âTHIS IS (NOT) EASYâ â MATTHEW STURNIOLO
pairing. matthew sturniolo x fem!reader
genre. smut, fluff, angst
word count. 13.7k
âbeing in this friends with benefits relationship with you was not as easy as i thought it would be...â
content warnings. friends with benefits au, crack humour, explicit content, oral (f & m receiving), fingering, squirting, p in v, unprotected sex (creampies), big dick matt, doggy position, alcohol consumption and mentions of weed, flirty!chris,
âauthors note. i've actually written this before but for a different person on another blog. so if you happen to stumble across that somehow and notice the similarities, its me lol. i just liked the plot so much and i wanted to use it for matt.
âWait, you what?!â
You gasp out loud, not caring about the loudness of your tone, voice piercing throughout the library alongside the squeaking legs of your chair across the wooden flooring as you abruptly straight up in your seat.Â
Other students with their heads shoved in books and laptop screens peek over in curiosity while one irritated classmate leans over the table to shush you angrily, warning you about the volume of your voice but you pay them no mind, gaze fixed on Matt who sits across from you sheepishly.
Matthew Sturnioloâone of the heartthrobs on campus, the quiet and mysterious type that turns curious heads, and undoubtedly the kindest guy in class has been your best friend for the past few years. You met during a practice hockey game where fourteen-year-old Matt had tried to score a goal to impress his brothers and newfound friends, only for the hockey puck to come flying over the glass barrier, hurling straight towards your face and leaving you with a swollen eyeball and a busted up nose.
Matt was unbelievably apologetic, going to extreme lengths by buying candies and ripping up flowers from potted plants to give to you whenever you both crossed paths, begging for your forgiveness over and over again desperately until you socked him in the face, giving him a hefty nosebleed and a bruised cheek in return.Â
A toothy grin spread across your cheeks and you finally had accepted the gifts out of his hands, a happy ânow weâre even!â leaving your lips as you had ripped open the candies, offering him a treat, offering him your friendship.
The two of you became inseparable and if someone saw one of you, they knew that the other would be trailing along behind them. You were two peas in a podâthe dynamic duo. You were so joined at the hip that when you both enrolled for college, you tried signing up for a dorm on campus, wanting and hoping to be roommates.Â
It didnât happen.
Matt ended up rooming with one of his friends, Tyler, while you got stuck with some girl you didnât even know but had become acquainted with over a short period of time.Â
Still, you and Matt never strayed far from each other even with your roommates in the picture. He sleeps over at your place every now and then, and vice versa. Youâre certain that heâs even claimed a whole drawer in your dresser, filled with his spare shirts, sweatpants and underwear.
A lot of your mutual friends, including his brothers, found it suspicious how you two could be so close without anything going on between you both, complaining how the two of you canât be just friends. It was partially the truth.
You are not just friends, youâre best friends.
âIâm just saying, that youâre complaining about not hooking up with someone for a few days while I havenât slept with someone for, like, a month,â Matt repeats to you with flushed cheeks, adjusting the black cap on his head with one hand while the other skilfully twirls a pen around his fingers, âTimes are hard, kid. I got assignments up to my assââ
âThereâs no way you havenât hooked up with someone lately,â You hiss through gritted teeth, refusing to believe a word that comes out of his mouth when heâs talking about such nonsense.Â
A nearby student from the table next to yours shifts around in their seat in annoyance to look at you, pressing their finger aggressively against their lips to tell you to quiet down and you scoff in response, throwing them the middle finger with your own irritancy and annoyance.
âCan you not?â Matt scolds as his hand firmly wraps around your own, squeezing in warning as he guides it back down to the table. He offers an apologetic smile to the student, and as always, it works like a charm as they shyly smile back and resume their work. Another scoff leaves your lips and Matt turns his attention back to you. âIâm telling you the truth, you know.â
âBullshit,â You murmur, sending him a glare. âThat girl from my study group was over at your dorm last weekendâI saw her Snapchat stories.â
âDude, weâre both in the same study group. She came over for some of my notes and ended up staying longer because Tyler offered her an ounce of his âpremium weedâ,â Matt explains, adding a sarcastic emphasis around the word âpremium weedâ which has you snorting, knowing that there was nothing premium about Tylerâs stash. âShe eventually ended up staying over and hooking up with Chris anyways.â
Your face contorts into a look of confusion at that, âWhat? Chris? He isnât even your roommate.â
âI know. Tylerâs sheets are still in the dryer,â Matt grimaces. âBut Nick has had this âsex-freeâ policy on his and Chrisâ dorm ever since that guy screwed him over last weekend.âÂ
âOhâŚâ You pause, amused at Nickâs new policy, but then the realisation finally hits you. âSo thatâs why Tyler didnât have any sheets on his bed when I came over on Monday.â
âYâwait, you came over Monday?â Matt snaps his head towards you, eyes narrowing as he jabs his pen in your direction. âDid you fuck in my bed?!â
âNo. Of course not,â You gasp, deeply offended by his accusation and Matt lets out a sigh of relief, relaxing his shoulders as he leans back into his chair. âWe actually fucked on the couchââ
âAre you fucking kidding meââ
âThatâs besides the point!â You cut him off before he can grill you, silencing him by raising your hand in front of his face when he tries to retaliate again. âThe fact remains, Matt, is that you havenât fucked anyone in a whole month. And thatâs like⌠I donât know, itâs like blasphemy!â
Matt deadpans, his expression devoid of amusement. âIâm pretty sure thatâs not blasphemy.â
âWhatever. You know what I mean,â You dismiss, shoving your books and pens as far away from you as you possibly could, no longer interested in studying the endless amount of words on that page now that youâve discovered your best friend hasn't hooked up with anyone in so long. You sit comfortably in your chair as you fully give him your attention, tucking your legs beneath you. âI canât believe itâŚâ
âYouâre telling me,â Matt huffs, deciding to set aside his own studies too. He rubs his face in frustration, groaning beneath his palms. You console him with a frown, reaching out to rub his shoulder in sympathy. Mattâs hands drop to his lap, and he shoots you a glare, âI canât believe you didnât believe me. Why would I lie about something like that?!â
Youâre quick to defend yourself, âYou fuck more than I do. Of course I'm not gonna believe a word you say when you tell me something like that!âÂ
And itâs true, Matt does have a higher number of sexual encounters compared to you. His boyish charm and adorable face doesnât hide the fact that his body count is probably in the twenties, and that his online bank statements are likely to reveal the frequent purchases of packs of condoms (and maybe a few Plan B pills for extra precaution). Matt has always been cautious and responsible, which doesnât surprise you. Heâs not one to take unnecessary risks or potentially impregnate someone, especially a stranger.
âYou didnât have to say it out loud like thatâŚâ Matt mutters under his breath, cheeks dusting a slight shade of pink as another student turns around in their seat to glare at the pair of you, but her eyes widen comically as she sees Matt. Shyly, she tucks her hair behind her ears with a kind smile that Matt reciprocates. You lean back in your seat with a roll of your eyes just as Matt brings his attention back to you, âAre we done with this conversation? Iâd rather talk about something more interesting than my nonexistent sex life.â
âFine,â You relent. âAre you going to Nateâs later?â
âNo, kidâs got some important hockey meeting or something, so weâre hanging another time,â Matt sighs softly, removing his cap to run his fingers through his hair before readjusting it. âWould you be cool if I came over yours?â
âSure,â You grin, already shoving your belongings into your bag, eager to leave the library as soon as possible. Mattâs lip curls up in amusement as he follows in suit, packing his own things into his backpack and slinging it over his shoulder.Â
As you glance over, you notice the girl still staring at Matt and a mischievous smirk forms on your face as you slam your hand on the desk in front of her, capturing her attention.
You jab your thumb in Mattâs direction and you teasingly offer, âIf you want his number. I can give it to you. Heâs been stuck in a dry spell recently, soââ
Before you can finish your sentence, Mattâs fingers curl around your elbow, yanking you away from the bewildered girl with a huff, âMove.â
âIâve been thinking about somethingâŚâ You break the comfortable silence between you both after a few hours of binge-watching a series and indulging in takeout, dropping your pizza crust into the cardboard box and pushing it aside. Matt sits beside you on the couch, his own pizza in hand, gaze fixed on the TV screen, listening to what the characters are saying.
