#their friendship is truly something else

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The musical episode.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jin guangyao #nie mingjue #Remember jin guangyao: If you do any treachery you will face the wrath of five horses. #When are the horses going to come into play? You'll see. #s2.ep8 had beautiful music... I listened to it on loop while drawing! #Good music to chill out to before you fly into a rage. #This episode really cements how JGY's mind works - It is a matter of long-term outcomes at the sake of nearly everything else. #Morals do not matter to him if the outcome is more favourable. #and at the center of it all - he has learned that the only person he can truly trust is himself. #In turn - the only person his actions benefit are himself. #He will do anything and everything it takes to reach a position of power - not just for the power. But because it means safety. #Because it was something he was denied and the idea of not having control in his life again is unforgivable. #'Happiness' isn't a goal. We are looking at someone still stuck at the bottom of Maslow's hierarchy of needs. #Everything and everyone is a piece in a game. Bonds and friendships are assets. People are dispensable. #He wants to climb for the sake of climbing. He wants praise and recognition because he feels it is deserved. It's all so hollow. #We could go deeper into his psyche on this. #But these are also tags under a comic in which 'evil penis music' is the punchline.

[daily-hanamura]

#do you guys ever think about how yosuke is always the one that proposes their outings #yu is the catalyst that brings them together but yosuke is the glue that helps hold them there #thinking about his shadow's comment about how yosuke needs to surround himself with as many people as possible to stave off the loneliness #and to a large extent it kind of still holds true here (and theres nothing wrong with that!) and not only does yu know that #yu doesnt judge him or tease him for it. and like for all the things that yu (or anybody else) teases him about #THAT is not it #Yukiko calls him well connected and friendly aaaaah i cannot get that out of my head ever #and it's also in how his proposals are received by the others - everyone else is always genuinely excited to participate in it #like the motorcycle license and the beach holiday is all your friends can talk about for the days after that #i think its one of those things that imo really add to that... very organic friendship dynamic that the IT have compared to the SEES #or even the PT to some extent #(listen i love the PT dont get me wrong but the IT just have a Something to them) (and i think a lot of it is driven by Yosuke) #his friends rib and tease him because hes so bullyable but they are always always so willing to jump in when he suggests something aaaaaah #and he knows this!! he may not have realised it at first but he does eventually!!! #yosuke truly my beloved my absolute number one love

[rotisseries]

the way elmike had the possibility of a very close and real and intimate friendship stolen out from under them because of heteronormativity telling them the only way they were meant to fit in each other's lives was romantically, even though neither of them truly wanted that... pushing them further apart... tragic. literally so tragic

#what am I ON tonight someone get me help since when do I care this much about the 2 of them #no but literally. season 1 they're understanding each other so well... it warms a bitch's heart #like truly it's the foundations of something so sweet but then everyone is telling them it must be romantic #and it sours it. now they're no longer just 2 people with a budding friendship #now they're a Boy And A Girl and The Boy And The Girl and can it get any more obvious? #and then in s4... they're both gripping so tight to a dead thing because they've never allowed their relationship to be anything else #they've never BEEN allowed to BE anything else #SO THEY'RE CONVINCED THAT IF THEY WANT TO BE IN EACH OTHER'S LIVES AT *ALL* IT HAS TO BE ONLY THAT WAY #THAT'S THE FUCK OF IT ALL #sorry that's my new favorite phrase all of a sudden #BUT WHAT. SORRY LIKE BEAUTIFUL ELMIKE FRIENDSHIP KILLED DEAD IN THE WATER BECAUSE OF FUCKING HETERONORMATIVITY #stranger things #el hopper #mike wheeler #elmike

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

*pointing at any early SVU scene where Munch and Fin are bickering* they were in love here

#this is a joke bc the phrasing absolutely takes me out giggling but their friendship >>>>> #‘’i’ll be your boy!’’ said with the biggest smile after saying something SO politically incorrect…. IDIOTS #also that episode where fin gets shot and munch straight up tells their frickin captain to his face that he’s staying at the hospital #and letting someone else investigate whatever whatever #truly weirdo friendships of all time in the sometimes terrible cop show. somehow #svu

