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ghouljams · 9 months

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Ghoul i dinnae know if you’ve done this before but what if Ghost was Die’s demon ? How would tha go 👁️👁️

Die also doesn't read the manual, but at least she asks questions...

"What's it like being dead?" You whisper, crouched low as you scurry between cover points.

"What's it like bringing a knife to a gun fight?" Ghost's low voice asks in your ear. You flip your knife in your grip, fingers tight on the handle. Pretty fun, you think to yourself, waiting out his answer as you sneak behind an enemy combatant. You wrap your arm around their neck tight, dragging them back as your stab your knife into their chest with repeated aggression and precision.

You let their body sag against you, their legs twitching as you lower them to the ground. You give another few testing stabs, before slitting their throat. You wrestle their gun from the corpse, rifling through their gear for ammunition. You show the gun to the shadows, with a "better?" raise of your brows.

"I'm not dead." Ghost responds finally to your original question.

"You're quite literally a demon named Ghost." You wipe the blood off your knife with the corpse's pant leg.

"And you're a soldier named Die," You think you roll your eyes hard enough to see your brain, "Any more observations?"

"You're prettier with your mouth closed?" You mumble, Ghost hums.

"Could say the same thing about you."

"You think I'm pretty?" You grin, teasing as you raise your newly procured gun to scan the room.

"Don't push it." You can almost hear the smile in his voice, almost feel him over your shoulder following your line of sight.

"Gimme a head count then," You tell him, just to feel the weight leave your shoulders, to see the shift of shadows as Ghost moves through them. You wait, checking over your gun to make sure it's in working condition before you feel demonic weight on your shoulders again.

A small map of the tunnels you're ducking through lifts itself from your shadow in the low light. You count the pinpricks of movement as threats, and commit the map to memory. There's a dense cluster of life in one of the open spaces. That must be where they've got the servers stashed. You nod, dismissing the map. You press your fingers to your mic to radio the intel to command, tap a few times when your ear piece only hums static. On your own then.

"You hungry?"

"Starving."

"Good, let's cause some chaos."

#oc: Die #demon!darling au #simon ghost riley #I think Die's human callsign would be OverKill #there's like 4 ways to get a demon in this au #kill enough people like König did #kill enough of yourself like Ghost did #summon one like Soap does #or the secret fourth option #become so unmanageable and unpredictable that the universe sends someone to keep track of you #I think Ghost's specialty would be the same as Die's #which is killing people with extreme prejudice #just absolutely ripping enemies to shreds and quickly and quietly as possible.

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hajihiko · 1 year

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still funny to me that Fuyuhiko had the best and worst reaction to being involved in a battle royale; "fuck this, if you guys kill each other it has nothing to do with me. I'm going to my room and staying there until it's done."

#Like on one hand: yeah! You're much less likely to die if you just straight up dont get involved #Just say no and make yourself scarce #On the other hand: people have a motive to kill each other and you're willingly staying by your lonesome in your cabin #Which is marked BY NAME.#Was he being contrite in a surprisingly adult manner or was he being reckless with his life again who knows #Not an art

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spriteofmushrooms · 8 months

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Can you imagine how annoying it is for Wei Wuxian, strongest cultivator of his time (when using modao and/or guidao), to hear people say that cringe Jiang Cheng killed him?

#pallas.rtf #mdzs #i imagine he eventually goes to lotus pier and demands!!!!! a rematch. IN public. i'll kill myself in front of you again and then you'll CRY #and everyone will see you're a BIG LOSER CRYBABY WHO COULD NEVER KILL ME IF I DIDN'T WANT TO DIE!!!#and jiang cheng. who was raised with this energy. is just like you'll only kill yourself if i don't kill or incapacitate you first #rules: no one who wants to have sex with you can interfere.#wwx like ohoho so i can still have wen ning huh 😏#and jc just looks at him for a long time and then says. No.#wwx like WAIT THAT'S NO FAIR BECAUSE THAT RULE ONLY APPLIES TO ME!!! since you're unfuckable and no one would ever marry you 😏😏😏😏😏#at which point they give up the formal fight and just wrestle each other into the lake and try to drown each other #just like old times 🥰

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mishapen-dear · 10 months

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thinking about the elections tonight... bad, cellbit, baghera, and forever are four candidates who are devoted to the island- more specifically, to the residents of the island. They care for the eggs, and they care for each other, and the way they exhibit that care through their primary presidential strategies is fucking fascinating.

