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five-miles-over · 2 years

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Can you write a one-shot about Yandere Jaguar Tom when he became obsessed with an innocent woman and starting to stalking her sending her gift and flowers, the woman tried to explain that she is not interested in him, but Tom doesn't listen to her and one day he became tired to just stalking her, what do you think?

Thanks for the request, and thank you for your patience

All I Long For, All I Worship and Adore

Pairing: Yandere Jaguar!Tom Hiddleston x Reader

Warnings: stalking, brief mention of drugging, obsession, kidnapping

As soon as the engines came to a halt, you exited the train and briskly walked towards a small bistro. Located on Great Suffolk Street, it was one of your favorite spots in London. In your mind, there was no better place to be on a Friday evening.

Much to your relief, the place wasn't terribly crowded, and you were able to find a table within minutes of entering. You removed your coat to reveal a pretty navy dress that perfectly suited your body type, and smoothed your hair with your fingers.

"Good evening, madam." A waiter - bearing an accent distinct to Essex - handed you a menu.

You glanced at it for a moment, and then gently handed it back to him. "Thank you, I think I'll go with my usual. Pan-fried prawns with no coriander, and chips please. Curry on the side."

"Of course, madam."

Strange, you thought to yourself. He never asked you for your drink order. No worries, perhaps he would return after some time. And if not, then you would tell him when he brought your food.

With small sigh, you rested your head upon your hand. Throughout the week, you had wanted nothing more than to escape your home for a little while. The same home, which you'd lovingly decorated and furnished into a sanctuary, was now turning into the setting of a nightmare.

It had actually began two months ago, with anonymous letters arriving at your doorstep. They were love sonnets at first, some of them extremely familiar to you. One of them read,

"Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?

Thou art more lovely and more temperate

Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,

And summer’s lease hath all too short a date."

And you actually loved them; no one had ever made you feel so beautiful inside. Some of the letters, though, were too…intimate for your liking.

"My sweet darling,

There is simply no perfect way for me to eloquently convey my feelings for you, please forgive me for being so forward with you.

I love you, my precious flower. I love you more than Cupid loves Psyche, more than Apollo loved Daphne, and far more than King Arthur loved Queen Guinevere.

From the moment I saw you on your way home, exactly twenty days before today, I knew that my heart belonged to you and no one else. I cannot stop thinking about you day and night. I think about your beauty and your sweetness, about how you are truly made for me.

You have made me feel a love more beautiful and powerful than anything I have ever read or felt before. Perfect you are indeed, my lovely starlight.

And for months now, I have watched your every move - my eyes seem to always find you, I cannot help it - and I find myself each time admiring your numerous charms. I watch the way you smile at little things, like sunsets, ice cream, and film posters. I notice the way you run your fingers through your hair so playfully and absent-mindedly…oh, were I one of those fingers that I could caress you so.

One day, I promise that you will be mine. Surely now you are aware of my deep amorous feelings for you. I will make sure that we are together forever, even if I must butcher the whole world to win your love.

Nothing else matters - you belong to me, for you have captured my heart, my lovely starlight. And one day, I know that I will steal your heart as well.

Yours truly,

Tom

At least now there was a name that you could associate with the stalker.

Then, the letters began arriving at your doorstep with gifts - Godiva chocolates from the Gold Collection, bottles of perfume from Gucci and Prada, and seasonal flowers wrapped in tissue paper. Each gift came with a little notecard that said,

"Thinking of you, my lovely starlight. Fondly, Tom."

The first few times, you took the gifts to the police,hoping that you might be able to find out who was apparently stalking you. Maybe the police could issue a restraining order, but your efforts were in vain. Without a face or a physical description, they could do nothing.

Once, while you were leaving the police station, you found a black Jaguar parked incredibly close to the building. Leaning against the car was a tall gentleman wearing a white button down shirt, black trousers, and shined shoes. Everything about his appearance was immaculate, from his unblemished skin to his jet-black hair.

"My lovely starlight," he addressed you, causing you to stop in your tracks. The gentleman grabbed your wrist and studied you intensely.

"Tom." You swallowed, not meaning for the name to escape from you so suddenly.

