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kittybellestark · 3 years

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It’s Like Falling From The Sky

Hi I’m exhausting and things suck rn so i wrote this

I know this is coming out but I really can’t promise that I’ll be able to be very active on here with everything going on with my Dad.

If you have mad e a fic request I am working on it have no fears I have not forgotten I just needed to write out my emotions so I’m sorry.

I’ll get this on AO3 in the next few days

TW: Flashbacks, Minor Character Deaths, Re-Visiting Peter’s Traumas, Depression, Probably Disassociation.

Peter remembers. He hated remembering this. He couldn’t even talk to other people about this. Well, he probably could, but he wasn’t supposed to.

Dr. Josh said so.

He didn’t like Dr. Josh very much. He was there when it happened. Dr. Josh went through the same thing Peter did. Sometimes Dr. Josh still came to visit Peter up until the time Skip happened. Dr. Josh was there for Peter’s first trauma yet he wasn’t there for the next one. And Peter hated him.

Peter remembered the plane.

Officially Peter was never in that plane. There was no records of Peter ever being there, or Dr. Josh being there. But Peter remembered it in perfect clarity. It was one of the only memories Peter had of his parents.

It was fine. The plane ride. It was boring and he played Uno with his parents. Dr. Josh stayed seated in a corner, close to the front. It was a nice plane, a private one Oscorp had provided them. This plane was newer. Peter hadn’t ever seen it before, this wasn’t the plane his family normally took. He had liked the other plane more, that plane was familiar.

He was the one who noticed the smoke. It was coming out of the engine. They had thought the shaking was turbulence, just a little bit of wind. The smoke clouded the sky around them.

Peter remembers that his parents buckled him into a seat, before getting into their own. Dr. Josh went to go into the cockpit, but the door was jammed. He couldn’t get in. The locking mechanism had ceased, there was no way for Dr. Josh to get in there and Peter saw the moment he realized this. The doctor sat down and buckled in.

The lights flickering was the scariest part to Peter. That was when everyone knew things would get worse. Peter could feel it, he was able to feel his parents fear. Their fear was suffocating. It was the way his mother sobbed and his father dropped his head into his hands, shoulders shaking. There was no battle to be fought, they weren’t going to be able to get out of this one.

Oxygen masks dropped and Peter’s mom made sure to get one onto his face. She kissed his forehead and whispered goodbyes. He cried hard, holding onto her hand with both of his. The door had ripped off the side of the air craft and that made things cold. Cold, cold, cold. And that didn’t make sense to Peter. Outside was bright orange, the colour of warmth and his parents bedding.

Nothing made sense. It was bad and scary and Peter hates remembering this. He hates it. Peter hates that he was there and that officially he never was. There’s been no one to talk to, no one who can understand. It was in the news, that the only two passengers onboard had died and it infuriates Peter. There was four passengers on that plane and two died.

Peter remembers the plane going down. He remembers screaming, then he remembers waking up. There was metal scraps of plane all around him and fire, there was so much fire. He was still in his chair, strapped down to it and he couldn’t get out. He remembers calling out for his parents and then looking around for them.

Peter remembers seeing his mother laying there on the ground. She was awake but gasping for air, her one hand on chest, a leg bent at an unnatural angle, hair melted onto her. Peter was afraid of his own mother. He couldn’t find his father, couldn’t see him, but Peter could hear his screams. Peter could hear him in pain and that scared him too. He feared the people who were meant to be safe. Peter hates himself for that too.

Peter hates Dr. Josh. He hates Dr. Josh for surviving and Peter hates that Dr. Josh for saving him and not going back for his parents. And Peter hates Dr. Josh for leaving him, for not showing up anymore.

Peter hates Dr. Josh. He never expected to see him again. But the thing about being Peter Parker is that everything goes in the exact way that Peter just can’t predict.

Becoming Spider-Man was never anything Peter thought he would ever do. Meeting Tony Stark was a pipe-dream, and this mentor-mentee thing was so wildly out there. Nothing ever seemed to make sense and Peter hated that too. It was always a whirlwind and never any time to process any of it. Never any time to make sense of anything.

Peter couldn’t help blaming Dr. Josh for that too.

“You good kid?” Tony finally, finally asked.

Distractions are good, welcomed even. Anything was better than his thoughts or the memories of his parents dying. Distractions are easy and they help. Things aren’t so painful if he’s distracted. It’s why parents teach their kids to laugh when they get hurt, it distracts them and then everything is okay.

“Oh, yeah. Sorry- I just got caught up in my head.”

Peter couldn’t help running his hand through his hair. It was a nervous tick, at least that’s what Dr. Josh had said. Built on his anxiety after his parents death. Peter didn’t believe that to be factual. It was a way to comfort himself, his parents used to run their fingers through Peter’s hair when he was sad or sick or tired.

He could tell that Tony didn’t believe him. Why would he? Peter hasn’t been focused recently. He needs to focus, but he just can’t seem to focus on anything other than the thought of Dr. Josh recently. It’s a problem and Peter knows it. But it’s just so easy to put the bad things on him.

Had Dr. Josh at least saved one of his parents, Peter wouldn’t have gone into foster care. He wouldn’t have been placed into May and Ben’s home, Skip would have never been his babysitter. Peter wouldn’t have had to go onto the Oscorp field trip, and Ben would have never been murdered. If just one of his parents had lived Peter wouldn’t feel the grief or hatred he does now. More of his family would be around, he wouldn’t be made fun of for being the reason his guardians all keep dying. May would be happier, she’d have her husband and a in-law. There would never be any over-due bills. So Peter hated Dr. Josh, and it wasn’t fair to do that to him, but Dr. Josh was supposed to be a doctor. He was supposed to save lives.

“Earth to Peter.” Tony waved his hand in front of Peter’s face. “You zoned out on me while I was talking. We have a meeting to go to remember, you’re supposed to pretend to be doing intern-y things. With the Avengers?”

Peter shook his head, trying to clear it. It was too busy most of the time. Every thought just started and ended on top of each other. But he was going into a meeting, and the Avengers were supposed to be there, so his brain needed to be clear. He couldn’t think about what is felt like to fall out of the sky and not being able to catch himself.

“Sorry, yeah, I’m here. Which Avengers?”

Smile. Breathe. Listen. Try and be normal. Do not dwell. Not on the past.

“I mean Cap is going to be there, he’s a total bore by the way. He drones on and on, I think we’ve all learnt to fall asleep to him talking without him noticing, you’re allowed to zone out on him. Natasha is going to be there, she’s sneaky about things so don’t fan boy too hard around her. Clint will also be there, he’ll keep things interesting. You get bored in there Clint is always doing something strange to get everyone’s attention, you two will get along like a house on fire, I’m only a little scared. And Bruce will be there, you’ve met him multiple times already though Pete, so we aren’t going to hyperventilate this time. You’re going to remember to breathe and not overwhelm Bruce with every question you have about one of his research papers.”

Tony liked to talk with his hands. Grand gestures. It was calming to watch. Peter liked how expressive Tony was. The man said he wasn’t good at expressing his emotions but Tony showed his emotions in his movements. He was easy to read if you knew what to look for, and Peter did. Peter liked knowing. He didn’t get to know much in his life, he could never predict what was happening next and that hurt. But he could see how Tony was feeling and he could act accordingly and he liked to be able to control that.

“I’ve seen the PSA’s at school I think I’ll live. Black Widow is very intimidating so I don’t think you’ll hear me talk more than five words, she’s awesome but she could kill me in the time it takes me to blink. I cannot annoy her Mr. Stark, I’m comfortable being alive.” Tony laughed, Peter joined. “I mean really, I’ve met Dr. Banner and Black Widow has become involved with the government and on tv all the time. An no self respecting teenager doesn’t hate Captain America for those PSA’s at least a little bit. I know them all except Hawkeye really, but he’s the only Avenger that is still supposed to be a secret agent so it’s not like any pictures of him exists. Which is very annoying Mr. Stark. Ned and I hacked into your servers once to see if we could find any pictures of him- this was before I met you by the way- and you didn’t even have anything there.”

Yeah, that sounded like Peter Parker. Laughing, joking, he sounded normal. He was not spiraling. There was no imagining the lights flickering or smoke filled sky. Peter couldn’t talk about it so he shouldn’t think about it. There was no use in his brain remembering the sound of his father’s screams. He could remember so many better things, more useful things. It was over ten years ago. He had more recent trauma, plane trauma at that. This really shouldn’t be the one bad thing his brain goes to first.

Right. He’s supposed to acknowledge and follow and be normal. Peter has this. There’s no plane falling out of the sky today. He is okay.

“I wish I was surprised about you and Ted hacking into SI servers and then getting into my own, but frankly nothing you do could really ever surprise me at this point. You’re too smart for your own good, I do expect you to take over the world Roo, but for my heart could you wait until you’re done high school.”

It was the right time to laugh. Tony was laughing, so Peter laughed. It didn’t make sense to Peter how his actions couldn’t surprise Tony. Sometimes Peter’s actions even surprise himself. But it’s not really like Peter knew himself very much anymore, not with his life continuing to be so unpredictable. Sure he had gotten used to the fake smiles, and pretending to be fine, deflecting, but that wasn’t really his actions. It just covered them up.

Peter followed just a little bit behind Tony, it helped ease the anxiety, like a shield. He also knew it wasn’t good to use Tony like this. It was just easier sometimes, when he was scared. This wasn’t a good pattern, but neither was the rest of his life. The world owed him just this bit of comfort sometimes.

“If I’m going to take over the world then I have to take everyone by surprise Mr. Stark. Including you; unless you help me of course. I could use you for your government connections, sway them over into our favour. It really wouldn’t take much.”

Peter shrugged as Tony stepped into the room, shaking his head while looking back at him. The room was loud as Peter stepped in, but it’s what he had expected. Stories have been told to him about the Avengers, loud and rambunctious, conversations on top of each other. Even with Thor off world the group made up for it in this small room.

“Everyone this is my personal intern. Yes I trust him, no he is not a secret love child, no you can’t interrogate. Yes he will be sitting in this meeting, no you don’t have anything to worry about. Okay? Great, Brucie you know Peter, everyone else this is Peter Parker, Peter this is everyone.”

It’s like falling from the sky, when he see’s the Avengers. He smells the smoke and feels everything quake. He can hear his father screaming and his mother gasping for air. Everything is warm orange but he’s cold and it doesn’t make sense. He is falling from the sky and it’s way too fast and he cant keep his hold on his mothers hand. He is falling and he can’t catch himself and the world is coming at him way too fast.

He needs to breathe.

It hurts.

He’s trapped in the seat and everything is on fire and his family is dying.

And there is Dr. Josh pulling him out and taking him away.

Breathe. He has to breathe.

