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alifvq · 2 months
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so I borrowed some book called "Dance With Wings" and I may do a review. it sounds interesting and the war setting is perfect for me, because I can rate how realistic it is.
I've read a few pages while I was drinking coffee with my mom.
librarians were surprised for some reason bcuz it's a book in English (which is not my native language obviously) after they found out my age. fun fact: my mom works in this library but at higher rank, she's also managing things in her department (medical) and it's a regional library so it's VERY VERY big!!!!
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alifvq · 2 months
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uh yeah I think it might turn out bad but I'm starting my weight loss journey tomorrow... I need to pray for not relapsing
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alifvq · 2 months
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I know that you got daddy issues
(And I do too)
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alifvq · 2 months
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oh it's 4 am again and I'm on the verge of tears. how cool.
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alifvq · 3 months
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alifvq · 3 months
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what if you came over on February of 14th (just for fun) and we baked some cookies (as friends) listened to some sapphic songs (as a joke) made bracelets while talking about everything in our lives (in a non-romantic way) and held hands while watching a horror film (obviously in an extremely women-frienship way)
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alifvq · 3 months
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I wish corners of my mouth didn't go up everytime I saw her.
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alifvq · 3 months
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MY SOOJIN ALBUM IS FINALLY HERE !!!
my mom picked it up at the mail / post office (or whatever it's called, we like go to this place and pick stuff ppl send to us yk)
I have 3 more hours until I get home 🥲🥲
I'm soooo happy !! the only thing I'm not happy abt is my classmate still being at the lyceum.
TW: ed thoughts
I'm also very hungry. do I deserve to eat? why did I become so disgusting? I gained 400 grams and it's so freaking annoying. I hate everything. but I believe that recovery is worth it.
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alifvq · 4 months
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TW: ed recovery/vent abt stuff idk
still haven't gotten my period back. I don't wanna gain weight .... I hate it, I have everything, I hate recovery, I hate having an ed, I hate having anorexia, I hate being physically and mentally ill, I hate myself.
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alifvq · 4 months
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⭐ MY GOALS FOR 2024 ⭐
TW: ana recovery account.
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01. A year without any relapses.
02. Understand myself, my feelings and emotions.
03. Find something I actually like.
04. Have more sleep time.
05. Don't make my grades the main part of myself/don't judge myself based off my grades.
06. Stop counting calories in my head.
07. LOVE MYSELF.
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alifvq · 4 months
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TW: ANA RECOVERY ACCOUNT
Hi! My name's Hannah and I've had ano for a pretty long period of time. I decided that I needed to post some typa introduction, so you can get to know me !
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ABOUT ME: you can call me Hannah/Lilith, I'm lesbian and I use she/they! I'm INFJ!
MY INTERESTS: JSHK, PJSK, stranger things, evangelion, the summer you were there, the first swallows, her tears were my light.
STAN LIST: twice, ive, tri.be, (G)I-dle, limelight, q6ix, mamamoo, loona, itzy, blackpink, new jeans, atarshii gakko!, nmixx
DNI: homophobes, transphobes, racists, "dark humor" ppl who don't even know what it is, muslimphobes, darkshippers, ppl who listen to loona officially, isr4€l n russ1@ supporters.
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alifvq · 5 months
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– why are you doing that?
– do what?
– destroy yourself with all those diets.
but I want to make everyone proud. I wanna be the skinny friend. maybe, I will even understand who I am.
it's worth my hair falling out, it's worth me fainting, it's worth the headache, it's worth the sleeples nights, it's worth.
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alifvq · 5 months
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k my weight is now 54.7/173!!! (this morning)
not that bad ig, but could be better. I changed my diet. today I ⭐ved for 24 hours and ate in the evening, like 273 this day. not that bad!! tbh I like that school helps me w my 20+ hour f4sts 🎀🎀
also liked the feeling when everyone else was eating and I was just drinking my bottle of water.
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alifvq · 5 months
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K SO MY MOM JUST ALLOWED ME TO COOK ME FOR MYSELF!!!!
ofc I'm not gonna cook anything lol. maybe some salad that is 41 kcal ⭐
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alifvq · 5 months
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ofc I'm starting over. again. I'm doing this to myself again.
so my diet is pretty easy ig, tomorrow is 150 kcal, the second day will be drinks 🙏🏻🙏🏻
I'm tired
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alifvq · 6 months
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My body's there, but everything that made me myself disappeared.
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alifvq · 6 months
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I'm tired of myself
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