#they'll figure something out

[tracing-lines-in-the-infinite]

I knew Riz wanted the Bad Kids to stay together for Junior year. I knew that. But when he told Sklonda that they needed to find a university that all 6 could get into I started crying. He just wants to be with his friend forever and I don't want to see him hurt when that doesn't happen.

#I didn't think he'd get even more like me his season and I'm going wild #riz gukgak #fhjy #and he put so much thought into it! #he's gotta look out for everybody!! #they'll always be friends but they won't always be together & that's something I struggled to figure out so bad #fantasy high junior year

[coquelicoq]

what i love about the Famous Actor Natori Shuuichi of it all is that...it's not just that he's famous and therefore widely recognizable wherever he goes. like yes that is very funny because he was an exorcist before he became a famous actor, which means he CHOSE, on purpose, a day job that would make it harder to hide his double life/secret identity from the hordes of his adoring public, but it's more than that. it's not just that he's famous, it's that he's famous specifically for being an ACTOR, aka a person whose job it is to dissimulate, to make believe, to inhabit roles and emotions other than his own. like he decided he was going to become as visible as possible (which again was literally not necessary! he could have gone into any other career for his day job!!) but in such a way that everyone would see him but no one would see him - they would just see his various made-up personas, including the Famous Actor Natori Shuuichi persona. i can't decide if he's a genius or if he just made so many absurd decisions that they canceled each other out and circled back around to working out. he's either playing 9-dimensional chess or he's eating the pieces. too soon to say.

#the other thing i love about it is that in a very real sense it's his actor day job that is his alter ego #being an exorcist is his normie job. he's just a famous celebrity on the side #which isn't that uncommon in secret identity setups but it's still very funny #natsume's book of friends #natsume yuujinchou #natori shuuichi #natsuyuu meta #my posts #f #i think probably the actual answer is that acting was a very natural career choice because he already masks so extensively #both to hide that he can see things other people can't (and that youkai exist and that he exorcises them) #and to hide what he's really feeling so that no one can use it against him #so if it's already something he has to do & he's good at it...why not have someone tell him exactly how to do it & get paid for it? #and the other part of the answer is that most ppl don't go into acting assuming they'll get famous. the fame was a side effect #so each decision as it was being made probably made perfect sense. but put them all together #and you have this hilarious assortment of elements that seem to directly contradict each other #okay also i would be remiss if i didn't mention the other possible answer which is that the attention came first and was unavoidable #and the acting developed from the need to protect himself from the attention that he was going to be attracting no matter what he did #because he's so beautiful. and (in the exorcist world specifically) because he's the last of the natori #the more i talk about it the more i'm like no becoming a famous actor was the only path that made any sense for him lol #1) he's gonna be watched no matter what bc he's him -> gotta figure out how to hide his secrets -> learn to act as self-defense #or 2) he's got secrets -> he's gotten a lot of practice hiding them -> hey you could make a career out of this! #all roads lead to actor natori shuuichi. and since he's beautiful...all roads lead to FAMOUS actor natori shuuichi #i love it when i ramble so much in the tags that i end up contradicting my own post lol #he's neither thinking ten steps ahead nor is he irrational. he's simply making sensible individual decisions #that follow logically from what is available to him and what his priorities are

[wolves-in-the-world]

thinking about how the one time eliot masterminds something, it's because the circumstances are dire and we don't actually see it happen; how he says he plays chess and nate believes him but we don't ever see it or hear about it again; how we don't even see his most basic fighting skills until they're needed and he has to drop the cerebral and nonthreatening grift he was using in front of the team. and I don't know what to think except that in some ways he's just as secretive as parker is, we just don't see it because on top of that he's this very believable gruff-but-sorta-amiable person who meets up with his vet buddies and goes on dates and cooks for his team.

