#ugh I can't stop looking

[hooned]

gorgeous.

#enhypen #enhypenet #*jelly's #kpopedit #park sunghoon #sunghoon #i got no words really #the most beautiful man alive #gods wish they were in his likeness #CAN'T STOP STARING AT HIM WOW #imagine waking up everyday looking like THAT #if i had sunghoon's face i would literally never shut up about how handsome i look #like YOU WON'T HEAR THE END OF IT #gorgeous UGH

[a-shoebox-named-meap]

now i am a huge fan of kim’dael. and she’s got the swaggiest nail situation. but i can’t stop thinking about this

edit: i have a new and improved version of this sketch here. pls enjoy :)

#kim'dael #bloodmoon huntress #tdp #the dragon prince #tdp fanart #she's so cool! #i love her design! #i am so gay for her #but her fingies keep reminding me of people typing with really long nails #and it wouldn't leave my brain so here it is #i named the file 'kimdael tryna type' #def a wip #i have work in the morning...it is 2am #i must stop #maybe i will continue this later #i really wanna sketchy sketch all the red highlights in her outfit #someday... #ugh she looks so awesome i can't wait to see her in s5 #aaaaaaaaaaaaa #ok good night #meap draws #tdp stuff

[laufire]

reading lobdell's writing is really confirming that I would take a thousand runs where jason is portrayed as the amoral incarnation of the devil even from age 12 over a single one where he's robbed of his intelligence and hypercompetence. any fucking day.

#sidenote but this is why i can't fully sympathise with people who claim to hate jason on roy and kori's behalf tbh #because jason does NOT come out of this looking good imo. non stop failure. constantly dunked on. jfc #rhato v2 has crumbs that could be SO SO GOOD. except it's written by lobdell. and jason's fucking incompetent #and THAT'S where I draw the line #(and it's particularly insulting that the run has him struggling to keep up with BLACK MASK #utrh!jason played black mask like a fiddle. led him by a leash. ugh) #of course -unfortunately- there doesn't seem to be a shortage of stories where he's both terrible in ooc ways AND an idiot #so. moot point :) #talking to the void #my thoughts #dc #dc thoughts #prime earth continuity #red hood and the outlaws (2016) #jason todd #favourites: that fucker

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

#this poll brought to you by another day of: ugh here i am staring at this dumb thing all day again even though it only makes me feel bad!!!! #they really did a good job making these tiny miracle computers addictive as heck #but maybe other people are better at it than me??? #dollsome does polls #i just. i hate it so much but i can't stop staring at it. #even though i've read all the advice on how to try. #i think all the time about how free i was from the internet back in the day when all i had was my laptop #it would simply be weird to be looking at your laptop constantly in the car at the store out in public etc.

[murky-tannin]

I miss people distinguishing between AMVs, PMVs, and animatics. especially the latter two. The amount of times I've gone looking for animatics only for PMVs to pop up is incredible

#qsmp #hermitcraft #the owl house #trafficblr #I love PMVs but like #separate them #Please #Hell I often look specifically FOR them and can't find them because y'all call them animatics #Warrior cats fandom is based though y'all keep going at it <3 #I think every YouTube art side of fandom could take a few lessons from them #Mcyt fandoms in particular I've found struggle with this a lot?? Honestly my biggest beef with MCYT fandom isn't 'ugh so cringe/toxic/etc' #aka the normal reasons we get a bad rep #but the seemingly complete lack of knowledge of basic fandom terminology? That's MY negative association #but frankly maybe it's just something thats cropped up extra badly post TikTok era and I've just happened to be in MCYT spaces for it #Also y'all stop conflating Headcanon and AU #Fandom terms have different meanings for a reason!!

[crow-the-unknown]

wow. well. my interest in the rempe-mania has absolutely plummeted. i was like "oh kinda cool" for round about the first two days and then... then i realized he's just going to be, and really already is, another dirty ass player and the Model R^nger if you know what i mean. the first couple fights were kind of cool and all but holy fucking shit if this is exactly the player we do NOT need coming up in the league. i'm all for bringing some of the rough-and-tough (BUT CLEAN) stuff back to hockey but when it's this? when it's coming into the league and basically making your goal hurting players? and getting away with it? it's bullshit. too many players have lost their primes or their ENTIRE FUCKING CAREER to injury especially related to head injuries, which is what rempe is doing. and he fucking knows it. it makes my stomach sick. and probably the worst part about this is the dops will do nothing. just like how they do nothing with wilson or trouba or perry or kane or any of the other repeat offenders. now, you could say rempe isn't a repeat offender yet but come on. if this continues it's going to happen. but it wont matter because the nhl doesn't care. they don't care. it's disgusting.