Bad is who I watch the most, so I know him best. He's a classic mother hen. He doesn't like to take risks with the eggs, and he likes to prepare. If there's any sort of variable that could hurt an egg then he wants to control it. They have a stable relationship with the federation right now- it's not great, but they know the parameters. Don't trust cucurucho. don't follow cucurucho. send the eggs to NINHO every time there's a threat. the time of day changing means you need to run. Other than that they're p okay and roughly safe. But adding a president could potentially change everything. What if the president makes a rule that makes it easier to kill the eggs? And what about the way a president could cause tensions between the players to rise even higher? The dynamics of the island could change drastically. It's safer to neutralize that threat before it ever becomes a threat. It's easier to stop a war before it can start.

Baghera's primary concern is the way the election is designed to pit the residents against each other. All of them know that the Federation is a threat and she, like Bad, is focused on not letting them hurt more people. But, unlike Bad, she's less resistant to change. If the power is spread to multiple players rather than just one, it will be harder for the Federation to corrupt any one of them. Each time before the Federation has gotten to someone it's done so by isolating them. Felps, Cellbit, Jaiden- they've all spent a lot of alone time with Cucurucho. A council isn't just to consolidate the ideals of the island; a council would protect the players themselves. Sure, there might be disagreements and arguments, but they've had those before (and they're having them now!) and there's no reason to think they wouldn't be able to get through them again.

I hit a bit of a wall with Forever and Cellbit's pov here. Everything I know about their plans are from the debates and paraphrased discussions that have been translated here on tumblr, I'm going to talk less about their explicit plan and more about what the result will entail- a single president who takes responsibility for the island. It seems to me like they've recognized the presidential seat as the powerful opportunity that it is, and they want to take advantage of it. Here's some extra personal speculation but, adding rules, adding or removing mods, proposing public works, enforcing laws- those are just the abilities that are listed. Those are incredible opportunities to make the Federation take action, which is more than they've had before. We've seen before that the Federation isn't perfect; the Federation makes mistakes.

By working with the Federation, by making them take action (in a semi-controlled, semi-predictable way) you open them up to more opportunities for them to fuck up (while benefiting you). And, maybe, one of those fuck ups will be the key to taking them down. Maybe they could reopen ender chests. Maybe they could open the nether. Maybe they could learn why the Federation is holding an election in the first place. It's possible to do all these things with Baghera's plan, sure, but that's not a guarantee and, if someone like Bad is on the council, there's absolutely no way to be sure it would get done. And, if there's a council, then that opens up everyone on the council to the Federation's wiles. If there's just one president, then that's where the Federation's focus will be. By using a single person to build a relationship with the Federation, they only risk that single person. By electing ministers instead of a council, they can ensure that the island residents' needs are being heard while placing the federation's focus on that one person. A point can be made that they've done that before- with varying results. like kidnapping. selling your soul. etc. But! overall, I think they've gained more than they've lost by singling out one person. Because of them, we know that Cucurucho can't be trusted. We know that the Federation has a series of tunnels underneath the island. We know that the Federation not only has some sort of cryo technology, but had some unknown reason to use it. We know that there was another person working with Cellbit to take care of Felps (theorized to be ElQuackity), so we know there's at least one more Fed that isn't Cucurucho + blank-faced workers. There's been risk, but there's absolutely been rewards. This is just a very long meandering way to say that their plan to sacrifice Forever to the presidential seat reminds me very much of Cellbit's plan to sacrifice himself to the federation. They're saving their friends by potentially damning themselves and I, for one, think that is cool as hell.

