#watch so they dont get triggered

[transsexualjoanofarc]

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#me.txt #📔 #vents #i feel like such a horrible person right now #not any real reason but like. sighhh #my friend mentioned they were gaving trouble eating so i tried to get them to eat at lunch #& ended up trigfering her & now i feel awful #& i keep fucking arguing with my one friend about the godfather of all things & i thought it was just like debate between buddies but #i now feel like im making her really mad at me #ON THAT POINT #i cant stop FUCKING talking about my interests i cant keep my stupid mouth shut all i do is talk about myself & my interests #my buddy just got out of the fucking psych qlward hes coming over to my house fr a sleepover & i found myself stressing over what movie wed #watch so they dont get triggered #fuck!!! #& talking about my interests & sharing what i like is one of my love languages but i feel like im incqpavle of talkong about #ANYTHING else & its so FUCKING annoying like CHRIST i cannot tolerate myself i dont know how yall do it #im just a horrible person to be around #& its so hard fr me to connect with other people about THEIR lives & what THEY have going on #i feel like my drawing isnt improving & my writing is repetitive & i cant make anything well & im just stuck in the same old cycles im. tir #tired of myself #God can i be anyone else fr a day

[charlie-artlie]

I think the death weirdos should hang out

#transformers #maccadam #first aid #rewind #arts #death mention tw #how do i even trigger tag for snff film mention without getting shadow banned. is the question. #for the record i dont think either of them are having A Good Time in that last panel #but watching them has become like a compulsion #like when aid found out abt the tapes he was like oh goddamit. fuck. well i have to watch them :/ #and everyone else was like no???? you really dont have to wtf?? #but the specter of amulons corpse that watches aid from the darkened corner of the room tells him he has to so #whos he supposed to listen to here

[lesbiradshaw]

theo and liam always getting paired together in 6b during episodes where all of the other storylines focus on couples going through stuff together is so funny because when you look at it, the only episode where they really get split up is genotype, which is one of the rare episodes where scott ISN’T paired with malia (because he’s with liam) and mason isn’t with corey (because he’s with theo) aka the canon love interests. like these episodes were cutting from shit like scalia almost dying together to thiam having intimate conversations about how liam processes emotions and morey saying i love you to thiam swearing that neither of them are dying for each other 😭 just very amusing to me. theo raeken: the accidental love interest.

#like 😭 #6b eps post theo getting kidnapped go pressure test -> triggers -> werewolves of london -> genotype -> 6.19 which i barely remember -> #then wolves of war aka the finale #pressure test: mason & corey are at deatons. theo shows up at the police station w everyone & shoves liam in the bathroom to berate him for #not being worried ab his own safety enough ??? 😭 & hes pretty much attached to liams hip in the group shots #also while theo & scott are outside doing their lil body bag trick malia and liam are pressed right against the window watching both of them #& during triggers we dont see corey but mason leaves theo & liam alone . & its a major bonding ep for them…. #while scalia are also having their major bonding moment when they both almost Die #then during werewolves of london theo just shows up at the school and they end up calling scalia for help 😭 #and again genotype breaks all the couples off from each other so its mason n theo / scott n liam / malia with her dad #and during wolves of war i literally laughed out loud because it bounces around from jethan to morey to thiam all having heart to hearts #not saying it was intentional but it was very funny framing TO ME #that ao3 tag thats like ‘they are dating in secret but only one is aware’ LIEKDJENEBR #they basically made theo liam’s love interest on accident just bcuz everyone else was already paired off w someone 😭 #thiam #saw someone the other day say they just dont get how people Came Up with thiam and its like #ok if you dont ship it whatever but if you say you cant see why youre just lying 😭 look at the material

[g0nta-g0kuhara]

Im watching a second episode of udg because there was no V3 video last week, and oh my god silly times are over I think we're starting to get to That part of the game now.

That cutscene with Masaru in the killoseum... jesus christ. It is compelling in a way but it just makes me feel a bit sick that he's what, like 12? It's pretty damn upsetting, and I don't even think this is as bad as it's gonna get

#shut up me #I like. plopped down into my seat with an ice cream and started watching and I was just like. #well the ice cream is happening whether it feels appropriate now or not and Boy did it not feel appropriate #Yeesh #vaguing about what the scene was because Im sure most of you already know what im talking about #and I dont want to like. jumpscare anyone who (completely understandably) gets triggered by that stuff #yknow I started getting panic attacks in my last few years of high school and I have one every couple of months #so Recognizing that and then seeing what happened next was just so #jesus. okay #udg

