#but it's just so annoying how i'll be happy about a milestone

[kissatoru]

unfriendly reminder that my blog is 18+ ONLY so put your damn AGE or an INDICATOR of it somewhere on your blog, otherwise i will just assume you’re a MINOR/don’t care about my boundaries and i WILL BLOCK YOU !!!!

#i'm sure the people who this doesn't apply to are sick of me saying/posting about this #but it's just so annoying how i'll be happy about a milestone #until i realise i probably have to block a quarter of you😐 #just cause you don't even bother reading my pinned post or byf/rules #i know it's 'not that deep' for some of you and that's probably why you don't listen/care #but i'd rather not risk the consequences of someone 17- interacting with me/my smut #also to clarify #i use tumblr mobile almost exclusively and i can't block from sideblogs on here #so i'm only able to do so when i have access to desktop #and when i do have access i'm usually doing college work #so i've only just now gotten round to actually blocking people #still not done tho #cause there's genuinely a ridiculous number of you /pos /lh #and it's taking a while since i'm checking every single person #( ★ ) psa.

[spicesweet]

good morning, girls! ୭ ˚.⁺⊹ .ᐟ

today I'm announcing that, after receiving so many hateful messages complaining about my toxic positivity and my fake attitude and how pretentious and annoying I am, I am giving up on this blog and never posting again!

just kidding. I'm actually just a few followers away from another big milestone, and I'm so happy about it! I know lots of people think it's corny to be excited about followers, but I think it's so nice to know that so many people like what I post enough to want to see more of it, no matter if it's the pretty pictures I share or my silly little posts.

I've resigned to the idea that the more this blog grows, more and more people will feel upset about it, because that's just how the internet works, unfortunately. I'm such a quick blocker online and I'll never understand those who aren't, but I'm gonna do my best to ignore them rather than nurture them; what they want is to get my attention after all, so I can't feed the pigeons.

but onto nicer news, today is farmer's market day! now that I'm officially a salad girl, my prayers to the goddess of harvest are even more fiery than before, but because of the horrible weather we've had all year last year and all year this year around the country, good fruit has been harder and harder to find. the leaves and veggies are still fine though, but I wonder if they'll be affected too, soon. it scares me, the prospect of the weather catastrophe getting worse and good whole foods becoming less and less available for everyone, even more than it already is. I mean, there's also everything else to be worried about, but food scarcity and the idea of increasing hunger worldwide is definitely the scariest part for me.

and I started the paragraph with "onto nicer news", lol.

today's plans: to work on my new project • to pick up a new book • 1h of pilates + yoga • to do my nails • to make yogurt later in the day • to listen to Beyoncé's new album, which I still haven't done lol

special thanks today to the people who support me here and who always send me very kind messages whenever I get flooded with anon haters (and at all other times too), I appreciate and love you so much, you have no idea! here's a bunny of appreciation and gratitude.

∧,,,∧ (  ̳• · • ̳) /    づ♡

#spicelog #clean girl #it girl #girlblogging #this is a girlblog #dream girl #becoming that girl #that girl energy #wonyoungism #self confidence #self care #self improvement #self development #self love #girl journal #self growth #wl journey #wellness girl #health and wellness #pink pilates princess #it girl mentality #healthy lifestyle #dream life #level up journey #becoming her #healthy girl #healthy living #personal development #wl diary

[datastate]

Can you please tell me more about disabled  Qtaros, Kanna and gin(this is very much related to that one post.) I’m very interested!

of course!! thank you so much for taking interest :D though i put the gist on that reference above, i'll dive into more detail here!!

Q-TARO:

Although in-game Q-taro's been given the doll joints to replace his major injury, I do have a few personal headcanons from before that incident - namely, that he had a weak right leg from bullying (which he was predisposed to thanks to other developmental issues). This caused a life-long limp, with the occasional pain, but it was never enough that he felt withheld from sports! Asunaro still implemented something in the doll joint that would make it so that he wasn't left overcorrecting his gait. However, if Asunaro hadn't interfered, he would've eventually recovered naturally. While he can still keep in pace with his team for the most part and retains his endurance, toward the start of him being released from the hospital, there are times where he ends up staying on bench until he's called up for the final stretch as a batter - just to help him readjust & keep the pain from overwhelming him if he was up as a starter. This would be where Q-taro finally gets a cane to help him post-game if he's exerted himself too much (it usually takes a couple hours for the pain to really become more than 'annoying'; adrenaline helps to off-set it until the games end, at least). After some convincing (and prodding) from his closer friends, I imagine he'd be a bit more willing to continue physical therapy to help with managing pain/building up endurance again (safely). It's by no means perfect, and there are some hurdles to overcome in terms of figuring out his new boundaries, but he can do it! :] From here, he does also end up occasionally using the wheelchair when casually traveling with friends on much longer distances / on bad pain days. It's more inconvenient and obvious than using the cane, but his friends are good about not making him feel weird about it. At most, they'll just tease him about themselves finally being taller than him; it's all light-hearted attempts at making him feel more comfortable. At the end of the day, they're just happy Q-taro's here. ...also not pictured here, but it does also take some getting used to being essentially blind in his left eye. The depth perception is something he also works on, but he somewhat struggles on his own out on the field; he ends up pairing with someone else. It's usually easier being on shortstop because of the surrounding people, but as long as he's got back-up he can be sent further out into the field.

GIN:

Gin had some issues with how his legs were developing. It took a few years for his mother to notice due to how busy work kept her, but when he was more evidently failing to hit the typical movement milestones, that was when she brought it up. His left leg is the weaker one and the one he usually didn't use when crawling because the bone alignment was causing him pain; as he grew up, they kept him in physical therapy to work on this, and his mother favored a leg brace rather than any surgery. As he was still young, there was a chance to correct this without needing to go to those lengths, especially as she feared 1) the cost and 2) the idea that this would just hurt Gin more. Gin feels a bit guilty that his mother was so worried about him in these early years. This is, in part, why he's so insistent on proving how strong he's grown to his mother and will take on more responsibility than he's meant to, if it means she won't have to worry about himself or his step-father. ...Well! At least he gets to pick out the designs for his leg brace :] He usually swaps between different animal-themed ones to represent his current hyperfixation (in this case, he'd have an alligator themed one as of the Death Game), but I usually draw him with the paw print pattern because it's one that's really important to him! Gin specifically got this pattern to match with Mew-chan :D This is also somewhat related, though it isn't to do with the leg brace: Gin is very sensitive to loud noise/voices, hence the noise-cancelling headphones... at least to subdue the sounds. In terms of interacting with other participants, I do think Gin would have trouble talking with Alice. Whereas Q-taro is used to lowering his voice for kids who need it (and can usually catch the visual cues for it) and Reko understands the need for a certain 'level' of noise (though hers is usually that she needs something blasting because of her hyposensitivity; depending on each other's levels, they might not be able to talk very long, but they'll talk later!!) ... Alice meanwhile has difficulty managing the volume/forcefulness of his voice. In my headcanons, Alice needs hearing aids - this, and his autism, often makes it difficult to keep that "appropriate volume or tone of voice" but he does make an effort for Gin's sake :] I've also mentioned it in more detail here, but I do think Gin would really look up to Q-taro for how he perseveres. Even if Q-taro handles pain well enough for the most part, only partially using his mobility aids, it's still very important knowing that this successful adult has that side of him too. It gives Gin more hope, and also provides a healthy masculine role model.

