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This Week in BL - Korea is Doubling Down on BL

June 2022 Wk 5

Being a highly subjective assessment of one tiny corner of the interwebs. Organized by which ones (in each category) I’m enjoying the most.

Ongoing Series - Thai

Unforgotten Night (Weds on GaGa) Ep 2 - Good lord. Side couple is gonna kill me on this one. TRASH WATCH REBORN!

KinnPorsche (Sat iQIYI) Ep 13 - VegasPete ya’ll, what more can I say?

Love Mechanics (Sat WeTV) Ep 2 - As messy as Check Out is, LM is messier. It’s also a lot better because all the characters are realistically tortured. Also YinWar are really good at going off the rails while still pining about it. It is HARD to watch as a result. This is just boys in pain lashing out at each other. Also triggers all ‘round. If you don’t want high angst high drama don’t watch it. Also We all miss James. Did you notice Mark switch from phi to hia with Vee and then back again? Sarcastic his is a new execution for me. Cute.

Even Sun (Wed iQIYI) Ep 1 - it’s a good cast full of fun familiar faces (and BounPrem of course) but I don’t really jive with any of the characters. I’m not really into buffoons, or good boys trying to be bad, or whatever. I mean I’m still watching it, but I’m not impressed. Prem’s orange hair is fun.

Check Out (Sat IQIYI) Ep 4 - all sorts of wild rumors about this show. Meanwhile here are my thoughts: Just so messy+ sex work and Nine being just pretty much gay af but closeted. Thailand, you are out of your depth and in a hot tub. I don’t like Nine, he’s pretty irredeemable.

My Secret Love (Sat YouTube Sat) Ep 5 - I might tap out on this one.

Sky in Your Heart (Fri YouTube) Ep 5 - it committed probubly the biggest entertainment sin in my book, it got really really boring. I’ll finish it but honestly, I almost fell asleep while watching this week.

Triage (Mon AISplay) Ep 9 - I’m still waiting.

Ongoing Series - Not Thai

Old Fashion Cupcake (Japan Mon Viki) Ep 4 - ONE TAKE, that final scene, holy effing chirst on a pancake, what? GAH. This show is so transcendently impossibly good. I do not know how I am going to make it to next week. Oh wait, no I do, by rewatching this ep every day until then. And also because Japan is also giving us...

Minato Shouji Coin Laundry (Japan Weds GaGa) Ep 1 - OMG it is so good and so cute and I don’t even care they dropped two of my least favorite tropes in the first ep (white towel sponge bath and heart knows). This show is just Japan doing its own heritage proud with some absolutely classic live action yaoi, and I just couldn’t be any happier. It is everything I love about BL. I’m so delighted we are getting 12 episodes! Yes it will be drawn out and messy tortured age gap, but I do not care. Shin is so beautiful and yet has that little bit of edgy sinister to him that only Japan can really execute well in their semes. He’s a little too good at flirting, and little too intense about it and therefore GREAT.

To My Star 2 (Korea Viki) Ep 7-8 - This show is so painful. Like they took the first bit of WBL2 and stretched it out to an unbearable degree. We all knew and hoped the perspective switch would give Jiwoo reason, but it’s REALLY difficult to interface with. And yeah, I totally identify predominately with his character, I too run when I feel too much. But it is still SO HARD to watch.

Love in Spring AKA Spring of Crush (Korea grey) Ep 9-13 I kind of do want her/him to just leave without anyone the wiser. Honestly, the best thing about this BL(?) is how many great female characters support there are. That’s so rare in this genre. And yes, they are stereotypical but I am happy for any representation of women at all. The female assassin is an interesting character, but her presence seems arbitrary until she finally fits in to the plot in ep 12. Episode 10 = the secret is finally out, and you know, the dude from B.A.P. isn’t a bad actor (Yoo Young Jae). “Knives and money are gender neutral.” is my ne fav quote. And finally (to no one surprise) he is a psycho but I still have a 2nd lead syndrome with this drama. Nice twist in 13, and quite the soap opera, everything but identical twins has now been trotted out: amnesia, secret identity, lost noble heritage. It’s all happening.

Want to See You (Vietnam YT) Ep 5 - Catfight! That is fun. But the rest of it was boring.

Senpai, Danjite Koidewa! (Japan Fri Viki) Ep 3 - no ep this week, resumes next

Gossip

The industry is certifiably crazy right now. I have absolutely no idea what is going on. Nothing makes sense. Like NOTHING occurring in BL makes sense on any level right now, especially industry.

Not Thailand’s highest heat content going to (not going to?) a flipping Chinese distributor.

Not Korea's kisses and seriously honest queer content allasudden plus casting multiple members of THE SAME K-pop groups in THE SAME BLs.

Not the sheer volume of content coming from Japan (srs WHAT? where is it all coming from?).

It's OPEN season, like WILD out there. 2022 might be the end of days for most, but clearly the BL universe is taking the burning of the world as an excuse ofr a goddamn rave.

New Vietnamese BL Memory forthcoming. Maybe? I usually don’t track these well, if you want someone up on VBL follow @heretherebedork .

I’m struggling to keep up but here’s what I’ve got. Please add in the comments if I missed something, because I probubly did.

BL Production announcements out of Korea:

Silkwood (studio behind Peach of Time) announced that Korean Thai colab project Love is Like A Cat to star Mew Suppasit. Yeah. Fucking-A. Korea scooped him. I am not surprised but also, fuck me what the hell is Korea going to do with that level of gorgeous? And guess who else is in the cast? Lee Geon Woo and Chu Ji Min AKA Geonu & JM of JUST B. It’s about a romance between a rookie star and a vet. I expect it to be mostly in Korea and Korean.

This is Silkwood’s thing, they already have another one in production, Eccentric Romance starring former The Man BLK member Yoon Jun Won and Thai actor Save Saisawat (Ai Long Nhai). I begin to think every The Man BLK member will eventually lead out a BL at this point.

Oh My Assistant has been acquired for BL adaptation, and rumored cast. This is a sexy one for Korea about an artist who draws adult webtoons and spends most of his time horny because of it, who hires an assistant that turns out to be his biggest fan. I guess we’re gone see how Korea handles thirst.

The New Employee (from Watcha Light On Me & Semantic Error) rumored to star Choi Si Hoon (Netflix's Single's Inferno). Another office set BL.

Unintentional Love Story to star Cha Seo Won and Gongchan (maknae of K-pop B1A4). All we know is it’s a “love story that started with a lie” about rebuilding trust.

Meanwhile, Thailand announced Wish Me Luck starring my boy Fiat (Grean Fictions, SOTUS S, My Gear and Your Gown, Triage) who I’ve been waiting to lead a BL for a decade it feels like. About a boss and his temporary employee in an advertising company, based on Bittersweet's y-novel of the same name. Remember these are less likely to happen than the ones from Korea.

In Case You Missed It

There’s movement on the next GMMTV offering Vice Versa, starts July 16 on their YT channel. I am excited for this one.

Pappy & Daddy 2 (new cast for one lead) will start airing August 8 on GaGa.

Plus & Minus is getting a special ep and some bts extras, which is why it still has open episode slots on GaGa and Viki. But it is a completed story arc at 12.

In A Relationship TH, Thailand’s answer to Gameboys (a bit late, kids) seems to kinda be already happening. It’s airing on GMTV8′s YouTube. Is anyone watching this? I’m generally not a fan of lockdown romances, but I LOVED See You After Quarentine? Still 20 episodes is A LOT and the preview did not give me any confidence.

Next Week Looks Like This:

Nothing new is starting that i know of/remember, but Cupcake and KP are wrapping up.

This week’s best moments?

Now THAT’S a confession.

Hello my new obsession. Boy howdy does this one know how to flirt. Minato does not stand a (snow)balls chance in hell. The eldest of a big fam? He’s also used to getting his way.

That’s one way of putting it.

Ah, the Thai version of Netflix and chill.

(last week)

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krp1x1finder · 9 months

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hello! looking for long-term partners. i'm 25+ and only write with others who are 21+, so please keep that in mind! i go by she / her pronouns and live in the cst / gmt-6 time zone. [basics…] » i'd rather write on discord within our own private 1x1 server, but i'm open to writing on mewe and tumblr. » third-person p.o.v only. novella and multi-para are my go-to, but single-para can be used for quick scenes and one-liners are strictly for dm / text threads. i typically write two to six paragraphs on average, but i can write shorter or longer, depending on your preference or the plot / thread. » semi-active. due to work, other hobbies, health issues, and so on, my activity does fluctuate. i can usually write two to four replies a week, but this might dip or rise depending on what's going on. i'll communicate with you if i need to take longer to reply. i'm also understanding if my partner's busy, but i do expect some proper level of communication from you too. » i match my partner's energy. if you prefer to focus on plots and threads with minimal chatting, i can do that. if you prefer gushing about our muses, making pinterest boards, getting into world-building, etc., i can do that too. as long as we're both interested in our threads, i don't care. » continuing with the note above, if it seems like you're not interested or like i have to carry everything, i'm going to drop what we have going on. sorry, not into that. enthusiasm's needed.

[writing…] » i'm interested in everything: idolverse, au, original, and fandom-based plots. when it comes to genres / themes, i have a strong preference for horror, but i also love to write crime, fantasy, historical, sci-fi, and slice-of-life. i also love a heavy dose of angst with a smattering of fluff thrown in. » i have a long list of fandom-based au ideas, but i'll keep it limited to just these few for now: alice in wonderland, dead by daylight, kiki's delivery service, and princess mononoke. » darker topics and toxic dynamics are definitely welcome. we can discuss what we're open to writing, what's off limits, and any triggers before writing together. » mxm and fxf ships are highly preferred. i'm open to mxf pairs, but they do require doubling and matched enthusiasm. smut's welcome, but not necessary, and it can be vague, detailed, or fade-to-black. if smut becomes involved, i do prefer that it's more plot-based, but it's not required.

[faceclaims…] » i use faces from the following groups and soloists (excluding obviously problematic members). ult means they're my absolute favorite to write as and against, with interest leading downward from primary, secondary, and tertiary. — ult: monsta x, twice, wonho — primary: b.a.p, chungha, dpr ian, dreamcatcher, (g)i-dle, heize, highlight, oneus — secondary: bibi, corbyn, exid, got7, girl's generation, hyolyn, pentagon, wei, wjsn — tertiary: aespa, kang daniel, kingdom, kwon eunbi, onlyoneof, park jihoon, purple kiss, red velvet

» i'm NOT interested in writing against the following groups: ateez, big bang, blackpink, bts, exo, nct, stray kids, suju, and txt.

[end…] thank you for reading everything! if interested, please like this post and i'll reach out to you via tumblr dms!

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meji-soongs · 2 years

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Hello Everyone!!~~ I have just started a Kpop blog and I will be doing requests!!~~ Please feel free to send in an ask for ANY of the following!~~ Thank you for checkin out my blog and i hope to have a lot of interesting content out soon!~~💞💞

•AESPA

•ATEEZ

•AOA (NO MINA‼️)

•B.A.P

•BTS

•EXO

•SEVENTEEN

•GOT7

•NCT (All Units!))

•VAV

•VICTON

•TWICE

•BLACKPINK

•TZY

•G-IDLE

•SHINEE

•ENHYPHEN

•STRAY KIDS

•ASTRO

•STAYC

•THE BOYS

•THE ROSE

•RED VELVET

•TXT

•IKON

•MONSTA X

•MAMAMOO

•LOONA

•Z*ONE

•2ne1

•BIGBANG

•SF9

•WINNER

• E'LAST

• ACE

• KARD

• DREAMCATCHER

• EVERGLOW

• SOLOISTS ( Anyone!)

You can request any type if AU! I do:

-Yandere

-Wolf

-Mafia

-Fantasy

-Idol/Non-Idol

-Smut

-Fluff

-Angst

-Slice of Life (Real Life Scenarios; Mental Health, Marriage, Etc.)

