#why wont they bring him back

[sillylegoman]

I miss him

poor guy never got used again. dude only got used in like two cutscenes but he is beloved by me. he was so silly I miss him

#why wont they bring him back #game show host #silly man #nicktoons attack of the toybots #nicktoons #attack of the toybots #I miss him :[ #they never even gave him a real name

[blahwithasideofblah]

Ok, but how did I only just realize that their fatal flaws are the reason Percy and Annabeth fall?

Like, we've got Annabeth, who's fatal flaws is pride, who has known her fatal flaw is pride since she was thirteen! And here she is riding high after beating the quest noone else has even survived!!! She found the Athena Parthenos!!! She beat a giant spider using only her wits!!! Of course she managed to cut all the spiderwebs first try, of course she doesn't need to double check that!!!!

And Percy. Percy "my fatal flaw is loyalty" Jackson. He doesn't even think. Of course he's not letting her go. Letting anyone go would be a betrayal, but this is Annabeth. Nothing else matters!!! No! Other! Choice! Matters! It doesn't matter that they'll probably die. It doesn't matter he might be more help above. It doesn't matter that he's been missing for a year and has not seen his mother once that entire time!!!!! It does not matter!!!! Because Annabeth is hanging off a cliff and he's the only thing keeping her from falling and letting her go would be a betrayal of the highest order and he cannot do that. So of course he falls with her. What other choice is there?

#and of course percy doesnt even think nico and the seven WONT be there at the doors #he trusts this fourteen year old boy WHO HAS BETRAYED HIM BEFORE to bring everyone back to the hell he just excaped #not ONCE does he think #“hey maybe a terrified fourteen year old child wont come back to that place” #“maybe theyll a be too busy saving the world” #“maybe theyve given us up for dead” #no theyll be there #why wouldnt they? #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson and the olympians #annabeth chase #percabeth #mark of athena #heroes of olympus

[danidoesathing]

in hindsight Buck Vernon is such a funny character. like his whole story starts off with his ass getting dumped but not even realizing it. he goes across the country searching for her and doesn't have any luck until he goes to a random fortune teller (who later admits to scamming him) and takes her vague bullshit to heart which leads him to get caught in the middle of a wild drug ring and he may have accidentally set off a war between said drug dealers and a gang of arsonists that was founded by an undead biker dude. he once bumped into said undead biker dude at a night club while running from the cops. he can see/talk to ghosts and it's never explained why and he doesnt even make a big deal of it. he ends up finding a corpse in the middle of the road and goes "well shit someone has to bury the guy". when said corpse gets up and asks for a smoke buck just. gives it to him and starts having a chat with him. he cant lie for shit and gets caught like every single time but still manages to get out of every situation alive. he once beat up a drug dealer in the back of an arcade. he got black brained which kills every other character it happened to and just. didnt die somehow?? he's killed at least two people and doesn't even blink. when he found his ex and got dumped a second time he just. got up and walked off with a bullet wound in his leg. he presumably lived and proceeds to write weird sad love songs for the rest of his life.

hes the most pathetic noir protagonist ive ever seen. there's something deeply wrong with him. i want to study him

#Edit: I FORGOT ABOUT THE CANON HALLUCINATIONS #he also vividly hallucinates and it’s just an aspect of his character #the ghosts aren’t hallucinations because they know things buck has no way of knowing so he canonly can see ghosts #hes so funny who lets him be like this #whats wrong with him #buck seeing a corpse get up and start walking around: damn this would make a good song #ok but seriously though why can he talk to ghosts #like he can just do that. why #I might be wrong about the first part but honestly vide noir is way funnier if he has no clue. like lee left him but didnt tell him shit #imagine going through all this shit for someone only to found out they weren't missing they just ghosted you #its so funny #also how did he even survive getting black brained. like yeah yeah cosmic ash can bring you back from an overdose but #buck didnt have that. he just?? decided not to die??? #at this point god wont let him die #vide noir #vide noir movie #buck vernon #dani speaks #lord huron

[dreamsy990]

kh2 au where everythings exactly the same except roxas is hanging around sora chara style. hes not particularly a vengeful spirit but hes not very nice either. also nobody but sora can see him. hijinks ensue.