Matt glances at you with a quick, pointed look as he chews, âThat doesnât sound good.â
âWow. Funny.â You deadpan with a roll of your eyes and he chuckles under his breath, turning his attention back to the TV screen. âAnyway, and hear me out before you say some dumb shit. Iâve been thinking about something that relates to that little problem we both have, and I may have come up with a way to fix it.â
âWhy are you still hung up on this?â Matt complains between mouthfuls. âI donât want to be constantly reminded that Iâm not having sexââ
You quickly raise your hand to hush him and he goes cross eyed to stare at your palm in confusion. âI said hear me out.â
âFine.â
âGreat!â You exclaim with a grin, âOkay, so, you and I are the best of friends, right? We always help each other out andââ
âWhere is this going?â
âHear. Me. Out.â You warn once more, emphasising each word. Matt sighs, nodding his head for you to continue. âWe always help each other out, correct? And thereâs no awkwardness between us, which is what also makes us so close. Remember that time we had to make out in front of Jeremy so he would stop hitting on me? And that time I pretended to be your girlfriend so Gracie would get the hint that you didnât want to sleep with her anymore?â
âWell, yeah, but that didnât exactly work out because we ended up hooking up with them a few days after it happenedââ
âThatâs not the point,â You say as you frustratingly rub at your temples. âThe point is that we always help each other, no matter what the situation is, because weâre best friends. So, as best friends, I think we should help each other out with our little situation.â
âAnd how can we help each other out?â
âBy fucking each other.â
The second those words leave your mouth, Matt chokes on his food, banging his fist against his chest as he coughs, his eyes watering and face turning red. The sight of his reaction has you cackling, wishing you had your phone nearby to take a picture.
After a few moments, Matt manages to regain his breath, reaching down to grab his bottle of water from the side of the couch and gulping it down almost immediately.
You click your tongue against your teeth, a playful smirk on your face. âThat was a little dramatic.â
âAnd youâre crazy,â Matt shoots back, water droplets trickling down his chin as he looks at you with wide eyes. âDo you realise what you just said?â
You nod your head, âPerfectly.â
âWe are not fucking. Itâll be weird,â Matt says, you instantly find offence to that, your jaw dropping in disbelief. Matt rolls his eyes at your reaction. âWeâre best friends. Best friends donât do that type of shitâStop looking at me like that!â
You huff, turning your head away from him childishly. âIâm just trying to help us out. I donât think itâll be weird⌠people have done weirder.â
âAre you aware of how many friendships have been ruined because they fucked?â Matt questions you and you take a moment to ponder, wincing as you can easily name a few from the top of your head. âExactly. As much as I find you attractive, Iâm not going to ruin our friendship. Weâve been best friends for too long.â
Your head slowly turns back to Matt, whoâs already looking at you. A grin spreads across your face as you flirtatiously bat your eyelashes at him, âYou think Iâm attractive?â
âMy god, youâve un-fucking-believable, I swearâŚâ Matt trails off, muttering under his breath as he rubs at his forehead in frustration. You beam at the thought of getting under his skin, but eventually you roll your eyes and reach over to press your foot into his side, playfully nudging him to bring his attention back to you.Â
Matt looks over at you with a deadpan expression and you continue to grin at him, tilting your head to the side as you admire the view.
Truthfully, youâve always found Matt attractive even if it was in a friendly way and youâd be lying if you said that hooking up with him has never crossed your mind, but thatâs mainly because youâre nosy and want to see what all the fuss is about when you constantly hear the girls fawn about what heâs like in bed.
Some say heâs extremely giving, tending to their needs in all ways possible. Some also say heâs demanding and rough, one hand curled into their hair as heâs fucking them from behind, spitting out degrading words into their ears. But youâve also heard that he sometimes comes across as needy and desperate, begging for his cock to be sucked and to be made a mess out of.
It piques your interest a lot⌠maybe itâs wrong of you to think that way about someone you know so well, but youâre human after all, sometimes you canât help the way you think about certain people.
âLook,â You speak up first, letting out a sigh. âWhat I said was just a suggestion, okay? If you donât want to do it, then thatâs fineââ
âHow do you know that it wonât ruin our friendship?â Matt cuts you off and your eyebrows raise in surprise at the question. âWeâve been best friends for, like, six years or something right? I donât know about you, but I donât want to throw that all away because we messed up and decided to fuck each other just because weâre âsex deprivedâ.â
âWeâre not going to get into anything super serious,â You reassure him, crossing your arms over your chest. âSure, weâre probably going to end up in some type of friends with benefits situation, but weâre not going to include any of that official or exclusive title bullshit. We just hook up for a release when we canât find it anywhere else, itâs as simple as that. No complications.â
âSoâŚâ Matt purses his lips in deep thought. âWe can still fuck other people?â
You scoff, âOf course. You think Iâd drop Tyler for you that easily?â
âFuck you.â
Your lips curl into a smirk, âIâm hoping you would.â
Matt stares at you for a brief moment before chuckling, shaking his head as his tongue prods at his cheek. The little action spurs something within you but you remain seated, wanting Matt to be the one to make the first move if he was game in fucking you to help relieve the stress youâre both feeling⌠maybe Matt a little more considering that you fucked Tyler a few days prior, but you were desperate to be filled again.Â
You watch Matt sit in silence for a moment, seemingly deep in his thoughts as his eyebrows knit together, thinking about the pros and cons. His hands come up to pull the cap off of his head completely, his hair messily falling in front of his eyes and your thighs press together as the thought of seeing it between your legs with your fingers threading through the locks.Â
You internally laugh at how deluded you sound.
âWhat time does your roommate get back tonight?â Matt questions you, his low tone bringing you out of your own thoughts and your body buzzes with excitement, fumbling as you reach over to snag your phone off the coffee table to check the time, informing him that she wonât be home for another three hours. âAlright. Good to know.â
âSo?â You press, dropping your phone back down as you look at him expectedly. âWhatâs it going to be?â
Matt takes a deep breath, âNo titles.â
âNone at all.â
âWe can still fuck whoever we want.â
âWhoever, whenever.â
âAnd most importantlyâŚâ Matt pauses with a deep sigh, leaning over the couch closer to you and he holds up his hand, his pinkie outstretched. âWeâre still best friends.â
âItâll be like nothing ever changed.â You promise softly with a smile, curling your pinky finger around his own, squeezing it tightly to keep your promise.
Itâs silent between you both for a while, and you can clearly see the cogs turning inside Mattâs head as he thinks about his next move, yet youâre the one that decides to take that initiative.
You rip your hand away from his to throw your arms around his shoulders, fingers buried into his locks as you drag him towards you to eagerly plant your lips on his. Youâre surprised at how fast Matt responds to the kiss as his hands come up to cup your cheeks, tilting his head to the side to kiss you deeper, slipping his tongue into your mouth.
The plenty drunken kisses youâve shared with Matt to help each other out of sticky situations is nothing like the kiss youâre experiencing right now, and it catches you extremely off guard. You were expecting him to allow you to take control of what was happening and lead him through it considering you were the one to bring it up, but with the way Mattâs pushing you backwards to lay you down on the couch and crawling between your open legs with his lips still attached to yours, youâre stumped.Â
âWait,â You stop him, pressing your palm against his chest to push him back and Matt moves away with raw, wet lips, his fingers hovering above the waistband of your shorts. âWhy are we doing this on the couch? I have a bed we can use.â
Matt glares down at you, âThat didnât stop you and Tyler from fucking on my couch.â
âActually, there were no sheets on Tylerâs bed, soââ
âThink of this as payback,â Matt smiles at you sweetly and you snarl, knocking your leg against his side with force and he laughs through clenched teeth, âBesides, youâve probably fucked a lot of people on this couch⌠Do you really care?â
You blink up at him. âAre you implying that Iâm a slut?â
Matt shrugs, âMaybe, yeah.â
âThatâs so hot of you.â
Matt chuckles and leans down to reconnect your lips, fingers unbuttoning your shorts and pulling them down your legs with your underwear, carelessly throwing them somewhere to the side and you hiss at the cold air that hits, yearning for warmth.
