#too bad im so slow at it

[dammjamboy]

BETTER CALL SAUL!

#this was mostly a test run on procreate dream! #its pretty good but it has a LOT of room for improvement #which i know the developers have been working on since the app is still technically in beta! #but hey i did this in like 3 weeks while working a full time job and also working on other art so #its pretty damn powerful software #good shit if you use procreate already!! #literally the biggest flaws rn are a lack of selection tool an undo/redo button and #and the app itself has a tendency to crash or slow down if theres “too much” going on #like i had to delete all but one of the preloaded animations just so the app would run smoother while i worked #so its still very clearly in its early phase but its good and im excited to see what the developers will do with it #ok review over #better call saul #saul goodman #bcs #jimmy mcgill #breaking bad #animation #brba #video #procreate dreams

[changdol]

Sunwoo ⎔ Honey (240107 FaceCam)

#kflops #tbzinc #the boyz #the boyz sunwoo #tbz sunwoo #sunwoo #kim sunwoo #these gifs are so bad because of the panning 😭 #me after spotting a hq video: oh i KNOW how can i mess this up so good #i swear i will gif eric too i got his video 🥲 but im so slow and so easily distracted </3 #useroro #higabi #userbbie #ribbitashie #melontrack #usermairin #tuserchrissy #userbinsuns #c:mine #c:g #c:tbz

[angelmush]

it looked sooo pretty outside today :)

#the community garden across the street was being cared for (even in winter) by my neighbors #it’s the first day in a long time i came home from work and the sun was up still !! #it was so rosy #got greeted by my dog and my gf and the cat : #life is good even when it’s hard :) #i packed a lunch for me and for lauren and braided her soft hair before bed and sometimes i just want to cry with love #my therapist is helping me find a surgeon for top surgery and i got referred to a pain management specialist by my doc today too #and work was easy and slow today #i can’t sleep rn bc my pain is sooo bad so i’m tucked in the living room knitting w the snoring dog beside me on our tiny green couch #im so sad and so happy lol #personal

[skunkes]

I managed to revive the old crumbly clay i was given and im trying to make a smunker head for practice, its gotten difficult bc i started adding hair when i wasnt planning on it, and i didnt attach the head to anything so its gonna be hard to complete and hard to bake but its okey. The clay is sticky and messy and he's gonna come out rly nasty but im excited

#talkys #the only bad thing is i have work to do and i jst wanna work on the smunker...dis is why i cant have hobbies #im not capable of taking weeks or months to do smthng at a slow pace #it has to be finished as fast as possible so i can move on #either to make more or because why wld i spend ages on smthng if theres a chance itll be Ugly. #<- this is why i have never improved at digital art/backgrounds/illustration too

[nostalgicsneeze]

this is the only website i post art nowadays and i’ll keep doin it but DAMN…

#is there anywhere thats GOOD!! #and i just really dont like twitter anymore or anything with the same set up (bluesky) #its just so bad for art because there is basically no tagging system and everything is too fast paced for me #like im curious artists/writers where do u actually enjoy posting these days ? #tumblr is the only place where im actually happy to be and doesnt make me feel like my brain is rotting and YET… #but honestly what big site isnt selling your data #oh well i’ll be here unless it fully crumbles #i think i’ll start posting on youtube more this year too because im just sick of all these fast paced social medias i wanna take it sloww #and none of this AI shit pleaze #anyways ill be on here and youtube posting art whenever i have it ❤️👍 we’re taking it slow from now on forever and always #dont let all these places get to u. be human or whatever #give ur art a kiss

[ganondoodle]

hope everyone had alright holidays!

a few days ago when we were driving home in the dark in windy and rainy weather after getting two of my siblings from the train we, for the first time in my lifetime im pretty sure, hit a deer that was crossing the street, none of us saw them before they got caught in the headlights and the first one made it over but we werent yet slow enough to not hit the second one ...