#anyway FUCK the r*ngers and matt rempe i never liked you that much anyway #i haven't see that much from him but i've seen enough clips to get the totally wrong vibe #you can't look me in the eyes and tell me he'll suddenly stop doing this at some point #unless the dps actually gets their shit together he will not feel remorse or feel like this should be punished and seen as wrong #like listen. it's one thing to be a heavy hitter and a good fighter to help your team win #it's a completely different story to target vulnerable players and try to hurt them for your team's benefit in A GAME. JUST A GAME. #ugh. i'm just. #over and over again i hate on the dps and hope it will change but #matt rempe seems to be proof that might not happen ever or at least for a long while #certainly not while b3ttman is in charge

[elvhendis]

I keep flip flopping between telling myself that stylized art just isn't my type of art, I just can't do it well, better stick to what I'm good(?) at, then 5 seconds later seeing the most amazing stylized art and going I wish that was me I wish I could draw like that 😭😭 and it's not productive but it happens more often than I would like

#i can't do cell shading for the life of me #i can't do hard transitions between colours and shadows #i can't do messy art #I wish I could because I think mine is so bland #I try to leave my art intentionally messy because I feel like it needs it #but then I end up unhappy anyways thinking it looks blotchy/dirty #Adam Duff says “know thyself” #i.e. as an artist know what you're good at #know what type of artist you are #and I think I'm just a “renderer”? #for lack of a better word #but sometimes I wish I could just whip out beautifully flat shaded sketches #alas I hate the look of mine whenever I attempt them #so painstakingly high effort art it is #tldr art envy is robbing me of all my joy and I don't know how to stop it #sorry I actively try NOT to whine on my blog but sometimes it comes out anyways ugh #personal

[moki-dokie]

unfriendly reminder to folks (but especially cis men) to stop dismissing hirsutism like it's a joke or no big deal to the people who have it (especially afab people). or i'm gonna start stabbing yall with tweezers.

i mean just imagine if there was a condition for yall that very gradually changed the hair to thin out or follicles to stop producing entirely and the only way to treat it is with medications that barely do shit or have side effects that outweigh the benefits or uncomfortable medical procedures that don't always have the results you'd like and it's something almost always on your mind because it's your body and obviously you're going to notice the changes and discomforts to it much more than other people and everyone treated it like the butt of a joke or tried to constantly tell you they don't think it's that bad OH WAIT

#hirsutism #alopecia #pcos #can we just stop making negative comments about ppls appearance already #and stop treating problems YOU can't personally see or experience like they aren't problems #i am at my fucking limit here #looking at you cis women to stop doing the same shit to folks with alopecia too #UGH

[musical-chick-13]

UGH Why do so many songs I want to sing require a huge amount of charisma to pull off.

#creepy? good. pathetic? good. awkward? good. murder? excellent. #confidence? magnetism? FUCK no. #I promised I'd sing a Gay Song if the anime lesbians won and it's looking like they actually might #and everything I can find that's in my vocal range (i.e. NOT TOO LOW) is a duet or is about 'women love me I'm an icon' #slash 'I'll steal your girl' which TO BE CLEAR I am in favor of these songs existing I think we need even more of them actually #but there is no way in HELL I could ever make something like that work it would be THEEEEE biggest joke in the universe #so there's nothing for me to comfortably sing ;-; #unless you count 'lacy' as a gay song which I go back and forth on #I GUESS I could do rem's sacrifice song in the musical but that song is HARD I do not think ANYBODY wants to hear me sing that lmao #I USED to be able to fully belt 'you oughta know' (of which there IS a gay Broadway Version) and that was my one (1) pop/karaoke song. #but I can't do that anymore. #I might be able to build it back up again but that would take. a while. it's not something I could toss out within the week of the poll #ending (if they win) #ugh why did I stop singing every day I don't know how to do anything anymore a;lsfkja;slfjadslfk #unhinged lady screams about music

[seapasture]

[clutching the sides of the sink while staring into the mirror, through gritted teeth] not everything is interconnected not everything is a symbol I don't have to join the dots there isn't inherent meaning to this not everything-