they all care about each other so much. bad's plan means taking on no more risk. baghera's plan means spreading that risk evenly to stand strong together. and cellbit and forever's plan means taking the risk onto themselves so they can reap the rewards for others. am i reading too much into things? no this is tumblr and this smp is about LOVE and i really genuinely think that their election plans are a fantastic example of just how much they love each other

#qsmp elections #qsmp #qsmp analysis #again i haven't been following cellbit and forever's exact plan too closely but i've gotten the sense that their pushing of public works is #just to get people to vote for them and the true reason they want forever to be president is to infiltrate the federation #if that's not it tho feel free to let me know i'd love to know these cubitos reasonings #but with my interpretation i like the silly little extra headcanon of mr cell “sold his soul to the cops” bit #subconsciously sacrificing forever to the feds and pushing him into corruption #which ALSO makes the forever-killing-cellbit-to-kick-him-out-of-the-running plan Even More Tasty #'what if i let you kill me. what if destroying me destroyed yourself. what if i have already destroyed you on purpose and you forgave me #now what if i dont mean it when i do it again'#if anyone wants to examine the other candidates (or these same ones) and figure out how their election strategy is an example of their love #please do #i don't know enoguh about the others #but i know that gegg is love-turned-grief burn-the-world-down #and foolish is love for Item. love for cloud. love for being a silly #i don't know etoiles' plan for if he gets elected but i know he also deeply loves the island and the residents #him and his security <3 and the care packages for new players <3 and the way he Craves Violence but absolutely refuses to hurt anyone who #doesn't deserve it. most guy of all time #personally i want foolish to win because i think it would be really fun #but i think that any of them (even the candidates i don't know) would be a Fantastic president #we're going to get some good roleplay any way it goes so ill be happy :3 #the only mechanic thing i want is for them to open the nether but that feels like a given for anyone so im not worried about it tbh #ty for coming to my tedtalk #hello if you're reading this tag. i see youre just as un-normal about these characters as i am. or you just like to read. respect either wa

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icannotgetoverbirds · 3 months

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Share to save a dandruff-haver's sanity

i am making this post because all my life i have been told my dandruff was my fault for not washing my hair correctly and shamed for having "poor hygiene" as a result - this is probably where the bfrbs started tbh.

SO. There are two main types of dandruff!

Dry scalp flakes: these are white and itty bitty! you can probably solve this with a good hair and skincare routine. HOWEVER unless they are bothering you it is absolutely not necessary for any kind of health reason (afaik! disclaimer! i am not a doctor! this is not actionable medical advice nor should you take me anywhere near as seriously as a dermatologist). IS NOT CAUSED BY POOR HYGIENE.

Fungal dandruff: Bigger, yellowish, possibly oily/greasy flakes! Caused by your genetics going Oops All Yeast! Generally requires a prescription antifungal treatment from a dermatologist! ALSO NOT CAUSED BY POOR HYGIENE.

Either way, if you have dandruff, a dermatologist is the one you want to consult if it's bothering you! and frankly, even if it was a hygiene issue, nobody deserves to be shamed for that!!!!! especially considering that there are plenty of people who struggle to shower regularly due to circumstances beyond their control!

AND FOR CHRIST'S SAKE STOP SHAMING PEOPLE WITH DANDRUFF!!!!

#dandruff #byrd chirps #byrd's business #i am Big Mad about this #because ALL of my parents blamed me for my dandruff #and no matter what they tried it wouldn't go away #but they never thought to take me to a dermatologist for this SKIN issue #just assumed that we were doing something wrong #and i got called gross for having dandruff #and tbf it is kinda gross! but you don't call a literal child gross and say its their own fault #idk maybe my parents were just That Shitty and nobody else has this issue #but regardless. on the off chance that someone went through what i did:#i see u. you've done nothing wrong. you didn't fuck up in some way that makes you deserve to have dandruff #and by no means do you deserve to be shamed for it #certainly not to a degree where you feel like you have to cause yourself pain with scrubbing and picking and chemicals that don't even work #(which is what I've been doing)#dandruff havers ily and i am giving you a lil forehead kissie #dandruff shamers i am going to killing you with hammers

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mirror-to-the-past · 3 months

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Xingqiu fans are dining excellently with all the references to him and lore regarding the Guhua Clan being spotlighted via Chenyu Vale's "A Wangshan Walk to Remember." The comparisons that can be made between Xingqiu and his predecessors is also very fascinating...