#in all seriousness i think roxas would be mildly helpful #like not super nice #like he probably has a lot of unresolved hatred of sora #but hes sorta stuck with him so. #i think it would be fun for character development and for hijinks #this is very much inspired by narra chara and shared control aus for deltarune #i dont think roxas would tell sora much about who he is for a while #as far as sora knows hes just a weird ghost who seems to know a lot about their enemies yknow yknow #i think hed stick around until the world that never was #leading up to that i think when axel dies hed just. go silent #like hes still there but he wont talk to sora #and then a little while later theres his fight #and then he leaves #why is roxas a ghost you may be asking #and to that i say #something something he doesnt like sora idk ive thought about this for exactly. 10-20 minutes #honestly this is mostly just me wanting more roxas content and making a self indulgent au about it #i havent played kh3 but i think sora having a very personal connection to roxas besides what was already there would be more motivation- #-for trying to bring him back #again idk whats going on in that game very well but #idk it could be fun #this would be really fun to turn into a fic lmao #doodles #roxas #sora #kingdom hearts #none of this is very thought out to be clear #also someones definitely already made this au but i dont care #i havent seen it yet #ghost roxas au

[sharksliveontrains]

one thing I love about blue lock is that you never see kira again after the first episode. obviously he’s used to show how serious they are about the program and to turn the usual sports anime/manga trope on its head but. his ego was very apparent the moment he realized isagi- the one person that he was friendly with there- attacked him and caused him to lose his dream. and he really lost it himself by not being prepared to fight back, he’ll have to grapple with that fact for the rest of his life, especially seeing isagi and others from blue lock make it to the national stage. but it’s especially interesting because i’m sure he had the ego to make it. as soon as he was eliminated it was evident. if he was given another chance, or even 5 seconds longer to pass the ball to someone else, i think he could’ve been a major part of blue lock and possibly make it to the national level. but because he wasn’t expecting it, was trying to think of others, wasn’t prepared to eliminate someone else in time- his soccer career slipped from his fingers and he’ll never be allowed to play for japan’s national team

#he had no chance of hanging on because an example had to be made and isagi and bachira going aftee the best player to prove that they are #the best ensured he was out first #but he wouldve easily had the ego to survive given anither chance #but he wasnt. and he wont be given another chance. #all because he was friendly with isagi and expected and trusted him not to shoot at him #<- dont know why Im back thinking abiut bllk rn #anywhos #bllk #blue lock #ryosuke kira #kira ryosuke #isagi yoichi #yoichi isagi #character study #character analysis #txt #i do kind of think he could come back #but i just find him interesting whether they bring him back or not #as a foil or another example of ego overtaking a person to make them the best

[scalproie]

Domesticated Post-Tekken 2 Era Kazuya is my favorite to think about because this would be so good for him and everyone else but he would have an absolutely miserable time during it

#like I dont think he would REALLY miss the rich ceo lifestyle bc i dont see it as smth he ASPIRES to but as a means to give himself power #if you (jun) somehow manage to convince him that he does not actually NEED power then i think hes adaptable enough to ajust to a humble life #and the whole being rich thing fed into his worst traits #but I think being close to jun all the time would be torture for him bc he would CONSTANTLY be confronted to his own faulty morality #he cant help feeling above other common people bc he endured much more pain and hardships at 5yo than them in a lifestyle- #but he cannot act on his superiority complex about them bc Its Not The Right Thing To Do #he looks at his newborn son and feel *nothing* before feeling frustration and irritation toward *himself* #bc hes smart enough to know he SHOULD be feeling smth #and if he relunctantly admit this to jun she would tell him that if the best he can do (for now) is to not wish or do any harm on jin- #then it is good enough and he should not beat himself up about it (which he doesnt. but he does) #and even jun. she is another person he could lose and he knows deep down he would be happier without her #but being near her bring back to life smth that died years ago at the bottom of that cliff #and he wont admit it but hes scared to lose it again. even if right now its brings him nothing but discomfort and pain #hes not even sure if he *loves* her. and when he asks her whats in it for her. why she stays with him #(not out of self-consciousness but genuine confusion) she just smiles at him because he IS considering the feelings of someone else #like she is so understanding and he genuinely does try and its a really slow healing process #hes still gonna stay a little bit of a prick smug at times but at least he will be immensely more chill out #and even maybe fall in love with jun *jun* down the line. characters that fall in love with each other years into the relationship👍 #and his whole exploration of fatherhood with jin. him vaguely recalling smth nice jinpachi (or god forbid. HEIHACHI pre-cliff) did to him #and doing the same to jin out of the blue for the sake of experimentation #and jin's positive reaction making him FINALLY AT LAST feel some tiny tiny thing for his son. #also for all her tree-hugger talk. jun is right meditating in the forest DOES help kaz a lot #anyway. yeah👍 #tagging later #tekken

