dissociation culture is having a panic attack over forgetting your entire childhood, save for a handful of memories
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Sometimes people use “respect” to mean “treating someone like a person” and sometimes they use “respect” to mean “treating someone like an authority”
and sometimes people who are used to being treated like an authority say “if you won’t respect me I won’t respect you” and they mean “if you won’t treat me like an authority I won’t treat you like a person”
and they think they’re being fair but they aren’t, and it’s not okay.
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"If you had a disorder as serious as DID, we would notice."
You did notice, you just called it by a different name.
When you noticed us acting different, you called it
childish
standoffish
unpredictable
too sensitive
insensitive
dramatic
manipulative
intentionally being difficult
When you noticed our amnesia, you called it
irresponsible
flakey
forgetful
not listening
not trying
unreliable
lying
When you noticed us dissociating, you called it
spaciness
daydreaming
not paying attention
not caring
stonewalling
acting stupid on purpose
wasting time
being lazy
People love to say they care about people with mental illness, and then disbelieve anyone who has one because they've already passed judgement on them.
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Dissociation culture is trying to work out if the headache is caused by stress, dehydration or dissociation and then ending up with an answer of all three.
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You don’t get to decide how my story ends. I get to do that, despite everything you did to try and break me. I will write my own ending.
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ALL SYSTEM ROLES ARE HARD.
can we stop comparing different roles as worse--
(all of this from person experience)
HOSTS have to go through everyday experiences and have to deal with all that stress
COHOSTS have to try and front when hosts can't and pick things up and handle the stress
GATEKEEPERS have to hold memories and decide life changing things! The stress of deciding who gets what, knowing if you get it wrong so many people could get hurt
TRAUMA HOLDERS have to hold and relive through traumatic memories daily
CARETAKERS have to support a system even when it's hard. the pressure to try and help a bunch of traumatized alters while also being traumatized
LITTLES who have to deal with so much stigma, who could be completely hurt and can't even live through a proper childhood experience
PERSECUTORS who struggle day in and day out trying to help, trying to heal, only to get called evil and harmful
PROTECTORS who have to go through traumatic situations and try to save a system from harm
INTROJECTS who have to struggle with source seperating and helping an entire system with memories that they don't relate to
FRAGMENTS who aren't even fully developed, who can live through one thing over and over again
INTERNAL SELF HELPERS who have to try understanding it all just to keep a system running
MANAGERS who have to manage an entire system while trying to listen and stay safe
NONHUMAN ALTERS who struggle to identify with anything
DEAD ALTERS that came from near death experiences and have to live with that day in and out
SYMPTOM HOLDERS who have to go through all the worst parts of having something everyday
SEXUAL ALTERS who have sexual thoughts they don't want
ALL ALTERS who deal with identity issues and struggling with having a stressful full time job that could affect a life forever.
ALL ALTERS who have to deal with fakeclamining no matter what they do, struggling with trying to say it's okay and they're valid
like stop 👏 saying one is worse 👏
stop saying 👏 one group has it worse 👏
systems are built off of trauma. it's stressful for everyone involved, not just one group.
it's a system, that's it's whole thing. a bunch of parts working together, all carrying and doing the same amount.
-Vincent
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*experiences symptoms when no one is around to see me* I have got to stop faking for attention
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We haven't been posting much and one of the reasons is that one of our abusers has found a way to contact us, we went no contact ever since we ran from them, and it has been scary to come back online
It feels like they will find this and find us
It's scary living in fear and I'm so sorry if you relate to this
Because we have been so stressed everything has been blurry, today is a good day and i can tell who I am but i am having a hard time remembering anything
It feels like all the progress we have made to have less memory barriers have been lost, all because one person send one email
I hate that they have this power over us
-henry
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Sometimes self care is being messy.
We lived in a house that was more of a museum and we were a visitor.
We couldn't touch anything or let anything dirty, we couldn't let any marks that we lived there.
So yeah our room is a mess rn but when i see that chair with unfolded clothes and a cup of water i was too lazy to put away i smile.
We can exist here, we can live and take out time handling things.
-Lucas
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We never really had money since we ran from home to scape our abusers.
But now they are cutting back our hours and we already work a minimum wage job.
I'm so worried we won't be able to pay rent and will have to either live on the streets or move back with our abusers.
We've cut back on so much, the only reason we have wifi is because we need it for work.
I don't know what to do.
-Lucas
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Ok so I little rant on the difference between C-PTSD and PTSD from someone who is a phycology student and has C-PTSD.
PTSD comes from a distinguished event (or events) that were traumatic, for example being in a car crash.
C-PTSD on the other hand comes from constant trauma, so someone who was in the war or lives with a abusive family, they were constantly in a state of "emergency". It isn't one memory but a long time (months or years) of abuse/trauma.
-Lucas
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