#yeah i’m having thoughts again sorry

[only-lonely-www]

So basically ATLA brain rot has hit me like a truck

#atla #avatar the last airbender #zuko #toph beifong #what happened was I was forced to watch the live action #which is actually pretty good if you get past the first few episodes #and if you don’t have someone in your ear telling you it’s awful the whole time #first episode is definitely the weakest and that’s 50% gran gran’s fault #aang and katara are also pretty flat but whatever #sokka’s good and zuko’s fantastic actually #they did goof on a few things but overall I think it’s a fun time #just don’t expect it to be as good as the cartoon and you’ll be okay #ANYWAY it got me missing toph #so i rewatched the blind bandit episode #and then wound up watching the entirety of books 2 & 3 in a few days #and now I’m brain rotted #which is especially weird considering when I first watched it I was like #yeah that was good! and then never thought about it again #i dunno what changed but i need help it’s taking over my life #wanted to draw Sokka too but he looks hard to draw #and i had enough trouble with these two #maybe someday #sorry for rambling in the tags goodbye

[turtleblogatlast]

One of the biggest things that makes me see Leo as trans is absolutely the size of his carapace in comparison to his brothers’.

And I’m not talking about height! I’m specifically looking at his shell here, because when you compare him to the others, particularly Donnie who is nearly the same height as Leo, it’s very clear that Leo’s carapace is much longer in proportion to the rest of his body.

Like - standing side by side, even though Donnie is shorter his carapace ends noticeably higher up than Leo’s does. And I like this not only because it really helps push the idea that Leo could very likely be trans (or intersex!), but it’s also just a fun design difference between them.

(It also lends way to future scenarios of Donnie eventually getting taller than Leo, but sitting down still has Leo being the taller one haha.)

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #trans leonardo #rottmnt headcanons #rise leo #trans leo #it’s like 4 am and I’m having trans leo feelings again sorry guys #totally get if other people disagree with me on this! but it’s always gonna be my no.1 headcanon fr #his complexion the vibrancy of his colors staying even in adulthood his general demeanor and this? this hc is LOCKED in my brain #plus the times Leo’s depicted in pink white and blue throughout the series like I KNOW it wasn’t on purpose but damn if it doesn’t help #(his nails are also the exact same as his toe nails/claws but I don’t super count this one tbh) #(even though it is TECHNICALLY another point in favor of trans leo) #(mainly because all the boys’ nails are very much more humanoid than turtle) #(just like how their tails aren’t really a factor either since we see them only in their baby forms and never again) #I really like the idea that he was a female red eared slider pre mutation #and Lou Jitsu’s dna paved how his humanoid features came out (aka a more masculine build and voice) #but his turtle features are all very much more in like with a female res #love the thought of rise bros meeting og comic turtle boys and Leo being like wait you guys are res too?? but…you’re not colorful…… #one headcanon I have is that - you know the cute chirping and stuff we have the boys do? #I like to think that Leo’s chirping actually sounds more feminine to himself and his bros (so he tends to not do it) #idk I love thinking about this hc a lot and there’s no time like four am to talk about it huh? #future scenario has future Donnie going up to future Leo all smug like ah Nardo how’s the weather down there #and Leo’s all like good *sits down* why don’t you join me :) #Donnie: …*sits and stretches his neck out to be taller still* #Leo calls him a cheater but Donnie calls it ‘making use of his species’s advantages’ #but yeah basically for many turtles the case is - bigger carapace? female. smaller carapace? male. #so it’s very interesting to take that knowledge and apply it here #did you know one of the turtles that this rule of thumb DOESNT apply to is alligator snapping turtles? male ones are the bigger ones there! #by a big difference too so Raph’s size makes a LOT of sense

[thedvilsinthedetails]

goodnight tumblr

Fair warning the ramble in the tags is long af

#Quick thought before I drop dead from tiredness #I love my friends #and I kind of #I really love my life right now #Which is weird bc it’s actually really stressful time and I’m not really doing well but #I have friends #Good friends #and my blog #and I feel like a person again #I feel like I’m finally getting back to ‘me’ if I hadn’t been ‘best friends’ with a toxic bitch #She basically shredded my self esteem #Two years of that shit messed me up man #Not to mention my mother #But I think I’ve gotten to the point where I’m able to separate that shit from who I actually AM yk #And man I fucking love my friends #Both on and offline #But irl/in school friendships were something I was struggling with #And #yk it was fucking worth the wait #I love them so much #im so #fucking fucking glad I know them #Yeah #Of course I’m petrified of losing them like everyone else #But for once I don’t THINK I will #I’m not going into this with some morbid sense of doom #My ‘six month expiry’ date is not gonna expire bc im manifesting my way thru this shit #Anyway goodnight sorry for the ramble