KANNA:

Similarly to her brother, Kanna is chronically ill. More specifically, I imagine she has been recognized with iron-deficient anemia - cause for (some) dizziness and lead up to fainting. This, combined with postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome, does not make for a fun combination as you can imagine... but her family is working on figuring this out for her :'] The cane helps her mostly with keeping balance, though she also eventually adds little charms to it keep her hands busy so she doesn't tear at the hem of her uniform or pick at her skin too much. Although Kanna, similarly to Q-taro, doesn't need her cane at all times and can even play games without it, she feels more comfortable having it around as a 'just in case'! This is partly why Kugie walks home with Kanna. While it began for safety's sake (since Kanna was very young), her sister being there when she fainted was actually how the Kizuchi family began to realize the severity of these symptoms and look into it for her! Although Kanna tends to downplay her symptoms because she doesn't want people worrying about her, she really is grateful that they are trying to help her. Even though it took a while for Kugie to warm up to Kanna, it was always nice seeing her sister look out for her in even the smallest ways (offering food (like the ice-cream, where the 'ice' of it helps nausea); setting up the iron supplements before they start preparing the meals (so Kanna can take it the hour in advance); so on!) On a personal level, Kanna honestly isn't too bothered by having this. It's frustrating sometimes, yes, but generally speaking... she takes it slow anyway, and always has. Walking home, she will stop by the parks or some people's gardens just to take a look; she'll sit down on a bench and just listen to everything before finally setting on homework; she just really enjoys existing in nature. Unlike Kugie, who could scale a mountain in a day, Kanna is content just lying down in the grass - but that doesn't mean she's not up for racing her sister...! :P (Side note: while the issues with 'balance' and such isn't canon, I do think it is interesting that - through the few times we've seen someone faint - both Shin and Kanna have been the ones who take a while to recover...)

#i hope this makes up for how long it took me to get to this ask :P i'm really happy to see you liked these ideas though!! #these three are really dear to me and i really like interweaving their disabilities (whether implied or headcanoned) #with their actual given storylines!!! it's very fun to figure out and see how it reflects their characters #thank you again!! #ask #yttdposting #yttd #your turn to die #kimi ga shine #kanna kizuchi #gin ibushi #qtaro burgerberg #my art

[coffeebanana]

20 questions for Fic Writers

Omg it took me ages to get to this but better late than never! Thanks for the tags @rosie-b, @monpetitchattriste, @lesbitorte, @kasienda and @celestialtitania!!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Um. 107*... It's possible that I have a problem 😂

(*one is on anon. more on that later adfdsd)

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

801,972!!! (fun fact i was just below 800k the first time i got tagged in this game so i was like "oh well i'm posting a new chapter tomorrow...i'll do this game after that so i can pass that milestone!" and then i posted the chapter but it took me close to a week to do this ahaha)

3. What fandoms do you write for?

mostly just ml. i have a few spop fics too but i don't really write for that fandom anymore. or at least not right now.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Gah. okay. I'm going to answer this honestly but to do that I first need to explain that my most kudoed fic is on anon because I'm annoyed it's my most kudoed fic aksjfbksdb. Like. It's only so popular because there's a bit of lila salt? and really the fic isn't about that but i don't really write that kind of thing anymore and i don't want ppl coming to my profile and sorting by kudos and seeing that first. There are other things i'd do a lot differently in that fic now too ahaha.

Break a Leg

Cards Against Ladybug's Identity

Ladybug And The Tramp Stamp

Imaginary Friends

The Sun Will Rise Again

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I do!! I reply to pretty much every comment--unless it's particularly rude/rubs me the wrong way. I know commenting takes time and I appreciate the effort ppl put into it so I like to give my thanks back!

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably Every Teardrop is a Waterfall. Although I think Girl Is A Gun is a strong contender too?

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Uh...well, most of my fics have happy or at least hopeful endings. I don't think I can narrow this down to just a few haha.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I don't think I've ever gotten hate? Definitely some comments that aren't super nice but nothing too bad. (now i've probably gone and jinxed it 😂)

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

um. a little tiny bit but not enough to have a particular kind LOL. i've only posted it once so far. but i also have Entangled, which will have smut in the next chapter--and that's angsty smut. which i suppose would be my brand of smut if i ever write any more

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

i haven't! i entertained the idea of an ml/spop crossover a couple years ago but i don't have any interest in it anymore. oh and i ALSO had an idea for a marigami spyxfamily crossover. but i don't know if i'll ever get around to that

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of! (*knocks on forehead since no wood is nearby*)

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

no, but that would be super cool!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

i have not! a few times i've planned to write things with other ppl but nothing that ever really made it to the writing stage ahaha. although the littlebug vday zine is a collab in the form of a series--not exactly co-written but similar vibes

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

to write for, definitely the love square. and then catradora is so special to me because it got me back into writing and also i started IDing as a lesbian in part because i binged spop.

aside from that i can't really decide because like. there are so many shows i've seen and books i've read and ships i've loved for so many different reasons asdfbk. and then i have OC ships that only live in my head but that i love to play with sometimes before i fall asleep at night. so please don't make me choose!!

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

uh. i would say none of them? because it's only when i completely lose interest in a fic that i lose the belief i'll finish it. and that's only happened with maybe two of my wips i can think of?

16. What are your writing strengths?

Depicting emotions! And using the setting to do that by establishing the mood/tone/etc...

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

i guess like...self-doubt? not that i'm awful with it. in general i think i'm pretty good that way. but it's my biggest barrier to writing when i have periods where i get in my head about my writing, and it can make me overthink and not know if i LIKE my writing. and i think my writing is at its best when i'm having fun with it (which is probably true of most ppl), so...

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

i think it makes sense when the characters are actually speaking that language for a short time but aren't speaking it for most of the fic? like i have one ml AU set in new york so they're speaking english for most of it and i used french for the first couple lines that were french (and weaved the translations into the narrative). so that's the only time i do that personally--aside for maybe one word lines like bonjour--but as a reader it doesn't usually bother me when i see it used other ways

19. First fandom you wrote for?

ahaha the Vampire Academy book series. and NO you won't find those fics anywhere, even though they are still out there somewhere

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

currently Say Something. and i very much wish i could finish writing it, but it'll happen when it happens!

I think most people I would have tagged have probably been tagged by this point...likely more than once 😂. So whoever else wants to play should do so!!

#tag game #long post

[meowzfordayz]

Compleeeetely almost missed this event!! I'll get my angst refill please and thank you. Gimme prompt n.11 with my man, you already know who! You can pick if sfw or nsfw >:) thanks T 💜💜💜

MILESTONE 5.0

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Is it weird that I’m drunk and on my sofa? Is it weird that I’m naked on my sofa? All alone, damn, I wish I didn’t know ya. — Kill My Time

CW: alcohol, explicit language

Sanemi believes it’s a blessing in disguise that you blocked him shortly after breaking his heart. If you hadn’t, then you’d be receiving every single one of his calls—he’s nearing ten—while he lounges naked on his couch, beer cans stacked precariously on the floor beside him. Maybe he’s trying to convince himself that They’re just busy, or maybe he’s in denial about missing the sound of your voice—your voicemail message isn’t enough anymore—or maybe he’s finally feeling sorry, but Damn it, pick up your fucking phone. And then he remembers Oh. Yeah. They blocked you… dumbass promptly downing the remainder of his eighth beer.

From the moment he saw you, he’d known that someone would leave empty chested, the other walking away with a still dripping heart staining their sleeve, because he’d stumbled over himself to say Hi, I’m Sanemi.

“Hi Sanemi, nice to meet you,” you stick out your hand, slightly warm and very soft, “Do you come here often?”

“No,” he eyes your hand suspiciously, grimacing when he realizes how sweaty his own palm is, “First time.”

In hindsight, that clammy first touch should’ve been a warning sign.

“First time in a bookstore,” you deadpan, lips pursing, “Do you prefer the library?”

Gulping, he squeezes your fingers, hoping you’re fixated on his pretty purple eyes or his wintery white hair or anything other than his pulse trembling through his fingertips.

You smirk, squeezing back, “First time shaking someone’s hand too?”

“I don’t want to let go,” he admits, reeling inwardly The fuck is this? A fucking meet-cute?!

“So don’t.”

Your flirtatious quip haunts him, especially as he opens his ninth beer. Pressing its cool metal base to his bare stomach, he tilts his head backward, stupored sigh swallowed by the living room. If only they were here to sigh with me. That’s what he misses most. Not your beautiful smile, the silence of your focus, or the tang of your wit, but the familiarity of how easily and perfectly you annoyed him. If he sighed, then you’d sigh louder, and if he sighed even louder, then soon you’d be locked in a sighing competition, one sigh away from falling into laughter — from falling back in love.

“So what are we?” he asks carefully, watching your brow for signs of unease.

It furrows faintly, his gut coiling as he realizes: I can’t tell if they’re happy or mad.

“We’re together,” you answer simply, expression relaxing as you peck his cheek, “What did you think we were?”

I don’t know he almost says, waiting for a gush of elation, peace, specialness to register, “Dating?”