-Selca Ships

-Written Ships

-Oneshots

-POV's (Such as writing from Idols POV/ Answering

questions from idols POV)

-Headcannons

-MTL's

- POLY! Relationships

-Anything you can think of!!~ (Please not that I DO NOT write smut for anyone under the age of 18‼️)

If you want to ask beforehand if I write for someone/

write something in specific, feel free to!~ You can

message me, send an ask, or ask anonymously!~

Feel Free to request as many things and many times

as you like!!~~ Thank you so much!!💜💜

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ao3-diablofic · 5 days

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by GAGGINGVIEGINA

A story of a young man secluded from society and trying to make ends meet… that is until he meets someone that would change his life forever. English is not my first language

Words: 136, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: South Park, A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin, The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, Wings of Fire - Tui T. Sutherland, 방탄소년단 | Bangtan Boys | BTS, เด็กใหม่ | Girl From Nowhere (TV), Seikon no Qwaser | The Qwaser of Stigmata, 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game), 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Anime), 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Manga), Dead Poets Society (1989), 崩坏：星穹铁道 | Honkai: Star Rail (Video Game), Old Possum's Book of Practical Cats - T. S. Eliot, U-KISS, 魔道祖师Q | Módào Zǔshī Q (Cartoon), 天官赐福 | Heaven Official's Blessing (Webcomic), Cthulhu Mythos - H. P. Lovecraft, Jeeves - P. G. Wodehouse, Dark Souls (Video Games), Maya y los tres | Maya and the Three (Cartoon), 地縛少年花子くん | Jibaku Shounen Hanako-kun | Toilet-bound Hanako-kun (Manga), Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling, Percy Jackson and the Olympians - Rick Riordan, Sentence (Guts United Video Game), Pocket Monsters: X & Y | Pokemon X & Y Versions, Berserk (Anime & Manga), Pocket Monsters | Pokemon - All Media Types, The Lord of the Rings - J. R. R. Tolkien, Aubrey-Maturin Series - Patrick O'Brian, Green Creek Series - T.J. Klune, 娘娘腔 - 水千丞 | Níang Niang Qiāng - Shuǐ Qiān Chéng, B.A.P, The Man From U.N.C.L.E. (2015), Captive Prince - C. S. Pacat, F-Zero (Video Games), G.I. Joe (Cartoon), I'm Sorry I'll Read That Again (Radio), Z-O-M-B-I-E-S (Disney Movies), Diablo (Video Games), ジョジョの奇妙な冒険 | JoJo no Kimyou na Bouken | JoJo's Bizarre Adventure, Magnum P.I. (TV 2018), 痛いのは嫌なので防御力に極振りしたいと思います。| BOFURI: I Don't Want to Get Hurt so I'll Max Out My Defense. (Anime), The Rocky Horror Show - O'Brien, House of Night - P. C. Cast & Kristin Cast, Anne with an E (TV), W.I.T.C.H., The L Word: Generation Q (TV)

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Categories: Other

Characters: Craig Tucker's Parents

Relationships: Joe Biden/Donald Trump

Additional Tags: Angst with a Happy Ending, Class 1-B Shenanigans (My Hero Academia), Earth C (Homestuck), Jeanne d'Arc | Joan of Arc References, E-mail, Threesome - F/M/M, Ratings: G, Inspired by H. P. Lovecraft, Quote: I've got red in my ledger; I'd like to wipe it out. (Marvel), Space Dad Hank Henshaw | J'onn J'onzz, Episode: s03e06 K.I.T.T. vs. K.A.R.R. (Knight Rider 1982), Les Amis de l'ABC - Freeform, Minor Kon-El | Conner Kent/M'gann M'orzz, N Things, Jack-o'-lanterns, Q (James Bond) is a Holmes, Minor P.I.X.A.L./Zane (Ninjago), Ratings: R, Original Character(s), Protective T'Challa (Marvel), Midoriya Izuku Does Not Go to U.A. High School, Kim Taehyung | V & Park Jimin are Best Friends, Good W. D. Gaster, Nen (Hunter X Hunter), Pocket Monsters: XY | Pokemon the Series: X & Y, Jaskier | Dandelion Loves Geralt z Rivii | Geralt of Rivia

Read on AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/56417563

#Diablo IV #AO3

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rose-likesto-write · 3 years

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The guy in black outfit...

Member:- B.A.P Yongguk x fem reader

Genre:- Fluff, humour, angst

AU!:- Neighborhood au ?

Summary:- There is this peculiar guy who shifted into your neighborhood. He loves to wear black considering his daily walk and workout outfits? But, what took your attention and interest his his reaction and the mood you observed whenever you went out with your friend. The same time, the same location. Eye contacts exchanged but what will happen when you start liking him even if you don't wanna accept it...

Tagged:- @chicken-fifi @multidreams-and-desires and anyone who wants to get tagged

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noonaduck · 5 years

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We used to be so in love.

Pairing: B.A.P Yongguk x reader, Daehyun x reader genre: non idol AU, Angst, Smut, oneshot Words: 7212 Summary: When you find your fiancee cheating on you your whole world falls apart. Luckily there is another man to collect the pieces and help you towards healing.

[gifs belongs to their rightful owners.]

You were shaking when Yongguk pushed deeper into you. His sweet words and gentle hands were always able to make you melt. You searched hiss lips and pulled him closer. His lips answered to yours feverishly and your tongues danced in language that only two of you knew. Yongguk puts his thump to your clit at rubs it rhythmically. You separate from his lips with gasp.

‘'Come for me baby.'' His lips brush your ear and you feel yourself tightening around him. You feel your core shaking and stars fulls your vision when you hit your climax. ''That's it, you are my good girl.'' Yongguk praises you and with few last thrust he follows your climax and warm seed fills you.

~~ The moon was bright and shined trough the open window's curtains which moved along with the wind. His love was sleeping peacefully, her eyes tightly closed and a blanked tightly in her fist. Sweet smile on her lips told story about happy dreams she was having. Yongguk was sitting next to her and strokes gently her soft hair. His lover sifted on her sleep and the man got scared that he woke her up. Luckily she just rolled over and kicked her blanked into messy pile in the end of bed. The ring on her hand got his attention. It hasn't been long when he had given it for her. When she said yes was happiest day in his life. It was breaking his heart that he needs to take it back so quickly and let her go because of another woman.

The movie had ended couple of minutes ago and you were following the crowd out from the theater. You were holding Yongguk's hand so you wouldn't lose him in the mass of people. You had went to see a new comedy movie which his friend Junhong had wanted to see for long time along with their other friend Himchan. ''So, did you guys like it?'' Junhong asks excitedly. His deep brown eyes glowed under the dim streetlights and his face was full of excitement. His messy blonde hair was covered by grey beanie and he was wearing a loose white hoodie alongside some sweatpants. ''It was okay.'' You shrug your shoulder and Junhong's face turns into exaggerated shock. ''Just okay? If i remember correctly, you were laughing as much as I did.'' He argues. ''Hush you little children, It's already late.'' Himchan rolls his eyes. Himchan is wearing a leather jacket with v-collar t-shirt accompanied with white ripped jeans. You fake pout to Yongguk and he takes you into his embrace. Yongguk is wearing a black hoodie and denim jacket over it with black jeans. You lean in his embrace and are able to smell scent of his deodorant mixed his own shooting body odor. Its always able to calm you down. ''Himchan, don't be rude to Y/N.'' Yongguk says whith soft smile. ''Hey, what about me? He called me a child as well.'' Junhong murmurs and Himchan let's small chuckle escape from his lips. ''Don't except that Yongguk defends you, after he started to date Y/N he has been tied around her finger.'' ''Jealous much?'' You peek under Yongguk's arm and poke your tongue out. Yongguk rolls his eyes and smiles widely. ''You are sometimes really childish, but you are my childish Y/N.'' he says and pokes your nose. This time you pout for real, which causes both Junhong and Himchan laugh for your defeat.

You are going trough your mail and feel like crying. You had again another demand of payment from loan which you even haven't taken. After your father has passed away last year all his dept had fallen for you, dept that you didn't even known that he had. When you had get first threatening letter you had thought that it was some sort of sick joke. You had ripped the paper in half and thrown it away. When the second one came you were less sure about it. Finally when a scary looking man had came behind your door demanding payment you had to believe it was true. Your dad had taken illegal loan from loan shark to pay his gambling dept. Apparently he was addicted to gambling, but had been extremely good at hiding it. On the outside he had seemed like regular person who worked in office for five days in the week. But the truth had been other as you had found out, when you got to know that he had lost his job over a year before his death. He had faked that he still was working. What it came to your mother she had left you when you were mere two years old. She had found a new man and started a new family with him. You are sitting at the kitchen table with your friend Youngjae and staring at the pile of papers like they could magically disappear. You lived in small apartment with Yongguk which consisted from small kitchen, living room, one bathroom and of course bedroom. The walls of your kitchen were painted in light yellow to bring sun inside the small kitchen. The cabinets were dark wood and table tops were white granite. Yongguk was still at work so you were able to be swallowed in your misery in peace. You still haven't told him about your situation, even though you and him had been together for three years. You look the small diamond ring on your hand and deep quilt is eating your guts. You knew how long he had had save money to buy it for you. ''It's okay we will figure this out.'' Youngjae says and takes your hand into his. He is only one who knows about your dept and he had only found out by mistake when he had found opened threat for payment from your bedroom. ''But how Jae? I can barely keep up with the payments and I'm scared to death that Yongguk finds out and leaves me and...''You sniff and begin to cry in middle of your sentence. ''It's okay Y/N, I'm here.'' Youngjae squeezes your hand tighter and tamp your wet eyes with paper towel with his free hand. You hear your front door open and you look the papers speared on the table in panic. You begin to collect the bills in hurry and Youngjae helps you hide them under the table cloth. ''I'm home.'' You hear Yongguk's tired voice coming from the front door. ''I'm here oppa.'' You call back and try look natural as possible when he steps into kitchen. ''Hi Jae.'' Yongguk greets Youngjae when he notices him and peeks your cheek. ''Hi hyung.'' Youngjae nods when Yongguk pulls a chair next to you. ''How was work?'' You ask and fumble your hands awkwardly on your lap. ''Tiring. What you two had been up to?'' He yawns and hangs his arm lazily over your shoulder. ''We have been just hanging around.'' Youngjae shrugs naturally, he is better at lying than you are. ''I see.'' Yongguk nods yawning again. ''You should take a nap, you seem really tired.'' You suggest and Yongguk agrees almost instantly. ''Yes, I should. It was nice to see you again Jae.'' Yongguk peeks this time your lips and leaves from the kitchen. ''You too hyung.'' Youngjae yells after him. You pull the papers under the table cloth with shaking hands and turn your eyes to Yongjae. ''It was too close.'' You say scared. ''You can't hide this forever from him.'' Youngjae smiles sadly. ''I can try.''

It was a regular night and you were watching a TV with Yongguk. Some old drama was rerunning on the screen and you weren't really paying your full attention to it. The room was dark except the light coming from the TV. You were sitting on the leather couch next to your fiancee who had seemed rather distant lately. You put blame of it for his work, which has taken his time more and more lately. He had came home late at night or not at all. Still you couldn't blame him, Yongguk had dreamed about career as an artist, and when his chance had finally came he had worked twice as hard than before. His debut was nearing and it was causing lot of stress on him. You leaned on his shoulder and he changed his position awkwardly. ''Oppa, whats wrong?'' You ask worriedly. ''Nothing, I'm just tired.'' He says without turning his eyes away from the screen. You are quite sure that Yongguk didn't like the drama which was playing, but still decided to pay attention for it instead of you. ''Okay.'' You say weakly and straighten your posture. For a while you just keep staring the screen with nothing seeing eyes. You try to take his hand into yours and Yongguk stands up. ''I'm tired. I will go to sleep.'' He says and storms out of the room leaving you alone into confused and sad state.

You are at the mall with Himachan and Youngjae. You had asked their help to pick a birthday gift for Yongguk. His birthday was coming in few weeks and you weren't good with presents. So you had turned to Himchan, who was closest to Yongguk, and Youngjae, who was your best friend. ''How about this?'' You ask while pointing at black scarf which was hanging on mannequin's neck. ''Ehh, I'm not so sure that he is going to like that.'' Himchan says and Youngjae shakes his head on agreement. ''I don't know. Every year I'm almost near of full panic attack when I try to think a present for him.'' You are desperate. ''What did you bought him last year?'' Himchan ask when you exit another store empty handed. ''I bought him some expensive high quality paper and pencils and even back then it wasn't my idea.'' ''It was mine.'' Youngjae says proudly. ''And if I remember correctly he liked that gift a lot.'' ''He did.'' You admit. You haven't known Himchan for long because he was still living in different country last year. He and Yongguk had been childhood best friends who had happened to bump up to each other after Himchan had returned. Their friendship had continued like it had never ended at first place. Your stomach growls and you smile awkwardly. ''I think that its time for lunch break.'' ''Fine by me.'' Youngjae agrees. ''Sure.'' Himchan nods and you three head towards the restaurant area. You agree to eat at Subway and enter the place when your eyes land on the table where Yongguk is sitting with a strange woman. That's odd, he said that he is working, you thought confused. The pair seems to be too deep to focused into their conversation so they don't notice your presence. ''Isn't that Yongguk hyung?'' Youngjae asks surprised when he notices them. You are still on the line waiting on your turn to make your order. ''Indeed, It seems it is.'' Himchan confirms what you already know. Before you are able to yell his name or go to him the woman kisses him. Yongguk doesn't stop her and stays still until she pulls away. You must admit that she is pretty, She has long shiny black hair, heart shaped face with small mouth and round brown eyes. She is wearing a tight white shirt with a red mini skirt and the clothes are fitting on her hourglass figure like a glove. her legs seems never ending and are covered with knee length brown boots. Huge sob leaves your lips and then Yongguk notices you. You turn around run away while cries rips your chest. You don't care about the confused and curious looks which are given to you by other mall visitors. ''Y/N wait.'' Youngjae yells after you, but you keep running.

You feel so humiliated and ashamed of yourself. Busy with work, in my ass! Someone grabs your hand and you try to pry away. ''Jae let me go.'' You say and try to rip yourself of. Tears are making your eyes watery and everything is foggy in your eyes. ''I'm not Jae.'' Yongguk's familiar deep voice answers and you feel rage rushing trough your veins. ''Why? Why did you do this to me?'' You yell sobbingly and start hitting him with your free arm. ''Y/N calm down, don't make a scene.'' Yongguk says and grabs also your free hand on his grip. ''Don't make a scene, you say! I make a scene if I want to!'' You try to wiggle away from his arms. Himachan and Youngjae are able to reach you while you were arguing. ''As much as I want to punch Yongguk right now he is right, we don't want to security to come here.'' Yongjae fums with rage and you easily notice the drop of honorifics in his sentence. You take a deep breath and try to calm yourself. When you are still Yongguk lets you go and takes a step backwards. You are getting curious looks and some people even stopped to stare what the commotion was about. Himchan is strangely quiet for his nature and just keeps staring his feet awkwardly. ''There you are Gukkie!'' The woman who kissed Yongguk earlier arrives at the scene and hangs herself on his left side. Yongguk doesn't pry her of and the anger fums again inside of you. ''That's it, we are done!'' You rip your engagement ring from your hand and throw it to Yongguk's face. Yongguk looks you with face which is hard to read and you storm away sobbing without caring who would see you. Youngjae tries to leave after you, but one glance from you makes him halt his steps. Your face was so broken and full of sorrow that he didn't know what to do.

