#who wouldnt stay at home

[ovegakart]

Zelda needed an undercover bodyguard and Malon said Link could go if she got to go too. Arent they PRETTY?

some of these were drawn months and months ago and some of these were drawn over the last week as i procrastinate coloring the next chapter of the hero shade comic.

#MALON COMING IN WITH THE CHAIR #time in a dress #plot twist. time doesnt mind the dress at all #thats just his worried for his friend face #and worried for his wife #who wouldnt stay at home #linked universe #time linked universe #malon linked universe #lullaby linked universe

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

#in our house kids dont stay outside past 6:30pm'' but now all of a sudden its fine for my brother to play #till 10:30 at night #she literally stopped me permanently from going down in the evenings since i was in class 7-8 #this is why ive never had any friends outside of school bcz she wouldnt let me leave ths fucking house #and now that my brother is in class 7 #he's allowed to be out playing with his friends till 10 freaking 30 #he comes home an hour late sometimes...45 minutes and almost always at least 30 minutes late at NIGHT and she says nothing except like #one sentence #yeah im only the villain i only keep u locke #up in the house its all my fault #this is just so damn unfair #like literally insulting #im not a child what is her problem #what sort of fucking solution is 'never leave the hostel' like ok even if i do that what happens then??? after i graduate? #i'll be a 24 year old who doesnt know shit about going from one place to another without a man present] #and then this woman preaches how she 'always raises her son and daughter equally' like srsly shut the fuck up #my whole life i've been told abar late?'' #and for me bcz i would come home 5-10 minutes late nd i did it maybe once or twice she made me completely stop going down to play #5-10 minutes late from 6:30 wherein he comes an hour late from 9 fucking 30 #and this sounds so stupid bcz im an 18 year old now and i dont give a fuck abt how long i got to play but its just unfair dude #with me it was always smthn or the other either exams or she gets miraculously sick every time i want to go out to play #im not even kidding she did a whole “i have fever and ur going to leave me like this and go play?” on me one time bcz i was adamant abt goi #after months of not being able to go bcz of exam or smthn or the other #she did not have any fever it was fucking bullshit #and how am i supposed to help with ur imaginary fever anyway im literally 12 #its so fucking annoying man and then if i say anything at all she'll go on a tirade about how #like YOU DO THOUGH??????? im sorry ur feelings are hurt bcz i said you do smthn that u LITERALLY DO #istg not even 2 days ago she was having a fight with my dad abt how he should teach my brother to learn how to cycle so that he can go buy #groceries #i can cycle

[doodlebeeberry]

giving the little fella character motivations or what have you

#character motivations is not the phrase i was looking for but whatever you get what i mean #i started playing with him more in-depth months ago. he serves a considerably more important role in the narrative now #in that he leaves a crack in sweeties worldview that she count really ignore by like. denouncing their siblinghood pretty much #its a whole thing. its fun. whitney in general is fun i need to post about him more. who wants to hear more about The One Who Stays Home #doodles #chaos gang #osc #normally wouldnt add the osc tag for this but i wanna test something

[bo0zey]

Did I miss "back from the war" recreation or is that not happening

OK so i've been meaning to address this for a while because it’s actually something i've been genuinely annoyed/sad/upset about; my original plan to recreate the post was to go to riot fest & have someone take pics of me during MCR live in person (caption wouldve been something like ‘when will mcr--omg they;re Back from the Warfdskns’ lol idk). i ended up 2nd row from the barrier & i was like OMG bc i didn’t expect to get so close & i was like ‘WOW these r gonna b such GR8 PICTURES!!i;m so lucky!!this is gENIUS!’ & so my plan was literally going according to/even better than planned right?? i mean the fact that i was ~a few feet away from the stage n was ~1.5hrs away from seeing mcr LIVE??? my plan was going along SUSPICIOUSLY well..everything was falling into place TOO perfectly...it was almost to good to be true right??? IT WAS. everything went to shit & my plan fell thru during the last band before MCR when my body suddenly fell victim to the effects of being crowd crushed for >7 hours straight; i experienced syncope & was pulled over the barrier & out of the pit by security.