“Do you want to define our relationship?” you tease fondly, his face turning pink at your directness, “Because we can do that.”

“I’m yours,” he declares, quiet and decisive.

“Mine?” you wink, stealing a sweet, lingering kiss, murmuring lowly, “I like the sound of that.”

In hindsight, he should’ve listened better, swept up in giving himself to you — for nothing in return.

“And I like you,” he whispers.

“Mm, I like you too.”

You hadn’t lied to him. Not exactly. You’d obscured the ultimate truth for something more convenient. For something shiny and tender, masking a loneliness that he’d eventually learn he could never fill.

“I should go to sleep,” he mutters abruptly, chugging his beer with stubborn reluctance, burping wetly afterwards Tengen would be proud of me proceeding to knock over his aluminum tower Eh, I guess not.

Skin prickling, he crosses and uncrosses his ankles, sunlight shifting past noon, long shadows receding from his collarbones, brightness mixing achingly with the alcohol in his vision. Scowling at the blanket strewn across an armchair, too far from his reach, he settles for resting a forearm over his eyes And you should be here with me.

#milestone event #5.0 #sanemi shinazugawa #shinazugawa sanemi #sanemi x reader #shinazugawa x reader #wind hashira #drabble #modern au #kimetsu no yaiba #demon slayer

[luveline]

dear jade, (I am so sorry this is so long)

congratulations of your milestone!! you're such a lovely person and writer and you deserve every drop of happiness in the world. i wanted to participate by asking for your advice about one of my friends.

i've known him since middle school but we were never really good friends then, he was sort of mean but i was really annoying. once we left middle school, my best friend, another of my friends and him became closer. it was nice. there was a point where i could call him my best friend because we talked every day about everything. this dwindled until he only ever talked to me about girls he liked. whenever i tried to bring up anything else, he'd get noticeably dry. he would only sound interested if it was about his crushes. i've known him for years and i told him my birthday a year ago because he didn't know before and this year he forgot. it hurt but it's fine, most of my friends did. then, we all had a sleepover where we just had to ask one truth question about the other and when it came to me, he said he had nothing and he wasn't really interested to learning anything more. it was so embarrassing. he did it in front of my other friends after asking them something. then, in a conversation (about his crush), he told me he's only ever "dry" with me. which just made me so mad and it really made me think he's just choosing to never put in any effort in his friendship with me. i blocked him and when we tried to talk about it, he left me on read not even halfway through the conversation. i think i got to explain a little and he got to say he didn't mean to.

at first i was sad about losing a friend that had meant to much to me, but i think it's so unfair to be giving so much and receiving nothing. but maybe that's how male relationships are? i feel bad because since we're a group, it's causing tension because i don't talk to him. every time i see him it reminds me of that and affirms this huge insecurity i had that i am just not a person who can have close relationships. but i don't want it to affect my other friends, who have good relationships with him. i'm thinking of leaving the group altogether, but is that too dramatic? am i making a big deal out of nothing?

I hope it doesn't reaffirm completely that you can't have close relationships! I have experienced something close but not identical to this and I understand how heavy and strange the situation is, you're not sure what to do or how to respond, but I can promise you that you're capable of close relationships if you want to have them, please don't let the way one or a group of people have treated you make you think differently about yourself!

Just a disclaimer that I do not know your life like you do and that my advice may not be perfect or even something you want to take and I wouldn't be offended if you didn't, but I'll tell you (knowing what I know now) what I would do in your situation: I would definitely part ways with the person who's making you feel small, and anyone else who's willing to stand by and watch

Sometimes it's good to just be civil with people or to try and ignore one person in favour of staying friends with a group, but (again from my experiences) I would say that the emotional turmoil or the feelings that will continue to grow and hurt you will continue to do so if you're friends with somebody who doesn't treat you like a friend should. I understand if he were being dry in that not everyone has to like everyone, and sometimes people want to move on, but if he is in your group of friends and he's saying things to embarrass you in front of them, he's not extending civility or being polite to you, he just sounds like he doesn't care very much about how he's making you feel. That isn't fair, and I'm so sorry! I don't think you have to feel bad for not talking to him because you have your reasons, and any tension is collateral for his actions rather than your own, you know? It's like he's watered a plant and the group are feeling tense because that plant grew. He's kind of made his bed!

Again I'm talking very black and white, i promise I understand that no situation is easy as it sounds and that leaving a group of friends would be a big thing that might turn into more problems for you and i don't want that, but if you were my younger sister telling me this story, I would honestly tell you that I feel like it's in your best interest to try to move on and away from him, because I don't think the way he's treated you above is acceptable.

You deserve to feel cared about in your friendships. I might understand if he explained to you his actions or what have you but I think he's made his intentions of treating you badly on purpose simply because he feels like it clear, and it isn't what you need. This might sound so cliche but there are people waiting to meet you who will love you to pieces, but you can't meet them if you're feeling this way about not being able to form close relationships. It's harder for some people to do these things and I think you're brave for blocking him and affirming a boundary that you won't be treated that way!

Anyways I'm very sorry if none of this is helpful to you, I think i got quite mad for you!! I just hate that this has probed your insecurity and made it worse, it's not fair to you at all lovely, it really isn't fair that it's made you feel poorly about yourself, please don't let how someone else has treated you affect how you think about yourself! You're a unique person with a thousand things about you to love as a friend!!

#jade's asks #ily

[totheblood]

totheblood's sleepover

hi all! hope you are having a fun night, i wanted to do something fun in honor of me hitting 800 followers. i just recently started writing and can't believe i have hit this milestone and that this many people enjoy my writing! also a huge thanks to everyone over at @tshwritersnet, thank you for the endless support, kindness and friendship.

ships. send me a description about yourself and I'll ship you with a character (not limiting to marvel)

cast your mutuals. tell me what to cast my mutuals/friends as and i will!

character playlist. send me a character and i'll make a playlist for them

song recommendations. tell me about yourself and i'll give you a song that reminds me of you

fmk. fuck marry kill, pretty self explanatory?

moodboard. give me a vibe and a person and i'll make a moodboard for them

movie reviews. send me a movie and if i have seen it i will give my honest review on it

graphics. do you need a graphic? send me an ask with what you need it for, what you want it to say, colors and overall vibe, and i will do my best to make it for you

fic recs. tell me what you like, and i will suggest a fic for you

free compliments. send me your work, (fics, moodboards, playlists, graphics) and i'll compliment it

questions. ask me anything, and i will give you the honest answer.

advice. need advice? great! im great at giving advice.

rant/vent. if you need a place to let out your thoughts i'm here

get to know me. send me one of these prompts and answer it for yourself! so we get to know each other

blurbs. send me a prompt from the following list, who you want it written for, and i'll write a short blurb

broken trust

“ you broke your promise. “ “ i never intended on keeping it. “ “ thought you were one of the good ones. “ “ i can’t believe i'd be so stupid... [to trust you]. “ “ you broke your promise. why? “ “ you promised me. “ “ so? “ '' don’t bother with an apology. '' '' it’s my fault for being so naive. '' '' you don't deserve me. not anymore. '' '' trust goes both ways. '' “ you lied to me. “ '' trust is earned. you have to give it to get it. '' '' this wasn’t supposed to happen. '' '' you weren’t supposed to lie. “ “ why couldn’t you just be honest with me? “ “ what else did you break? “ '' i thought we could be honest with each other no matter what. '' '' why don't you trust me? '' “ think you can forgive me? “ “ maybe one day. but it’s gonna take some time. “ '' you don't think i trust you? '' '' well, clearly not! '' '' i know you don’t trust me... '' '' you should have known better. '' “ did i break your heart? “ “ i promise — “ “ don’t. “ '' you seriously expect me to trust you after the shit you just pulled? '' “ trust you? are you [fucking] serious? “

grumpy/sunshine prompts

“ it's different when [he's] with me. “ “ honestly, i don't get you two as a couple. “ “ you can do so much better. “ “ i love [her]. i know that might not be enough for you, but it is to me. “ “ [B] hates everyone. “ “ everyone but you. “ “ how could you possibly love someone like B? “ “ it's really none of your business who i'm dating. “ “ he's always been there for me when i needed him. “ “ you don't know [him] like i do. “ “ [he's] more relaxed in private. “ “ you love me, don't you? “ “ too much to function. “ '' how did you pull someone like that? '' '' how come i'm the one with a resting bitch face but you're the one with an attitude? '' '' you are sunshine incarnated. i hope you know that. '' '' but you're so cheery, and [he's] so... weird. '' '' [he's] not a bad person. '' '' you might be the only person i can tolerate, but not even you can bring out the best in me this early in the morning. '' '' you're lucky you're cute, because your eternal optimism is super annoying. '' '' you complement each other well. '' '' i've never seen you this happy with anyone before. '' '' [she] makes you smile. that's quite the achievement. '' '' oh my god, you're smiling? '' '' just because i happen to hate everyone else, doesn't mean i don't want to spend every second of my day with you. '' '' you're the only one who's ever going to see me this way. '' '' this way what? '' '' this happy. '' [beat] '' not counting our wedding day. '' '' smile. it's not gonna kill you. '' '' you're angry. '' '' i'm not angry, this is my everyday face. '' '' so what exactly did you do on your parents wedding day? '' '' uh... counted the hours until i could go home and play mario kart. ''