[shieldwife]

also worth saying that this is driving me to writing thg fanfic bc I'm genuinely pissed off, but my favourite way of engaging with thg isn't even with canon characters at this point. it's through thinking about two ocs I've had for years that I mentally refer to as "toxic fishermen yuri", and I'm incapable of writing extensively abt anything related to thg that doesn't involve them lol

#toxic fishermen yuri is like: #what if we were childhood friends who grew up together in our working class neighbourhood and knew each other in a way no one else ever wil #but you were being indoctrinated into thinking that our evil fascist government and their child murder competition were actually cool #and that you should totally volunteer for them one day. and even though I unlike you am immune to propaganda I can't abandon you #I'll never abandon you. you're the only person who has ever truly known me and I'm the only person who has ever really known you #so even after you volunteer and I watch you become twisted into something I KNOW you're not and you come back as ghost of your former self #with blood on your hands and a dead look in your eyes I'm still here. I'll always be here. I promise. #even when I become more and more deeply involved in a plot against our government and you become more and more entertwined with it #and I watch you be used and abused by it even as you claim you owe everything to them. and so many ppl I know claim you're a collaborator #a capitol loyalist and a traitor I know you're not. I know you. you had good intentions and did what you thought was right #I know you're just scared. I know you just want to protect people and you're just trapped in a web of you're own making #and given the opportunity? I know you'd take a way out. I know you'd do the right thing. I dont care what you or anyone else thinks. #I'm still here. I can't abandon you even if I wanted to. and I know you won't abandon me #and also we were both girls #anyway. they make me unwell </3 I love toxic homoerotic friendships. I literally can't talk about them or I just. do what you see above #I go completely insane and I know literally no one else will care lol #op

[winnie-the-monster]

Me at the legacies writers

#and it’s not just Landon/Hope/Handon #it’s all the characters/‘friendships’/storylines #the truly messed up the last two seasons of the show #they would write Hope/Landon occ just for the sake of whatever they wanted to do #they would have these big speeches/moments to show good friendships(panda promise Hope wouldn’t fight alone only for Hope to fight alone) #a whole speech about how Lizzie couldn’t kill Hope to Lizzie trying to kill her the very next episode #talking about how they would never leave a friend behind but would gladly leave them behind if it was convenient for them #I bet the wouldn’t have even tried to save Cleo if they didn’t need her muse powers #and so on #or them foreshadowing something only to make all that foreshadowing for nothing #spending a whole season setting up something only to make it pointless #making a big deal about malivore wanting Cleo to use her muse powers/gave him a vision and did nothing with it #save them with him taking Hope/golem Landon’s hair & ripper Kaleb #OG triad was over before it even began. idk if I can call the god storyline a storyline at all #limbo?? they kept changing limbo like it was nothing/even the ferryman thing made no sense #oh and does anyone else remember before s4 started they said all would be revealed? revealed nothing/gave us more questions #as well as so many other things #I don’t when or if I’ll ever be over what they did to show #bc it truly says something when the show ends with me only liking to characters and wanting justice for them

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

"look over at Data... there's an aura around him."

"well of course! he's an android."

"but... you say that as if you think that's what we all see."

"don't you?"

#nevermind I'll just be over here weeping #of course geordi is the one who sees him like that #everyone else looks at data and even if they don't mean to even if they don't /want/ to #they see something less #a not-human. a not-living. he's mechanical he's synthetic he's not truly 'alive' in the way they are. #but geordi... he looks at data and he sees something /more/. he always has. and he doesn't know how not to. #for him data glows. #idk man I just get kinda emo about their friendship I guess T.T #gurt says stuff #star trek #st: the next gen

[medicasino]

i'm seriously tired of this like,,, constant feeling of never really feeling important to anyone. and it's like, it's 100% on me, it is 100% my fault i feel this way but,,, eugh