[captainsolocide]

DATA

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#pic spoilers #star trek pic #3x06 #the bounty #data soong #GAY PEOPLE WIN TODAY BRO THEY REALLY HAD THE ROIMANTIC ZOOM ON GEORDI WHEN HE SAW HM #AND DATA'S FIRST WORD WAS GEORDI I CANT BELIEVE IT #im changing my pfp in celebration #i literally thought i was so delusional for even hoping he would come back and hes here!!! #my boy is finally back im so happy!!! #and idc that hes a little fucked rn cause theyll fix it and they wont dare kill him for the THIRD TIME #i was so sure they werent going to bring him back i even said i would forgive the pic writers for everything else #including straight geordi and sevenraffi break up real?? #why?? #i need them to make out immediately

[intoafandom]

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#right so I’m hiding this sht in the tags because im going to sound like an absolute crazy person and i hope no one sees this or reads this #because im going to sound stupid and delusional and ik im 99.99% sure this is not gunna happen but i have to say it anyway to get it out of #my head. sooo woong dyed his hair back to black which normally i wouldn’t bat an eyelash at but idk im just getting this feeling because #they just freaking played bring it on on the radio and were dancing and singing to ravns part and ON TOP OF THAT THEY ALSO DID REWIND WHERE #XION LITERALLY SANG ALL OF RAVNS PARTS and like i cant stop thinking about it. rewind. REWIND of all songs. why did they pick THAT one. #out of EVERYTHING they picked rewind. the song that pays homage to their past memories as 6. literally doing the choreo in their seats when #the song is about TURNING BACK TIME. and now woong dyed is hair back to black. like how it was right before yj left... #leedos hair is also the same length now...and if Seoho’s hair is back to black as well... #we all feel like something big is coming and when u pair this with all the japan stuff...i cant help but think...and im still thinking about #ravns insta stories. there will be an answer let it be. ive done all i can do now i have to wait for fate. paraphrasing but yeah. #and lets not forget the fact that ravn JUST posted his full face for the first time in months. everything feels so significant and like #everything is coming together for some big moment. i cant stop thinking about it. fvcking rewind. like they’re going to be turning back the #clock completely. same looks as malus aka their last true comeback as 6 and apparently their next comeback is ALSO IN SEPTEMBER?? like... #im probably reading into this but...i cant help but think......something very huge is coming. something HUGE. something more than just #ravn dropping his mixtape. if that’s all that happens I’ll be happy 100% duh...but idk...i just think there’s gunna be something MORE. #im too scared to post this on twitter cuz ik ravn lurks and if im wrong which I probably am I wouldn’t want him to see it #or anyone else either. but im saying it here bc if i dont say it at all ill go crazy. and most of my followers here are b’s fans so they #wont read this and maybe i can bury it lol

[aria0fgold]

So the loops Does have something to do with Siffrin's wish (I can't remember it... I think he included all the family members there, about the stuff he's looking forward to do with the others after beating the king) And since talking to Euphrasie means everyone goes their separate ways, Siffrin's wish doesn't really... get granted? in way. Either way, what's happening right now has something to do with Siffrin's wish (considering how he's the only one that knows the proper ritual too). But what exactly is... rotting? There's still the mystery bout the country too hmmm...