the deer lived but was kinda stunned, my dad pushed it off the street and while we were still on the phone with police it got up and ran away but my parents car got damaged and while its still drivable there are several parts that got bent and since its an older model too it might be hard to get it repaired

anyway, i didnt know deer fur was that grey until i saw it stuck to our bumper :(

merry crisis

#ganondoodles talks #random #personal #we are all fine and i wasnt the one driving #i just feel extra bad bc i was there in the front to help watch out for exactly stuff like that #but it was a weird spot and strange in that weather for them to cross #the police told us there was another accident with deer literally 10 minutes before us in the same area #so maybe thats why it was only two ......... #i hope the deer is fine tho im pretty sure it at least has a broken leg #also i hope insurance covers the cost and it wont take too long #im very glad we were slow enough to not kill the deer and also not hurt it bloody bc i am still thinking about how it tumbled across #i am salty about how many people were speeding past us tho #car on the side with warning lights on and all doors open two people in car and two outside putting warning thingies up #if my dad hadnt pushed the stunned deer off the street when no one was coming it would have ended way worse for everyone involved

[duhsty1]

hello tumblr user @kandidandi GETS YOU

#artfight #my art #scribbles #cw bright colors #cw eyestrain #tw bright lights #tw bright colors #they are hanging out #too bad Marie has never roller skated in her life #also I LOVE Glitters design this was so much fun #ROLLER SKATING YEAHHHHH #I dont know if I'll do any more attacks but I do really really want to #I am just very slow #thinking #id in alt text #I am so sorry if the id is ass im trying to get better at them

[skyartworkzzz]

HMMMMMMMM COTL sona.......................

#stfu sky #also hi Im still on break lmfao #hands felt weird some days ago so Im taking a rest to not risk carpal tunnel sobs #I DONT THINK I MENTIONED THAT ma bad its just cuz I rlly dont intend to keep out for too long- #and it aint like it takes me more than a few weeks to post normally anyways sO #BUT YEAH we tryna take it slow boys 🦧 #in the meantime I been writing......smtng #hehe

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

[pinstripe-doodles]

Finally got round to doing this on the last day of the year !

#pins talks #summary of art #wouldnt say ive improved or anything significatly anyway but ive gotten slightly more confident ! #made my grand start in properly making merch stuff with my standees this year !! i love making standees #remind me to upload photos of my ourflag ones sometime #ive been in an ourflag hole for the past year or so though so im hoping to do more OC stuff next year #hope that wont put people off too bad haha i still wanna do some ourflag stuff though ! wanna make more ourflag standees for sure #also hoping to redo/reopen my etsy next year ? we'll see i suppose but ! trying to be hopeful #thanks for everyone sticking around i know i havent been very active but drawing has been so slow for me lately #hope you all have a good year next year !

[lostxmelody]

i am back. buckle up bc it's another slow burn mikofuu *immediately passes away*

#milgram #milgram fanfiction #ao3 fanfic #mikoto kayano #kajiyama fuuta #0309 #mikofuu #wouldn’t this be a good title for a shidou-centric fic?? #too bad im using it for my mikofuu bullshit.. #sorry the first chapter is kind of boring awkward umm #slow burn is slow burn for a reason your honor #its an au! ...that i still need to complete art for #no one talk to me abt that. ok. #i had a wonderful beta reader for this so please check them out in the description ! #lxm textposts

[jils-things]

commissioned work done by hpe24 💚

#wanted to make a personal post of it too cuz hehehe why not?? really good pkmn artist btw I love her works!!! #sorryyy im not immune to the slow and elegant love that these two bring out it makes me so whole 🥹 #stuffing them in my “stevaide dancing comp” files 🔥🔥 #for some reason i'm really bad at words right now idk how to describe this or how im feelinh which is definitely not me but know that #i am SO in love with thisssss 💚💚💚 #💚 for me #♥️ memoryshipping #jaide (mangaverse).insert

[theeflowerofcarnage]

I loved their love....

#bg3 #bg3 the emperor #i forgot to say but i got my solo ending w the emperor a while ago too bad i couldnt get an epilogue ending (mods kept crashing game :/) #normally im not one to play the same character over again but i just might of all my playthrus Alya was my favorite #strangely enough his romance felt more fulfilling bc it was just us a beautiful slow burn build up over 3 acts no distractions #im so far down the emperor enjoyer rabbithole i can no longer recall a good argument for him being evil #i found out if u give him the stones and then try to betray him by freeing orpheus #he'll leave u to go destroy the brain on his own #i have to try it to see it for myself #but that will b a while from now i kinda wanna just write about them even if it never sees the light of day

[enden-k]

dont !! follow/interact with me !! on my nsfw acc !!! if you are a minor !!!!!!

im honestly getting so tired, if i catch one again ill block you both on my nsfw acc and on my main acc here. my nsfw accs is a safe space for us adults and i dont want minors in my notes or follow list jfc. its in my bio and in big letters on my pinned over there

so the fact that i still see you in my activity just tells me youre being ignorant and uncaring about my boundaries/comfort. you dont want others to ignore your rules/boundaries right? think about others and respect their boundaries too ffs.