#aaaaaaaaaaa #my brain visualises everything like it's an anime opening sequence #'oh that object is there... look at that use of colour... the clock and the calendar...' no!! no!!! #it's nice to look for meaning in things but i do it too much!! i don't know how to stop and it's devastating me #i struggle to throw away the tiniest object because i can map out its lifespan in my hands. i can't be the god that fractures that #every last word someone says to me is dissected in my brain. the most innocuous things are galaxies or knives to me. ugh #sea rambles

[bonestrouslingbones]

actually while im feeling sad about stupid bullshit (not being popular anymore oh woe is me) lets take a little summary of atbb's pre-hiatus inbox

someone trying to roleplay as sans because they didnt look at the blog for more than two seconds

someone saying the skeletons are cute and asking to hug them

someone asking to be friends with [Enter Skeleton Here]

someone asking what their brothers are like

How are you?

You're cute!

You're cool!

How have you been?

Nice outfit!

Nice outfit!

Nice outfit!

Nice outfit!

someone who does not understand the concept of dramatic irony who wants very badly to explain the full plot so far to characters who would never know that in any context otherwise as if that wouldnt be lame as hell for them to suddenly know

why is [thing that was a very big plot point]

HOW HAVE YOU BEEN

HOW HAVE YOU BEEN

HOW HAVE YOU BEEN

YOU'RE CUTE

HOW HAVE YOU BEEN

HOW HAVE YOU BEEN

HOW HAVE YOU BEEN

#AHHHHHHHHHH #LOOK. NONE OF THESE ARE INHERENTLY BAD. BUT WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THEM #IF I SCROLL FAR ENOUGH I CAN GET TO THE ACTUAL PLOT RELEVENT ONES. BUT OF COURSE THEY WERE SENT IN AFTER THE TOPIC CHANGED #ohhh and i didnt even MENTION the ones that i would always instantly delete #the “*walks in and smiles* well whats going on here?” just LOOK!!!! READ!!!!! FIND OUT YOURSELF #IT GOT TO A POINT WHERE I WOULD GET MORE OF THOSE THAN ACTUAL QUESTIONS #just. ugh. no wonder it stopped being fun #i get it. make art for myself and all that. i try to. #but i fucking hate being alone here man. #i know what its like to have other people have fun with it with me and it feels like thats so fucking rare now. i dont know #doesnt help that i can't form connections over the internet. especially since every time i've talked about this irl i've been laughed at <3 #this is all dumb as hell whatever. going to bed #probably just PMS tbh none of this matters who give a shit

[onyxhellebore]

I have seen. So many people. Complaining about the Conclave Ball's costume design in the Witcher and honestly why would you ever? Is it not enough to see gorgeous women in sparkly dresses and dramatic makeup? Gorgeous men with long hair and eyeliner??? You have to talk about how it's not historical or whatever??? I love costume design but all this whining offends my bisexuality

#also it absolutely ignores what the witcher does with costuming the anachrony of the costumes and makeup for mages is THE POINT #also it is in a fantasy world but like #yes they are wearing materials you can't make in a medievalish setting BECAUSE THEY ARE MAKING THEM WITH MAGIC #they are peacocking they are looking otherworldly they are making the point that they are a mage #they are not bound by silly things like organic materials and societal conventions they shape themselves to their own design #the witcher #also istredd was looking wayyy too good there ugh we got to see him! we got to see him and geralt dancing together even #never knew i wanted to see that til it happened #and then FIGHTING mmmm #kay i'm gonna stop #i'm not gonna stop did y'all see triss??? #okay now. now i'm gonna stop

[lynxgirlpaws]

>do nothing all day >finally start editing >hear my voice >massive self hatred god I fujcking love this

#going on /lgbt/ to look for funnies immediately after didn't help either lmfao #avierant #avierants #again i forgot which is the right one #why the fuck did I have to be the 6'3" fatass with hair that refuses to cooperate that's too lazy to even fix her voice #i can't even be like “my friends will never see me as a woman” bc i don't even have irl friends that COULD not see me as a woman ... #it's so fucking over #I have 13 hours of footage to edit #13 hours of just talking to myself #isn't that great #god i WISH i drank the alcoholic birch beer before snitching on myself... am i stupid? #how the fuck do any of you see pictures of me and still play along with this bullshit? have you fucking seen me? why do you even try #“erm actions make you cute!! how you look doesn't matte-” shut up. actually shut up. fuck off. #ugh #i gotta stop stalling on editing ... . #(girl who has been up 12 hours and will now probably stay up four more so i don't have to stay up for like 20 editing tomorrow)