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[dani-sdiary]

18th Birthday

I've been thinking that maybe I should just do it. All of it. Cheat on cappucinos, have a torrid affair with herbal tea. Exercise. Even 45-step skincare routines. Journal. "Practice gratitude." (Good God). Even if just to cross it off my list.

But I've never been that kind of person. Health is performative and foreign to me. It's almost frightening. I've always been too busy drowning to bother with trying to swim. I wouldn't even know how to go about being alive in a way that makes sense. But I am moving out soon (but not soon enough), so if there's a time to do it, it's now.

I mock health because I'm envious. I want to be a real person, but it's easier to romanticize pain by calling it being adorably messy or a work-in-progress. It's all I've ever known. I hate who I am.

Makeup isn't fun for me. Skincare isn't fun. Everything showers aren't my idea of a good time, or something I do to relax, or "me time." Trying to transform what has always been horrifically ugly into something passably presentable is work, yet another exhausting task to add to my never-ending to-do list. But besides all the expensive products and pressure, I need to start actually cooking real adult meals. I need to be less pathetic (though a little is acceptable). I need to be kinder. I need to be honest. I need to read more. I need to watch more movies. I need to pet my dog more and spend more time with my parents and write more. I need to learn how to take care of myself.

But at this point, I'm not worth the effort. I just can't justify the work. I'm 18 and all of the stupid things old people tell me won't matter in a few years are my current lived, endured reality. Knowing I'll have different (probably worse) issues that even older people will belittle in a few years doesn't help me right now.

Yes, I care about silly high school milestones. I'm not going to be valedictorian. I failed and dropped several classes. I wasn't student body president. I've spent my whole life here and I'm so terrified I'll die here. I went to a regular public high school in Bumfuck, WA and I'm going to a public, in-state (of course) university (in an even smaller town) with a 95% acceptance rate, to major in something I don't believe in, I'm not interested in, and that will get me 28,000$/yr. I'm not exceptional, or interesting, or good in any way. I have no talents; I've spent the past four years rotting in my bedroom with foil over the windows. And I'm not happy. School is my whole life; I don't have anything else going on. I'm not going to homecoming. I'm not going to prom. I'm still a virgin. I never drank. I never went to a party. I didn't use my time in high school wisely, nor did have any fun. Sure, things could get better from now on. But my experiences up until this point are set in stone. I've aged out of so much. I've missed summer@brown. I've missed Washington Week. I've missed the national merit scholarship. I've missed friends. Boyfriends. Everything. I have nothing to show for my childhood. I don't know how to move on. I don't know how to get over what I lost. God, I hate how fucking whiny I sound complaining about nothing. Why do I say "God" so much? It's kind of disrespectful.

I guess I wish my parents wanted more for me, pushed me harder. I love them, but I can't condone their complete complacency. They're not disappointed in what I've become at all. They're so completely okay with my failure. I love them, but they don't hate me enough and that kills me.

I thought it fitting this post should be so fucking late. My birthday is January 30. I wish it was in August, so I could always be the youngest in my class (disgusting). It's just it all piles on together. Thanksgiving (freshman fifteen), fall quarter finals, Christmas, New Year's (and it's dreaded resolutions), birthday (an old biddy with cataracts and arthritis), and then, the cherry on top, fucking Valentine's Day.

God, I hate this girl. She's so annoying and stupid and pathetic. She talks about herself in the third person. It's because I want to distance myself as much as possible. Be not here and not this.

I want to be a teenager girl, just like everybody else. But I'm more of a middle-aged alcoholic man. I don't think being a mentally stable adult is in the cards for me, but I think it can get better than this. I hope it can.

Mmm. I'm getting notes of dirt and gasoline from this tea. Yummy. Cheers, darlings! Here's to being less shitty.

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[hospitalterrorizer]

diary10

this is definitely a kind of milestone. 10 of these. that's nice. over a week of my life documented. it makes me happy i think. anyways. listening to poison hands by shearing pinx right now.

today i heard some fucked up stuff. a friend who is a substitute teacher had to deal with some kids showing some other kids stuff they should not, and no one on earth should be seeing.

i feel bad about knowing this kind of thing happens. i won't really go into the thing itself, but it gives me a sense that right now being a child is basically impossible. it was already impossible when i was a kid, i think. it was impossible for me at least, cuz at 10 i basically became familiar with how people could desire me, and even if only over webcams it's basically been a thing that's been inside me since forever. i don't think there's anything we can do. because of this sense that things are inhospitable and abuse is happening in ways we can't really understand, fags (e.g. me) will be blamed for creating some kind of modern gomorrah. everyone knows it's straight people and basically mostly, if not always (and it isn't always) men.

today i did record 1 more song, super screechy, and went into current single i'm trying to get out to redo some parts. i think it's basically 97% there for real now. i meant 98% but 97% seems maybe a little better.

i also wrote a new super short thing. exciting and fun, that one's probably going to go on the album. i wrote it while my gf was on the phone with her very annoying brother who i mostly feel bad for and i'm sure i'll talk about more. he's obsessed with christmas and having kids right now and i don't want him to have kids. he wants a son, his fantasy is to take his son to the bar when he turns 21. he doesn't think he'll live past 50. i think his life is going to be longer than he wants or expects.

when i was in highschool i thought i'd be dead by now.

i vced with my friends today. we talked about alien conspiracy and galactic federation shit. very sad people a lot of the time i think. i guess. i dunno. i want to write but i feel exhausted.

i really hate but am fascinated by all this content about how the internet right now is a pit full of groomers. it feels basically and profoundly reactionary, basically about how there's things happening right now at such a scale that we cannot know, and therefore, it's prevalent everywhere. but it probably isn't. a lot of people are basically normal. normal meaning a lot i guess.

it's too complex to put here and i just want to write it in fictions and poems (lyrics (i should get closer to thinking of them as poems, they sort of are because i just sort of write whatever and try to make it fit for the short songs)) where i can eviscerate and look at remains. here it's too. i dunno. i want to feel it in my teeth. i want to write. i am spent and tired. tomorrow i want to write but i will probably record.

i love my girlfriend of course. today i was thinking about how lucky i am to have met her. she has basically saved my life. that's insane to reflect on. without her i would be trapped at home still. we need other people, to motivate us towards something, people materially around us, to hold us by our hands, enough of us around one another, we can do anything i think.

i wrote something good that i am going to stick somewhere else. you won't see it unless it gets put somewhere you can see. sorry.

i wrote more, i think i'm happier now. i'm listening to the shame by the blood brothers. the writing is at least useful, it situates something for the 2nd part and makes the 3rd part easier maybe.

i love the blood brothers. i think they're a perfect band, every band after their first is perfect i think, excluding the last which is maybe just suffering from a couple songs with weak parts but not wholly weak. i love them so much. i love so much music.

i was thinking a lot today about how in highschool, discovering a lot of this kind of post-hardcore and hardcore, with high screams and less masculine voices, stranger music and stuff, really gave me something to attach to, it's like, real androgyne music to me. i dunno. the heat and flashing of these instants of pain, the screeching boys rendered into, i dunno, whatevers, ecstatic and sprinting from ideas, it's so perfect.