The gentleman tightened his grip. "You know my name…tell me, my darling, why were you sat the police station?" He glanced at the package in your free hand, and then returned his gaze to you. "You wound me, darling," he whispered with pity in his voice. "Don't you know that I adore you? My gifts are a token of my admiration for you. They were meant for you to have."

"I don't want them," you stiffly answered, trying not to look into his eyes.

"You don't want them?" He echoed, his breath warm against your cheek. "Then I suppose I'll have to punish the ones who selected them. I'll bring you something more closer to your liking."

With those words, he shamelessly kissed your knuckle and released you from his grip. You fled to the train station without looking back, only to find a box with a white, lacy set of lingerie at your doorstep the next morning.

"Ma'am?"

Interrupting your rumination, the waiter placed your food before you. And much to your surprise, he brought a glass of your favorite drink.

"How did you…this is my favorite, how did you know?" You asked, a twinkle in your eyes.

"Wasn't me, ma'am. It's compliments of the gentleman over there." The waiter pointed to another corner of the bistro, where Tom - who was sitting at his own table - waved in your direction.

A chill rushed down your spine, your toes trembled inside your shoes, and your breaths grew shorter with each passing second. He knew you were here…

A jovial grin upon his face, Tom invited himself to the chair across from your table. He wore a black blazer and a slender silk tie of a similar hue, and carried a glass of champagne in his right hand. "How wonderful to see you again, my lovely starlight."

Tom clinked his glass against yours, and took a sip. "It's bad manners not to take a drink."

Not knowing what else to do, you took a drink from your glass. It was delicious, yes, but not good enough to fight the knots forming in your stomach.

"Better." Tom reached across the table and gently clasped your chin, raising it so your eyes met his vibrant cyan ones. "You look very beautiful tonight, darling."

"Thank you." You gulped. After a moment of silence, you spoke up. "Tom…"

"I love it when you say my name," he praised. "It sounds perfect from your lips."

"Tom, I…I know you have…I know you've done all of these gestures, but I'm not interested in being with you."

Tom blinked. "I beg your pardon?"

"I don't want to be with you. I don't feel this way about you, and I want you to stop watching me. It scares me…"

"I see."

You sighed with relief. "Oh. Thank you…you understand."

He nodded. "Still no reason we can't have a nice supper together." Tom mischievously grinned at the chips on your plate. "Those look delicious - I think I'll get a plate of my own."

"Alright." You looked down and licked your lips. Something just felt…off about this situation. Did he really just agree to stop stalking you so easily? Only one thing to do.

You rose from the table and adjusted your dress. "I think I'll go freshen up - there's a ladies' room here." After Tom began talking to the waiter, you left.

Ten Minutes Later…

"Fly me to the moon

Let me play among the stars

Let me see what spring is like on

A-Jupiter and Mars"

You rubbed your eyes, finding yourself in the backseat of a car…with Tom in the driver's seat, casually singing along to the song playing on the radio.

"You are all I long for, All I worship and adore…" Tom sang, a slight breathiness in his voice. He pressed his foot on the accelerator, making the engine roar. Then, he turned to you with a grin.

"What happened?" Your eyes shot wide open at the sight of your state. Your hands were chained together with handcuffs, your feet were bound with a cloth, and there was a strange, sweet smell coming from your arms. "Tom, what happened? What am I doing here?"

"You were right," he simply said. "It was time to stop watching you."

"I…I don't understand. How did I end up here?"

Tom shrugged, making a turn at a green light. "What do you remember?"

"I asked to go to the washroom."

"Did you wash your hands?"

"I did…"

"Then what else?"

"I…I…" You faltered. "I wiped my hands…and then nothing."

Tom chuckled to himself, and this only made you more nervous. "I ought to give Dr. Laing a present." He smirked, "The soap and the paper towels you used were laced with anaesthetics. And before you try to guess, I did not use chloroform; its reputation is based on lies. Requires too much time, and keeps one unconscious for too little time."

"What will you do now? Are you going to hurt me?"

"Hurt you? Do you really think that low of me, darling?" He shook his head. "I would never do such a thing. I'm going to make sure we're together forever."

"This can't be happening…" You shook your head.

Tom continued to sing along with the radio, "In other words, please be true

In other words, I love you…"

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louisetaylor · 3 days

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Where Are My Mutuals?