It's raining and small raindrops compete who reaches the end of the window at first. You are sitting on your new apartment floor surrounded by unopened boxes on the floor. It was few weeks after the episode on the mall and you were finally able to have place on your own. You had lived with Youngjae for a while, but came fast to conclusion that you needed your place of own. You were on luck when you had get an apartment this fast. The place was small only with one room combined living space/bedroom and small kitchen. First thing that you had done when you had put final piece of kitchen supplies away was to open big jar of ice cream and started to shovel it into your mouth like a starving man. Youngjae had left you alone a half hour ago after you had convinced him that you were okay. There were still few boxes to empty, but you weren't in the mood to do so. A loud thud from other side of wall disturbs your pity parade and you look around confused. Its completely quiet until you hear it again. You frown curious and put the ice cream away. The noise must be coming from the apartment next to you. You get up from the floor and walk next to wall where the sound came from. You put your ear on the wall and listen. Thud, the sound comes again. You decide to find out what it is about and leave your apartment to knock your neighbor's door. The door is opened shortly after and a man with sand colored hair on the top and dark from the bottom comes into view. The man looks young with his boyish features. He has short straight nose and brown eyes surrounded by thick eyelashes. His straight brows are thicker closer the nose and narrows down towards other end. On his lower lip is two silver lip rings which he is chewing when his curious eyes meet yours. He is wearing red lumberjack shirt and washed white jeans. his feet are bare which you think is odd when you think about the cold weather. ''Can I help you?'' The man asks and tilts his head. You sift awkwardly after too long silence. ''Umm, I just moved here and I heard some noise coming from your place and I wanted to come check what it was about.'' You explain. ''Oh, I'm sorry about that. Me and my roommate got carried away while we were playing a video game. It's cool that someone finally moved in. I'm Jung Daehyun.'' The man smiles and offers his hand for you. ''I'm L/N Y/N.'' You shake Daehyun's hand and answer his smile. ''Do you wanna come in? It's always nice to get new company.'' Daehyun offers and opens his door wider. ''I don't want to disturb you.'' You sift awkwardly. ''Trust me, you won't.'' Daehyun's smile get even wider if that is even possible. ''Then okay.'' You finally agree and step in to his luxurious apartment. You are in shock when you look around. The place is huge, but now when you think about it it only makes sense that there is only one neighbor in your floor which is highest of the building. You are in entry hall where huge framed mirror is hanging on the wall and next to it open door which leads in to walk in closet. wide three step stairs leads into huge living are where is two white leather couches in front of huge TV, which is located in front of full wall length windows and balcony. The floors are made of black wood and open kitchen is located on the left side of the living space. the walls are light gray and the walls are full of colorful abstract paintings. another three steps stairs lead into platform where is three black doors with metal handles. On the other couch is sitting man his back towards the front door. You can only see his brown mob of hair and his left ear where is three silver earrings hanging. The man is trying to beat some unfamiliar video game and curses loudly. ''Jongup we have company.'' Daehyun yells happily from the door. You and him walk closer to couches. ''Give me a minute.'' Jongup answers his eyes never leaving the screen. He curses loudly when huge red letters scream GAME OVER. ''Fuck it.'' He yells and tosses controller on the living room table. Finally he spins around and his curious eyes finds you. He has narrow dark eyes, which almost makes him look mean, straight nose with small mole on his bridge. His nose widens slightly from the end and his lips are plumb and wide. He is wearing tight black t-shirt, as far as you can tell because you only see part of him body. ''Oh, who is she?'' Jongup asks curiously and smiles. ''She is Y/N, she just moved next to us.'' Daehyun explains. ''It's nice to meet you, I'm Moon Jongup.'' Jongup tells with grin. he stands up from the couch and circles around it to face you. ''It's nice to meet you as well.'' You smile softly.

After your first meeting you got pretty close with your neighbors. You also introduced Youngjae to them and he joined your small group. You were having a movie night at Jongup's and Daehyun's place and Youngjae was also joined your company. You had learned that Daehyun's family was loaded and in fact owned the building where you were living at the moment. Youngjae and Jongup were arguing over which movie you should watch, Jongup wanted to watch some new anime movie and Youngjae wanted to watch Aquaman again. You and Daehyun really didn't care and you were cuddled on one of the couches and eating popcorn. Daehyun tries to throw popcorn into his mouth, but fails miserably and the popcorn fells onto his lap. You laugh for him and he rolls his eyes. ''Noona tell Jongup that you want to watch Aquaman.'' Youngjae pouts. You are one year older than him and older of Daehyun by two months. Jongup was youngest of all even though he didn't look like it. ''To be honest I don't really care what we are watching.'' You mumble and Jongup chuckles. ''I told you so, you should already give up.'' He smirks like he is already won. ''Dae?'' Yongjae pleas. Daehyun isn't one who cares for formalities and after long debate Youngjae had agreed to use his nickname. ''I agree with Y/N, everything is fine.'' He says apologetic. Youngjae and Jongup keeps fighting and Daehyun gets up from the couch. ''Where are you going?'' You ask. ''I'm going to get our drinks from the fridge. i can't stand this sober.'' he grins wickedly and walks to the fridge. You are getting little bit buzzed while Jongup's movie choice is playing on the back round. After heated match of rock, paper, scissors Jongup had won and Youngjae was watching the movie while sulking. You take another sip from your beer when you feel Daehyun's hand wandering along your leg under the blanket which is pulled top both of the you. You almost choke to your drink, but Daehyun acts like nothing happened. ''Y/N are you okay?'' Jongup asks worriedly and you nod your head. ''I'm fine, I just got drink into my windpipe.'' You assure while Daehyun is showing innocent face. ''Okay.'' Jongup turns his attention back to the movie. Daehyun's hand begins to wander again along your leg and stops on the end of your skirt's hem. ''Tell me to stop if you want me to.'' He whispers and you shiver when his hot breath tickles your ear. Sure you and him had flirted innocently, but it had never lead this far. His hand moves towards your inner thigh and he strokes it gently. He pretends to follow the movie and you have turned your eyes towards the screen as well. His hand begins to wander higher and soon his fingers stops to your panties. Daehyun begins to circle your clit top of your panties and you can feel yourself getting turned on. Your breath hitch and you see Daehyun smirk from corner of your eyes. Luckily neither Jongup or Youngjae seems to notice. Daehyun stops his fingers motions and slips his index and middle finger inside of your panties. He pushes your clit gently and sticks his index finger inside of your wet core. His movements are subtle and you can't see outside of blanket what he is doing. Your hand finds his wrist and you squeeze it with warning. ''Be a good girl for me, You don't want that Jongup and Youngjae knows what we are doing, don't you?'' Daehyun leans closer to your ear and you can feel his lips movement on your earlobe. ''No.'' You gasp quietly and Daehyun turns his eyes again towards the TV. He continues to torture your body and circling your clit with his thump while his index finger pushes and pulls in steady rhythm into your hole. He adds more pressure to your clit and slips his middle finger also so into your wet heat. You moan out loud and both Jongup and Youngjae turns to look at you confused. ''I think that Y/N's stomach is hurting.'' Daehyun hurries to save you. ''Ye-yes, I ate too much popcorn.'' You agree blushing faintly. ''That sucks.'' Youngjae says and smiles with pity. ''Do you want to end the movie?'' he adds and you hurry to shake your head. ''No, I think I will be okay.'' You say Daehyun's halted fingers still inside of you. ''If you are sure'' Jongup hesitate only for moment and turns his attention back towards the movie. Daehyun pulls his fingers out of you and for the rest of the movie you sit next to him hot at bothered your panties soaking with your juices. You start to imagine your revenge in your mind.

You keep staring a letter in your hands and reading it over and over again. ' Dear L/N Y/N, Your dept is completely paid. We hope to hear from you again if you ever need another loan' There is only two sentences and the letter is shockingly formal for one that come from loan sharks. You take your phone which is laying next to you on your bed and dial quickly to Yongjae. He answers after few peep. You: ''Did you do it?'' Jae: ''Did I do what? And Hello to you too.'' You: ''Did you pay my dept?'' Jae: ''As much as I would like to say yes, I need to ask with what money?'' You: ''Then who was it? You are only one who knew about it?'' Jae: ''Maybe it was Daehyun?'' You: ''I have never mentioned my dept for him.'' Jae: ''Then I don't know. Y/N don't look gift horse in to the mouth, just be happy. Look, I really need to go even if I would want to talk with you longer. My boss is breathing to my neck.'' You: ''Okay, bye Jae.'' Jae: ''Bye Noona.'' You end your call frustrated and confused. A knock from your door pulls you away from your thoughts and you hurry to open it. Daehyun stands behind it plastic bag in his hand. ''I bough Chinese if you want some.'' He grins an lifts his bag. ''I'm starving.'' You let him in. He walks to your small kitchen table and puts the bag on top of it. ''I bought you a mandarin chicken.'' he says and takes two containers out from the bag. It has been only few days after your movie night and Daehyun hasn't brought up what happened back then. You sit opposite of him and dig into your food. You both sit in silence when Daehyun decides to turn on your small TV by the remote which is also top of your table. You are sitting your back towards the TV, but your whole body freezes in shock when you hear a familiar voice. ''So, Yongguk you deputed recently and you have already gained quite amount of fans. Is there any particular person that gives you inspiration?'' Female interviewer asks. Yongguk chuckles lightly. ''Not really. I try to get inspiration from everywhere I can get. My surroundings, thoughts and other people around me usually is enough to inspire me.'' His familiar deep voice makes you shiver and you turn your eyes towards the TV. He looks good like always, he is wearing tight white button up shirt and black jeans which are ripped from his knees. His dark hair is pushed backwards from his forehead and the familiar smile that was always able to make your heart flutter is painted on his face. ''So you don't have a girlfriend or anything?'' The interview asks curiously. ''No, not at the moment.'' Yongguk admits. What the fuck? ''There you have it ladies, maybe you are the lucky one who steals Mr Bang's heart.'' ''Turn it of.'' You say furious and Daehyun looks you confused. You have never told him about Youngguk, only that you had recently divorced in bad terms, so he doesn't understand your reaction. ''Why?'' he asks confused. ''Just do it!'' You bark and he shuts the TV quickly. You had lost your appetite. Later that night you are totally wasted. You had poured drink after drink to end your sorrows and now you were a sobbing mess behind Daehyn's door. ''Daedae open up.'' You yell into his mailbox and you hear quick steps coming towards the door. When Daehyun opens the door he looks you with shock. ''Jesus Y/N, what has happened to you?'' He asks and catch you right on time when you are about to fall. ''noching, Ih'm finhe.'' You slur on his grip. ''Let's get you into bed.'' He says and leads you to his bedroom. His bedroom walls are soft brown and his king sized bed is pushed in the middle of the opposite wall where the door is located. You falls onto his bed and try to pull him with you. ''cobe hjere.'' You ramble, but Daehyun takes your hands away around his neck gently. ''I don't think its good idea.'' He says softly and you pout sadly. He sighs in defeat and sits next to you on his bed. You get comfy and somehow are able to pull yourself laying on top of his chest. ''What's wrong?'' He asks and pet your hair gently. ''Younhgguk.'' You tell and bury your face on his chest. ''Yongguk?'' Daehyun asks visible confusion clear in his voice. ''Yefh, My Younhgguk. Wej ushed to be engagesd.'' You mumble into his shirt. ''Oh, I'm so sorry.'' Daehyun puts small gentle kiss top of your head. '' I'm here now. Cry if you want'' He keeps petting you hair and that is what you do. You cry until you fall sleep on his chest. your head is pounding when you wake up on next morning. You take few second to remember where you are and you look around for Daehyun. he is nowhere to be seen, but instead on his nightstand is glass of water and bottle of painkillers next to it. You gulp the water gratefully and pop few aspirins into your mouth. The bedroom door opens and Daehyun steps in. ''Hi.'' You say shyly, you feel so ashamed. You can remember yesterday's events clearly despite of your hangover. ''Hi, are you feeling any better?'' Daehyun asks smiling softly and sits next to you on his bed. ''A little.'' You admit and pick your nails. You try avoid Daehyun's stare but he pulls your chin up gently with his index finger. ''So you and Yongguk, huh?'' He asks. You sigh in defeat. ''He left me for a another woman and yesterday he said on TV that he doesn't have a girlfriend. It kind of broke me.'' You admit. ''You don't have to talk about it, if you don't want to.'' Daehyun assures you. ''Thanks, I rather want to forget.'' ''I can help you with that.'' Daehyun says and takes your face onto his hands. He puts his lips on yours and without hesitation you answer for the kiss. The kiss begins slow, but heathens when Daehyun bites you lower lip gently. You part your lips and let him explore your depths with his tongue. You separate panting and look into each other's eyes. Daehyun's eyes are hooded with lust and you are sure that your eyes mirror his. This time it is your time take his lower lip between your lips and you suck his lip rings gently. Daehyun pulls you closer and tightens his grip on your sides. Your lips begins to wander along his neck and you bite his collarbone gently. Daehyun moans and pushes your back on the bed gently. With hurried fingers he pulls your tank top's hem higher so your belly button comes into view. He plans small kiss onto it and you blush. He hurries to remove his own shirt and his tanned body comes into your view. His muscles aren't as well formed as Youngguk's, but they are definitely there. You pull yourself into sitting position and with one quick motion pull your tank top over your head. Daehyun gasps when your bare breasts come into view. You didn't have bra underneath your shirt. Daehyun pushes you back down and comes top of you his both legs open on your sides and his hands supporting his weight your head between of them. He kisses your lisp again with fever and his right hand find your nipple which is hardening by the minute. You moan into kiss and pout when he pulls away. ''You are so cute.'' Daehyun grins and soon your pout is replaced with your lips curling into small o when Daehyun's mouth finds your left nipple. He bites your nipple gently and sucks it between his teeth. His right hand begins to wander along your sides and he squeezes your side gently. Daehyun pulls himself up and his hand reaches hem on your sweatpants. You pull your hips up and Daehyun pulls your sweats along with your panties from your legs. His eyes focus to your heat and you try to cover yourself with blush. ''Please, don't.'' He says and pulls your hands away gently. ''There is no reason for you to hide. Let me taste you.'' Daehyun comes between your legs and spears them open. He dives in without a pause and and licks long strip on your heat. You shiver when his plumb lips find your clit and he sucks it gently. You can feel your juices pouring to his lips when he sucks your clit and licks your heat just from the right places on right ways. He plunges his tongue into your hole and you moan loudly. You try to close your legs around his head but he keeps them open when he fucks your heat with his tongue at painfully slow space. ''Daehyun, I need, I need more.'' You whimper and Daehyun blows air gently to your clit. ''You get more soon, I promise.'' He says and plunges his tongue again to your quivering hole. This time his space is fast and shows no mercy. His thump begins to rub your clit and you reach your high faster than in long time. Your legs shake around his head when you come and your heat spams around his tongue when he laps every last drop which you are giving him. You pant loudly when he pulls away. ''Just fuck me already.'' You are getting impatient and Daehyun laughs loudly. ''I will Baby.'' he says and reaches for condom in his nightstand drawer. He pulls his pants of and puts condom on his hard dick. His dick is beautiful and it curves lightly from the tip. With few pumps of his hand Daehyun guides his member to your entrance. He slides his dick between your folds and collects your juices for lube. Finally you feel his tip to slowly push into you. He enters slowly and lets you take your time until he begins to move in slow rhythm. ''Dae, go faster.'' You demand impatiently. Daehyun picks up his pace and pounds into you without mercy. Sound of your skins slapping against each other fulls the room and Daehyn lets groan leave his lips for a first time. ''You look so good like this, completely fucked out and your hair speared around your face.'' Daehyun says and reaches to peek your lips. You are getting close again and Daehyun notices this from how your walls tighten around his dick. ''Coming again already?'' He Grins and blush forms to your face. ''Shu-shut up.'' You pant and Daehyun's hand finds your clit again. When he pinches it you are coming again with loud moan. Daehyun follows you right after and collapses top of you panting. He pulls out of you and rolls next to your side. He lays down for a second before he tosses the used condom into trash can close to his bed. He stood up and you look him curiously. ''Where are you going?'' You ask. ''I'm going to get something to clean us up. I be right back.'' he assures and you are able to admire his naked back and round butt when he disappears from the room. He comes back shortly with wet towel and uses it to clean your thighs and glistering folds. He wipes himself quickly and tosses the towel carelessly on the ground. He climbs back to bed next to you and pull his covers over you. Daehyun spoons you from behind and you both drift into sleep.