i keep saying that, sorry.

i need to read more soon. so much i need to do. oh, i cooked tonight, that was nice, and it was fun but i burnt the vegetables a little and my gf finished dinner which she usually doesn't do, actually, she's usually not that hungry ever so i get it but it does hurt my feelings because it makes me think it's me and nothing else. i'm a baby i guess. i'm too sensitive. everyone said that to me since i was a kid. honestly i wish i were more sensitive.

my friend saw that cover art i was making him finally, he likes it, that makes me really happy. my friend is me and my kidney, he makes cool dance music, this new record he's working on he's trying to go in a ymo direction sort of, as well as a bit of a weird midi-(ish) fusion thing. it doesn't really sound like midi, it's beefed up and has other samples, he wants something really organic but not actually like, really performed. not for conceptual reasons, he just loves synths, you know. we all do. or he and i do, and that's part of why we became friends in hs, cuz we liked weird synth stuff. i'm excited about what he is doing right now.

anyways i should try to relax now before sleeping. my face is washed and i did all my working out. #swaggy

[skamiverse]

I need to scream into the void for a moment

I'm getting married on Saturday and just found out last night that my fiancé's sister in law is pregnant (with the first grand child). It's very very early so they're not going to announce it at the wedding or anything but I just wish I didn't have to know right now either. They only told us because they know we would realize that she's not drinking and figure it out but like I wish I could've waited and had that happen because I wouldn't have asked her that day?? I could've still gone through my wedding without actually knowing and then waited for them to actually tell us. I know it doesn't really matter, and I know they want kids so I'm happy for them, but now in the last few days where I wanted to at least try be calm leading up to the wedding all I can think about is how weird I feel about knowing this, and then I feel like a piece of shit for not just being happy for them, and then I'm all upset even though I know I'm being irrational but I can't even vent about it to my sisters or a friend because I'm supposed to be keeping the secret and even the people who don't actually know SIL will meet her or be spending time with my future MIL and might say something or just generally act a little weird. Also my sister already predicted that SIL would be pregnant at my wedding (mostly because my sister has 2 kids and didn't want to be pregnant for my wedding) so I know that if she sees her not drinking she's going to ask me and I have to lie which is what's stressing me out the most now. I'm a good liar so it shouldn't actually be hard but the problem is that I want to tell her and can't! so I don't think I'll even be convincing.

The worst part is that every time I have a milestone to celebrate someone has something bigger happen that over shadows it. My communion was around the same time as my sisters sweet 16, I graduated elementary school thr same year my sister graduated high school, my confirmation was the same day as a big charity event to help fund my other sisters cancer treatment, the year I graduated high school/started college my sister got married a few months later. My mom /just/ said last week that she's so happy that I'm finally able to celebrate something without being overshadowed and I can't even tell her that she jinxed it 😭 and I know I should be glad that SIL isn't announcing she's pregnant and she isn't showing yet but I know MIL is going to be all excited about that, my sister will figure it out, and a bunch of their friends will be there so I wouldn't be surprised if they all figured it out that night and started celebrating it 😩

I know I would've had my suspicions that she was pregnant but I wish that could've been all that overshadowed the day instead of knowing for /days/ leading up to it and then having to keep my mouth shut on the actual day.

All these feelings are complicated by the fact that I don't want kids and I think pregnancy is really gross so I can't figure out if I feel shitty about the announcement because of my own shit or if I actually have something to be upset about? I mean I know it's irrational anyway but I think I would feel better if I was just like aw man now my day is overshadowed instead of that plus ew there's a parasite growing inside of her and I'm supposed to be happy about it. And now every time we stay with them there's going to be a crying baby/annoying kid around and it'll never be the same.

#me

[xsugarysweetsx]

May I request some Levi x reader fluff in which they've recently had a baby. Naturally Levi is a total doting father and is attentive to both his wife and daughter (and wants to be there for her milestones). Levi being a clean freak, he loves bath time and basically the main plot is just Levi giving his baby her first ever bath at home. He takes it very seriously, wants the water to be perfect and is so gentle. The moment almost makes him tear up and reader is just like lol Levi's gotten soft😌

A/N: oooo so cute! You know I love papa Levi

Please enjoy~

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"Kutchel look here baby" you coo above your baby girl with a camera. You had been home from the hospital with your new baby for about a week. You and Levi were in baby heaven. She was just so cute in everything she did you currently had her in your shared bed taking some baby photos in memory

"She's got your lips" he pointed out "she pouts the way you do when she's annoyed" he chuckled

He was so grateful to have you both in his life. He never had the ideal childhood coming up, at some point, he wondered if life was even worth living. Then here you came strolling into his life like a light at the end of a dark tunnel. The next thing he knew you were dating, then engaged, pregnant, and now finally a family. Kutchel was the next light in his life. She was the perfect mix of you both but he was happy she looked more like you.

Despite having no experience he was enjoying fatherhood. He loved the feeling of being someone to be depended on, being a protector, and of course to make sure you were both in a home filled with love. As you snapped a few more pictures you begin to yawn and your eyes start to droop

"Why don't you get to bed? I'll take her from here" he offered, taking the camera from you and setting it on the dresser

"But I'm *yawwn* not even tired yet"

"right" he smirked picking up your baby and helping you into bed. He pulled the sheet over you and kissed your head before exiting the room. Taking in a breath he looks down at his daughter and says "ready for your bath?"

Now Levi had studied very hard for this. Being the clean freak he was very thorough with it meaning he put every muscle to use. However, this was his baby, much too delicate for that. So, he had actually done some research and asked some mothers at his job about bath time and how to go about it. Warm water, but too warm, gentle hands, soft soap, gentle amounts of water.

So he takes out the small tub bought for her, cleans it quickly, and adds some warm water. He carefully places her into the water and lays a thin blanket over her body to avoid the cold. He takes a small up and waters her head, careful to avoid her eyes and mouth. He poured a very small amount of baby shampoo into her tuft of hair. His fingers made circles with the soap, gently washing her small head. He rinses her off once again and gets her fluffy towel. He makes due to prevent her from getting too cold.

Wrapping the towel around her body and a small one around her head he takes her to her nursery to get her in some clothes. He pays her dry and lotions her feet, hands, legs, and chubby cheeks. Kutchel giving him a few whines from so much stimulation

“You’re fine, daddy’s almost done” he hushed her getting her into her diaper, and a onesie, ready for bed. "Alright, nice and clean, time for bed princess," he said laying her into her bassinet next to your bed.

He draws the blinds and changes into his shorts for bed and strips from his shirt. He carefully gets into bed with you, as to not wake you up. He crawls towards you and drapes his arm over your waist as he lulls into sleep in his corner of the world.

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I hope you enjoyed!

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[buckactuallys]

congrats on your follower milestone!! 💜💜 🐙 + smiling in between kisses for buddie?

thank you so much, isha!! 💖💖💖 everyone's been writing married buddie so i was in a sappy mood, i guess? i hope you like it!

[read on ao3]

It’s bright outside when Buck wakes up, some of the morning sun shining through a gap in the curtains and casting the room in warm yellow light.

He's warm and comfortable, Eddie's body a familiar shape against his, tucked under Buck's arm, chest expanding with every breath he takes. Buck presses his smile against the back of Eddie's neck and spreads his fingers on the warm skin of Eddie's stomach.

Eddie takes another deep breath and tangles his hand with Buck's, humming sleepily. He pulls Buck's arm further around himself until he can lift Buck's hand up to his lips, pressing a soft kiss to his palm and then each knuckle, lingering on the fourth finger.

"Good morning, Mr Buckley-Diaz," he says, his voice raspy from sleep.

"Good morning, Mr Buckley-Diaz," Buck replies, unable to stop himself from sounding giddy about it.

His husband - husband! - turns around in his arms and smiles at Buck, hand coming up to cup his cheek.

"We're married," he says, voice full of wonder, and Buck rubs his finger over the gold band on Eddie's ring finger.

"We are." He can't get the smile off his face but doesn't really want to either, never wants to lose that bubbly feeling in his chest.

Eddie hasn't stopped smiling for the last 24 hours either, and Buck reaches out to trace his smile with a careful finger. Eddie kisses the pad of his finger and moves even closer, slotting his leg between Buck's and pressing them together from head to toe.

