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missklou · 7 years

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Bts reaction {Wanting to break up because of his insecurities} Part 1/2 Hyung Line.

Part 2 (Maknae line)

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Request: Helloooo! I'm a bit overexcited but I'd love to read a reaction in which the members doubt themselves (about looks or characteristics or smth) and want to break up with their s/o because they feel like they aren't enough (heavy angst oh boy) but with a happy ending in which their s/o reassures them and they kiss, hug etc... just fluff :) Not sure if you write angst but yeah that'd be great <3

(I am sorry, that might not be exactly what you asked for because I got a little bit carried away -okay maybe it was a lot-)

Mini scenarios (not even that mini, I’m sorry I have a problem) with each member. If you like it, please check the masterlist for more

Warnings: Heavy angst.

Seokjin:

There were two reasons for your relationship with Jin to be the way it was.

1- He was the worldwide handsome fabulous boy in a famous boy group.

2- Your job paid the bills, made you feel successful and you did not plan on being separated from Jin anytime soon.

Being around him without being able to express your love freely was torture, but it was better than spending months away from each other every time he went away on tour.

So your relationship was the secret you two were most determined to keep.

He uses every second to touch you while you do his makeup and you always whisper how much you love him when no one is around; For you, that was enough.

During the promotions of their comeback, they had a deal with a famous stylist that would often come around to see how they were looking.

Jin more than once pointed that the man could not take his eyes from you, to which you denied at first, since he treated you like any other artist in the staff.

As time went by and the tour came up, Jin had less and less time with you, your makeup sections became rushed and you spent more time with the man in the waiting room than with Jin.

The first week of tour, the man took you out for nice lunches and even tagged along for shopping on your break. He seemed interested and it was making you uncomfortable, so you decided to end your “relationship” -if you could even call it a relationship- when he offered you a job in his runway show productions.

You told your boyfriend about it and going against your expectations, Jin seemed completely sad about it.

-We have to break up. -He said, eyes never meeting yours.

You looked around the storage closet you were locked in and close your fist, trying to fight the tears.

-What do you mean Jin? Why are you being like that lately? Why are we fighting all the time when we can’t even fight here?

-This is not good for you okay? -His eyes are filled with tears and you just want to reach his face and kiss it. -I’m not good enough... Can’t you see that? We can’t even kiss in front of other people because of me, you refused a new job that could pay you double... -He hides his face with his hands, hopeless. -You are too good for what I have to offer you, you deserve a nice guy that can make you happy in front of everyone and...

You take his hands away from his face and hold them tightly, eyes almost glowing.

-You can’t tell me what I deserve and break up with me you fucktard! -You laugh at his shocked expression and you throw your arms around him, pressing your head against his chest. -I am makeup artist Jin, if I wanted to be in the spotlight, I would be doing something else. -He lowers his head to look you in the eyes and you smile again. -I don’t want to be with someone because of the attention, I don’t need you to show me to the world, I just need you to make me happy... And you make me euphoric Kim Seokjin.

He pulls you in for a kiss that tastes like salty tears and assurance.

(By @bwiseoks) (I have to say it was so hard to find an insecurity to apply to Jin, not because he doesn’t have any but because he speaks so little about it)

Yoongi:

The past week had been the most fearful Yoongi has ever been.

When your boyfriend went out on tour, you would go with him and occupy yourself with exploring the countries he was performing on. Being a full-time photographer had its perks and traveling without a problem was one of them.

You absolutely loved traveling and sitting on your couch at home, showing your new photographs to Yoongi, was seriously the second thing you loved most in the world, the first being take Yoongi with you on your explorings.

Yoongi had never mentioned any insecurity about your adventurous personality and always said he was happy he could help you to have the experiences you wanted, he often described you as “the most courageous person in the world”

However, in one of those trips, while Yoongi was at sound checkings minutes before the show, you were walking around the city, taking pictures by a river.

You were crossing a large bridge when you spotted a kid playing with a flower behind its parents, that were admiring the view. Smiling, you kneeled to take a picture of the cute chubby child.