Peter is not there.

Not in the middle of no where.

Certainly not with his parents.

But he is here. In the Avengers Tower. With Dr. Josh.

He just needs to focus. He needs to breathe. His brain is running too fast and there’s too many thoughts. Peter hates him, hates Dr. Josh. The plane crashed, his parents were alive and he was carried away from them. They died by this man who was supposed to be a doctor. Peter couldn’t help but feeling the anger, over a decade of anger boiling inside of him.

Peter was never good at not saying what he thought. Words were just out of his mouth before he even thought them. It’s always been good to stop people from questioning him too much, but now it was nothing but a weakness. There was no control over this, over his words and Peter hated that he couldn’t control them. He just needed to control something and yet he couldn’t even control his stupid words.

“You killed them.”

It didn’t even sound like his own voice. He wasn’t supposed to talk about this. He was told not too. Officially Peter was never there. And he was never meant to talk about this. He should have forgotten this.

Captain America, Steve Rogers was the first one to move, pushing himself backwards in his chair before standing up. Peter didn’t like the stance Steve took, he recognized it from school and from muggers too. It was made to intimidate. It worked. Peter found himself pushing against Tony. He didn’t know if that was to shield himself or to shield Tony. It felt selfish though.

“Kid?” Tony whispered.

He was clearly hesitant, scared of Peter, for Peter? Honestly, Peter wasn’t so sure. All Peter knew was that he was angry, and the man who ruined his whole life was just sitting there, like this was no big deal like it was nothing. He sat there, just barely a fake look of concern like he didn’t even recognize Peter.

“You don’t even remember me. You’re the reason my parents died, you introduced yourself as a doctor and clearly you fucking lied. They were dying in front of us. Remember that? Instead of helping them you got me out of the seat I was in and walked away. We were the only two who survived, but funny enough neither of us were put on the reports. Officially we never went on that plane. Unofficially you dropped me off in Connecticut to go into foster care, but officially I ran away from my babysitter and managed to sneak onto a train. You remember me now?” The words felt like acid, and Peter didn’t like the way the words felt in his mouth. But he was falling. “Oh, no? See, you introduced yourself to me as Doctor Josh Wilkes.”

Peter didn’t notice how he made his way further into the room. He wasn’t very aware of his body or the words that were spilling out. There was just so much pain, so much that he never talked about to anyone because they were never supposed to know. His world fell apart in front of him when he was too young to understand and Peter never got to tell anyone.

“Peter, I think you’re having a severe panic attack. Can you breathe with me?” That was Dr. Banner.

Dr. Banner was in front of Peter’s face, enough to block his view. Tony’s arms were wrapped around Peter’s waist just enough pressure to help remind Peter where he was. It wasn’t enough for Peter’s thoughts to stay in his head, but his head had been so loud for so long. Letting it out felt better but also worse. He was finally being heard, but this wasn’t what he wanted to happen.

Black Widow- Natasha moved around the room, stationing herself in front of her friend, and Steve looked ready to yell. None of this was what Peter wanted. He needed to gain control. He needed to take a breath and start thinking. But here was Dr. Josh, Clint Barton and everything just felt so much more like a lie. Peter felt like he’d been removed from his body and scrambled before being shoved right back in.

“No. No. You told me you were a Doctor, that you saved lives. That was all a lie. Every word you ever said to me was a lie and I hate you, I do. You told me that plane crash was our secret, that I couldn’t tell anyone. You stole my parents lives, and you ruined mine, and now you’re just sitting there, silent. You’re an Avenger, you are supposed to save lives. Why didn’t you save mine?”

There were tears streaming down Peter’s face. He’d been lied too. The man he hates wasn’t even a real person, just some persona that was put on. He hated an Avenger and he never thought he would. Peter hates Clint Barton for what was done to him. And he hates that Clint just sits there not saying anything. Looking at Peter with his eyebrows raised but otherwise looking unaffected.

He had to leave. He needed to leave and go find a place to breathe. It’d been too long and everything hurt too bad. Peter was only 6, barely had any life and yet had it all torn from him.

Peter waiting another moment for Clint to say something.

“You’re a coward.” Peter pulled himself out of Tony’s arms. “I’m leaving. I don’t ever want to see you again.”

He was leaving and Peter knew it was wrong. This was everything he hated but he should be more mature about it. Peter was raised to treat people with respect, never to shout, never call someone names. It didn’t matter who the person was, he should always treat them the way he wishes to be treated.

The past should be behind him and he just needed to stop experiencing it. Peter needed to walk away from his past even if that left his parents behind him. His mom wasn’t gasping for air anymore and his dad wasn’t screaming in pain, but this felt the same as it had then. When he was picked up and carried away fighting to go back.

The elevator was too small and it felt like falling. There wasn’t enough air as they went down, down, down. They were going towards the ground way too fast and everything was too cold and- he wasn’t there. Peter is in New York and he’s leaving his past behind. It’d be easier to forget it, but that can’t happen. For now he’s in New York and he is not falling, things are controlled now. He isn’t controlling them but things are controlled and that has to be enough.

“Peter, do you want to talk about it?”

That was Tony. Tony was there walking out of the building with him and he didn’t even notice. Someone was there for him and following him out into the streets and he is upset. This is going to be like Ben all over again. It was all too familiar. Peter is crying and too caught up in his head and he’s being followed by someone who cares again and he is in New York. Last time Peter had a gun held to him because he saw something he shouldn’t and Ben stepped in. Tony would do the same thing as Ben, Peter knows that.

Planes don’t fall out of the sky often but it happened to Peter twice. Muggings happen often, Peter has seen his fair share. It could happen to him again. History repeats itself, everyone says that. This can happen again too, it could. All because of Dr. J- Clint.

“You can’t let him kill you Mr. Stark. I can’t lose anyone else, I can’t watch anyone else die. You and May are all I have left.”

Breathe. He just needs to breathe and it’ll be okay. Peter knows this he just needs to get himself under control. One person should not have any control over him, his life, not like this.

“Alright kiddo. I’m staying right here, and you know May isn’t going anywhere either. We’ll stay by your side no matter what. So lets talk, tell me what isn’t official or don’t. Whatever you need right now.”

Peter nodded. He hated how the air was acid but he had to do this. He’s held it all in, every bad thing. He didn’t talk about things, never the bad things, those were made to be secrets. But it never felt good, it always ached, to keep it all inside. Peter never told May and Ben about his parents, all they knew was the official story. He had never told them about Skip, never talked about it more than what was necessary after May walked in. Never said anything about what happened to give him his powers. He didn’t tell May about watching Ben die. He never said anything to Tony or Happy about a building falling on him or crashing the plane on Coney Island. These memories, these trauma’s are not made to be shared, but he couldn’t hold in in anymore.

His body wasn’t his own and Peter hated not being aware of his actions, pulled too far into the past to understand his movements, his surroundings. When Tony pulled Peter back inside and to the penthouse he hardly recognized his own motions. Sitting onto Tony’s couch helped Peter come back to himself, just the tiniest bit.

For the first time ever Peter told someone the unofficial story. There was no talking about nothing. He tells Tony about what it was like to notice the smoke and the flames. He talks about being exposed in the sky and holding his mothers hand as they fall. He speaks about seeing his mom, hearing her and his dad. He explains what is was like to be carried away, fighting to be with them, knowing they’d die. Peter tells Tony about what it’s like in foster care, about being considered a flight risk because officially he ran away from his babysitter.

Peter tells Tony everything.

And Tony listens.

Peter thought he’d feel better. He never expected to feel like every problem is solved, but he thought he’d at least feel the tiniest bit better. This wasn’t better though.

Maybe it was a mistake.

These big, scary traumatic things were supposed to be kept to himself. They might have changed his life but they didn’t need to affect anyone else’s.

“This is the first time you’re telling anyone any of this?” Tony hand’s Peter hot chocolate as he asks this question, it feels like a stupid question to Peter, he wasn’t supposed to talk about it so why would he tell anyone.

“I was told I couldn’t tell anyone about my parents. Dr. Josh, Clint, he sat me down and told me no one could actually know how my parents died, that it was our secret. He’d check in on me for a few years after to make sure May and Ben didn’t know. Clint told me that the big scary thing things that happen to a person aren’t made to be shared with others and that no one would believe me, so I didn’t tell anyone. I’m supposed to do what adults tell me, it’s not a big deal.”

Tony hummed, sipping his own drink. Peter didn’t like the way Tony looked at him, like a mystery that revealed itself. It was close to the look Peter gets when people find out his parents are dead and one of his guardians died too, but it wasn’t quiet it. Tony also held some level of anger in his eyes and Peter didn’t know who that was directed at.

“Peter you literally exploded when you saw Clint, that was a pretty big deal. Him telling you not to share the first big traumatic thing to happen to you is a pretty big deal too, especially because he told you that he was a doctor. It’s all big deal.”

Peter groaned. He should have had better control. It was already a bad day and his head was too clouded with the past. It was a mistake. A blip. Peter should have done better.

“FRIDAY, could you ask Clint Barton to come up here?”

FRIDAY confirmed and Peter realized that this was another mistake. Why couldn’t he just stop himself? He wasn’t good at this. This was a mistake. Peter was raised to do what was right but he only made mistake after mistake. Everything he’s done was a mistake.

“What are you doing kid?”

Planes fall from the sky. Planes that hold Peter have fallen. They are world ending and Peter’s world has ended over and over. He blamed the person that Clint was pretending to be. Peter blamed a lie.

“He forgot me and then I told him he killed my parents and didn’t save my life.”

The elevator dinged out a final warning to what was coming before the doors opened. This time Peter was prepared to see the face of a man who haunted his life. Clint walked in and stayed standing away from Peter and Tony on the other side the coffee table.

“Sorry for yelling at you. It was a bad day. I was taken off guard and said things without any thought.”

Unrecognizable. Cold. Unattached. Empty. Peter’s voice didn’t sound nice, there was no personality. But it had been a long day. There was too many emotions all at once and Peter was tired, it was nearly too much today. All his thoughts and feelings were all too wrapped together, snaked around his heart and lungs. In his throat and into his jaw, squeezing too tight; a mess of what should be neat and organized.

“My mission was to protect you. I was assigned onto that plane and to your parents to make sure you were properly protected. Your parents were agents in the scientific division of SHIELD and were assigned to Oscorp to get intel. We had reason to believe that Oscorp was going to stage a kidnapping to experiment on you. My only job was to keep you safe and when that plane went down I had to get you out of the area before you were taken. SHIELD agents were with your parents by the time we got to safety. We didn’t tell you that you’re Dad’s spine was crushed or your Mom’s lungs were filled with blood, there was no saving them. Even if I helped them first they would not have survived, if I was a doctor it wouldn’t have made a difference. My mission was to protect you. I had to drop in after that every once in a while after that because Oscorp still had their eyes on you. I got reassigned when they stopped following you.”