#not heading anywhere particular with this just. #with parker we see the warehouse and the multiple addresses and it's all shown to us in a way to draw attention to her caution #and how much she trusts the team regardless by letting sophie figure out the combination #and we have to assume that eliot has safehouses too but the show never even flirts with the idea of showing us. #he's secretive in a way the story allows and glosses over. #the difference between him and parker is that he pretends hard to be normal and she either can't or doesn't. #once again reminded of the ship dynamic 'there is something wrong with you that is also wrong with me.' #like. I sort of love that we don't see eliot's discussion of the kidnapping. what he figured out and how they'll handle it etc. #because just like in the pilot it's including the viewers in his grift #and this time it's the grift he resorts to most around people who know his job #the one that says he's violent and simple and not especially bright. the one that leads people to underestimate him. #power negativity applied in the best way for a hitter's career. #it's a grift we see multiple times and we're only barely shown the edges of it. #I would still kind of love to see more. because once again #it is fascinating to me that you can watch the entire damn show and still believe the grift of it. #eliot #leverage #hi I've been ignoring tumblr to get writing done and I keep having thoughts. it's terrible.

[orcelito]

Wild that anytime I post an update a lot of people read it and are even excited about it and have their own thoughts and reactions to it that I'll never know.

Comments are only the very tip of the iceberg with it. And I am Very grateful to commenters for letting me in on it. But in the same way that I'll be excited with my friends when a fic we love updates, it's likely that Other people enthuse with Their friends when my fic updates. And it's just so strange. An experience I'll never have access to.

Everyone's relationship with my fic is unique. So many different people with so many different circumstances and preferences... and the number of people that have told me that my fic is one of their favorites, some even saying it's their Favorite favorite... every single one of them have their own relationship with my writing.

It's just interesting to me. I think and think and think on my writing. I have my plans for basically the entire fic, the way I want it to end already thought out, all the major plot beats and the relationship progressions, All of that thought out. I love my writing so very much, but I'm on the inside looking out. This is my mechanical horse, and I'm in here laying out the groundwork and pulling levers and constructing limbs, puttering away making the horse move. Forever and always, my relationship with it will be more intimate than anyone's, and yet more clinical. Because I know it better than the back of my own hand, but I'll never have the experience of reading it fresh. Of reading it without knowing everything that's going to happen from now to the end and beyond. I won't have the thrill of the plot twists I have planned, the delight at seeing things progress, the horror at seeing things go wrong...

This is my mechanical horse, and I'm making it move.

I just always wonder what it must be like to see it from the outside. I hope to others that it's a pretty horse.

#speculation nation #itnl shit #didnt mean to write this much about the concept but i really am so... #jealous almost. id love to be able to read my fic as a reader. #because it's tailor made to my tastes Exactly. #and i know it's good writing. i surprise myself even sometimes with how good things end up. #it's never a doubt in my mind that i'll make things good. even the harder things . while bringing trepitation . i know i'll figure them out. #the relationship a fic writer has with their own fic is so... yeah. intimate. but still somehow emotionally removed. #but thats how it goes with any art piece i think #the creator sees all the bits and pieces that went into it. remembers the thoughts as they made it #they know their work better than Anyone Else. but they'll never be able to experience it like an outsider. #is my fic helping someone through a rough breakup? is it something someone rereads when theyre sad? #is it a fic that people stay up way too late reading? the fic that someone discovers and consumes all within a day? #that voracious love. ive experienced it many times with other fics. but i can never experience it with my own. #but in the end. that's okay. i will just continue to do as i wish with it. and maybe people will continue to like it. #it is my goal to make a fic that people will never forget. what that may mean differs depending on the person. #i want it to be the best fic it can be. and i will make it so with every brick i lay down. #puttering about for days and weeks and months. it's Most of what i think about. it's my impact on the world. #and it's sitting for 3 hours after work in the storage room writing until im shivering but Satisfied with a productive writing session #it's writing some of my most emotional scenes while sitting for an hour on the toilet #no one else knows what the toilet written scenes are. but I Do. such is my relationship with my fic. #(the focus in the Quiet Rooms cannot be underestimated. the bathroom is indeed one of the Quiet Rooms lol) #& man. ive rambled so much now. but i just love my fic so very much #i'll never be an ITNL reader. and that's okay. because i'm its writer. & that's a status that No One Else can boast. #even those people who state that it's their Favorite favorite cant rival the intimacy of my own relationship with it. #I Am Its Writer and that means so very much to me. #i... really do love my fic y'all

[ladybugkisses]

Hello I am here to ask. How does Ari tell Rocky she's pregnant and how does he respond?