#ariaplays: isat #isat spoilers #also i got the coin convo and ouuogghgh... loop.... i rlly like loop a lot theyre a great friend and helper! #and rlly... nice. you can tell that they care bout siff when i got to that point of siff getting excited at the possibility of the loop #ending if he talks to euphrasie bout wish craft and such and how they didnt have much of a heart to tell him that... it wont work #also siff looping at that moment after loop asked him bout what exactly was he feeling when talking to euphrasie #that makes seem similar to the hopelessness of death and how loop didnt bring it up ouuouoghhh... #speaking of euphrasie. i just got reminded bout how in the very beginning of the loops. when siff tried to talk to her #she just kept talking. practically ignoring that siff was there as if she didnt see him or smth but the more loops there are... #she seemed to be able to react to what siff's saying (her reacting to him saying ''breaking down now'' or ''flower for you'') #it was a split second reaction until she gets pulled back to acting out her part during the distortion section. wonder why...

[l-e-g-i-o-n-losh]

Sometimes i wonder if gaining weight would ever be viable or if it would double fuck my mystery joints to have to carry more (i have in the past been directly ordered by nurses to gain a little weight and prescribed supplements to do so but 1) they are spensive and 2) dad starts waxing fatphobic about "my health" when my ribs are still clearly visible) and then i get caught up in a completely theoretical dysphoria paradox loop about going to the trouble of finally getting top surgery only to gain weight and distribute fat right back to the bust and whether i would actually ever feel ok with my body under any circumstances. Idk.

I think about things like surgery and hrt a lot more than i have since we originally came out bc i feel like if I'm trying to shape my adult life into something i actually want to live then thats a huge component and I've already put it off a decade, but at the same time i still feel so stupid and anxious trying to look into it bc i dont even have regular healthcare and the state of our nation is so sucks and although i feel like i really know who I'm becoming or at least trying to i do NOT feel like i have enough cred to convince dad that i am capable of permanent adult life decisions, especially with how he doesn't even like the thought of me getting my ears pierced. He's always going to feel some degree of posession over my body and like its ok to manipulate me or stalk me or whatever if he "knows better" and its in my "best interest" and right now its not a problem bc we're a household and he gets a lot of managerial power anyways so it doesn't come up much but i always worry in the back of my mind what would happen if i ever did Really move out again.

He wants me to "act my age" and hit normal benchmarks like getting a job and dating and shit but like when am i Ever going to have time to work or meet people socially when I'm a 24/7 live in assistant and where am i going to get the PRIVACY to get to know somebody like that, even IF i wanted to, which i SHOULDN'T HAVE TO. He suggested arranging like zoom playdates for me once so i wouldn't get under socialized. That is NOT going to make me "normal" dude.

#songs that the hyades shall sing #idk sorry idk why im venting rn i just feel anxious and i dont have anywhere else to talk abt this stuff #hes so liberal panic prone abt trans regret especially bc of how he judges certain trans ppl in his personal life #and like he 'respects' me but also I'll 'always be his kid' including his sense of control #and we fucking. begged for blockers or something before we even knew what they were. desperately asked if there was a way for it Not to be #like that and got dismissed and then learned we were trans and found out blockers were real and it Didnt have to be like that and begged #AGAIN and were violently dysphoric and got hit with the 'but what if it's a phase' and 'i don't want you to regret changing your body' #and worst of all the 'well if you're fine with changing your body what grounds do you have to reject medication that will change your brain' #and 'you could always make changes as an adult when you're REALLY sure' (said with the No You Wont tone) #so we shut up and waited and it's been TEN YEARS and we ARE an adult and we've ALWAYS been sure. and he keeps bringing up the #'you know they're finding 25 isn't even a developed brain yet?' like. i knew it was a lie in the first place but i wanted to hope #but having all this pseudoscience culture war crap to back up his moving goalposts is just. i KNOW i can't and shouldn't have to wait for #his approval of my identity. but he's in all my medical shit and he pays for my bus fare so how would i even Try to get help #without having to prove something to him he can ultimately just decide not to believe

[baeshijima]

time to grind out the wooing alhaitham fic bc i have a vague idea of how i wanna go about it and have had too many ideas throughout the day ;w;

