#which isnt far away

[donaidk]

If I see one person cry about those team orders while Lando literally had newer tyres and the pace I will just shove the now more than 4 sec gap between Lando and Oscar in their face.

Oscar is doing great but does not mean he won't be ordered to benefit the team. Just like they would do the other way around too. So stop crying.

Thank you.

#oscar gonna have his time once he has more experience #which isnt far away #he's doing great #but until then what benefits the team will happen

[in-a-slanted-outhouse]

Hi lol

#i dont know why i feel like im doing so bad #my brain feels like a clogged up mess #i dont understand #like im functioning fairly normally #but at the same time my executive functioning is not good #but theres just so much i feel like im supposed to be doing but im not #i wanna be further a long with things than i am #i dont know whats happening to me #actually dreading going back to school so much #im so anxious about it that i cant relax #i dont even go back until september #which isnt far away #but its far enough away that i should be able to get my shit together before then #but my brain is doing the whole ‘too much to do so i cant do any of it’ #even with simple things that shouldnt be too stressful #ffs #ugh #i have to read pride and prejudice #which is supposed to be good #im so shit at reading things im supposed to #like even with things i enjoy #im so behind on dracula daily for example #i have a therapy appointment soon though #yall dont have to worry too much about me though #it just feels better to put my words out somewhere instead of just in my notes #as in the iphone notes app #louie says shit #louie says shit but in the tags #tw vent

[nevarroes]

#art tag #gortcas #casim carnarvon #sorry guys proper context some other time maybe idk how to do it right now so no caption it is🤕 #the tldr is that Gortash offhandedly talked about how Cas can make him as fat as he pleases but really it wont make him him his #basically that he only allows Cas to have his way but hes still in full control #which is true yes and Cas knows that to an extent but its not something he wants to hear #because Cas very much holds onto the hope that Gortash will be his forever at some point. phsyically #because again. Cas won't ever believe just words he simply is unable to even if Gortash could never love anyone else #at the same time while yes he obviously enjoys the whole weight gain he does not consider his own enjoyment a good reason to do things #Cas is someone that very much disregards his own enjoyment of things as well as his wellbeing #Cas is just pulling away instead of acting mad in an obvious way. hes sticking around but hes not feeding or teasing him about his weight #and Gortash? is now left with not knowing how to fix it since Cas isnt acting as he usually does when hes hurt or mad. hes still there #and day after day passes where he yearns to have it back. practically begging Cas to continue so he can prove his devotion #prove that he mustve been wrong with his comment. that Cas can push his body as far as he wants to and he'll be his in the end #thx for reading my tags guys maybe i can share more about this scene some other time🙂‍↕️ for now just have the art

[funkily]

i think traffic scott has crazy issues with his sense of self . i cant defend this at the moment but i feel it in my heart and also depending on how u look at his character i think there is canon backing

#which isnt to say self-worth issues by the way #i dont . hm #i dont know how i feel about scotts level of insecurity #but i do think hes draped himself in so many layers of lover/victim/hero/bestie/martyr etc that he wouldnt have a grasp on who he is without #labels like that and the behaviors they induce #i do think hes a catty gay guy . at heart . but i think even the way thats displayed is like . a front in a way ? #like . ok . listen to me #its like paint #scott his actual true self is blue . and then hes covered in so many coats of paint (the roles he assumes) of various different colors #and then you finish it off with another coat of blue . and its a different shade #but the base color is so far down that no one will really notice #CAN ANYONE HEAR ME . HE FINDS COMFORT IN THE BOXES HE PUTS HIMSELF IN AND IF YOU TOOK THOSE AWAY HE MAY CRUMBLE #maybe this is wrong . idk . insert everything i say about smajor is wrong because im smajor blinkie here #babbleeng

[dimonds456]

I'm mid-James apology and holy shit this is actually a GOOD apology?? MUCH better than the first one if nothing else.

Will update if anything dramatic happens.

Edit: check the notes and the replies. I had just woken up, this was the first thing I did lol. Yeah it was bad.