You and Daehyun have been dating for a couple of months now and when Jongup and Youngjae found out they weren't even slightly surprised. ''I knew this would happen.'' Youngjae had said when you had told the news. Jongup has just smiled and said how happy he was for both of you. Daehyun and You were walking hand in hand heading towards a restaurant where you were planning to go on date. When you arrive to the restaurant last person you would except steps out from the door. ''Y/N?'' Himchan asks surprised but happy when he spots you. He is wearing black polo shirt with straight brown pants and top of his outfit is long brown jacket which hangs open. ''Hi Himchan.'' You smile awkwardly and scratch your neck. You really haven't seen him after you and Youngguk broke up. ''Long time no see.'' He says happily but his smile falters when he sees your and Daehyn's joined hands. Daehyun cough and offers his hand. ''I'm Daehyun, Y/N's boyfriend.'' Himchan takes his offered hand and shakes it firmly. ''I'm Himchan Y/N's and Yongguk's old friend'' He tells and glares Daehyun with unreadable expression. Soon the restaurant's door opens again and Junhong comes out from the door. ''Y/N.'' Junhong yells with excitement and takes you into tight hug ''I have missed you so much.'' He says happily. Junhong has always been also more Yongguk's friend than yours. Junhong had dyed his hair light pink and there was a new ring on his nose. ''It's nice to see you.'' You pat his back awkwardly. Junhong finally parts from you and then notices Daehyun standing next to you. ''Who is he?'' Junhong asks pointing his words to you. ''He is Daehyun, Y/N's boyfriend.'' Himchan answers before you can and Junhong's face fell. ''But what about Yongguk, he pai-.'' ''Shut up.'' Himchan glares younger man soy angrily that he snaps his mouth closed quickly. ''Yongguk tells for her himself if he wants.'' Himchan keeps glaring Junhong who sifts awkwardly. ''I really don't want hear anything from him.'' You say your happy mood ruined. ''But Y/N!'' Junhong pleas. ''There is no buts. I'm sorry but we are getting late from our reservation.'' You huff and storm inside of restaurant followed by Daehyun leaving Himchan and Junhong on the side way. You can ques that your date was horrible after that encounter.

Ringing phone wakes you up from your slumber. You are alone in your place after you had ended fighting on dinner with Daehyun. You: ''Hello?'' You ask tiredly without bothering to look callers name. -- : ''Y/N, It's me.'' Familiar voice makes your blood freeze. You: ''What do you want Yongguk?'' Yongguk: ''I don't know honestly. I ques that I just wanted to hear your voice. Himchan told me that he met you today'' He chuckles sadly.

You: ''Well he did meet me and ruined mood for my date.'' Yongguk: ''So its true, You are seeing someone.'' You could swear that you hear him sniff end of the line.'' You: ''It's none of your business.'' You are getting angry. How dare he sound so sad. Yongguk: ''I know. Sleep well Y/N.'' Without waiting for an answer he hangs up.

You are cuddled on Daehyuns side and scrolling trough your phone while he is working on his laptop. You and him made up quickly on the next day and now you were just enjoying each other's company. Youngjae was at Daehyun's and Jongup's place playing video games so you had ended up into your much smaller apartment. Daehyun's fingers slides up and down your side abstracted while his other hand keeps scrolling trough his computer. A knock from your door comes by surprise and you hurry to open it. Panting Junhong stand by the door and his eyes are full of sadness, you didn't even know that he knew where you live. ''Y/N, we need to talk.'' He says without and explanation and pushes inside of your apartment. ''Umm, okay?'' You ask confused and Daehyun's attention is also captured by Junhong. Junhong glances Daehyun with mix or anger and sadness, but turns his words to you. ''Yongguk knew about your dept.'' He says and you feel color escaping your face.'' He found the demands of payments from your bedroom drawer. He didn't say anything because he wanted that you talk him about it. He kept waiting, but you never said a word. Then one day he decided that he had had enough and searched your dept collector into his hands. He tried to make some sort of deal and help you with your dept, but the loan sharks mind did not shake. He almost lost hope when his daughter happened to arrive on the scene. She got huge crush instantly towards Yongguk so the loan shark agreed to forgive your dept if Youngguk would go out with her instead of you.'' At this point you are crying loudly and holding your chest. Daehyun comes next to you and hug you without a word when Junhong keeps talking. ''There was one condition Yongguk wasn't allowed to tell you why he broke up with you. Of course he wouldn't either way because he knew it would break your heart. Luckily after few weeks the girl got bored of Yongguk and was running after her new crush. Because of the deal you are dept free and Yongguk is left with broken heart. He and Himchan kept telling me that I'm not allowed to say anything to you, but I couldn't take it anymore after He found out that you had already found someone else. I have never seen him cry.'' Tears keep leaking from your eyes and Daehyun is still hugging you. ''Go.'' He says voice full of pain. ''Go?'' You sniff confused. ''Go to Yongguk.'' He repeats and lets go of you. You move like in dream after you hear his words. You barely remember to put your shoes on when you run into cold night. You keep running until you arrive to your old apartment complex. You care deeply about Daehyun, but Yonggok was love of your life. When you reach the front door of the apartment you keep hitting it loudly while tears are running freely on your face. When the door open you cling yourself into Yongguk's neck and keep bawling your eyes out onto his neck. He pulls you gently inside and shuts the door after him. ''Y/N why you are here, are you okay?'' He asks worriedly, instead of answering your lips finds his and Yongguk tenses at first but then answers your kiss feverishly. You pull away whit loud sniff. You aren't crying prettily like girls in the movies, instead your nose is running and your eyes are red and swollen. ''Why, why did you lie to me?'' You bawl and tighten your grip around him. Yongguk sighs. ''Was it Junhong?'' ''Yes! You should have been honest with me.'' You say and look into his eyes for the first time. His eyes are full of tears which are just waiting to fall. ''I thought that you have good reason to not share your worries with me.'' He smiles sadly and strokes your back gently. ''The reason was that I'm an idiot. I was scared that you would leave me if you found out.'' You admit weakly. ''Y/N I would never leave you because reason like that.'' ''I know it now.'' You feel quilt eating you out. ''You are silly, silly girl.'' Yongguk say and pulls you into another kiss.

Three figures are laying on the bed. Bed sheets are pulled all the way up to your chins and two men are sleeping peacefully you on the middle. You are too happy to sleep. Yongguk is on your left side holding tightly your hand where the ring has returned. Daehyun is sleeping on your right side hanging on you like a koala. You don't know how you get so lucky with two of men who loved you deeply. You were shocked when Yongguk had wanted to meet Daehyun and they both had admitted to want to be with you. You three had ended up into poly relationship you on the middle and your both boyfriends on the side. Sometimes they got overly jealous over each other, but mostly your relationship was going smoothly. Your circle of friends were shocked at first, but accepted your relationship quickly after they saw how happy you were with each other. You still felt most grateful towards Junhong because his words of truth had lead to your happiness. ''Aren't you sleepy?'' tired voice asks from your left side. ''I can't sleep. I'm too happy.'' You admit shyly. ''Me too baby, me too.'' Yongguk squeezes your hand gently.

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Noir ♠️ Confession

A B.A.P holiday songfic series by Admin B! Enjoy!

Genre: 1940′s AU

Pairing: Zelo x You

By Admin B

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It suffocates you The countless hate, resentment, misery They try to bury you on this quiet night

The gunfire. The explosions. The shrapnel, the mud, the barricades, the screams... the crying.

In reality, none of this was constant. There were plenty of deceivingly peaceful times (it was never actually peaceful when you were fighting a war, but it seemed peaceful, at least).

But these were the sounds which stuck with Junhong. He could hear them playing over and over in his head, especially during the quiet, downtime.

He had never agreed with or even liked war. He hated violence, and he hated hatred, as hypocritical as it sounds. But, more specifically, he hated hatred for other people. He hated intolerance and ignorance.

And that was getting a lot of people killed these days.

No one held your hand They all turned away Everyone twisted your thoughts and words You cried so much

War had been... a lot harder than Junhong ever imagined. Not that he ever thought it would be easy, but the reality of it was infinitely harsher and darker and scarier.

And he’d been alone. He’d had a whole troop of soldiers by his side, fighting the same fight, but he’d been alone.

He’d missed you so goddamn much that he’d practically cried himself to sleep almost every night.

He’d missed you, and he hadn’t been able to stop thinking about all the people dying. He’d kept wondering just why he was here. Why had this ever started? Why were people so... horrible?

Why trap yourself in a maze? Believe in yourself You see white and black in the mirror Although I’m weak I can comfort you till the end

All of his negative thoughts followed him home. Even when he was back in your bed, his mind still raced, and the sounds of war played at full volume in his head.

You noticed instantly he wasn’t the same Junhong he was when he’d left you, but you really hadn’t expected him to be. You knew he would come home a different person.

You just didn’t realize he would be this different.

You turned over in bed to face him, reaching out and gently resting a hand on his shoulder. He jumped awake, and you could hear his shallow breathing become more relaxed as he realized it had only been a dream.

Although, it probably wasn’t just a dream. Everything he was seeing and hearing had probably been very real at one point.

“Hey, it’s okay,” you whispered, scooting close to him and pressing your lips to the back of his neck. “I’m right here. You’re home now, remember? With me.”

You tried your best to comfort him, but you always felt you couldn’t do enough. You had no idea what he was going through. You’d been here at home while he’d been over there, so how could you know? How could you really help him believe everything would be okay?

But you tried anyway because you loved him. You always had, and you always would. No matter what.

How can they block your freedom? I’ll understand and hug you Close your eyes without a word Please hear the cries of this lamb

You set your purse down on the counter, calling out to Junhong that you were home from work.

Usually, he came out to greet you with a kiss, but today he was nowhere to be found. At least not from where you stood in the kitchen. But none of his things were gone, so he had to be here.

“Junhong,” you called again, your brow furrowing in concern.

And then you heard them. The soft, choking sobs.

You followed the muffled sound into your bathroom, and your heart broke when you saw Junghong huddled on the floor in front of the bathtub, his face buried in his hands as his body shuddered with his cries.

You immediately dropped to your knees beside him, wrapping your arms around him and pulling him closer to you.

You shushed him, rubbed his back, kissed his head. And you silently cursed the world for doing this to him.

Why did he deserve this? Why did anyone deserve this? The world was such a cruel, unfair place, and you hadn’t truly understood that until Junhong had come home from the war.