[barklikeagod]

there is something so crazy in the way benson had chris right up in his face trying to intimidate him into shutting up (which wasn't really doing shit) but a slight shake of randy’s head and benson lets it drop……. for .3 seconds

#r #the passenger #mv #yeah sorry i'm immediately back to this bc god... #it’s like even when he yielded he didn’t Really #but he would’ve. if randy would have spat in chris’s face. if he would’ve hit him.. stood up for himself yk… #but since he didn't benson had to step in. like he HAD to. so there he goes to get the fucking shotgun LMAOOO #but i swearrrr there’s no way chris wasn’t in school with randy and i’m sure he broke him down then too #especially bc randy was held back a year like i knowwww chris was saying some heinous shit about that #and randy just took it then too. he wouldn’t have wanted to make this big Stand and have it backfire again. ruin someone else’s life. #….thoughts are getting away from me but #the way benson only had eyes for randy while chris was trying to get him to back down…….. ugh #it was sexy why lie

[artisticbunny]

GUYS OH MY GOD IVE HAD A REVELATION.

I have no idea if anyone else has noticed this, but In Undertale, flowey’s face that he defaults to is Chara’s.

ITS CHARA’S GUYS. YOU CANNOT TELL ME THEY DONT LOOK SUPER SIMILAR. WHAT OTHER CHARACTER HAS EYES LIKE THAT??? AND THE SMILE???? CHARA’S ONLY SPRITES ARE OVERWORLD SPRITES SO WE CANT REALLY SEE IF ITS SHOWING TEETH OR NOT BUT IN FLOWEY’S OVERWORLD SPRITE ITS CLOSED LIKE THIS TOO.

IM-

FLOWEY HAS THE ABILITY TO CHANGE HIS FACE TO REFLECT OTHER PEOPLE, THIS IS A KNOWN FACT THAT HE UTILIZES THIS SHAPESHIFTING THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE GAME. PARTICULARLY DURING THE NEUTRAL ENDINGS.

GUYS.

HIS DEFAULT FACE IS NOT HIS OWN.

THE ONLY TIME HE USES HIS ACTUAL FACE AS FLOWEY IS DURING THE GENOCIDE ENDING.

THE ONE HE USES OTHERWISE IS CHARA’S.

Maybe he’s using it to deflect. Maybe he’s using it to push the blame off of him. Maybe he’s trying to put on the bravest face he knows-

Maybe… He’s trying to put on an unassuming face, the least threatening one he can think of because THATS HIS BEST FRIEND.

Or maybe…. He’s even trying to keep a piece of them with him, something to remember them by now that they’re gone. Because despite everything, despite not having a soul, flowey still cares about them and thinks about them every day.

Idk

Do with this rant what you will XD

#idk this might be a stretch but this thought came to me as I was falling asleep and I just thought I’d share #undertale #flowey undertale #bun rambles #theory #undertale theory #again idk if anyone has thought of or voiced this thought before me #I’m sorry if they have #god it’s been so long since I thought this hard about undertale #I’ve long escaped the clutches of my hyperfixation for this game but that doesn’t mean I don’t still love it #anyways yeah #do with my rant what you will #chara undertale

[rosicheeks]

Of course it's you I want to put a baby in, silly. You're cute and would make cute babies, and I know I'd breed you fully because if you squirt on my chest, I'll drive my cock into your womb so hard, you'll know the moment you get pregnant when I cum.

oh……. OH 👀👀👀👀👀👀

#yeah I totallyyyyy missed this ask I’m so sorry 🫣 #bro don’t mean to toot my own horn #but I’d make such cute babies 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #everyone says my niece looks exactly like me and especially when I was a baby and growing up #and she is so fucking cute #GUYS #imagine the bouncy ringlet hair my little babies would have 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #im in such a hopeless romantic phase and mood right now I can’t stop thinking about marriage and babies and having a dog!!! #anyway onto #uh #the rest of your ask 👀🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣 #that second part of the ask is uhhhhhh SOMETHING ANON #I #don’t even know what to say???? #other than #gimme gimme gimme #gimme gimme gimme gimme #but also add #when you drive your cock into me so hard and deep you better be moaning ‘mine’ #the thought of someone fucking me but saying ‘mine’ over and over again #and genuinely marking me as theirs????? #😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 #give me a damn SECOND I NEED A BREATHER OOOOFDA #ask #anon

[quietwingsinthesky]

Soooo badly want to combine twin!au with the “chuck has been mindcontrolling luci for years and it’s only just now stopped working so he’s back in s5 character” because can you imagine how distressing that would be for everyone involved?