i already answered this ♥️ here ♥️ but... ..i only really mentioned Toby so, okay hear me out part two:

Lucy was kindof a big ol' oops- a Planned Accident in the sense that while they did plan on having more kids iT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN SO SOON LMAO

so Ari let's Rocky know she might be pregnant right away, no keeping it secret this time 😔 specially because she was lowkey freaking out over Toby only being about 5-6 months old

meanwhile with Sophie it was all more casual. like Toby and Lucy play-fighting in the background and Ari blurts out a "btw i'm pregnant again" casual gdsKGDSDSK

and i imagine Rocky's responses are always the "picking Ari up and spinning her around then smothering her face with kisses" type 💕💞💝💞💕

#even with Lucy like iT'S OKAY THEY'LL FIGURE IT OUT THEY'RE A TEAM THEY GOT THIS. NOW KISS #also i'm still not sure how much younger Sophie is from Toby and Lucy tbh... ..... ..maybe 3-4 years?? ? 4-5 years? SHRUG #SOMETHING ALONG THOSE LINES #asks #allusionaries #hc tag

[molkolsdal]

btwn 2020 and 2023 I gained 60 pounds and I was the heaviest I've ever been in my life. I used to work out regularly and eat well before that (literally my abs were showing up and my bum was so nice and lifted 😩) so I thought "OK no need to panic, I already know what I need to get healthy" but my life is totally different than it was pre-2020 so it was hard to get back into it without those same conditions. I was trying to get healthy last year but I was so inconsistent and gave up more times than I'd like to admit. But after realizing how much money I was wasting (on new clothes cuz I was too big for my old ones, takeout, gym memberships I wasn't using, weed) I was like what the fuck am I doing???

We bought a new digital scale that you can connect to an app and I was able to see things more clearly like my percentage of visceral fat etc etc and I also spoke to some of my work friends about where they work out (like orange theory and f45) and how it's expensive but worth it cuz it keeps you accountable. So I finally quit my cheap, overpacked gym that I hated going to, signed up for orange theory, started taking my step tracker and My Fitness Pal more seriously, and have broken my long term goal down into smaller checkpoints so that i can keep track of my progress more easily rather than just having this dream I'm trying to reach in the distant future. Now I've lost 8 pounds in 2 months, don't crave weed or sugar anymore (and I still let myself enjoy stuff on Friday and Saturday if the mood does strike), and actually enjoy (look forward to!) my workouts.

I don't know why I initially started making this post but I'm just really happy with where I am now cuz for the longest time it seemed impossible to be healthy again, and now it's finally happening.

#also i saw something on my dash that annoyed me lmao #and i wanna like.... tell them not to torture themselves like that.... but i don't wanna be annoying lol #they'll figure it out

[raiiny-bay]

some things i never finished

#hi. again. #i'm gonna try very hard not to disappear again but. idk. #it's been kind of a busy month & i've had like. zero motivation to be on my computer let alone make literally anything #sooo yea. idk man #as much as i want to make some big elaborate edits for kel's birthday & the boys' anniversary idk if it's gonna happen #i mean. i will make them but i doubt they'll be done on time #it kinda sucks bc i really wanna be here & like make stuff bc it's my favorite hobby but #yea idk #um i did recently go to the coast though which was fun. found lots of cool rocks. & i do mean lots #no idea where i'm going to put them bc my shelves are already covered in rocks but #i will figure it out #n e way. gonna try to catch up on some posts & maybe like. make. something. lol #rainyrambles

[erstwhles]

moore-wright, party of four / @musicallyiinclined

"Hey, is everything okay?" He hasn't had a chance to check his phone to see if he has missed anything else, but he knows it isn't usual to get a call from Zander when they are both in the same city. "Hoping to wrap things up here soon and then I'll be heading back to the house." All that is left now, after the last media availability, is clearing out his stall for the summer and meeting with his coach to discuss his performance throughout the season. It's the time of year that encompasses everything Liam hates about the job, but at least he has plenty to look forward to this offseason, including what it means for their family.

Who knew that the decision to start taking the steps to grow their family would be the easy part? Compared to the waiting and the knowledge of how many little decisions are going to have to be made, their early conversations feel like a breeze now. "I'll see you soon?"