As you held him there on your bathroom floor, you silently prayed to whoever or whatever was out there to hear Junhong’s cries. To hear the cries of all the soldiers and the families and the children affected by this war and to put an end to all of it.

Please.

Instead of anger and fear, give me peace Help me to hold onto hope And give me the strength to pass it on

It took Junhong a while to agree, but after months of persuading, he finally did.

He agreed to actually marry you. On Christmas Day of all days.

You two had legally gotten married before he went off to war, but you hadn’t had a wedding. You hadn’t the money nor the time, so you’d simply applied for a marriage license at City Hall and called it a day.

But today you were getting married. You were having a real wedding with a dress and music and cake and all that jazz. Junhong would be wearing a suit, waiting for you at the end of the aisle.

And while he wasn’t the same Junhong you’d married over two years ago, you still loved him. Maybe you loved him even more now, despite the fact he’d been hesitant to have this wedding.

But you really couldn’t blame him. He was still suffering, and he claimed he didn’t see the point in having what was really a glorified party when you were already married.

There were more important things to worry about in this godforsaken world.

But you’d quietly told him a wedding would make you happy. It would make him happy. It would make your friends and family happy.

And happiness was what truly mattered in life, didn’t he agree? Happiness brought hope, and hope brought light to the darkness.

And Christmas was a time of joy and love and hope, wasn’t it?

He hadn’t been able to turn you down after that reasoning.

He figured, if he could do something like this to make you happy, then that was at least a step in the right direction of overcoming whatever it was he’d brought back with him from the war.

Maybe it would even help him get over his newfound fear of having children with you. He didn’t want to pass on his struggles, but he did want to pass on the light the two of you created with your love.

So, as the snow fell outside, as the families in the houses around the church celebrated and opened presents and laughed and smiled, you and Junhong vowed your undying love for each other in front of your closest friends and family. You kissed, you ate cake, you danced to jazz music, and you drove away in the fanciest car you’d ever seen back to your small apartment with your tiny Christmas tree because you couldn’t afford a real honeymoon yet.

But that was all right. You had each other, and that was enough. He was now coming to realize that. As long as he had a roof over his head, a steady job, food on the table... and you. Everything would be okay.

Maybe... maybe realizing all of this would actually help him forgive himself.

Forgive my evil sins Please give me the light

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welovekpopscenarios · 6 years

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Encounter (Daehyun x Reader)

Admin: Candi Request/Idea: How can Daehyun resist going back to the woods after encountering the most beautiful thing he has ever seen? Fandom: B.A.P Member/reader: Daehyun x Reader Genre: Angst, Horror, Smut Warnings: Gore Words: 2k Authors note: I finally did it, please go easy on me since I am a bit rusty but I still hope you enjoy it! I decided to write for B.A.P finally.

When Daehyun first stepped foot into the forest he didn’t know what powers it held, he didn’t know that he’ll be drawn to it like a moth to a flame and he would have no clue as to why he wanted to go in deeper into it. The first time he visited the forest was with his friends, Yongguk had the great idea of letting loose and having a few drinks in the forest with a fire. Everyone seemed to be into the idea, so they drove deep into it where no one could find them, there was no phone service, they completely disappeared.

“What if we get attacked?” Jongup played with his fingers and looked down.

“By who?” Daehyun scoffed.

“Or by what?” Youngjae added, trying to scare Jongup.

Yongguk laughed and reassured Jongup that they’ll be fine. As time went on and the drinks were starting to take away every bit of sensibility that the boys have left they decided to call it a night. Camping wasn’t on the agenda, but everyone was quite intoxicated, so they slept in the truck. As they got in, Daehyun couldn’t shake the feeling of someone staring at him, he kept looking around but eventually he blamed it on the alcohol. He got into the truck and got the window seat, he rested his head on the window and admired the shadows that the moon painted on the soil. His eyes shifted and caught a glimpse of something between the trees.

“Guys! Look there, between the trees!” He screamed out and pointed.

“What?” Himchan scrunched his eyebrows. “You’re just drunk, you’re fine.”

Daehyun could have sworn he saw something, it appeared to be a human figure. His mind was racing with questions, but he calmed himself down and ended up convincing himself it was just his imagination. Throughout the night Daehyun kept waking up, he felt like he was being watched but he promised himself he won’t freak out. He got out of the car quietly, looked at his phone, still no service.

“It’s only 4am, I just want to go home.” He whispered to himself. He took a short stroll around the woods, not straying too far from the car. He looked up and could see the sky full of stars and the moon shining through the branches of the old trees. He was breathing in the fresh air, the smell of the fire still lingered in the air.

“Hello?” Daehyun left his trance as he heard a branch break on the floor, as if someone stepped on it. “Probably some animal.” He breathed out and turned back around. He froze, he could clearly see a human standing right between the trees. The person got closer to him until he could make out that it was indeed a woman. She was wearing fur that covered her most intimate areas and had strange marks on her face but she was the most beautiful thing he has ever seen. Daehyun still couldn’t move, it was like someone cast a spell on him, he was in a state of complete paralysis. She got close and caressed his face, his heart was racing, he wanted to scream and run but it was no use. Her mouth opened wide, tearing the sides of it to the point of blood gushing out, her teeth were sharp and stained with blood.

“Daehyun! Daehyun!” Yongguk shouts out. Daehyun wakes up, sweating and panting. “What the fuck happened? What did you dream about?” “What?” Daehyun wiped his forehead, sweat dripping down his cheek. “I-I swear it was not…” The dream felt so real he didn’t know whether it happened or not but after thinking about what happened he presumed it was only a nightmare.

“Are we ready to go home?” Yongguk asks and everyone hums in agreement.

On the way home, Daehyun was pretty quiet, he couldn’t wrap his mind around the fact that it was only a dream yet it all felt so real. The group stopped to grab some food but Daehyun couldn’t stomach anything at that moment, his mind was invaded with thoughts of the witch from the forest.

They arrived back home by afternoon, everyone dropped their bags and found the nearest spot to rest and all sighed out in unison, the lack of sleep was getting to them and they were all hungover on top of that.

“I’m gonna go for a nap, don’t know about you guys.” Zelo announced. Everyone seemed to scatter off but Daehyun, he stayed on the couch and fell asleep there.

He was walking through the forest, searching for the beautiful witch he encountered last night. The air was so fresh, wind so warm and trees so vibrantly green.

“Yo wake up it’s 9am we have practice.” Yongguk wakes up Daehyun.

“I slept here all night?”

“Looks like it. Come on, the management is going to kill us if we’re not there practicing.”

They hurried down and spent most of the day practicing for their upcoming concert.

“Man what’s wrong with you?” Himchan sits down next to Daehyun and asks. Daehyun has been pretty distracted all day, he wasn’t managing to follow the new routine like he always did.

“I just, I can’t stop thinking about my dream. It felt so real, I’m almost sure it was real.” Daehyun answered to Himchan and unfortunately Himchan didn’t know how to help him.

After about a week Daehyun was slowly starting to go insane, all he could think of was the being he saw in the forest. He sat down on the couch and searched for his phone in his pocket, he felt something and took it out, it looked like pieces of wood with weird markings on them. Those were the same jeans he wore during the camping trip. He needed to go back and prove to himself that what he saw wasn’t real but how was he going to explain it to the guys? “I’m going to the woods by myself to prove that the witch I saw wasn’t real!” That’s insane. He needed a plan and needed to come up with it fast before he went insane.

“Hey guys so I was thinking, the camping trip was really fun right?” He starts.

“Right.” The group responds.

“Why don’t we go again this weekend? The weather is meant to be really nice and we need to relax before our show.” He stands there for a minute before the group all agree and decide that it’s a good idea.

Finally, the weekend is here after what it felt like forever. Daehyun wakes everyone up and hurries them to get to the car. They took off quite early in the morning, he’d have plenty of time to explore the woods and look for the breathtaking woman he knew he saw. Once they got there he dropped all of his stuff and legged it into the woods while he told the others he’s gone exploring. Hours went by and he found nothing, he finally gave up and started heading back to their site. When he finally came back everyone was relieved to see he was safe, he was gone for hours and they started to get worried about him. Daehyun sat down looking disappointed as ever and accepted the fact that everything was just a dream. For the rest of the night they all sat around the fire, sipping beer and singing songs, eventually everyone fell asleep.

Daehyun woke up and looked around, everyone was still asleep, he checked his phone and it said it was 4am. He went to the car to get some water.

“Guys?” He heard the rustling of leaves behind him. “Is anyone there?”

“You came back.” A soft voice spoke to him, he instantly froze and told himself it was just a dream. He felt a hand on his back, it travelled to his chest and turned him around.

“I’m Y/N. I haven’t stopped thinking about you ever since you came into the forest the first time.”

“Who are you?”

“Do you not remember me?”

Of course, Daehyun remembered you, he couldn’t stop thinking about you.

“You came back because of me, didn’t you?”

“What’s going on?” Daehyun stood there breathless, confused as to whether it was a dream or not.

“Come with me.” You dragged him deep into the woods, not saying a word. He had a lot of questions, but he didn’t know which one to ask first, it’s like the lost his tongue. The deeper he went in the more his anxiety went up, he was being dragged by a stranger deep into the woods but for some reason, he couldn’t stop. It was like he was under a spell and he enjoyed every minute of it, he didn’t want this trance to end. The woods got so thick it was hard to avoid trees but after walking for a while he noticed a little cave which he assumed was where you were all this time. You both went in and he sat down on one of the chairs in the cave.

“Why am I so attracted to you? Why did I feel the need to come back here?” He asked and you made your way over to him, put your hand in his pocket and took out the wooden pieces with marks on them.

“This lured you back to me. I needed you to come back.”

“Why?”

“You’ll see.” You smile at him and make him feel at home while you go off into a room that was separated by hanging leaves and feathers.

“What did I just get myself into? I should leave” Daehyun was scared and wanted to go back to the group but no matter how much he tried to convince himself to leave he just couldn’t. He sat in the chair until you came out, his jaw dropped, and he was instantly drawn to you. You stood naked right in front of him, waiting for him to get closer.

“See, I’m a witch and I lure people in.” You whisper in his ear while his fingers get tangled in your hair.

“Oh yeah?” He says breathlessly, standing over you. You can feel his warmth on your skin. You press his lips against his and push into him, he lifts you up and brings you into the other room where he slowly lies you down on the bed that was covered in different furs. He kisses your neck and nibbles on it while his hand massages your breast and plays with your nipple. You moan out his name and he lowers himself to your folds and runs his tongue through them. He slipped two fingers into you and started pumping bringing you closer to an orgasm, you pulled him up before you got the chance to cum. You got on top of him and slipped his throbbing cock into you making both of you moan. He kissed your chest while you bounced up and down his dick edging both of you closer and closer.

“I lure people in here because I feed off them.” You moan out.

“What?” Daehyun stopped and fear clearly made an appearance in his eyes. You kept moving your hips making it hard for him to concentrate. Before he got the chance to react you grabbed the dagger that was on the table next to the bed and stabbed him straight through the chest. Blood splattered everywhere, it wasn’t long before you were covered in it and he was taking his last breaths.

“I’m sorry sweetheart, you were one of the prettier ones.” You rest your hand on his cheek and kiss him while he was on his last breath.

“We need to go back and report this to the police.” Jongup panics.

“We can’t just leave without him.”

The whole group starts arguing about what to do. Daehyun has been missing since this morning and it was 3pm already, they needed to go back to their dorms and inform the agency of Daehyuns disappearance.

“Idol Jung Dae hyun missing since last weekend, the group went to the woods to camp and he went missing that night. There have been no leads so far and no one knows his whereabouts. His bandmates decided to cancel all of their upcoming shows until he’s found. If anyone has any information, please contact your local police station.”

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sunshinechii-scenarios · 6 years

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A Chef’s Heart (Chapter 2)

✿ B.A.P’s YoungJae x Female!Reader✿ Angst ✿ 1.1k words ✿ Not requested✿ Written by Sunni

Chapter 2! I’m starting to think I’m only writing this to prove to myself I can finish a series but nonetheless ENJOY! -Sunni

The next morning, you woke up to a text message from YoungJae.

“Y/N, I’m sorry you haven’t been happy. I’m also sorry that I’m not great at talking but you should be happy because you deserve it! You work too hard to be upset all the time. Let’s do well at work today!”

You smiled despite yourself. And then you thought of work. Groaning, you threw off your blanket and got ready for another tiring day. One of the worst parts about PM shifts was that pretty much as soon as you woke up, you had to start getting ready for work. You glanced at your phone to check the time. YoungJae’s message was still on the screen. At least YoungJae would be working tonight, too.

Time flew faster than you thought and after cleaning up around your apartment, you had to scarf some bread down and leave. No matter how much you despised your workplace lately, you would never slack off. You still put 110% of your effort into things and always tried to arrive twenty minutes early.

When you arrived, however, someone had left a note on your locker. Taking the note off and bringing it closer to your face, you realized that you recognized the small, structured handwriting.

Early bird gets the worm! Since you’re always early, you have nothing to worry about! Good karma is coming your way because you’re such a great worker, Y/N!

You were smiling down at the note and mentally thanking YoungJae when someone scared you from behind. You jumped and practically dropped the note but clutched it to your chest to avoid doing so.

“You make it too easy, Y/N” one of the guys from the savory side commented. You mumbled a whatever and turned away. People on the savory side were so immature sometimes. Sighing, you un-crumpled the note and saved it inside of your bag.

When you walked into the kitchen, your Chef handed you a small cup. Attached to it was a small note, identical to the one left on your locker.

“This may or may not be from YoungJae,” your Chef said quickly. He practically shoved the cup into your hand and went on with his production. You thought nothing of his slightly rude behavior. Chef was always that way. Instead, you peered into the cup with curiosity.