Peter’s mind reeled. Hardly able to process the words being told. None of it made sense. It didn’t feel much like the truth. Peter still ended up at Oscorp and bad things still happened.

“Well you failed then. You’re mission was a failure.” Peter couldn’t help but laugh. “Oscorp doesn’t give school’s tours, especially not high schools. But they gave my school a tour, but only my class. You did not succeed at your one job. I was there, got separated from my class. After that some Oscorp employees tended to show up where I was for a few months, offered me summer camp opportunities a few internships. I never took them especially not once I got this internship. But they never stopped. Oh, and I was friends with Harry Osborn, for years actually, went over to his house all the time until pretty recently.”

The spider bite. Peter always thought it was an accident. A coincidence. But now it was making sense. The lab assistant who gave him the wrong directions to the bathroom did that on purpose. He ended up in a room filled with spiders instead of a hallway he expected to lead to the washroom. Oscorp followed him to see if Peter had changed, not because they thought he did something bad or stole from them. It was their plan. Had he of taken the internship who knows what else would have happened.

The mugging that killed Ben, that was probably Oscorp too. It would make sense. Especially if they were watching Peter. The gun was pointed at Peter first, meant to shoot him. Maybe they expected Peter to do something, confirm any theory they may have had about him. Instead Ben got in the way and died. And Peter didn’t do anything that day, or that week, not even that month. Oscorp stopped reaching out as much after that. They weren’t at his favourite places anymore and he got less mail from them. Every once in a while they still offered an internship to him, but it wasn’t a consistent thing like before. There wasn’t anything consistent.

“Clint, I think it’s time for you to leave.” That was Tony. Tony was nice. Tony helps. “Peter, buddy, you need to remember to breathe. C’mon Roo, I know that was a lot but breathe for me, please.”

He couldn’t do it. Everything about Peter was a lie. The man he blamed was a lie. The idea his parents could be alive was a lie. The reason Ben died was a lie. Everyone lied to him, his entire life, every traumatic experience came from a lie. Being Spider-Man came from a lie and working with Tony rooted from one too. There was no truth. He was never given the truth.

Peter couldn’t do it. He didn’t want to. Nothing was true. How could he do anything real, or true? His life was a pile of lies stacked on top of each other in a way to control him and to manipulate. There’s no control here, this was a fall and every time there was something to grab onto it just disappeared. Nothing was real, it wasn’t real. Someone else pulled the strings on his life and now they’ve all been cut and there’s nothing holding him up anymore.

Alone. He’s alone and he can’t do this. Just a kid who lost everyone on a lie. Peter never had a chance to control anything, Everything was set up for him to react in certain ways, he had no choice, probably never did.

“Peter, buddy, c’mon, breathe for me. Don’t do this, you’re going to hurt yourself. I know this was a lot, but Roo, you’ll get through this, I know this was a lot, your whole life thrown at you in one go. I’m here with you.”

Focus on Tony. He needed to breathe, gain control here. But this was wrong, all of it was wrong. Peter had been through a lot but this was something else entirely. How can any expect him to get through this?

“No. No, Mr. Stark. I can’t- I can’t do this. I’m not- it’s not- it’s a lie. I can’t do this.”

He was sobbing, face tomato red. Tears were streaming down his face, his body shook just like the plane that went down. He couldn’t calm down and he hated himself for it. Peter couldn’t control the way his thoughts always went to his biggest traumas, and now he couldn’t control the way he was reacted. Maybe none of this ever happened, and that’s just a lie too. There’s no proof that he isn’t dead or in a coma or even lost his mind. It’s all been a lie this far, it could be a lie past that.

Arms wrapped around Peter. They held him tight and he fought them at first trying to break free. He needed to be free of them, free of his thoughts. He only struggled for a few minutes before finally being able to relax, entire body going limp.

Everything was too much. It was too much.

And Peter was falling from the sky. Falling too fast and too hard into the rest of his life. There was no way to catch himself, not at these speeds. He was just a six year old with too much heartache. No Spider-Man there to catch him, no webs strong enough. Peter was falling from the sky and he couldn’t stop.

But Tony is there, and Tony will be there to catch Peter before he crashes.

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euphoria-svt · 5 years

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Meet Cute

Requested by @kbearr12 : hi! Can you do one where Connor and y/n bump into each other at Shawn’s Grand Rapids concert and they say sorry. Then she goes back to her seat and he asks a security guard to go find her. He finds her and brings her backstage to see Connor and they properly meet each other and exchange numbers. He has to leave the next day and he promises to reunite with her at the Detroit concert. The day arrives and they go on a date and then he kisses her and they become a couple.

I loved this idea sm!! It turned out longer than I expected and I changed it up a bit but I hope you like it xx (also it’s like almost 2am where I am rn but the coffee from today is not letting me sleep d o n e)

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“I cannot believe you made me drive all the way here” You grumbled in exhaustion as you plopped down on the bed, face down on the pillow “I’m fucking tired”

Amber laughs from beside you and poked your side “Come on, y/n! We couldn’t get tickets for the Detroit show so this is the next best alternative” She rolled her eyes playfully “At least say thank you! Remember how long it took me to find someone who was reselling these tickets?”

You spoke up, your voice muffled by the pillow “Thank you, best friend”

You lifted your head and shot her a look “Still wouldn’t kill you to drive for half the journey, you know?”

She rolled her eyes again, “I’ll drive tomorrow, okay? Now stop complaining so much! We’re seeing Shawn in a few hours and it still hasn’t hit me yet”

“Right?” You gushed dreamily “We’ve waited a whole year for this and I cannot believe it’s really happening”

Amber nodded in agreement “You can take a nap if you want to, babe. We don’t leave for the arena in a couple of hours”

You let out a groan and sat up lazily “I want to but I’ve got that assignment to work on. I should at least do some research for it”

“You brought your uni work with you?” Amber asked amusedly “Who the hell even are you?”

“I have that stupid proposal Professor Smith wants us to submit next Monday” You rolled your eyes as you walked over to the table where you left your shoulder bag “I haven’t started anything and I would be so screwed if I delayed it anymore”

“Right,” Amber nodded “Lily said he’s a nightmare, huh?”

“The absolute worst” You snorted “I saw a coffee shop across the street so I’m just going to grab a cup and work there. What time do we want to leave again?”

“Around 5 pm?” She suggested “We can grab dinner first then take a cab to the arena. I don’t think driving is an option for us”

“Sounds good” You nod “I’ll be back by 4pm to shower and change then we’ll head out”

“Take care, babe!” She called after you as you walked out of the hotel room.

When you got to the coffee shop, it was quiet as there weren’t that many customers inside the place.

“Hi!” The cashier greeted cheerfully as you walked up to the front “What can I get you?”

“Can I get your biggest size of hot latte with extra shot?” You asked, letting your eyes wonder to the chiller where they displayed different muffins and pastries “And a blueberry muffin for having here, please”

She nodded in respond, picking up a paper cup and a sharpie pen “Your name?”

“y/n”

“Okay, so that’s $6 in total” The cashier said, punching in the buttons on the cash register.

You unzipped your bag, shuffling through your belongings for your purse. As you couldn’t detect it in your hand, you begin to grow nervous because you were starting to look like a completely idiot for walking into the coffee shop without your wallet.

The cashier picked up on your expression and you could see the annoyed look on her face as you took your time. You sighed heavily, “You know what, forget my order. I’m really sorry”

Out of nowhere, someone came up beside you and placed his card on the table as he spoke “Can I get a large iced americano and I’ll pay for whatever she ordered”

The cashier nodded; her mood instantly returned to cheerful as she took the card from the table.

You turn your head to thank the stranger and when you finally did; you were caught off-guard. The man who stood beside you was incredibly handsome, probably the most good-looking guy you’ve ever met. And not to mention; his set of eyes were the prettiest shade of blue you’ve ever came across.

“T-Thank you” You stuttered out, cheeks turning rose-y pink because you were probably staring at him longer than you should have.

“And your name?” The cashier interrupted before he could even speak.

“Connor” He glanced at the cashier for a second then turning to you, with a smile forming on his face “And you’re welcome”

“Here’s your card and you can wait for your order at the other end” The cashier handed Connor the receipt and his credit card, flashing him a smile in the process.

You slowly trailed behind Connor as he walked to the pick-up counter.

“You really didn’t have to pay for me” You shyly spoke up as you two stood side by side, waiting for your orders “But thanks again… Connor, right?”

Connor nods, “Hey, it’s not a problem at all”

“You can give me your details and I could venmo you the money later?”

He chuckled and shake his head “Honest to God, we’re good. You don’t owe me anything. I insist”

You looked at him hesitantly. Why was he being so nice when he didn’t even know you? “Okay….” You dragged before holding your hand out “I’m y/n, by the way”

Connor accepts your shake, grinning as he said “Pretty name for a pretty girl”

You blushed furiously at his compliment “Thank you, that’s very nice of you”

“Okay, I’ve got a hot latte and blueberry muffin for y/n” The barista placed the tray on the table “And an iced americano for Connor”

“That’s us, thanks you” Connor said politely to the barista, grabbing his cup off the tray “Well, y/n, this has been nice but I really gotta run”

“Right,” You nod “Thanks again for the drink. I wish I could return the kind gesture to you, though”

He flashed you a smile “Next time!” Connor said as he started heading for the door.

You called after him in confusion “I don’t live here!”

Connor turned around, smirking a little “I don’t too but if it’s meant to be, we’ll meet again!” He said, winking before he walked out of the shop.

You couldn’t stop thinking about Connor as you were in the middle of writing your proposal. What were the odds of you meeting someone so kind and insanely gorgeous like him?

But then you thought about it realistically and a frown appeared on your face. It’s me we’re talking about You thought to yourself My luck with guys is as good as zero. I don’t have his number and we’re both not from here. There’s no way I’d ever see him again.

xxx

“What the fuck?” Amber asked dumbfoundedly once you two were sat in your seats in the arena.

You were so engrossed in your work earlier at the coffee shop today; you didn’t notice you were late to meet Amber back in your hotel room and was rushing to get ready for the concert. You only brought up your little cute meet with Connor to Amber when you were waiting to get into the arena.

“So, he just left?” She pressed “No number or whatsoever?”

You sigh, shaking your head “Nope. Just told me if it’s meant to be then we’ll meet again”

“We don’t even live here, how the hell is that going to happen?”

“That’s what I said!” You pouted “Whatever, I don’t care. There’s no way I’d ever meet him again”

“How cute was he?” Amber smirked “Like really cute? On a scale of 1 to Shawn?”