[lucyvaleheart]

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#cw vent post. self harm. maybe suicide. that's all you get stop reading now if you can't handle that #I'm losing the battle. i want to cut #tried looking up safe places to do it #got nothing. just a lot of 'don't do it' #no fucking shit. christ. #i don't know if I'll be able to stop myself much longer #I don't know if it matters #don't know if I matter #I certainly don't think I do #pretty much as soon as I hit post I'm gonna use my fingernail again. hope that keeps it at bay #better than a proper knife #can't stop thinking about my black thin knife sitting on my desk #should have given it to ginny so I wouldn't be tempted #ugh #fuck.

[potential-fate]

someone stop me from looking up kingdom hearts fan-art before I catch up on this stupid series.

15yo me is ecstatic about the fact that I'm finally finishing/getting back into this. but 15yo me... they need to be stopped okay? someone needs to keep them on a leash.

#my posts #nonsims #look. I played KH almost as much as sims back in the day #but then they started making games for platforms I didn't have and couldn't afford. #so I never finished. and now I finally can #and I'm like #ugh I can't be normal about this game still. that's good to know. #but also I need to stop myself from looking up fanart so I don't spoil anymore of the fucking complicated insane plot before I get to it!!! #>:(((( someone save me from myself

[plexippusangel]

I either need to accept that I am just a way stronger person than this friend and can handle way more while still being able to engage with the world as a person, or recognize excuses as excuses, accept that I am not valued and be done or. Maybe both. Idk. It might be somewhere between the two. I am just sick of regular life stuff rendering him unable to spend any time with me, and of him being unable to bear any of the details of my life, when I would move mountains to rekindle our friendship. Though I'm starting to wonder if I still would.

#faer personal files #i just. really didn't want officiating his wedding to be our last hurrah of friendship even though i did kind of feel it coming #also i'm really sick of being infantilized for my chronic fatigue i am a grown adult and i know what i'm capable of #ugh. maybe i'm just being awful and not understanding in which case i'm too much of a rancid person to be his friend i guess #but i don't think that's the case #idk i'll never forget when i couldn't see this dude for a year even masked up outside for covid but when another of our old friends came up #from her job doing COVID RELATED CROWD CONTROL FOR THE FUCKING ARMY he went on a hike with her mask off #and i think that says a lot about what our friendship's been for years honestly. if he can't bear my company idk why i try #if i'm just an interesting prop for conversations and occasions but not a friend. i can't accept that #i am an interesting prop for conversations. the disabled genderfluid bisexual genius who lost everything bc of said disability #but i didn't lose everything i just have to fucking rebuild on new ground. and i am doing that. i whine on occasion but i am so strong #and i do know how to interact with people without traumadumping i haven't on him in YEARS but his concept of me crystalized at age 21 #or something like that i guess. idk it just breaks my heart #bc for a long time he was my person. he was the only person who knew the authentic me. more even than my sisters at times. #and yeah that was a little unhealthy but at the time he craved that!!! #and then i grew up and stopped needing him like that around the same time he stopped wanting that and it should have been fucking fine #but like. even senior year of college when i was sick it was already starting to fall apart #like i remember being on a small hike once being exhausted and jokingly being like you gotta carry me back and then being like #no really i might actually need an arm to lean on by the end of this walk if i'm gonna make it back to the car i really don't know if i can #and he said no bc he didn't want to look straight. who the fuck CARES??? i could barely walk i was stumbling my way back annoying him going #too slow. fuck. and that really has been what our friendship has been for years. the minute my house wasn't the most convenient place it wa #more or less dead idk why i keep dragging this horse around #idk why i keep letting him break my heart like this it's so stupid he's never gonna care about me like he did when i was quick and brillian #but never quite as smart as him in his view. fuck him. i'm smarter. just bc i was a little gullible or paranoid at times bc of the #FUCKING CPTSD doesn't mean i was dumber than him. the fuck??? there's something wrong with me i swear idk why i hang on #anyway i'm irritated. but i'm also reluctant to throw away somebody who's seen me through key points in my life. so.