You rolled your eyes but in actuality, the small cup of Thai iced tea made you happier than it should have. You loved Thai iced tea. You promised yourself you would take small sips as you detached the note to read it properly.

To energize you on this busy Saturday! It might be busy but that just means time will pass faster and before you know, you can go sleep again, Y/N!

Later in the day, when you went to the bathroom, you came back to yet another note pasted to the container that held your tools. The handwriting was sloppier, presumably because YoungJae had written it in the short time you were gone.

You’re more than half-way there, Y/N! Break-time is soon, that means FOOOOOOOD!

You could practically hear YoungJae screaming the last word in your mind. Laughing to yourself, you saved the note in the same place as the last one. When break time came along, you started to get in line with some other employees to get some food. Then, YoungJae appeared next to you and stopped you from taking a plate. You looked at him, obviously confused.

“Let’s eat something else!”

You gave him a look. “What else is there to eat?”

YoungJae revealed a bag from behind his back with a smile. “This,” he replied. Your eyes recognized the logo of your favorite macaroni and cheese place within a second. Instead of hugging him like you wanted to, you opted for grabbing his forearm that held the bag.

“YoungJae!” you exclaimed. You were almost too excited to be embarrassed about the amount of looks you got for your loud volume. You hadn’t eaten this food for a good six months.

YoungJae led the way to your usual table. A few of your coworkers joined the two os you and watched with envious eyes as you took the lids off the several different types of mac and cheese YoungJae had bought.

“I got your favorite with the lobster but they also had this new kind with potatoes and mushrooms!”

You took a small spoonful of the new one and turned to YoungJae. You punched him lightly in this arm. “What is all of this for? Not that I’m not super duper thankful right now,” you mumbled, looking down.

YoungJae bumped his shoulder against yours and began to eat. As well. “To see you smile.”

You stopped chewing and looked up at him. “What..?”

YoungJae answered without hesitation. “To make you happier.” He didn’t know how much that meant. And how much that hurt. He could never know.

“Wow, get a room, already,” one of your coworkers said loud enough for the entire table to hear.

You looked over with wide eyes, the spoon still in your mouth. You slowly took it out and felt the heat on your cheeks deepen. “Excuse me?” you said. You couldn’t tell if your body was heating up because you were embarrassed or angry at the insensitive comment. This girl didn’t know the half of it.

“I don’t think the rest of the table, including myself, appreciates the googly eyes you guys give each other all the time. Get together or get over yourselves. Jeez,” she sneered.

Your jaw dropped. Neither you nor YoungJae spoke to this girl very often. She had absolutely no right to assume things about your relationship. Part of you wanted to snap back but a bigger part of you told you it wasn’t worth it. She was lucky you were so patient. You decided to try and lighten the tension that had fallen over the table.

“I don’t know what you mean because YoungJae wouldn’t even know the first thing about being a boyfriend,” you joked. You looked at YoungJae and stuck your tongue out. Everyone at the table laughed at the sudden joke. You looked over at the girl and gave her a smirk. She scoffed and got up, miraculously finished with her meal.

When you looked back at YoungJae, however, he wasn’t smiling. Had your joke gone a little too far?

You pushed a container of mac and cheese closer to him. “Sorry I threw you under the bus there,” you said softly. His brow remained furrowed and his was pouting slightly.

“Whatever,” he muttered. Your heart sank at the failure of your attempted apology. You hadn’t meant to upset him. “Eat well,” YoungJae said harshly. Then, he got up and walked out of the cafeteria. You were so shocked, you didn’t even think to chase after him.

School sucks. And is only going to suck more because I like the chef that I have now and the class that I’m in now but I move on to a new class/chef by next week. Idk why I’m complaining about school, sorry. -Sunni

Please don’t claim this as your own and please don’t do anything with it without my permission. If you don’t want it happening to you, don’t do it to others.

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bapdaydreams · 7 years

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Bang Yongguk: Trust Me

A/n: Hello! I’ve been on an angsty roll so have another angsty short scenario. This one isn’t about breaking up so hurray! But I do have that coming soon. Anyway, this is based on KARD’s song Trust Me (BM & Somin ver) because as soon as I heard this song I thought about Yongguk and his struggles with anxiety and how he seems to keep his feelings to himself as I relate to him a lot in that department maybe not as badly. But that’s enough rambling, I hope you enjoy!

Alternative Ending

Alternative Ending, Another Ending

You knew Yongguk worked hard and you supported him all the way. But he has been acting differently recently. You can tell he is stressed and tired and you want to tell him that he should take it easy but you knew he didn’t like that. He didn’t like making you worry about him.

He was here next to you but you missed him.

He had recently just dove into work and neglected his own health. You couldn’t help but worry. You wished he would tell you how he was feeling and his troubles. You knew he was quiet and liked to keep to himself. You knew it was hard for him to talk about how he really felt.

You wanted him to talk to you.

But he wasn’t going to.

You were in the living room while he was in his home office. He had practically shut himself out from the rest of the world. You felt a little bit neglected, as he normally wasn’t like this. Yes, he had phases of when he would just drown himself in work but he wouldn’t forget to update you about himself.

These days he had just been shut in. You left food for him when you went to work and things but the food were always untouched. You hoped he was taking care of himself.

You hoped he would come out and talk to you.

Even just a hug would make you feel better. That’s all you needed.

Yongguk knew he made you worry but he didn’t want to burden you. He didn’t want to put the weight of his worries and problems on you. He was working through things and he needed you to trust him.

He loved you and he would always go back to you once he has worked through his problems in his own way. He promised to be there for you always and he plans to keep that promise and carry on working hard to figure things out.

But for now he just needed you to trust him and wait a little bit.

He has been having some thoughts these days.

It made his lungs feel tight and made it hard for him to breath. He would be filled with panic and could think of nothing else. He would start sweating for no reason as his mind went down the dark hole of negative thoughts. He would be gasping for breathe and find it hard to catch his breath.

He had been struggling these days, with himself and the world around him.

People around him were full of lies and he couldn’t deal with all the reality and the pain of his work. The stress made him restless and loses touch with himself. He sometimes thought the world moved around him moved faster and he found it hard to keep up. He thought he was losing control.

That��s when the panic starts, once he starts losing control of his thoughts and feelings. His breathing gets shorter and he struggles to breath in a steady pace. His body freezes and he can’t so anything and he is helpless.

Then he remembers your smile.

You are his anchor, the way you talked to him and smiled at him always put him in ease. You were always there for him and you were always honest about your own feelings to him. You were always bright and he was always thankful for you. He knew you would always be there for him.

He loved you and you were all he needed. He snaps out of his thoughts and finds himself relaxing. No matter what he was going through, what trouble he had you would be there to support him.

He takes a deep breath and sits back in his chair.

His mind is clear now.

He looks at the time, it’s quiet late and he knows you are in bed by now. He misses you. He hadn’t seen you properly in a few days now. He sits there lost in thoughts for a while.

But there are no more negative thoughts.

He stands up and quietly shuffles into the shared bedroom. He recognises your figure under the sheets. He slowly crawls into bed on his side and snuggles as close to you and he can and places his hand around your waist. He rests his head in the crook of your neck and breaths in your familiar scent.

He falls asleep so quickly.

When you wake up, you wake up to the familiar weight of an arm on top of you. You smile and turn onto the other side to be greeted by a sleeping Yongguk.

No matter what he would always love you and you would always be there for him and love him back just as much.

#b.a.p #bang yongguk #Yongguk #baplibrary #yongguk scenarios #yongguk scenario #yongguk imagine #yongguk imagines #bang yongguk imagine #bang yongguk scenario #yongguk x reader #bang yongguk x reader #youngguk x you #b.a.p x you #b.a.p x reader #b.a.p angst

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coffee-for-himchan · 7 years

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From Enemies To Lovers (Yoo Youngjae x reader)

Requested by: a lovely anon

Word count: 4.1 k+

Genre/warnings: fluff/angst ❤🔥(more fluff tho, I think)

Summary: Working for B.A.P wasn’t easy, but it was fun. Well, up until you had to be faced with Youngjae, since, for some reason, he hadn’t really been keen on your presence and company from the very start, which had caused you two to develop a rather interesting, sarcasm and maybe even hate filled relationship. But ever since a few past events that had taken place not too long ago, things have slightly shifted and changed, and he was left clueless on what to do and how to feel. You actually made his heart skip a beat. And when he upset you by his words and actions, he was determined to make it all up. And make it happen.

“Guess who’s dissatisfied again?“

With a sigh, you turned around to take a look at Daehyun. The playfully amused smirk that was plastered all over his face was reason enough for you to quickly develop a strong desire to slap him across his face. But you gulped it down, reminding yourself he wouldn’t look all that pretty in tonight’s performance with a bright red hand print on his face. And after all, he wasn’t the cause of your troubles, was he?

No. It was no other than Youngjae, just as always, and you groaned, knowing this was about to get sarcastic and possibly even mean again.

“Let me guess,” you turned your head back to face the clothing racks, continuing to sort everything that was there, “You told me you liked it-”

“Ouou, before you continue, this jacket’s sooo coool, I love it! You did a great job picking it!” he was basically bouncing up and down, flashing smiles and showing his full energy. As always, no matter where he was or what he was doing. He was just being his loud self.

“T-thanks..” you muttered shyly, your reflexes making you tuck a strand of hair behind your ear, “A-anyways.. You liked it. Yongguk oppa didn’t seem to have any issues with it either, and Himchan oppa flashed a big smile, saying something about looking like a star tonight in the outfit I got him. Yup was a thankful puppy and Jello’s smile was brighter than the sun. So who’s left?”

“I don’t know, remind me.”

“Yoo I-gonna-complain-even-though-it-couldn’t-get-any-better Youngjae.”

“Oh wow,” Daehyun chuckled, filling the room with heartwarming laughter, “I didn’t know Youngjae-ah even had something like a middle name.”

“Ahem ahem.”

You groaned a little after hearing the too familiar voice, and turned around to face the doorway. Youngjae was there, and, upon eyeing him up and down, you realized you’d really done wrong by picking that outfit.

He didn’t deserve to look that good tonight.

“Slowly getting a sore throat, I hear?” you tried not to spare him another glance, and turned away, going back to working, “I know a perfect way to lessen the strain on your voice - stop shouting that much. And complaining.”

“Only when you stop talking behind people’s backs,” he stepped forwards, and you braced yourself for another rather mean sarcastic fight.

“I didn’t know I had a middle name either. But thanks for enlightening me.”

You two slowly began to gather an audience. You were sure all the guys were watching, and so was all the staff that was in this room. It was a quite funny sight, after all. No one knew if you and Youngjae actually hated each other, because it didn’t really seem like it, even though you fought every minute of every day. It rather seemed like a way to cope with.. Different feelings.

“What’s wrong this time around?”

“Why the cutesy concept again?”

You chuckled a little. This wasn’t a black leather jacket/ripped jeans type of comeback. They had a softer style this time around, but you indeed found something extra pretty and cute especially for Youngjae. Because out of all, he pulled that style off the best - maybe even perfectly, but you were too salty to admit. Too bad he wasn’t having it, as he looked oh so gorgeous.

“Your face itself screams “cute”, Youngjae-ah. I can’t really fix your face up with a clothing choice-“

“You could try at least, and not just drown my frame out in an oversized sweater with an obnoxiously big ribbon and cutesy shorts.”

Daehyun, who’d been watching from nearby, chuckled at how close your faces were now - Youngjae’s hovering right above yours. “I can’t with you, guys. You’re so cute together-”

“No, we’re not!”

You froze on spot when you realized the same sentence had left your and Youngjae’s mouths simultaneously, and the wave of light chuckles that washed over the room didn’t really help the mood. You were a little frustrated now, but more than that - embarrassed.

“Saying sentences together like a couple. What’s going to be next-”

You didn’t slap him, but Youngjae did it instead, even if only lightly and as a warning of what would follow if he’d continue the same way.

“I mean, okay. Continue denying it, but it’s true-”

“It’s not!” you both growled, understanding you’d said this in perfect unison with each other as well and groaning in separate pitches, causing more chuckles. Youngjae threw you a look, and you didn’t quite understand what he meant by it.

For a second, his stare didn’t display any type of disagreement or displeasure. The look he gave you was soft, and, accompanied by how close he was, you were certain - this was only the look lovers gave each other. As if saying “he doesn’t know what he’s talking about, because he doesn’t know a thing about us, but we do. And that’s enough.”

“Forget it,” he quickly turned to face Daehyun, starting to walk past both of you, “We’re never going to be a thing.”

And with that, he left the room, and you were left with a chuckling Daehyun standing nearby and continuing the emotional torture.

“(Y/N), I’m being honest-”

“Go be honest somewhere else. Or I might slap you as well,” you muttered, finally making him leave with a last chuckle.

If only he knew.

Being a stylist for B.A.P had always seemed like a dream job to you. You had quite a lot of creative freedom, and seemed to please everyone with your work - even Youngjae, who oftentimes pretended not to like it. To be completely honest, you didn’t even know where you went wrong with him, as you got along amazingly good with the other five. Youngjae was just someone who you.. had different feelings for.

Okay, why not admit it, if you were already at it? You were head over heels for him when you met him first, and he seemed to show interest too, which had you on cloud nine. But, along the way, it all somehow died down. Sarcastic conversations became a thing, and, the more days passed, the more distant you became. Until all you did was throw around mean remarks and seemingly argue.

“Hey, are you salty about it?” Daehyun poked at Youngjae. They were about to go on stage and slay their performance, just as usual, yet Youngjae felt more off than ever. All because of you.