Mattâs lips trail down your throat and to the collar of your shirt, nipping and sucking at your skin, heading south to where your thighs shake in anticipation. Your bottom lip catches between your teeth as you watch him shuffling down to lay between your legs, hands pushing against your knees to spread you further apart, the coldness of his rings prickling at your skin.
Your own hand reaches down to thread your fingers through his hair, trying to tug him closer but he barely budges, gazing up at you with his brows knit together.
You whine, âHurry.â
âAre you always this impatient?â
âOf course,â You look at him like heâs stupid. âWeâre both doing this for a reason and itâs to cum, not to take our sweet little time andâOh shitâŚâ
âFucking yapping. You talk too much.â Matt drags his tongue through your folds, the pink muscle swirling over your clit and your body jerks in shock at the sensation, a gasp fleeting past your lips as your grip on his hair tightens, feeling his tongue wiggle between your folds and licking upwards to flick over your clit before his fingers tease at your entrance.
Your body goes slack against the couch cushions, mouth stuck open as he eases two digits inside the warmth of your pussy, curling his fingers upwards as his lips wrap around your sensitive clit and you whine, tugging at his hair a little harder which causes him to groan, the vibrations causing goosebumps to shoot up your spine.
Youâre in shock at how well Matt actually uses his tongue and fingers. Of course youâve heard stories from your girl friends and even Matt himself, but you didnât expect him to be this good and it completely catches you off track, unable to control the noises that rip from the back of your throat when he begins to pump his fingers in and out of your cunt while using his tongue to work wonders on your clit.
âMatt,â You whisper his name with a moan, thighs twitching and closing in around his head. You feel him smirk against your pussy and you squeeze your thighs in warning. âStop it.â
âDonât tell me youâre going to cum already?â He asks, his tone a little condescending as he raises his head, mouth glistening with your arousal. His fingers continue hitting that spot that has your toes curling and back arching against the cushions. âYou can cum, if you want.â
âYouâre so fucking cocky,â You tut, fighting the urge to smile but you amusement ends up slipping away and is overcome b y pleasure as he pumps his fingers a few more times, the tightening band in your stomach snapping as you cum all over his fingers, gasping through high pitched whines and trying to control the convulsing movement of your body.
âThatâs it,â Matt hums, pressing a quick kiss to your pussy. âGood job.â
You choke out your words, unable to come up with a full sentence as your hand falls limp onto his shoulder, fingers twitching over the material as you breathe heavily. âWhat the fuck was that?!â
âMe eating you out,â He answers matter-of-factly, a hint of smugness in his tone as he pops his fingers into his mouth to lick them clean. Your mouth drops in shock at the action and he meets your gaze, âYou good?â
âYeah⌠good.â You nod dumbly, completely astonished at how nonchalant Matt is acting as you watch him tug his sweatpants and boxers down his legs awkwardly when he sits up, eyes automatically zoning in on his cock that slaps against his stomach once freed from its confinements.Â
Honestly, you have seen Matt naked. Heâs comfortable with stripping in front of you and changing without any thought. But⌠youâve never seen Matt hard, and the sight alone is enough to have your mouth watering.
Your best friend is huge.
âOkay,â Matt mumbles to himself, crawling forward and hooking his hands under the back of your knees to pull you closer to him, his thumbs caressing your skin. âAre you sure youâre ready? You know thereâs no turning back from this, right?â
âIâm as ready as Iâll ever be,â You grin as you wiggle against him excitedly. âGive me what you got, sweetheart.â
âDonât call me that.â Matt clicks his tongue against his teeth, shaking his head as he slowly eases his cock into you. Slowly, your eyes start to widen at the stretch, the burn obvious in your core and thighs, and your hand flies down to his in hopes to slow down his movements despite him going as slow as he possibly can.
You try to breathe steadily through your nose, lips pressed together tightly as your wince at the uncomfortable ache that spreads, your pussy clamping down on him as if you were trying to prevent him from pushing any further.
âOw.â You whisper, twisting your hips to try and get comfortable and relax but you wince at each movement you make, causing Matt to raise his gaze from where youâre connected to look into your eyes, his own pooling with concern.
âAre you okay?â
You hum with a curt nod of your head, âNothing of that significant size has been up there before, you know? Iâm just⌠feeling uncomfortable, thatâs all.â
Mattâs lips curl into a grin, âYou calling my dick big?â
You send him a hardened glare, âNot as big as your fucking head.â
Matt laughs loudly and he lays his hand flat across your lower stomach as he adjusts himself between your legs, head ducking down slightly to watch himself slowly push into you once more, but the second your legs tense up, he sighs apologetically and strokes your stomach, sliding his cock out of you and you whine at the sudden feeling of emptiness, looking at him with a pout.
âGive me a second, okay?â Matt orders you, gently grabbing your waist to help turn you around on all fours. The brows pinch together at the new position, but your body seems to relax when you feel his hands slide around your back and press down tightly, arching it to hold you in place as you feel his cock at your entrance once more. âThis should feel better. But tell me if it hurts? I donât want to hurt you anymore.â
âJustââ You grit your teeth together. âJust fuck me, Matt.â
âYou got it.â Matt whispers as he pushes himself back into you again at a slower pace and you gasp, your fingers gripping the arm of the couch, head dropping low to rest on the cushions as you try to control your breathing. The new position was definitely better than the last, but you can still feel him stretch you out to fit you around his cock. âIs my dick really that big?â
âAre you asking because youâre concerned or because you want me to boost your ego?â
Matt smiles, âMaybe both.â
You donât even get the chance to retaliate with your own snarky comment as Matt fills you up completely, hips pressing to your ass and cry out at how full youâre feeling, unable to think properly as he pulls back, leaving the tip nestled in your cunt before thrusting back in.
Matt curses loudly behind you, fingers digging into your ski as he rocks his hips into you, his thrusts sending your body jerking forwards. You squeeze around his cock and he grunts, changing his pace and you canât help but fuck youtself back onto him, whining and panting at the pleasure that swirls in the pit of your tummy.Â
The lewd sounds of skin slapping against skin is enough to have your eyes rolling back in pleasure, driving you even closer to the edge along with his rapid thrusts and continuous cursing. Youâre positive you can even hear him praise you a little bit, muttering about how tight your pussy is.Â
You wouldâve never guessed he was into such dirty talk. Matt continues to amaze you.
Your pussy clamps around his cock when you feel his hand sneak beneath your body to reach between your thighs, the pads of his fingers rubbing diligent circles on your clit and you mewl, your own hand coming down to latch around his wrist.
âShit,â You slur your words, drool seeping past the corner of your lips. âSo goodâfuck, Matt, donât stopâsâgood.â
âYouâre funny if you think Iâm gonna stop.â Matt chuckles behind you and you can feel the tears build up in your waterline as Matt leans over your body, holding himself up with one hand on the arm of the couch, his other still rubbing circles on your clit. You gasp as how deep heâs nestled within you and it has you seeing stars, your toes curling and your body tensing up as his cock fucks into your cunt, repeatedly hitting that spot over and over before your second orgasm of the night hits you violently.Â
Your screams are muffled by the cushions, walls pulsating around his cock as you cum, struggling to hold up your own weight as your body falls limp on the couch. Pleasure buzzes through your veins and it sends you mind whirling as Matt fucks you through it to reach his own high, moving his hand from your clit to rest on your lower back, arching your ass up to fuck you deeper.
âWhere do you want me to cum?â He pants heavily, thumb stroking the bottom of your spine. âFuckâtell me where I can cum.â
âAnywhere you want.â You slur your words, craning your head to the side to look at him, capturing how his eyes widen slightly.
âAnywhere?â Matt repeats as he slows down his movements and you nod your head, only to yelp in shock when he pulls out of you completely and flips your body around once more. You stare at him in surprise as he crawls up your body, resting a hand on your cheek and pulling down your bottom lip with his thumb. âHere?â
You donât give him a verbal answer, instead you open wide, welcoming him and Matt grins, pushing the head of his cock into your mouth and sighing as your lips close around him, suckling on his tip as he cums in long spurts down your throat, brows knitting together in pleasure and moaning softly as your tongue presses against his slit, swallowing everything he gives you.Â
Thereâs a comfortable silence as Matt removes himself from above you, choosing to drop down in the limited space between your body and the couch, running his fingers through his sweaty hair as he tries to catch his breath.