I've been on Tumblr for two years and barely connect with anyone. It's time for a change. In a vain attempt to connect with people, I shall list my interests. I have too many to fit in one post, so here's Volume One: Classic Literature. Stay tuned for more. Do not adjust your set. Make Tumblr Interactive Again.

Lord of the Rings. (currently working on a "sauron gets the ring" AU with my nerd brother but that's another story) I would die for Pippin. Also for Frodo. Eowyn and Faramir are one of my favorite ships. Also Aragorn/Arwen and their parallels to Beren/Luthien. (Tolkien feels like a beloved character himself because of his own beautiful love story with Edith and all the mischief he got up to with CS Lewis.) Can't remember if I've finished the Silmarillion but I should someday.

Which brings me to mythology! I (metaphorically) burned through most of the mythology section in the children's library as a kid. I'd like to know more about Native American myths from my region someday.

Greek myths: Eros and Psyche. Persephone and Hades of course. Orpheus and Eurydice. (I know most of the lyrics to Hadestown.) LOVE Prometheus. (And many other Christ figures, including but not limited to Jesus.) Pygmalion/Galatea has some nice potential for stories but I haven't thought about it much. Endymion/Selene is a beautiful story.

Norse: I'm not as into Norse myth but Neil Gaiman's obsession with Odin makes me go "all right, he's cool." Loki (myth Loki is a separate character from Movie Loki) is redheaded and dangerous and tricky and beautiful. Anything Loki or Odin does interests me. The other gods, not so much.

Celtic: I can't remember that many but I liked Cuchulainn, the Morrigan, and anything about the Tuatha de Danann and Tir-na-nOg. Their myths and gods mostly descended into fairy tales and fairies under Christianity, so I also like the stories of the Sidhe and their kidnappings and magic.

Fairy tales. I also burned through most of the fairy tale section as a kid. (NOT LITERALLY.) I liked all the different Cinderella stories, and Rapunzel, Sleeping Beauty, Beauty and the Beast, Snow White, Red Riding Hood, and anything else pretty or bloody. Grimm's Fairy Tales are hit or miss because the moralizing sometimes outweighs the drama.

Shakespeare. Oh Boy. Hamlet (I could fill a notebook with theories on Ophelia and ideas of how to play her), Much Ado About Nothing (I'm told I could play a good Beatrice...if I knew how to act, that is), Romeo and Juliet (as glorious to this night as angels are unto the white-upturned wondering eyes of mortals that fall back to gaze on them), Henry V (but only if he's played by Tom Hiddleston), Twelfth Night, Midsummer Night's Dream, Macbeth (I didn't say it, I wrote it, don't @ me). I go to a Shakespeare play every year on my birthday. So far I've seen Midsummer Night's Dream, Twelfth Night, and As You Like It. This year I'll see Much Ado.

The King Arthur legends. Recently read John Steinbeck's version. I like all the magic women. Morgan, Morgause, the Lady of the Lake, Nyneve. The Sword in the Stone by TH White is wonderful.

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someoneinthecrowd0757 · 7 months

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Fr fr putting the (evident) queerbait issue surrounding the handling of the marketing (and more) of the show aside, I think my main gripe with the series would have to be just the amount of wasted potential there.

They confirmed an age ago that Loki was canonically not fully in control during the events of The Avengers. There’s so many questions surrounding that alone, especially with this Loki having been pulled right out of the aftermath of the fight in New York. (They even watch his memories and the progression of events in his life previously, so how the hell how did they not take the opportunity for this this not come up??)

Let alone what they could do for examining the very interesting relationships in his family or, maybe even address anything to do with the frost giants and the very character-shaping, evidently-traumatizing effect they seemed to have on Loki way back when?

The reason WandaVision slapped so hard was partially the super cool concept of going through different reality shows, right, but the real appeal? Fr fr was the beating emotional heart of the family the show centred around. It was everything I’d want from a TV show featuring some of my favorite characters that didn’t get time for their psyche to be delved into in the movies! A look at the trauma, grief and (most importantly) love surrounding Wanda and that was incredible.

So, when I compare that to what’s happened to this equally interesting character (who’s also a magic user, mind you (“what are you Loki god of knives?”)) with so very much potential for a show taking him seriously and examining his internal psyche as well? Well, it’s very hard to get invested in much else (for me, personally).