You shrugged, “He’s definitely up there with Shawn, for sure. Can’t believe this is happening to me. My luck with guys fucking sucks, Am”

“Awww, babe” She cooed “I’m sorry that happened, sweets. But I promise; you are going to meet someone!”

You rolled your eyes at her attempt to cheer you up “I highly doubt that, Am, but thanks for the kind words”

“Hey, I kind of need to go to the bathroom” Amber announced a few moments later “Do you think I still have time before Alessia’s set?”

“I think so” You answered, checking the time on your phone “We’ve got about 20 minutes or so. I need to go as well so let’s quickly go and come back”

After standing in que for about 10 minutes, you and Amber were finally set to head back inside the arena. You could already see the doors were flooding with fans entering, groaning to yourself because you’d have to wait again to get in.

You were talking to Amber; not really looking where you were going when suddenly someone bumped into your shoulder but thankfully not strong enough to make you fall and look like an idiot in front of everyone.

“I’m so sorry!” The person quickly said and you swore you’ve heard his voice before. Looking up, your jaws nearly dropped to the floor when you saw who was standing in front of you, holding a camera in his hand.

Connor blinked a couple of times to make sure he wasn’t dreaming. He looked at you amusedly, stuttering out your name “y/n?”

“Connor?�� You asked unbelievably with wide eyes “What… What are you doing here?”

He held his camera up, indicating his purpose of being here tonight “Working for Shawn”

“Wait a second,” Amber butted in, interrupting the moment as she looked between you and Connor “Connor? This is the meet cute Connor you were talking about?” She asked shockingly.

He caught on her words, smirking at you “Meet cute Connor, huh?” He teased.

“Shut up!” You hissed to Amber, nudging her ribs lightly so she would get the signal to back away. She raised her hands defensively and took a few steps back.

“I didn’t know you worked with him” You admitted shyly.

Connor chuckled “Well, we didn’t really get to say much to each other so it may have slipped my mind, y/n. Where are you sat, by the way?”

“Section 107, row A” You answered.

“Oh cool” He nods “I’m sorry but I’ve gotta run now… Can I come see you later?” He asks hopefully.

You nod without hesitation “Yeah, I’d really like that”

He waved to you once last time before he sprints down the hall. You walked up to Amber, who was giving you a look “What?”

“You never told me the meet cute Connor is Connor Brashier, dumbass!” Amber hissed, slapping your shoulder.

“You know him?” You asked amusedly as you two got in the end of the line to enter the arena again.

“How the hell do you not know him?” She retorts, clearly offended that you didn’t have a clue who he was “He’ s Shawn’s videographer! Everyone knows him, y/n!”

“I’m sorry” You answered defensively “I don’t spend that much time on Twitter, you know that!”

“What did he say?” Amber asked “Did he finally gave you his number? Are you two going to go out? Are you gonna get married?”

“Amber, shut up!” You cried “1. He didn’t give me his number, 2. We’re not even going out so there’s definitely no weddings, thank you very much and 3. He said he’d come by later”

“That’s so cute!” She cooed “He likes you!”

You blushed “He doesn’t even know me, Am. How the hell could he like me?”

Amber rolled her eyes “And? It’s probably love at first sight or whatever”

xxx

Connor could not believe it. He couldn’t stop thinking about you ever since he left the coffee shop and he was 99.9% sure he was never going to see you again since neither of you lived in Grand Rapids.

I’m an idiot He thought to himself Why didn’t I just ask for her number instead of saying ‘if it’s meant to be, we’ll meet again!’? You’re a dumbass, Connor. Did you really think you lived in a Disney fantasy?

But then it really did happen. He bumped into you again in the place he’d least expect and he’s sure the universe was trying to tell him something about this girl, and who was he to deny that? He didn’t even know a thing about you, besides your name, and he already was attracted to you. Was that normal?

Connor was actively moving around; running from one end to another to get different shots of Shawn from multiple angels for the documentary they were in the process of creating. Every time he moved to a new position; his eyes scanned through the crowd in hopes to find you there.

He finally caught a glance of you when Shawn was doing his set at stage B. You were singing along to ‘Like To Be You’ loudly with the crowd, waving your hand in the air from left to right; the lit-up wristband illuminating a soft pink shade from your wrist.

Connor wasn’t going to miss this opportunity again. He ran up to the tech booth and so happens stumbled across a pen and Shawn’s set list for the night. He ripped off a small part of the paper and scribbled down meet me backstage later? x Connor then folded it neatly.

He would’ve walked up to you there and then to pass it to you but Shawn’s fans started to recognize him and adored him in the fandom that he didn’t think it was a good idea. So, he went up to the nearest security guard, Mike, and slipped the paper in his hand.

“Do you see that girl in section 107 at the front row, wearing the blue sweater?” Connor asked loudly as the guard looked over to the said section and finally spotted you, nodding “Pass this to her and escort her to backstage during the last intermittent break?”

Mike nodded and wondered off to your spot. From a distance, Connor could see the confusion written all over your face but when he pointed to Connor’s direction, he saw a smile forming on your face as you nodded.

xxx

During the last break, Mike escorted you backstage and you nervously trailed after him. You could feel your heart beating at an irregular pace in your chest. You didn’t even know this boy and he was giving you all sorts of feelings.

Down the hall, you finally spotted him. He sat on a large box, his equipment right beside him. And when his eyes landed on your person, his smile widens.

“Thanks, Mike” Connor told the security guard who only nodded in reply then wondered off.

“So, why have I been summoned backstage?” You asked teasingly “Are you going to drag me through the backdoors and have me killed, Connor?”

Connor rolled his eyes “Like I’d ever kill a pretty lady like you, y/n”

“Where are you from?” He asked a few moments later.

“I’m studying in Detroit” You responded as you crossed your arms over your chest “My best friend and I were trying to get tickets for the Detroit show last year but it sold out quickly so this was our next best alternative”

“Well, I’m glad that happened” Connor smiled, before adding shyly “Sucks that you had to travel a distance but I did meet you twice today, and I guess that’s fate”

Okay he is definitely flirting.

You nodded in agreement, smiling “Yeah I guess that’s fate”

“Okay, so, you owe a coffee date” He announced, pulling out his phone from his pocket “But only when we get to Detroit in August because I leave Grand Rapids tomorrow. Deal?”

You took the phone out of his hand, and pretended to think about it for a second, clearly teasing him “I don’t remember saying I’d go on a date with you, though”

“It’s been decided, y/n” Connor smirked “When you said ‘I wish I could return the kind gesture to you’ a few hours ago”

“Did I?” You faked a gasp as you begin to type your number in his phone “I don’t really recall saying that but if you insist on this little date then I guess I’ll have to go along with it, huh?”

“Guess you do” He teased, retrieving the device from your phone.

xxx

You and Amber finished your last class together and was walking out of campus to head back to your dorm after having back to back classes for the past 5 hours. You weren’t in the mood to do anything else besides sleep at this point.

“Are you going to that party tonight?” Amber asked as you two walked down the steps outside the main entrance “The one at Kim’s?”

“I don’t think so,” You groaned sleepily “I just want to order pizza tonight and watch a bunch of movies on Netflix. Sounds like a deal?”

Amber nodded without hesitation until she saw the sight in front of her. She turned to you, smirking “y/n, you might want to reconsider your plans”

“Why?” You asked confusingly before your eyes trailed to where she was looking at. Your jaws dropped at the sight of him standing not too far away from you, with a bouquet of flowers in his hand, instead of being on the tour bus.

That little shit.

“I, uhm-,”

Amber rolled her eyes playfully at your shocked state and nudged you forward “Stop being a weirdo, idiot!”

You slowly approached him, noticing his smile widening as you got closer “Hi” You said softly.

“Hey, there” He greeted sweetly “You’re looking kind of shocked there, y/n. Are you okay?” Connor asked with a grin.

You leaned forward and wrapped your arms around his neck; squishing the flowers between your bodies. Connor chuckled and wrapped his arms around you “I missed you too, honey”

“You lied to me!” You whined, slapping his chest playfully after pulling away from his embrace “Still on the road,” You air quoted his text message from half an hour ago “Really?” You asked in annoyance.

“It’s obviously called surprises” He rolled his eyes playfully, then his eyes trailed over your shoulder, greeting your best friend who he’s met frequently over Facetime calls and grown to be friends with “Hi Amber!”

“Hey, Con” Amber smiles as she stood beside you “So, I see that you and y/n have plans for the evening so I’m going to head home and catch up on sleep” She announced as she trailed her eyes down to the bouquet “I can take those home for y/n and put them in a vase if you want?”

“That would be great, thanks Am” Connor nodded gratefully, handing it to her. He held his arm for you to take “Shall we go?”

“I guess I don’t have a choice” You exaggerated a sigh as he rolled his eyes playfully at you. You looped your arm through his then waved to Amber “Bye Am!”

“Have fun you love birds!” She teased before walking in the other direction.

2 hours later, you and Connor were full from having burgers at your favourite diner and were just wondering around town as you showed him your favourite places to shop and etc.

You finally took him to the big park in your campus neighbourhood and led him to your favourite spot by the big oak tree, where you spent your free times reading, listening to music and just surrounding yourself with nature.

“So, how’s the tour?” You asked as you two sat by side, leaning back against the trunk of the tree “Everything okay?”

“Everything’s going great” Connor answered without hesitation “A little tired from all the staying up I have to do but I’m doing what I love, so I can’t complain”

“Do you have that much to edit?” You frowned “Can’t they let you continue the next day or something?”

“That’s totally my decision, y/n” He chuckled “They’re not forcing me to do whatever. I just prefer to get everything done on the same day so when I go through it again the next day, I can cut and edit some things that I end up not liking”

“Can you try to cut down the staying up till 4/5am, though?” You asked softly “It’s not good for your health, Con. You know that, right?”

Here’s the thing. Everyone who knew you or Connor separately knew you both weren’t in a relationship from the way you talked about each other. But they also knew that didn’t necessarily mean that you were single. After that night in Grand Rapids, you and Connor texted and FaceTime each other almost every day. You two got to know each other better and discovered habits of one another, and may have developed feelings for each other in that process.

Crazy huh? To be liking someone you’ve only met once? But to y/n and Connor, it was different. It already seemed like they were together and were in a long-distance relationship because neither party went on dates after that night.

You could say they were taken by each other without actually putting a label on their relationship.

“I’ll try” Connor promised.

And at that moment, when Connor was looking at you up-close, instead of behind his laptop screen; seeing that beautiful smile on your face in real life gave him the courage to speak up “Can….,” He swallowed his saliva and nervously continued “Can I kiss you?”

You nodded shyly as he leaned in closer to you and you mirrored his actions; feeling his nose bumped yours slightly before you felt his lips pressed against yours softly.