It takes you a few seconds to comprehend what had just happened, staring between Mattâs naked lower half and yours before you abruptly sit up, rolling onto your knees that pop as you stare down at him incredulously.Â
âMatt!â You screech, punching his shoulder with such force that has him wincing.Â
âOw!â He hisses, rubbing the area. âWhyââ
âWhy the fuck didnât you tell me you were that good?â You immediately cut him off, not allowing him to finish as you shake your head quickly. âWe shouldâve done this ages ago!â
Matt rolls his eyes in annoyance despite the grin that spreads across his cheeks as he throws his arm over his face, âShut up.â
âOkay, so, let me get this straight,â Nick pauses to chew and swallow his sandwich, pointing between you and Matt on the opposite side of the table. âYou two decided to hook up last night because neither of you have hooked up with anyone in a long time, and now youâve made some sort of deal that when you canât find release somewhere else, youâll go to each other?â
âYeah.â
âWhat the actual fuck?!â Nick exclaims, looking at you both as if youâve grown an extra head before abruptly turning to Chris and Tyler who are sitting beside each other silently, watching everything unfold. âWhy are you guys saying anything?!â
âI donât think itâs as bad as youâre making it out to be,â Chris shrugs his shoulders nonchalantly before he turns his attention to you, furrowing his eyebrows. âAlthough, I am kind of offended you didnât ask me to fuck you.â
You grimace, âIt makes me queasy thinking about where your dick has been, if Iâm honest.â
âWhen was the last time you got tested?â Matt teases his younger triplet, a slight smirk curling at the ends of his lips as he leans back into his chair, hands shoved deep into his pockets as he manspreads. Chris rolls his eyes and retaliates by throwing him the middle finger.
âAnd youâre okay with this?â Nick questions Tyler who slowly nods his head as he rolls a blunt beneath the table, lips pursed in concentration.Â
âWhy wouldnât I be?â Tyler questions back, lifting his gaze to Nick and raising a brow before looking back down to his lap. âWe just fuck, thatâs it. And besides, sometimes I get so faded that I canât even get my dick up. She needs good dick and I canât give it to her when Iâm that out of it.â
You gasp in awe, reaching across the table to grip his arm. âYou are so thoughtful!â
âSo Iâm the only sane fucking person that thinks this is a stupid idea?â Nick shakes his head in disbelief, biting into his sandwich with a deep sigh. His eyes suddenly widen, a piece of lettuce hanging from his mouth as he erratically pats his pockets. âWhereâs Nate? Somebody text Nate right now.â
âPlease, you know damn well Nate isnât going to give a shit,â Chris cackles with a grin, adjusting the beanie on his head. âPretty sure he fucked his girl best friend last year.â
âYeah? And where is she now?â Nick looks at all of you expectedly for an answer and you frown, sinking into your seat with your arms crossed over your chest. âExactly.â
âCome on, kid, itâs not like thatâŚâ Matt tries to explain. âWe talked about it. Weâre not doing any of that exclusive or official title stuff. Weâre not making it weird.â
âMeaning we can still hook up with whoever we want.â You add on, eyes flickering over to Tyler and you give him a pretty smile, only for him to look back at you with a smirk and give you a flirtatious wink.
âSo, what Iâm hearing is,â Chris pauses, leaning his elbows on the table and resting his chin on the palm of his hand as he bats his eyelashes at you. âThereâs still a chance for me?â
Nick immediately plugs his ears as he repeatedly mumbles, âI donât not want to hear this. Stop it immediately. I hate it.â
âHate what?â Nateâs voice interrupts from behind and you whiz around in your seat, grinning widely as you see Nate approaching your table with his hockey jersey in one hand and his books in the other.Â
He greets you all with a smile, placing his belongings down on the table before grabbing an empty chair from another, the metal legs scraping across the floor as he drags it to place beside Matt, slapping his hand down on Mattâs shoulder in greeting as he sits down.Â
âWhat are you talking about anyway?â
âThey hooked up,â Nick immediately jumps straight into it as he points at the two of you and you sigh, throwing your head back in frustration. Matt laughs beside you. âAnd theyâre going to continue to hook up whenever they donât have anyone else to go to, soââ
âOh, nice man.â
Nick stares at Nate, âNo. Not nice. Not nice at all,â Nick shakes his head. âYouâre all helpless. Dumb and helpless, every single one of you.â
Nate pulls a face, âI mean, itâs not as bad as youâre making it out to beââ
âThatâs what I said~â Chris sings.
âAnd besides, theyâre grown adults. They can do whatever they want.â Nateâs words make your brows raise with little surprise, watching as he flips open his book and grabs the pen that rests behind his ear, biting the cap off with his teeth before looking at you. âIâm surprised it took you both this look to actually hook-up⌠I thought it wouldâve happened months ago.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âJust means I thought you two wouldâve fucked months ago.â Nate smiles and shrugs his shoulders innocently, blowing the cap out of his mouth and watching it with his hand before he begins to scribble on the pages. You roll your eyes, glancing over at Matt who shrugs his own shoulders, not fully understanding the meaning of Nateâs words but chooses not to dwell on it any longer as he reaches for his drink, sipping through the straw as he gives his attention to Chris who angles his phone in his direction to show him something you could barely see.Â
Nick shakes his head, still in disbelief as he shoves the last remaining bite of his sandwich into his mouth before grabbing his book out of his backpack to take notes alongside Nate. He then comically raises his head up to point his pen at you and Matt.
âAlso, just to let you know, I donât want to hear any complaining from either of you when this whole situationship bullshit ends up going to literal shit,â Nick warns before he slowly turns to the pen to point to himself, âBecause I will laugh in your face and simply say, âI told you soâ.â
A scoff leaves your lips as Matt speaks, âRelax, kid. Everything is going to be fine. Plus, this whole thing could just be a one time thing⌠It might not even happen again,â Matt turns to look at you. âRight?â
A smile finds its way onto your face as you lean your elbows on the table, chin resting on the palm of your hand as you give him an affirmative nod. âRight.â
âFuck, Matt.â You moan out his name repeatedly, back arching off your bed, gripping the pillows resting behind your head with your mouth wide open. Mattâs fingers pump in and out of your pussy, squirting over his hand and splashing onto the bed sheets below you.Â
He laughs as you shove your face into the crook of your arm, body trembling and breathing whines slipping past your lips from the overwhelming sensation of him fucking you with his fingers.
Your legs clamp shut around his hand but heâs already prying you back open with the other, holding them down to the bed as his fingers curl upwards, almost bringing you to tears at the pleasure in the pit of your tummy.Â
âThere we goâŚâ Matt hums softly, milking you for every drop you can give. You quiver and gasp when Matt comes to a stop, the grin on his face evident as he pulls his fingers from your cunt and you whine, struggling to raise your foot and kick him in his side. He captures your ankle in his grasp, drawing circles with his fingertips. âYou good?â
âYou good?â You mock him, tone nasally. Your arms flop to your side as you take a deep breath, ignoring the way Mattâs laughing at you. âThat was intense⌠I felt like I was going crazy.â
âThank you,â Matt grins, eyes twinkling as he slips off your bed. âYour need to change your sheets though.â
âWow. So gentlemanly of you to offer to help.â You mutter sarcastically under your breath, clicking your tongue against your teeth. You stand up from the bed and your knees buckle beneath you, causing you to panic and immediately reach out and grab onto a surface to steady yourself, throwing the middle finger up in Mattâs direction when he chuckles.Â
He tells you to go shower while he takes care of the sheets and you immediately oblige, patting his arm in a quick thanks as you wobble out of your bedroom and into the bathroom, eager to clear yourself up after previous activities.Â
You take longer than usual to shower, taking your time to scrub your body clean and even wash your hair, not even caring about what Matt could be doing inside your home as he waits for you, but you pause your routine when you actually begin to think about your relationship with Matt.Â
Itâs been almost three weeks since you started hooking up with Matt, showing up at each other's places whenever youâre in need of sex, getting it over and done with before hanging out properly, before even getting a bite to eat or binge watching a series.Â
You still sleep with Tyler. Youâve even fucked Tyler and Matt on the same day. Matt doesnât care, of course he doesnât, and personally neither do you. But there have been a few moments where you start to recall the amount of times you had chosen Matt over Tyler⌠and it was a lot.Â
You and Matt are supposed to fuck whenever you have no one else to go to. And yet, give the choice⌠you still chose Matt.Â
A loud call of your name and a fist banging against the bathroom door startles you out of your thoughts, âI need to piss. Hurry up!â
âJust come in!â You yell back at him, frowning as you face the stream of water to let the soap run off your body as you mumble, âItâs not like you havenât barged in before.â
You hear the door creak open behind the shower curtain and you poke your head around just in time for Matt to unzip his pants to relieve himself, his head tilting back with a sigh of relief.Â
His eyes meet yours when he turns his head and his brows knit together, giving you an odd look. âWhat?â
âCan I ask you a question?â He blinks before giving you a quick nod. âAre you still fucking other people?â
âYeah,â That answer relieves you a bit. âI was with Sadie last weekend.â
âI have another question.â
âWhy are youââ
âIâm asking the questions,â You cut him off and Matt laughs, nodding for you to continue as he zips up his pants and washes his hands. âHas Sadie, or any other girl, been available on the same day that Iâve been available? Or asked you to come over?â
âUhâŚâ Matt ponders for a moment, bottom lip poking out his deep thought as he dries his hands on a towel. âYeah, I think so.â
âAnd who did you end up choosing?â
âYou.â
It shocks you at how fast he answers your question and you grip the shower curtain for support, the slippery floor of the shower almost making you tumblr. He chose you too⌠is that wrong? Youâre uncertain and it makes you feel a little uneasy. Surely there must be a reasonable explanation to why you choose each other instead of fucking other available people.
