#things I miss since February

[mothghhost]

2023 hourlies !!

#i realize. it is almost the end of february and has been a month since hourlies day #but i ran out of my favourite pens and had to do it in a different pen so it's kinda a slightly different style than usual #i've also been so swamped with art homework and feel less like doing art in my spare time #which kind of sucks i miss my sketchbook things #hourlies #hourlies 2023 #mothghhost art

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: April 15

"Something in the Way She Moves" by James Taylor

#song of the day #it's been two weeks + two days since the last song of the day #the issue is you see that I started the songs up again in December because my insomnia was fucking up my perception of time #and I wanted some kind of regular marker to help me keep track #and then what happened two weeks + two days ago is that I lost all track of time and subsequently the songs of the day failed #I'm gonna see if I can keep up again for a bit now that I've re-restarted without an alarm on my phone #but if I miss any this week I'll just give in and turn the alarm back on #updates from the last two weeks are going to sound so chaotic let's see #I got a new project at work /and/ I got demoted /and/ I got added to a higher access level /and/ I'm in charge of a new database #yes all of those things together. I'm to be an accountant now! not instead but in addition to my other stuff. should be interesting #I didn't get April Fools off like I was scheduled to because all my scheduled vacation got unapproved #(I was here for about twenty nonsequential minutes to boop people and I'm glad I made time for it. extremely fun to boop) #I lied shamelessly to get eclipse day off and we went on a full-day roadtrip and it was wonderful. everything I dreamed and more #I killed one of my baby succulents through clumsiness and rabbits ate my pea plants but my sage and cabbages look promising #got a massive pot of mint flourishing on my porch and the horseradish is gorgeous #got Duncan lights and plants and a filter system for his frog tank but we haven't set up the substrate yet #so there's just potted plants sitting inside a terrarium. very amusing honestly #I've been playing a little Stardew and eating a /lot/ of hot sauce and tofu #drinking tons of klass aguas frescas--especially the soursop one. holy shit is it good. the mango and hibiscus also #and these past few days I've been sleeping better #for most of those two weeks I was getting a handful of twenty-minute naps each workday and then crashing unwillingly on the weekend #I haven't read any comic books since February :'( this weekend we're going to costco and then I'm reading comics until Monday #what have y'all been up to? I've missed being around #edit: oh shit the actual song part. anyway this is James Taylor! makes me happy and helps me settle. good vibes songs #I'm half-panicked about work all the time recently and then also today was tax day (Nick's taxes. blegh) #James Taylor doing some heavy lifting round here

[wordsbyarwen]

I’ve had a Yennaia ballroom dancing AU kicking around in my head since FEBRUARY, so what better excuse to put it out in the world than @aninkwellofnectar‘s 7 Deadly Sins-based Kinktober prompt list?

For day 3 this “flunktober,” I chose the prompt dancing. Not actually kinky, and barely qualifies for the M rating, but you know.

The woman’s—Tissaia’s—narrow eyes are the same colour as her dress, the quirk of her lips as she smiles a greeting is nothing if not feline, and her cheekbones—this woman’s cheekbones could sink ships. SOS, send help, Yennefer’s drowning; she’s forgotten how to swim.

OR:

In which Tissaia de Vries teaches ballroom dance, and Yennefer Vengerberg is but a simple gay.

Rated: M Characters: Yennefer, Tissaia, Triss Relationships: Yennaia Other Tags: modern AU, ballroom dancing, a slow burn across a brief 6.6k words Word Count: 6600

#The Witcher #Netflix The Witcher #Yennaia #Tissaia de Vries #Yennefer of Vengerberg #fanfic #FLUNKtober #kinktober2022 #r:m #literally i yelled about all of these ideas to #ehay #in february and have been bemoaning them ever since #i pounded this out in 2 days and did not have it beta'd please scream at me if there's anything weird you notice that i didn't #literally my phone finally decided that i say fuck enough to auto-correct something innocent (tucking) into something not (fucking) for one #of the last things i published #only caught it in the ao3 reread before hitting publish #me AND my beta missed it #so listen... listen... anything could be buried in this very rough fic #anyway enjoy

