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Almost 200 people were murdered in Armenia in 3 days and y'all are still ignoring us.

This is not a war, this is a massacre Azerbaijan and Turkey are committing against the Armenian people.

Turkey's president literally admitted that he wants to finish what his ancestors started. He wants to commit another genocide, and this time he wants to kill us all.

Silence is violence

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stg my brother is a cryptid

he bangs on my door, it slowly creaks open; he is standing perfectly straight, his arm outstretched, holding my sleeping pills (which he went and got i v appreciate much thank), drops them at my feet (i am laying on the floor. says nothing. walks away, an extremely intense look on his face. the meds bearer hast given me mine gifts and now i can sleep, thank you med bearer

i hear scuttling down the stairs at 4 am. i know who it is. he craves the snaccs. the hallway light turns on. i dare not exit my room

it is midnight. he scuttles. i hear water. i know not to use any water in the house for the next three whole ass hours (why he shower so long??? why??)

every fucking time i walk into a room and hes just standing there, minding his own business, i shriek like i saw the ghost of my great aunt meredith who died tragically of consumption. but no, tis not margaret, it is in fact b r o t h e r. hes eating pizza. he is annoyed that i fear so hard. (i am also annoyed i fear so hard)

the above has never happened with anyone else, not even my cat (except that one time i got scared of my reflection in a bowl in a dark room but we dont talk abiut that)

#not music #not band #not flute #sleep deprivation #high on sleep deprivation #cause i rAN out of my dRUgS (i am a fool and i mever call in prescriptions on tome) #apologies to my brother #hes actually pretty chill lately #he stopped with the emotional abuse! #personal

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i have lain in the same bed, wide awake, for almost twenty four hours. longer if we add in my nightmare fueled sleep. i have not eaten, i have not drank (drunk? drinked? fuck englosh), i hast not pissed. i am wasting. i feel my body burning in its perpetual decay

man, chronic pain and chronic fatigue do crazy fucking things.

#chronic illness #chronic pain #quarantine #covid 19 #socialdistancing #chronic fatigue #life is kicking my ass and beating me over the head w a chair right now #please excuse whatever the fuck this was

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why must existence taketh my spoooooons

#chronic illness #chronic pain #spoonie #spoon theory #fuck it

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word to the wise: maybe dont try to bike to the store when you cant walk in a straight line.

why am i allowed to own any type of transportation?

#common sense #i'm a disaster #i'm a fool #chronic pain #chronic illness #maybe pots who really knows

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Reasons why I am a glowstick:

1: My skin turns weird colors

2: When I move everything cracks and pops

3: Bendy

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id say a kookaburra, or maybe a magpie :)

i was wondering if u could draw ur favorite bird? (like animal bird not hero bird) my favorite bird is a tie between chickadees and waxwings! (im a bird enthusiast, and i absolutely adore ur art style) :)

Thank you! I wanna answer but I don’t know what it looks like? I hear it a lot but I don’t think I’ve ever seen it? The only thing I know is it makes a very distinct sound, kind of like: “agugh agugh agugh.” Maybe you could help me identify it?

#birds #birbs

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we have fun here.

at least three friends of mine are in hospital

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gas leak snap chronicles yee yee

my school is fun. want a boring day? well guess whos gonna be in quarantine from 1000 to 1400? your shit school

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my school is fun. want a boring day? well guess whos gonna be in quarantine from 1000 to 1400? your shit school

#high school #fuck me #i love my school #gas leak #four hours in a middle school #i havent eaten all day #honestly kill me

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fuck... i have like 0.5

No gay has all 5:

- A job

- Good relationship with father

- Neurotypical brain

- Ability to top

- Driver’s license

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hey yall, so, ignoring the fact i barely post anymore, i need some help.

some background info; im a sophomore in high school, i have severe anxiety, depression, paranoia and insomnia, and sensory issues, like as close to debilitating without quite crossing the line as possible, i had an ungodly amount of mental health crises last year, i had a severe panic attack on saturday and another on monday, and on monday i managed to wheedle my generally insensitive and willfully ignorant mother into allowing me my second mental health day of the year, which, btw, is already a quarter done with, and now she is harping in me about not making this a pattern and how she is suspicious of how helpful this actually is.

now, after a panic attack as absolutely massive as the two i recently had, the only thing i have thus far found that really helps is multiple hours in a dark room, surrounded by soft things, unbothered by people or noise. that ain't fucking possible at school. so i need to stay home on those days. and she has seen the goddamn consequences of me attempting to go, or actually going. it is the farthest from pretty.

so i need to express to her, my therapist, and maybe even my school guidance counselor (although i am skeptical as to whether anything could possibly make her believe me on this) that i genuinely need to stay home for like a day or two each term. any advice on how to get them to pull their heads out of their respective asses and listen to me communicating my needs?

#not band #not flute #not music #personal #anxiety #depression #paranoia #sensory overload #stimming #honestly kill me #high school #high school is hell

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i laughed so hard i think im dying

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holy shit! thats fucking amazing! all the parts sound so good together and you really captured the feeling of a bustling marketplace

what score writing program did you use?

latest major piece is out now on my yt channel y'all should check it out

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im getting annoyed

we're doing a stupid group exercise about native american tribes, and mrs murphy had us say things we know about native life, and i have qualms

1- the questions too broad. as i will keep saying until i die, theres no such thing as pan-indian, so you need to narrow it the fuck down, and dont mix and match this shit thats not how this works

2- my classmates have such incorrect, vaguely racist assumptions, and mrs murphy just accepts it as fact, like bitch no, they didnt and dont "worship animals" thats not really what their practices were at all and no, they didnt all live in teepees, thats the nomadic tribes of the plains. i dont expect yall to be experts, but try a little harder. also, i hear someone call native culture primitive one more time and i will throw so many hands

3- every two fucking seconds she uses a past tense verb. bitch im right here. bitch the tribes are still thriving, if somewhat subjugated and relegated to reservations, and certainly marginalized. i assure you the entirety of native american tribes didnt magically die out while we were sleeping

"where did these tribes live, how did these tribes operate, what was their religion"

why not ask the still living member of the tribes since, ya know, its not ancient greece, theyre still fucking kicking

#not band #not flute #not music #personal #native american #history #im mad

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me not doing great at harmonics to keep my mind off of the heat :)

#flute #flutist #flautist #practice #finally practicing

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barber of seville, my fave piece of this concert by far