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I'm returning to this post over a year later because I can't stop thinking about it. About #7 on my list, specifically. I just think there's something so sweet and special about the development.

At the time of the post, I was so proud of winning Regionals, and wishing to do well at Provincials. At Provincials, I competed, and won nothing. Oh well. It was my first year, and I was a grade nine, completing against the best in the province, many of which were older than me. I was just so proud of the ability to compete in itself.

It's been more than a year. I competed in the same business competition again this year. I made it past Regionals. I went to Provincials again. I had a mini panic attack during the awards ceremony, before they announced my event (it was one of the last ones). I was freaking out about failing. I felt like I had to make an improvement. No one told me this, not even my parents. It was just the standard I had set for myself. I worked really hard, and I desperately wanted any award, just something. But I had a feeling in my stomach that told me that I would fail. So I freaked out.

Contrary to last year, I won two of the three awards available at Provincials. I won top 20 overall in my event, too. However, I did not qualify for Internationals.

They escorted us all backstage after the top 7 qualifiers had been announced. They went through this list of qualifiers, checking to see if they would accept their invitation to Internationals. And people said no (which shocked me, but it's probably because of IB exams).

So they went down the list, of the other top 20 competitors. They started at number 8, and asked them if they could go to Internationals.

I was 8th.

Now, I'm sitting in the airport. I'm going to board the plane soon, and be on my way to California to compete.

All this to say: I'm so incredibly proud of myself. And yeah, I guess I needed to gloat a bit, but no one's really gonna read this anyways. But I just want to be a reminder to just try to keep improving constantly. In everything you do. Try not to overthink or worry beforehand (me during the awards ceremony). It's a hard habit to stop, but life is so much better when you stop doing it. And even when you think it's too late (like when I wasn't announced as a qualifier), it might not be.

Wish me luck <33

Happy New Year ✨✨✨

It’s almost 2023, so let’s celebrate the good things that happened to us in 2022! List ten amazing things that happened to you this year and then send this to ten people who brighten your day!

thank you for the ask this is such a lovely idea and way to show gratitude!

1. I got closer with my friends and made new ones!! Both people here on tumblr and my real friends at college and I’m very thankful for that <3

2. I got to travel a lot and see new places! Traveling is one of my favorite hobby and I was so glad to see so much of the world this year. (tsc related i got to see rome <3 for malec)

3. despite struggling with my mental health i took a LOT of classes and kinda kicked ass in (some of) them yay education

4. I learned more about myself, my values and what I want from my life and I’m excited about that!

5. This is so dumb but watching my tv shows!!! I started watching greys in October, had 911 and 911 lone star throughout the year and shadowhunters is always my show before bed so i can see my good friends the tmi gang <3 in 2023 im going to tally how many times i watch shadowhunters 1x12

6. I got to read a LOT of fanfiction!!! specifically works of @khaleesiofalicante (i love you Dani!!) but fanfiction in itself is so so cool because it gives existing characters a whole new realm and it’s awesome and it’s my coping mechanism.

7. I became even closer to achieving my dreams. Not to be cheesy but i am applying for a Dream internship very very very soon and everything i did this year career wise was really amazing and helped me grow!

8. i think i did a good amount to get out of my comfort zone! even tho it was so scary it did help me grow as well and my 2021 self would NEVER believe what I’ve accomplished!!

9. I realized my worth and have come into myself more! I think knowing yourself is really important and I think I’ve done a good job at establishing who I am (this is similar to #4 but I’m proud of myself) I feel like you can even see this on my blog a bit because I’m not JUST tsc anymore I talk about my life sometimes

10. SOBH!!!!! sobh was one of the highlights of my 2021 and 2022 year and im so thankful for the laughter and the tears it gave me and how much I looked forward to Mondays because of it (and 911!)

here’s to 2023 yay tumblr!!

tagging (sorry if you’ve already been tagged and no pressure!) :

@khaleesiofalicante @becauseshesmiledatme @magnus-the-maqnificent @queenlilith43 @dustandducks @alec-not-alright-wood @tea-and-a-clandestine-agenda @elettralightwood @make-me-ur-aphrodite

Anyone else feel free as well to join!

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Everything is going to be okay 🏵️

#why does. why does he. #op don't hate me #why does he (jean) looks like charlie bushnell #I'M SORRY #but it's gorgeous I love this sm #jeremy knox #jean moreau #jerejean #the sunshine court #tsc #aftg #all for the game #art #fanart

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Don’t mind me just crying over Jean Moreau.

I can’t wait to see him continue healing in book 2. 😭

#the sunshine court #tsc #aftg #all for the game #jean moreau #Jeremy Knox #jerejean #catalina alvarez #laila dermott #fanart #art

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I swallowed a toaster and gained toaster powers which gave me the ability to make toast by putting slices of bread in my mouth.

