Ive been away from Tumblr for a long while because ive been going through a lot of stuff. From being basically homeless, to being robbed, being sued, having my identity stolen.... Things have just been a mess and somehow, i managed to change careers. I got my CDL and things have started looking up, its probably been the best thing that's happened to me and im thankful for that change.
I need to have krs aunt take me to the laundromat so I can wash a bunch of stuff with evil fiber content and then take it straight to the thrift store...
yes, doctors suck, but also "the medical ethics and patient interaction training doctors receive reinforces ableism" and "the hyper competitive medical school application process roots out the poor, the disabled, and those who would diversify the field" and "anti-establishment sentiment gets applications rejected and promotions requests denied, weeding out the doctors on our side" and "the gruesome nature of the job and the complete lack of mental health support for medical practitioners breeds apathy towards patients" and "insurance companies often define treatment solely on a cost-analysis basis" and "doctors take on such overwhelming student loan debt they have no choice but to pursue high paying jobs at the expense of their morals" are all also true
none of this absolves doctors of the truly horrendous things they say and do to patients, but it's important to acknowledge that rather than every doctor being coincidentally a bad person, there is something specific about this field and career path that gives rise to such high prevalence of ableist attitudes
These past few years have hit me hard. I've changed a lot. It can be hard to see as I feel stuck physically in so many ways. But emotionally, mentally and physically. When I compare myself to where I was in 2019, I'm an entirely different person.
I see the world in a whole new way, I express myself more openly now. I'm starting to find my own voice instead of constantly relying on the voices of others.
I'm going on 25 shortly. And I know if 20 year old me were to hear about where we were today, they wouldn't believe me. They'd be so happy. And I know that's proof I'm a whole new person and I'm doing a good job.