Like Lucifer’s in full control of himself for the first time in years, after all the shit that went down post-s5, dealing with the repercussions of actions he performed but now honestly can’t tell which ones were things he would have actually done of his own volition and which were God yanking on his strings. And ALSO during that time he had sex in order to have a kid, but instead ended up with twins who no one wants him near! Because everyone hates him! And Heaven’s gone to shit, most of the angels are dead, the only archangel left alive is Michael and he’s still caged and Luci’s got no way of getting him out if he even wants to. (Which. Presumably he does. If only because at least he knows Michael and Michael hasn’t been on the receiving end of the shit he did the past few years and yeah, might still think of him as a monster but at least that was an image Lucifer was almost in control of.)

And then of course when he finally gets to see the twins, he gets to have a horrible moment of going “oh. Oh no. Oh no they’re me and Michael. God’s replaying the story again and with my kids.” Which is! Horrifying! For someone who has only just gotten free of having his entire character rewritten for the sake of being villainized easier by his own father!

#(​smashes my two most self-indulgent AUs together) aw yeah now we’re cooking with gas #endgame of this au is probably a) They Need To Kill God. and b) queerplatonic samifer raises angel babies #while struggling with the fact that Sam & Dean have been through the same rewrites over the years but since they came less drastically. #neither of them noticed #it’s just whump all around tbh #marieposting #neither s5 or late seasons lucifer would be good with kids is the thing but it’s like. in vastly different ways #s5 Lucifer is mostly like. why would he have experience doing this. why would he have any knowledge on it #besides what he took from nick’s memories when Nick had a Baby but per spn canon. #Jack & Marie aren’t babies long enough for that to help #and angels just aren’t children like that. they don’t grow the same way humans do. #Lucifer has been an older brother. but that’s about where his expertise ends in terms of ‘beings younger than him looking for guidance’ #well. and also demons. but. I don’t. think. that will. help. much. #although. it would be very sweet/strange to me in particular #if Lucifer referenced Lilith around them and the twins were like ‘??? who that’ #(​because it’s been years since Sam & Dean thought about Lilith. they’ve never mentioned her) #and without thinking Lucifer goes ‘your older sister.’ #HELP THINKING ABOUT MARIE HEARING ‘older sister’ AND GOING AH. SOMEONE TO EMULATE. NOOOO DONT DO THAT ALJFKFLSJF #sorry I’m rambling again #allow me my self indulgence.

[polyamorouspunk]

Idk I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again but the fatal flaw of tumblr blaze is that sometimes humanity is not inherently good but inherently evil and selfish. You click on a blazed post about people promoting a project they’ve spent months on usually like a book or a comic or a store that’s something like a love letter to the queer community and the comments are just filled with people saying shit like “go kys” and “I don’t care about your shitty project I hope it flops” etc. etc. I’m not saying every post is like that, I mean I haven’t see a lot of negativity when people blaze pictures of their animals but the idea of blazing something I’ve worked really hard on and want more people to see is great until I click on other people doing that and I’m met with the most vile comments I’ve ever seen in all my time on tumblr.

#what’s the point of paying to have people make fun of you and say horrible things to you and about you #unless it’s a shitpost or a picture of your pet or something #I’m consoling doing a tumblr blaze of polyam dog for her birthday because I have a fun idea but is it even worth it #what if people say horrible things about her #it’s just going to tear me down more than any positivity can uplift me #personal #just random thoughts nothing serious #like this isn’t a serious topic just thoughts that popped in my head again seeing 2 tumblr blaze posts in a row promoting- #-a book and a queer comic and both just had nasty horrible comments on them #like yeah sorry I’m not paying to have people treat me like shit I do that for free by having this blog

[sammygender]

listened to three episodes of mabel (the podcast) yesterday. SO good, holy shit. i’ve been meaning to listen for years and i get it immediately. just the first episode was so good. turns out i’m not actually that hard to get into podcasts i just haven’t been finding the right ones…