[mwagneto]

im finally done with all my exams this was literally the most exhausting month/2 months of my fucking life. and i get one day off bc im doing something on literally every other day but that's gonna be fun im not complaining

#im finally gonna see my friends againnn my god #i literally only saw them during exams and i haven't seen my pre uni friends since summer it's DIRE #i have to squeeze visiting my sister and hanging out with 2 of them into one day coz otherwise it #literally wouldn't fit anywhere else MDMDKDMDNHD christ #and then on Wednesday.... heh😏 #barking #my fucking god i need to fit 100000 years of sleep into today coz im lit rally gonna be busy as hell #it's so annoying coz I'm rly happy i finally get to hang out properly with everyone again #but at the same time im like why did you plan stuff when you could just sleep and relax:/ #NO i literally miss them so much and I'd just be bored at home anyway #I'd have pretty much the whole month off but somehow i managed to cram it full of stuff and im #also traveling on Wednesday and wont be back til late February which im also kinda all over the #place about coz im so excited but im also like mad at myself for leaving instead of #enjoying being home alone with nothing to do finally but yk. I'd just be bored #also the month/2 months thing all but one of my exams was in the past 30 days but i #had an insane december too with like 50 assignments an exam sickness 3 birthdays christmas and #traveling to someone's house in a different city for half a week and like a bunch of other shit im forgetting #point is my fucking GOD I'm having fun but i need a fucking break for real I'm running myself into the ground #at least im done with these stupid Fucking exams and my average of seminar + lecture grades is #gonna be like 4.0 which is beyond perfect i thought I'd get like 2.5 lmfaooooo #(grades go from 1 to 5‚ 1 is fail 2 is pass 3 is satisfactory 4 is good 5 is excellent) #(like that's literally their official names that's not me calling them that djdnridjeidjdj) #i thought i just wouldn't study at all and skirt by with 3s and 4s like i usually do but i #actually got a lot of 5s im amazed. like genuinely who am i #anyway this is long lmao tldr sorry i haven't been on much im just constantly busy lmao😭 #oh and also im not even going to meet my pre uni friends coz neither me or them have any fawking time

[hershelchocolate]

Just wrapped up chapter 15/16 of something I've been writing for MONTHS now and I'm just sitting here like 🥺 fic? No more fic for Randy? 🥺 Only one more chapter? Hello????? 🥺

#randy rambles #cause like okay heres the thing #i revitalized my interest in the mechs on a whim #and it has wholeheartedly consumed me WAY more than it ever did the first time around #ive been working on this thing since early february #i GRADUATED COLLEGE in the time ive been writing this foc #and now its just? gonna be over? no more fic for randy? #the worst part is i cant even go 'oh i can make silly one-off things for this version of lyf since theyre my favorite #cause im really bad at doing really quick fics #it HAS to be a 16 chapter 100k words BEAST of a fic #i have ideas for other lyf joins the mechs fics #specifically one where lyf escapes but does not meet the mechs so you get marius/lyf doing similar things #not even knowing the other is still out there #which was going to be VERY fun #but 🥺 i like *this* version of lyf :( im gonna miss them #i have GOT to make silly doodles right now right now right now

[corneille-moisie]

ah

i guess today is for random waves of sadness and guilt for the cat we lost last winter

i started painting her little toes on the memento we got and i just lost it

#pet death #like its all my fault why she died #and im just so so so sorry #she was in so much pain and then i took her to a strange place she did know and where she died #she didnt understand any of what was going on #she was so confused #im so sorry frankie this is not how i wanted things to go for you #and how wendy has just been missing her since february too #im just very sad today is all #giving tons of kisses to wendy and storm rn

[diari0deglierrori]

“Too soon to start thinking about Sanremo”, first of all it never is, but specially when you may have to travel around that time and you’re terrified of the idea that the two things may be on the same week