The Grand Master Guhua truly did live out the life of idealized dignity and transparency just as Xingqiu desires for himself. There's something very touching and heartbreaking about the fact that Guhua's life was one deemed heroic, but he was only able to have his legacy carried on by Boxuan who cast his own name aside to exhalt the name of the deceased Guhua.

And then right after briefly recounting the life and works of Master Guhua, Wen brings up Xingqiu, reemphasizing the lofty ideal/hope that he can respark the dying flame of the Guhua (no pressure) and potentially act as a parallel to the founder of the art himself. It's made all the more poignant, considering that we could easily draw the connection that Chongyun could be considered Xingqiu's potential Boxuan equivalent, a fellow young practitioner of martial arts who acts as a peer and supporter of Xingqiu's arts (although lets hope Xingqiu doesn't die preemptively like Guhua did).

I don't have snippets of the dialogue for it or screenshots, but those books in the archive room were just so lovely to see. The fact that many of the old disciples of Guhua were just nerds like Xingqiu and enamored with wuxia novels, shelving their discussions of them among all of the records they held in their library was so sweet.

Additionally, the person who invented the Rain Cutter technique that Xingqiu uses now was the one involved with the hidden Wangshan chambers that had the really forboding message about the heavens rejecting humanity and whatnot... very mysterious stuff.

Additionally, those 5 swords scattered around Chenyu Vale, the first of which you find at the outskirts of the Wangshan Chamber....while not necessarily all individuals of the Guhua Clan, it made me oddly emotional to see how the years that went by, depicted by each sword's material- from a blade to a crude sword shaped stick- and yet they all had in common a very poetic observation of their goals and the world about them that could easily flow as a singular nature/travelling-based poem. And that spirit of poetry intertwined with swordsmanship flourishing across the ages still continues on with this one dorky rich boy. It's honestly wonderful worldbuilding, that through environmental storytelling and the mere mentions of a character who was never even present for the entirety of the world quest, all of these stories and records of Guhua disciples and swordsmen before him tell me all I need to know about Xingqiu as a character, too.

#definitely would like to do more rereading of the texts within the Guhua library + those weird inscriptions #these lore drops were so cool #currently caught up in the profound nature of multiple generations united in their love for art- poetry- swordplay- idealism of heroism etc #the joy of community but also the loss of having a space in which your passions can be taken seriously and allow you to grow into the #desired version of yourself #the fact that xingqiu is considered a light in the darkness for the current Guhua elders yet he practices his art as part of a double life #all while the wangshan chamber crumbles- very symbolic #suppression and isolation kills passion #genshin impact meta #semi incoherent most likely as I am sleepy but I had to get my thoughts out #genshin impact #genshin 4.4 #genshin 4.4 spoilers #xingqiu #a wangshan walk to remember

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clarabow-mp3 · 1 year

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well that's just not true at all is it.

#sweeney todd #they're both tragic and complex characters imo #they do horrific things and sweeney is motivated by trauma and grief which eventually becomes pure vengeance and crosses the moral line #mrs lovett is motivated initially by love for sweeney but also by pure desperation #she needs to make a living!!! she can't catch enough cats and there's a surplus of meat around in the form of people her crush is murdering #it's horrible it's disgusting it's undeniably morally wrong and it's incredibly practical #it's genius in a way like. hide the evidence make some money and tie yourself forever to the man you love.#and adopt the first victim's little feral child ensuring you not only have someone to work in the shop but also someone who depends on you #who loves you and provides you with the care and affection you desperately want and aren't getting #but then it all crashes down and she realizes she has to kill the child who loves her #and then lucy is alive and her crimes are uncovered and she dies in her oven being forced to confront her sins and the fires of hell #i'm not saying she was justified i'm saying she was desperate #for money and food and shelter and all that but also for companionship and love #and that's really sad to me #anyway mrs lovett the original gaslight gatekeep girlboss