#sophie talks : how to woo the acting grand sage 101 #YKAISHDJ NO BUT I HAVE THE SEGMENTS LAID OUT KINDA #love at first sight in akademiya to serenading with flowers to being bold with feelings to sumeru archon quests era to maybe a sick day #where he finds ur lack of presence uncomfortable and goes out of his way to nurse u back to health and doesnt leave ur side #to bringing him snacks and drinks randomly to give him an energy boost (aha work hard acting grand sage !!) to him wooing u at the end #maybe like a snippet of an epilogue too bc why not #i think ill write it out in one fic rather than separate ones???? mainly bc i know i wont finish it if i do updates KJHLKD 😭

[thebadtimewolf]

hey

do yall know any genuine rose tyler stans that are actually upset about how s1 rose was treated as an equal AND a love interest but as soon as s2-s4 rose was treated more as a equal BECAUSE of her being pideonholed as only a 'i can do things too! see!' archetype of love interests that it took two other characters to be treated as an actual equal? like why did ten thru donna said that he needs an equal and that what the dr needs an equal??

rose was already an equal in season 1. its established bts that rose was an equal to ninth doctor? but now why didn't that sentiment continued on with ten? what happened?

like martha is treated like an actual equal because the dr in the past have always hated themselves, reflected back at them, but still shared the joy and comradarie during a joint adventure with said version of self. like even the time lord victorious two parter book - 8 was flirting and 10 flirted back but at the end of the day - both of em can carry themselves without the arrival of the other, leaving the eyerolling and mild disgust or disinterest aspect to ninth dr when he shared a room with them. like the dr not wanting to "date" martha even though he literally in text trying real hard to pull the wool in both ur qnd his own eyes is essentially him trying not to fuck himself.

donna is - in an almost wish-fufilled in what the dr missed from the master - considered an equal preestablished since season 3 guest appeared and fully in season 4. shes seen as a pea in the pod like the dr master rani and romana - keeping up with that specific lot of em without going thru the 'but im better than you' alien egoist rhetoric that the time lords fall to in times of upper handedness. she can manipulate she talk fast she tech-savvy yet people-grounded BUT she makes sure the respect isnt temporary and doesnt lord it over people because everyone is great and without that person, the whole system can fall apart.

because so far, it doesnt feel that way. like are yall not mad that tenth doctor gave rose up?

after seasons of build up and getting shot and everything? the funky alien eldritch being in a mask of an earth lookin boy that had a chance to man up and show feelings when the opportunity is very in your face given to him to do so in a space where he could do so and — he just gave her up? all that moping and whining and when given what he wanted, he just went: no. here. i need an equal and i have donna so im giving you what i TEN think you want as an equal in me and thats him. BUT NINEROSE ARE EQUALS SHE NEVER SAID SHE WANTED HIM HUMAN BUT RATHER HIMSELF AS HE IS.

its like fridging rose but worse. in s2-4 you made her in memory of someone else that ALWAYS treated her as an equal instead of actually continuing on with that with the next face. death wouldve been more forgiving and thats not a great thing to come to a conclusion to. The one that really treated you as both a love interest AND equal is dead, and now you're married to the discarded imitation of the one that only typecasted you as a love interest.

tentoo should be mad abt this too but this aint about him, this is about yall and the rose tyler connundrum.

i wouldve settled for her having the hand - settling for the hand if that hand turned into ninth doctor (like full on christopher eccleston doing donna impression everything) instead of what we got - which was dust. it made more sense that way. because then the dialogue narrative - the doctor's excuse - wouldve been more well recieved. Does it need saying would have more weight if Eccleston played a NineToo whispered i love you because you know it was well meant. Genuine. Its coming from someone that always treated you as an equal and also getting that i love you and not just - oh the human i love. i miss them not because i treated them on equal terms, its strictly because i only love them - no equality at all

like yeah chris wasnt going to return but hes a movie actor - hes used to green screen. he couldve sent a video message in a leather jacket and let it be done. like we couldve had nine saying i love you to rose on doomsday like do you get what im trying to say like. like tooth and claw if it was nine and rose both wouldve been like 'oh look at that a werewolf transformation!' And not what. we got. LIKE DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN

