#why’d I do this to myself?

[symbiotic-slime]

“having a special interest can’t be that bad” I had to convince myself not to get a blond mullet because it was “Eddie Brock core”

#the parasites in me want to shapeshift into him istg #parasites as in a reference to the ‘I don’t wanna eat candy but the parasites in me want the candy’ audio #also dodged a bullet by not being transmasc because I 100% would’ve named myself Eddie or Flash #and then would’ve had to explain that to people for the rest of my life #and like most people I know don’t know who agent venom is so like 😭 #‘why’d you name yourself Flash?’ ‘you know spider-man’s high school bully?’ #would’ve been the death of me istg #please do not take that as anything against transmascs I would’ve just been an idiot with picking a name for myself #sam’s ramblings #I should make a tag for when I don’t want to clog up the venom tag but am talking about venom #sam talks about venom

[that-vampire-loser]

My therapist, telling me how watching my carbs and not eating certain foods and doing intermittent fasting could help with my depression

The big fat bold “history of disordered eating and hospitalization” on my file 👁️👁️

#like why’d you have me fill that form out if you’re just gonna ignore it #I swear I had to fill out like 20 pages before I saw this lady #and she asks me like “have you ever attempted’ #like idk Michelle check my file #I swear #anyway I just sat there like dumbfounded #like you’re supposed to help me eat not help me fast I can do that myself #what am I paying you for #therapy #therapist #interesting therapist things #therapy things #trauma #ed #tw disordered eating #borderline personality disorder #actually ocd #bpd #ocd

[msm-weirdcore-gamedev]

Random thing I made in the Wheezel’s Easel discord server

(WARNING: absolute monstrosity)

#my singing monsters #g’joob mug #why’d i do this to myself #why’d I do this to him

[natsarrownecklacx]

I decided to write a fic based on this thought I had, about the mission where r dies…

#it’s a lil brutal #why’d I do this to myself #sorry natasha

[the-meme-monarch]

Thoughts on the portal musical

i likea the it

#the monarch’s court #2015 production was Euh. Ough. #weird and ableist abt space core and chell #2017 production very much better #i only wish they used the actual turret opera instead of a parody song to go in its place #idr my tag for it give me a minute #take me to go see portal 2 the musical #man fuck these overly wordy musical tags. why’d i do that to myself

[lhrry]

x

#to distract myself by another stunt I guess #thinking about ho and how much it seems to also be tied up to compensating my policeman and the larry rumours coming back and stuff #I’ve been thinking for quite a while with what louis has been saying and which lyrics are confirmed and even the George Michael green eye #the cover and stuff that that album is going to be so queer coded #like there are already lyrics which are so…. queer #and it seems that he’s really adamant at not defining the songs’ meaning but one thing that he says played a role was seeing the fans and #the shows and like he knows just how queer audience he has now as well and it really seems rn that that album is going to be that #so I’m wondering whether a part of the constant stunting is to allow louis to have this artistic authenticity and vision fulfilled as well #like I really hope from what he’s said he’s really doing what he wants to do musically and artistically so maybe that’s the price he’s #paying #we all certainly accepted that was happening with Harry for some time #i still don’t understand why’d they use babygate and not Eleanor for that and would prefer for this to be so that babygate can end but #eh #so maybe this may be at least a part of it ?

[waytoobsessed]

//I drew dragon pencil in a red marker on a mini whiteboard (it was the only marker i had on hand—)

#tw scars #thats what the weird mark is on her neck #tis a scar #im rambling #my art #pencil scribbles #oc pencil #dragon pencil #dragon #ooc? #i genuinely like this why’d i do it on a whiteboard im so disappointed in myself

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

YOU CAME HERE FOR RAVKA. I CAME HERE FOR YOU. YOU ARE MY FLAG ALINA. YOU’RE MY NATION. NOT THIS SWAMP.