#okay he DID just say he had permission to upload Evil Queens and didnt say if that was before or after the plgrsm #but other than THAT i dont see any major issues yet #dimond speaks #NEW TAGS: Yeah no this was shit. he purposefully misdirected the conversation away from some stuff while #overexplaining other things to try and make himself look better. classic james idk why i fell for it #i have since rewatched Todd in the Shadow's video and a vid on his first apology as a refresher #hes doing the same tricks again but far more organized this time around and with actual editing to 'acknowledge' he's listening #which he isnt because he didnt address half the allegations against him #i had just woken up and ive never been the best at spotting lies anyway so yeah. im gullible i know. #you dont have to tell me i already feel stupid lmao

[mechandra]

across the river willamette

I moved away and couldn’t take the cats. I cope by watching a 16-second video of Bennett purring on repeat. Watching other cats doesn’t satisfy that need; I miss my cat, the one that knew me. Sigh.

Anyway, cat comics are going on a brief hiatus.

COMING UP NEXT:

#mechandra draws #actual factual me #cat #comic #cat comics #cat comics are OVER we dog comics now #bonus explainer: willamette is the river that goes thru portland; which has several bridges #the iconic cable bridge is called tilikum crossing #additional explainer: the phrase is usually 'crossing the river styx' to refer to someone passing on but cat isnt dead hes just far away #anyway i hope yall are excited to meet this anxious geriatric puppy

[poughkeepsies]

the gay agenda is desentisizing my mom to gay people by showing her 9-1-1 episodes with all the queer characters where she can't help but like them and root for them

#shes gotten much better but were working on it #sometimes i still have to fight the urge to stiffen up when something gay happens on screen and then i remember #im already out and shes fully aware her biggest gay problem isnt on the screen #which is not being generous enough to her poor woman has never said a word to me about it and she actively asks me to watch more together #and she absolutely blew me away with how loving and supportive she was when i came out even if she cant understand it #but 10 years ago that would not have been the case shes actually come so so far #so ig this is more to help her actually understand how loving and complex and relatable queer people can be even to her #so thanks babe youre a real one doing gods work @911onabc #weewoo brainrot

[hella1975]

my mum picking me up this morning: you're not as hungover as i thought you'd be

me, just yacked in an alleyway: yeah haha

#it's 3pm now and i still cant believe that happened that was. an experience #basically my mate's 21st coincided with her sister's 30th so they both had this big joint Event last night #where they literally rented out a farm house and the field nearby and set up a whole campsite and barbeque and everything #it was really random but also really good esp bc ive been friends with this girl since we were super young #and our mums were friends so ive just got. lots of connections to her family and it was nice seeing them all again #but there was fully like 60 people at this thing and i DID drink more than i meant to but i wasn't paralytic which is good #and my hangover ISNT that bad in terms of how bad my hangovers can get #it's just that my mate's dad picked us both up at 9am this morning which was already going to be... rough #and then proceeded to do the bumpiest drive down the country lanes ive ever experienced #i was literally grinding my teeth like i am NOT about to throw up in this man's car please if there is a god do not let me throw up #and i didn't! my mum picked me up from this (thankfully very quiet) road that has this rickety old alley coming off it #and i had the very humbling moment of 'im actually going to be sick aren't i' and had to WAIT FOR AN OLD WOMAN #TO FUCKING MEANDER OUT OF THE ALLEY AND WALK FAR AWAY ENOUGH FOR ME TO AT LEAST HAVE A SHRED OF DIGNITY #and proceeded to throw up. in a public alleyway. at 9:30am on a sunday. so of course i needed to tell you guys about it #im now force feeding myself garlic bread. im going to manchester tomorrow. i have a flight at the crack of dawn on tuesday #what is even going on anymore #also fully did just do nos last night with some 30 year olds. i cannot express how fucking odd a thing that is for me to do #actually no i can express it bc youse know that im funny about drugs so for me to not even be that drunk #and get offered a fucking balloon of all things and be like 'yeah why not!' is.... odd #i know i inhaled wrong though bc it didn't do a thing which honestly im happy about <3 #hella goes home

[i-bring-crack]

You ever think Persephone, when she came back from the underworld, was ever asked by the other gods how their favorite humans are doing?

#persephone #greek mythology #i mean she isnt the ONLY god to go away but she does reign over the souls and also stays with them more than other psychopomps #like hermes per say #the idea in my head ranges from hilarious (Apollo crawling back again like 'so...' and persephone sighs like 'which one is it this time') #to outright sad (athena humbky passing by the fields her mother cares for. usually a goddess of war such as her would be in the polis and #not so far out where only farmers live. but now she is here. reserved and quiet for a while before asking if she knows of a man. maybe one #who might have been mischevius enough to trick her at some point. maybe someone who had gona through the underworld twice but only came out #once. and persephone recalls before turning back to her and joking saying that yeah 'he has tried to escape again.' she smiles. #'and to the court he said. he only wishes to say goodbye to an old friend.' #ancient greece #man i need closure #i would say dionysous would also be approached but he would also be too drunk to remember—

