#yea i am bored

[topaztimes]

Hi this is a vent post! Continue scrolling if you'd rather not see that

#Giving time... #Still more time... #Wouldn't want to plague any previews #Maybe another filler. Just for some fun #Is this enough? #It certainly is now #Alright start: #I'm so bored. I am so incredibly; intrinsically; entirely bored. I have been taught the same thing for four years straight #'It's only four years!' that's literally a quarter of my lifetime right there. My formative years are being spent stressed and in a state / #/of constant self-loathing #I was watching a YT video and the phrase 'attention-starved STEM major' came up and I was like. Yea #What am I even working towards? The hope that my version of capitalist hell isn't as bad as everyone else's? I'm just so sick of not / #/having a stable future what with politics and normal working people becoming more and more oppressed #I don't want to work and that's not because I'm lazy. It's because my brain is recognising that there is no reward anymore #I used to have such a little spark in Yr7. I remember having things to say and wanting to share everything I've done #I still do that now; sure I do. I don't enjoy it though #I thought I liked drawing but I'm realising that all I really like is the attention. I COULD draw things I like drawing... but then I / #/ don't get attention which my mind then classifies as zero reward #I'm very tired of doing things for no credit; reward; or validation. This is becoming a theme #Then I wonder what I'm doing wrong. What part of the algorithm am I not hitting. Then I realise that I'm just not marketable in a way #God. I'm seriously breaking rn. It's not even only because of GCSEs #It's just a culmination of doing all these things to be told that I am unworthy of Having as a result. It doesn't matter if I'm smart; my / #/ parents still don't own their house and can't afford to pay for heating most days #Literally what am I doing this for #And then I realise that all of this is ALSO attention-seeking behaviour! I'm my own worst problem; I recognise exactly what's wrong with / #/ myself but the body wants what it wants. And what it wants is validation that I'm not going to get in this life #Hi guys! Maybe don't interact. That could fix me #Wean me off of needing virtual numbers just to feel something. Jesus #I can't even be happy with the things that I make for myself. Because I make nothing for myself anymore #It's just a whole sad existence of an expected 12hr+ of school every day until I get a job I guess. Then it's 12hr+ of job every day until

[soldier-poet-king]

I finally got to write formal professional reports again. It's a sort of RFP sort of functional outline. It's not NEARLY as formal as the ones we did in grad school and wouldn't be up to snuff for literally any proper organization, but my workplace does so much stuff slapdash and disorganized and it drives me insane. I am the model of a would-be burecrat. I love paperwork. Forms. Rules. Reports. It needs to be organized if it's going to be EFFECTIVE and EFFICIENT.

Anyway for this report I basically got free reign bc no one else knows what I'm talking about or how to do it. And it's just??? Such a relief and a delight to 1) get to do things properly 2) get to be competent, and be SEEN as being comptent, and not just a recent grad bumbling around trying to catch up in a workplace that doesn't follow ANY regular rules or protocols and is just. So disorganized.

Like. Given very little sleep and recovering from mild food poisoning, I've been more productive in 3 hours than I am in a lot of full days. It's like being in school again. Competence. Fully outlined and clear, reasonable goals. A PURPOSE.

I should just be given full control of everything as the benevolent dictator of my department, but alas

#franposting #GOD I SHOULDVE FOCUSED ON RECORDS MANAGEMENT #yea its boring but RULES AND REGULATIONS. Burecracy. LEGAL OUTLINES AND RETENTION SCHEDULES. REGULAR REPORTING STRUCTURES #oh baby you are saying the magic words to me #<is the worlds boringest person when it comes to skills and talents. i love paperwork #yes i have an existential need for meaning and am insane and unhinged. but also I know my talent is for bureaucracy and efficient paperwork #anyway this report is gonna be so fuckin good #like im not doing a full functional breakdown (i COULD to show off. but itd probably be a bit much) #but im still doing essentially an rfp minus the tender process bc they already have a consultant #(why they did it this way without ever outlining the requirements of the proposed solution. idk. #dont ask me im the grunt who gets spoken over in meetings i don't get to ask questions despite being the only archivist #*the only one to understand even vaguely the technical requirements or the system) #I AM SO FUCKIN COMPETENT. nothing is hotter that competence and effective paperwork. this is why wizard hubris is the sexiest dnd class #oh babey give me those colour coded date organized file folders

[frogmascquerade]