#∘ ˙ . ✧ ʿ interactions ∕ liam. #musicallyiinclined #again! no pressure to do anything with this #i figured this doesn't have to be a long drawn out thing. just a little bridge before hopping straight in #liam doesn't ever check his phone. so #maybe zander knows something he doesn't? maybe they'll find out together? #let me know if you need more than this

[spocks-kaathyra]

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#vent #wow I will never be able to let myself have friends huh #I am unwanted and inherently unwantable #I have it all figured out I just can't DO anything right. why is breaking silence the hardest thing to do #I can't bring myself to make/maintain/deepen friendships bc I'm convinced that I'm unpleasant to be around and unpleasant to be friends with #my company is something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy #<- completely unjustified belief. I am kind and friendly and capable of responding appropriately in the majority of social situations #they reach out and I shrink back every time. no matter how much they reach towards me I can't believe that they actually want me around #and ofc the reasonable thing for them to do is stop reaching! when I never reach back! why would they expect a different outcome this time #so I can't blame anyone. I can't sit around waiting for a saintly mindreader who can see that my actions contradict my feelings #I know I just need to reach out. but how could I do that when I'm convinced it'll only hurt them? #my presence makes their day worse. I'm a mangy dog begging for scraps I don't deserve at their table. I am harming them with my presence #how can I beg for their attention and company and time when I know their life would be better without me in it #<- false belief. when I reach out I make them feel wanted and they feel more comfortable reaching out to me when they know I like them. #everyone appreciates being reached out to. I am pleasant to be around. they like being liked by me. my company is a desirable thing #company in general is a desirable thing. my company is better than no company. people like being liked. #logically I know all this to be true. emotionally? they hate me and I deserve it and the more I show I like them the more they'll hate me #sigh. what a banal problem to have. I'll stop being 18 years old one day. I can't wait until I have better things to worry about #replies appreciated. btw. in the interest of asking for what I want instead of expecting ppl to read my mind lmao #narcissus's echoes

[i3utterflyeffect]

anyway here's an image of me and my new son

#pitch posts #banana boy and sc... #i AM also thinking abt the slug cg's tendencies since i've been playing again #if red eats meat they'll just fall over saint-style #idk if i've mentioned that yellow crafts before but they do and i feel like they've made a nuke by accident. much to beckon's dismay #i still haven't figured out green sadly....... i still need to find something for them...... #blue is the first one to find out lizards are edible because they WILL try to eat anything #i do think green does try to talk to and/or mimic beckons. but all he can hear is 'wawa' #stick world au #tommy's stickmen tag

[cherubytes]

to me the funniest thing about making a warrior cats ultrakill au is that you don't really have to change a lot to make the characters and story fit into the warrior cats universe. being able to enter cat hell without dying was literally a major plot point for one of the arcs, so having some random kitty go and fuck shit up over there is totally believable as far as im aware.

#ramblings #ultrakill #warrior cats #yes im tagging both #this is vaguely inspired by a random tag game that said to ''combine your first real fandom with your most recent one to make a horrible AU #and here we are #before you read this i feel the need to point out that i only ever read the first 3 books bc that was all my library had #im mostly stuck on what to do with the whole council in heaven and god is dead/has abandoned us thing #i guess maybe starclan is no longer communicating with the clans or something. so a bunch of cats claiming to have a strong connection with #them decide that they'll fall in for starclan and order kitty gabe around to ''take care'' of cats that dont agree with them #then enter some rogue cat v1 that either figured out how to enter cat hell or is just causing problems on purpose #my headphones died and i was an hour long bike ride away from home ok. i had time to kill. #im not drawing this i just need to get my brainworms out. dusting off the good ol brain cave and what not