"I love you," he tells Buck, and Buck hides his smile against Eddie's neck.

"I love you too," he kisses Eddie's neck, "husband."

Eddie shivers and tightens his arm around Buck. "That sounds right."

"Yeah," Buck agrees. "I'm going to be so annoying about it. I'll introduce you as my husband to everyone, I'll be like "my husband said this, my husband said that, I'm just waiting for my husband", I'll just keep finding excuses to bring up the fact that you married me."

"Can't wait," Eddie says with a low laugh, and Buck feels the vibrations of his chest against his own. "I'll do the same, I hope you know that."

Buck pulls back a little to look at him. "Say it, then."

Eddie's smile widens. "You're my husband."

Buck's eyes immediately water and Eddie reaches out again, his thumb soft against the skin right below Buck's eye, ready to catch any tears that might spill over.

"My husband is a big crier." Eddie's voice is soft and fond, a little amused. "But it's because he loves with everything in him. My husband makes me so happy, happier than I've ever been. My husband hasn't kissed me yet this morning, which should be illegal-"

Buck snorts and scoots closer, slotting their lips together in a soft kiss. He pulls back, smiling, and Eddie's smiling too before he brings his hand to the back of Buck's head and kisses him again. They're chaste kisses, short and sweet because they both can't seem to stop smiling, and Buck runs his hand up and down Eddie's back, holding him close.

Eventually, the kisses deepen and Buck rolls them over so he’s on top. He’s got a lot of ideas on how they can make the most of their honeymoon.

Later, Eddie will order them room service breakfast, making sure to mention that he's ordering for himself and his husband and Buck will watch him, still with that smile on his face matching the one on Eddie's face, and he'll think about how he's the luckiest man in the world. He’ll kiss Eddie’s shoulder and tell him out loud.

His husband will argue that he's the luckiest, and that is an argument Buck will be happy to continue having for the rest of their lives.

#i totally wrote this while i was technically supposed to be listening to a conference lmao #buddie fic #911fic #buddie #911 #pia writes #pia's 1k follower celebration #ask #alltoowellmv

[vdlest]

Our Place To Have Forever

Characters:

Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary:

You and Bucky are finally moving in together.

Warning:

Fluff

"Come on, stop playing around, Buck!" you yelled at your boyfriend, who you are currently chasing around the empty living room of your newly bought house.

You are chasing him because he has your checklist of the things that should be done and followed as you two move in together. But he insists that you two should just be spontaneous about it and enjoy this milestone in your lives.

"James Buchanan Barnes, I told you, give that to me!" you yelled again as you continue to chase him. You already used your "commanding" tone which you only use during missions.

Bucky knew you're already getting annoyed with him, aside from the fact that you are using your commanding voice, you already mentioned his full name.

He finally stopped running around, but still not letting go of your clipboard checklist.

You stood in front of him, giving him a death-defying glare, "Give it to me," you uttered word by word. But he did not move a bit. He kept the clipboard away from you, "Are you really testing my patience, Mr. Barnes?" you asked him, narrowing your eyes.

Bucky chuckled and quickly kissed your forehead, "You know, you're more beautiful when you're mad," he joked.

"We still have a lot of things to do, Bucky," you remind him, then you extended your hand towards him, "So give that to me."

Bucky knows being organize is your thing. You want everything to be in its right place, right position, and right timing. You want everything to be done and accomplished at the perfect time. Instead of getting annoyed with your perfectionist attitude, he loves that about you.

"Baby, you should stop worrying about your list just for today and be carefree," he told you. He grabbed your hand and slowly asked you to turn like a ballerina, "Let's just enjoy this moment, this brand new start for us," when you turned around, he pull you towards him, pressing your body against each other.

Maybe this is the reason why you and Bucky are staying strong together — you two were complete opposites, but that doesn't change the fact that you two are madly and deeply in love with one another. And that made the two of you decide to finally move in together.

"Oh, baby, can't believe we've gotten this far already," you said and placed both of your hands on his shoulder, you two were almost dancing.

Bucky smiled, "And we still have a long way to go, baby. Forever starts today," he told you. When he realized he just used the word forever, his facial expression changed and he frowned, "Did I just use the F word?"

You giggle and nodded, "You just did and I'd love to hear it more often from this mouth of yours," you looked at his lips.

His hand traveled to your waist and you could feel the way he squeezed your waist, "Uh, what if we keep ourselves busy first with something more important?" he asked you, emphasizing the word "more" as his brows go up and down, "What 'ya say about that?"

You chuckle and shook your head in disbelief.

You lost count of the times you two had made love, but each time you do it, you are still surprised by how good and intense he gets. After all, it's not just about you two being horny bunnies, it's not just about you two satisfying each other, it's not just about lust, it's all about how you two love each other to the extent that you two are willing to give your all to each other.

"Oh, I love you so much, Bucky," you sighed as you stare at his face, reflecting on how much you two have been through just to get to where you two are right now, "Everything happened so fast. It was like only yesterday when we met and this morning I woke up we're loading all our boxes and stuff to move to this new place we're gonna call home. It's like we're really living our happily ever after."

Bucky must've noticed when your smile changed a bit, he must've sensed something is bothering you and your thoughts.

"What's wrong?" he cupped your face as he asks you.

You sighed and shook your head, "I just...I just," you stutter, trying to find the right words to explain what's really bothering you.

"Come on, Y/N. You know that you can always tell me anything, right?" he assured you. Bucky won't stop anyway until you finally tell him what is really bothering you and your thoughts.

You first gave him a small smile, then you finally had the courage to tell him, "I'm just afraid that this happiness we're experiencing right now will have something in return," you shuddered. You cleared your throat first before explaining everything to Bucky, "I mean, I am happy for us. I have never been this happy and content. I just don't want something or someone to ruin these beautiful moments, this, us," you added.

For the past weeks that you and Bucky were planning for this day, for this move-in day to your new home, you could never be so happy, but a little part of you starts to think that something bad might happen in exchange for the happiness that you and Bucky are sharing.

You promised yourself that you're just gonna keep that thought in you, but you and Bucky also promised that you two will never keep a secret from each other, most especially if the other party is involved.

He is involved, so yeah, you told him.

"Baby, nothing and no one can tear us apart. You and I will always be together, and even if we aren't physically together all the time, you are always in my heart and I am inside yours. These are just words but our love is stronger than anything, right?" Bucky asked you.

"Yeah, I know. I just don't want to lose you," you looked down, fighting the urge to cry and avoiding ruining the moment.

He let go of one of your cheeks and held your chin to make you look up to him again, "You'll never lose me. I'll never lose you. And just like what I said, no one can tear us apart. I won't let them," he leaned forward and kissed your forehead, then pull you close as he wrapped his arms around you.

Feeling Bucky's warmth makes you feel at home all the time like no one and nothing can harm you. You guess that's what he'll do for the rest of your lives, he will always cage you around his arms and make your fears all go away.

"We're on the new chapter of our lives," you heard him say while hugging you, and slowly guiding you to sway with him, "And this place, this place will serve as our new home, the place where we'll invite our family and friends over for every special occasion or even just for a simple gathering, the place where we'll always choose to come home to, the place where we'll start to build our own family, the place where we'll raise our kids, the place where we'll grow old together, and the place we'll always have, forever. And yeah, I just used the F word again."

You chuckle as you pull away from his hug to meet his eyes, "You are so adorable, James Buchanan Barnes."

"I love you," he said.

"I love you too."

-v.dl

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[glazelilyy]

CONGRATS ON 1000!!!! as a fellow kaeya and scara simp i am so happy to be able to celebrate this milestone w you!! 🙈💕 with that said, would this event request be ok...?: romantic confession letter + scaramouche... with a local-dumbass reader that has a heart of gold and only sees the good in everyone (to a fault)?