sooooo, you didn’t ‘miss’ anything; the post was supposed to be recreated at the concert, but the universe pulled an uno-reverse on me when it remembered i’m on the universal ‘Do Not Ever Allow to Be Truly Happy’ list lol. i meant to post an update abt my failed plan afterwards, but tbh the actual event in itself made me wanna fr kms, and i felt even guiltier/worse for being unable to fulfill my promise to u all bc i fr planned on recreating it at the concert. 'ok but u were still at the concert after u got pulled out’ ok physically yes but mentally N-Ooo. due to the hypoxia (lack of blood blow/oxygen to the brain) i’d obtained secondary to being crowd crushed PLUS the psychological trauma of being removed against my living breathing dying will from the pit (btw the psychological trauma has nothing to do with being crowd-crushed but im not gonna get into that turmoil rn lol), i was stuck in an altered mental state for the remainder of the concert. i was dissociated for mcr’s entire set until i woke up the next morning & it took ~3-4 days for my body to fully recover from the physical trauma of being crowd crushed.

i still plan on recreating the post eventually, but tbh it’s not rlly my top priority atm bc 1) i still can’t come to terms w/ the fact i lost my 1 n only chance to experience MCR live & 2) imo seeing MCR live was the perfect opportunity to recreate the post & that clearly didn’t work out for me sooo now i have no idea how else i can top that idea :( .

#i have an idea but i’m not sure if it’ll work...imma need mcr 2 pull thru n meet me halfway on this 1 lol #anywyas i h8 talking abt riot fest i feel like every1 h8s me whining abt it too lol #i was so angry and upset with the world and myself. i really tried so hard to stay conscious; #ppl were asking if i was ok & i kept nodding yes because i didn’t want to be pulled out of the pit bc #then i’d lose my spot + my ONLY chance to see MCR live & so up close. #next thing i know i’m being pulled over the barrier by security and WHOOSH into dissociationville i go. #they were too much for my brain to handle so i’d just fall back even more into that weird dissociated state #i honestly would have preferred to not have even attended the concert. like HONESTLY 100% deadass i wish i didnt even go. #like imagine urself in my shoes lol i went from being 2nd row from the stage to like 70000 rows away. #yall dont understand how awful it is to have such a golden opportuntiy to be 1 hr n a few feet away from the band who saved u #to having it all ripped away from u in literally a matter of seconds #if i’d just stayed home my 12y/o little wouldn’t have had to experience the psychological trauma of having everything to having nothing. #my 15/16 year old teen wouldnt have had to re-live the experience of realizing there’s nothing left #in this world to comfort/protect/save her OR her childself #22 year old me realizing i failed them and all the other parts of me. i cant be happy i cant have shit in this world #i couldnt have my mom but at least i had mcr right??? nope lol that got ripped out of my fingertips too #i cant even begin to describe the emotional damage/psychological blow the situation had on me bc like #i cant even put it into words and i know nobody will truly understand/believe me when i say how heartbreaking & detrimental this #situation was for my already fucked up psyche. or they’ll think im exaggerating but its like u dont get it #ive lost so many things and people i spent my entire childhood/adolescence maladaptive daydreaming. #at age 12 mcr became my escapism for ~4yrs straight bc they were the only thing that made me happy #while all the other ppl in the real world in my day to day life were making me wanna kms everyday #like ik it sounds extreme/dramatic but ??? i mean i dont even fully understand my reaction tbh. #i think its just mcr used to be my happy place n then i get to see them live and its just an absolute nightmare #and the fact that i was dissociated from their concert when they used to be the only thing to keep me grounded to this earth??? #truly i wish i didnt even go like i cant even listen to their music anymore without wanting to crawl out of my skin #when the only thing that made u feel alive made u feel deader than ever inside....yeahhhhh not fun!! #its a heartsinking feeling i hate it so much i wish i had a doever #mcr #when will mcr return from the war

[c-kiddo]

My jaw is on the floor about that reply to your post… even aside from the misogyny, the racism… like there’s a lot to be said about how Yasha’s tribe is depicted in canon and I’m not the person to talk about that but “forced to be savage” just has such anti indigenous undertones… like. Gd. What the fuck. Why would you say that. Also the new design sucks.

