'm not actively in it #but I was SO FUCKING SICK back then. I was a child. and I was so fucking ill. I didn't know how young I was and I didn't realise how #disturbing it would feel down the line #(obviously. you don't lie down on the road in the middle of the night thinking 'I can't wait to suddenly remember this moment #in several years so it can become a sticking point in my psyche') #but like. that's my brother's age that's my sister's age I work with kids that age and it's so fucking young! and I'm so young now! #and I bet in five years I'll be going 'what a small little child... crazy' all over again #but like. idk. I was SO ILL. and I don't think it's like people say they thought they'd be dead by a certain age #it was a possibility for me but not an inevitability #but I don't think that I could have foreseen being better #in such a material way. you know. like I can't imagine myself ever fully healthy #or as close as anyone can get. I've had all this shit for so long. the idea of not carrying it anymore is honestly unappealing #like what would I even do without it. who would I be. how could that possibly happen #but this shit is BELIEVABLE. it's not gone it's just better and when it crops up I can deal #and I wish I could take the me of back then by the shoulders and say THIS IS NOT FOREVER!!!!!!! #ride it out long enough and you'll learn to live with it!!!!!!!! #it's just. really fucking huge. and I am so grateful #peace and love on planet earth!!!!

[uneorange]

Things I’m missing about you today:

- when you would sing while cleaning the house

- the sound your bracelets made on the kitchen table when you would help me with my homework

- the way you would pet your goldfish on the head with one finger when he swam to the top of the tank to greet you

- your lipstick smudged on my cheek when you gave me a kiss to annoy me (I was never, ever annoyed)

- sitting between your legs while you braided my hair

- watching you paint your nails

- the way you knew which ultraman episodes would have the theme song in English and which would be in Japanese

- sitting next to you on the couch and watching inuyasha in the dark

- the fact that you let me be the weirdest version of myself that I could be and the only thing you ever said about it was “which character is your boyfriend in this show?”

- the smell of your perfume

- your very sparse grey hairs

- when you’d make up some arbitrary monetary value for every basic task (using your bathroom cost $5 dollars. I say this to my students, too. It makes them laugh like it made me laugh)

- when you would become a vampire and bite me on the cheek, not enough to hurt. Just enough to make me laugh and tell you to go away

- your collection of little trinkets. So many little glass trinkets

- so so so many episodes of gunsmoke and bonanza

- when you’d tell me no, I couldn’t keep a blue crab for a pet. Put it in the pot.

- the way you always tucked my blankets in way too tight

- unlacing your shoes for you because you swore you just couldn’t reach

- dancing in the living room with you

- you, before you weren’t you anymore

#I don’t even visit you because you’re just dust and formaldehyde in a box in the dirt. and a stone. #and I feel guilty. #and I’m sorry we didn’t talk much at the end. #but you were so tough and so brave and I know things were hard. #I wish I could have known you as an adult #I wish we could have gone shopping. and gone out to eat #I wish you could come read to my students and help me decorate my classroom #I wish you came to my college graduation #I wish I could ask you why your biscuits are the best ones on the whole planet #I wish you would braid my hair again like just one more time #when I do it it doesn’t look as nice #adulthood is not as fun without a mommy I look for you everywhere and I can’t find you #I don’t even know which parts of me are you anymore because it’s been so long #and I couldn’t ask you while you were here #can you come back please? #please?