You’ve had your fair shares of kisses but damn. Connor was one heck of a good kisser.

It feels like everything has stopped and while you could hear kids laughing and running around in the background, it felt like it was just you and Connor in the world.

You rest your hand on his cheek after as he rests his forehead against yours. Connor’s hand was on your clothed thigh, rubbing small circles on the fabric of your pants.

You bite your lower lip, a smile forming on your face as you stared into his eyes “Wow”

Connor laughs softly and nodded in agreement “Wow indeed”

“I really like you, y/n” He added “I’m crazy for you and I’d really like it if you would be my girlfriend”

“Con,” You frowned slightly “How do we make it work? You’re busy traveling the world and I’m here in Detroit”

“We can figure it out later, y/n” Connor said reassuringly “All I know is that I don’t want this with anyone else and I knew that instantly from the day we met”

“It’s fate, isn’t it?” He continued when you didn’t say anything “It sounds unrealistic to believe how we met but I can’t deny there’s something going on between us”

Connor laced his fingers through yours, “We have something special… And I don’t want to lose it before we even give it a try” He said softly.

He’s right and you know it. You didn’t want to lose whatever it is that’s going on between you two.

“Okay”

He looked at you for clarification “Okay?”

You smiled, bringing your intertwined hands up to your lip and pressed a soft kiss to his knuckle “Okay, I’ll be your girlfriend”

#connor brashier #connor brashier imagines #connor brashier x reader #con #imagines #teen fiction

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rcserph · 4 years

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on a scale of 1-10, how excited are you about life right now? sdjlgsj this got sad very fast. ummmm.......3.

describe yourself in a hashtag? #i am an OA stan first human second

if you could do a love scene with anyone, who would it be? i can’t believe i even had to think about it. riz ahmed, please!

what’s one thing people don’t know about you? i sing!

what’s your wake up ritual? i wake up and then i just lie in bed until my dog starts scratching on the door and my mom goes “she’s asleep!” then i get up, open the door, and surprise her.

what’s your go to bed ritual? i stay up until 7 am and then go “alright. it’s time.” and i turn off the lights & go to sleep.

what’s your favorite time of day? late at night. like 3 am maybe.

your go to for having a good laugh? lately it’s been community, but a kurtis conner vid/podcast is always good too.

what’s the biggest surprise you’ve ever had? umm...... is it sad that i can’t think of anything? maybe when i passed my admin class fjslsdlgjs

heels or flats/sneakers? sneakers.

vintage or new? i looooove the vintage vibe & aesthetic but do i ever buy vintage???? no. so ig new things that look vintage and maybe when i have enough money to afford vintage i’ll get myself some cool band tee’s and furniture

who do you want to write your obituary? i don’t want to think about this. but i guess it’d be cool if stephen king wrote it. he could insert me into one of his stories in the obit, like maybe say i died at the overlook hotel idk idk.

style icon? i don’t have one!!!!!!!!!! actually that’s not true. kel lauren.

what are three things you cannot live without? my family, my friends & my pup

what’s one ingredient you put in everything? nooch. sfkjlgls. i’m a good vegan sometimes. nutritional yeast babyyyyy.

what 3 people living or dead would you want to make dinner for? oh god i can’t coOK. i want to say samah dada bc i love her but also she actually knows how to cook so... mm scary. maybe her, harry styles & AOC.

window or aisle seat? window.

what’s your current tv obsession? community! i appreciate netflix so much for putting it on there – i’ve been trying to watch it for yeaarsssss

favorite app? toon/toy blast

how would you define yourself in three words? obsessive, empathetic & curious

favorite piece of clothing you own? my beatles shirt honestly. & my jean jacket.

a must have clothing item that everyone should have? ummmm i mean i feel like everyone should have a pair of shoes they enjoy wearing? even if they’re not comfortable. just a pair of shoes u like.

a superpower you would want? i’ll take the ability to stop time for 500, Alex! like if i had a project to turn in that i hadn’t started yet (which i do rn) i could just stop time and do it!!

what’s inspiring you in life right now? art!!! films, literature, music.... everything art encompasses.

best piece of advice you’ve received? “forgive yourself”

best advice you’d give your teenage self? write more.

a book everyone should read? the outsiders

what would you like to be remembered for? helping people.

how do you define beauty? having a kind soul.

best way to take a rest/decompress? taking a nap or watching your favorite movie

favorite place to view art? museums, preferably, but everywhere honestly.

if your life was a song, what would the title be? emotional

if you could master one instrument, what would it be? piano.

if you had a tattoo, where would it be? my collarbone. sexy.

dolphins or koalas? dolphins

what’s your spirit animal? hummingbird

what’s your favorite board game? sorry!

what’s your favorite color? lilac or peach

least favorite color? ooh idk. maybe bright, bright yellow

diamond or pearls? diamonds

drugstore makeup or designer? designer, but i appreciate drugstore too

coffee or tea? coffee! i miss it.

dark chocolate or milk chocolate? dark chocolate

stairs or elevators? stairs but elevators when i can ride them alone.

summer or winter? winter

you are stuck on an island, you can pick one food to eat forever without getting tired of it, what would you eat? strawberries

a dessert you don’t like? apple pie :(

a skill you’re working on mastering? being nice to myself! and keeping up with my skin-care routine. :(((((((

best thing to happen to you today? i talked to my entire family on zoom!!! it was really nice to see everyone and know they’re doing well. everyone’s hair is so long now too sljgs it’s funny!

worst thing to happen to you today? i found out my great grandma’s not doing so well.

favorite smell? freshly baked bread.

hugs or kisses? kisses.

if you made a documentary, would it be about? about where i’m from

last piece of content you consumed that made you cry? looking for alaska.

lipstick or lipgloss? lipstick

sweet or savory? savory

girl crush? laura harrier pls

how do you know you’re in love? idk????? i’ve never been in love.

a song you can listen to on repeat? landslide by fleetwood mac honestly.

if you could switch lives with someone for a day, who would it be? maybe someone who owns a book shop and tends a garden idk.

what are you most excited for/about this time in your life? starting my rotation in july! i’m terrified, but very excited.

tagged by: technically no one, but @dancsmiths kind of!!!!! tagging: @octaviadany & @pushingddaisies and also everyone who sees this on their dash is officially tagged!!! pls tag me if u do it bc i’m nosy & i want to see what u say.

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ALL OF THEM ~~~~~~~

1: The last person you kissed screams they love you, you say…It really depends who the person Is lol, I haven’t kissed anyone in a long time and the last person wasn’t so great so I would kindly reject them ://

2: Did you get to sleep in today?

FUCK YES I SLEPT UNTIL 1:30 PM

3: You never know what you got until you lose it?

It throws a lot into perspective. There’s a lot people take for granted and once you loose it you don’t realize until it’s gone and you can’t get it back.

4: Do you have siblings?

An older brother whose 9 years apart from me named Chris.

5: How many kids do you want?

2 probably, both more likely adopted.

6: Who was the last person you held hands with?

Collin Aka Literal-Trashlord.

7: Did you stand on your tippy-toes for your last kiss?

Nah, person was shorter than me lmao.

8: Do you think if you died, the last person you kissed would care?

Who knows. I don’t really care weirdly enough lol.

9: Last person to talk on the phone?

My mother.

10: Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone?

No.

11: When’s your birthday?

June 3rd.

12: Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?

Not really, I kind of blocked the memory out lmao.

13: What kind of phone do you have?

Iphone S7

14: Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?

Rn I’m wearing my work pants 😩

15: Are you a different person now than you were 5 years ago?

God I hope so, I wasn’t in a great place mentally then lmao.

16: What were you doing at 4 am?

LMAO THATS LOADED. LATELY MY GAY ASS HAS BEEN FINDING MURDER MYSTERIES AND BUZZFEED VIDEOS WHILE TEXTING FRIENDS AS THEY SLEEP.

17: Would you rather write a paper or give a speech?

Paper definitely.

18: Are you lying to yourself about something?

Probably. 👀🗡

19: Last night you felt…?

Fine mostly, tired and a bit sore.

20: What’s something you cannot wait for?

To be able to go stargazing with someone close to me as well as get my life together hopefully and travel.

21: Ever told your parents you were going somewhere but when somewhere different?

I think so. I haven’t done that to my biological mom at least 😂

22: How many hours of sleep did you get last night?

Uh…7 and a half hrs?? I went to bed at 5:35 and woke up at 1:30 pm.

23: Are you a morning or night person?

Definitely a night owl. Morning person Rarely.

24: What did you get your last bruise from?

I banged into my friends counter like a dumbass. That or I was doing a price check and hit into something.

25: Do you reply to all of your texts?

Mostly though i forget to reply sometimes oof.

26: Your phone is ringing. It’s the person you fell hardest for. What do you do?

Talk to them casually, times passed and we’re still close beyond reason. ❤️

27: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?

No. I don’t really care about it 😤

28: Anyone you would like to get things straight with?

Yeah, a few people honestly. Some I was extremely close to.

29: How many months until your birthday?

30: Favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?

Celery or Apple slices.

31: Did you like this past summer?

It was good. So yeah I can’t complain.

32: What were you doing before you got on the computer?

Working and hanging out with friends.

33: Your ex is sitting next to you, with their new partner. What do you do?

Big oof. Honestly make the best of it?? Really no reason to get upset at this point.

34: What is the last thing you said out loud?

“Get fucked, Steve.” (We were playin Yahtzee with an Ai)

35: Your mood summed into one word?

O O F.

36: Are you doing anything else besides taking this survey?

playing Yahtzee with friends and an Ai Whose kicking all our asses.

37: What are your initials?

K. C. M.

38: Are you a happy person?

Generally though I do struggle with depression but no big deal.

39: Do you still talk to the person you liked 4 months ago?

Yeah, we’re still close friends.

40: Where do you want to live when your older?

I want to travel around, but I would love somewhere quiet with mountains where I can see stars almost every night.

41: Have you had your birthday this year?

Yes. We went to a trampoline park and got absolutely lit jumping around. 👀🔥

42: What did you do yesterday?

I worked 2:00 to 6:30 as a Cashier otherwise I went home and chilled out 😎

43: What will you be doing tomorrow?

Thankfully I have a day off tomorrow. So I’m probably gonna chill out and continue with ideas for a comic I might post soon.

44: How late did you stay up last night?

Until 5:35 AM.

45: Is there anyone you would do anything for?

Yeah definitely. I would drop everything for a select handful of people. Honestly I’d help anyone if I could.

46: Is it hard to make you laugh?

No omg. I laugh literally at anything unless I’m in a weird funk.

47: Do you believe ex’s can be just friends?

Yes, I’m still alright with one ex. But honestly work it out and hopefully things will be alright. Especially if its a mutual breakup things should be alright even if they’re awkward for a while.