The TVA is a super interesting concept and I love Lokis dynamics with the also great cast surrounding him. Getting to see Tom Hiddleston as Loki is always a treat, but still? Why is it that this show is all these people with Loki as just,,,one of the many present? (And if I was discussing the queerbait as well here I’d start to go off here about how they treated Sylvie as “the only female Loki” with how baffled all the other Lokis were by this fact when they’re supposed to be GENDERFLUID-But I’m not, so I won’t).

I just wish they’d just said “f*ck it” and given me double the Loki by having him be a part of their TVA show taking place after a Loki show of some kind. There’s no way there wasn’t another way to have things take place in such a way where we’d get all these answers (at long last) regarding Loki’s actions for the prime timeline version as well as do their cool TVA show (and have Loki be a factor in that too if they wanted!)

I’d be much cooler with that if there’d already been a show giving me the fully Loki-centric content, plot and answers that I’ve longed for from the prime timeline one rather than wipe him out entirely for little to no reason (other than shock value and not knowing how to handle his character in the grand scheme of things after a point, quite frankly).

#loki laufeyson #loki show #loki marvel #mcu loki #loki season two

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i-want-my-iwtv · 2 years

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@annabellioncourt tagged moi to do nine films! This was harder to do than I thought, editing them down. As an extra challenge, I didn’t let myself choose any that Annie did 😉. These are films/TV I love and love recommending to others, and if you like one or more of them, chances are we’ll get along ✨ In no particular order (other than wanting IWTV in the middle):

Only Lovers Left Alive - Tom Hiddleston is a Nicki/Louis hybrid, I love him, I love the dynamic between him and the other vampires, I kinda love how fragile these vampires are, and they have unique gifts. Very slice of life.

What We Do in the Shadows - also love the TV series, but if I had to choose?? IDK I NEED BOTH but only giving it one slot, so the original takes precedence, I love Vladislav.

Jennifer’s Body - UNF I love this. I don’t love the official posters, but I really like this VHS fanwork by CratereanDesigns on Etsy.

Let the Right One In - the 2008 original!

Interview with the Vampire, of course. And I do not think it’s the Best Movie of All Time, it’s just one of my personal faves and a comfort food for me 💗

30 Days of Night - the delicious ANGST, ah my heart. I don’t love the poster, oh well.

Good Omens - I didn’t read the book so if it’s unfaithful in any way, doesn’t bother me! I loved this series, psyched for season 2.

Better Call Saul - I know, not a film. I love it too much, and if GO is on here, then TV can be on here.

And here I end with the impossible choice of favorite animated movie, and there are a LOT of them, but I have to choose one! What’s more important, beauty, story, music? Beauty and the Beast (1991) still holds up, after all these years. It might not be as technically proficient as Wall-E (another fave of mine) but it’s well acted, strong story, good soundtrack. I think what I love most is the bantering and courtship of Belle and the Beast, it’s so genuine and earned. IDK, call me a baby, I love it.

Tagging those I haven’t seen do it yet, and I'm also sorry if I'm wrong and just missed your post, no pressure at all to do this, of course!:

@codenamecesare, @vamp4rebatscave, @xxhellonursexx, @good-evening-kiss, @eliestela, @0junemeatcleaver0, @wicked-felina, @cygnaut, @thevampirelestat, @tealightcandles1794, @monstersinthecosmos, @emileesaurus, @terryfphanatics, @loki-wants-an-army, @sarahpaulsonsclown, @theworidentire, @hekateinhell, @the-apostates-martyr, @amadeo-child-of-the-renaissance, @vampiricmusicaltheatre, @radiatorfromspace, @kf-tea, @headfrst4halos, @mymillenniumpuzzle, @amelthebravennian, @carolusofmycastle, @auburnandamberangel, @elisaintime, @obsessional-ram, @nodominion, @compressedconstellations, @calamity-cain

(Tumblr didn’t allow the tag on some ppl so I’m putting you all in the tags below)

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nephilimeq · 2 years

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My dash is now filled with FrostHawk now... which is a ship I didn't know existed before lol. May I ask what is their appeal?? Because canon MCU is... not very substantial for them. Is this a comic books ship that has crossed over???