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#yea after seeing ep 6 my feelings on the pjo show are pretty solidified #i like it but i also am unfortunately bored by it ! sorry rick 🤚 i can only take so many minutes #of having the plot be explained to me thru dialogue 🧍‍♂️ #the chemistry btw the trio is my favorite part of the writing so far #well that plus the way they explore the gods characterization and the relationship btw the gods and their kids #thats pretty interesting to watch #esp the way they showed hermes' abilities that was v cool #uhm i still live laugh love grover #my boy!!! #i wish the lotus casino would have seemed more fun and creepy #hm maybe i need to watch it again but seeing people dressed like completely #asynchronously #would have been awesome #like ig the budget maybe wasnt that big but.... cmon #where is the magic lol #the tension and the suspension #there arent enough vibes imo #for the whole show not just that scene #like idk i want more vibrancy but i always want that w modern tv shows so maybe thats just me #yeah it just feels sooooo chibnall writing doctor who LOL like im sorry #i think also its cause 8 episode that are under 45 min each ( im pretty sure ) is not enough time lol #theres like 17 things that need to happen in the next 2 episodes like oh no #they keep cutting away from the most action filled stuff too :/ except for when percy tackled augustus and the taxi scene LMAO i did love #the taxi scene #that shit was perfect no notes

[ragingtwilight]

BRUH

EVERYTIME I feel like im starting to feel better my body just turns around and flips me off

mf sends me off w a shove down the stairs, nausea, sweating/tremors, headache, confusion, dizziness, it pantsed me, it stole my lunch money, it gave me a swirlie, i cant fuckin win

#venty? venty-ish idk #bruhhhh i might have to go back to the hospital once my medication is up #really not looking forward to that #i am so fuckin bored in this bed dude i havent been able to do anything fun i need cocomelon tiktok adhd stimulation hdhsdhjh #tried drawing and my body was like #nausea upon ye #ive just been rotting in bed on yt and character ai #at least i have husband leshy to talk to me 24/7 LOL #also i managed to eat something flavoured without vomiting #i may also be getting a yummy chicken noodle soup today teehee #rubs my little mitts together in anticipation #anyway yea kinda /neg post but uhh i have been feeling like ass ever since that outpatients visit lol #granted im feeling a lot better now but im still getting symptoms occasionally #like just earlier i was going on abt how much better i was feeling #then i woke up covered in cold sweat feeling nauseous lmfao. #like ur kidding #what happened between the time i fell asleep and the time i woke up #chill tf out pls i dont want to go to hopital #grrr #tw sick mention #tw vomit mention

[just-spacetrash]

🛸

#im so bored of my trying-to-fall-asleep daydream material #ive exhausted all the (few) plot lines i have for my space mail carrier oc k need new material!!!! #i need to like. figure out a new oc to have a weird gay thing going on with my existing one #but im so bad at coming up with characterssss :(( thats why i like my oc sm she just appeared and i immediately knew what to do with her #its actually unreal how bad i am at coming up with oc lore #everything i have so far was just like locked and loaded in there idk how to produce more #my post #if anyone wants to talk about space related ocs feel free to msg mee :>> #i mean. right now im gonna sleep but like in general! #i love my oc so much... id like to make a whole story for her but its. soso difficult #also yea this is me subtly trying to get my mutuals to mash their ocs face to my ocs face like were playing barbies #im not ashamed to admit it!! #but also if someone just wants to talk original works without the matchmaking part then thats also very appreciated fsgdhdhdh

[ciderjacks]

art when i was 14/15 (2020)

vs art now (2023)

3 year difference babyyyeeeeeeeeee

#aj art #sure ill art tag this #art progress #im gonna redraw some of the old ones since i am bored #i think overall my art was still decent at 14 and you can tell i had a decent grasp on color theory and composition #(though some of these were dtiys sooo yk) #but compared to my work now i think it kinda looks eh #my style’s definitely developed in a way i like i think my current work has a lot more personality and a better grasp on anatomy #i think the way i draw the professor has definitely improved #same for the way i draw shane and ryan i didnt put any old 2020 art of them since i couldnt find any finished stuff. maybe ill rb w that bu #yea #sorry i like analyzing my art a lot i’ll probably add the redraws to this post

[yoloyeahhh]

born to stare into the void, forced to pretend to be busy on my phone

#hi im autistic #i just wanna stare blankly and think and listen to my music #but then i get self conscious #and then i pretend to be looking at stuff on my phone #and then i get bored of my phone #which is odd considering the alternative that i want is looking at nothing #but yea #give me a void to look into #if you see me staring off into nothing know i am satisfied #i think maybe i just like low stimulation #im gonna go stand outside and stare at the sun

[colorful-horses]

