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my thighs disgust me

#i need to lose so much weight #eating disoder trigger warning #i hate my body #i need to be better #@tw edd #tw 3d vent #tw restrictive ed #tw ed relapse #ed vent #tw eating issues #anorex14 #tw ana vent #@n0r3xia #@na tips #@na motivation #i need to ⭐️ve

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How do you create cal trackers? I see these cute Ana cal trackers everywhere, but can’t figure out how to recreate ones of my own.

tbh I stealed it from other accounts and then worked for hours to change it up the way I wanted it lol. I'm still trying to figure that out too

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my eating disorder takes away my life and I'm not even skinny to some extent

#i need to lose so much weight #eating disoder trigger warning #i need to be better #i hate my body #@tw edd #@ana #@na tips #@nor3×14 #@na vent #b1nge eating #tw ed relapse #ed vent #ed bullshit #tw eating issues #tw depressing stuff #tw disordered eating #tw ed but not sheeran #ed but not ed sheeran #starv1ng #starv3 #⭐️ving #tw ana diary #bing3 eating #bingeandpurge #bulim14 #i hate everything #i am so tired

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This shit was easier as a teenager. Now I'm 24, still sick and need to work clean cook maintain relationships and do like a million other things while worrying about not being thin enough.

Just prove that this shit stays with you forever.

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I want to cut so bad

#self h@te #depressing shit #self h@rm #$h tumblr #$elf harm #$uicidal #su1cide #su1c1dal #tw depression #tw depressing thoughts #i hate my body #i hate everything #i want to diiieeee #life is pain #tw ed relapse #bingeandpurge #ed vent #disordered eating thoughts #i am so tired #i am fat #i am falling apart #please help

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6:26 AM

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i'm so exhausted that i can't even cry anymore

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first time within years I managed to skip dinner without triggering a binge. I'm still fat but I'm kinda proud

#i need to lose so much weight #eating disoder trigger warning #i need to be better #@tw edd #tw depressing thoughts #@na diet #@n0r3xia #@norexia #@ed #@na vent #starv1ng #⭐️ving #tw restrictive ed #tw ed relapse #ed vent #ed bullshit #bing3 eating #bingeandpurge #disordered eating thoughts #tw eating issues #ed but not sheeran #tw skipping meals

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I won't stop till people take me serious

(I won't stop even if they do take me serious)

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- unknown

#@na diet #i need to lose so much weight #@norexia #@ed #@na trigger #tw restrictive ed #tw ed relapse #tw edd #ed vent #i will lose weight #low cal restriction #@na rules #@na vent #ed but not ed sheeran #i need to ⭐️ve #⭐️ving #tw disordered eating

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I just don’t want to feel anything anymore. I’m tired, drained, exhausted. Just let me die already.

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It’s only a dream which I’ve been wishing into reality

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anyway –

“Being suicidal doesn’t mean that I’m going to kill myself. Being suicidal is having this inexplainable ache while you’re living. It’s waiting for your life to end, and wishing that you didn’t have to carry on. Having this ache, and incapability to feel happy living, doesn’t mean that I am going to kill myself; it just means that I wouldn’t mind dying.”

— (via lost-alone-broken)

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I can't do this anymore