#tv: doctor who #c: rose tyler #c: ninth doctor #c: tenth doctor #{no because im tagging because i want genuine responses and not ANON HATE I WANT ACTUAL DEPH ANALYSIS} #{i dont think i have a tentoo tag. if i did i forgot} #{but i ship the dr with everybody including every TARDIS i see} #{but like i dont ship 10rose or 8rose. like those should be n' stay as platonic SO GLAD 8ROSE IS CANONICALLY PLATONIC thats drdonna LOVE IT} #{like 10martha is more appealing because that man flirted outwardly to her in front of a class and main hospital chief} #{meanwhile 10rose got deleted waste.of.time hand holding seasons 'we had to cut for time' professional sayin IT WAS A WASTE OF TIME} #{THEY CHOSE DUST INSTEAD OF THE FOOD NINE GAVE US FOR FREE WITH LATER 98% DISCOUNTS} #{so yeah but um yeah} #{but like yknow make a comprehensive argument: also goal here non poc ppl TRY NOT TO BE RACIST IN YOUR WORDS} #{i know how easily tempted you are as soon as you see martha and ten in the same sentence let alone the same post: check yo self} #{like 'oh rtd might bring to rose' he might kill her and its feeling and more like hes going to just to appease tories} #{because billie is VERY MUCH not a tory aka conservative so yeah do YOU see why i dont rose back but the moment} #{like he killed off 9 and that was probably due to him being antiroyalist so i IM RIGHTFULLY WORRIED FOR OUR GURL} #{IF she returns as rose tyler. if she returns as the interface THE MOMENT AS SHE IS WELLKNOWN FOR i wont have anythin to worry abt} #{as well as bts conditions but LIKE👀 the worry is there the worry is prevalent present and here} #{she need to come back with tentoo and mia in tow: linked arms handcuffed to each other SOMETHING THAT CALMS ME} #{i dunno who they'll cast for mia i dont care BUT MIA BETTER BE IN TOW WITH HER ON SCREEN IF IS MISS ROSE COME BACK} #{its to calm me.}

[nerdie-faerie]

Why is it that when I'm sick, finishing work late because a load of people didn't show up and ongoing work drama, stressed about my upcoming essay and still have a hour walk before I can get home, my dad is apparently kicking off and threatening to kick me out when I'm not even there??

#ace is a mess #+Extra #personal #apparently hes kicking off about the fact i 'chose to pay off my loan' which isnt true i didnt get any tuition loan this year so i have to #pay it out of pocket and unlike some students i absolutely will not be receiving any financial support to do so so im working to pay it off #and hes apparently fuming about it and is bringing up the fact i owe him money cus when i asked for a nee laptop for Christmas for uni #and repeatedly specified that i just wanted the cheapest most basic option possible and even found several under the budget for gifts #my dad decided to get a more expensive one with a bigger screen which is not what i asked for or needed!! a bigger screen makes it #ten times more cumbersome to take to class for notes and assignments and ive ended up still having to borrow uni laptops regardless all #cus hes got some ongoing issue about me having my own finances & not being financially dependent on him so he keeps making a point about it #hes so transparent that its all a fcking control thing as it has been since i chose what i wanted to do at college and he didnt approve #and i didnt change it and stuck with it regardless because my career plans have nothing to do with him honestly #btching that if i can afford to pay off my loans i can afford to pay him back which i cant! i cant afford my tuition thats why im staying #over summer to keep working so i can pay off my debt im not paying it off i never had it im in debt! and if i dont pay it i wont be able #to continue with uni whereas he technically still owes me 2k he can be fcking patient about his money which i knew this was gonna happen #when he kept insisting there might not be cheap options available despite me finding multiple 🙄 #you know i get asked a lot why ive ended up at unis so far north when im from the south and its like i had to get away being half a days #drive away is the only way for my parents to physically leave me alone theyll still hound my phone but thats what airplane mode is for

[uniformbravo]

been reading natsuyuu manga for the first time and you'll never believe this but.... some things are different