Seconds later you realized she was heading to the opposite side of its parents, you see that the stone protections on the sides of the bridge have enough space for a little infant to slip through and fall. And this one was getting dangerously close to the edge. Letting go of your camera and backpack, you scream for the parents but is too late and the kid falls into the river.

Without giving it a second thought, you jump behind it, only a surprised gasp leaving you as you brace yourself for the impact 10 meters above.

Fortunately, you were able to pull the child out of the water and had people help you by calling the emergency, a doctor took care of the infant and someone even took photos of you in the river with your own camera.

It took a lot of persistence to convince people that you were okay and did not need medical help, due to both not speaking the language and people’s concern about a leg injury that you got, probably from scratching it on something at bottom of the river.

Everything is okay the next morning and the next after that, you leave for the next country with the boys, you are all leaving the airport when you suddenly get dizzy with the city lights and ends up fainting.

You fell ill so fast. Yoongi was terrified, he never feared something like he feared to see you on that hospital bed. It wasn’t just concern, it was paralyzing.

The whole tour had to enter hiatus because Yoongi couldn’t face the stage knowing you could die. It was only when you started to get visibly better that he could get out of the room for more than a few hours.

When you got charged out, Yoongi pushed your wheelchair to the car park and then stopped at the doors and walked around to see you.

-I can’t do this. -He said, tears rolling down his face. -I am breaking up.

-Yoongi? What are you breaking up? -Your voice trembles, you stare at him incredulous that he would be doing this.

-Us. I am breaking up with you. -He sounds breathless, you feel your own eyes tearing up. -You won’t be hearing from me, nor see me ever again.

-Why would you do that to me when I just recovered? -You get up with difficulty, still weak. -I fought so hard for us to be together why... -You run out of breath when the cry creates a nod in your throat. -Why would you do that to us?

-Because... -His dark eyes are red and swollen, he closes his eyes for a second. -I was so useless Y/n! I was completely useless! When you told me what had happened Jungkook had to get me a cab because I couldn’t think straight. When you fainted at the airport, Hoseok checked on you because I couldn’t move. I watched you almost die in front of me and I did nothing!

You blink at him.

-Even before that, even before everything! You would go out to see the world and I wanted to lock you in the hotel room, I wanted to keep you by my side at all seconds because I was so afraid to lose you! I was so insecure about you meeting another one, the love of your life, on one of those crazy adventures, or hurting yourself where I couldn’t do anything, but even when I was by your side I couldn’t help! -Yoongi wasn’t someone who would snap like this if it weren’t serious. -You deserve someone that can protect you without strangling you like I wanted to, someone with the confidence to follow you on your explorings and strong enough to see you hurt, because damn I wasn’t strong enough, I thought I was dying.

Your hands grab his jumpers and pull him to your body, squeezing him into a hug.

-Min Yoongi you are the most strong fucking person I know. -You tell him, lips brushing his ear. -When you were freaking out, you acted calmly so you wouldn’t startle me, you helped me when I could do nothing but throw up, you gave me my medicine every day and when I asked myself “Should I have jumped? Was it worth dying?” you told me that it was the most admirable thing you have ever seen someone do and that gave me so much strength. -Your hands tighten in his clothes, tears wetting his back. -Fuck Yoongi, I’ve been all over the world and yet you are my biggest adventure.

He laughs, chest shaking against yours, then sobs and hugs your waist.

-I fucking love you.

-I fucking love you too Yoongi.

(By @acciosugas)

Hoseok:

Hoseok had been working on one of the most difficult routines he had ever done before and the stress had been building up, and you knew he was going to snap sooner or later.

He was missing out on things he usually paid attention at. Forgetting your anniversary, spending dinner on his phone and giving you short dry answers were not like your caring boyfriend. All tho it made you upset, you knew Hoseok was just stressed and tended to be harsh with himself.

It wasn’t that he couldn’t do the dance moves, it was the pressure to meet up with everyone’s expectations while working so hard to look bright and sunny even when he had troubles.

The one person Jung Hoseok could not fool with a radiant smile was you. Years of relationship had taught you that J-hope, justifying his stage name, would never show what he thought were his weakness, not even to you.

When the day of his new solo performance approaches, you beg for him to rest some more as his rehearsals become frenetic because you can see him getting worn out right in front of you, but it is useless because your boyfriend is well known to be unstoppable.