When I saw the first Avengers film, I immediately knew that Loki was not in control because his eyes were blue and it was obvious that he'd been tortured.

And I got fascinated by Hawkeye's character in that movie even more because even though he was under control of the mind stone, the mind stone doesn't enhance powers or anything, which means he was Loki's right hand man, and through his own planning, not Loki's, he nearly took out S.H.I.E.L.D. all on his own.

If you go into the comics about Hawkeye, you find out that he had an older brother that he looked up to who eventually betrayed him, so he went through hell trying to get away and reinvent himself.

Loki also has a brother who he personally felt betrayed him, and so he left and tried to recreate himself.

Not going to lie, I came across a piece of artwork for them first and thought that I liked the aesthetic, (this one ⬇️)

...and then decided to read some fanfiction as a joke. However, a ship that was meant to be a joke soon became something so much more because I found some amazing fanfiction that really dug into the psyche of each of these characters. They are more similar than you would think.

There's something pretty substantial if you think about the fact that there are whole gaps of time that we don't see where Hawkeye was at Loki's side, when he was underneath mind control. I also have to remind people that Loki was also underneath mind control at that point, as well, and so it makes you wonder what exactly the mind stone really does and exactly how much of it was actually Loki.

Interestingly enough, I think people draw on the fact that the individual actors who play them, Tom Hiddleston and Jeremy Renner, have played similar roles throughout their career. Renner at one point played a serial killer (Dahmer), and Hiddleston has played some pretty dark characters, as well (Crimson Peak)--and they both have played military characters, and so a lot of people draw on those acting histories of the actors to put in more aspects to the characters that they're playing, and it makes it incredibly interesting.

The characters of Hawkeye and Loki are also both very sarcastic, neither of them like authority, and both of these characters are very big on their independence.

I literally started shipping this as a joke, and then it became something so much more.

So, I guess there's your answer.

It's one of my most unconventional ships, but I like it.

#frosthawk #npheq ask and answer #clint barton #hawkeye #loki #hawkeye x loki #jeremy renner #tom hiddleston

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werewolf-transgenderism · 1 year

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11 & 26!

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what:

it depends! sometimes when I'm just drawing shit for fun/working on smaller pieces I'll throw on a playlist or a tv show in the background (like today while doodling/working on studies I've got doctor who in the background). if I'm working on a bigger piece–especially if it's something that's thematically linked to a piece of music–I'll put a specific song on repeat (blanket fort ed got 19 entire hours of sour breath by julien baker, our lady of sorrows gerard was foundations on repeat the whole time, the 80's night at nana's drawing got kick it to me & stray italian greyhound to keep me in the zone for obvious reasons, etc)

26. What’s a piece that got a wildly different interpretation from what you intended

ok. so. this story is ancient but in my high school advanced drawing and painting class I had done a watercolor painting of Tom Hiddleston as Loki and the teacher said it looked like Nicolas Cage (for which I will never forgive him, I'm sure it wasn't great because I was a pen/pencil artist and NOT a painter in high school but Nicolas Cage ?????) my childhood best friend and I often reminisce on the ways that man horribly misinterpreted our artwork when we get together and it has been like a literal decade so I'm sure you can imagine how impactful that was on our psyches

#long answers but you know how it is #ty!!

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starborn777 · 10 months

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Resolutions for today July 13, 2023

Eat more fresh fruits and vegetables. Eat salads and more fruits during meals.

Focus on getting enough protein and figure out how to maintain my weight. I currently weigh 178 lbs and have been losing weight due to having sigmoid colon cancer.

Make sure every glass of water I drink is charged with source energy also known asor quantum source energy.

When my mind brings up situations in the past where I wronged someone or someone wronged me for give them and pray through God's grace you be forgiven of any sin and forgive the other person and ask that your mind no longer bring up the issue. The past is over. Musing on past injuries to my psyche wastes time when I could be doing something more pleasing like staring at images of Henry Cavill or Tom Hiddleston. Hehe.