âWhy are you asking me that anyway?â
âCurious,â You answer quickly as you close the curtain to block him out and continue showering, ignoring the way heâs mumbling under his breath how strange you are. âWait. I have another question.â
âAsk me when youâre down showering.â
âWhy?â The tone of your voice turns sultry as you smirk, âIs knowing Iâm naked behind this shower curtain turning you on?â
Matt doesnât answer. Instead, his arm shoots out from behind the curtain, hand curling around the faucet tap to turn the temperature of the water, laughing like a maniac as he hears you scream from the cold water that splashes your skin.
You hated birthdays.
Actually, you hated your birthday.Â
You hated knowing youâre getting older each year, desperately wanting to go back to the ages where all you worried about was not making a fool of yourself in front of someone you had a crush on, or not knowing the biggest high school gossip about who was seeing who behind whoeverâs back.
Now, at your growing age, all you worry about is failing college and not being able to get a good enough job to provide a future for yourself.
You wish nobody knew it was your birthday, but having such a close group of groups who knew you better than you knew yourself, it wasnât going to be easy, and you almost spun around and darted out of campus when you saw Chris twirling a gift bag in hand with helium balloons that spelt out âbirthday girl!â in big, bold letters tied to his wrist.Â
âThere she is!â
You wanted the ground to swallow you up.
âHappy birthday!â Chris yells loudly when you reach their circle, letting your backpack drop to the grass beside Tyler who looks up at you with a dopey smile. Chris shoves the gift bag into your hands when you finally sit down, huffing at the weight of the bag. âI bought you something.â
âI told him not to, I promise,â Nick tells you as he applies chapstick before he leans in close, âBut as always, Chris doesnât fucking listen.â
âAnd I never will,â Chris grins, untying the strip of balloons from around his wrist to tie them around your own, ignoring the dark glare you give him as he smiles at you cheekily. âLook inside. Itâs all the essentials you need.â
âI swear to god, if youââ
âShh,â He pressed his finger against your lips. âLess talking, more looking.â
You roll your eyes, swatting his finger away from your face before peering into the bag. A soft, genuine laugh leaves your lips when you first see two bottles of your favourite alcoholic beverage and a few chocolates, but you immediately cease all laughter and amusement when you see a pack of condoms and a Plan B box sandwiched between the pair.Â
Tyler peeks over your shoulder to drop a pre-rolled joint and a few gummies into the bag for later, but makes a funny noise when he sees the condom pack. He dips his hand inside the bag to pull it out, throwing it back at Chris who fumbles to catch it.
âHeyââ
âShe doesnât use condoms.â
Chris gapes, slowly turning his head towards you with widened eyes. He leans forward, nose brushing against yours as he speaks, âAre you sure you donât want to fuck me?â
Nick yells and covers his ears, threatening to punch his youngest sibling in the throat as Nate and Tyler snort.
âPositive,â You giggle and pat his cheek, causing him to whine and slump back into his own space in defeat. âIâm thankful for the gifts, but please⌠you know I hate celebrating my birthday. And were the balloons really necessary too? Did you have to make it more obvious?â
Chris frowns, tugging at the string. âBut the balloons are pretty.â
âShe doesnât like balloons, kid.â
Your head whizzes around so quickly youâre positive you could hear it crack at the speed, a grin spreading across your cheeks when you see Matt standing behind you looking at your balloons in disgust. But your eyebrows raise in surprise when you see Sadie standing beside him.
You greet her with a wave and she reciprocates, wishing you a quiet happy birthday which you thank her for and motioning for them both to join you in your circle, but Sadie shakes her head with an apology, announcing that she has to be somewhere else.
You watch as she places her hand on Mattâs bicep, asking if they can meet up later but Matt shakes his head, telling her that he already has plans and her face deflates for a moment before nodding, bidding him and the rest of you a goodbye before leaving.Â
Matt lets out a huff as he drops down to the grass, stretching out his legs and knocking his foot against yours, mouthing you a quick happy birthday and you smile in gratitude.Â
âSadie seems to be hanging out with you a lot recently,â Nate points out and Nick nods his head in agreement. âYou like her?â
Matt shakes his head, âNo. She was just asking me if I wanted to do something this weekend.â
âAre you?â
âNo,â Matt mindlessly starts plucking the glass, avoiding everyone's eyes as they zone in on him. âI donât have the time. Got some assignments to finish for my classes.â
Hearing him say that he hasnât got the time sparks interest in you, and you begin to wonder if Matt would end up asking you for some well needed release. It excites you, especially when you realise you havenât been under him or on top of him in a few days and you press your thighs together at the thought of possibly getting dicked down sooner rather than later.Â
Itâs a birthday gift, you say to yourself when you try to give an excuse to why youâre so needy to be fucked by Matt. Itâs just a birthday gift⌠yet, you have Tyler right beside you, someone whoâs easily available and someone who used to be frequent in giving you the best birthday sex of your life.
You could ask Tyler to come over tonight, but why wasnât the question being asked? Why does it feel like youâre stopping yourself from asking something so simple and easy?
Perhaps youâre so used to sleeping around with Matt that it doesnât even occur to you to ask someone else anymore. Tyler doesnât seem bothered, maybe because heâs been getting his fix elsewhere too, so why does it bother you?
A quiet call of your name brings you out of your thoughts and you turn your head towards the source, gazing landing on Matt who is looking back at you with a kind smile.Â
He shuffles further into the circle to get closer to you, voice dipping low. âCome home with me later? I have something for you.â
âWhat is it?â You instantly ask back, excitement evident in your tone. Even though you werenât the biggest fan of celebrating your birthday and receiving gifts, there was no doubt in your mind that Matt was probably one of the best people to receive gifts from, knowing he usually goes above and beyond to give you the most memorable birthday.Â
You smile when you remember the three-day spa voucher he gave you last year when he and his brothers had taken you away for the weekend, it was the most breathtaking cabin you had ever been to. The sunset above the lake was still photographed in your memory, so was the midnight drive he took you on when Chris and Nick were sleeping.
The sights were beautiful, and you were grateful to have seen it with your best friend.
âYouâll find out.â Matt tells you with a smile, refusing to give you a hint of any sort as he turns his attention to Nick to engage in a conversation. You pout, shoulders slumping in defeat and Chris knocks his arm against yours, voice teasing as he whispers in your ear;
âLooks like my gifts will come in handy after allâOW!â
âThis is actually fucking ridiculous.â You giggle as youâre blindingly walking into Mattâs dorm, his hands covering your eyes to prevent you from seeing even though youâve tried countless times to peek through the gaps between his fingers.
