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mariposas8494 · 1 year

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Haha yasss

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girlyteengirl16 · 5 months

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what’s the vibe for tonight guys manic or depressive episode

#mentally unstable #trauma #i wanna kms #tw depressing stuff #help me pls lol #this account is a cry for help pls help me #i want to be okay #tw depressing thoughts #mentally tired #manic depressive #manic episodes #depression relapse #mental abuse

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dexu4y · 1 year

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the anger i feel towards ppl i love when i’m splitting is indescribable like i want to block them on everything and never speak to them again but then 5 mins later im sobbing over how much i love them it’s exhausting

#episode #bipolar disorder #manic episodes #mentally exhausted #tw depressing thoughts #quiet bpd #bpd #favourite person #bpd anger #split #bpd splitting

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skinnyr4t · 1 month

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vixensofdeath · 6 months

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being manic is the best yet the worst. I feel like I’m on drugs and I can do anything. my mind races and my world zooms by. and even when I think about dying it’s not depressing. this time it’s thrilling and exciting to me. everything- no matter how bad it is, I am constantly over amped. but, after the few good times, I feel horrible. I just want to come down but I can’t. I’m wide awake and not hungry and I want to do so many bad things to me and others.

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gazniet · 22 days

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idk who needs to hear this but your manic episodes are valid even if you don’t think you’re actions were “crazy” enough

#mental illness #actually bipolar #bipolor #bipolar 2 #bipolar disorder #bipolar 1 #manic episodes #manic episodes are so funny #manic pixie dream girl #hypomanic #hypomania

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traumakid-hideout · 1 month

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An episode of mania almost always always always starts out so euphorically, makes you feel like you’re on the perfect drug, makes your confidence and motivation sky rocket and has you romanticizing all the fun it baits you with. It feels so amazing, you feel like nothing can hurt you or get to you.

Then the irritability comes, genuine rage, such an uncomfortable and overwhelming increase in libido, dangerous impulses, social behavior to be humiliated from by the time you crash, severe sleep deprivation that disorients the fuck out of you the longer you go without it, without even feeling tired at all. But feeling completely out of control. And if it escalates, Lord help you. Hallucinations, bad paranoia, black outs, substance abuse (or relapse if you happen to be recovering), delusions, everything that could get you into a psych ward. It isn’t fun at the end and any pleasure you feel is completely illusionary.

The worst part is I still normally never want it to stop. Because the depression after, which gets so ugly and terrible the longer, more intense the mania is, is something I’m not looking forward to at all. That, and mania can really sometimes convince you that you love it. I’m not wanting to go there though, because I have a lot to lose. Even if I don’t lose anything, I’m tired of this cycle and just can’t afford to desire it anymore. So I’m managing where I can, but wow it’s just scary to watch it take you higher and higher into it, and further and further away from yourself.

This is precisely why I despise any sort of stigma toward bipolar disorder. It’s so misunderstood, misquoted, and mistreated. I just really want and need some help. My hands are so sweaty and shaky, my heart and my mind are racing, I can’t stop talking, I can’t eat. I can’t focus, I can only fixate. And it’s just so overwhelming already.

#actuallymentallyill #actuallybipolar #actuallyhypomanic #actuallymanic #manic episodes #mania #manic #manic episode #manic depression #manic depressive #mental heath #actually mentally ill #actually bipolar #bipolar mania #bipolar disorder #bipolar 1 #bipolar 2

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flashy-mf · 3 months

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Manic episode bingo! (Written at 3am during a manic episode lmao)

For bipolar, schizoaffective, cyclothymic disorder, and the like (if you have manic episodes, use it! I don’t really care what mental illness causes yours. All is valid which is why I made it as inclusive as possible, so no gatekeepers or ableists though I know saying this won’t stop anyone)

Here’s mine 🔥🎉📸👁️🫦👁️✨💥💪

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cjoat-boost · 2 months

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March 4, 2024 Edit of this still relevant post from February 27, 2024

For those that view any of my online presences (including my blogs)…Um, this is something for you to know.

Please save this post so it doesn’t get buried by queue.

My& Current Health Situation

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I wish to communicate this to y’all now so that…I don’t end up worrying anyone when this happens. It may have been noticeable by some folks that I’m dragging, heavily. I’m not having a good time right now with my body. With this comes with an onion of issues detailing certain aspects of what I’m going through.

I know I have a lot of obligations. Not only as a creative and content creator; but as a friend, a mentor, Guardian or even older peer, and myself. I’ve neglected myself for too long. I have been noticing my vitality decrease; and my CFS and POTS flaring up further.

Social Justice is something I’m always perceiving and sensitive to; and as such, the strain I’ve noticed too late has been worsening. Includes many emotional meltdowns and outbursts from me that I can no longer control or hold back.

Trying to figure out how to exactly sort through the mass tangles of my traumatized emotional and mental state isn’t as simple as I hoped for me. While I’m creatively burned out, I am suffering Autistic burnout. A double whammy of all things.

I’m finding myself getting “stuck,” unable to physically move for hours at a time. I’d move upstairs to eat something but end up being there for what’s normally an half hour task…for nearly 2+ hours. Even so, trying to force movement to do tasks that is considered “everyone can do these” is mentally painful and physically locking. Even if I have to desperately use the bathroom when I’m about to fall asleep, my headmates (AKA alters) have to switch to co-front or “snatch me back” in order to get my body moving. That’s with the sudden rocket spike in heart rate and blood pressure, and loss of balance (at the very least).

I’m already struggling to cope with many things due to the fact that I haven’t been able to draw much at all; or create anything and write anything. Especially trying desperately to fulfill my word on things I had the energy to do, but no longer do. So much of my struggles I can’t properly transmute. It’s so upsetting.

Thus, there’s going to be a sudden and abrupt shift in posting or messaging. I don’t know when. But it is coming.

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(Especially since I’ve been feeling mania over the weekend. All weekend, Saturday and Sunday, I manic cleaned large portions of certain areas I occupy as well as my housemate. Today I’m feeling the aching in my joints badly, with my calves swearing hell at me. I’m wearing my wrist brace too, I just…I’m rambling.)

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I wish for you to know what’s happening if you don’t see or hear from me, my headmates, or any of my online presences (as depicted here: https://cjoatbysamwise.com/cjoats-links ) No one is being forgotten. I’m not abandoning anyone. I’m not ghosting anyone. What I do know (still coming to terms with it ngl) is I need to stop, fully stop, and recover. It’s looking like my body is going to do that for me by force. It’s going to be abrupt and sudden to the inconvenience of many, including my housemate, unfortunately.

I don’t know how long this will last. But I don’t know how long I’ll be able to keep “hustling” like this. Does this sound repetitive? I wanted to communicate before suddenly I’m unable.

Does this sound repetitive? I’ll end it here. I wanted to communicate before suddenly I’m unable.

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I’ll end it here with how you can support me while I’m down, only able to and wish to (I’m aware financial situations are a big struggle at the moment, there is no pressure to.)

Provide support by these links:

Thank you for reading until the end; have an awesome week ahead. Please remember to hydrate and eat. 🫶🏽❤️‍🩹