#there was an old lady who swallowed a.... toaster!! #I don't know why she swallowed that toaster #but she was quite the boaster. #(please find this funny) #dream #funny

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Note: cheese shelves count too

#cheese shelf and milk drawer user here #i'm Canadian so the milk drawer holds milk bags and mozzarella cheese #yes it holds one specific brand of mozerella cheese balls #having a cheese drawer is a very normal activity #aftg #all for the game #tsc #the sunshine court

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yippieee thank you for the tag :>

i was at the thrift nd found this. why am I getting arrested for this

tagging @nerdybluehairandpronouns @nevthetrailblazer @thebonecarver

Found this on Twitter, so I thought, why not posting it here and doing a tag game 😊

Ok, I’ll go first

If he is the reason, I’d go to prison gladly 🥰❤️‍🔥

Tagging: @killerqueen-ofwillowgreen @nic-214 @milkyway-ashes @dr-radiation @whitequeen-ofwillowgreen @sunsetdaydreamer @therockywhorerpictureshow @delicatelyfantasticninja and everyone 😊

Sorry if I forgot to tag some of you!

#hehe #tag #tag game

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Ronan Lynch you will always be legendary

#ronan lynch #fanart #art #the raven cycle #trc

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#I saw this literally 30 mins ago #why he kinda look like ryan reynolds #anyways iconic #jesus #catholic

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jean moreau came back to himself in pieces

#all for the game #aftg #the sunshine court #tsc #fanart #art #jean moreau

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I just... he had a little sister that he loved more than anything. he followed thea around like a lost little duckling. he was in love with his best friend and it almost destroyed him. he uses pain to both punish himself and stave off panic attacks. he survived five years of brutal torture and abuse by the skin of his teeth. his parents sold him. his little sister is dead. he wants to burn the house down. he cannot cook or shop for himself. he hates his old teammates. he loves his old teammates. he quite possibly loves his new teammates even more. he frets for the safety of people he barely knows. he's terrified of water, of being bitten, of being hurt again. he laughed when his worst abuser was dethroned and beaten and then tried to kill himself in solidarity.

he's finding reasons to live, day by day, one step at a time. a cool evening breeze, rainbows, open roads, friends.

he is jean moreau. he knows his place. he will endure.

#oh. #oh #aftg #all for the game #tsc #the sunshine court #jean moreau

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i know she probably just pretended she didnt so jean would talk to her but im fucking dying at the idea no one ever actually explained the game to her. it could almost be true

#tsc #aftg #all for the game #the sunshine court

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thank you for the tag!! :D

tagging: @fischiiru @nevthetrailblazer @thebonecarver @nerdybluehairandpronouns

Starting a tag game!

Take this uquiz: https://uquiz.com/quiz/JE844B/are-you-the-main-character-or-a-side-character

And do this picrew: https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1414503

@rain-mcgay @pinaple @necromancers-incorporated @gloriousvermin @glbtrx @kimu-dem @dirtybandaids @nikoisme @dootznbootz @apparentlyautistick @fraudfrogz and anyone else! No pressure yall!

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crying (why is the sunshine court only currently availible in ebook form. i need the physical book in my hands right very now.)

@nerdybluehairandpronouns

#tsc #the sunshine court #aftg #all for the game

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@nerdybluehairandpronouns me talking to rosie (but it's affectionate)

terms that jean uses for neil in the sunshine court:

tiny bastard

tedious malcontent

abominable cockroach

wretched little runaway

#and ian... #tsc #the sunshine court #aftg #all for the game

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I DIDN'T FUCKING REALISE THE SUNSHINE COURT CAME OUT YESTERDAY RAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH GOING FERAL GOING TO GRAB ALL THE SPOILERS

@nerdybluehairandpronouns

#tsc #the sunshine court #aftg #all for the game

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YAAAAAY I LOVE YOU (and I love Ricky and SKZ as seen below)

I don't know what the instructions are but I assume it's something along the lines of "list your 10 fave songs" so imma go w that

In no specific order:

Cabo by Ricky Montgomery (the amount of times I've listened to it over the past 3 days isn't even funny anymore)

Out Like A Light by The Honeysticks/Ricky Montgomery

California by Ricky Montgomery

Line Without A Hook by Ricky Montgomery

Give Me Your TMI by Stray Kids

Social Path by Stray Kids

S-Class by Stray Kids

LALALALA by Stray Kids

Boys Beware by Mad Tsai

Teeth by 5 Seconds of Summer

Tags:

@thebonecarver @nevthetrailblazer @kazoo-the-demjin @kazzyboy @dandeliononthemoon @fischiiru @starlost-lix @cressjacquine @bi-peanut @make-me-ur-aphrodite

Ten songs ten mutuals

Sorry for the lateness but ty @liamthemailman for the tag

1. Ice ice baby - vanilla ice

2. My band - D12

3. I love you like an alcoholic - the taxpayers

4. Peace and love on the planet earth -Steven Universe

5. Rainbows and stuff - icp

6. Crazy train - Ozzie osbourne

7. Soap - Melanie Martinez

8. Real messy bitch - ayesha erotica

9. The drug in me is you - falling in reverse

10. Ride - Sir mix a lot

(Sorry I keep tagging y'all sm I only have a few moots to go around :'3 anyway /nf!! Lmk if you don't wanna be tagged

@iolite19 @riinarye @fossilizedpr0tienpowder @genderstealer2000 @axelaxolotl09 @teabagtoes @bluejays-boys @clearmarinaa @ac1d-drinkr @sagethefoxtherian

#tag game #tag #tags #song #songs #music

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rick riordan off the shits

#rick riordan