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the-gayest-sky-kid · 3 months

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mori and dazai are such an interesting relationship and it sucks that any analysis of them is bogged down by talks of experimentation and/or pedophilia

#you meet a 14 year old because they tried to kill themself. you need a witness #he keeps trying to die and you save him because hes a diamond in the rough. he reminds you of yourself #what did that mean #during 15 moris already teaching him. he makes a point of explaining how he manipulates chuuya using the sheep #dazai talks about that undercooked meat theory thing with rimbaud #in volume 8 when mori talks about war strategy dazai explains it saying a 'certain someone beat it into his head' (which is a saying guys)#when dazai talks about guivre being the perfect opportunity to die mori stops him by TEASING HIM. like dazais his kid and hes got a crush #he keeps a spot open for him. hes a traitor. he has been for longer than he ever was a mafioso #dazai was clearly amicable with him until mimic #grgrrgrhhhfrgr #theres so much to talk about i wish we would

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mejomonster · 9 months

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On a serious note, I do feel mysterious case lotusbook has a lot of sincere themes about getting older, realities of responsibility and dreams realized, how it's difficult to succeed and not always the direct path one expects, how there's value in little aspects of life. Almost every li lianhua scene seems to be about that to some degree. The murder cases aren't particularly deep as far as super complicated to figure out or Able to be predicted super well (since they don't always give all the details in the initial setup), but the themes about who was killed and why do connect to li lianhuas situation.

#mysterious lotus casebook #lb #by all this i mean: a lot of the positive things li lianhua AND di feisheng say are fairly good advice tbh #like a fei? hes like you need to be fair in your decisions for your actions to be worthwhile and earned #li lianhua: sometimes being the one taking all responsibility was bad for you and the people you led who felt burdened #by You taking the burden. and stepping back can be a respectable choice.#cooking is more difficult than fighting. keeping yourself alive is Hard and its the hardest thing we do #and its admirable even when youll never be a hero never be able to achieve what those around you might #your peers are worthwhile if they choose diffetently than you (qian wanmian isnt lesser for not choosing to lead a sect and instrad #dissolving it. di feisheng doesnt think li lianhua is no longef worth his time even though hes weaker now. li lianhua is still someonr he #wants to see alive see brlieve in himself see passionate about things. the monks think its never too late to #reconnect to people again. that people who love you will want you and accept you even when you fail.#even fang duobing by knowing li lianhua gets the experience of someone who wants him alive #and fondly smiles and Is proud of him. evrn if hes learning and fails and moody #fond of him in a way his family wasnt that strangers lied about due to his status #in a way that he clung to li xianyi for ALSO seeing value in him when he felt he didnt live up to expectstions of the world #its the Kindness of little moments of acceptance. of being kind to yourself and kind to others (even down to #not wantjng to kill suspects but take them to trial. not wanting scapegoats blamed. which arent usually done in wuxia)#its the fact this show is quite about gentleness and healing (i see the Love and Redemption screen writing ismilarities)#rather than about power struggles. do you know what i mean?

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whynotimtired · 1 year

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The more I think about it the more I like the idea that mike was supposed to be the 4th and final sacrifice and him going to California kicked off every problem that Henry had in his plan, like it was Chrissy, Fred, max, and then mike. The plan was take max out for El and take mike out for Will, by the time they come back to Hawkins for the funerals all the gates are open and Wills mental state is worse for wear and for the first time he's without Mike, his rock. There's no longer anyone to pull him from the brink which makes Will perfect to manipulate and finally get on Henry's side for good. But Mike leaves and he suddenly needs a new number 4 so he finds Patrick and then max, his number 3, finds a loophole so he has to take Patrick instead as 3 and max becomes his final sacrifice. It all worked out in the end for him and Will was still drawn back but the only hitch in his plan is still Mike. He's still alive which means he needs to get rid of him in some way if he's ever going to have a chance to get to Will