“Jaee..” Daehyun poked at him one more time, “Stop the silent treatment. It’s not my fault you can’t admit to the fact you’re in loooooovee.”

“Daehyun hyung, I’d beware if I were you,” Jongup said as Junhong near him cracked up at Youngjae’s reaction. Too bad Daehyun had backed off already - otherwise he would’ve gotten slapped again.

“Actually, if I were you, I’d go to apologize to (Y/N),” Yongguk quietly called from somewhere a little further away.

“What for!?”

“For acting like an asshole when she clearly only wishes the best for you,” Himchan nagged, and this time around his statements were approved by everyone around, “You keep pushing her away because your head refuses to cooperate with your heart. She doesn’t have to suffer from that.”

They were about to go on at every other moment now, and as the green light was given, they started to get into formation and position.

Youngjae glanced all around. This wouldn’t end well, he was certain, as his mind was elsewhere, not present in this environment. The fanchants had started and could be heard from here already, and as Daehyun practically pushed Youngjae out on stage, all faded away.

He knew he’d been feeling different about you for a while already. What started off as playful banter and escalated to an actually close to hateful relationship was slowly dying down every time he took a closer look at you now. He didn’t want to admit at first, but there was no escape from it anyways.

You’d actually grown on him, and he found himself developing feelings, all of them coming back to him now in the middle of the performance alongside old, close to repressed memories.

* * * * *

The cold wind was nibbling away at his ears, turning them a light shade of red, but he didn’t mind in the least. Sitting on the back entrance’s porch steps, he shivered a little, wishing he would’ve been smart enough to take a jacket along with him.

The skies were clear, yet his mind wasn’t, and as he tried to somehow collect it, he couldn’t help but hate the fact he was left alone yet again.

The guys were probably searching for him. Or if not searching, at least looking around to hopefully spot him somewhere. But he didn’t want to see them, as he wasn’t in the mood. Even if that conflicted with the previous statement - he simply didn’t want to. He just wanted to have someone around to tame his rising frustration and stay there with him all through it. Help him back up, as he’d fallen down a little lower today.

The door behind him creaked open, triggering a loud exhale from him. It had to be one of them. He had come to tell him to stop fooling around, get his ego together and come back. As always.

“Youngjae-ah, there you are.”

The voice he heard instead sent shivers down his spine, and just for a second he wanted you to wrap your arms around him from behind. Nuzzle your face in the crook of his neck and warm him up, as his heart had been frozen cold for a while now. But rather than doing anything of that sort, or letting you do anything else, he didn’t even budge to turn to face you. He stared off into the distance, and only mumbled.

“Get lost.”

You sighed, and right as he thought he’d been too harsh and turned to apologize, you closed the door behind yourself with a thud, leaving him to be alone once again.

He’d screwed it up, hadn’t he? He sat, thinking. Maybe that’s why some people didn’t like him and didn’t get along with him? Maybe because he was too harsh, or was pushing them away. He had been mean to you because of clashes of opinions, and hell knows why else. He couldn’t even recall it.

All he knew was that he wasn’t sure if he had done right all this time, and if he’d offended you.

“Here, idiot. Don’t freeze to death.”

Something soft and warm landed on his shoulders causing him to snap out of his trance and jump a little. You sat down beside him, and waited as he realized you’d brought him his coat so he wouldn’t freeze.

“How about I go get lost now?” you looked at him and chuckled lightly, starting to get up again, “Now I’ll at least be able to do so while being calm at heart. Now that I know that my favorite idiot won’t freeze to death out in the cold-”

“Stay,” he cut you off and got a hold of your arm, letting silence hang over for the few seconds that you spent considering and finally obeying.

He recalled it pouring out of his heart like a waterfall back then, and recalled sitting there with you for long. You had serious heart-to-heart talks, and even shared a few laughs. The feud was lost somewhere along the way, and kept on silently admiring you.

You knew he was having a hard time, and were even ready to put all the banter away. You were there for him when no one else was, and he, upon letting the evening extend into the night and eventually end.. Let it slip.

But not without developing feelings. Or well, slowly starting to do so, letting them take over completely in the following months.

* * * * *

“Youngjae hyung, are you alright?” he barely noticed how he’d gotten off stage, and dizzily turned to Jongup who was giving him a worried glance.

“Yeah.. Jongup-ah, I’ll just stay here for a little. Don’t wait up, just go,” he waved him away and walked to some nearby stairs, sitting down a little to catch his breath.

Truth to be said, it had been washing over him for the whole last three months, since that porch step conversation. And it had especially intensified in the last week. So was it maybe time to face the truth?

It had to be, as his mind kept travelling back to you. Despite remarks, you’d always been there. You were always on his team. You’d cheered on him multiple times when he thought no one would. You’d helped him through thick and thin, with or without commenting on his stupidity and inability to handle situations on his own.

You’d been there. And, despite often having different views and opinions, you’d made him fall for you. And, since he hated this sea of feelings, he felt like it was time to confess and wether get turned down or elevated. Hoping for the latter, he stood up, wandering back to the dressing room.

“Where’s (Y/N)?”

“Went out a few minutes ago,” Junhong called from the couch, already dressed in comfy attire, “I think she said she needed to get some fresh air.”

“Yeah, she didn’t look all that happy either,” Daehyun added, walking past him, “I can already guess what the reason is.”

“Daehyun-ah, don’t you dare tell me it’s my fault-”

“I think it is,” Yongguk said, and when he spoke, no one interrupted. Everyone knew his opinion was usually closest to right, “She looked quite devastated since you stomped off earlier. For what reasons, I don’t know. But you maybe will have more of a clue on what’s going on.”

And even if he didn’t know, he sure was about to find out. Walking outside the room, he didn’t fail to grab his jacket from the hanger and leave to hopefully go in the right direction as soon as possible.

You were leaning over the railings, staring off into the distance with a full heart and mind. Life had become a little more painful now - well, not that it hadn’t been all along.

Maybe you were stupid for all of this, but you were still crushing hard. And you hated him oh so much at the same time. His words about you two never being a thing left your heart in a shattered state. He’d thrown them out as if it was nothing - as if you simply weren’t worth it, and he was too good for you, having the rights to talk like this. He’d talked harshly, and you were left aching again.

Oh god, how your heart ached, and you simply wanted to somehow mend it.

“Stop freezing out here and come in.”

Silence followed, and you gulped down potential tears. Why was he here? To tell you you’d done wrong once again, or to throw out a bad remark? You really weren’t in the mood for this. Or for anything involving him, really. You tried so hard to make him like you since you can remember, and he still seemed to have a hard time doing so. So why spend your life living in emotional agony, allowing your relationship to sink lower and lower every passing day while you could be a little more at peace with having him off of your radar completely?

“Get lost.”

You hoped he would, and when silence followed for a little too long, you thought he’d gone away without you noticing. But the memories from three months ago quickly made their way into your head as you felt him wrapping his arms around you from behind, tugging you closer. This was a.. Familiar situation. Almost.

“Only if you come along,” he chuckled, nuzzling his nose into your hair and adjusting his rather large, open jacket to cover both your frames, “It’s cold, you know? And I only have one jacket, but we can share.”

“Didn’t you hear?” you asked, admitting to yourself he was actually comfortable. But he wasn’t just being nice, you were certain. He had something up his sleeve, and you weren’t sure if you wanted to know, as it couldn’t possibly be good.

“Hear what?”

“I told you to leave.”

“And I said I would if you’d come along.”

You sighed, knowing he wasn’t going to obey, no. It would always go his way, without exception. So, a little uncomfortable by the sudden closeness since you knew his initial hatred towards you, you turned your head to say it once again, as clear as ever. He had to leave.

“Youngjae-ah, just get over yourself and do as told for once, goddamnit-”

You were about to speak your mind, about to let him know. But you got cut off by a kiss instead.

So, what are you supposed to do in situations like this one anyways? It wasn’t an everyday thing, but even despite that you knew you shouldn’t let this happen all so easily. Yet you felt your knees giving in and your body warming into his at the sudden interaction, and all other things seemed to become of less to no importance, fading into the distance and becoming miscellaneous.

You let it all slide, and started your response.

It took a minute, or so it felt at least, but you were moving forwards at a rather quick pace. What had started off soft and comforting had quickly become demanding and lustful, and you felt yourself getting turned around to face him and pinned back against the railing, just to get a better angle. Soft whines and whimpers that escaped you seemed to only fuel him, and so did your clenching on his shirt for dear life. He was diving in and out, pulling you along to every kiss with an unbelievable force, not quite caring how it looked like or if it was appropriate. It’s exactly what he felt, and he thought he’d let you know by doing everything he thought was right all at once. Running his hands all over your sides and hips. Holding your head in the right angle carefully. Nibbling on your lip and using the situation to let his tongue battle it out with yours. Literally nothing was missing.

“What the hell do you think you’re doing?”

“I thought I’d just kiss you, but looks like we’re making out already,” his tone was near shameless as he pulled away, and even though you’d originally wanted to chuckle at it, you refused now.

“Who gave you the right?”

“Didn’t look like you tried to oppose,” he wanted to kiss you again, but you were quick enough to put a hand on your mouth, making his lips land and rest on it. He smiled, but refused to remove them. You were still in his strong grip, and even though he could feel that your heartbeat was fast and rapid, he knew it wasn’t because of the fact that what he was doing seemed inappropriate to you. You loved every damn second of this, just like he did, and that was enough of a green light for him.

“You hate me, don’t you?” you asked in a muffled voice, your eyes closed as you felt his breath on your hand.

“And you hate me.”

“Then why the hell are we kissing if we both hate each other?”

“I don’t know,” you felt him shrugging, and coming even closer, if that was even possible, “But, you know? I figured out a thing recently.”

“Tell me about it.”

“How comes we hate each other, yet are there for each other when we need someone by our side the most?”

You let it sink it. Truth to be told, he wasn’t lying. You could recall countless times when you were there for him, trying to look past all of the mean remarks thrown out in the heat of the moment and helping him. And he’d done the same on various occasions. Hell, he’d sneaked out of the dorm and driven to pick you up to the other end of the city once, and you weren’t sure how or why. But he’d done it, because you’d called up the first number you could dial back then and spoke in a devastated, tear-strained voice.

“Desperation,” you told him, sighing slightly, “Think about it. When you’re alone and aching, you’re desperate. And when you’re desperate, you let people you wouldn’t normally allow to see you in a state like that near. Maybe this is out case.”

“So you’re telling me we simply were the only ones around each other when we needed support the most, and acted the way nice people would , forgetting all feuds for a second and helping out each other in a.. friendly way?”

You nodded, not sure if this was what you meant, but thinking it was close.

“Well congratulations, your niceness had triggered a bunch of feelings towards you inside of me that I have no clue how to handle, and you’re the only thing I’ve been thinking about for weeks now. Crazy how you made me crush so hard after such periods of coldness, right?”

You froze at his statement, feeling a mixture of confusion and.. happiness? After all, you’d been acting cold too. This wasn’t only his fault, and maybe, just maybe.. It was alright to let it happen.

His hand was slowly placed on your arm, and he smiled as he lowered the hand you were holding in front of your mouth down. There was close to no space left between you two now, but he didn’t seem to budge or do anything about it.

“Not pressuring anything, you know? But I’d like to give it a shot.”

And right as he thought he should maybe in fact give you some space and step back, you brought your hands up to cup his face and kissed him hard.

“Wow wow, take it easy,” he chuckled in between passionate, longing kisses.

“We can go back to arguing if you want to.”

“No, I like this better. Keep this up.”

And you liked it better too. Without the harshness and the mean tone. Without worry and confusion, or anything in between. Hell knows where this would lead you two, but you were sure that even if it wouldn’t work out in the end, you’d be in a better position that you’d been in all along now. It wasn’t a myth that a relationship started with hate could actually evolve to become love. So why couldn’t this be your story?

“Ahem ahem.”

“What is it with the sore throats today?” Youngjae shamelessly looked at Daehyun who was standing in the doorway and giving you two an “I told you this would happen” glance, “You’re coughing, I’m coughing. We must’ve gotten that from yesterday’s trip - should’ve taken coats along.”

“And (Y/N) right here might be coughing by tomorrow as well, I’ve just smooched her tons. Let’s hope it’s not contagious,” he heard you chuckling in embarrassment as you hid your face in his chest, not wanting to face Daehyun at all. Getting busted was a little awkward, but by Daehyun.. That was plainly embarrassing.

“I thought you said you’d never be a thing?”

Youngjae chuckled as well, and you felt his nose poking at your hair.

“C’mon. Look at that dude over there who crashed our little party while I say this next thing to his face,” he quietly muttered, and you did as told, turning your head a little to face Daehyun.

To be honest, he looked quite happy and relieved, and it made you feel less ashamed. After all that had happened - and all that would - you didn’t want anyone to judge you two. You rather wanted someone to show support, and.. Well.. Stop either you or Youngjae at moments you still might want to rather kill than kiss each other, as you knew you’d never stop the sarcasm and the bugging completely.

“We’re not going to be just “a thing”. We’re going to be “THE thing”, and ain’t nothing gonna stop us,” Youngjae exclaimed shamelessly and happily, making both you and Daehyun chuckle.

“Yeah, until the next fight.”

“Just tear us apart before I manage to slap him in the face, okay?” you chuckled, earning a heartwarming smile from him. He was a supportive type of friend after all, and you knew for sure he’d do as told, and would support you two ‘till the end.

“Sure. Gotta help you two out somehow - there’s still a long way to go from enemies to lovers, but hey.. You’ll somehow do it.”

