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chinchirra · 4 years

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Cutteeeeee 🥺🥺🥺🥺♥️♥️♥️

sheep in wolf's clothing

credits: baek_snackyum on twitter ♥️

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chinchirra · 4 years

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nintendo really said “have some botw0 while you wait for botw2!”

#I'M NOT MAD I'M HAPPY TO TAKE ALL THE BOTW CONTENT I CAN GET #i just think this is so funny #anyways i am living for the cutscenes with guard link #love to see him #:')#loz #legend of zelda #botw #breath of the wild #link #revali #hyrule warriors age of calamity #hyrule warriors: age of calamity #hyrule warriors #nintendo

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chinchirra · 4 years

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LETS GO!!

#oh yes #still proud of this comic #AND STILL WANAN DRAW THESE TWO MORE #zelda #the legend of zelda #botw #botw 2 #botw zelda #botw link #zidlink #botw comic #zidlink comic #zelda comic

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chinchirra · 4 years

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Honestly, ever since Chapter 45 was released, I've thought of Seungho and Nakyum having meals together in Seungho's chamber. And this is exactly what we got on Chapter 47! I'm so happyyy! 😭💕

It meant a lot for me. Because for me, it meant that Seungho is willing to share what he have with Nakyum. In an era where status and wealth meant everything, Seungho was willing to share his possessions - his clothes, his chamber and now his meals - or even give it up for the comfort and well-being of a lowborn like Nakyum. Seungho is definitely seeing Nakyum as his equal.

When Nakyum said himself that he was not a servant, I was like "Ah, my baby knows the power he holds in that household 😌" like a proud mom. But then, turns out Seungho heard all of their conversation and remembered it. He obviously takes note of every little thing aboyt Nakyum. Probably also the reason why he's treating Nakyum differently & specially from other lowborns in his household. He doesn't see him as his servant, at least not anymore at this point.

But obviously, Seungho still need to learn how to be more vocal and honest with his feelings. He was already on the verge of it. But the wall he's build up to protect himself is still there. It's a wall that's not easy to break nor put down.

After reading Seungho's statement, "...Because it hurts?", my mind immediately supplemented his statement with "...seeing you like this..." I don't know why and it's probably just me but I feel like Seungho's feeling unfair for Nakyum. I feel like he thinks Nakyum deserves better. It's not some type of pity, but something like frustration. It's just amazing how Seungho's one line statement could mean tons of things. He's so good at hiding his true feelings behind those walls and yet still fail letting a glimpse of his true emotions and intentions slip out through his gestures and expressions. But he immediately covers it up with his facade.

Nakyum asking him why he's being kind to him recently, Seungho couldn't just bring himself to tell him directly that it's because he cares for him. That's just so out of character.

And so Nakyum took it as it is. It breaks my heart because hearing Seungho's words, he probably felt dejected and thought, "Ah, yeah I forgot. That's what all I am to him...a painter turned sex partner..." It probably reminded him why he was there at the first place.

It got me thinking, maybe Nakyum thought, felt and hoped even for just a tiny bit that there's something more into their relationship. But everything's still a blur and full of confusion.

Now it's Seunghos turn to be confused. He's so confused why Nakyum was apologizing. Internally, it was as if he's like, "...that's not what I meant..."

And it's definitely not helping having someone in the household hating you for being able to do what the master wants. It's as if Inhun telling him that it's his fate to be a prostitute is not yet enought to trample on Nakyum's self-esteem. He also need to hear this from someone of the same status who doesn't even know nor care a single shit of what he's going through. Although I cannot blame Deokjae. I'd also feel the same if one of my coworker is obviously favored by our boss. And to think that coworker is getting that favor and all advantages for sleeping with the boss. But the thing is, Nakyum didn't even ask nor even wanted the favor and all the special treatments he's getting in exchange for sleeping with the master. The master himself dragged him in to his household. That's a different case.

#im going to skim over the whole potn tag because holy shit theres a lot of good writers here!!!#potn #love this omg

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chinchirra · 4 years

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When people criticize Painter of the Night, they only see the sex and violence, but fail to see that it’s a heartwrenching story about love across the social divide. It’s not the usual trope of rich boy falling for a poor boy the authors of yaoi genre often explore so much. This tale is about two people who stand at the opposite ends of the social strata. Their positions on it were assigned to them at birth and the society, the Joseon strict caste system, doesn’t give them any way to change them, nor does it give them any conventional ways to be together. Seungho is the closest thing to a prince while Nakyum is little better than a slave, even by the commoner standards he is considered lowly. And this gap between them hinders their communication and it takes a long time to bridge it. Because, in the end, it’s not only the society and its rigid rules that separate them, but also themselves: the people that society made them into.