#matoba doesnt say ''throw him in the dungeon boys'' in the manga orz orz orz #gonna need some time to process and come to terms w this ;'( #HUGE L today lads 😔😔😔 #he does tie natsume up multiple times tho like My Guy. that is a Child #like ooo powerful teenager he would be a huge asset to our business if we got him on our side #but how can we accomplish this. i think i will terrorize him #???????????????? #literally why is he like this he could be normal and yet he chooses violence every time #he fucking doxxed natsume dude he was like if he wont tell me anything abt himself i will simply perform a wildly invasive background check #guards! bring me natsume's voice activated password diary #natsume: no i will not join ur freaky exorcist clan. blocked and dont contact me again #matoba: 385.21.0.4. 434 east youkai ave. fujiwara residence 2nd floor sleeps on a futon ate a pb&j and applesauce for lunch today #matoba wants to be natsume's government assigned fbi agent soooo bad #retag later #ny blogging #guess whos having fun getting back into natsuyuu :)

[ajdrawshq]

you love them...... 0(-(

#today you're happy . #oh boy i gotta run thru the whole house this way. time to 100% this shit i guess #unless i can loop forward . hopefully #woageoahwoahwoah woah. hey. siffrin my buddy???????? are u good. holy shit dude #WOAH. okay. thats. hm. YOUR ATTACK LOWERED? #theyre literally nerfing themself so they dont scare the shit out of everyone. well #SADNESS WILL FLEE FROM YOU. OK #things are gettin weird today #ooo his title changed.. when did that happen.. #HEY !! ANOTHER SIFFRIN AGAIN. is spacetime getting fucked over by all these loops. not that ive had too many.... this is loop 20-something #oh. oopsie. looked at too many things and Odile is onto me. uh oh #surely that wont come back to get me later right. right #that is actually a bit scary tho. tbh #oh shit bonnie WAS listening to that conversation huh #man it would suck if i lost this loop. but i dont think i could stomach doing that on purpose lmao #it would also be hilarious if i died to pineapple right now. which im assuming is a thing bc of Loops warning earlier #omg i love bonnies interactions when theyre not being mean to sif theyre so silly #why is everyone treating him like a puppy today.. except for odile . who is still suspicious. #even if she figures it out somehow i dont know how she'll like. bring it to light? or do anything abt it?? #will she react badly to it at all ???? i mean its Weird but half of the evidence shows that sif did it to help more than anything #tho she could draw different conclusions.. #isat #isat spoilers #'you feel happy???' 'even though youre not friends.' hey dont do that.

[aguacerotropical]

minor resurrections: on failing to raise the dead

[...] “As / if,” he says. The little phrase, broken by the line, captures all that disbelieving sorrow. “As if” is the beginning of the path to the dead. It is as if you are gone, so I will try to reach you, though you may be different, though you may not understand how living as if you are gone makes me feel. [...] Then, as if my amusement was his amusement, a different portal opened, keyhole-slim, through which he briefly slipped. In the clear waters of Bahía Sucia I did feel free to release the stone, knowing it would float away, then dissolve. [...] The death of someone whom you love is a discovery of Death in the abstract as well as the particular: the appearance of disappearance, not only of the dead person, but of yourself. A quicksand pause: the absence of yourself from time. The sense of being ejected from time’s usual is common among the grieving, from my anecdotal polling [...] Being thrown out of time or immured in a fixed point within it is a way of dying with the one who has died, an unwilled and yet welcome journey that brings us nearer [...] If I have found any resurrection for sure, it’s mine, not my brother’s: as soon as I said, to another sister, “Stephen is dead,” it was as if I, like Barthes, were one dead—and then I came back to life, changed, like Lazarus always and probably until my final death glancing at that vast distracting orb beyond. [...] Time in the eschaton cannot be normal time; it stops, it loops, it mixes up states and tenses, it is adjacent to, but not within, eternity. [...]If you do, then it becomes an exhortation to love the death too, because it is intrinsic to every life. Meanwhile, Mary’s hands hang in the air. Resurrection is Dante’s eternal rotation, “spurred on by flaming love”: it is the ongoing allegiance to keeping in sight the appearance of disappearance. It is living as if. It is a game of hands, an everlasting reaching after what escapes, what you love.

Elisa González

#this essay is everything to me. my elegy to him also features lazarus. and she's also PRican bc of course #tantos duelos que tiene este pueblo #i have this recurring nightmare #he comes back but does not know he is dead #and its always 'why are you here? do you know how your loss destroyed me? do you not understand? why wont you speak?' #bringing the dead back by/but bringing them wrong. that's what sends me into a panic #grief #tw death