#i KNOW wtnv is meant to be good. i know i know i know. and the vibes are on peak!! i loooove the energy!!’ #But nothing happens. bro. nothing fucking happens. not yet at least #im sorryyyy i need stuff to grip me!!! i enjoy wtnv when i listen to it but i can never listen consistently bc i never ever find myself #wanting to know what happens next #i mean sure i’m only a couple episodes in #but #is the whole show like this?? or does it get more….. plotty? character driven? #it’s got such a huge fan base on here but then again this is the site that can turn anytning into a fan base #same applies for. like. the penumbra podcast. idk i think i tried to start it and i was just like… don’t care. sorry #i have such an I don’t care. issue with media in general. i don’t tend to watch tv alone because i WILL just switch it off. i gotta pick #something and CHOOSE ok i am watching this for the next few weeks! and then set designated times to watch it with my siblings #its just like mehhhh. idk. im picky and i can take mediocrity and find gold in it but i have to be submerged in the mediocrity for that to #happen #but like anyway. wolf 359 is one of my favourite things ever and i thought it was funny and a cool concept at first but it probably would’ve #ended up like every other podcast if i hadn’t told my brother about it and he hasn’t immediately binged the first season #told me it was fucking amazing #and therefore motivated me to speed through until i got to the endish of s1 and went Oh yeah this is some GOOD SHIT. #so maybe i just gotta do that with more stuff??? #but anyway. mabel is reaaalllly good #mabel podcast #oliver talks

[bomnun]

among the 292738 other reasons cube needs to go to hell and burn is for making pentagon work their asses off september/october/november 2022 for a comeback that the company possibly never was going to be able to afford to pay for and cancel/postpone anyway

#I’m sorry but a severe lack of funds is the only way to explain the 6 month break between any music releases at the company #and even before nxde there was a weird break between boom and it #with no real korean promotions #t says #SHINWON SAYS NOT DOING ANYTHING MUSIC RELATED ISTHE WAY HE CAN BREATHE PEACEFULLY AND ITS BECAUSE YOU CANT MANAGE YOUR FINANCES CUBE!!!!!!! #🔪🔪🔪 #when it first happened I thought pose was a weird setup for kino to get rid of ptg #but then they did the exact same thing to chаngsub #combine that with the 6 month break now #cutting jián and huîyeon and keeping yenan in China so they don’t have to pay for him #are probably also ways to save money #but yeah they really drove and pushed ptg to finish the creative parts and probably the recording too #also don’t get me wrong they were definitely…pushed…or encouraged…br*bed by mn*t #but there’s even more to it #maybe they wouldn’t have canceled it just done the ptg comeback with less than minimal promotions even worse than feelin like #actually I think that’s would’ve happened without mnet interference #much preferable to whatever’s going on now #the house was pretty empty back then they would’ve probably won Music bank again and cube would be stuck with the dilemma of how to get rid #of them once again #not reading two music bank wins as a group with a solid fanbase

[seagull-scribbles]

That’s what they don’t see

#sing #sing rosita #idk what else to tag this #the kids in my class really like sing so I finally watched the two of them #I’d seen lots of clips so I kind of knew all the raved about bits #but I hadn’t seen much of Rosita so I enjoyed her the most when I got around to it #they’re not the best kids films on the market but they’re fun #and as long as somethings entertaining then I think they’re good regardless so I think sing was pretty good I’d watch em again #I mean I actually came out of my art hiatus for this quick thing sooooo yeah #the kids in my class love ash but they all thought she was a hedgehog they’d never heard of porcupines #so we researched and learnt about porcupines it was fun using kids films to like facilitate curiosity and learning experiences #unis been v stressful so idk when I’m going out of my hiatus properly #I have a week off over Christmas but I’ll have assignments to do and theirs the new sonic series and game so I’d] #I’d probably enjoy something like that where I don’t need to hold a pen I guess #sorry guys I’ll re download the app soon ish I miss talking to you all #tried to make this look traditional what do we think?