What you feared the most happened at the big day. During the official performance, tiredness takes the best of him and in one single step, he messes it up.

His right foot slips and he loses balance on one of the most difficult steps, one of his hands go to the floor to keep him from falling. It only lasts a second and no one notices because he moves so fast, you wouldn't even notice it if you hadn't watched the performance a million times at home.

It was hard to enjoy the rest of the concert knowing that once you were alone, Hoseok wouldn't be able to restrain himself for much longer, so you tell yourself the whole time that when he snaps, you are going to be prepared.

Only you were not.

You were not prepared for Hoseok being so harsh.

-I messed up. -He states, passing by you on his way to the waiting room, not even glancing.

You follow his steps and grab him by the arm.

-Hoseok let's talk.

-Let's not talk! -He says, voice getting loud, you stop when he turns, his face is pink with anger. - Let's not talk! If we hadn't talked that much I would've been able to do it without messing it up! If you hadn't insisted on me relaxing and resting I would've practiced some more and it would have been a fucking decent performance! I don’t even know why we are still together, it’s like that every time!

Shivers run down your spine. The boy you know doesn't curse or blame you for his mistakes, the boy you know doesn't get this worked up over a two seconds mistake.

-Hoseok your dancing was amazing. -His shoulders drop with a sigh and he stares at his shoes, figuring out that screaming at you won't make him feel any better. -I saw you practice that routine like a mad person and you looked flawless each time! Hoseok if you were in my shoes, would you let me overwork until I was rotting in front of you? You are only a human being Hobi, for as much as I like to think of you as a super-hero, you are just human. That means you need to rest and eat like a normal person.

He gives you one final look before turning around and leaving.

Your boyfriend had never walked out of a conversation like that, he had never turned his back at you like what you had to say didn't matter and that hurt more than you could explain.

You took a cab to your house, not wanting to take the bus and end up crying in front of all the people, and when you got there you found him leaning against the kitchen counter, crying.

A crying Hoseok was one of the most heartbreaking things in the world and you feel your heart sink when he sobs, looking right at you.

-Why didn't you tell me? -He asks, pointing the calendar at the corner of the balcony. -Our anniversary... I remember it every year but I forgot about it... It was a week ago! -Another loud sob- Why didn't you remind me?

You leave your bag on the floor and approach him, uncertain.

-Because you were stressed out and I didn't want to put even more pressure on you.

-That's why you gave me that expensive speaker then? -You only nod.

-You complained about your phone not being loud enough for practicing at home.

He lets his head down to hide it in between his arms on the balcony, crying even more.

You run for him, hugging his body from behind, head pressing against his shaking back.

-Hope what happened? -He grabs one of your hands but doesn't answer. -Why are you so worked up lately?

-It's just... -He stops for a second to compose himself. -There were just this comments on one of our live streams saying that I looked inferior to the members and so was "getting in the way"... I wanted to work hard to prove that I deserve to be where I am but I messed up. -Hoseok sniffs and every single word breaks your heart a little more.

You tense your jaw to keep the anger inside, boiling blood and all, you let go of your boyfriend's waist to cup his face.

-Jung Hoseok I've seen you spent more than ten hours on a dance room. I've heard you sing and rap in your sleep. I more than once thought I should go to the hospital because of how weak I feel everytime you smile. I love the fact that when I look up your name online, photos of you looking like the sun itself pop up.

He laughs at your choice of words, you pet his cheeks.

-I've seen you looking like a god before going on stage, seen your sweaty ass after practice and seen you bare face when you wake up and Jung Hoseok there is no less breathtaking version of you. -You kiss him, letting his arms surround you. -You work harder than anyone I know and that is because you love what you do. If you don't have fun with what you are doing, it only becomes a burden.

-Thank you so much Y/N, I'm sorry for this week, I love you.

-I love you too baby, you are the most important and appreciated creature in this world for me.

-I know that, I really don't need anything else. -He tells you before pulling you in for another kiss.