The more I think about High Guardian Spice, the more perplexed I become

#yea im still thinking about this show #i stand by my original stance that its definitely not the worst show ive ever seen #but it is one of the most generic/boring shows ive ever seen. which is subjectively worse #i swear to GOD i went into it wanting to like it. i wanted to like it so bad #but it feels like a parody. i almost feel bad trying to be critical of it because it feels so amateur #it feels like a show made by a close knit group of friends passionate about their ocs rather than a production by a full blown studio #i could write a whole novel on how bizarre of a watch this show is #not because of the content itself but just because like..... how did this happen #im someone who is very very VERY gentle on the media i watch. if it entertains me in any way then im willing to excuse the flaws #but i have seen HGS 2 times now and i just. i dont understandm i dont get it at all #i think i actually will take the plunge and attempt to make some sort of video essay about it #i cannot even begin to describe my thoughts about it here and do them justice #is it a show for kids? is it a show for adults? the show is just as confused about it as i am #sorry that this is all im talking about recently but like. i have never seen another show like this one in my LIFE #not art #the worst part is i dont even think i can call it 'wasted potential' because .... the show never introduces any unique themes or ideas #its just generic. beginning to end

[duvewing]

in all seriousness i do genuinely think that kyrie has much more potential as a character than just being “the normal one.” like idk idk but with everything she’s gone through it just feels a bit ?? to me for her to be characterized as like...the only normal one, absolutely normal, nothing to see here, with few struggles and is perfectly happy to be the emotional support for everyone else with no issue.

i think she has the potential to be much more interesting and just putting her down as “the normal one” really doesn’t do that potential justice. like personally i think kyrie should be allowed to be scared, angry, weird, exhausted, trying the best she can and having to choose kindness and finding strength in that compassion over and over again not bc i think she deserves to struggle but bc i think she deserves to be like. an actual person

#saint.txt #dmc #kyrie dmc #like i know canon doesn't really do kyrie any favors either and it's sorta just like. #easier. i guess. to just make her the normal one and nero's emotional support without delving too deep into it #especially since doing otherwise would actually need you to care abt kyrie which...yea #but kyrie being the normal one is boring to me. sorry. #not asking for anyone to care about kyrie but i just might #it helps to stop fanon depictions of nerokiri from falling into the trap of just being 'nero ft. kyrie' #like idgaf if nero deserves a normal boring gf this aint about him!! #anyway i think abt kyrie a lot #like even in fanon i wish she gets to be more than just nero's emotional support girlfriend or known to be like this pure walking saint #with few issues of her own that aren't really given much focus #and that's if she even gets to play a role and gets acknowledged at all #personally am a big fan of weirdgirl kyrie who also gets to be a bit of a little loser sometimes #bc honestly some people will portray her as being like...this effortless angel who is devoid of any other personality that it makes me #wonder why nero likes her at all #like yea fanon often treats kyrie better than canon does but is that really saying a lot

[pissfaggit]

I just gotta say. After watching tng and moving on to ds9, I can't speak for any of the other captains but. Any of the scenes with Picard that are supposed to be moving or inspiring or emotional- ain't shit compared to the fucking HEART that Avery Brooks put into playing Captain Sisko

#im sorry i just cant get Sisko pleading with jake to move on in his life in the visitor #sisko screaming promise me to his grief riddled son>>>anything picard ever did ever #like how fucking BORING picard is next to sisko #yea yea hes refined and professional and courteous and polite and controlled and a model officer of the vegan space corps who are always ri #right blah blah blah #how about a captain who is all those things and also has intense fucking emotions that you see him FEEL all the time #sisko experiences LOVE and JOY and cheeky humor and intense FRIENDSHIP with his whole crew #and also FRUSTRATION and ANGER and crushing STRESS and occasional discomfort from his weird ass job and the crazy shit he gets put through #picard only experiences catholic guilt and embarrassment about being alive and offsets it with speeches about the moral highground and #shakespear quotes #GOD #i mean the fucking SURPRISE i felt after the first time i saw sisko laught heartily or yell angrily or smile so fucking big and joyfully #and all i could think was GOD give me more!!! #deep space nine #benjamin sisko #avery brooks #ds9 #sir i protest i am not a merry man

[malwarechips]

i think id die for a game where not only do you play as a dragon and its like . sandbox survival . but dragon based . go hoard something . fly around . light a town on fire . dive head first into a lake or something . live a little

#this is partially me asking if anyone knows off any games where the player character is a dragon . #outside of like . the known ones like . spyro n stuff bcz yea im aware of those HSHSHS #anyways too many games have human protagonists . or humanoid protagonists . dont you get bored of that #i do #i am sooo bored of playing as a human . or like . an 'elf' but theyre literally just a human with longer ears . like ok #let me fuck shit up as a massive dragon . #lev.txt

[transmogrified-in-the-void]