5. Be grateful for any kindness shown by others to me. Appreciate the help and thank the person or institution helping you further your goals to be a better human on this planet of ours. I am deeply grateful for my Father and Step-Mother for taking me into their home and for my Father coming to get ,me after NE Georgia Medical Center deemed me having no medical issues requiring hospitalization to be discharged. The case manager who was to help me with discharge planning was not helpful and avoided my calls and calls from a friend of mine who tried to get me into assisted living or a care home in GA. I was told I could go to a motel or homeless shelter. Keep in mind that at the time of discharge I was using a rolling walker and had an open wound near my groin that required packing every day to assist in healing the wound. I had a urinary catheter and nephrostomy tubes which were connected to my left and right kidneys. I had to pin the nephrostomy tubes to an undershirt with safety pins and either had to clip the foley (urinary) catheter to the inside of my pants or go for the embarrassing option of clipping the catheter to my rolling walker.

6. I am grateful I am not wandering the streets and living in homeless shelter. I think I would have died in a few months if I had to live in he street as I required a caregiver's assistance for wound care, preparing meals, and transportation.

7. I am grateful NE Georgia Medical Center offered me charity for oncology but I was unable to take advantage of the offer as I was hospitalized from 2/07/23 until the second week of May except for two days in March. I spent 2 days in a motel and had to be admitted to the local hospital in Blairsville, GA. At that time I was unable to keep food down. NE GA Medical Center discharged me with NO MEDS. I had an episode of GERD and was unable to walk using my walker.

8. I am grateful for the care I received from the EMT's and Paramedics who responded to my needing help. While in the motel I called for help because I was unable to get off the floor. The hotel had a low toilet and I was unable to use my walker to stand. After that failed I got on my knees and crawled to my phone asking for help from EMS. They helped me into bed and I believed at that time I could eat something and be able to strengthen my legs. I was unable to walk using my walker and my condition did not improve so I called EMS who took me to the Hospital.

9. I am grateful for the Ambulance crew who transported me from Blairsville, GA to Columbus, GA . Columbus was the only facility who would take me. I was too well to stay in a regular hospital but too sick to stay in a motel. I stayed there until l I had a nephrostomy tube stop up. As this hospital was sub-acute and not equipped to deal with my issue I returned to NE GA Medical Center which was a 4 hour drive I think to Gainesville. I was admitted to the ER and later admitted to the hospital for treatment and had the nephrostomy tube replaced the next day. I do not recommend prolonged trips in an ambulance. The ride is bumpy and you are on your back and feel every bump on the road.

10. Again I am grateful my 82 year old father came and got me. He drove all the way from a small town near Commerce, TX to Gainesville GA. He picked up my car at the house I was renting It was full of items from my cubicle at my call center and belongings of value my friend could find.

11. Be satisfied with less belongings At the time of discharge my clothing consisted of 2 pairs of pants and 2 shirts . My chromebook, Samsung tablet, and phone. I was hopeful at that time that after the house I was rented was cleaned by professional cleaners that I could use the clothing recovered from my house.

12. Be satisfied with what you have. Stuff weighs you down. You can't take anything with you when you leave this life but your immortal soul. BTW the professional cleaners my landlord hired to clean the house stole everything but my Bible. So I am left in Texas with clothes that don't fit me. I had gone from a 4x to a 2x with my weight loss from the cancer. I have since have an adequate wardrobe acquired from Walmart and the Salvation Army Thrift Store in Dallas, Texas.

13. Break my habit of being a hoarder. I have always clung to my possessions, my books, video tapes, DVD's, Clothing ( had a lot of it at one time) . I am prone to hoarding food, a habit of my childhood. I used to use part of my lunch money to buy books.

14. I am grateful for the healh care I received in Georgia but I am elated to be a patient of the University of Texas Southwestern health system in Dallas. I receive much better care there. I have a team of doctors supervising my care who are interested in my well-being and curing my cancer. I had a nephrostomy tube be misplaced and had a urinary tract infection so I was instructed by the Nurse Practitioner overseeing my care to go to the ER at the William P. Clements Jr. University Hospital. They did not have an opening in Interventional Radiology, so I had to stay in hospital until the 6th when I was discharged after the tube was re-positioned and replaced.