#imagine the nightmare!!!! #11h without any Wi-Fi and not knowing anything that’s happening #missing pretty much the whole thing #missing the liveblogging with the mutuals #this is what nightmares are made of #it was already so hard to live with having my relatives visiting us while mf3 was airing so imagine Sanremo!!! #that’s something that needs to be experienced live!!! #I’ll do anything in my power to not leave until the end of February then #oh for once I may be on the same time zone too that’s insane #it never happened to me since I started watching it

[plushie-lovey]

My datemate's birthday is coming up, and he's hoping for it he can get all of his stuff from his parent's place (and in turn a visit from his mom, since she hasn't seen him in what will be a full year and four days on his bday). Out of everything he's excited to have his favorite stuffed animal to cuddle with again, a 3ft tall emperor penguin who's called Penguin (recently named Cuddles. But we still just refer to him as Penguin). I bought Penguin for him in a goodwill for like $4 about 2 years ago, and it's been my love's favorite thing ever since. He says Penguin is the perfect firmness for cuddling, as he likes a stiff stuffed animal. He really misses holding him. So I hope his mom comes thru and brings all his stuff. But at the very least, Penguin.

#my mom and I picked my datemate up last year on valentines day and ge hasn't been back to his family's place since #it was my mom's idea. my datemate used to stay over for like a full month each visit #n only stat away for 2 weeks. 3 tops. because we'd miss each other a lot #so around Halloween sge said to him ''why don't you just move in at this point'' #so once he left after the holiday season (he stayed from mid November to mid January that visit) he packed all his stuff #n then we went to get him February 14th #but our car was small so we couldn't get most of his stuff here. so his fam agreed to keep it til we get a storage unit #which we now have #the reason my datemate didn't bring penguin originally is because he thought he'd get a chance to in a couple months #but a year has gone by with no opportunity for him to go home to get his things. between everyone working n stuff #but now that he's taking a vacation for his birthday there's an opportunity present #viti shoosh

[libidinous-weeb]

i’m feelin…kinda lonely. i miss having friends to hang out with. i miss long conversations and having fun. people never talk about how isolating and lonely it can be being single and living alone in adulthood.

it’s always talked about as being the norm but…does anyone else feel this way?

#my family is something i have to actively avoid because they’re toxic #and half of them i’m not out to #but my friends have all pretty much settled down #and they don’t talk to me anymore because they have lives now #i…really miss having friends that actually wanted to spend time with me. #and i’ll ask and sometimes people will say they understand #but they don’t. they at least have families and a partner. and that can still be hard but it’s not the same. #and you ask them if they want to hang out and they make flimsy excuses every time #so you just stop asking. #maybe it’s the rsd but…i miss just hanging out with people #i haven’t done it since february #and before that it was at least once a month but #it’s just not enough. #i miss having fun #i miss long conversations #i miss eating with other people and watching things together #ok to rb #i guess i’ll just have to get used to the way things are now #does anybody else feel like this? #even doing a discord call or video thing would be nice #adhd #i don’t leave my house unless i have to anymore #and at work people are nice to me but…we aren’t friends. we don’t see each other outside of work #granted i’m new here but #sorry y’all. ignore the tags. i just end up talking in the tags sometimes #because it’s nice to get all the thoughts and feelings out of my head. #again still okay to rb just maybe not with all my tags lmao

[crimsonblackrose]

No one’s eye doctor takes my insurance. My friends from college, called their favorite fancy one downtown in the city, no don’t take it. My cousin’s eye doctor, nope. My aunt and uncle’s eye doctor, nope. Like this is why it takes me so long to get any medical stuff scheduled is because I just can’t find anyone and because of insurance it takes forever.

I did however get a yes and they bizarrely already were able to pull up my full name and that weirded me out. I assume it’s connected to my cell phone. But I was like wait a second I didn’t tell you my name.

