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[wolfdrag666on]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

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a stud in black leather on a black motorcycle just revved their engine at me and thank god I tore my demonic uterus out ages ago because I think that would have finally knocked me up

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in my head the star wars equivalent of tswift is some human woman named tay’lor spiff or something and her stans are losing their minds over theories that she’s secretly a jedi singing about the horrors of war, even though she’s from a neutral system that hasn’t seen so much as a moral panic in 50 years

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self indulgence knows no limit...

i recently bought myself halo master chief's collection, and now I'm irrationally sad abt Halo: Reach's ending. i cried. anyhow, I'm already writing a fic to make myself feel better abt it, while also drawing stuff like this.

#drawing #art #artwork #fanart #halo master chief #halo infinite #halo fanart #halo spartan #halo oc #halo: reach #halo noble six #noble six #? #halo

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that ⬆️⬆️⬆️ is old as fuck. so i thought that a redraw couldn't hurt, right? here we go.

Whoops, I accidentally made short comic... Was this done already?

#drawing #sketch #artwork #art #fanart #undertale #errortale #error sans #cross sans #nightmare sans #horrortale #horror sans #undertale au

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istg that one day, my art will be consistent. one day. not today tho, but still, have a cod mw2 fanart.

also, side quest from the main drawing

#drawing #art #artwork #fanart #simon ghost riley #cod mw2 #call of duty #call of duty mw2 #cod mw2 fanart #john soap mactavish

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i have been given far too much power, god has nerfed me with so many mental illnesses, and yet....

I am an artist. I can create. Things, things undreamed of before. Nightmares and sweetest of dreams alike.

Or just gay shit with religious subtext.

Either way...

under the cut is mildly suggestive, but nothing explicit.

#drawing #art #artwork #sketch #my oc art #original character #gay men #religion #mildly suggestive

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#clone #because that means that somewhere is my original #who was it #what were they like #were they like me #did they make me themself or were they just a template? #(were they a willing one?) #so many questions #are they trans like me?

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sketching practice ended up like this, and I only have myself to blame.

in other words

characters with helmets

full-body armor? yeah, that's the sexiest thing i've ever witnessed

this ^ is what the canvas looked like just before i got to work...

#drawing #art #artwork #fanart #sketch #bloodborne fanart #bloodborne #bloodborne alfred #dark souls fanart #dark souls #dark souls solaire #solaire of astora #oscar of astora #anri of astora #halo #halo master chief #warhammer fanart #warhammer space marine #space marines #siegward of catarina #dark souls siegward #sieglinde of catarina #siegmeyer of catarina #the mandalorian #mandalorian #doom slayer #doomguy #doom fanart #alfred the executioner

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doodles from school

it has occurred to me that i . might've gained a new obsession.. . .

#drawing #art #artwork #fanart #sketch #warhammer 40000 #warhammer 40k #warhammer fanart #alpha legion #warhammer alpha legion #fulgrim #warhammer fulgrim #primarch #nurgle #warhammer chaos #warhammer chaos marine #death guard #raven guard #raven guard marine #space marines #space marine #alpharius #alpharius omegon

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have a terrible fucking thing i made for my insta account.

needless to note: I can't edit videos for the life of me.

#drawing #art #artwork #fanart #original character #warhammer 40k #warhammer 40000 #warhammer meme #adeptus mechanicus #warhammer fantasy #warhammer memes

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doomguy vs doomslayer - sort of study.

i mean. the doomguy "phase", he looks like a normal human, who goes to gym regularly. he looks buff, okay, but still human.

when we get to the point where he's called doomslayer, however, he is already beyond human. how can u tell, u ask? by those big asf guns. and i'm not talking abt BFG

#drawing #art #artwork #fanart #sketch #doom #doom eternal #doom slayer #doomguy #doom guy #doom fanart #doom art #doom game

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site that you can type in the definition of a word and get the word

site for when you can only remember part of a word/its definition 

site that gives you words that rhyme with a word

site that gives you synonyms and antonyms

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Aces and aros included; if you don't fuck then love and the same in reverse

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"Good sir Alfred, I'd be most grateful if my hat was returned to me before it stretches out."

"I know not what you are talking about, my friend! Besides, leather doesn't stretch out, does it?"

#drawing #art #artwork #fanart #sketch #hunter bloodborne #bloodborne fanart #bloodborne hunter #the good hunter #hunter #alfred the executioner #bloodborne alfred #i guess it can be read as #alfred x hunter #bloodborne

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just a quick sketch from my german book, cuz there was like half a page empty.

Jango and Boba, doing a same face/expression

considering the fact that i made their faces from memory (and boy do i have shitty memory), it looks okay-ish

#jango fett #boba fett #star wars #the clone wars #i headcanon that boba just kinda tries to mimic any and all expressions he sees on Jango's face #artwork #fanart #star wars fanart #star wars boba fett #star wars jango fett #drawing #art #sketch