#now I'm depressed

[gt-ridel]

Just finished listening to The Sounds of Nightmares and am certainly feeling some kind of way.

On the one hand, I'm resistant to any sort of coherent lore because the games work beautifully without dialogue or explanation.

But on the other hand, it was an interesting peek into the world from an outsider's point of view.

I have theories I want to talk about, but at the same time I'm embarrassed to share because I'm probably wrong and I don't want people to be annoyed with me. （；´д｀）

#Little Nightmares #The sound of nightmares #It sucks not having the confidence to share my ideas and headcanons #But come to think of it this is something I've been struggling with for several years now #Also no one I know IRL is ever interested in any of the things I am #so I don't have the luxury of long conversations about fiction with my sister anymore #Dang it #now I'm depressed

[mygwenchan]

Ok, so Build is leaving BOC... tbh I expected he would. At least it looks like they'll really bring the matter to court and he'll submit his own evidence against Poi

#i don't really get why they waited till today to announce his departure #but ok #it's done ;; #build jakapan #now i'm depressed

[storyweaverofgondor]

@glitter-fuck deactivated?!!!???!!!

#personal #shoot . . . #now i'm depressed #at this point i just gotta assume that whenever i go 'Huh. Haven't seen such-and-such in a while.' #That they are just totally gone #it's happened so many times recently #also if anyone save the pics of the production they were in? pls share! #They are all under a readmore and i didn't think to save them myself

[the-not-so-dark-age]

Do you think Geto would've gone the path he did anyways or do you think he would've been a different person if it weren't for the circumstances that caused him to snap?

Hello anon, you've got a really good question here.

To be honest, I don't really know. Geto didn't seem to be evil at his core, but he did seem fake and forced when speaking so politely and correctly of his role as sorcerer and protector of the weak, like a parrot that just repeats words without meaning them.

Riko dying was the event that started the spiral to violence Geto followed, but he also says how being a sorcerer is like running a marathon and you just keep losing people you care about so imo he had high chances of becoming evil even if Riko hadn't died, because he would still have to witness his friends' and colleagues ' deaths (remember Haibara's death had a big importance too, and that didn't depend on Toji)

Plus, the last straw for him was the whole situation at the village with the twins, which is again something that didn't depend on Toji and Riko...

In the end, I think the only way for Geto not to become a curse user was to completely leave the jujutsu world, just like Nanami did, because his personality wasn't fit for it, too kind and thoughtful.

#now I'm depressed #jjk #geto suguru #anonymous

[vihilum]

@fyrbol [ continued from here. ]

The entrails of boyhood were strewn about Camp Crystal Lake. He would never return to fetch every shard of himself lost. Some were gone and buried. Some were at the bottom of the water. Tommy’s intent in going back circulated around thoughts of revenge. He would only ever go if he had a reason to burn it all down. He wouldn’t find himself there with no purpose. What remained was no longer his. Those memories, they belonged to someone else.

“The grass isn’t greener,” on either side is the admission he wants to utter, but those words die too. Not for anyone, Tommy understood that Lucas knew that too.

“Me?”

Hues downcast from Lucas’, his gaze followed the beam coming from the flashlight, bathing the path ahead in a dim glow. “I haven’t thought about that in a long time,” his voice is soft, so soft, there’s a crack he tries to hide in the quiet, hide from Lucas, hide from himself, the thoughts he tries to snuff out, like that part of the world will never pass him by. He won’t get there. “So I don’t think so,” Tommy had been so fixated on taking things day by day, he never lived in the moment. It was bleak, and his hand rose to squeeze the other’s shoulder as his step slowed beside him.

“There can’t be light everywhere, or it would…” oversaturate everything, he trails off, and he looks back towards his friend, his walk stops, “there can only be pieces, for us to know that it’s real,” that it can be found, “I know I can be happy, I know you can be happy,” when he addresses Lucas, Tommy sounds like he believes it a lot more, “I don’t know when,” he can’t make that promise, “but…”

They’re surrounded by dark, save for the sliver of a shimmer cutting through the wood. From above ground. Tommy’s eyes draw to it, and he points it out to Lucas. A smile brimming with the sight of a small miracle. “Good things, Lucas, good things on the way.”

#threads: tommy jarvis. #fyrbol #dynamic: tommy x lucas. #the gang gets existential... #now i'm depressed

[ghostgardn]

DON'T, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE, POST YOURSELF ON A LOOKSMAXXING SUB ON REDDIT. i wouldn't (again) even if i was paid a MILLION FUCKING DOLLARSSSSSS!!!!