#affie txt #it isnt anyone's fault at all im just like super unwell LOL #its like. i mourn the friendships where i genuinely felt wanted. because it was ME who fucked them up and now i just feel legitimately like #no matter how many people i befriend and burn through it's like i can never ever feel truly wanted or like im at all important to them #and when i DO #when i do feel wanted and important its always so short-lived and they move on to someone else #and im just like really tired of wanting to be loved and never actually feeling loved #every friendship i was a part of where i felt like i was genuinely important or wanted has completely eroded and its like. all my fault and #im just. really fucking tired of never feeling loved like ever #and its not anyones fault its not like people are mistreating me #I AM THE PROBLEM. I am the reason i feel unloved #because theres something wrong with me and i can never ever feel like im loved even if people say they love me!!! it always feels so hollow #and every time i see my friends get along better with other people i always feel so fucking jealous and its like its such a me problem #but its so hard to get out of this mindset because its one i've been trapped in for YEARS #i've dug this hole and now i lay in it because there is no way out and im so. tired. i just want to be loved #i want to be important to someone i want to be someone's special person their number one and its like #that'll never happen to me!!!! because I AM THE REASON no one views me that way!!!! Im unstable messy reactionary lazy and mean #and so fucking anxious about every little thing that like of FUCKING course no one would love me!!!! loving me is HARD because #i am not MEANT to be loved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am meant to be hated or seen as disposable!!!! #ugh im just so fucking sick of feeling disposable. #vent #ask to tag

[kerorowhump]

44a has an interesting premise because it's not too often we peek at keroro's determination (though it is an underrated part of his character) but here specifically it gets pitted against FRIENDSHIP which is another core element for him and something he really wants... we see him giving it up on a whim to try to achieve his goals

#musing #i will have more insightful stuff to say about this later i just wanted to jot it down quick first #it's important that hes VERSUS fuyuki and not anyone else #because it truly represents the struggle of keronians vs pekoponians i mean the war #kero n fuyu are friends but they Cant be. because of that. it's like the FIELD TRIP manga volume #i mean chapter #their friendship defies the war. but this ep says something important which is. how can they trust each other? #trust is a choice... it IS a lot like throwing urself in the water even tho u dont know how to swim. #keroro

[space-coupe]

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#okAy so i'm not going to finish writing it i lack the skill n talent but i Must get this out there it's haunting me #i know rpf freaks some ppl out in which case why are u following me i literally made this blog bc i wrote so much goddamn rpf #but anyways. fair warning in advance. n i will delete this once i stop being insane blah blah blah #but god. just obsessed with piarlesteban ideas rn. with charles watching all the alpine stuff we're seeing trickling out now and like #the bittersweet feeling that comes with watching someone you love succeed at the cost of them potentially moving on without you #at least when pierre and esteban weren't talking it wasn't a constant reminder that Technically he's not pierre's oldest friend on the grid #that while he Technically thinks he knows pierre best. he wasnt one of those kids from normandy #is it jealousy? is it fear? is it something else? #after all if he called pierre 'pierrot' on main and started posting tiktoks with how important their friendship is #it would be smth f1 reposts and takes everywhere and makes a situation out of. but esteban can do it naturally. #him not wanting pierre and esteban to fall out again because truly he Does love them both albeit in very different ways because they *did* #all grow up together. but then if they do. he doesn't have to worry about if pierre starts to hesitate more when he's asked who he's #closest to. who his best friend is. doesn't have to worry #plus. plus plus. add in the context of it mirroring /pierre/ feeling like he got left behind while charles #blazed trails in his top team and pierre went back to his junior team who try as they might could never give him that wdc #sorry ive just been listening to smile like you mean it on repeat. and like #and someone is playing a game in the house i grew up in. and someone will drive her around on the same streets that i did #i CAN and i WILL make this about them #esp because im already deep in copium #YO the fact i can edit tags now. fucking SEXY!

[20cm]

♡ megbias highlight reel — heart boys, if you will . for meg @slowrabbitpd , happy birthday . ♡