[goldenhypen]

i wanna write another dad au 😭😭😭😭

#i also wanna open requests up again #pls it’s always so tempting but i have to have self control #esp when i’ve been already overloaded requests and am still working my way through them… omg no it has not been 4 months… no way stop #that’s insane #i thought it was just two months #no that’s insane #yeah ig i’m not opening reqs up anytime soon then nvm guys sorry :D #i wanna write ot7 reactions tho 😕 #maybe soon <//3 #after i get up all these reqs #anD #finish my series that i haven’t even rlly started yet :D #:’))) #sorry- LOL #this was about wanting to write a dad au but it somehow led to this tangent about not opening reqs- SJSNSJSJ IM ?????? #sm speaks

[universalsatan]

sometimes i forget how distinctly american my mother is, and how we are generally a product of our surroundings

#personal #just found out she’s pro-military!!! and she was accusing me of being anti-military because of watching x files. like girl i am 10 episodes #into this show. i have had these views for a Long time (VERY specifically about the us military). and im just like. damn. like yeah of COURS #it’s not plastered everywhere. ‘give me some peer reviewed articles’ i would but i just cant bring myself to get the energy to get stuck in #this exhausting npd abuse loop again (sounds exaggerated but im basically falling for exacerbating the situation. which is why it’s always #hit me the hardest i guess. because she Will just straight up either not mention it ever again or just simply deny it. and i’m not exactly #educated enough on the subject to remember specific points. my memory has been destroyed BECAUSE of this kinda shit and i cant recall decent #argument points anymore. not that i even particularly want to!!! read up on all this shit!!!! oh and even realizing that she was Definitely #seeing me as an Extreme. like girl what. i forgot that npd does that #reminds me of how. she’s very liberal. she was the one who got me out of the closet in the first place (bc i wouldnt do so myself) #and yet the other day. i swear she said something that was almost terf rhetoric #FUCK i HATE that my memory has already scrambled it. fuuuuuck and here i thought my memory was coming back #but it was something along the lines of implying that men Would try to get into women’s shelters etc in a skirt or smth and i #i just stopped talking i was so shocked #god. sorry didnt mean to vent lmao but im. hhh im just Tired yknow? #mandont

[padfootastic]

Hey I wanted some insight on how to write James with more depth. I saw on a one of your post you mentioned not liking that he matured for a girl, and I can agree. And I saw you mentioning his elderly parents and how they died around the war. How do you think being raised by older parents affected his character overall?

oh hey anon 💜💜 i’m not sure i’m the best person for advice on how to write a character w depth (since it’s something i routine eschew in favor of self indulgence) but i can certainly try!

so, i’m not sure if effie and flea dying from illness (dragonpox?) is canon or not but i certainly treat it so. i think they passed away around his 7th year, maybe midway through, and that just strengthened his resolve to join the order. plus, it gives me a more plausible reason for why him and lily married so young.

regarding how growing up with elderly parents might’ve affected him, here’s a few possible options:

- kind, kind, kind. he’s sincere and polite and has impeccable manners (does he sometimes give up on them if the situation calls for? sure) because it’s been instilled in him from birth. i think family portraits going back generations also played a huge role here.

- he’s great with small talk and endearing himself to old people. he’s used to his parents’ friends and often, he prefers being with them over his peers because he can understand them and their motivations better. i think while he was an extrovert and definitely loved hanging out with people, his social skills were a bit rusty bc he’s not grown up around a lot of kids so he doesn’t rly know how to relate to them. (enter: my hc that james uses old people swears like good heavens and goodness gracious) he had to stumble around to get better with his batchmates in hogwarts and even then, he sometimes slips up and goes into geriatric mode and gets teased a lot for it.

- i also think he’d be big on like, tradition and superstition? even when he stops actually believing in them, he still does it bc of habit or ‘what’s the harm?’ or he wants to keep some part of his parents alive. he’s probably thought up all kinds of things he wants to do with harry and teach him and habits to instil in him which just makes it that much more tragic that he didn’t get to

- his nurturing nature came from an acute awareness of his parents’ mortality and taking care of them from a young age. i see flea and effie as realists, treating james as an equal for all that they coddle him. so they’ve never hid this part from him and he’s always had a low grade fear? anxiety? about when time will run out so he tries to over compensate for it by doing the most. (sometimes i hc a james with control issues but that’s a tangent)

- on the flip side, his arrogance definitely came from being a miracle baby. he had all the silver/gold/platinum spoons in his mouth and so much privilege he doesn’t know what to do with it. while his heart is in the right place, effie & flea were cut from the same cloth so his understanding of these nuances came much, much later as he started interacting with people in hogwarts who had very different lives. i think this made him a bit insensitive at times, but definitely the aforementioned heart makes sure he makes amends, even if they’re fumbling and based on trial-and-error.