#thinking thoughts thinking so many thoughts #which is why mike would be getting vecna'd without a clear reason as to why #bc hes not killing him to open a gate he just really REALLY wants him gone and yk 'if you want smthn done right you have to do it yourself'#i think the idea of mike screwing up another one of his plans is funnier than henry waiting for him to leave #bc chrissy was killed while mike was still in hawkins #but anyway its whatever fkbdbsbs #stranger things #mike wheeler #st5 speculation #st4 analysis #will byers #will byers has powers #byler #mike gets vecna'd #and the fact that patricks was weird and different and he didnt have the build up that everyone else did #....and mike is the only person who left hawkins #the potential flashbacks when henry reveals that he was supposed to be in Max's place....like the max reveal #when she was popping tylenol and getting nosebleeds and having nightmares #i am clawing at the walls #'i thought you were done. you got what you wanted! the gates are open! hawkins is in ruins!'#'oh dont be so naive michael.'

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adhd-merlin · 9 months

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Rarepair fave is def Merdred, those mfs had Vibes™ that were just.... Something else. Like, they needed to be locked in a room so they could either talk it out, fight it out, or fuck it out. Something. Anything. Because I really think if not for that goddamn prophecy, Merlin would like Mordred! A lot! Another sorcerer that's actually on his side, actively helping him! Tbh, I think he liked him in canon, even though he didn't want to, which just adds to the Angst of them.

Fave scenes of them are in "With All My Heart" when Mordred says he hopes he and Merlin can be friends and you can just see Merlin internally screaming at a volume to break glass, and in "The Drawing of the Dark" when Mordred asks why Merlin always thinks the worst of him, and again, you can see that moment of Merlin just being weighted by what he knows and being unable to say it.

And for a fic rec: https://archiveofourown.org/works/25627360 (it is smut, but there are also feels, and it's Mordred POV)

FINALLY! THANK YOU!

I really think if not for that goddamn prophecy, Merlin would like Mordred! A lot!

He did like him! He said it himself!

GAIUS: If Mordred wished Arthur ill, he has had ample opportunity to do so. He's a likeable boy, Merlin. MERLIN: I know. I like him myself, but I can't ignore what I saw. — From The Disir, Ep 5x05

That's what makes it tragic, they could get on, they could be friends, they actually have much in common — but Merlin can't afford to get close to Mordred because of what he knows/thinks Mordred's going to do.

Here's my thoughts about this ship:

Arguments in favour:

• ENEMIES TO LOVERS

• the delicate balance of power: Alex and Colin go on quite a bit about Mordred and Merlin's relationship in the commentary to ep 5x02. Mordred technically outranks Merlin, given he's a knight and Merlin is just a servant, but also Merlin is Emrys and, as a Druid, Mordred is aware (and likely in awe) of his role and power. And they are both the unwilling keeper of the other's secret, as they both have to hide their magic in Camelot. It makes for an interesting dynamic.

• Like I said, it's tragic that Merlin had to keep Mordred at arm's length (emotionally) because they had some common ground: they both loved Arthur — I mean they both cared about him, and they both had faith in him. Mordred believed that Arthur would bring about a golden age just as much as Merlin did! They both yearned for peace, and they both had to stain their hands with blood to survive. They both had to go through so much trauma.

KARA: You're a knight. MORDRED: That doesn't matter. KARA: Of Camelot. Why, Mordred? MORDRED: Arthur is a good man. KARA: I can't believe you'd say that. MORDRED: You don't know him. — From The Drawing of the Dark, Ep 5x11

• As with Sefa, I think Merlin could benefit from having a Druid partner.

• Merlin glaring at Mordred is pretty hot. He also gets slammed into a wall by him which, again. Pretty hot.

• They could literally mind-fuck each oth— [gunshot sound]

Both great scenes! I love all the scenes they have together, I think. The way Mordred always looks and sounds vaguely menacing without doing or saying anything outright evil. They way he is desperate for Merlin's approval :(

My favourite Merlin & Mordred scene has to be the one from episode 5x05 (The Disir).