#im sorry im just really pissed off rn bc i caught someone. its just this behavior that ticks me off so bad #i see their neat dni lists in their pinned posts and how they expect ppl to respect that. i expect ppl to respect mine too. #isnt it just funny to see them ignore it bc they think they get away? #i might be slow some times but i do notice eventually and im so tired atp of this behavior that im gonna block you on all accs. thats it #personal #tbd

[bvlnoriyas]

just some guy

#when i tell you....im down so bad #ateez #ateezedit #.mine #.mine wy #wooyoung #jung wooyoung #are these too slow? yes #but i dont wanna resave #so enjoy

[unlikely-gravestones]

So i saw this post by @avelera (if i had a nickel for every time they’ve inspired a post, i’d have two nickels which....funnily enough is the exact amount that meme requires) and i CANNOT stop thinking about Hob’s first century as an immortal.

I mean surely he thought it was all in jest- his mates were having a right crack of it for the rest of the night, and Hob knew it well himself that no man escapes death; he would fight to live as long as he could in this world, experience everything he could, and when his time came he would simply find adventure elsewhere. Hob couldn’t have seriously believed Dream; he was just a nobleman with an odd sense of humour. And so what if he knew Hob’s name? Everyone in this pub knew his name, much like he did theirs, so he probably just asked.

I wonder if it remained a bit of an inside joke between Hob and his friends- when he gets injured in a fight and is laid up in bed, one of his friends says “You can’t die, remember? Got that meeting with some posh prick in 1489, what good’ll you be dead” and Hob sees it for what it is (a distraction) and plays along with a grin. Anytime he joins a new battle, its “Do prior engagements mean nothing to you, Robert Gadling?“ As said by his mate with a ridiculous put-on posh accent, “Your good man’ll be right cross when you ditch him in 1489 cause you got killed fighting for this bastard”. When Hob gets hit, its “I’ll be meeting him in 1489 at this rate! To tell him you got fucking done in, you knob-”

It might have been fun, at first. But as Hob’s friends started dropping dead around him- war, disease, killed in the streets for some gold- i think it stopped being a joke. Because now Hob was walking away from fights no else did. Now he was recovering from diseases within the week, where others were still thrashing in its grasp or going cold and still in the night. Its not enough to make him question his mortality, but it is enough to make him think he’s unnaturally lucky. Maybe he’s done something to please the gods recently, or maybe fortune was smiling down upon him for once. He could not bear it all with good-nature, because despite how fortune or luck or even the gods themselves seemed to look favourably upon him, their grace did not extend to his friends and he is still conscious of their loss.

But Hob Gadling appears to be one lucky bastard, and that’s that.

...until it isn’t.

Maybe Hob accidentally builds up a local reputation about being a reliable soldier- no matter who it is, or how many of them there are, Hob survives. I think maybe he’s died a few times by now, but he doesn’t know that- his throat was slashed by an enemy sword, and he died right there on the battlefield the moment his knees hit the dirt, but the fight lasted so long that by the time Hob woke up, gasping and grasping at his blood-covered neck, the gash which had nearly beheaded him was instead a shallow but still bleeding wound. Later he would settle on the idea that the cut hadn’t been as bad as he thought it was- why he passed out from such a wound is beyond him, but maybe it was from shock, he heard that it did that to people sometimes. Someone trying to slit your throat is different to someone slicing your arm, so even though hes still unsettled by it and sure that the wound was worse...he can’t argue with the actual wound on his body, which points to the contrary. This is probably not the first and definitely not the last time Hob dies.