#caleb.gif #i could tag all these guys but honestly this is For meg <3 :') its rly not fandom related its just going to be posted on tumblr dot com #( if anyones curious tho: changkyun + yeonjun + kang daniel / kihyun + junhyeok + taehyun / seungyeop + steve + romin ) #meg!! happy birthday bestie 💕 #really i hope you have an absolutely wonderful day ahead of you and are able to enjoy it w/ your People whoever they may be #and that you get to treat yourself to something fun <3 and have a wonderful meal 💖 #spiritually i am making you egg on rice right now.. or go out for kbbq or w/e u kno.. #truly its been an absolute pleasure to have met you and become friends outside just being mutuals on tumblr #youre such a fun and warm and funny person whos just . smart as a whip and have a killer sense of design and general eye #ur an absolute joy to talk to nd i cherish all the roller coasters we've been on together since last year .. theres no one else id rather - #be SO so normal with <3 u just Get it. and i appreciate that more than i could put into words. i love all our shared megrook bias boys + #biases in law? is that what we can call it. anyways. megbiases are treasured <3 so i wanted to include them in a little something #all for you <3 including some very special sky pics !! bc u sent them to me a while ago and i treasured them!! so. have some megbias boys #peeking into ur photos. thats the concept yup fkgjkjdgf idk i just had an idea of sort of .. flipping thru photos here. #anyways. love u bestie! very much. sending u big warm hugs #we are the [deep breath] #taejunist high school yearbook editor freshman orientation leader magic and hiyyih defense squadists kep1er detectives #the boyz gatekeepers woojinist dailytaehyun and soobinsource admin team •_• (witnesses of the horrors) + peer review service #^ that gets longer EVERY time. lmfao 💕 #ill shut up now but <3 just thank u for being here and being u. i admire u and cherish our friendship + thank u for ur endless patience #bc ik the last few months i was sorta awol but u never once made me feel bad for it and its that sort of level of Comfortable that means - #the world to me<3 so im glad i have tht w/ u <3 #MWAH ok [posts]

[viosjaan]

i don't think you want anything to do with me anymore so i can just vent the texts i want to send to you here

#i am sorry #truly genuinely #ive been trying to justify it to myself that we weren't technically together and you said go kiss other people ill still be here meet your #needs in the way you want #but i think it was #yesterday #this guy flirted with me and i flirted back but then suddenly this wave of disgust and self loathing hit me #like what am i even doing #how could i have done that #you were sitting there thinking we're okay you thought we were still together and im just in a bad mood going thru one of those depressive #episodes you were so understanding when you shouldn't have been because if i say im in love with you i should be there for you every step #of the way. #but you go through so much shit alone and im never there for you or atleast not there for you a lot of times and then i blame you for #liking your bestfriends more like it's so stupid obviously love should be reliable stable #and we were something na. we were everything except the label #i should have told you the moment i started feeling empty and dissatisfied again #but just. this isn't an excuse but like i didn't want to hurt you by bringing up this same fight for the one thousandth time #we agreed that you're not in the position to give more and i agreed to be okay with it and i really was. #but i can't help myself i want to give you everything i hate that feeling that i need to be less love less WANT less. mujhse nahi ho pata #i wasn't lying or pretending to be okay with it i was TRYING my best to be okay with it because i love you and this was the only way to #not lose you forever #now i just want to move on fr and be just friends with you. i can't lose you as a person but i don't know how to make this up to you #i am physically incapable of being in this situationship i want a relationship or a friendship i can't with this in between #which is what i told you in jan. i remember my chest actually feeling heavy with fear bc i was so scared of hurting you and getting hurt #again. jokes on me my worst fears came true all the progress we made by taking space is lost #i don't know if you really deleted my playlist. i tried to listen to more songs from it but they're so. lovely. talking about epic grand #love. which we have. but it's like waving a candy in front of a kid and snatching it away it hurts too much to have all the feelings and #none of the relationship. now that ive talked to some people in the romantic sense i get it #you were my best love my most perfect love there are no flaws there's nothing anyone else can do that can be equal or more to what you did #but idk it isn't meant to be maybe there's no future

[exoexid]