#i made a mistake #now i'm depressed #and so much farther from using my actual face as a faceclaim in any of my drs #even my better cr #looksmaxxing subs fucking SUCK #ghost rambles <3

[lotus-pear]

"dazai would princess carry chuuya" "dazai would hold chuuya bridal style" no shutup dazai would pick chuuya up like he's a sopping wet kitten or a sack of potatoes

#its his love language to sling chuuya across his shoulder like a prized trout he just caught #skk height difference comin in clutch when dazai can hoist chuuya off the ground and dangle him in the air #and chuuya can bite and hiss and scream like a cat but his feet won't touch the ground #also sorry for not posting for the past month i got depression🥰 #dw i'm back now #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #osamu dazai #dazai osamu #chuuya nakahara #nakahara chuuya #soukoku #skk #lotus draws

[the-rainbow-of-doom]

(This post was sponsored by a 1+ hour commute)

#I'm so frustrated how little time and energy i have after a day is done #i didn't win the fight against depression to have lofe ruined by THAT now #lacking time and energy to go on job hunt.. it's all very small steps only #a part time job would be marvellous but what flat can be paid with that #maybe also my anxiety is stopping me from getting a new job. what if i get fired. what if it's horrible there. ahh.. i need more courage #mine capitalism #anti-capitalism #work

[bittwitchy]

some new sad girl guy spring dialogue for sebby!

also bonus bc its summer 13 now and i already gave him a bouquet

#I was at 5 hearts on spring day 23 year 1 #as it turns out if you're lucky you can get a ton of flounder really early now to give him a lot of liked gifts #i'm like 99% sure these are new #i dont recall seeing them before with OR without mods #I'm playing without mods rn tho #stardew valley #sebastian stardew valley #sdv spoilers #1.6 spoilers #1.6 update #stardew valley 1.6 #sdv 1.6 #like every time i've asked seb out before its been 'i cant believe you feel the same way' so like #i'm FAIRLY positive this is new #or i've just never been lucky enough to get alternative dialogue #MY GUYYYYY #depression cw #1k

[prinsomnia]

astrologer’s mirror🪞✨🌕

#illustration #aesthetic #plants #magical #stars #astrology #nature #fantasy #digital art #art ph #art fart #prinsomnia #portfolio #made this to tide out a really bad depressive episode last week. really missing drawing for myself on the daily :'') #i'm feeling better now btw!! sending you virtual hugs and warmth your way <3 <3 <3 #take care and have a lovely week ahead!

[revenantghost]

This damn thing is way out of print and often goes for $200 second-hand for a 100-page artbook, but! To keep you from having to flip through incomplete uploads on hentai sites, and to save you from minuscule and questionably seeded torrents for files you might not know how to open, you should absolutely NOT check out this Google Drive I made of some ridiculously high-quality .png scans of the '98 Trigun artbook. Absolutely don't spread it around to anyone interested and keep it from getting lost ever again.

#Trigun #Trigun 98 #Nightow #Yasuhiro Nightow #Because there are some BANGER illustrations by him #This took too much time while my insomnia began creeping up on me lmao #But leave me a tip if you'd like but more than anything I want to preserve this stuff #I'm gonna try and keep this up for as long as I can #But take it and save it and spread it #Enjoy it!!!!!!! #The depression is kicking my ass and I wanted to be and do something productive #So now you all get to benefit lol #Anyway #Someday I want to own it because I love books #But who knows #So I get to hoard the files now

[lunargarden-art]

"you'll slay the ladies with your smile!" *proceeds to smile

#his smile aahhhhh #digital art #dabi #touya #touya todoroki #todoroki touya #mha #bnha #bnha dabi #mha dabi #my hero academia #boku no hero #boku no hero academia #mha fanart #bnha fanart #anime art #anime fanart #digital drawing #he's such a comfort character to draw his smile could cure depression #i love how his black hair makes his turquoise eyes more deep and magnetic #so i tried to emphasize them even more #THEY'RE BEAUTIFULLLL the most beautiful gaze i've ever seen in a character!!! #i also like him with white hair #buut it doesn't have the same effect #moreover white hair dabi is giving me too many traumatic experiences and now every time i'm worried about him and everything he might do #i like to remember him like this <3 magnetic and mysterious

[prince-liest]

Some thoughts on Lucifer's mental health, relationships, and role as king of hell!

Lucifer’s perception of himself as the king of hell is really interesting to me because he’s very blase about it in canon while totally using it when it suits him.