[Image ID: An ask from seinnamain, reading: "Feel free to delete this obviously, but the reblog from the aphobe on that domesticated Yasha post makes me so 😬... The tribe forced her to be a "savage"??? That wording is kinda yikes." End ID.]

posting these together since theyre both about the same thing - but , yea. to be honest i was so much focusing on the design aspect that that aspect of their bad take didnt really register in my brain.. but. yea. yous totally have a point. also yea, think its worth talking about the way yasha's tribe is spoken about.. mostly it seems like, unchecked bigotry toward indigenous people and other POC that's been baked into dnd since the beginning.. and like, its not outright, but they should've examined that and thought about the connotations of a "violent tribe".. also, sidenote - i know picts and celtic people stuff where also demonised, but couldve called her tribe a violent brutal clan or something instead, at least it doesn't have a racist, colonialist past behind the idea of a violent tribe. also in yasha's earlier designs she was more celtic inspired rather than based on viking people and scandinavian, so it couldve worked. thats just my idea though. . interested in hearing others for sure :-o

but yea, that person , bad vibes all around. i looked at their blog and there was plenty of shit takes so . lol

edit: i forgot to say, but important to note that in the comic, th majority of leaders in yasha’s tribe appear to be white. it would be worse if they were POC and if they were i would be saying it was racist. because they’re not is why i’m saying it has bad connotations that they should’ve thought about

#asks #also WHAT is with these fuckin people being like .. yasha's been a housewife for sixth months it makes sense she's less buff and is #skinny now. .. .. . like WAHT #do you hear yourself #yous have got to stop watching those stay-at-home girlfriend tiktoks #also muscle mass doesnt go down that quick. also she was never drawn beefy enough anyway #and ALSO do you really think beau (who super wanted to help fjord with a workout routine) and yasha wouldnt be working out ?? ? ?? ?? ? ? #and like. sparring for fun #yasha literally sparred for fun with fjord. with her sword that is 6ft long. she needs to be buff to do that you idiots #honestly. .. .... . .

[guideaus]

i miss him so bad

#personal #cc #the guy in the manga rn doesnt count. thats an imposter. the real higuruma went home #genuinely probably the most poignant part of jjk. out of nowhere. i was completely engaged and he had a spectacular intro #where normall y you'd go 'who the fuck is this. whyd he get a full chapter' and it successfully made u care abt him/what happened #and the entire fight is so good and even related to jjk's plot before this arc (which jjk just fucking. bowled past after this) #jujutsu kaisen i wouldnt say was bad at this point. in fact this little bit in the start of this arc was wonderful. i stayed up to look at #all the leaks from then #idk wtf went wrong after lmao.... unfortunately #HIGURUMA!!!!!!!!!!

[elijah-loyal]

dying again guys

(tag rant)

#bloodwork got back #i've got anemia #fucking hooray #anemia vitamin d deficiency and the weird cholesterol thing (not the bad one) #meanwhile im sick to my stomach in class and my body wants to throw up so badly #which is bad for me because im terrified of vomiting #and also I would get sent home and wouldnt be allowed to come back #which is NOT good #i need my schoolwork #i fucking hate being so sick all the damn time too #like my body geniunely just cannot handle anything #im so sick of being too sick to go to school and too sick to rehearse for theater and too sick to see my friends who are the people #that i love most dearly #im so sick of not being able to do regular stuff that other people can do because im so sick #im just sitting in class shaking right now after downing four pepto bismols that arent working either way #at least my eyes arent hurting now that i have glasses #small mercies i guess #it's just hard to stay positive rn but i'm trying! there will always be some good in the bad #no matter how fucking MASSIVE the bad is or gets #and maybe later today i'll be feeling well enough to smile #hug a friend #and remember that its okay that im sick; its not my fault that my body isn't wired properly #but its my responsibility to try as hard as i can and live <3 #(sorry for the tag rant)

[pinnithin]

in all honesty i was originally angling for gale in this save since it seemed like their morals aligned the most but wyll totally beefed his arcana checks during gale's little magic lesson and got completely iced out so i was like fine ill be over here with astarion since he doesnt make me roll dice to hang out with him. bitch.

#pin talks #gale gets so cold its so funny like dude im sorry im not a wizard! #and the more i think about it the more i believe they wouldnt be compatible anyway #not to knock the ship or anything but #fancy boy wizard who just wants to stay home reading x folk hero warlock who spends years roughing it in the wilderness? and LIKES it? #bit of a stretch #bg3

[tchaikovskym]

My coworker: I've heard different opinions about the barbie movie

Me: oh yeah bad and good?