15. I am grateful the the ER physicians, IR Physician and the resident doctor who followed my care in hospital. I have never had an ER physician ask for my medical history since my cancer diagnosis and surgery on 2/07/93. Explaining all that happened to me Surgery, bladder rupture, being placed on a wound vac to clear fluid from my abdomen. Having 2 Nephrostomy tubes placed (one for each kidney) and maintaining the Foley catheter and my need to hawound care dressing changes daily. After I came under the care of my Urologist Dr. Lotan I was after studies to see how big my bladder was, if it was leaking and how much fluid my bladder can hold he determined that I could do without the urinary (Foley) catheter and after that we experimented with capping my left kidney to determine how my bladder would react to extra fluid from the left kidney. I had the left nephrostomy tube removed and was only left with the right nephrostomy tube which has to stay in because my right ureter is disconnected from the bladder.

16. I am grateful that I am able to now walk without a walker and only use the fancy walker my Dad provided which has a seat and has brakes on it and a basket for storing items when I walk for clinic visits. Today I was able to use a shopping cart at Walmart and was able to roam the store standing the whole time to purchased what I needed before exiting the store.

17. I am excited to be cooking again. I haven't cooked for about 20 years. Before the cancer I was subsisting on the poor diet of frozen dinners, canned soups, and sandwiches. Now I can use my creativity in the kitchen to follow new recipes. I purchased a wok and spices, and was tempted by Prime Day to order an air fryer.

18. Eat more food that is fresh, that has life energy. Most of the food we Americans eat is processed and has no life energy and enzymes that the human body needs for good health. I plan on eating less meat as it is not necessary to always eat meat with every meal.

19. To exercise more and build up strength in my right leg. My left leg is longer than my right leg and I will try walking putting more weight on the right leg and build up strength in that leg.

20. Keep my pain managed currently by a narcotic and manage the antidepressant given for my sleeplessness . Try to limit their use until needed and do not become addicted to the numbness of narcotics.

21. Keep a log of what foods I cannot tolerate. Currently, I cannot eat garlic, hot peppers such as jalepenos, and possibly kiwi fruit.

22. Learn how to stay present and to quiet my busy mind. I am wanting to learn meditation, but haven't had the energy to pursue it. I listen to Spotify playlists for sleep mediation and that has helped me wake more rested the next day.

That's enough for now. My goal is to improve my health through eating wholesome food and continue with my oncology as directed. I go to the infusion center every other week and receive chemo for several hours and return home with an infusion pump. The pump delivers the chemo meds over 40 hours, after which I return to the infusion center to remove the pump.

So far the chemo has caused sensitivity to co to cold water or food, and handling cold items in the refrigerator caused shocking feelings in my hands and tongue. I also have had symptoms of a sore throat (it feels like a band around my neck) when receiving chemo.

I am deeply grateful for the care I have received at UT Southwestern and recommend it for anyone needing cancer treatments. The doctors listen to what you have to say and make sure you understand all aspects of your care. They do not rush your interview with them to get on to the next patient.

The entire staff at UT Southwestern are professional, courteous, and dedicated to providing the best of care to their patients. From the valets who pick up and deliver your car, the techs, housekeepers, nurses and doctors employed there. They all have good attitudes and they are dedicated to providing the best of care to their patients.

I plan on posting all that happened to me in another journal post. If this post encourages or helps only 1 person it was worth it to share my experience with cancer Infinite blessings to whoever reads this.

#resolutions #journal #cancer #real life #nephrostomy tube #UT Southwestern

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A Moment of Clarity

In this drought we’re all experiencing, more shigetty has surfaced. Mists of malice appear now and then to act out the same inglorious purpose—to strike out at Zawe Ashton’s competence, credibility and very humanity. The constant subtext is that she is unworthy.

This blog—this accidental blog—began because I accept and support Zawe as she is. That said, I can hold more than one idea about anyone in my head at the same time. I regard her as every bit as self-serving and narcissistic as anyone else in arts and entertainment (it’s called showbiz). I see how in building her career she might have encountered certain challenges (much of that documented or remixed in an actual book she wrote). She was living out loud the whole time, but a feral faction wants to scoff and vilify and run in all directions. Thus, the drought continues.

Full disclosure: I didn’t start this as a Hiddlestoner, but came at it sort of sideways after reading a Teen Vogue article about misogynoir that referenced the case of Zawe and Tom. Apparently, this woman had committed the odious crime of connecting to an internet boyfriend while being Black. She is being othered by a feral faction who try to drop their turdy seeds in the dark recesses of our psyches. They fall off and roll away.