[insomniac-pbparker]

rambling in tags

#tried to talk about it on vc but no one's paying attention haha #talkin about it here cuz I've been meaning to share with. someone #hi if you're reading this:) #peter prattles #anyways. started a new project recently; i got a model for my mask so I'm thinking about printing it out? #got the STL (STereoLithography (file format for CAD software made by 3d systems)) files fhe other day; they look like they'll fit well toge #ther after i print them; so that's good. not a lot of sanding ill have to do on the main face shell; 8& #augh #*; it's already textured #i keep pressing comma. stop #anyways. got the files; it took FOREVER to splice but that's alright. i haveta do it regardless #*slice not splice #the whole process of slicing something (FOR 3D MODELING BY THE WAY) is really interesting; i should look more into that #the thing is; the files and info I got on them didn't say what orientation to print the mask in? that was odd #it also didn't say what fill / support types to use. but I'll figure that out in the morning #oh! my favourite part I'm working on for the mask is that it is able to attach / detach in specific sections; so it's easily disassembled #I'm using neodymium magnets (specifically 10mmx1mm or 1/16in discs) to connect it all together #I'm thinking about making it disconnect in about 4/6 different places? four for sure #not sure about the last two though. thinking about making the LENSES of the mask detachable; but i feel like they're more likely to fall of #uhoh i think i did something wrong #i printed (or started to print at least) the domed mesh on the 3d printer instead of the specifically labeled resin printer. i don't have j #I don't have a resin printer #wow there's a lot of tags. okay #so many thoughts in my head apparently #eh whatever. hear about my 3d prints boy #there's an option to make a ventilated mask; or one without the vents at the front #the vents are just small cavities near the front of the mask #right near the nose / mouth would be #ohh it's actually lined up beautifully; it blends right into the webbing on the front of the face #face? mask? eh

[lab-gr0wn-lambs]

You know I’m scraping the bottom of the barrel for extra credit in my assignments when I’m trying to pass-off my fursona as some kind of clever marketing strategy

#should I nix it or should I keep it #the actual logo I came up with for this assignment sucks. #this is what happens when you don't have a unique selling point and your online persona is just. you. and you make. art of normal humans #girl help I aint got a brand and this module is all about selling your brand lkdsgjsk #I can't use my characters on business cards and shit because they all just people! they'll think that's meant to be me or something! #my ''I'll figure it out later'' approach to my artistic identity is biting me in the ass right here and now #my prof came over too see my work and said it's very steven universe esque and my soul left my fucking body #now. I love steven universe forever and always. but lord almighty I need a new brand image #personally I was going for Collector(toh)core but heuegjewg #I don't want that to be My Thing but it's all I can currently think of without putting an unnecessary amount of effort into a uni assignment #stars and pastels and flat shading because it's easy babeyy

[mishapen-dear]

yeah see it's gonna be fine

#communicationsmp wins again!! #bad and baghera are talking about everyone gathering to figure out what they want to get out of the elections <3 #and an mvp dono brought up that the potentially trust-destroying aspect of this so that's something they'll be keeping in mind too #it's gonna be fun :D #qsmp

[redbeardace]

I was having fun with that, until a minor thing went slightly wrong and the whole thing cascaded to ruin my night.

#A thing I bought a while back had loose hinge screws #So I tried to fix it #But somehow I did something and now the door doesn't close right at all anymore #And I can't figure out what is wrong because it should be fine #And trying to fix the new problem just damaged it more #So maybe I should just get a replacement #But I can't get a replacement #Because the place I bought it from is practically ransacked #It could be Christmas hangover but I think it's closing #Which sucks because it's a place I like to go every so often #But anyway they don't have a replacement #And it feels like everything I like is going away #That store #Physical media #Democracy #And I feel like everything is just an endless grind #And even the few fun things turn against me #And I don't want to try new things #Because they'll turn against me too

[merrilark]

Something something the poetry of Klaus being able to traverse not just through other people's heavens via the Void but across dimensions as well because Death is the one commonality that binds all the universes that are and ever will be together.

#idk if they'll play with it but that could be a really interesting way for the umbrellas to get back to their home/actual world. #like maybe he figures out how to get them through the void? they all die and klaus brings them back into their own world? idk. spitballing. #but i do love the poetry of death in tua and how klaus turns it into something good and comforting. #something *hopeful*. you know? #the umbrella academy #klaus hargreeves #robert sheehan #merri mumbles #actually now that i said that i realize that would be impossible bc the kugelblitz ate the entire universe. #but maybe they could go to a better alt world or something. i dont know lmao. #OR maybe they all die and kick it up happily in the void bc the apocalypse is inevitable. #kind of hope that wouldnt be the case but. i could see it. it would just be very nihilistic and make their fight seem useless. #if they're all just gonna die anyway yk?