My coworker: yeah, some say it's a really good movie and the others say it's such a feminist movie

And that's how I came out as a feminist at my work

#we had. a discussion. #her argument was that some women WANT to stay at home and do nothing #and i was like yeah but what about us who dont want to do that #and i mentioned pay gaps with real examples from our work #i asked her if she wouldnt like us to get paid as them #and she said no bc everywhere men get paid more #and i was like. isnt that. isnt that a problem in your eyes #she was quiet for a few seconds and said that men deserve more pay bc their work is physically harder #i then pointed out a male coworker who has not lifted a finger in the establishmenet. ever. we (girls) have always been the ones who bring #him all the equipment. not the hardest equipment but like cpr mannequins are quite heavy in bulk #and she was like he doesnt count hes an old usless guy #and i was like he counts because he is old and useless and earns tirple our salary because he is a man #she was silent again and said women dont earn more bc they dont know how to talk #to which i said our vice director (a woman) can. #and she said she cannot say anything to me #and i was like yeah not to you but she has negotiated quite impossibly sounding things before #i added of course it depends on person what you can and cant do and how hard your work is and that those abilities are not divided by gender #she said nothing and we continued on with our day #like idk guys i feel like im slowly destroying our friendship with thisb #but also why would i be friends with someone who sees women as lesser?

[tittyinfinity]

Depression/PTSD recovery is wild because you could be doing greater than you've ever been in your life but then one small thing happens that reminds you of "that time" and suddenly all of the past emotions flood back into you and you feel like you're back to being the kid who's crying and shaking in the corner wondering if the people closest to you would be so much happier without you

#im being accused of faking my disabilities again and having them used against me #my mom hasnt talked to me for 2 days because of a shower chair being in the wrong spot #and said i use my adhd as an excuse to be stupid #and then i conftonted my partner about how he broke his promise to call me 3 days in a row #and he was drunk and saying things about how i cant understand how exhausted he is working 12 hr days (valid) #but then started calling me privileged for ''being able to sit at home all day and do nothing'' #(he knows that im only stuck in bed on my bad days and that i definitely do not do ''nothing'') #so i asked him to call me back the next day(sunday) when he was sober. he never called me so i had to call him. he was drunk #so i got mad that he couldn't even stay sober for a COUPLE OF HOURS to talk to me #when hes sober hes super understanding and will take my feelings into consideration immediately #but he kept taking me confronting him as an insult and started calling me names like lazy and a crybaby #and this is the person who has always treated me perfect otherwise and does everything he can to make me feel better #and his personality COMPLETELY SWITCHED and he sounded exactly like my abusive exes #i sent him recordings of the call and he sent me 2 messages saying hes sorrh and hes gonna work on his drinking and was gonna call yesterday #then i didnt hear from him again and while he was ignoring my calls he made a post on fb (that he never uses) that he wasn't going to be #talking to anyone for a while because im the only person who cares about him #and i commented and was like hello??? im that one person and you're actively ignoring me?? and he deleted the post???? #he didnt even send a message saying he wouldnt be able to call me #he never answered but when i called him today while he was at work he just responded ''cant talk im at work'' and i was like yeah ik but #im trying to get your attention because you wont tell me whats going on #and begged him to call me after work #hes acting like a completely different person now and i have a strong feeling that it's because at the place he works at in texas #they're made to work all day in a 110° warehouse #and with his insomnia and having to be at work between 3-5am he's barely sleeping while doing all of this #so im hoping his behavior is just a symptom of heat exhaustion and lack of sleep #because this isnt like him at all #im begging and begging for his attention and affection the same way i did with my abusive exes and my mom #i dont know what's going on

[oatbugs]

you're dating coffee girl? im so invested

not coffee girl !! coffee girl is rly cool and we met up hung out etc and it was great !! she cut her hair short and wears long coats and is so much more free+happy now than she was before. she used to have a timetable of her life to the minute for the next 10 yrs and now she's spontaneous and happy and she told me about n+7 poetry and we ended up sitting next to each other in the dark for looking at generative art in this beautiful exhibition...anyway yh ! she's a cool human :) but we're not dating

but !! this is a different person (tagged as [chroma blue]). look @ tags for context.