48: Do you think any of your exes will eventually want to be with you again?

Lmao nah. I doubt it.

49: How many people have you had feelings for in the year of 2012?

BRUH YOU ACT LIKE I REMEMBER

50: Do you wish your ex was dead?

Never wish that on somebody.

51: Have you ever dyed your hair?

Yes I had it dyed Teal once.

52: Would ever take back someone that cheated?

I doubt it. I’d have issues trusting them.

53: Was New Year’s Even enjoyable?

This year shockingly was.

54: Bet you’re missing someone right now?

Yeah, I miss my family a lot. I don’t really get to see them. I got to see my mom today and I was really happy. ❤️

55: How would your parents react if you got a tattoo?

My mom probably wouldn’t like it at first but grow to like it knowing her, she wants to get a butterfly tattoo on her wrist.

56: Sleep on your back or stomach?

Stomach and side mostly. I can’t really get comfy on my back :((

57: If you could move away, no questions asked, where would it be ?

Somewhere nice and fun. Probably star lit and mountain filled but still some hustle and bussle.

58: What would you change about your life right now?

Living situation, I love living with my best friend but sometimes I miss living with my mom?? Idk.

59: Has anything upset you in the past week?

Yeah a handful of personal things. But I feel alright now.

60: Are you on the phone?

Yes

61: Today, would you rather go forward a week or back?

Probably back, I’d rather redo a few days than skip and loose out.

62: Would you take $40,000 or a brand new car?

Probably 40,000 so I can give some and help others.

63: Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?

OH YEAH THATS AN EXPERIENCE

64: Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone?

A few times, mostly when I’m stressed out or the situation is really tough.

65: Have you ever copied someone elses homework?

Yes. Especially when I forgot it and my friend came in clutch.

66: Are you the type of person who likes to be out or at home?

I’m a mix. There’s days I love to be out others inside and relaxing.

67: Do you automatically check your phone when you wake up?

It’s my alarm clock so sadly.

68: Have you ever stayed up all night on the phone?

Sadly, yes.

69: Could you use some sleep right now?

Probably like 20 + hrs. One good ass nap.

70: Are you going to have a baby by the time you’re 18?

Looks at age. Uhm 😂😂😂

71: Does it bother you when someone hides things from you?

Yeah. I’d rather the person come to me than hide it and talk shit. Even if it hurts I’d rather know and fix the situation.

72: What’s your favorite color?

I love deep reds but I also like blues and purples.

73: Have you ever slept in the same room with someone you liked?

Yes a few times

74: Have you ever been looking for something and it was already in your hand?

LMAO YES. i was looking for my wallet once and panicked but i was holding it.

75: Do you get annoyed easily?

Depending on the situation but when the questions dumb as hell or argument yes.

76: If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you?

Yeah. I’d rather know so I don’t accidentally break their heart. I’d rather know so I can confront the situation though still I’d be extremely flattered.

77: Do you have a person of the opposite sex that you can tell everything to?

Yes.

78: Does anyone call you babe?

Yeah a handful of people.

79: How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

A lot ????

80: What do you prefer, relationship or one night stand?

Relationship. Never had a one nighter lol.

81: What color hoodie did you wear last?

Dark purple with writing on it from my college 😂

82: Is there someone who meant alot to you at one point, and isn’t around anymore?

Yeah. Someone I really did trust and love. They did some shitty stuff and I had to break the friendship off but even now I find myself checking in on them now and again even though the answer is always the same or really cold.

#Guido i actually hate you #omg #bruh #this took a while.

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the-heat-of-the-moment-gabe · 7 years

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Games of tagging

(I am tremendously sorry for that reference) ^-^

I have been tagged by the sweetest person alive, @scarlettwinchester23 <333, THANK YOU!!

Apparently, the goal is to list 92 truths about myself (why not more? why not less? why specifically 92? We might never know...) and to tag 25 people ^^ (If I could, I would tag all of my followers, they all deserve this <33) I hope at least this game accomplishes its goals...

The game is on ;)

*nervously sweats due to the appalling number of fandom references*

Last:

Last thing I bought: shamelessly admit that it was a Milka chocolate with Oreo flavour, because I cannot resist in front of sweet pleasures like those ^^

Last store I visited: I think it was Cumberland farms? They have nice chocolate bars there =))

Last text message: should I actually quote it? Should I not? Okay, fine, I will, but please don’t judge it 😂

“I just reached that peculiar level of homesickness when I was effectively listening to ‘she’s the one’ by Robbie Williams, as I could hear in the background the romantic and sad lyrics ‘I was her, she was me, we were one, we were free...’ and I was staring at some pictures on google with delicious stuffed peppers while sobbing “

(After that, I sent to my friend a picture with them) :))))

Last song I listened to: Moonlight shadow - Mike Oldfield & Miriam Stockley

Last thing I ate: Chicken with noodles and many cups of tea

Have you ever:

Dated someone twice: Nah (only if you talk about reader inserts :)) )

Been cheated on: Nope

Kissed someone and regretted it: hear that sound? It’s me constantly saying “no”

Lost someone special: Unfortunately, yes... :(

Been depressed: yeah...

Been drunk and thrown up: never (does apple cider count? just kidding 😂😂)

In the past year have you:

Made a new friend: Yesss, definitely ❤❤❤

Fallen out of love: umm...no??

Laughed until you cried: Obviously!!! Funny story, I was so amused by a star trek post that I had to run through the whole airport just to lock myself in the bathroom and laugh there like an idiot, I still have no idea how people even looked normally at me then 😂😂

Met someone who changed you: Yesss :)))

Found out who your true friends were: Yep, I certainly did

Found out someone was talking about you: Probably yes? Not bad things, though 😂

General:

How many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: like, talked to them? I think around ten. Friends? Two :)). People that I have actually met/talked to face to face? None

Do you have any pets?: Yess, many, a black german shepherd, my sweet sister <33, two cockatiels, one turtle and two nice fish exemplars (I just found out today that the previous one died... NEVER buy a fish, you get attached of them, and then they pass away :( ), and I also used to have a cat, with wonderful soft fur (I miss her so much!!)

Do you want to change your name: Interesting question 😂😂 My first name, never, I love it way too much, I once wanted to change my middle name, but now I adore that one too :)) Concerning last name, YES, I have a whole list of choices, and yeah, Winchester is one of them 😂

What time did you wake up this morning?: woke up: around 8; actually got out of bed : 12 😂😂

What were you doing last night?: I was trying to bare my horrible flu while talking to my parents on phone and making bad jokes :)

Name something you cannot wait for: CHRISTMAS! I’m sorry 😂 Actually, I cannot wait for getting a chance to visit NYC, attending a spn conference, finding an actual nice brand of chocolate in the US, and seeing new seasons of my favorite TV shows, as well as, especially seeing back on screen my lovely fictional characters (*inhales* GABRIEEEEEL)

Have you ever talked to a person called Tom: Yess, this summer actually

What’s getting on your nerves rn?: That it’s late and I have a lot of work to do which I cannot manage to accomplish, and that the song I am listening right now it’s a remix of “always on my mind” that sounds awful, it makes me stab the radio and search on youtube the original version

Blood type: A +. Like my grades ;) (ha)

Nickname: It depends on who you’re asking... I don’t actually have one, despite the one I’ve already mentioned in a previous Tagging game :))

Relationship status: profound serious relationship with fictional characters... and my food

Zodiac sign: Libra

Pronouns: she/her/hers/herself/other pronouns and that are regarded as third singular person, feminine gender

Favourite TV show: Don’t make me choose!! But right now it’s, obviously, Supernatural <333

Hair colour: Light sandy brown :)

Long or short: Shoulder length

Do you have a crush on someone: Fictional characters, actors, singers... ^-^

Firsts:

First surgery: never had, hopefully never will

First piercing: my ears?? Couple of days after I got born?😂

First best friend: Annnnndy :)) (actually, it was my dog, but yeah, whatever)

First sport you joined: Swimming, at 5 :)

First vacation: I think it was when I was 2 years old, at the mountains... It was my first hike too 😂😂

First pair of sneakers: Umm... Most probably I was young, so they had pink barbies and flowers 😂

Currently:

Eating: Nada. Unfortunately...

Drinking: Tea 😂 (very British today)

I’m about to: go finally to sleep!!

Listening to: It’s a kind of magic :))) (my fav)

Want kids: Later, much much later... Right now I feel like the only presence of kids around me would end up with a hospitalization (them, not me)

Get married: Again, later 😂😂

Career: Professional fangirl :)

Which is better:

Lips or eye: both 😂😂 Eyes are the ones that make you melt, though :))

Hugs or kisses Hugs ^^

Shorter or taller: Taller😂 (says the person who only falls for short people)

Older or younger: None :)

Romantic or Spontaneous: First choice :)

Sensitive or loud: Sensitive

Hook up or relationship: Soulmate thing, that’s it, none of those (what’s with these questions??😂)

Troublemaker or hesitant: Usually, i would go for hesitant, because that is the cutest trait ever, yet the first choice is wonderful too :)

Have you ever:

Kissed a stranger: hahahah.... nope.

Drank hard liquor: Nah

Lost glasses/contacts: I hope not 😂

Sex on first date: Geez NO

Broken someone’s heart: nice joke, nope...

Been arrested: Nah. Not yet. (Just kidding!!)

Turned someone down: Nope, you need someone to like you first 😂

Fallen for a friend : unless counting fictional characters... nope.

Do you believe:

In yourself: Sometimes a lot, sometimes not at all...

Love at first sight: Ohhhh definitely <333

Heaven: Of course

Santa Claus: How can I not?😂😂 (I have this nice tradition of trying to convince myself of things that don’t exist just to make myself feel happy, so sometimes I imagine that he is real just to bring a bit of magic to Christmas season :)) )

Now, who shall I tag?... Everyone! 😂😂 Silly joke, I am way too tired to mention 25 people, unfortunately, but here it goes: @oftrickstersandmoose ❤❤❤, @hunters-hiraeth, @tricksterxangel, @akhuna01, @sabriel-fanboy-83, @lisiblack, @jaaxsoadeaanspn, @quaker-wtf-lass, @peanutsrule0 (hi! :) ), @chaotictrickster, and many more <33

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sambashua · 7 years

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92 questions/random questions/8 things tag~

hello friends !!! i’ve done the first two tags before but it’s been quite a while so ?? let’s see if i can come up w new responses i guess?? also these all have similar-ish questions so i thought i’d combine them so i don’t clog up everyone’s dashes~

tagged by (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ(ilya so dang much my favorite muffins)

92 questions: mariel! @jaehyunscult kelby! @yooncheoly and claudia! @s-lay-ing

random questions: kolbo! @yooncheoly ommo! @strawberryboo and cloodoo! @s-lay-ing

eight things: em! @seoulscapes mj! @jungnoir and kat! @atshinee

i’m going to tag @everyonesabiaswrecker @hoshi-ssi @king-hao @moonhyook @taeismyking @honestlay @yoonsunha @amessence @kylamassie1 @peachesandkili and also the beans who tagged me above!! you can do one of the ones you didn’t tag me in hehe(≧◡≦)

you guys can choose whichever tags you want!! or all of them ? idk it’s basically either long, easy or creative so whatever you feel like doing… or do none of them!! that works too! if you don’t want to be tagged just let me knowwww also you rlly don’t have to read this whole thing it is so damn long… but w/o further ado…

92 questions

the last…

1. drink: water

2. phone call: my grandma !