#mumblings #wish me luck I haven't been to an eye doctor in 7 years #have what I believe is a stress and grief related spot in my vision #and a couple other things I want to talk to the eye doctor about #and she's available next tuesday unlike the general doc whose not free until February...now I just need #to find a therapist and a dentist.... it never ends #but now I can get myself a treat for getting it done #This is like the biggest thing I miss from korea #that I could just walk in anywhere and they'd see me #however I couldn't find a general eyedoctor in korea which is why it's been 7 years since my last exam #and my glasses 1000% need to be upgraded #I'm so nervous for bad news #but I told myself I was taking today off to get stuff done and that's a massive one #so I'm happy #and now to get myself halloween decor as treats

[allsassnoclass]

guys i’m going to try so hard to have a fic out by the end of june i just need to edit it

#personal #the goal was to post a fic a month during the summer #and i have two that are done with the draft and just need to be edited #but it turns out that i didn't even have time to edit this weekend lol #went to go see a musical i quit insteaad #it was a good production! but i'm going to have more fun with newsies for sure #their technical elements were super impressive though #anyway. i am starting to miss writing a bit but i'm honestly too busy right now #8 hours at work a day plus 2-3 hours of rehearsal plus the long commute really does not leave much time lol #we'll see what happens but i have a fic i've been holding on to since february so i'll get that out #i'm just out of town next weekend so once again i won't have a lot of time #i'm managing my lack of time very well all things considering. we'll see how long it takes me to burn out!

[sunrise-on-the-shore]

stands in the middle of a desolated battlefield looking down on a grave with my name(s) on it.

heh. mood. oh WAIT—

#still suffering way too much #erm. uhhh. yeah. #no interesting updates to give! #maybe i'll come back soon. #i miss this silly hellsite y'know? #i have not moved on from the fucking dsmp. despite. everything. #i am digging my bloody fingernails into the character isn't cc thing. #it's really fucking hard some days but fuck it we ball. the autism isn't letting this fucking minecraft server go. #the special part of interest IS BEATING ME UP!!!!! /autism joke. terrible one. i know. i know... #LEMME GOOOOO LEMME FUCKINGGGG FLEEEEEE AGDJDGDJDGDHFHGHHHH #C'MON BRAINNNNNN #but no. no. ufkcidnsg. i am still making AUs and writing and thinking and crying and sobbing and screaming and you get the vibes #i have been crying daily since end of february. #we're in early april. #no i don't want to think about it. #ANYWAYYYYYYY HAHA... MOVING ON MOVING ON!!!!!! #i love oversharing in tumblr tags it's silly #it replaces my useless psychiatrist and the therapist i should see. #giggles #aight aight i'm done. #see y'all soonish.

[pastelllemons]

i’ve had this account 4 over a year now thats so weird

#mums said smth again #probably longer #i started using my text post tag ( the first one ) in february of last year but chances r i’ve had this account since 2021 #i kind of miss my old account but abandoning it was the best thing 2 do tbh

[woozi]

yza i miss you and love you sm, hope you're doing well my love, i've been VERY VERY ia to focus on irl stuff and came back here to send you this ask, hope time is treating you better and if not i am politely threatening the universe to do it, muah muah all my hugs and good things this world can offer <3

-sal (gurengui) 🫂💐✨️💝💋

#SAL?!?!!!!??!!2!:•_¥~'8%[%{+]=-?2@@ #OH MY GOD IT REALLY HAS BEEN A WHILE!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i lich rally could say the same thing i missed u lots too 🥹 thank u for even dropping by </3 #also felt 😭😭😭 haven't been on here as much as i used to since february #ANYWAY #WHAT HAVE U BEEN UP TOOOOOOO <333 HOW HAVE U BEEN!!!!! ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE WE LAST TALKED!! #u're always so so kind to me </3333333 i hope the days have also been very kind to u #and that you always find at least a single thing to be happy abt each day!!! #if not it will be my personal mission to deliver That One Thing each day 😤 #thank u again for being so so sweet i missed u lots i hope we chat more soon and even if we dont i hope ure always having good days <333 MWA #sal 💫 #anon #y.ask