Mattâs chest rumbles against your back as he laughs, waiting for you to toe off your shoes at the entrance before leading you further into the room.
You have the layout completely mapped out in your head from the amount of times youâve been at his place, already knowing that heâs leading you into the kitchen just by the cold marbling that you feel beneath your feet.Â
You almost trip as Matt shoves you down onto a chair and whispers a countdown in your ears before he removes his hands from your face. Your vision is blurry for a moment and you try to adjust to your surroundings with a few blinks, jaw dropping in complete awe as the splotches begin to disperse and you see whatâs presented in front of you.
âAre you kidding me?â You whisper softly in astonishment at the gifts that are laid out across the table. You spot a few of your favourite scented candles stacked on top of each other, a bottle of perfume that you were one hundred percent certain that was sitting in your wishlist on an online store you were browsing a few days prior, and a miniature bag with the logo of your favourite jewellery store.Â
You feel extremely overwhelmed, the urge to cry becoming harder to keep at bay as your eyes water and string, throat tightening over how thoughtful Matt had been.Â
You turn your head towards him with your bottom lip quivering and Matt snickers, pulling a party hat from god knows where and advancing closer to you.
âYou assholeâŚâ You insult jokingly, using the sleeves of your shirt to wipe at your eyes, hoping that the tears wouldnât dare fall as Matt secures the hat on top of your head. You point to it, âIsnât this a little cheesy?â
Matt rolls his eyes, snapping the elastic band against your chin for extra measure and you hiss at the slight sting it causes, punching his arm in retaliation but he pays no mind, smiling to himself as he turns his back to you for a moment to open the refrigerator door, pulling out a white squared box.
He balances it on the palm of his hand with ease, using his foot to kick the door shut as he makes his way back to you.Â
Youâre grinning widely at the thought of what could be inside the box, even though youâve already guessed itâs a cake. Your hands rub together excitingly as Matt places it on the counter and gently slides it over to you, the box still in his grasp as it stops in front of you, drumming his fingers on the cardboard.Â
Sensing your eagerness, Matt lifts the lid off of the box and the excitement on your face drops almost instantly, expressionless as you peek inside to see the miniature spongebob themed cake staring back at you.
You raise your head to see Matt already grinning at you, tongue poking at his cheek as he opens up a drawer to retrieve two plastic forks, twiddling them between his fingers.
You deadpan, âAre you sure weâre not celebrating your birthday right now?â
âBe quiet, you like spongebob just as much as I do,â Matt scoffs as he hands over one of the plastic forks and you take it with a smile. You go to cut out a piece for yourself but freeze when Matt makes a weird noise, gazing up at him in alarm. âWait. Hold onâmy godâlet me take a photo first.â
You roll your eyes but happily oblige as Matt fishes his phone out of his pocket and angles it towards you. You pose, pointing to the cake with a wide smile, almost blinded by the flash when Matt takes the picture and you immediately rub at your eyes, trying to get rid of the blotches while spitting a few creative curse words that make him giggle.
He quickly takes the opportunity of you being blinded to slide beside you, holding his phone high to take a selfie and you poke out your tongue, using your free hand to cup Mattâs cheeks while he rests his on top of your head.Â
Before you have the chance to complain about how hungry you are, you gasp in shock when you feel the coldness of the cakeâs frosting rubbed on your cheek and the shutter of the camera goes off when Matt takes another photo, capturing you mid chaos as you dig your fingers into the side of the cake to smush a piece against his own cheek, grinning evilly as the yellow frosting covers his skin.Â
âAlright, alright. I deserved that,â Matt sighs with a lighthearted laugh, making sure his phone is tucked away and out of the icing zone. âMakes a good blackmail photo though, donât you think?â
âIf that goes anywhere, I will kill you.â
âYou already know thatâs going on my Instagram, sweetheart.â Matt teases you and you scoff jokingly, shaking your head as you reach for the napkins that are laying conveniently at the side, trying your best to wipe away the frosting before it drops and stains your clothing.Â
Matt manages to clean himself up pretty easily and decides to help you out when he notices you struggling, plucking a spare napkin from the pile and he takes a hold of your jaw, facing your towards him as he gently wipes at your cheek, careful not to rub too hard at your skin.Â
Youâre suddenly awkward of the close proximity and you grow silent, watching as you cleans you up diligently. The concentrated look on his face is what causes your stomach to whirl and heart bloom with warmth, his eyebrows furrowed and gaze zoned in on the area he needs to clean, tongue licking over his bottom lip.
âMattâŚâ You call out his name quietly to grab his attention and he pauses, staring right at you. He seems to slowly take notice of how close you both are, taking in the limited space between you both and he goes to remove his hand away from your face but stops himself short with a noise, bringing his hand back to finish the job.
âHappy birthday, sweetheart.â Matt whispers to you once he finally wipes away the frosting from your cheeks, smiling down at you with adoration swirling in his eyes and your breathing gets caught at the back of your throat for a moment at the sudden affectionate gaze, unsure of what to say or even what to do with him looking at you the way he is.
Your hands move up to take the birthday hat off of your head, dropping it to the side carelessly as your arms curl around his shoulders, pulling him into your embrace. Mattâs arms slide around your waist, holding you close to his chest as he hugs you back, burying his face in the crevice of your neck and exhaling deeply.
âIâm so thankful,â You admit, squeezing him tight as the emotions within you struggle to be contained. âFor real, Matt. Iâm really grateful too⌠thank you for making this birthday special again.â
âItâs not over yet, you knowâŚâ Your hear him mutter in your ear and you go to pull back, to question him on what more he could possibly give to top everything else heâs down for today but heâs already bending his knees, arms falling low to lock around your thighs and throwing you over his shoulder with a huff, smacking his hand roughly against your ass as he carries your giggly self to the bedroom.Â
Friday nights will always be your favourite nights to let loose and party.
Dressing up in your prettiest outfit that makes you feel confident and sexy, decorating your body with the shiniest of jewellery you own and drinking the most intoxicated drink you could find while mingling with your friends.
Talking with your girls face to face after a week of classes had unfailingly lifted your mood, catching up with all the gossip you missed or only briefly discussed over the phone, finally adding your own two cents into situations which they eagerly agree with a nod of their heads, tapping their cups to yours before taking a sip.Â
âSpeaking of unusual relationships,â Sarah, one of your dearest friends, turns to look at you with a grin, âHow's it going with you and Matt? Have things turned awkward yet?â
âNope,â You shake your head, buzzing happily. âWeâre fine. The whole âhooking up with your best friendâ culture isnât as complicated as everyone makes it out to be. Everyone gets dramatic about it for no reason.â
Kendall lets out a heavy sigh, nursing her drink in her hand, âI donât know how you do it. I canât even imagine hooking up with Isaac. I mean, heâs attractive, but weâve seen and know too much about each other to get physical on an intimate level⌠props to you.â
Anna shifts her gaze to you next, âDo you still fuck Tyler?â
âOn occasion,â You admit. âBut honestly, Iâve been so wrapped up in assignmentsââ
âAnd Matt.â
You give Sarah a smirk, âI havenât really had the time to call up Tyler and ask him to fuck. He doesnât mind anyways. Heâs been busy smoking and selling weed for some extra cash.â
âWhat about Matt? Is he still fucking around?â
You pause at that, lips pursing in deep thought before you shrug your shoulders, âI donât know. I havenât asked recently if Iâm honest.â
Kendall gestures over your shoulder, âLooks like youâre about to find out the answer.â
You crane your neck to follow the direction sheâs pointing in, noticing Matt standing near a back wall with a drink in hand, deep in conversation with Sadie whoâs smiling, locked on each word heâs speaking to her.
Feeling your eyes on him, Matt looks up to meet your gaze, raising his drink in greeting and you grin, lifting your own cup before he resumes back in conversation.
You take in his appearance with interest; a black fitted tank top paired with some loose fitted jeans and shoes youâre certain he definitely stole from Nickâs closet. The silver chain deer hangs from his neck and silver rings adorn his fingers. You wouldnât admit it out loud, but he looks good.
