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“and all at once, summer collapsed into fall.” - oscar wilde

8.9.2021 5:21am

guess i really am back on my bullshit, huh?

it’s been a long time since i’ve actually made one of these posts, it’s been a long time since i actually made a post.

last friday i celebrated one year without sh. i’m incredibly proud of myself especially with what has happened to me this year.

i taught myself to live again.

i’ve always thought i was good with words, but that’s only true in private. is this a diary? i don’t feel like this is private enough for that. a scientific journal, maybe, with the science being me.

i’ve started talking to my therapist more. y’know, the woman who looks and sounds exactly like pam from the office. we talk about books.

i told her what happened to me. i didn’t go into detail, of course. i just told her something happened to me; and i swear i could hear her sniffling on the other line. it’s weird, it almost feels like it didn’t happen to me, but to another person. another version of me. i still grieve for it, but it feels unreal.

my best friend has been helping me. i guess we really help each other. we’re pretty similar; and i don’t think we’d be able to function without one another. is this quid pro quo?

i’ve gotten really into gaming, again. detroit become human is my personality trait like it was three years ago. i think i’m finally coming full circle.

i have a meeting on thursday with a doctor and my therapist who suspect i have another mental illness. am i not collecting them like pokemon cards or what?

thank you for listening. or not listening.

song of the day;; marina - are you satisfied?

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No grave can hold my body down

I'll crawl home to her

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“If by romantic they mean someone who dreams, I am a romantic, but I shall keep my crown of dreams a secret.”

— Anais Nin, 1917

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This is the purest, most beautiful thing I have ever seen in the entire world. What a wonderful experience wow honestly what a privilege to be graced with this sweet perfect thing at 4:14 in the morning

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Thinking about some of the shit people say while fucking in porn. Like “Yea u like my pussy?” What the fuck is the dude plowing you like a tractor supposed to say to that? No? 

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You into breeding?

No! Always adopt from a shelter! 🐶🐱🐹🐰

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me, sober: never does witchcraft, hasn't charged crystals in weeks or done spells.

me, drunk: alright im gonna write a three-page spell on how to make your worst enemy have to face their worst fear

#witchcraft #witchblr #witch community #witchlife #just wrote two pages in my book of shadows #this is why mom doesnt fucking love me #vodka is fun

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Drunk Me: when you start to notice the mystical, the mystical starts to notice you.

Bartender: that sounds like the start to some horror movie shit. No thank you.

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all women who wear glasses are gay. why are you wearing glasses, huh? to see other women?

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This blog is straight up weird lol

LOL Im Im Kinda Weird But Im Kindy Nasty Though Im Kinda Cute Though Too

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ur full of yourself tbh

you would be too if you were beautiful and interesting

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Thots on the Pope

So the pope has thots now

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i will not have mental peace until that video of tom holland stans getting offended for sebastian stan not knowing tom's dog's name is erased from my memory.

#even better if it's erased from history #mcu #marvel #sebastian stan #tom holland #bucky barnes

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wish someone would describe me like this

#shitpost #satire #im so confused

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falling in love is cool but have you seen sam wilson

#the falcon and the winter soldier #tfatws #the falcon #sam wilson #im whipped

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Don't worry Steve's alive 😃 He's on the fucking moon 😃