#ok so i went to study in a venice for a bit but a few weeks before i did i met this peeson who seemed rly cool etc . but then when i was #in italy i became kind of infatuated w this person who was rly rly unrealistic to know so i told the first person i probably wouldnt be #interested in them romantically bc i was caught up in other feelings etc and we continued being friends but she is just So Cool so it was #like. inevitable. i got over italy person and we went on like 2 very perfect dates and i told her maybe im ready to explore things #romantically now but then i realised despite how perfect the dates were i didnt feel that intense spark so i was like. nvm. at this point #it had been 3 months and i thought i was literally incapable of love bc this person [chroma blue] was perfect etc #anyway so they came over to hang out as friends like 2 weeks later and they were supposed to go home the next day #and they ended up staying over for 4 days and then i realised i was being sooo dumb by rejecting them #like it was lich rally just self sabotage and fear of loss etc etc. and like. we ended up catching a spontaneous train to a diff city and #everything we did felt like a date and at the end they were like u are sending so many mixed signals and i was like. yh #so i told them abt how i felt and like my thought etc and they were like. u know i have liked u since the day we met . x anyway #so we talked a lot etc and then met up again and like. yh. literally she ended up staying over at my place again lol . also like that day #was so perfect our first kiss was rly nice everything was just rly nice we did a lot . anyway yh #she likes poetry and art n she carries her sketchbook w her everywhere and she knows so much abt like. the theory and history of fashion #etc etc and whenever were in an art gallery she tells me sm abt what she knows its so cool. shes also #rly rly pretty and cool etc etc . en ee way #yea #asks #anon #she knows sm abt colour and light and shadow. she stays up reading notes left by old artists. #the second time we met she told me she really wants to paint me and then she said it again after we kissed for the first time. etc

[foxcassius]

as i look at job listings here in korea, i cant help but still dream of that private lesson life. like, every job here will still expect you to teach 6 classes a day 5 days a week, for like a maximum wage of 2.4 million won per month. i could make twice that teaching that many classes in a private lesson setting, and i could easily make the SAME wage and just work less (ideal scenario)

#last night jiwon asked me like a million (imo unfair) questions about america and its society and why it succeeded #(unfair bc i just genuinely cant give definitive answers aside from 'it succeeded economically thanks to slavery') #and i was like 'you ask me sometimes why i dont want to move back to america and there are so many reasons and its hard to put into words' #'but one of them is that the work culture is so gross to be in and people still feel trapped in their jobs and there's no freedom to it' #and he was like 'korea is the same way it's just that i'm a specialist and you are foreigner who speaks english as a mother tongue' #'so i am inherently privileged out of genuine poverty by way of my degree and you are as well by way of being the class of foreign worker #you are. so korea has the same kind of trap for ''lower class'' people when it comes to work its just that you arent seeing it due to #your own status and my status as the main korean national whose life you are privvy to' #and i was like yes. i am aware of this. i am perfectly aware of how much poverty there is in korea and that not everyone lives as we do. #and i'm also perfectly aware of the fact that i would lose visa status and be sent back to my home country before i had any chance to #experience korean poverty. it sometimes feels like when he asks me why i dont want to go back to america he forces me to state One (1) #reason why and then takes that one reason and is like 'korea is like that too' which for starters I Know. because he refuses to acknowledge #this but korea is heavily controlled and influenced by the usa im not gonna get into that right now but I Know the similarities in many way #s between the usa and korea. secondly there are Many reasons why i wont be going back to the usa not the least of which is that #jiwon and i intend to get married and he doesnt intend to leave korea so its all a moot point anyway and idk why he keeps bringing it up #he wants to stay in korea and i wouldnt choose to move back to america so idk why he keeps like forcing me to explain myself on reason at a #time and like turn it around is trying to make me want to leave like. let it rest king i am so tired of talking about american politics #at 12 am especially bc sometimes he wants to have an argument abt it and im like Neither Of Us Is Educated Enough To Have This Conversation #i have my own lived experiences and a small amount of specific research. he has whatever they teach in school here abt america + some #internet readings. neither of us is qualified to sit and talk about this #it just feels like sometimes i'll be like 'america is a suffocating capitalist hellscape where kids get shot at school' and he's like #'well korea is also bad' and im like yeah no shit everywhere is bad everywhere is a capitalist hellscape the us has its hands in korea's #government and economy. but at least here i have a job with a decent salary and You so. #anyway. long rambling tags over. <3 #t

[mushroom-winners-proof]

Larxene kinda just fits right in there with her kunai doesn’t she.

larxene as a samurai sounds like the goofiest shit imaginable because she absolutely has no sense of honor, mercy, or proper image and thats why i love her