âTake it easy with the lovey dovey eyes,â Sarah teases, nudging your shoulder to bring your attention back to her and you laugh, tipping your head back to finish the contents of your drink. âHe does look good though, so I donât blame you.â
âWhen was the last time you fucked Matt?â You direct your question towards Anna who shrugs her shoulders in response.Â
âI donât remember,â She smacks her lips together. âDefinitely more than two months ago, thatâs for sure⌠No disrespect to you but god, I miss his cock. How he walks around with that thing completely baffles me.â
Kendallâs eyes widened slightly, âIs Mattâs cock big?â
âYes.â
You and Anna share a knowing smile and high give each other. You drone out the complaints Kendall makes about wanting to fuck someone with a big cock and how Isaac always sets her up with people who are both shitty in bed and lack personality, you being too focused on looking around the room to find a clear path to get more drinks and you dismiss yourself from your girls for a moment as you spot Nick and Tyler pouring vodka into each others cups.
You bound over to your favourite boys, throwing your arms around their shoulders and startling them with your presence, but Tyler hazily smiles you when he sees itâs you and presses a chaste kiss to your temple as Nick hugs you tight in greeting, offering to fill up your cup which you happily give him.
âWhere have you been?â Nick asks you as Tyler takes your hand in his to twirl your around, whistling as he eyes your dress. âYou look pretty.â
âCatching up with my girls because I spend way too much time with you guys,â You explain, but cheesily grin at the compliment you received on your outfit. Nick hands you your filled drink and you thank him, taking a quick sip as your eyes glance around the room, âWhereâs the rest of the guys?â
âChris is around here somewhere trying to get laid and Nate is talking to this girl he likes from his classes,â Nick informs you before he laughs. âMattâs been talking with Sadie for the past hourâ-sweet girl is trying to make her move.â
âAnd why arenât you showing off your charms tonight?â
Nickâs face immediately drops, âPlease. Iâm done with boys. All they make me feel is absolute regret and disappointment.â
You smile in sympathy, âYouâre looking at the wrong guys.â
âNo,â Nick shakes his head. âTheyâre all the same. Everyone of them. Disgusting.â
You loop your arm around his, tugging him into your side, âWhat if I introduce you to this guy in my class? Heâs tall⌠handsome⌠sweetâŚâ
Nick eyes you, clearly interested in what youâre telling him and he holds his head high, âMaybe.â
âWhat are you talking about?â
âChris!â You greet him happily as he appears beside Tyler, staring at you all with a confused look but grins when you throw yourself into his arms to hug him tightly, swaying you both back and forth. âI thought you were trying to get laid?â
âI was,â Chris sighs as he pulls away from the hug, but keeps an arm wrapped around your middle. âBut she has a boyfriend and heâs, like, scary looking and I didnât feel like getting nightmares for life.â
You frown, patting his shoulder. âWhat a shame. The dry spell continues for you.â
Chris leans into your touch, batting his eyelashes prettily at you with a smirk, âYou can change that for me if you want.â
Nick fake gags behind you as you smile, âIn your dreams.â
Chris sighs jokingly, dropping his head low. âGuess Iâll keep on dreaming then.â
âDreaming about what?â
The sound of Mattâs voice has you spinning around, beaming happily as your eyes meet his but it falters slightly when you notice the fake smile heâs sporting, wanting to question him and ask him whatâs wrong but you bite your tongue, not wanting to bring attention to the subject, knowing itâll make Matt uncomfortable putting him on the spot.Â
You reach out and touch his arm, giving him a comforting squeeze which makes him seem to relax, using your grip on him to tug your into his side and for Chrisâ arm to slip from your waist.
âChris is saying weird ass shit about her again,â Nick fills Matt in, wafting the smoke that Tyler blows in his face teasingly when he takes a hit of his joint. âHowâs Sadie?â
âFine,â Matt replies simply, licking at his lips as he turns to you. âDo you want to get out of here? Just me and you?â
Chris immediately takes offence to that, âWhat about us? What are you going to do without us?!â
Matt goes to answer but Nick immediately raises his hand, silencing him. âDonât answer that. Just donât.â
Youâre in complete bliss with Matt holding himself above you, your back is arched, bare chest pressed to his as he nips and licks at your neck, his hips lazily grinding into yours, cock hitting deeper than heâs ever been.
The pace is slow, something that youâre not used to when it comes to Matt, but you donât find the voice within you to complain, enjoying it a lot more than youâd admit with your fingers tangled in his hair, cries spilling from your lips with your legs hooked over his waist.
Heâs grunting in the crevice of your neck with each deep thrust, one hand caressing the side of your face while the other finds a place beside your head, holding up his weight.
Youâre whining from the loss of contact when he moves his head away, missing the feeling of his teeth against your skin, the slight stubble scratching your face and you look up at him pleadingly, but heâs frozen as he stares down at you, despite his hips thrusting automatically into you.Â
âFuck, sweetheart, youâre so prettyâŚâ You barely hear him mumble and your heart pounds against your ribcage at the complement, body feeling more heated and warm.
âMattââ
He cuts off your words by planting his lips on yours with the most sweetest and softest kiss heâs ever given you, and you melt into the touch, fingers untangling from his hair to cup his cheeks in your palms, gasping through the kiss as Matt's cock cock slowly pulls out of your pussy before pushing back in, sending a shrill up your spine.Â
The band in your tummy tightens with each slow but powerful thrust he gives you, thighs shaking around his frame, unable to keep up with his kisses as your mouth falls open with short gasps and whines, white specks flickering in your vision as your feel yourself inching closer and closer over the edge.
âCum,â Matt whispers, breath fanning over your face as he pants, âDo it. Cum on my cock.â
You wail as the band snaps, orgasm crashing down on you violently. Your body convulses, pussy squeezing around his cock, keeping him buried deep which has him moaning, his own hips stuttering as he cums. You feel him pulse inside you, filling you up with everything he gives.
Mattâs head slumps down on your shoulder as you try to steady your breathing, wincing as you feel him slowly move his hips back to pull his cock out of your sensitive cunt, your hand falling from his face to drop down at your pussy, gathering his cum that pools out onto your fingers.
âIâm sorry,â Matt apologises against your skin, âIâm sorry, Iâshit. I shouldâve asked if I couldâfuck. I got too overwhelmed. Iâm sorry.â
âItâs kind of cute that youâre apologising,â You admit, gently pushing him off of your body to sit upright. âBut you donât need to apologise⌠this isnât the first time you came inside me, Matt.â
âI know,â Matt runs his fingers through his sweaty hair. âI usually ask...â
âMatt. Itâs fine,â You reassured him, placing your palm on his bicep. âIâll forgive you a thousand times more if you help clean me up though.â
Matt smiles and nods his head as he slips off the bed, disappearing out of the room for a moment and returning with a wet towel. He sits between your parted legs, gently cleaning up the mess, whispering apologies and apologies every time you wince when he presses down on sensitive areas, thighs closing around his hand which he carefully pries open to resume his job.Â
You sit in silence, watching him, frowning at the troubled look you see on his face, not used to seeing Matt being so closed off with his feelings and emotions, especially towards you. He hasnât been open and honest with you in the past few weeks, he hasnât come to you and asked for your reassurance or help.Â
It makes you feel a little bit defeated.Â
Something is different, and you struggle to pinpoint what it is.
The questions lay on the tip of your tongue, desperate to be brought to light and asked, and even more desperate to get the answers youâve been craving. Your relationship with Matt has changed since the proposition youâve made about sleeping together, but heâs still your best friend.