the suyeol lore is so crazy

#their relationship is so interesting to me like aoughhhh #like you see subaek and even tho they don't talk a lot on camera (most of the time) those two get along so well #they understand and respect each other so much they take their job very seriously and they're actually good friends as a result #suyeol on the other hand is 12 years of slowburn like it's crazyyyyy #you admire him and believe in him like no one else does and then you discover that he isn't that great actually #so you get disappointed and distance yourself and then you both are in this weird limbo for years as you grow up #and slowly but surely you rediscover how your relationship works because both of you are adults now and now we're here #like yeah suhito was stressed back then the context was not great for a leader AND tao was still with exo so lmao pcy could fend for himself #so i get ittttt they were going through it but. i need to know what he said to pcy like oh my god was it really that bad 😭 #i wonder if they've ever mentioned it 🤔 #writing this bc i just remembered that one time they had to describe e/o and suho was like #“you're my cute dongsaeng i admire your talents so much and oh btw you're not uncomfortable around me these days right? uwu” #LIKE ??? KING YOU CAN'T SAY THAT AND LEAVE US IN THE DARK #(<- they totally can it's not our business lmao) #idolization to tentative ''''enemies'''' to coworkers to friends to good friends is crazy #i need to look into this properly omg let's do some research #anyways i want a subunit :) they can be called exo sc too sehun won't mind bc these are like his favorite people in the world!!! #idk i find the exos and their bond so interesting because you truly have it all with them there's a whole spectrum of friendships #and i appreciate that it's not like with b*s & taegi (if you don't know who they are... let's keep it that way <3) #because those two were just too different to get along. it was extreme. but bighit forced it so much it was painful to see sometimes #and then the hawaii trip came and they painted it like a ''see? after this trip they get along so well now <3'' moment #1. girl let's be serious for a sec 😐 and 2. it's not our business!!!!! focus on making good music!!!!! #i'm so glad exo didn't have to go through something like that bc i just know that they'd have disbanded by now sjfsifjsk #the saranghaja sprite isn't that intense we lovr freedom of choice (keeping in mind that they were under sm) <33333 #so YEAH. can you guys tell i can't sleep hehe :) #dara.t #suho and chanyeol

[sugaredoleander]

a lot of you guys would really enjoy medical school. get to unlock a secret level of friendship: taking each other's blood

#this is a joke obviously but medschool friendships truly are something else #you might enjoy medicine if you enjoy: found family trope #or if you think letting someone make you bleed is a level of intimacy #don't let me lure you into it if you don't actually enjoy the Medicine part of it a freaky amount. you have to be crazy abt it to survive

[ouraniatm]

❛ ...okay, and that's supposed to be my problem? ❜

stolen from @gxldensiilence !!!! tagging: literally anyone who wants to do this LMAO does anyone do this tagging thing anymore?

#⟪ character study. ⟫ unlocking friendship level 9000. #WOW ! CORA IS A DIFFICULT PERSON TO GET ALONG WITH? #SHOCKER! #i admire those who still pursue a ship with her i truly do. like wow. #she can be REALLY ... something else. alright. #me @ her ships: u like ur badass bitches who can step on ur ass?

[stuckinapril]

23 things I learned in 2023:

Breaking promises to yourself is essentially telling yourself you’re not worthy of commitment or effort.

Listen to people when they tell you who they are.

People put their best foot forward when they first meet you. If they’re already being shitty, it’s likely only going downhill from here.

Self-care isn’t always indulging instant gratification and not doing hard things. I was actually at my most fulfilled when I did hard things DESPITE not feeling like it.

If you’re clinging to other people for fulfillment or validation, you probably don’t like yourself very much.

It’s never the end of the world like we think it is.

If someone wants to walk out of your life, let them. Never be in the business of changing people, even when it comes to changing how they think about you.

Brutally honest communication is everything, but that can also coincide with tactful kindness. Neither is mutually exclusive.

Having a routine makes a massive difference.

Comparison is pointless. No one else has been dealt the same cards you’ve been dealt.

Envy is a waste of time. Instead of being envious of other people, view them as proof of concept.

Self-accountability is important. We are fallible and it’s okay to make mistakes; we just need to own up to them.

Every failure is an opportunity for growth.

Every severed friendship, failed opportunity, lost connection etc etc leaves space for better things to replace it.

We are not tethered to people’s image of us. We are free to change ourselves whenever we please.

It’s not other people’s way, but it’s my way—and that’s all that matters.

Someone denying you love does not erase you.

Piggybacking off the last point—someone not acknowledging the virtues you have doesn’t mean that you don’t have those virtues.

All that really matters are the opinions of the handful of people who truly love you, as well as your opinion of yourself.

Waiting at least 15 minutes before reacting to something. Never trust yourself during the moments when something just hits (learned this the hard way).

Situations are complex and almost never a one size fits all. Asking for advice is okay, but take it with a grain of salt/ultimately follow your own judgment.

Social media isn’t the devil, but scrolling endlessly is. Make an intentional effort to supplant screen time with books and hobbies and friends and tangible, real life things.

We all die one day. None of this is that deep and none of this really matters. Stop taking things so seriously and just enjoy the process 🤍

#happy new year #text