- he was a lonely kid!! as much as he loved his parents and their friends and his life, he still grew up mainly alone in a large manor with nothing but portraits to talk to and that had to have had an effect on him. combine that w his never ending energy and always being switched on and is it any wonder he keeps doing The Absolute Most when he finally gets to hogwarts? how hard he latches on to sirius?

- oh also, i think he definitely has some form of rejection sensitivity. i’ve mentioned this before but i think, despite his confidence, it can be easy to make him self conscious by bringing up say, how loudly he talks or how he ‘never shuts up’ or ‘oh my god ur so annoying potter do u ever just, chill out’ (one reason why a lot of jily fics don’t agree w me tbh), partly because he’s never really been criticised before so he doesn’t know how to constructively deal with it and partly bc he’s always thinking in extremes and doesn’t want to be a bother so he decides completely shutting himself off is the only acceptable solution. (another hc: sirius knows this, understands it as an actual problem, and is therefore the only one who can bring up his faults/tell him to cut it out without sending him into a guilt/hurt spiral)

i’m...gonna stop here. i don’t know if all of these make sense but it’s how i see james (i think) so i rly hope it helps u! if u end up writing a fic/post (even if it doesn’t have any of this lol), tag me so i can read it <333 happy writing, anon!

#james potter #obligatory disclaimer: these are all headcanons bc we don’t have enough info so don’t@ me #i know there’s another post about him being raised by elderly parents but i haven’t read it so i can’t link it sorry! #some of these are pulled from irl #i’ve been around a lot of old people (often in a partial caretaker capacity) since i was young and that’s influenced this #also how single children w indulgent parents act #the being good with old people one especially- my fav people to hang out w at family events are the grandparents #they consistently surprise me + have the best stories and i spend hours around them #gonna be honest. ages in hp have always confused me. i thought 100+ was the norm but people regularly die earlier #which yeah ik wartime but still. bc if it was that old then james wouldn’t be worried but idk #it’s inconsequential but something i wonder about occasionally #once again i have been unable to control myself #sigh #can u tell a lot of james is just me? i’m a whole fraud #pen’s asks

[pepprs]

um LOL ok i just got out of counseling and it was absolutely batshit insane. wtf is going on 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#so we only talked for 35 minutes which is like 😐 and we spent most of it talking about either logistics or… like ok so she is VERY stressed #out and in a similar position that i am actually so it was less her counseling me and more both of us commiserating about how this situation #can be so shitty and stressful for the ppl left behind lol. but she was really nice and totally warm and open AND GET THIS she just like. #ASSUMNED that we are going to keep having meetings?????? so maybe i don’t have to spend the whole summer withering LMAOOOO she was like so w #when we meet next time and i was like HUH? i thought this was an emergency!!! but yeah uh no i guess i have a counselor again 😳😳😳😳😳 it was l #like weird and nice and cool it’s just she kept interrupting me before i finished my thought and also like i do kinda wish we had gone the f #full time and gotten to talk more bc i actually like. don’t feel all that better about the grief aspect of this which she said we’ll talk #about next time but it’s like uhhhhh but what do i do if im feeling it now lol. but yeah i will take this over going until September without #counseling and im really glad i met her bc she like already knows who i am and what my situation is LOL and she was telling me her whole lif #life story basically and it was like omg how are you even here rn bc this woman is the interim executive director of the whole place and #doesn’t want to be and she is so stressed out and also just got surgery and had covid and it’s like GIRL i am so sorry im taking your time #this evening 😭😭😭😭😭 but she was really nice about it and im glad we made it work and i feel like i just won the lottery with getting to have #counseling again. still do feel the grief though like I know I’m talking in circles but i need to process this and i don’t know how bc im #suffocatingly sad and i still have a few more hours to burn before i go to bed. lol #purrs

[bayseil]

…

#coworker told me she thought california was too liberal for her and this sucks this sucks she’s the one who brought it up #but ugghhh. she’s one of the ones where I actually have her number #she said that she thought pelosi was a liar and it’s like. yeah duh 😭 #all politicians are for that big corpo money #and I told her that. like a dummy. oh well. just won’t do it again #but for the record she’s the one who brought it up but I’m the one who took the bait bc I’m a fucking know it all polisci major 😭😭😭 #ok well. thoughts and prayers for me thank u #she’s also the one who keeps pushing for me to be a sped teacher. I’m sorry but. no #I’m just tired and I want to go home lol