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spookysalem13 · 6 hours

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I had a dream last night 🌙 that I had a baby. That chaos was going on around me but I never stopped my loving gaze towards my baby who was holding my finger in their hand. That my cat Taffy came up to greet the baby & brush her cheek up against theirs, just like she does with me. To Taffy this is her way of showing affection. It's like kisses to her. 🥰

Then my baby turned into a toddler, they told me they really liked dinosaurs 🦕. And I told them it didn't matter who the companies made the toys for. If it was for boys or girls. All that mattered was that they enjoyed it. I played dinosaurs with my toddler in my dream as Taffy was always near, keeping a close eye to make sure they were alright.

Then I woke up. It was the sweetest dream. Yet, a hard one to bare. There's a high chance I may never be able to have children. Even adoption isn't an option unless I'm married, due to my specific health conditions. Not to mention this country has monetized adoption which is disgusting. So it makes it so expensive.

My dream in life since I was young child, whenever anyone asked me. Was always to be a Mamma. To raise children of my own. I used to say I didn't even care if I had to do it on my own. I was always so determined that I was going to be a mother one day.

The day doctors explained to me what the combination of having kids and my health conditions would do to me. My heart broke 💔 instantaneously. Though I never gave up hope that my health would one day improve enough to make it easier to handle.

I was told if I wanted to risk it, I needed to do so by the age of 25. Well I'm 25 now. And my health has been worse than ever before. But I'm still not giving up hope. I will never give up hope that somehow, some way, I will be able to have a child to love and raise and cherish.

I appreciate the moments I had in my dream last night. It made me really happy. I will keep trying to improve my health, I will hope with everything I have as I get older with my specific conditions that they won't hinder my ability to have a child safely for both of us. It's always been my dream and I will forever hold onto it. Despite the odds.

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spookysalem13 · 9 hours

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Be the oddity, be the peculiar, be strange & unusual.

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spookysalem13 · 18 hours

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Me and my cat 😻 at home is all I need.

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spookysalem13 · 20 hours

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I will forever be enchanted by the moon 🌙

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spookysalem13 · 2 days

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I get overheated for the first time in the spring, and I immediately start daydreaming about October weather.

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spookysalem13 · 4 days

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If my whole home was this aesthetic, I would live in so much happiness ✨️

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spookysalem13 · 4 days

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What would Morticia do? Is what I ask myself often, is how I get through life.

Morticia is an inspiration to me.

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spookysalem13 · 4 days

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I'm A Proud Witch

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spookysalem13 · 5 days

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whimsigoth 🔮🦇🌙

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spookysalem13 · 5 days

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May your skies forever be purple 💜✨️

Magical Night

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spookysalem13 · 6 days

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One day I wish to have a stained glass window in my own home. Preferably in an attic, where I can walk in as the sun begins to rise and through the stained glass window, decorated with roses 🌹 just like this, I can remember sweet memories. Have a cup of tea, read a book. Enjoy the colors as they shine through. Each flicker of sparkle ✨️ being a happy moment from life.