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scenarioslovers · 7 years

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Father >> Yongguk, You

A one-shot that I had in my mobile notes for a while now...

She was so small and fragile, she had wide eyes, small lips, and nose.

In the playroom, she was sitting playing with the other kids, despite being a kid with fewer words like her father. She was so adorable that you wanted to pinch her cheeks.

But the fact that she was Yongguk’s daughter made her feel weird as if someone punched her stomach. He had a child.

“She is pretty.” You smiled softly at your boyfriend of a month. This was the first time he told you about Haerim and you did not know how to adjust to the news yet.

“Thank you.” Yongguk gave you a small smile. He seemed nervous to reveal such a huge secret in his life just like this. It made you feel a little better than he trusted you despite the short period of dating.

“And her mom…” You paused when a sad smile flickered over his face before he shook his head.

“She left me a present before leaving the whole world.” He said with a small smile over his mouth, and you couldn’t help but feel jealous of the way Yongguk talked about Haerim’s mother. How his eyes shock as if he was remembering, seeing her in front of him.

However, your heart broke over that fact. The fact that Haerim had grown up without a mom, without even seeing her once.

“How old is she?”

“Four.” Pressing his lips, Yongguk said. “You don’t have to force yourself.”

“No, no, no. It’s not like that. I’m just…” you took a deep breath, “surprised.”

“I bet you are.” Yongguk looked down at his own hands hesitating.

He was worried that Haerim would be abstract in your relationship. But he needed to tell you because he trusted you. He loved you and he didn’t want to keep just a big thing for his life away from you.

“I’m sorry. This is so sudden I know.”

“Why?” You gulped watching Haerim as she smiled around with the other kids. “Why did you tell me now?”

One month of dating, only a few dates that could be counted on your hands due to his busy schedule. What made him take such a step when you only knew him for a short period.

“I don’t want to lie to you,” Yongguk confessed. “You are not like any girl I have dated before. I felt that I need to tell you about this if we are going to date seriously.”

You pressed your lips into a line, feeling speechless. You liked Yongguk. Way too much then you could have imagined. He was the one for you, the gentleman with a good heart. People may misunderstand him because of his quiet nature and neutral expression, but he was a man who only knew respect and manners.

But having a child… It was suddenly such a heavy burden that you weren’t sure you could take. You liked Yongguk. But he will share his feelings between you and his daughter.

Was it selfish to think like this?

No matter how cute Haerim was, she wasn’t your child after all.

“Y/N” Yongguk called, made you snap out of your thoughts and look at him. Your heart dropped when you saw the shadow of emotions over his expression. “We can call it off now before hurting each other.”

“Appa,” Haerim suddenly, was there beside her father’s legs.

“Haerim-ah” Yongguk smiled, carrying her as he settled her on his lap. “Did you have fun?”

She nodded cutely, as her finger found its way to her mouth. Yongguk pushed her hand down, shaking his head. “Don’t put your fingers in your mouth. They are not clean yet.”

She nodded again, and instead she started to play with the hem of her skirt.

“She… has your eyes.” You finally said after a long time, a smile on your lips.

“Y/N, you really don’t have to-”

“Haerim-ah” You looked at his daughter, ignoring Yongguk’s scowl. She shyly looked up. “Do you like your father?”

She nodded, as she wrapped her small arms around his neck and put her cheek on his chest as she looked at you.

You smiled, nodding at her. “Good girl, can you take care of your father?”

She didn’t answer as she ignored you, looking away.

A sigh skipped your mouth as you looked at Yongguk who was looking at you confused.

“I’m sorry, Y/N.”

“Don’t apologize Yongguk. Your daughter is really pretty. It’s going to take us a little while to get along with each other.”

Yongguk placed his daughter on the ground as she ran to the playground once again to play. “Y/N…” He said, turning to meet your eyes. “I love you. I’m not telling you this because I want you to be my daughter’s babysitter or nurse. I love you, and I wish that you could give her the love that she hadn’t received. I’m not forcing you, you can run away from me right now.”

“I’m not breaking up with you.” The sunlight illuminated half of Yongguk’s face, highlighting his sharp features. “I don’t care if you have a daughter or not.”

“I do care.”

“Then don’t. You trusted me enough to tell me about her. And I actually like her a lot.” You talked really fast, it almost surprised Yongguk. It was true. The moment you saw Hearim, somehow your heart melted for her even though you didn’t really like kids.

“I love you, Yongguk. I love everything about you, including the fact you have a daughter.”

Reaching for your hands, Yongguk gave you a squeeze. “Thank you, Y/N.”

“Shut up. You came to me after falling completely in love with you. How could tell me to run away from you, now?”

Smiling, he wrapped his arms around you in a quick hug.

“I want a hug too.” A small voice made you and Yongguk rebel from each other as you looked at Haerim who was standing with a pout on her mouth.

“Of course.” Yongguk reached, to carry her, but she shook her head.

“No, I want a hug from Ajummah.”

You exchanged looks with Yongguk before returning Haerim “Of course, cupcake.” You hugged her and carried her in your arms. “Do you want to eat something? What about an ice cream?”

Haerim nodding. “Ice cream.”

“Thank you, Y/N” Yongguk mouthed and you smiled at him.

Yongguk… he was a father before he was a lover. And if you really loved him, you had to accept this fact and gives all the love to the little girl in your hands.

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narika-a · 7 years

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B.A.P Mafia Reaction: When their girlfriend gets caught up in their business by accident

||| Anon asked: Can you do an b.a.p mafia reaction for when you are caught up in the middle of business by accident and your their gf |||

Bang Yongguk

When he saw you taken hostage by the other gang, he was beyond pissed.

“You let her go this instant or I will kill you all and your families.”

Kim Himchan

He was so mad he left you out of his sight in the first place.

“I swear if those bastards do anything to her...”

Jung Daehyun

He would be out for blood immediately when he found out that the other gang is using you to get back at him.

“As soon as we enter, shoot everyone in sight.”

Yoo Youngjae

He would have killed them all right there on the spot, if it wasn’t for you.

“How dare you involve her?!”

Moon Jongup

When you told him you were getting threats from his rival gang, he was determined to make things right.

“Jagi, don’t wait up for me tonight. I have some business to take care of.”

Zelo/Choi Junhong

He was surprised to see you sitting there at the table when he came to make a deal but boy was he angry when he found out the other gang got you here.

“She has got nothing to do with this! Give her back.”

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kpop-goestheweasel · 7 years

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Forever With You - (Pt. 4)

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4

It’s been a minute since I’ve updated this one. Not gonna lie, I was thinking about abandoning it, but with recent events, I’m feeling terribly morbid/solemn, so I kinda needed an outlet for the feels going on right now and didn’t like how deep/depression things were turning out as I was writing the next part of Shiver in this mood. That being said, I do have something pretty dern fluffy in the works for the near future. Don’t give up on me yet! I swear I’m not always a grey cloud. Anyway, here is finally Part 4 [: Sorry it’s so short... I was more or less just getting some feels out.

Returning home felt like walking into a prison. Jongup was shackled by the memories held within the walls. But when had the apartment become so cold, so dark, so lifeless? What once was a safe haven, a comforting place to return to at the end of each day only brought more misery to him. Everywhere he looked, he saw the ghosts of the couple that once lived there. Once so happy and so in love. Now, they were just images of the past that haunted the quaint home.

Slipping off his shoes at the door, Jongup momentarily stared down at his black polished shoes that sat beside the sneakers Himchan had left there, never to be worn again. Slowly, he moved into the apartment where his eyes scanned over the living area and the loneliness sunk even deeper. Reading glasses that would never again adorn that beautiful face, a collection of dramas and romantic comedies that would never again earn that deep, hearty chuckle, throw blankets that would never again stir playful wrestle matches because they weren’t big enough to cover the both of them. It all seemed so useless now. Jongup didn’t need any of it. He didn’t want any of it, but he sure as hell couldn’t part with a single item either. How could he throw out those fashion magazines before Himchan even got the chance to read them? How could he give away the ridiculous amount of wine bottles that were waiting to be shared on a special occasion? How was he supposed to part with the ridiculous amounts of colognes that all smelled of his lover in one way or another?

But how could he hold onto any of it when it all was just a reminder of how alone he was?

Releasing a deep sigh, the broken man frowned at the image of his fiance standing across the room at him. The concern on his face, the way the singer’s eyes silently begged for Jongup to be okay only made him feel all the more not because once he blinked, that man was gone and he was left with nothing but his slipping sanity. Over the past few days, he had gotten so used to seeing glimpses of Himchan and momentarily coming back to life himself as a shock of hope coursed through him only to be beaten down again when reality returned and Himchan disappeared all over again. That hope had quickly turned to anger at the cruelty of it all. But now, it only exhausted him further. Jongup had no energy left for emotion. He was worn out and fraying at the edges.

With little conscious thought of his actions, Jongup shuffled to the bedroom. Again, he halted as he entered the familiar room that had become foreign to him. The bed seemed so much larger now that it was only him to occupy it. The decor that he once found comforting, relaxing only proved to disgust him now as it was just another thing to remind him of everything he lost. This whole place was meant for Himchan and the Jongup he had once been. The Jongup he was with Himchan. The person that he was now, the empty shell of who he once was, didn’t belong here. He was an intruder in this place a once happy couple called home and his presence was disturbing to the memories and dreams this quaint place held.

Still, he had nowhere else to go. He refused to be a burden to those around him. He couldn’t stand the pity they all looked at him with. Their concern only proved to remind him of how broken he was. Of course, they meant well and cared for him, but like hell he was going to drag them down with his sorry self. At least alone in this hell, he didn’t have to pretend to be coping. He didn’t have to display his grief when really he was turning to stone from the inside out. At least here, he could succumb to the numbness and not have to pretend to be alright. Because he wasn’t alright; he was the furthest thing from alright and there was nothing anyone could say or do to make that better. Perhaps in time, he may be able to heal and scar from this, but for the time being, he just needed to learn how to live without Himchan. He needed to learn how to go on. And he needed to do that alone.

Himchan closed his eyes and ran a stressed hand through his hair. He hated this. He hated watching the man he loved more than anything fall apart. He hated being the reason for his suffering. Jongup needed him now more than ever and all he could do was silently watch as the young man slowly died inside. So desperately he wanted to hold him, to assure him that everything would be alright, to wipe away the circles growing under those precious, dark eyes. It was absolutely heart wrenching to watch him have to go through this and though their time spent together meant everything to Himchan, he wished nothing more than to take it all back just so Jongup wouldn’t have to face this kind of pain.

‘To have loved and lost is better than to not have loved at all?’ Has anyone that spoken those words lost a love like this? Would Jongup agree with such a statement? It broke his heart to think such, but Himchan wondered if the younger man would be better off now had they never confessed their feelings. If it would have spared Jongup of this kind of pain, he would take it all back in a heartbeat. As much as he had cherished each and every second he had with that man, he would give it all up if it meant that the other wouldn’t have to know this suffering, this loneliness.

Silently following Jongup to the bedroom, Himchan gave a solemn sigh as he watched the younger male curl on top of the covers still clad in his damp suit. “You’re going to wrinkle your suit and catch a cold if you don’t change,” he spoke, sitting on the bed beside the dancer. His frown deepened at the way the bed didn’t dip under his weight. What he wouldn’t give for just a minute longer with him. Just a single minute to let him know that he wasn’t alone and would never be alone. At the same time, Himchan wondered if staying was actually breaking his lover even more. He had seen those brief flashes of life in his eyes when they fell on him. He knew Jongup caught a glimpse of him every now and then. And he’d be damned if he said it didn’t momentarily make his ghostly heart race each time they met eyes. But then the moment would pass and he’d have to watch his lover falter back into reality once more.

Still, how was he suppose to leave him, especially now? How could he move on knowing he was leaving his lover in pieces? How could anything in that light be a comfort when he’d know that Jongup needed that comfort so much more than himself?

Staring down at the man he loved so damn much, he couldn’t help but wonder why the fates would do something so cruel? Why were they being punished? Why Jongup? He wondered if it would be any better if they traded places. He would happily take that pain and loneliness so the younger man wouldn’t have to, but would it be any better if that meant that beautiful man’s life would be taken as well? Was it better to have to endure that pain and be alive? Himchan much prefered the outcome of the crash; he would give up his life a thousand times over if that meant Jongup would get to continue his. But watching the pain that he endured through surviving alone…

Three days passed and Himchan torturously watched as his love hardly moved in that time. Aside from the occasional trip to the bathroom, all of Jongup’s time was spent in what was once their bed. He lifelessly laid about and stared at the ceiling or the walls. Each time the phone would buzz to signal another friend or family member checking in to make sure he was alright, a deep sigh would expel from him as if his busy thoughts were inconveniently disrupted. But Himchan knew the truth. He saw the way the depressed man would flinch every time he picked up the old, shattered phone that once belonged to him. He saw the heartbreak wash over the younger male every time he looked at the happy couple smiling at him on the lockscreen. “You need to get up and get a new phone,” he spoke after witnessing Jongup once again frown at the phone as another person attempted to reach him. The younger man sighed and sat up, shaking his head. “I don’t need anything,” he growled out. Himchan’s eyes widened as he was seemingly answered before realizing that the other was simply voicing his frustration over yet another text telling him to contact them if he needs anything.

Closing the message, Jongup sat in his wrinkled suit pants, the shirt and jacket discarded on the floor sometime during the second day of his solitude. He stared at the wallpaper - another selfie of the couple. Himchan smiled brightly from the phone’s cracked screen as Jongup stood next to him with a lopsided smirk, holding up a peace sign. He ran his thumb over the image, staring at the man he still loved so desperately. “I just need you.”

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