#snap chats #ESPECIALLY not one of the samurai who stayed at home #though idk maybe she wouldnt mind prepping decapitated heads who knows #a ninja maybe but details details

[cozzyplace]

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#im not done bitching #they fucking lied at the start of our relationships saying that they dont want kids #and then 3 years later once i uprooted my enter fucking life and moved 8 hours away from my family and friends #they went oh im so sorry i lied i do want kids i was hoping you would change your mind #like what??? #fucking what??? #they also kept pressuring me to get a dog i didnt want cus i was so fuckig burnt out from work i knew i wouldnt beable to take care of a dog #but the bought one anyways saying that they would be the main one taking care of it #big fucking lie that was #im the one who feeds it takes it out for walks and plays with it while you literally just stay in your room all day #they fucking work an office job from home where the scroll tik tok for half the day and they dont do shit around the house #i worked as a supervisor at tims where i was on my feet for 9 hours a day and often wouldnt get full breaks #and i still was the one coming home and taki g care of the dog and the house #and they fucking kept complaining to me that i dont cook meals from scratch for them and i should once a week #bitch you dont cook once a week!!!! #i watched you order 6 bowls of take out and store them in the fridge so you can eat them over easter weekend when everything is closed #yet if i order take out for myself at 12 at night when i just got home and was exhausted you would be on my ass nagging me about how i need #to cook more #and they have the fucking gull to say that they feel like they have to take care of me?? because i dont cook?? fuck you #im not the one who impulse bought 5 geckos durning covid and let one of them starve to death because you forgot to feed it #im not the one who leaves food in there room to rot and grow mold #i had to sit you down and do your taxes for you because you didnt do them for the past 5 years #but yeah im the one who needs taking care of #fuck you

[novataleart]

Love how the person interviewing my transition at the gender health clinic while my dad was on the phone with us (he provided absolutely no info whatsoever) asked if he misgenders me constantly, and I was like-

... no :)

Yknow, like a liar

#miles autistic rambles #tw misgendering #tw vent #I honestly thought if I said yes that I wouldnt get to transition #unfortunately I'm staying with my dad for 3 months :) #who also threatened not to feed me (autistically picky) bc I critisized his new gf #tw ableism #she cooks stuff that I cant eat :) #and he says the classic “we have food at home *lists things I have to actively be starving to consume* #then tells me to respect my elders bc the “adults” have adult things to do and belittles my experience with being talked over ALL THE TIME #he has adhd and is like “things weren't difficult or bad for me” #ya bc you aren't autistic and grew up in a time where you HAD to mask and youre so used to masking its ur fuckin default

[reblog-house]

Seasick + cold air + person who Won't Stop Trying to Talk to You When You Want to be Alone + a few more factors that go hand-in-hand with the previous ones = ... Yeah, not fun, those last moments of the trip back.

#had been sailing #it doesnt help that i just. can't stand her tone of voice. and like im sorry but i told you i wasnt feeling talkative and you said the same #when you laid on the bow next to me. and then proceeded to talk to me randomly at every point and i just wanted to be alone man #and then she started asking me when I'd go to the city tomorrow and i told her idk and she kept asking and I DONT KNOW #and she told me it's so i could go with them but I like going alone i dont want to be forced into conversations on the train #i want to go alone even more so because imma go to some dancing classes and dont know how long it'd take me and just. #well. got overwhelmed. and seasick. and she tried to reassure me touching me but DONT TOUCH ME DONT TRY TO REASSURE ME WITH WORDS EITHER #don't tell me my hands are trembling because of the cold or because of how hard i was gripping the ropes to not fall off. #because i know thats not it. dont pretend you know whats happening to me better than i do. dont you think i know how hyperventilating feels? #just. stop. please. #thankfully we docked soon after. just arrived home. been typing as i walked #they all went to the hotel theyre staying at while i walked home. #there's just some people who are a bit Too friendly for me. nothing against you in particular it's just... #i wanted to be alone and thought it was a tacit agreement that we wouldnt talk when you agreed you werent feeling talkative either #and then you had the GILLS to say to the group that we were BOTH chattering. no. YOU were chattering AT me. #and then of saying to them you were being asocial by going to the bow WHEN YOU WOULDNT STOP TALKING TO ME!! YOU WERENT BEING ASOCIAL!!!!! #anyway. i just needed to let it out. gonna take a shower now. #carime rambles