I’m here to express in the clearest of terms that this blog stands Zawe and Tom and stands with them and will be undeterred by the turdishness of saggy-bottomed purveyors of turgid twaddle.

#still standing #zawe ashton #tom x zawe

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my-secret-shame · 3 years

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#loki #loki tv show #loki spoilers #loki tv show spoliers #q #has this been done before? I don't know if I have new thoughts anymore or if they are just recycled #my stupid edit #mobius #tom hiddleston #owen wilson #psych quote #psych quotes

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I Can Ease Your Pain Chapter Five

NUMBER OF CHAPTERS: 5/5 (Chapter Index)

WHICH TOM CHARACTER: Doctor Tom Hiddleston

GENRE: Drama, Hurt/Comfort (no Romance)

SONG: Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd (with Bowie) (with Cumberbatch)

PICTURE CREDIT: Banner made by the amazing @prislaa

WARNINGS: self-harm, suicidal ideation, depression and anxiety

TAGLIST: @sleutherclaw @christineblood @twhiddlestonsstuff

AUTHOR’S NOTE: If you think any of the subjects in this story might have a negative effect on your well-being, please DO NOT read this story. Take care of yourself and don’t worry; you can check out some of my other fics instead that don’t have those warnings on them. Love, F.

SUMMARY You’re an awfully shy and quite awkward person. After an incident at an acquaintance’s party, a close friend takes you to the hospital to get you stitched up from a self-inflicted injury. At the hospital, you’re faced with a choice that might just change your life forever.

Chapter Five: Get You on Your Feet Again

Friday came and you felt more than ready to leave the psychiatric ward. You had looked forward to what would be your last meeting with your doctor. You knew you were going to miss seeing him every now and then, but you accepted that it was part of the process. You were now well enough to go back home, and there were other people in a greater need of professional help than you who needed your bed at the ward.

“[Your name]. It’s good to see you,” Tom greeted you with a warm smile as he let you into his office.

“It’s good to see you too,” you replied and smiled back at him. “I wrote a haiku,” you added and handed him a post-it note with a short poem on it. He read it and looked genuinely impressed.

“It’s brilliant,” he praised and you felt your cheeks grow warm. “It really captures the feeling of being depressed. Would you mind if I kept this?” Tom wondered eagerly.

“You can keep it,” you confirmed and his smile widened.

“Thank you so much. You know what? There is this writing class I’ve signed up for,” he said and pulled out a drawer and grabbed a piece of paper from it. He handed you the paper and you saw that it was a flyer for a writing class. “It starts in two weeks and will be on Thursday evenings. I would be delighted if I saw a familiar face there.”

“That sounds really nice,” you replied but frowned slightly. “But are you allowed to do this?”

Tom smiled at you and nodded. “Since you will no longer be my patient, I don't see any problems with it. After all, I’m allowed to spend my free time however I like. If you happen to attend the same evening class as I do, then so be it.”

You smiled in response and glanced down at the paper again. Now you had something you really looked forward to. It would be exciting to share your works with other people who also enjoyed writing. And the fact that Tom would be there too, only made it better.

A few weeks after your discharge, you went to the writing class your former doctor had told you about. Tom’s smile widened at the sight of you and he walked up to greet you properly.

“[Your name]! I’m so glad you came!” he said enthusiastically.

“Hi Tom. It’s good to see you,” you replied with a smile. It felt good to see him in an entirely different context than as a patient in a psychiatric ward. Here, there was no power imbalance between you. Here, you were simply peers with a common interest.

“It’s good to see you too, [your name],” Tom replied and pulled you into a friendly hug. You wrapped your arms around him in response and smiled. You felt genuinely happy to have found a way to keep him in your life, and if you had interpreted the hug correctly, the feelings were mutual.

#tom hiddleston doctor #DOCTOR TOM HIDDLESTON #doctor Thomas Hiddleston #psychiatric ward #psych ward #tw anxiety #anxiety #TW depression #tw suicidal ideation #tw suicide thoughts #depression #tom hiddleston #tom hiddleston fanfiction

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