[basofy]

hmmmm i guess i can let these out in the wild now

these are doodles i did the next day i watched that convo, while still having a bad stomachache, so they're more like vent art

idk if im the only one that took this thing extremely seriously, but it made me sad and it keeps making me sad the more i think about it

img that describes what the scene felt like to me

#my feelings on the matter are extremely conflicted #because im not really opposed to the themes that were explored #but i keep rejecting the conversation no matter what #wheter it's because of the execution or because this happened like 10 years later i dunno #it was such a strange thing to be surprised with #sometimes i dont know if it was made to be serious or not #my main conflict is how different it feels from how lisa tends to tackle these things #i was talking to a friend and they mentioned that it could be made to feel like a joke at first and then get rly dark #because thats how it feels when youre a kid in the position jack was in #i keep wishing there was more to that though #anything that showed that the game cares about jack after it #i think it was made as some sort of trap? to see who took it as a joke and who took it seriously maybe #but it keeps giving me a stomachache im rly bad with triggers haha #didnt expect my comfort game to put this right on my face and leaving it all up to me so im not having a lotta fun #my stuff #lisa rpg #this was my first fanart for the DE wtfff #still wish they got something extra that wasnt a pain to watch just becuz i like both charas #in fact i dont understand some of the choices in the conversations but there are some i liked a lot #i might probably still like garth out of nostalgia but it's random sometimes i like him sometimes im grossed out and so on #lisa garth #garth lisa the painful #jack lisa #if ya need this tagged tell meee #honestly this goes further than 'i hate garth now im gonna send him to the roulette' for me #i dont stop anyone from hating him my issue is with the scene in itself i think. i just wasnt expecting this #also be nice in the tags this thing makes me overthink so much lololol #everytime i make art for this thing i end up changing my mind like i dont feel the same way about the first doodle anymore #upd8 from 3 months later im more at peace with this thing MENTAL ILLNESS CURED YAYYYY #i just allow it to make me sad when it has to

[mishapen-dear]

will i get a migraine today or will i survive. lets see.

#fun fact silent migraines are real #where you dont experience pain but have other ‘fucka you’ symptoms #if you find yourself suddenly getting dizzy or really stupid it may be a migraine #’really stupid’ can vary but for me its when 2+2 = 3 #or 4+4 = 5 #i can work it out after a second but fuckk man it was rough when i didnt realize i was having migraines #having trouble seeing is a symptom too so if you cant focus on anything that can be a p big indicator #hash tag not a doctor. im just mentioning this so people can like. Know to watch out for triggers if this is something that happens to them #and also know that migraines arent always hell headaches

[emperornero]

sorry not sorry for talking about toonimal / ezra so much i fucking hate predators in the furry community and especially ones who use cutesy furry art to get kids to follow them and i wish all of them to perish painfully and instantly ok

#if you really dont want to see these posts for trigger reasons please blacklist the tag toonimal #other than that. watch and learn and have your eyes open so this fucker can finally get locked up

[kiwidotcom]

watching a movie my coworker recommended

and I know he's going to ask me about it tomorrow

I hate making people feel bad but.... kind of wish he hadn't recommended a movie to me that largely involves race war.....

and it further reminding me how much people just don't care or think about what's happening

#like i get protecting your mental health #im not saying you have to be saturated in information abt palestine. its heavy. #but hey guess whats not great for my mental health rn. watching a movie about race war!! #there's literally a scene of people coming out of a hospital and getting shot #like there are so many parallels #it's also reminding me that people love caring about war when it doesnt negatively affect them & they dont have to be involved #the movie is children of men #not a bad movie #but i wish i wasnt watching it #only 10 mins left thank fuck #UHG #what do i say to him tomorrow #“hey thanks cool movie you know this is happening irl in palestine right? yea the comparisons are pretty triggering!” #“but hey me being triggered is nothing compared to being genocided!! tell me again about how you got McDonald's the other day?” #fml

[caffeinatedopossum]

I wish someone would talk to me, everyone I know is either asleep while I'm awake, always busy, or honestly just really depressing/triggering to talk to (though I feel bad saying it)

#like its fine and i get it. people have their own lives #but i have nothing to do and im bored #ill literally clean my whole house just cause im bored and then run out of things to clean and sit and stare at a wall #or lay in bed and either sleep or just sit there awake #i can only watch stuff online so much before i feel insufferably restless #and i dont blane my friends who are depressed or trigger me either #i get that too. its just sometimes i need a break from that #i feel like boredom is a particularly vulnerable place for me and if im exposed to triggers #i tend to act in unhealthy ways or spiral mentally because of it #idk. first world problem of course but im just trying to figure out how to navigate it

[they-are-so-gender]

Herbet west has the biggest eyes in the world

#just watched the first 2 reanimator movies #hes so short #and his eyes are so big #he has the most button nose #and the poutiest lips #hes literally so silly #we didnt even get to see him get his glowing t-shots #we watched the wrong version #still very fun tho #LOOK AT TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR MOVIES BTW #DONT BE DUMB LIKE ME #reanimator #not polls

