I recorded this this morning, remembering my little companion, everything he had experienced and what he still had to experience. This is what it feels like to be heartbroken, to feel like your heart wants to leave your body while you fantasize about how this will stop. Many people believe that the heart has nothing to do with love and feelings, but this shows that yes, it has much more than that. The acceleration and pang of pain when receiving the worst news that someone can receive, having to say goodbye to the most precious being in the world, among other things.😪 It seemed good to me to transform this pain into something good, something that another person can see beyond the loss, the importance of heartbeats even if sometimes we wish they would end.
After the breath play that had her in the low 40s earlier today...I thought that it might be a good idea encourage her to beat a bit faster... 155 beats to be exact. If you don't like breathing noises I would recommend giving this one a miss.
We've all heard how my little heart used to react to exercise. Well I've been treating her kindly and now she's a bit more used to it...Today we warmed up and did a bit of recovery run.. she climbed but was fairly well behaved. I was feeling fine... so I slowly increased the speed and until she broke the 190s. I was feeling it and knew if I did a last min sprint I could get her over the 192 which was the highest I had recorded. Speed up slightly, incline to 3... this was enough to push her to 196! The highest I had ever seen her beat.
What you are hearing is the 5 min recovery afterwards. I really struggled with this one. You can tell that even up the end I was struggling to control my breathing. But my little girl pounded strongly, exceeding all expectations and hearing her recover reminds me why I love her and other hearts.
A word that means so much to my delicate heart, my heart beats for the endless taste of love. Sweet like brown sugar melting on my tongue, dissolving with every echoing whisper in my ear, hearing “i love you” till dawn.