𝟏𝟎𝟎𝟎 𝐅𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐓 - 𝐚 𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮

pairing - scaramouche x gender neutral reader

prompt - romantic confession letter

warning - cursing :P

a/n - anon this caters to all of my tastes tyvm for this delicious request HAHA >:) i'm always down to write for my fav harbinger (sorry childe ily dw) also PFBFBTT "local dumbass-reader" how am i kinning that description-

apparently you're supposed to start your letters off with an addresser and greeting or something, but that shit is annoying and i want to get this over and done with.

i may or may not have thought you were conspiring with dottore to get rid of me. there wasn't any other explanation for you trying to be so nice to me all the time, or how my body just starts caving in on itself when you come near me. honestly, it made me furious, it felt like you were pitying me or something and that shit is never welcome. you're depriving some village of their idiot right now, but you've already established yourself here as our idiot so don't go thinking about leaving or anything.

childe and signora seem really fond of you, even dottore's warmed up to you and that absolute freak doesn't like anyone. for some reason you see the good in us and you see the good in me. i didn't think there was any to begin with, yet here you are defying all of my expectations for some reason. you remind me that i'm human.

but for the love of the tsaritsa herself, would it kill you to be less trusting?! if i hadn't been close by on the day you decided it would be alright to trust treasure hoarders when they said they were going to make an honest deal with you, who knows what could've happened? god, you're insufferable. you're too kind for your own good. this world hasn't managed to callous you, and part of me hopes it never will, not if i have anything to say about it.

i want to ask: why are you so nice to me? i've done nothing but be rude to you, i've pushed you away, i've insulted you in three different languages for archon's sake (and how you understood them all is something i won't question).

childe forced my hand into talking about it with him, and can you believe what he told me once i explained everything i felt? he said i was in love! ha! preposterous, there's no way i would ever stoop so low to feel romantic feelings to some mere idiot who's too trusting and kind for their own good.

but after thinking about it, i guess i am. no that's not what i want to say, i know i am. fucking god, i hate being honest, you should be honored that you're the only one who will ever hear me be truly honest.

regardless, you're going to have to own up to your actions now. your stupid kindness and dumb smile makes my heart race and my hands clammy, and it's all your fault. you're making me lose my mind in a way that doesn't make me sick any more. read this letter, burn it, throw it away, cherish it, i don't care. i just had to tell you, whatever you do next won't bother me.

i'll be waiting in my office for a reply if you have one.

scaramouche

#1k event. a letter to you #genshin impact #genshin impact x reader #scaramouche #scaramouche x reader #scaramouche imagines #genshin impact imagines

[sleeplessgaywriter]

Hey can you write a one shot. Poppy and mc are dating and poppy becomes over protective when mc gets in a small accident. Thanks in advance.

I'm finally able to write this...sorry for the wait anon, I hope you like this 😅

(I have no idea how to name this...so...I'll just write 😅😅)

Pairing: Poppy x MC (Sam/Samantha)

It was supposed to be just one hookup between enemies. To deal with the sexual tension once and for all.

But then it happened again...and again...and again.

Then it was supposed to be just a way to relieve stress, nothing else. No strings attached, and no feelings involved.

But, as with "it's only a one time thing" the new arrangement didn't last.

Spending a lot of time with one person was bound to let you see a side of them. And Sam was able to see a side of Poppy no one else had the privilege to see.

When Sam realized she was falling for Poppy, she knew she was doomed.

They were enemies!

Except...their constant bickering was lacking the bite and hate they used to have.

Poppy even let her tag along to a day taking care of the shelter. A day in which Sam was mesmerized by how soft and nice Poppy could actually be...towards puppies and kittens of course. But it still counts!

That day Sam realized she was too far gone to just ignore her feelings.

She had to do something about it.

With the adrenaline still high and catching her breath after their "session" - Poppy had told her to stop calling it that, but Sam wouldn't be Sam if she didn't annoy Poppy - she had turned to Poppy and asked her out on a date.

The blonde had been caught by surprise and her eyes widened as her mouth fell open.

And after what felt like hours to Sam, she was put out of her misery by the small "okay" that left Poppy's lips.

.

One date turned into two, and then three...and then they stopped counting.

The T was going nuts with their newfound relationship. Students watching them like hawks, and although it was annoying to feel like a zoo attraction, with Poppy's hand on her own, Sam didn't care about anything else.

Their friends were less surprised, fine, they weren't surprised at all.

"Babe, I had to buy noise cancelling headphones because of you." Zoey had said with a roll of her eyes.

"I would be twice as richer if I got paid every time I saw Sam climbing over your balcony." Veronica had said with her usually bored voice.

Then Chloe had proceeded to say things about a fanfic, and when Poppy reached a level of redness on her cheeks that Sam had learned to identify...she took her girlfriend away before Poppy could kill her friends.

All in all, Sam was just in cloud nine ever since her relationship with Poppy finally had a name to it. A name that wasn't fuckbuddies - another term Poppy told her not to use.

A month into their new relationship and a new milestone was reached.

Poppy had stayed over.

In the past, staying over was forbidden, and they would instantly leave once the deal was done. The highest amount of time they stayed was ten minutes.

So, yeah, it was a big step.

Sam was just so happy to wake next to Poppy, that they hadn't left the bed in the morning.

And she would've been happy to stay there, but their stomachs demanded food, and a hungry Poppy was an angry Poppy.

.

Sam had taken a quick shower, and throwing on some clothes she made her way to prepare some food for them.

It was noon, so she decided to make lunch instead of breakfast.

Luckily the fridge was filled with fresh food, and Sam was quick to take out everything she needed to make Poppy's favorite food.

The smile on her lips never faded, she was just so happy, and she even started humming a song that Poppy had made her listen to.

It wasn't long before the aroma of food started to linger around the room.

Just a few more things and it would all be ready.

Sam heard her room's door opening while she was chopping some vegetables. She flicked her gaze towards the sound, and what was supposed to be just a passing gaze, her eyes stayed fixated on her girlfriend, and her mouth fell open.

In the doorway, Poppy was lazily drying her hair with a small towel, but what caught Sam's attention was the clothes she was wearing.

Poppy was always beautiful, no one in their right mind could deny that. She could even wear a plastic bag as clothes, and she would still look gorgeous.

But, seeing Poppy wearing her clothes...it was just something Sam didn't expect. Her clothes looked so good in Poppy, even when the long sleeved shirt was obviously bigger than her.

The clothes were so simple, yet they looked so perfect on her girlfriend. It made Poppy seem so relaxed and comfortable, a good look on her.

Sam was so fixated on Poppy, that she only managed to come back to reality when a sharp pain extended on her finger.

"Ah, shit!" She hissed in pain and she looked at her hand, she was bleeding.

Thankfully her stupor while looking at Poppy had also slowed her movements, so the cut wasn't too deep.

The pain was still there, though.

Before Sam could do anything, worried hands grabbed her injured hand, and the wet towel that Poppy was using was now covering the wound.

"Are you okay??" Poppy asked, a worried frown on her delicate features.

"Yeah, it's not-"

"Are you stupid?? How can you cut yourself??" The blonde was frantic, and she seemed to be getting more agitated when the white towel turned red on the spot covering Sam's hand.

"Poppy, calm down-"

"Do not tell to calm down, Hughes!"

Sam's shoulders shrank a bit.

It was no mystery how terrifying Poppy could be, even when she was smaller.

"I'll take you to the hospital."

Alright, there was no way they were going to a hospital just for a small cut on her finger.

So, just as Poppy was turning around to go get her car keys, Sam held her wrist and stopped her.

"I'm fine, Poptart. It's just a small cut."

Poppy shook her head still frowning, "you're bleeding a lot for a small cut."

"I must've hit a blood vessel or something. But I promise, I'm fine." She reassured with a smile.

The blonde hesitated, and Sam used the moment of distraction to pull her flushed against her body and holding her close.

"You're adorable when you show how much you care." Sam mumbled and Poppy groaned.

"Shut up, I don't care."

"Mmhmm...sure, Poptar. Whatever helps you sleep at night."

Poppy hit her on the shoulder, but then she hid her face on Sam's neck and hugged her back.

"For what is worth, I care about you, too."

With her face still hidden, Sam couldn't see the content smile forming on Poppy's rosy lips.