I think it’s really telling that the first time he actually brings it up himself is when it’s something he can leverage to help Charlie out. He reads to me like someone who objectively knows that he’s the hottest shit in town, but also just doesn’t really think that it matters most of the time because it's not relevant to his personal problems. Being Lucifer Morningstar did not allow him to achieve his goals in petitioning heaven. Being the most powerful person in hell didn’t even un-fuck his family life!

...Except for when suddenly it might in fact help un-fuck his relationship with his daughter.

It's the main thing he can desperately and dramatically showcase as a worthwhile reason for Charlie to maintain a relationship with him, because he as a person is depressed, half-functional, and barely has enough spoons to pay attention to a conversation he's having with her while he's actively having it, nevermind remembering their last one.

He wants to! And it doesn't start with his song at the hotel! It starts with him answering the phone, heavily fumbling actually connecting with Charlie despite clearly desperately wanting to, and then realizing she's asking him for something and promptly choking on his tea before excitedly telling her, "Yeah! Of course! Anything within my power is yours for the asking, you just name it." He knows that there is a great deal 'within his power,' and he's happy and relieved that he can offer her that!

Lilith has been gone for years but he's still wearing his wedding ring. His walls are still covered in family portraits. He's just been sitting in his room making thousands of rubber ducks he thinks suck instead of ruling hell, because his daughter liked that one duck he made one time.

Charlie needed him to support her in her mission, but damn did Lucifer also need Charlie to get him out and moving and actually doing things again.

Anyway, someone get this man on an SSRI.

#hazbin hotel #hazbin lucifer #lucifer magne #lucifer morningstar #meta #personal #text posts #long post #expanding on some comments I made about him in an ask! #can't WAIT to find out what his and Lilith's deal is #my funky little depressed king #Alastor took him not knowing who he was personally #but after his comments about watching TV and not remembering Charlie's hotel #I think it's pretty clear Lucifer is just out of touch as hell because he hasn't got the spoons to function like people think he would #ETA: I tried to write a little rambling meta post failed to get my feelings out and now I'm 3k words into a fic #I NEED TO JUST REMEMBER THAT FIC COMMUNICATES MY FEELINGS BETTER..........

[mercifullymad]

i feel passionately about the need to enfold people experiencing (or diagnosed) with "just" depression or anxiety into the mad pride project. the more people who view themselves as mad, the better. much as the rhetorical move from "neurotypical" to "neuroconforming" emphasizes the artifice & social construction of "neurotypicality," so too will expanding identification as "mad" expose the sane/mad dichotomy as a false one.

it's true that (some) people with "just" depression and/or anxiety have an easier time navigating the psych system than people who have more stigmatized diagnoses. but this is not to say that they necessarily have an easy time — the carceral psych system is hostile to everyone subsumed by it, even the most "privileged" patients. we should of course critique & examine how our experiences are shaped by various intersections of privilege, but we cannot forget or ignore how someone with "just" a depression/anxiety diagnosis can still experience the full force of the carceral psych system brought down upon them (including but not limited to involuntary institutionalization, police intervention, & forced medication or other forced treatment).

we must encourage, if not insist, that those with the least-stigmatized diagnoses view their difficult experiences navigating the psych system as bound up with the liberation of people who have more stigmatized diagnoses &, often, a more violent experience of the psych system. we need more people to drop the "i have anxiety/depression but i'm not crazy" line and say loudly, "i have anxiety/depression & i am crazy. my access to just treatment is linked to the conditions of all other crazy people, who are my allies, peers, & friends. we are united in our cause & we all deserve a more liberating system of care."

#mad pride #mad liberation #disability justice #the way that one IG influencer who called depression & anxiety “vanilla” diagnoses has lived rent-free in my mind for the past five years.. #i was soooo upset by that for like three years & now i'm like. okay. it is a little funny. #but also i do think that somewhere in the 'destigmatization'/commodification of anxiety/depression (treatment) #we have lost the plot & forgotten that 'just' these experiences on their own can still be deeply distressing & chronic & endangering #& can make people (be viewed as) just as 'crazy' as someone with a more stigmatized diagnosis #& for me personally my experiences of anxiety & depression have been far more disabling than anything else #sorry i keep editing this post to correct typos...story of my life

[zialinart]

My submission for the fan book for Black sails tenth yeah anniversary

Thank you so much @tobys-walrus-crew for organising this ! Can't wait to see the book !! Also thank you @myfavoritespotonthecitadel for doing the text

#black sails #toby stephens #captain flint #james flint #captain james flint #black sails fanart #no but seriously i'm so glad to have done this because i'm so behind at art right now #i've done two things in 6 months #depression is shit #but maybe it'll get me to draw again #a little #things