[doodlboy]

I forgot 2 call to get my meds refilled again 🕺

#man these things dont work my memory is still shit skdjdkd #eh its fine it'll prob be done by 2pm tomorrow if i call early enough so I'll just miss the morning dose #i dont think they're doing anything? i don't feel amy different i don't think #man idk what they're even for ive been prescribed like- 4 different ones since february #speaking of which i gotta call 2 get a new therapist still its been a few months w/o 1 and the last 1 said i need 2 get 1 asap #cursing my brain for forgetting all this important biz #anywayyyyy #silly goofy things #elliot rambles #meds mention #medical cw

[illnessfaker]

tw: black+trans death

from the_yvesdropper on instagram:

our beautiful black trans brother, 35 year old Righteous Torrence "Chevy" Hill, was murdered in Atlanta, GA this weekend.

he went by his nickname 'Chevy' he was originally from Macon, GA. he owned Evollusion, which is a black/ queer owned LGBTQ+ salon in Atlanta that provided and dedicated full service to specializing in hair, nails, barbering and makeup. growing up as young black queer boys/kids, the barbershop experience can sometimes be a tricky space to occupy, this was something that Chevy understood and wanted to cultivate a space of safety where you can also get the affirming look and style you want, and he did exactly that.

Chevy was a beloved son, brother, partner, and father.

one of his last posts that had a photo of himself said :

"if you truly know me, you know i am a humble, modest, private man, that i love my community, i have the love of God in me and will give the shirt off my back to any soul in need, also i never post pictures of myself, legaey give myself credit, that stops today, i am my legacy!"

(a close friend of Chevy asked if i could share more then one photo of Chevy, since he never posted photos of himself and in recent years he got the confidence to want to share more photos and now he won't get the chance to)

Chevy, hey king, hey brother, hey angel, thank you for everything, i lové you, we lové you, i'm so sorry. there are a lot of photographers in heaven who will be able to photograph you as the glorious black trans angel that you are.

there will be a homegoing service/memorial for our brother

there aren't many details about what happened but apparently he was shot by a family member last wednesday, the 28th (at least this article was the one linked in relation to his murder.)

judging by both the IG post and the comments section he was well-loved by many people and those people have many good memories with him and nothing but good things to say. this is a comment that was left by tirajmeansgolden which was hidden by IG for some reason:

I started testosterone in February 2020. I hit this man up at the end of 2019 after numerous Google searches for an LGBT-friendly barber near me (and by near me... he was a good 35-40 minutes from the rural area I was in outside of Atlanta: but when I found out he was a trans man and that his business was the first and only LGBT hair bar, I knew it would be worth the trip). I was a dysphoric mess in his DMs one Sunday. I hated how my hair was growing out. I never had a "masculine" hairstyle before but decided one day I would buzz it all off myself, then allowed it to grow out a bit... I sent him a video and despite him being closed on Sunday, he told me to come through. I got my hair braided and he gave me my first really masculine fade. Explained the different terms. Lined me up. Was asking me about my decision to transition and provided some helpful advice + guidance. I told him how I was a therapist and he was hype and said he talked with a group of trans men and he would love for me to stop by and also give some mental health tips. So whoever said he was humble - wow, what an understatement. Such a community man! Made me feel SO comfortable because barbershops were a source of major trauma and triggers for me. They were such an integral part of my early transition (I just celebrated 4 years later week). And he was such an integral part of the Atlanta Queer community with hosting events like Queer Con. How I found so many other great resources + queer businesses/artists. May you rest in peace, Chevy. You'll be missed. You've made such a different in the lives of countless people. You definitely were living your Purpose + left a legacy behind ...

#op #rest in power #black trans lives matter #death - #black death - #trans death - #didn't add a tw to the top of this post at first. sorry everyone.