So yeah, maybe he accidentally builds up a local reputation about being a reliable fighter because he simply can’t stop surviving. And its not that hes unharmed- he gets stabbed, sliced, beaten, etc. He can be out of it for days depending on the severity of his wounds or illness, but he always gets back up. And maybe eventually, as most stories go involving ageless immortals, people go from being surprised by his abilities and age, to suspicious. Hob himself took passing note of it a while ago- he thought his hair would long since be grey by now, or at least most of it would, but it isn’t. When he goes for a drink with the remaining friends he has, he notices that his hands aren’t wrinkled like theirs. Hobs hands are calloused and rough, yes, but not aged like they ought to be. He thinks its strange, of course he does, but soon he’s too smashed to think of it anymore.

How many comments does it take about his age before Hob starts to close himself off? How many times must surprise turn to suspicion, because Hob says hes in his 50′s but he still looks like he’s in his mid 30′s? How many years does it take before Hob hastily fakes his first death/disappearance, because now the people he grew up with are intensely aware of how young Hob looks compared to them- its unnatural, unusual, and for a medieval peasant, probably has something to do with the devil. And i think it would be different to the witch trials Hob would later experience in the 17th century, where the whole town was after him because he became ‘complacent’- this isnt Hob being complacent, this is Hob freaking the fuck out. This is Hob not knowing how to deal with the fact that he’s not aging like he should be- of course he thinks its fucking weird (great, but weird), of course he thinks its fucking CRAZY that hes been in so many battles, been wounded and sick so many times, and yet has always come out the other side. Of course he thinks its fucking strange but he doesn’t know whats going on so he’s just..he’s just going to keep going, because what else can he do? and it isn’t until things get a little too heated that Hob turns tail and ditches town with a half formed plan and the cover of darkness.

I wonder how long it takes him to come to terms with his immortality- does he throw himself into more dangerous situations with an “Either i’m right or it wont matter cause ill be dead” attitude? Is he seriously fucking spooked by it for a few years before the dawning realisation of lifes now limitless possibilities hits him? Does Hob think of that noble stranger in 1389 often, at first with mirth and amusement because that tosser knew exactly what he was saying when he said they’d meet again in 100 years; and then does Hob think of it with growing worry and stress, because...what exactly did he give up for this power? what has he yet to give up for it? Maybe his town was right- he’d heard the whispers, part of why he hauled ass to get out of there- maybe he had made a deal with the devil, or a demon. Perhaps, when Hob is more hopeful, he prays he struck a deal with a saint or an angel.

Dream is neither of those things, but medieval peasant Hob doesn’t know that.

Anyway. Yeah I’m having thoughts about what it must have been like for one Hob Gadling to discover his immortality. I mean, using the show as a frame of reference, Hobs taken to it pretty well- in avelera’s original post we know, and can discuss, the fact that Hob seems weary at their first centennial meeting in 1489. He doesn’t know what this stranger wants from him, doesn’t know if he unwittingly agreed to a deal back in 1389 that he now has to make good on. But when Dream tells him that he simply wants to hear of his life, wants to hear what its like being a mortal-turned-immortal in a world Dream so clearly (at the time) holds little regard for...Hob is just Hob about it all. Dream thinks he’s going to say something profound, or wish for death, but instead my man started going on about how great chimneys and card games are. It makes me even more interested in what it must have been like for him to discover his gift- the highs of being able to live life freely, of realising that should that stranger be merciful and grant him more time on earth, he could experience everything under the sun for decades- Hob seems so innately positive, i mean his whole thing is that there’s always more to do and always greener grass to chase. This must be such a contrast to the lows of watching your friends and family die when you don’t, to being watched by your own town for a deal you now realise may not have been in jest at all, to stressing about what exactly you will be asked to give in 1489.

Im. Having thoughts.

#besties ive been hitting you with so many long posts recently im sorry #but im also not bc y'all eat it up and i am very thankful #but i feel so bad #im gonna put a cut somewhere so u dont have to scroll 30000 times to get through it #anyway #yeah #i just think its interesting bc Hob seems to take to immortality v well #and hes such a charismatic character that i wonder how he dealt with it at first #just the slow realisation that something is wrong #but its not wrong enough for you to seriously think about it and no ones noticed yet #like it literally would have taken Hob years to realise something was amiss #hob doesn't just KNOW he has immortality its something he discovers during a lifetime he shouldnt have #like at what point do you go This is Ridiculous #please scream at me about this im having thoughts and u need to have them too #sandman #dream of the endless #hob gadling #dreamling #sandman meta #morpheus #the sandman netflix