Seungho has never had to explain himself to anyone, be it his feelings, actions or his motivations. He has never needed to woo anyone or make an effort because one word from him and he could have anyone and anything he ever wanted. His sense of entitlement, inherent pride and arrogance are the result of him being a nobleman in a society which strives on inequality, but he also possesses a very strong defence mechanism of never showing anyone his real feelings since they could be considered a weakness which he knows others would immediately exploit. That’s how he’s been his whole life, it’s how he’s been brought up and what he’s been taught, and it’s a behaviour the society expects from him and even encourages. However, it’s these things which cripple him in his courtship of Nakyum. Because it really is a courtship even if Seungho himself hasn’t realized it yet.

He wants something from Nakyum but doesn’t know how to get it and, perhaps, doesn’t even know what it is. First, Seungho wanted his body, for Nakyum to desire him and not Inhun. However, when he finally gets that very thing he suddenly realizes it is not enough. Nakyum’s compliance and apologies irritate, frustrate and trouble him. The notion that Nakyum should feel the need to apologize to him makes him feel as if something were missing. It’s reminiscent of the time when Nakyum called Inhun’s name during the first time they had sex, when he didn’t get hard when SH raped him in the pavilion,… – it’s as if whatever Seungho wants from Nakyum were something elusive, always out of his reach.

The moment when Nakyum asks Seungho why he’s being so kind to him perfectly portrays this ambivalence: the way Seungo pauses, looks away and literally stalls and hesitates before he speaks, all things which are very unlike him. And even then, his answer is posed as a question with a question mark at the end of it – as if he were asking even himself what the reason is, showing his uncertainty and inability to respond to such a simple question. So he comes up with a sarcastic excuse which is his m.o. whenever he is angry, hurt or defensive – he attacks, says something rude and harsh. But even the excuse is a gesture of affection containing a hidden meaning: to make Nakyum eat so he doesn’t fall ill again.

Therefore Seungho’s answer is a combination of his pride and self defence mechanism not to appear vulnerable, but also him not being completely sure what he feels for his lover. And it makes sense that he struggles so much with it because how is he supposed to recognize love when he’s never felt it before? On some deeply visceral level, he realizes he’s falling in love but his mind can’t fully accept it for what it is because his upbringing, social position and everything they bring with them hinder him,

On the other hand, Nakyum is so used to being marginalized and demeaned that he actually believes himself to be worthless because of his own social status of a lowborn commoner with no family. His reaction to Seungho’s answer is the direct result of it. He takes it at its face value because he has no reason to believe that anyone, much less the noble and mighty Yoon Seungho, could care about him and love him since no one ever did.

He resigned himself to the fact that his only worth to others is how he can be of use to them while his own feelings and desires are being completely ignored in the process. He is accustomed to such treatment, yet he still hopes for affection nonetheless. So when he hears Seungho’s answer, he accepts it with a resigned face. As if he were thinking: “Of course, you fool, he couldn’t have been kind to you because he cared about you. He only sees you as a body to fuck…” But the saddest thing is that because Nakyum never had anything, even so little, even these crumbs and scrapes of interest and affection are enough for him and he quickly starts to enthustistically eat, as if he didn’t want Seungho to be displeased and throw him away. Even if he might be only a warm body to fuck, Seungho still wants him and no one ever wanted him before.

That’s why the last moment when the servant calls him a whore must feel like being stabbed by a knife because it’s voicing Nakyum’s deepest fears and insecurities - that he is worthless.

Seungho really needs to learn how to open up and be more sincere about his feelings because that’s his way to Nakyum’s heart and, more importantly, because it’s what his painter needs in order to heal the countless festering scars he sustained from a lifetime of being treated and disregarded as being worthless.

I love where this is going - that it’s about communication which is something they are missing. Seungho shows his love with his actions and they both do through sex. The body basically reacts first while the heart and mind need time to catch up and communication is the key to bridging this divide which separates them.

#wow... this really hit the spot #thank you for making this ♥️♥️ This manhwa is definitely misunderstood a lot #painter of the night #yahwacheop #potn #byeonduck

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