THIS SWAMP IS WORTH SAVING……

#i think i’m going to kill myself over that interaction. this swamp is worth saving…… #fighting in only your army front lines don’t you ignore me i’m the best thing at this party you’re losing me….. #the way they were always each other’s home until alina had to do the hero’s journey and left him somewhere he can’t follow. why’d i say that #they were always only about each other and he still only cares about saving her and she needs to save everyone… she’s his nation but ravka #is hers now forever. FUCK. when he’s a brave man but deep down he’d rather be taming horses. #beth.txt #🪲

[romanceisdeadbutimnot]

Y’all ever write something and hurt your own feelings bc same

#fanfic #writing #hurt feelings #I literally am writing like ooh this will be so good #I’ll definitely make people cry with this one #and then I start crying #like fuck man #why’d I do it to myself like that

[yomiosatious]

posted the update to Tempered Glass last night and was on the verge of tears HOWD I DO THIS TO MYSELF ,, WHAT HAPPENED

#WHY DID THEY DO THSI TO ME #i don’t know I don’t know how this happened #it was so emotional to me I hurt myself in the process #why’d I do that to him whyyyyyy #i made it….. too realistic #freehoun #yomiospeakous #yomiowrites

[heartual]

#…………………….​…………………….​…………………….​……………………. #feeling mentally ill might delete later #…………………….​…………………….​…………………….​…………………….. #is this a safe space . i miss feeling pretty #my cousin took a picture of me and my mom from the back and i haven’t been able to stop thinking about it el oh el #made a comment about it to my mom like oh man why’d she take that :( #and she goes oh yeah i’m looking a little wide there too smh #where do i even start there #the fact that she’s several pounds lighter than i am or the fact that i didn’t mention that at All #not verbally at least #also her not saying anything else?? #being around my mom rly externalizes the internalized fatphobia in me like why do i feel like krilling myself #i hate being around her so much sometimes i’m sorry #thank you chronic illness and medication weight fluctuations for the enhanced mental illness #i’m being sooooo not eating disordered about it! #ed mention #weight mention #because why am i yearning for the body i had after losing weight to food poisoning twice in the same year #where i was so miserable i could barely eat like a person. someone get me away from my mom i beg #🍄.txt

[vonev]

me finding the will to finish my dozens of WIPs

#vonev chats #why’d i do this to myself #should i just make this super long one shot a 2-3 parts instead #i need to stop reviving and killing my blog

[whateveriscatchy]

X

#why’d i do this to myself oh my god #im surrounded by mess and its overwhelming #my drive for spring cleaning is gone #but one thing for sure #the earrings im looking for is not among my backpacks #oh fuck i forgot books are next #i love my books and my system but oh god oh no #i put this off for the longest time because i need to do an overhaul since someone messed up my system so bad last time #that i havent touched it since #its not arranged by category language author series titles in alphabetical order anymore #and it pissed me off so bad hahaha #but then again i wanted to do a new system with LCC and dewey decimals #maybe its time to implement that

[rebirthofartemis]

Not to get graphic, but college makes me want to die

#why’d i do this to myself #c’s get degrees #online university sucks

[vexalia]

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#called in sick for tomorrow cuz head is exploding again #don’t have a super clear way to call out. like i am supposed to let my direct supervisor know #but i was only told how another position would call out and every time i’ve asked the answer i get is ‘whatever you did this time was fine #so this other position needs to let their direct supervisor AND the director of their department know. which would make sense for me #to have to do as well since i start my shift before my supervisor is in the building #so i let my supervisor know and called the building to let the overnight shift lead know i won’t be in and have her pas that to the #department head. but. shift lead did not pick up shift lead’s phone. and there was a language barrier. and i don’t think the #message got across At All. killing myself #so i think i’m going to leave it at having let my supervisor know and trying to let the department head know. #and if i’m up tomorrow morning i’ll try again but like. i don’t even know if this person Has to know i called out #and why’d she give her phone to this guy #Didn’t She Know That Would Make My Life Annoying

[redshoes-blues]

I have to email back five people and I’ve been putting it off all day fuckkk

#I hate emailing. I don’t understand email etiquette At All so it takes me ages to write one. why’d I do this to myself lol #work stuff #yeehaw