MERLIN: It won't always be like this. One day we will live in freedom again. MORDRED: You really believe that? MERLIN: I do. Beat. They both look down at the grave. MORDRED: Until then, we go unmarked in death as in life. — From The Disir, Ep 5x05

It's a rare moment of bonding between them. Mordred appeals to their shared nature ("he was one of us") and, for once, Merlin puts down his defences. He offers Mordred a few words of comfort ("It won't always be like this"). And then Mordred hits him with that fucking PROFOUND line and Merlin doesn't know what to do with it.

This is not the horrible future-murderer he's made Mordred up to be in his head. This is a boy with hope in his eyes and kindness in his heart (still). It speaks so much of what they could have been if destiny hadn't got in the way. (I've also gone on about Merlin's complicated relationship with other magic folks in another post. Yes, I have many feelings about it).

I love that scene from ep 5x11, too, ("Everything I do, you think the worst") — probably my second favourite scene with these two.

It starts out with Merlin being so confrontational and aggressive, but it ends with Merlin deciding to trust Mordred, for once. Perhaps reluctantly, but he does.

It's tragic that he seems to open up to Mordred when it's too late. I've touched on before on why I think it is that it happens at this moment. Merlin has literally been in Mordred's position. In fact, some of the dialogue in this scene echoes Merlin and Gaius's confrontation in ep 2x09, when Merlin was ready to run away with Freya.

If that wasn't clear enough, we also have Mordred asking Merlin directly:

Tell me you wouldn't do the same for the woman you love.

But of course Merlin would. He has. Well, he's tried to.

But again, because of what he knows about Mordred, Merlin can't let Mordred escape, even though he gets what he's trying to do, and doesn't blame him for trying.

I also like when Mordred angrily confronts Merlin later in the same episode. His outburst shows how he is well aware of how unfairly Merlin has been treating him, and although he's been remarkably chill about it up until now, it doesn't mean he's not angry and resentful about it. He may not show his emotions much, but he's not unfeeling.

"You did it because you hate me", he says, and "This time you've gone too far!"

THIS IS A MAN WHO'S HAD ENOUGH. It's also a reminder of how much Mordred has been putting up with — for all he knows, Merlin hates him for no good reason. I think it says something about Mordred's nature that he only truly snaps when Merlin's meddling threatens the person he loves. MY STABBY CHILD IS FULL OF LOVE OKAY

I just think they have such an interesting dynamic!

I can see why they wouldn't be a super popular pairing, given Merlin's attitude to Mordred in the show and what Mordred ends up doing. And also the age gap, I guess (I personally don't find it too weird because the actors are so clearly close in age that it can be easily brushed off, but I can see why other people might find it off-putting).

Fanfics

THANK YOU for the fic rec anon, I've skim-read it and it looks very much up my alley ♡

I actually haven't gone looking for many Merlin/Mordred fics. I've a read a few ages ago, most of them just short ficlets, but I only have one bookmarked. It's the fic that put Merlin/Mordred on my radar:

Set in Stone by EachPeachPearPlum (on AO3).

It's a relatively long fic (almost 50k words), so there is space to explore Merlin and Mordred's relationship.

I actually read it before watching the show properly (I basically watched a bunch on scenes from the show and dipped my toes in fanfiction before deciding to watch all of the series).

I haven't re-read it since, and I don't even remember how it ultimately deals with the whole prophecy thing, if it even gets to that point (I think the author meant for this to be part of a series but they didn't continue, although this story is complete). But the prophecy was addressed, with what I thought was an interesting twist.

(I won't say anything too spoiler-y in case anyone wants to check it out, but Mordred is actually aware of the prophecy and he even knows an extra bit about Merlin which Merlin himself doesn't know about. It's revealed pretty early in the story, so it's not really a spoiler).

It touches on some aspects of Merlin and Mordred's relationship that I find fascinating, so I think it's worth a read if you're interested in this pair.