âWhatâs going on?â You finally ask and Matt freezes, fingers clutching the wet towel in his grasp tightly. âAnd please donât lie to me⌠I can tell when youâre being truthful or notââ
âWhat am I to you?â Matt suddenly asks and youâre a little thrown off at your question being answered with his own question. He takes his hand away completely as you blink at him, feeling confused. âEven with all this going on⌠what am I to you?â
âYouâre my best friend?â
Matt seems to frown deeply at that, âSo nothing has changed? At all? Even with us sleeping together? Iâm still your best friend?â
âWhâof course!â Youâre baffled, assuming that with the way Matt is speaking about your situationship, that he is worried that you have gained some negative feelings towards him. It hurts you, and youâre eager to reassure him, to let him know that everything is okay. âMatt, youâll always be my best friend. We promised nothing would change, right? Iâm keeping that promise.â
Matt closes his eyes as his shoulders sink in defeat, âIâŚâ He drops his head with a sigh. âI canât do this anymore.â
You bring your knees up to your chest, âDo what?â
âThis,â He gestures between the two of you. âI just⌠I canât. Not anymore. I canât continue sleeping with you.â
âOh.â You swallow thickly, feeling something heavy weighing in your throat. âWhy?â
âThings have changed,â His voice is quieter now and it makes your heart shatter at the tone. Does he hate you? âI canât continue whatever this is and be your best friend at the same time, it has to stop. Itââ Matt sighs, rubbing at his forehead. âIâm sorry.â
âItâs fine,â You mutter as your chin rests on your knees, hugging your legs closer to your chest to cover your modesty. You refuse to even look at him now, finding interest in the sheets below you as your throat tightens up more, feeling sick at the thought of him hating you so much that he canât even continue sleeping with you. âIâm sorry too. I donât know what I did to make you hate me, but Iââ
âWait what?â
ââIâm just so sorry. Especially if I came across too forward and for putting you in such a position, I know you were so hesitant about this in the direct place.â Youâre babbling now, unable to take control of yourself due to the overwhelming feeling that washed over you. âIâm so fucking sorry, Matt.â
âWait⌠I donâtââ
âCan we not tell the others right now?â You raise your head to meet his eyes this time. Heâs looking straight at you, confusion and disbelief swimming in his irises but you ignore it, chewing the inner skin of your cheek. âMostly Nick. I donât really want to hear him laugh in our faces and give us the whole âI told you soâ speech he threatened us with at the start.â
Matt calls out your name and extends his hand to touch you, but youâre already climbing off of the bed, searching around for your underwear and dress that was thrown across the room earlier.
Youâre too embarrassed to continue on with the conversation, to ask him what exactly you did to make him grow to hate you so suddenly. Truthfully, you didnât really want to dwell on it too much, the pain of losing someone like Matt already making your heart ache.Â
You just wanted to go homeâto be in the comfort of your own bed and curse yourself out, and probably cry to the point you might just forget everything that just happened. You are feeling a little teary, but you wouldnât dare cry in front of Matt right now.Â
âIâll, uh, see you around or something,â You sniffle, shoving the heels onto your feet and casting one final look his way. âIâm sorry.â
Itâs been almost two weeks since your last encounter with Matt.
You shouldnât be avoiding him like you are. Itâs childish, you know that. But you canât force yourself to face someone who used to be your best friend and now seemingly hates your guts.
Maybe you shouldâve waited a few more minutes, to give him enough time to explain the entire situation and how he was feeling but you were selfish, you didnât want to hear him explain in full detail what you had done to make him change his feelings towards you so negatively.Â
You miss him. Of course you miss him. For years heâs been your best friendâyour other half, more like. There was no you without Matt and vice versa. You werenât exactly sure on how you could continue moving on without Matt by your side, as dramatic as it sounds⌠but youâve always been a little dramatic.Â
His brothers, Nate and Tyler have been blowing up your phoneâ-courtesy of you ignoring them too, not wanting to hear Nick rub it in your face on how the âfriends with benefits bullshitâ you had with Matt actually did go to shit. You also didnât want to hear the others continuously ask questions about what happened and what had changed.Â
Even your roommate, someone who keeps herself out of your business and hardly ever bothers you, had cornered you one morning at breakfast, asking why you looked so glum and why the âshirtless and tattooed Boston fuckboyâ wasnât joining you both anymore.
Youâre not the type to let anyone know your worries, so youâre surprised when you find yourself explaining to your roommate about what happened in full detail.
She gave you an unimpressed look, calling you a little stupid for not staying behind and listening despite you letting it be known that you couldnât bear to listen to why his feelings turned negative towards you. Your face twisted and turned, offended by her harsh words but you allowed yourself to let her talk and not interrupt even though you desperately wanted to.
âYou jumped to your own conclusion,â She told you when she was collecting the dishes. âYou know, for two close best friends who talk to each other every second of the day, you have some major miscommunication issues.â
So, thatâs what leads you to now; you sitting alone in the living room with your phone in hand, staring down at yours and Mattâs chat with your thumb between your teeth, biting down on the skin anxiously as you try to figure out how to start a conversation, to let him know youâre ready to listen.
from you: i think we should talkâŚ.
from matt: good because im almost at your house anyway. I had to go get something.
from you: ???? u coming over
from matt: yes
from matt: i was going to make you listen to me
from matt: its kinda important kid.Â
You snort at his message, sending a quick thumbs up emoji before throwing your phone to the side, awaiting his arrival. Your leg nervously shakes in the corner of your vision and your eyebrows knit together, placing your hand down on your knee and squeezing tight.
As if that will stop you from being nervous.Â
Youâre about to hear the reasoning behind why Matt's feelings had changed for you so negatively, nothing can prepare you for it.Â
Just bite the bullet. Take it like a champ.
The rapid knocking on the door rips you out of your thoughts and your head slowly turns with a confused look sketched upon your features. Was that Matt? Matt never knocksâhe freely walks in like itâs his own place usually, always making himself at home.
You push yourself up from the couch and make your way towards the front door, taking a peek through the peephole to see Mattâs form, teeth nibbling at his bottom lip with his hands behind his back, swaying back and forth nervously. You grow even more confused and concerned, pulling open your door to face him fully.
âWhy did you knockââ
âHate you?!â Matt suddenly cuts you off with a shout, startling you with the loudness of his tone. His eyes are wide as he stares at you, full of disbelief. âHate you, Iâfuckâhow could I hate you?! Iâd never hate you⌠god, youâre so frustrating sometimes.â
Your lips quirk upwards, âNice to see you too?â
âI donât hate you. At all. When I told you that things have changed, I didnât mean anything bad by it⌠I pretty much meant the oppositeâŚâ Mattâs words trail off and before you can even get the chance to ask him to explain exactly what he means, air gets caught at the back of your throat and you struggle to speak as he pulls his hands from behind his back; a bag of candy in one and a handful of ripped up flowers in the other. Your heart thumps rapidly. âIâm going to tell you something and I just⌠I need you to listen to me.â
You barely whisper, âOkay.â
âBeing in this friends with benefits relationship with you was not as easy as I thought it would be,â Matt tells you, his honesty making you pull your attention away from the gifts in his hands to meet his gaze. âWe promised each other that weâre not going to involve any titles to make it complicated for us⌠yet here I am, standing in front of you with the same candy and flowers in my hand from when we first met, about to confess my fucking feelings to you, Iâm soââ
âYouâre rambling.â You cut him off, a smile creeping onto your lips.
âYeah, of course I am,â Matt laughs at himself, shaking his head as he awkwardly scratches the back of his neck before he straightens out, keeping his eyes on yours. âI fell for you. Hard. I think I sort of realised it on your birthday but I didnât want to say anything just in case whatever I was feeling wasnât what I thought it was⌠but when we were at that party and I saw you from across the room, talking with your friends, I realised how much I actually do fucking like you and that it wasnât just my dick talking.â
You snort as you repeat, âDick talking.â
âShut up,â Matt smiles at you, his own laugh fleeting past his lips before he sighs, âI like you. Iâm falling in love with you, and I get it if you want to reject me because of how fucking weird this whole thing turned out⌠but I would actually like to continue being with you, not just as a best friend but as your boyfriend.â
Youâre too busy repeating his confession in your head to notice that Matt is waiting for an answer, bottom lips tucked between his teeth as he bites down nervously, visibly shaking out of excitement or fear due to the fact he just confessed his entire feelingsâyou werenât sure which one was right.
The silence from you kills Matt and his face drops when you step forward to quietly take the flowers and candies out of his hands, taking a step back inside your house. His shoulders slump in defeat, taking your nonverbal response as a rejection to his proposal of him being your boyfriend.
He goes to turn around, to get the fuck off your doorstep and drive home, hoping that the intense embarrassment he feels coursing through his veins is enough to make him disappear.
But he freezes mid escape when he hears the rustling of you ripping open the pack of candies, spinning around to see you looking at him with the prettiest smile.
He watches, heart thumping wildly, stomach fluttering with nervousness and excitement as you extend your arm out, angling the bag in his direction and a grin spreads across his face, unable to control the happiness that bursts from within.
Youâre giving him a treat, youâve giving him a relationship.
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