(by @yourpinkpill)

Namjoon:

Life wasn't easy. But you had Namjoon. You worked your ass off every day, trying to make a living, trying to live one day after the other and it was hard sometimes but Namjoon would always be right by your side, and you could look ahead and think that things would be getting better soon.

Your first year of residency has proved itself brutal as you found no time to sleep, eat or breath at all outside the hospital and it was only because of your caring boyfriend that you did not give up.

He would bring you meals, clean clothes and even red bull for when you had allnighters.

The thing is... You shared an apartment with Namjoon, worked twelve to fourteen hours a day and had only a short paycheck to support the both of you.

The matter did cause long discussions with your family and Namjoon himself, but they simply didn't understand.

You didn't stick to Namjoon all these years since high school because he was a "save option", damn it, Namjoon has never been a save option.

The reason you and Namjoon were together through life was exclusively because you believed in each other when no one else did.

No one believed you would ever get into med school, no one believed in Namjoon's talent and that was the fire that led you two to the state you were at.

You, treating patients like you always dreamed about, Namjoon producing his own music.

Selling songs as a ghostwriter didn't ever make him happy and you knew that he was only doing it to help you with the money, which earned a few episodes of you telling him to focus on producing the type of music he would like to listen to and be happy with his job.

One day, getting home in the morning, ready to drop on your bed and have the best night -or in this case, day- of sleep of your life, you find Namjoon at his customized mini studio in your house, seating on the floor, crying.

-Monie? Baby, what happened? -You kneel in front of him and he cleans his tears with the back of his hand.

-We have... -He sighs and then closes his eyes. -We have to break up.

Your heart sinks and you get light headed for a second.

Your boyfriend, that has been with you for the past nine years, was now telling you how he was going to leave you, and you were going to forget all about him, and you just couldn't take it.

-Shut the fuck up Namjoon. -You stand up, nails piercing your palms. He stares at you surprised by the aggressiveness in your words. -I only need to know if you still love me. -You whisper at him, that is your biggest fear, has been ever since you and Namjoon started dating, that one day he would wake up from a daze and realize he wasted all these years with you...

-Fuck, so much. -He spills out, standing up too. -I fucking love you so much Y/n and that's why we should break up.

It's your turn to close your eyes and cry.

-Why can't you understand that this is me and you? -You tell him, shoulders shaking.

-Maybe that is the problem princess... I am dragging you down.

Your eyes shot open.

-I just... It has been months! -He admits, pointing at his computer. -It has been months since I last produced a good song. I have no inspiration, no capacity, I have been draining your money and making you work all these extra hours and you always tell me it is nothing but all I can think is how much of a worthless piece of shit I am. I can't even write a song while you save lives and our friend's graduate, and have children, and grow up... Maybe it's time I wake up too!

You can't explain how your blood is boiling from hearing someone talk about the person you love like that, even the someone being your loved one.

-I am telling you that we should break up because I am going to give up. -He can't face you, shame spreading through his chest. -I'm going to give up music and look for my dad again, maybe try an office job or something...

You press him against the wall, fuming.

-I have worked all night Namjoon, and it was not to get home and have my inspiration tell me that he is going to give up! -Your eyes are on fire, your boyfriend gasps. -You are the most talented motherfucker of this goddamn world and I will not allow you to speak like that about the person that I run home to every day! -You are screaming at this point, his eyes grow on his face. -You do not have the right to give up! I won't let you! And you know why? -You suddenly hug him, left ear pressing against his heart. -Because when I locked myself in the break room and cried my eyes out, you rushed to the hospital because you felt like "I needed a hug". When I failed to get accepted you told me that if anyone was ever to wear a medical coat it would be me. You wrote me cute messages like "Don't give up, even if it’s very hard, I'm here for you" on post-its on my lunch boxes and damn Namjoon I will only accept our break up when your excuse be "because you are too famous to have a girlfriend", did you understand me?

Namjoon laughs so loud, dimples contrasting with his swollen eyes and lean in for a long kiss.

-I have loved you for nine years, Monie, the only thing I have ever seen you truly love is music.

-And you. -He corrects.

-Hopefully.

The next week Namjoon writes his best rap, doesn't sell it for any shitty artist and blows up on the internet.

That's your boyfriend.

(By nomu-namu)

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