[imblocking-you]

As a Kaleidoscope of Death enjoyer, I'm really having fun with the vibes the Dreadful Night world is offering

#dreadful night #kaleidoscope of death #// maple #manhwa #listening to rain and river asmr too really sets that chilly camping in the mountains tone #what is one with bada's partner (i forgot his name) he's so sus #like he wants to help but the way he goes about it makes you think otherwise #ch 17 not killing hyungshin but giving him a death flag triggering statement smart but also cruel 😭😭 #the full immersion and when the chills start OH YK ITS GETTJNG GREAT #i love reading horror over watching precisely for this reason bc you dont just follow a story #you flesh out a world in your head and you get to live in it as well #your consciousness stands among the characters while the plot plays out in your head #and when it's not just horrow but they're aware of exactly what's going on and are trying to play it smart #but there's still an air of wonder of what's about to transpire #LOVE IT #ch. 20 i keep forgetting his name 😭 but PARTNER DAMN WHAT A POT STIRRER YOU ARE #wait no sorry for judging you #ALSO this has got to be brain expanding for hyungshin like how a normal person should act learning it's a game #being annoying and curious and shit unlike partner here who is oddly calm about everything 💀 #he moves so strategically it's annoying bro is the embodiment of never let them know your next move #also the way they incorporated sex here 😭 crazy #but i love the vibes so 🤷‍♂️ #im glad we're all acknowledging that partner is truly blackhearted #cunning x perceptive is hiking up in my ship list lowkey #and a character trait i'm starting to like is 'ambiguously something' LMAO #ch. 22 this is a whole 180 from kod couple's dynamic #well granted they're in diff circumstances but still the personalities presented are very interesting #keeps me on the tip of my toes love these type of stories

[asthe-crow-flies]

Hospital Bed - Lolina: Origins

i am obsessed with this concept album its on bandcamp please go listen to it i need to not be the only person who cares about this

[id: a digital comic consisting of three pages, in grayscale and red.

the first page is four panels, each the width of the page. the first is all black. four beeps go diagonally down across the panel. the second panel is mostly black, with a somewhat fuzzy light in the middle left of the panel. it reads "what is this pain? what is this place?" in the third panel, the fuzzy image of a person is visible, the edges of the panel are still dark. it reads "am i alive? am i awake? what are these scars across my face?" in the fourth panel, a woman in a lab coat and a mask, the doctor, leans in. the right side of the panel is still dark. a speech bubble from the woman says "you are home". the narration interjects with "they say". the woman continues "you are safe."

the second page is three panels, the first one taking up most of the page, with the other two next to each other under it. the first panel is a birds-eye view of a room in a hospital. in the center is Lolina, a woman laying on a hospital bed. she has black hair, a bandage wrapped over her eye, and a red cut down the side of her face. the doctor stands next to the bed. sideways, in large letters, it reads "hospital bed, I'm back on mars." the second panel is a close-up of the upper half of Lolina's face, focusing on her left eye, which is red, and the bandage covering her other one. it reads "but i am wounded." the third panel is a close up of the lower half of her face, focusing on the cut on her cheek held together with butterfly bandages, and the large bandage on her other cheek. it reads "I feel the scars."

the third page is a drawing of the doctor standing by the bed, from Lolina's point of view. across it is dialogue interspersed with small panels. the doctor says "we can regrow your cells," and next to it is a small panel showing cells dividing. then she says "we can restore," and next to it is a panel showing the right half of Lolina's face, with her eye and cheek healed. then she says "you will go back," and next to it is a panel reading "Sandy's Place" in glowing red letters. the narration interjects with "they say." the doctor continues "to the life you had before." under it is a panel divided diagonally into four sections, the first showing red lips, the second showing black hair swishing, the third showing a pair of legs wearing red high heels, and the fourth showing a body from neck to hips, wearing a strapless red dress. under that the narration reads "to the life i had before". end id.]

(I've never written an id for a comic before and there was some visual stuff that was really tricky to describe so if I've messed something up or if something should be clearer please tell me and I'll try to fix it)

#this is by no means perfect but i NEED to get it posted so i can get myself to stop working on it in the middle of finals week #ive never made a comic before this was fun #lolina: origins #r l hughes #art #my art #seriously go listen to it its only one pound thats only a bit more than a dollar its way cheaper than it should be #it should have SO many trigger warnings though so i guess like dm me or whatever if you want more detail #there's also lyric videos by thevoidsings on youtube but supporting creators is important so if you watch those please also buy the album #if anyone's wondering (which im sure no one is) the comic is in grayscale but lolina is only black and white with no grays because that's #how she's drawn on the album cover and i liked how unsettling it made her look #also! her thoughts and narration have red in the letters and the organatech doctor's dont because shes the only one who gets any red #goddddddddd i need to get this out of my brain this is ruining my life #someone please please talk to me about this