3. text message: “THEBOP OF THE SUMMER” (sic)

4. song you listened to: ‘love paint (every afternoon)’ by NU’EST started playing before i got out of the car last night… WAIT I JUST REMEMBERED I WATCHED MX’S NEWTON THIS MORNING OH MY GOD THE BOP OF THE SUMMER THAT’S WHAT THE TEXT WAS ABT BTW

5. time you cried: hmmmm not monsta x surprisingly ? but we have some rlly spicy food in LA and @everyonesabiaswrecker @taeismyking and i had to hide our eyes from the waiter lol

have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: nooo (as i said last time i’ve never dated so these are all no’s so you can skip around a bit i suppose)

7. been cheated on: nooo

8. kissed someone and regretted it: nooo

9. lost someone special: yea

10. been depressed: nope

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: drinking makes ya do bad stuff kids

list three favorite colors (12-15)…

grey, light blue nd light green !

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: yeAH SO MANY! irl and online i’m so thankful for everyone i’ve met~~ since i started uni i was rlly nervous abt meeting people and although i have one (1) new friend irl (shoutout to my main main main kat @atshinee literally where would i be w/o you i probably woulda gotten stuck at camp bc of the hail storm) i’ve met countless lovely individuals online that i am forever grateful for;;; now i’m being all sappy someoNE STOP ME

16. fallen out of love: nooo

17. laughed until you cried: almost everyday~~

18. found out someone was talking about you: oh yea

19. met someone who changed you: YES

20. found out who your true friends are: yeah!

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: nooooooooooooooope

general stuff

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: idk like probably actually 80% but they’re not people i talk to now ? (kat still yells at me abt my answer last time)

23. do you have any pets: I GOT TWO CATS TOM TOM AND MYSTERY THEY ARE ADORABLE BEANS ND I LIKE TO BRAG ABT THEM SO ASK ME FOR PICS

24. do you want to change your name: i like my name a lot tbh (there’s so many endless nickname possibilities honestly)

25. what did you do for your last birthday: i got gelato w two of my closest frandssss and also listened to nct dream like the whole day it was the best

26. what time did you wake up: um m m i think 9? yesterday i went to bed at 3:30 and woke up at 7:30 so i slept in more today lol

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: trying to read a soonhoon fic from eep and messaging ivy:D

28. name something you cannot wait for: uM IDK EVERYTHING I WAS WAITING FOR ALREADY HAPPENED i guess just moving back to school and starting classes??? i’m so anxious ugh

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: 4 ? hours ago ?

30. what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: um idk i think i’m pretty blessed to be completely honest

31. what are you listening to right now: there’s construction going on in the distance idk what they’re doing but it is LOUD

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i’m so shook people haven’t talked to any toms i’ve met so many i don’t undeRSTAND

33. something that is getting on your nerves: ignorance *finger guns*

34. most visited website: tumblr (i haven’t been on youtube much lately cry)

35. elementary school: yeahhh

36. high school: yeahhh

37. college: yeahhh

38. hair color: blonde

39. long or short hair: it’s so long rn i’m constantly choking on it

40. do you have a crush on someone: crushes are for noobs

41. what do you like about yourself: “everything, love yourself.” -kat

42. piercings: ears but i never wear them

43. blood type: idk my parents are both AB so my mom says we’re that too but mom that’s not how genetics work

44. nickname: i have so many but my most common one is mir~ i answer to anything tho

45. relationship status: engaged to jeon wonwoo

46. zodiac sign: cancer~

47. pronouns: she/her

48. favorite tv show: game of thrones or below deck (watch it it’s a reality show abt a yacht crew it’s so entertaining)

49. tattoos: nope i’m too indecisive

50. righty or lefty: right

first…

51. surgery: i had surgery junior year of high school

52. piercing: did they not already ask this oh jk this is first well i still only have ears

53. best friend: in the womb bitchhh (-8 months would be the official age)

54. sport: i think karate ? my dad is super sporty tho so sister and i tried every sport known to man

55. vacation: probably washington bc i have a lot of family there

56. pair of sneakers: literally who knows this tho

right now…

57. eating: nothing

58. drinking: now i’m drinking tea

59. i’m about to: eat a bagel maybe

60. listening to: good luck by aoa (yessss my girls)

61. waiting for: jordyn to get off work so i can see her new dorm:D

62. do you want kids: i always have

63. do you want to get married: i don’t really know marriage seems so outdated…

64: what career do you want: journalist (yay)

which is better…

65. hugs or kisses: hugs!

66. lips or eyes: eyes!

67. shorter or taller: i don’t have much preference but i’m tall and i like being tall

68. older or younger: i don’t really care bc some older people are really immature and some younger people are really mature so~

70. nice arms or nice stomach: i really really don’t care

71. sensitive or loud: these honestly aren’t even antonyms

72. hook up or relationship: relationship

73. troublemaker or hesitant: i’ve never been a troublemaker so ?

have you ever…

74. kissed a stranger: nooo

75. drank hard liquor: neh ?

76. lost glasses/lenses: i have above average vision boiiiii

77. turned someone down: i mean;;;; i think most people have at least indirectly

78. had sex on the first date: nooo

79. broken someone’s heart: i really doubt it lol

80. had your heart broken: jeon wonwoo breaks my heart daily

81. been arrested: nooo

82. cried when someone died: yeahh

83. fallen for a friend: no

do you believe in…

84. yourself: YEAH I GOT THIS! YOU GOT THIS! WE ALL GOT THIS!

85. miracles: maybe ?

86. love at first sight: not even a little bit

87. santa claus:

LOOK AT SOONYOUNG I’M LAUGHING

88. kiss on the first date: i mean i don’t see why not

89. angels: maybe ?

other…

90. current best friends name: sister n em n kat n cass n jords n val :3

91. eye color: grey ish

92. favorite movie: the proposal was my favorite movie for so long;;; i liked moonlight a lot too go see it

random questions

dude i fucking forgot abt this one i thought i was done fuck (why is this font so tiny)

relationship status: single for 19 years bishhhhhhhh favorite color: grey!! but i’ve been feelin orange lately hmmmm lipstick or chapstick: i like tinted lip balm:) but i even use vaseline sometimes try it okay it makes yo lips so soft last song you listened to: well i already said so i’ll do what’s stuck in my head rn: coffee by bts (it’s so good i get such calming vibes from it) last movie you watched: BABY DRIVER it was so ffffff good 100/10 would rec~ the car chases were so cool dude also ansel elgort is such a cutie top 3 characters: i’ll as april ludgate from parks n rec (are you happy jords), celaena from throne of glass, ndddd risa koizumi from lovcom:) top 3 ships: jejun ! soonwoo ! MARKHYUCK(ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ books you are currently reading: rnnnn i’m STILL reading heir of fire (don’t worry cass i will finish it in time) top 5 musicals: mulan is endlessly iconic okay, hsm, phantom of the opera, the sound of music nd mama mia !

eight things

last movie watched: baby driver hoo hoo last song listened to: me gustas tu bitchhhhh last book read: Crown of Midnight still oops sorry cass i’m so damn slow these days last thing eaten: fig newtons (buy newton by monsta x on itunes) if you could be anywhere right now, where would you be: wherever @atshinee is because i want to support her for her test but i know i would probably just distract her:(((((( a fictional character you would hang out with for the day: probably dorian from throne of glass bc he just seems like such a lovable dork i want to give him a big ole hug he needs it what fictional world/universe would you want to spend a week in: i used to be obsessed w the series Gregor the Overlander as a kid and i’d really want to spend a day there that would be so awesome esp the one where they travel through the one rainforest jungle… but also Harry Potter bc i rlly want to go to hogwarts and just;;; look around? it’s so pretty and i want to see all the paintings and staircases and the people it’d be great last video game played: i’ve never rlly played video games… i used to play the sims does that count rip

well it’s finally frickin done i doubt anyone bared w me for this trainwreck…….. i’m so tired now will i even do more of these today jk i gotta i am so behind but no selfie tags i look trash

#tagged #bye #this was so long #time to sleep #jk #i'm not that tired #just ded #thank you guys for tagging me!!!#i think that was everyone???#some of those are a bit old rip #who even read this like wow that's dedication #it's like;;; not even rly funny either so rip #only do this if you want to ofc!!#cries bc the random qs was the first tag jen bean tagged me in:(((#mir moos

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multiple-nerdery · 7 years

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even numbers?

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? It’s happened, but its rare.

4: Do you find it easy to trust others? Trust is a cryptic.

8: Are you close with your dad? eh. Not less than many people, but he can be an annoyance.

10: What are you listening to? A coworker practice piano

12:Do you like hickeys? Take a look at my neck rn and ask that again (the answer is yes. y’all should see it it’s extensive)

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? Not sure if continuously, but like, there’s someone who often does.

16: Do you always answer your texts? no

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? This morning if texting counts.

20:What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? This bed is big and empty.

22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? Eh.

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? Erin, a little. Also I wish I talked to Danny more I want to hang out with him once before I leave forever.

26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? It’s crimson. The decemberists.

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? Well someone has blocked me, but I’m not sure if it counts as ignoring if we hadn’t talked for a while anyway. Also another person kind of.

30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? liSTEn. I honest to fkn god don’t know. I haven’t seen it happen too much

32: Are you mad at anyone? Nah

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? 19? I’m pretty sure.

36:Do you have any summer plans yet? Road Trip starting 2 June hang out w/me other friends while u still can!!!

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? I am keeping literally nothing from my best friend. Unless she wants to know random things about my past past that I haven’t thought of, or details that I haven’t brought up about things she already knows about.

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Actually a little. It was a long enough while ago now to where I don’t have as much a problem with it.

42: Are you available? I... I don’t know? (y’all shoulda asked 43 b/c it would be funny).

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? Nose ring?

46:Do you regret anything? See #40

48: Did you ever lose a best friend? Lose as in stop being friends? Yeah but it was for the best. Lose as in they died? no.

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? I don’t think I have romantic feelings for anyone. I’m trying to avoid thinking about romance seriously until I matriculate into College.

52:Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? ...yes? Is this even a question for me?

54: Did you get any compliments today? Long time drum student expressed sadness that I was leaving soon, which made me cry a little.

56: Do you own anything from other countries? Yes.

58: Where have you lived most of your life? Colorado

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? Not successfully. Like. We were going too but everyone was too tired and we just laid around instead.

62: Who do you text the most? Best friend if you count non-SMS texting, otherwise it’s my parents.

64:What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? Like I’ve got one of those.

66:Is the last person you kissed younger than you? Yes. Almost all of the people I’ve kissed are younger than me.

68: Are you happy with where you live? It’s nice but i’m rEADY to lEAVE

70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? I’m fine with both in theory but I might be a little too jealous to actually have a poly relationship. But. Maybe? I’ve never tried it.

72:What do you most like about making out? Teeth. Pressure of someone’s lips against mine. Pressure of someone’s body against mine. Tongue. Warmth and passion. Breath. Teasing. TEASING. teeth. Really all of it. All of it is good. Oh and personal fav thing is making shitty puns and having th partner break down into laughter b/c it’s cute as hell.

74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? Usually, I would say, I start things. It can really go either way tho.

76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? Parents

78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? Nope. Not sure I could to be tbh honest.

80:Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? Not at the tender age of 18.

82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? Not directly but it slips out. Plus I am not subtle.

84:Last time you slow danced with someone? In a romantic context it’s been like 3 or 4 years, but, like, I slowdance with best friends at school dances sometimes.

86: How can I win your heart? Fuck if I know it just happens an I’m all ‘oh shit’

88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM? Sleeping, but barely.

90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? I mean. I guess kinda but not really. It wasn’t NO communication.

92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? I don’t have the luxury of choosing. Few people find me attractive, so I take what I can get.

94: Name four things that you wish you had! Kaoss Pad, shit tonne of samples fr music, more musical talent, enough money to be financially secure.

96:Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? Yes. Twice. Both because of the same person to be real here.

98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? Not really I don’t think. I’ve met people randomly, found out they had a tumblr and then became mutuals with them, though.

100:Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? Yah there’s plenty.

102: Are you too shy to ask someone out? The last time I did it, they got me high first, and then shot me down after so like... I mean I usually don’t imma be real here.But I can and have done it.

104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? only if we’re kissing or obviously joking.

106: Do you flirt a lot? Does the Pope Shit in the Woods? (yes. That’s a yes)

108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? I’ve kissed 9 people, and I hadn’t kissed anyone in 2012 so... yes.

110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be? I don’t know. Any cute person who wanted to I guess. I am not desperately wishing to kiss people who I cannot kiss right now so...

112: Does someone like you currently? I dunno. Do they?

114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? I haven’t really done too many flings. So idk.

116: Are you happier single or in a relationship? I’m sad all the time, regardless. But fr it really depends on the person.

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alright this has been sitting here for like a month and im tipsy so im gonna fkin answer it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

i have a great relationship with my mom!!

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

my girlfriend 😊😊😊😊❤❤

03: Do you regret anything?

oh sure i do! lots of little things. that’s anxiety babey. but i don’t regret any choices that have got me to where i am today

04: Are you insecure?

it depends on the day, i am some of the time - but it’s a huge improvement from the past omg

05: What is your relationship status?

in a RELATIONSHIP with the LOVE OF MY LIFE

06: How do you want to die?

i do Not like this question ! goodbye thot

07: What did you last eat?

salsa chicken and rice, and zucchini!!!!! and i might annihilate a pint of ice cream later

08: Played any sports?

yes omg i played soccer and lacrosse!!! i love lacrosse sm.

09: Do you bite your nails?

nope i never have! i used to rip them off though lmfao! not the whole thing!!!!! jsust bits

10: When was your last physical fight?

never lmao

11: Do you like someone?

yes

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

no oh my goodness i would literally die

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

sober kaiden might be all dramatic and say yes but white claw kaiden says No :-)

14: Do you miss someone?

yes :( i want to be Kissed!

15: Have any pets?

yA omg i have 2 cats at my mom’s house!!!!! i cannot wait until i can have my own pet

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

i’m actually feeling fgreat, it’s basically my summer break rn and usually i’d feel terrible with no strict plans of what to do, but today was so much fun. i had a great time just fuckin around. im very optimistic

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

HEHEHE oh my gosh, i don’t kiss and tell, but yes i do actually. ok so not a public bathroom but someone else’s bathroom at a party, yes, and my own bathroom, yes, and someone else’s bathroom, yes! i just love bathrooms (wow i sound so cis)

18: Are you scared of spiders?

not especially ! i am Not good at capturing them and also i cannot kill them, but i am sometimes ok with just letting them chill. ok maybe i lied. it depends

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

no 😤

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

the brit Popped Out! the last place was, the airport when i dropped my girlfriend off :(((((

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

omg well it’s still the weeknd rn? it’s sunday night. and my plans were: d&D!!!!!! and it was SO FUN!!! but next weekend, im seeing my bestie graduate college along w my other mt friends, and then on sunday i’m driving home 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

Yes I Do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i ‘m not super sure, maybe 2? 1 would be fine too but also i feel like siblings are great, even tho they’re terrible at the same time. like i’d face my brother in ritual combat but i would also slap a high schooler in the face for being mean to him, yknow

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

i do! i have 2 closed up ear holes.

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

i was always great great great at english/reading/spelling! now i’m in college so like uhhh . i get to choose my subjects. so my best is photography ahah!! but i’m not bad at writing :-)

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

not desperately. sometimes i feel the urge to reconnect with old friends tho

26: What are you craving right now?

a Kiss!!!!!!

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

wait omg first i have a story. so on facebook they used to have those things where you’d answer questions, like this, in a note. i got tagged to do one so i did. let me set the scene. it was sophonmore year of high schoool. im 16. i’d broken up with my first “real” boyfriend a few months ago. so i was tagged for this shindig right.? it got to this very same question: have you ever broken someone’s heart? and i thought about this kid who i dated for 2.5 months...and i was like....well, clearly, he’s devastated we aren’t together! so i answered “Yes. Unfortunately.” ooohhhhh..... the drama.......the absolute emotion..... riveting.... who was he ? i was probably listening to jonas brothers SOS at the time.

anyway, how am i supposed to actually know ? like does sometone have to say “u broke my heart?” bc if so no one’s said that. but my last gf took the breakup v hard so maybe ? but i don’t wanna plant emotions in to anyone’s skull!

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

one of my exes sexted her friends. jury is still out on whether that counts, please lmk me know ur thots. kaelin, if ur out there, i’m so.................................happy that i haven’t spoken a word to you for 3 years. fuck off !

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

Yes

30: What’s irritating you right now?

real quick, an update on the chocolate ice cream situtiaon. i’ve cracked open my pint, as well as another hard seltzer. i’ve also lit a candle. it’s a real production

anyway, no ! oh hahahah. sorry. thought it shaid who’s irritating you. ummm, personal stuff! but im not like mad. just personal drama

31: Does somebody love you?

lors of people do! and lots of people love You Too!!!!! you’re a delight!

32: What is your favourite color?

i LOVE yellow !!!!!!!!!!!! and blue, specifically teal! but not too dark of a teal you km,now ?

33: Do you have trust issues?

depends what im trusting them with !

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

i had a nightmare that i was sabrina the teenage witch and another witch was chasing me on a rooftop trying to kill me :(

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

hmmm idk actually bc it’s hbeen hard for me to cry lately :( probably maya ?

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

to be honest i don’t think i’ve often had the chance to Give a second chance

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

idk man iuhhh it’s kinda hard to just literally completely forget! and mnaybe not as healthy!

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

that’s kinda premature, it’s only april!!! but i suppose may is soon. idk im not sure! maybe every year is the best year of my life :-)

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

20 bb

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

i have ANaughT

51: Favourite food?

i would give up everything for a bgagel. i also LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVEE sushi! my fave roll is i think either spicy tuna w the spicy sawce or seared salmon ora spicy tuna hand roll. i fuck sushi

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

this is a hard question for me to answer bc i want to say yes but also i don’t think abuse or murder or bad things or unnecessary death happens for any reason other thna, it just does sometimes and that sucks real bad. so idk. i don’t think everything has a grand purpose. but i blieve in my life, everything that’s happened to me has in fact led me to where i am today and i’m learning and healing and growing. that being said i could do without some of the things that have happend to me!

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

read a storm of swords :00000

54: Is cheating ever okay?

no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the point of cheating is it’s a breach of Trust! and that’s not okay!

55: Are you mean?

i hope not :(

56: How many people have you fist fought?

what is with u brits

57: Do you believe in true love?

depends what u mean by true love...like in fairytales? i think true love is just loving someone so much you’re willing to work on whatever you need to to keep them. not unconditional in the sense of “even if they’re mean i still love them” but unconditional in the sense of “even if u fart in front of me i don’t care, and even if you go through hardship and aren’t yourself for a while i will still love you because im with u for real”

58: Favourite weather?

SUN SUN SUN my favorite is when it’s warm out, but there are clouds to gaze at. it’s kinda humid. there’s a slight breeze. oh gosh i can’t wait for the summer :*( im currently cyring

59: Do you like the snow?

i am so fucking tired of the snow LMFAO it snows 8 months of the year here and i’m here, guess what, 8 months of the year! i fuckin hate it! go shit on someone else, clouds

60: Do you wanna get married?

YES more than anything, so much, i want to, so badly

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA OH MY GOD I DIE I MELT

62: What makes you happy?

sunshine, late night drives, laughing so hard my stomach hurts w/ my best frineds, playing d&d, writing poetry, thinking about how small animals’ feets are, petting my cat and making him purr, talking to my little brother about real stuff, kissing my girlfriend and seeing her smile, warm blankets when it’s cold, eating cookie dough, dancing, singing in the car, holding hands, walking in the summer and listening to my favorite podcast, talking about harry potter with my mom, playing overwatch in the summer with andy, going to council crest

the list could go on forever :-)

63: Would you change your name?

already did PAL!!!!!!!!!!!

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

only hard bc she’s not physically here rn. but no, it would be easy, beacuse she’s so kisssable

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

if you define sex by GENITALS YOU BIG BIBNCH then i don’t Have one

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

stop omg......

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

STOP OMG

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

hmmmmmmmmmm..... idk maybe jamie

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

i don’t necessarily believe that there’s 1 perfect person for everyone out there romatnically, but i believe thaere are people destined to be in your life and i believe there are people that you will click with just absolutely instantly and feel an incredibly deep connection with, whether it be romantic or not

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

kinda morbid :/

#Anonymous #the life and lies of kaiden #this was SO FUN im gonna do the othe rone too!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 #maya #askies

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