Random lil' excerpt:

"I am not a child, Emrys," Mordred hisses, leaning in close; Merlin suspects he's going for menacing, but all it really comes off as is petulant, which sort of proves his point. "I was the last time you tried to kill me, but not now." And then there are words in Merlin's head, words he is powerless to stop, filled with a rage that is everything and nothing all at once. Keep your reasons to yourself, Emrys, but do not try to placate me with what we both know are lies. Mordred stands then, the expression on his face one of youthful rage, burning bright and burning quickly, and Merlin wishes he was right. If Mordred wasn't so young, Merlin could kill him without hesitation, could dream about him without hating himself (or without hating himself quite so much, since the fact that Mordred is destined to destroy everything Merlin is destined to protect is at least as much of a concern as Mordred's age). This could all be over and done with, one way or another. "Get out of here, Mordred," Merlin snarls. "You live because I let you, and you live for as long as I let you. Do not tempt me."

I JUST THINK IT'S HOT WHEN HE THREATENS TO MURDER PEOPLE OKAY

I'm just going to bring this post back to your attention. There are dozens of us! (people who find mean Merlin sexy). DOZENS

As a final note — my Italian brain refuses to call this ship Merdred. There's got to be a better name for it 😭

#mermor? that sounds kind of cute. is it anything.#mordlin? so it can't be confused with mergana #anyway. the tragedy THE ANGST of falling in love with the person you're trying to bring yourself to hate #you're all sleeping on this ship #(i will ignore any mean ask about this pair btw just fyi)#i also don't think merlin entirely realised how fucking hostile towards mordred he was coming across??#like i think in his mind he thought he was being subtle which i find fucking hilarious #asks #rarepair propaganda #merlin and mordred #mordred is a loving pacifist (he has killed people)#creepy knights' rights #ps. to all the people saying mordred is just autistic: I see you and I love you

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I've been trying to figure out the best way to word this and I think I have so bear with me

Aziraphale loves Crowley. That's plain as day, he loves seeing Crowley happy, he loves receiving affection from Crowley. But I don't think he particularly likes making sacrifices or pushing himself out of his comfort zone, when Crowley has shown time and time again that he's willing to do the same for him.

I hope I'm not alone in thinking that this season has been showing us all the ways that Aziraphale and Crowley's relationship is sort of... inequal--Aziraphale doesn't respect Crowley's wishes about making changes to the Bentley and only stops once Crowley threatens to treat his belongings the same way, he's dismissive of his concerns about Gabriel, he's too distracted with his ball to listen to Crowley's warning about the actual small army of demons outside their door--all the while Crowley's TOP priority has been Aziraphale and making sure that he won't be harmed, by Gabriel, Heaven, or otherwise.

I mean this in the nicest way possible, because it makes perfect sense for his character, but I think that Aziraphale has always been portrayed as kind of selfish and hypocritical, and I think that's on purpose and it's something that he needs to work through before he'd ever be ready to take his relationship with Crowley to another level. I think he's started to take for granted that Crowley will always be there for him, and that what makes him happy will always make Crowley happy, when that's not the case. He said it himself: Crowley goes too fast for him. Despite all the progress he's made, he's still stuck in his desire to go back to a fantasy of "the good old days" that never existed.

#good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #good omens meta #aziraphale is so traumatized and so brainwashed and he wants so badly to feel like he's doing the right thing #and he's so sheltered and naive and thinks he can fix everything on his own #but crowley just wants them to be able to REST and be FREE and HAPPY and TOGETHER #because it's not their responsibility to try to fix the system that fucked them both over #part of me wonders if a big source of their conflict #is the fact that crowley SAW the cold casual cruelty with which gabriel tried to send aziraphale to his death #and aziraphale didn't #because deep down in his heart he STILL somehow believes Heaven is on the side of pure good #and he wouldn't see michael simply providing the holy water to execute crowley in the same way #because he's been taught to believe that simply ALLOWING bad things to happen is not as bad as doing it yourself #the demons are the ones doing the actual killing their hands are still clean they're still holy #WHOO that felt good #I haven't done a long 'essay' type post like that in a WHILE

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