[kaeyapilled]

a chill runs through my spine each time i remember the one natlan character we know of so far is named iansan (possible reference to a deity from an afro-brazilian religion)

#😭😭😭😭anything but the afro-brazilian religions i dont think i could handle that #according to what i know (which isnt a lot. im an extremely raised catholic girlie) she looks over storms and has ties to war? #which does seem in theme w the nation of war i suppose #the genshin writers are capable of doing basic research its just they always manage to make it so very racist in the end #its genshin impact.. i shiver whenever i think of whatever the hell theyre gonna do w natlan #but oh well it's so far away anyways. i probably wont be into the game anymore and therefore it won't be my problem #anyways #is this a complaining tag moment.. maybe #my posts

[rohirric-hunter]

Sunrise over post-war Minas Tirith

#lotro #not tagging this spoilers because its just a landscape #and mostly from old content at that #highest graphics settings and unfortunately osgiliath does not draw from this far away #which is probably for the best can you even imagine how that would hit performance #but unfortunately it should be in the screenshot and isnt #i would try to photoshop it but i dont know where i could get the right angle from except possibly from climbing on some trash in throne? #but i think that would stick out in the screenshot #so we will all just have to use our imaginations

[be-good-to-bugs]

once my brain stops trying to eat itself i WILL learn to crochet

#the bin #maybe my grandma can teach me. she tried to a long while ago but i also lived too far away to see her often so it didnt stick at all #she had given me a book which was really helpful but i got stuck on something and then the boon got chewed up real bad by mice #and that was the end of my learning to crochet for awhile. i tried learning to make granny aquares last year but i didnt end up doing it #i miss knitting too. i literally never finsihed a knitting project even once tho. i kept reknitting the same small ball of fluffy yarn over #and over again. i coudont decide what to makw with it so i kept taking it apart. it felt really nice to knit with so i was just making a #square over and over and restarting again and again. the process of knotting is pretty plesent to me but the yarn starts to hurt my fingers #after awhile but this was super soft baby blanket yarn so that didnt happen #theres a few things of super soft fluffy yarn here rn but they got dirty so im gonna have to wash them before i can use them which is a pain #well. at least washing fluffy yarn isnt too bad. washing an entire big thing of regular yarn is awful but the fluffy ones are pretty short #i miss it. i dont have any idea where my needles are tho. well. when i move i can get back to doing that

[thebirdandhersong]

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#as a side note i had a moment of horrid irony when i thought suddenly that I WISHED mr knight were there #because he was at the vigil last year and used to be a part of my church. and i suddenly missed all my old housemates #who were here last year! went to hug people during the peace and a good friend asked if i was okay #i was like 😭😭😭😭 not really and then turned around and SAW the boy and was like well this is a twist in the plot i truly dont care for #anyway all's well i just cried buckets more my heart's been wrung OUT #he lives fae away. he was not supposed to come. anyway he did and i shook his hand formally because he offered to (???) #*far away #it was totally bizarre #he did not stay for long which. thank God. i wouldve been so much more tired if he had #but he wished me happy birthday which irked me because we'd had an unspoken agreement to not wish each other happy birthday (for fear of #mixed signals) which. happened i guess #it was INCREDIBLY bizarre. the safest ive ever felt in my life was when he was holding me #and now he's a familiar stranger i know too well whom i dont WANT to know #anyway it has been a heartwrenching and soul draining Lent and past six months or more and i was ready to cry #and so i did. bawled like a baby after certain readings and songs. cried and cried and cried #re: reasons for that concerning the ex boyfriend: it is SO weird and i dont know how to deal with it #like. i still have so much love that it feels like grief and the grief bleeds into that love too #but that love isnt for HIM anymore or at least not the person i found he was. so now it really does have nowhere to go #ANYHOW IT'S LATE BUT THE POINT IS. HE IS RISEN AND THERE ARE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS #THAN SEEING YOUR EX BOYFRIEND AT CHURCH AND BEING LIKE ?????? HUH????????