[blinkpen]

to convey just how much i loved NOPE, i actually go out of my way to look for analyses, gifsets and fanart. like, i go into the tag for this movie, and look at/read stuff. this may not sound impressive, but if you know me, personally, i’m not a ‘fandom’ person. a mix between me being an anhedonic weirdo who is naturally pretty disinterested in most things, my brain just not being wired to crave fan content, and also Knowing Better than to look directly at the fandom of anything i do enjoy for my own good. either way, even when i love something to pieces, i pretty much literally never do that kinda of thing.

its just such a mentally engaging film packed to bursting with things to examine and admire and such an interesting theme/core message that is not something you see often, while being so masterfully crafted visually on top of that that i am still thinking about it weeks and weeks later and wanting to see other people’s ruminations as well.

#sporadic warbling #its one of those movies that i only like more and more the longer i think about it #and i DO think about it more and more bc it inspires thought #the only reason i dont ramble about specifics are go on a rare Veri Reblogs Stuff spree #is i wanna give a bit more time for others to see it #normally i think being hung up on spoilers is a detriment but its not even like critical reveals or plot beats #its just the kinda film that very much benefits from being seen blind #anyway watch NOPE #though if you have claustrophobia there is a scene that is very likely to Get you bad so be prepared for that #actually i might make a full potential trigger warning list later if anyone would like one

[craycraybluejay]

its not stalking its sneering at your terrible opinions and interpretations of art

#vagueblogging #i think im just rly mad bc #this person acted exactly like my abuser #and maybe it triggered me? #like down to the tactics and words used #down to the accusatory and superior tone #idk it infuriates me to see their(abuser) face and voice in other people #overwhelming urge to punch people like this #like ok i get that taking the high road would be sympathy and grey walling #and i try to grey wall #but its exceesingly harder when it comes from someone you dont expect this behaviour from #and worse still is the paranoia that they somehow converted this person to be like them #bc ive seen them do that to irls so theres just this paranoid residue of 'what if this random person ive never met talked to abuser too much #its scary watching it happen. watching this behaviour normalize in the brains of well past full grown adults and sometimes kids #i wish kindness was even half as contagious as cruelty

[xxlethal-lunaxx]

If anyone relates to this even just a little bit, then I'm so sorry.

#• luna lavinchi speaking • #living with cptsd #cptsd vent #complex ptsd #diet culture trauma #monsters inside me #toxic health culture #ex vegitarian/vegan #emotional flashbacks #health documentaries #dark side of veganism #i should have never been forced to watch these as a child..my mind wasn't ready to understand the information nor tell what was real or not #-i cant try sushi or even think about fish without feeling physically sick and dizzy. i haven't had McDonald's since i was like 6ish years- #-old..i never wanted to share this information but i need to vent. I feel embarrassed and rude for not liking a food chain that most of the #-population does. Smelling or seeing McDonald's makes me wanna puke so bad because of everything those documentaries would say. #I will never be able to eat McDonald's in my life because of how sick and terrified i feel when thinking about the food even the drinks- #-scare the shit out of me. I'm so pissed that I'm triggered. All of the sudden i smell something in the house that smells like McDonald's- #-then the memories come flooding back and i feel like puking so back so i cant even eat dinner. i know this may seem stupid but i am- #-genuinly scared. Im tired of this shit and tired of feeling alone in this. #(anyway sorry. if you read my vent then i appreciate you) #tw food talk #tw diet culture #tw vent in tags #(dont even get me started on parasites cause thats a whole fucking trauma itself. damn it i hate it all. i hate it so much) #(also note: my therapist made me feel so validated weeks ago when i told her during my session that i was traumatized by monsters inside me- #-she literally knew the name of the show before i could even say its name. and she said she also cant watch it and that she saw it as an- #-adult who doesn't have ocd. so she told me she can't even imagine how terrified i was to watch it as a child who was developing ocd.- #-therapist W)

[shortscircuits]

love lies bleeding is really good but i got triggered by the longer vomit scene (there are 2 vomit scenes but the second one is a quick little jokey one) and after the movie ended i promptly had a panic attack in an alley outside the theater 😭

#also the movie as a whole is not nearly as sexy and fun as i thought jt would be #the sex scenes / hot scenes are REALLY good dont get me wrong #but theyre just a short little reprieve in a movie of scene after scene of visceral violence and heart wrenching drama #also kstew SLAYS in this. it was the first time i wasnt watching kristen stewart in a movie. she was actually just lou #but my personal triggers notwithstanding its a reeeeallly good movie. just check doesthedogdie for any triggers u may have before seeing it #cus its so tense it may make it harder fo handle things u normally can handle just fine