Soooo...I cut myself today while cooking, and yes, it made me think of this Xd

I'm not sure if this is what you had in mind, anon. But I sure hope you liked it 😁

Again, sorry for the wait, I've just been busy these days 😥

Anyway, if you have more prompts feel free to let me know, I may not write them right away, but I will write them 😁😁

#poppy min sinclair #poppy x mc #choices #queen poppy #queen b poppy #answering anons #queen b mc #queen b

[daegalfangirl]

2021 tumblr moots/personal recap for daegalfangirl/kvydence/puppyjwoo of whatever the user was cus i forgot

stole this idea from charlie 🥰🥰🥰🥰

i started off on tumblr by creating a new blog, with what could potentially be my writing blog. i was super scared to go into it because english is not my first language and my writing drafts are always sloppy and messily written. the first person i interacted with and decided to become moots with was actually @bluejaem and idek how tf i found her so don't ask but i think she had like 30 followers at this time I DONT REMEMBER IM NOT SURE. but this is kind of why i value aditi as one of my most memorable moots. however along the way i was able to make more friends from a discord server that @junjungsunwoo made that kind of will lead up into me listing the most significant moots of this year... SO UHM LET ME BEGIN.

@treasuretaeil - MY LOVE MY NUMBER #1 FAV FOREVER. you will forever remain as my #1 moot words cannot describe how much i love you and miss you and wish the absolute best for you. i really don't know where the attachment to you came from LMFBSZ but you are literally the sweetest most welcoming person ever and it broke my heart to know you were struggling maintaining yourself on this platform but i'm glad your off now to focus on yourself. i will continue to cherish our memories from before and hold a place for you in my heart. I LOVE U!!!! 💗💗💗💓💗💓💗💓💓💗💗💓💓💗💗💓💗💗💗💓💗💗💗💓💗💓💓💗💗💓💗💗💓💓💗💓💓💓💓

@bluejaem - ummmm this was obvious hello and you have so many notifs (the fame or whateva😞) im gonna drop an ask and ANNOY YOU into reading this cus i know ur probably not gonna notice this on ur own 😒😒😒 OK. well u were one of my very first moots and i treasure you like so much i think you're like my 2nd or 3rd follower ever on tumblr which makes me SO happy to know you since the start of my writing blog on tumblr. i remember sending you asks and talking about how i was gonna open up my blog and i ended up just becoming extremely inconsistent since the timings were never quite... right. BUT LET ME PUT THE FOCUS BACK ON U 🥰🥰🥰 you are literally like the kindest girl ever and my heart goes out to you and seeing you grow so much makes me so happy for you and i just love how genuine you are and your blatant love for jaemin is the cutest thing ever i have never seen anyone with as much of a jaemin craze as you (except one of my irl friends who is also PSYCHO for this man) also i swear i remember one time like in my first couple asks i sent to you i was like "i love your writings we should be moots" or whatever tf i managed to type out but ummmmmm.... it's time i confess i have never read like a single one of your works LMFQIGXISGX IM SO SORRY i just wanted friends OBROWHXOSB anyways... i see posts of urs sometimes and im just like "ooh i'll read that later" and rfhen i never do SO. ANYWAYS. UHM we will move on from that... anyways idk how to conclude this but i hope you hit many more milestones next year because you 100% deserve it

@jaxminskale - girl idek wtf happened to you... you seriously just went inactive out of nowhere and you might never ever read this... but that's okay☺️ i always really liked you in that discord server rbh you were one of my favs you reminded me a lot of one of my old bffs from when i moved away so i felt that pull from your personality. THATS LOWK KIND OF WEIRD THOUFH. but we'll move on from that... you were so good to get along with like the female chenle nickname was 100% CORRECT. anywyas i hope you're doing good and taking care of yourself. 😊😊

@junjungsunwoo - A LITERAL ANGEL AHHHHDFWHZSH. you are the sweetest person ever yena you have the kindest heart and i will literally fight anyone who says otherwise. you are probably my #1 kindest moot and i will forever cherish you as that. you were definitely memorable to me as well even though i doubt i may be for you since i was uhmmmmm VERY INCONSISTEN T when it came to my activity. i don't know what to add but i love you and your sweet angelic personality please never change it. i've seen you at a low point and i've seen you at your high points and i hope i communicate with you more going into 2022 🥰🥰🥰💗💗💗

@trippy-dejun - WHERE THE HELL DID U COME FROM. iDK WHY THAT SOUNDED SO RUDE BUT I GENUINELY HAVE NO IDEA WHEN I MET U. however i still love u and you mean a lot to me. everytime i come back for like 5 minutes (only to go inactive for another few months) you're always so welcoming and smother me with love it's like cute annoying grandma vibes wirhout the annoying because i love the affection but this is the only time i'm admitting to it. U RLLY DO GIVE ME MORHER VIBES THOUGH... but i think ur my age or maybe a teeny bit younger BUT THIS SHOULD NOT BE FAKEN AS AN INSULT like you're crazy as hell so maybe like crazy nice animal mom. PERFECT DESCRIPTION IDCCCC anyways i lOVE U and hope ur doing amazing. maybe i'll drop by on discord and say something in the server to yall and smother you guys with love for a change. 😊 Sike (to the smother part i'll drop by LORD im not that bad of a friend/moot)

@taemin-jaemin - i also have no idea when we met i just remember seeing you and thinking who is that but never confronting it and i just saw you and yena in the same light as like two twins OR SOMETHING WOXHWU IDK like you're such an angel so sweet and everything even though we don't interact as frequently as id like i hope that you're doing well and take a break from the collabs THIS GOES FOR U TOO @junjungsunwoo LORD. y'all need to take a break seriously like take a nap... drink some water... JK but i genuinely do wish the best for u sarah i hope we have more chances to interact more going into 2022.

@kpopsnowball - your personality was always too perfect for me to believe it. we stopped interacting but that didn't make me forget you. you always stood out to me as someone memorable for your sweet and caring attitude. you are such a genuine friend and have the kindest soul ever and i wish no one ever takes advantage of that because you really do deserve the best. i didn't want to make this one really long for you i just wanted to give you something short to appreciate you.

@jaeminscoffee - tbh we no longer interact either but you were also very memorable to me because of how we would interact. you were the only moot where i had lengthy conversations with in my tumblr messages and it was just so fun i always smiled reading your messages. although we no longer talk i do cherish the conversations we had and hope that you have an amazing new year!!!!💓💓💓💓💓

@renchinworld - YOU!! YES YOU!! hi u might not remember me since i've only sent an ask once (or twice?) and we've only messaged just a TEENY bit, but you are someone id like to interact with more. i don't rlly actively seek to interact with any of my new moots but YOU i feel a pull towards you. you seem very similar to me and it makes me wanna be friends with u so bad LMFAOOO but i really hope that we do get to interact more coming into the new year and i'll be sure to drop by and read your AMAZING works bc i will never forget that fic that i actually did forget the name of like i have vague memory of the title but i'm not guessing it because i'm not trying to embarrass myself. ANYWAYS moving on... i will try my best for us to have more frequent interactions! just you watch 😴😴😴😴

FINAL NOTE

i wrote this all in the night it's 3:20am currently and i am feeling absolutely exhausted but i wanted to finish this and post it no rereading FUCK the grammar mistakes idc these are my raw genuine feelings i get so emotional in the night so there y'all have my love my feelings towards y'all. in conclusion I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!! Thank you for making my first year on tumblr as amazing as it was. 😊

and that's a wrappppppppppppp bai

EDIT UPDATE:

I FORGOT SOMEONE SO SO SOSO IMPORTANT IN MY MOOTS RECAP I AM SUCH AN AWFUL PERSON IDK WHY I FROGTO TO PUT SYMONE

@symoneismeh SYMONE I AM SO SORRY 😭 I DONT KNOW HOW YOU SLIPPED OFF MY MIND WHEN YOU CONTRIBUTED SO MUCH TO ME ON TUMBLR THIS YEAR. okay omfg firstly i am actually SO sorry for that idk how i forgot 😭 but just like yena i think you are an absolute angel with the kindest soul. i was blessed to have the opportunity to meet you and become moots with you because you genuinely are such an amazing person and my days become brighter when i talk to you. thank you for all you've done with me this past year and i hope we can interact more in 2022. I LOVE U SO SOSOSOSO MUCH AND IM SO SORRY 💗💗💗💗💗💗

#Wow #no words #first year writing and i was very inactive #ALSO THANK YOU TO ALLL MY FOLLOWERS CUS IM NEAR 300 #IDK HOW YALL TOLERATE ME HUT I LOVE YALL SM #MAAH #MWAH** #OK BYEEE I NEED TO SLEEP