[mwagneto]

okay google how do i move out of eastern europe but stay in the eu but go somewhere i speak the language but somewhere that has healthcare and somewhere where i dont need to become a construction worker and also somewhere that is not germany. thanks

#i wanna go to aotearoa I've always wanted to but it's so FAR AWAY. also i need somewhere cold also i #love authentic gothic buildings too much to leave europe. but omfggggg #like it's truly so. i dont want to move somewhere where english isnt a main language but the #uk is out and ireland is unlikely and canada is just somewhat nicer french usa and nz is 4 days travel away. blows up #whatever i have 4 semesters of uni left to think about it. it just feels like im #hurtling full speed at the inevitability of living the rest of my life in Germany #i dont want to live in germany idek why but im sooo. like omg nooo 😭😭😭 #partly because it's such a cliché but also coz it's such a vacation country for me like we #went there for vacation like. unironically at least 3 times every single year #insert joke abt *getting back at the 10000000000 german tourists that come to hungary every day* that I'm too sleepy to make #it's so . like i used to have a specific goal in mind (uk ☹️) but then SOMEONE had to go and leave the eu #and also the uk sucks fat shit like csöbörből vödörbe omg. but now i have no #real goal so im just drifting w the vague knowledge that any second now I'll have to pack all my #shit up and escape before it's too late. but where 😀😀😀 #i have no qualms abt leaving my f*mily behind but I'll miss budapest #and if i left Europe I'd miss it too especially coz even canada feels really far let alone nz which yknow. 3-4 days of travel #it's the lack of goals that's killing me like OMFGG HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO WORK HARD AND #STRIVE FOR SMTG WHEN I HAVE NOTHING SPECIFIC IN MIND... #i mean ''get the fuck out'' is something but it's not Enough. i need to be insane about a #place that's accessible. all the cities/locations im crazy about are inaccessible for one reason or another #bristol and wales are in the uk. nz is on the exact opposite side of the planet. life so sad. #canada is the most likely one honestly but like omgggg. godddddjfdnffnfjfmmf #they should invent a budapest that's not in hungary. they should invent a hungary that isn't comically awful #barking #ok to rb #eastern europe #like im fluent in 3 languages and i can get by in like 10 other ones i Could brush up on any language relatively quickly if it came to that #but it's like. 1. I'd have to pick a location 2. learning a new language also means #getting an entire new personality as well which yknow. idk if i have the capacity for another one rn #i should just become fluent in the ones im somewhat good at but idk which to pick

[volfoss]

honestly the more grant morrison comics i read/more i learn about them, the more i want them to blow up violently

#twist rambles #like. obviously when i hit their issues in the tal.ia chronology itll be BAD but like. genuinely horrific to me the shit that they got away #w writing lmao. for a while it was just a minor dislike of them and being like yeah. their writing isnt my fave. but the more i read the #more im like oh. oh you SUCK at writing ok. sure cant wait to see how much worse tal.ias stuff gets when we go from like. whatever fresh #horrors that o'neil gives me (which. is a lot do not get me wrong) to whatever FAR WORSE horrors that morrison gives me. #and whoever was responsible for like. half the shit on the al ghuls wiki page... bc every time i look into it im like wow. ok yeah this is #horrific. like i do NOT like ra's. i do think hes an effective villain and kind of fun. but i think the tendency that some writers have to #mke him cartoonishly evil just stems from the racism they have towards him. #this entire post started bc of morris.on sure putting words out there in a book from 2011 about ta.lia and good god oh its gonna make me #scream. but the list of comic authors i NEED to blow up grows daily

[curiosityjams]

my future when it comes to still being Active on social media is teebeedee, but my main resolution for 2024 is like...be comfortable w/ being completely offline even if it's just for a day or a week.

#the good news is that i don't check sm during the am hours anymore (by that i mean like as soon as i wake up i still need to work #on being less online during the after hours aka anything later than 9-10pm ish) #BUT i've learned that being active hasn't made my ppl pleasing tendencies better and that there are many many things i need to like #work on far away from places like tumblr and The Big Four #(that being ig twitter still not calling it x fb and like...reddit #though tbf i haven't been ACTIVE active on twitter + fb for almost 4/5 years now so theres that #i still lurk the former when i'm feeling REAL bored but thats rare these days which is an improvement? #though i also have to work on doing shit that doesnt involve online brainrot 24/7 aka reading and writing and like...watching media that #isnt like...football (soccer 4 the us/canada/aus folks) #but lb ruined my love of film for a LONG long time bc it values getting the most pop review over idk actually loving movies #idk its just me rambling abt my relationship w/ sm and where it stands atm perdon sghdjfhj #the tl;dr is i need to shut up and log off when my body is telling me to stop gsbdhjfghjikejr #be quiet drea