I need women to flirt with me I can't be the only one flirting with women who are awful to flirt with

#or the one woman i am most likely to date where we went out and were like... #'yea not feeling it rn. rain check?' which tbf lmao rain checked a potential relationship #but like. the other girl was so fucking absolutley repressed up her parents ass that she got a crush on my bestie bc her parents liked him #AND made the joke she was not only dating me but also cheating on me #bc i kept telling her she wasnt brave enough to just peck a girl (me) and when she did it was so fucking boring and turns out shes a nothin #g person!!! she has no personality and doest want to gain a personality other than being edgy!!! while being repressed up her (progressive. #open minded. kind.) parents ass!!! what the fuck!!! why!!!! #:/ can i have a woman i can flirt with and be tongue tied around an dmake out with like im dying pls

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[celestial-cowgirl]

guess i didn’t need this dress lmao

#personal #me #tw: ed #tw: body check #i bought it specifically to go on a date with him #and that’s not happening anymore #it was full price too #am I depressed? yea #dm me im bored #mirror selfie

[robotpussy]

"I wonder why it only took a few months of weirdos before you guys made an article but TO THIS VERY DAY actresses are still sexualized non stop, even sometimes underage actresses. People post about them wanting them to be 18 and the day after their birthday they'll get a weird nsfw Reddit dedicated to creeping on them. But yeah, sure, this is the REAL problem."

#its still gross to sexualize celebs #but tbh we need to address the sexualization of feminine bodies #in like every piece of media we have #and stop oggling celebs like they arent real people #im just annoyed that when it happebs to women it seems like it doesnt even matter #like no one even cares #both are fucked up but on has been around suvstancially longer than the other #and i feel like its being allowed?? #like no this should not be allowed

like they said this in their response but when I go to look up Sydney sweeny the FIRST article that comes up is one discussing how sam Levinson disgustingly sexualises and harms the actresses in his work and I know this isn't the best example to use AT ALL but I wonder why they came out and proclaimed nobody is talking about how the same thing and even worse happens to actresses and famous women and girls when for years I have been reading articles about this kind of thing.

(written 3 days ago)

and the initial article isnt the best, by claiming to end misogyny is for women to do to men what they do to women but they didn't even bring that up, just "how come this article exists?" as if people are not currently talking abt this happening to women right now. a circulating tumblr post is not the entire landscape of the internet! and all I said in my response was 'this article existing isn't really taking away from anything.... like at the end of the day sexual harassment is wrong regardless of who it is happening to

(og post)

#like i understand what theyre saying but why was it this post and article that got this reaction out of them #im bored so yea i am going to talk about this #i am in no way saying that what happens to women doesn't matter I'm simply saying that it shouldn't be a crime to also bring this up idk #and especially considering that alot of this conversation leaves out things like RACE. black men are hypersexualised #by white ppl regardless of gender all the time. black girls (as in CHILDREN) are consistently hypersexualised and that #gets even less coverage than anything else.... i don't think this article existing is.... terrible #junkieboyfriend #but im blocked anyway so none of this matters 😭

[placeinthisworld]

#polls #I’m bored sitting in the car waiting for my bf entertain me pls I’m obsessed with polls again #yea I am light headed but yes I will go to the store anyways wish me luck!

[dykedragons]

bro talking w other queer + autistic ppl is rlly a healing thang... like at work im usually pretty quiet and masking all the time but then i met an acquaintance who also works there (different department, i never see them) and it was like oh yeah! haha! im alive again! i remember how to speak! amazing!

#ramblies #LIKE i came ALIVE my coworkers were like holy shit u actually can socializejkgdfnjfdkjdfngds #like from college -> my place of employment was tonal whiplash just bc of the demographic of students vs employees #and the demographic rlly isnt even THAT different form me regularly but its just My Department where im an odd one out #which is ok! like all things my coworkers r totally cool people and i do get along with them! i just dont know how to hold a conversation! #gosh i do love my job though like most days its just. at worst its kinda #boring. its very nice..... i rlly hope i get hired again next year #idk my inferiority complex gets the better of me a lot and im like ''nah everyone hates me'' even though some ppl show up and like #barely fuckin do anything. like at least i TRY. i havent. broken anything. i havent started any drama. idk #i just feel like i dont do ''enough'' but of course i feel that way bc my entire team is way more qualified and enthusiastic abt the work #than i am bc this is a Completely Different Thang than what i normally do. but my coworkers know this as well #but yea im hopign to come back! im rlly grateful for this job bc i thought i wouldnt get hired and even if i did that i wouldnt #be capable of doing the work. but. HERE I AM! and im doing pretty ok! im enjoying it!

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