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Just a WIP but I'm really really happy with this so far

#dogboy #art #oc #oc art #digital art #dogboy art #dogkin #kinomimi #kinomimi art #dog ears #collar #muzzle

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Me with the 4th dimension, Chernobyl, base 12 math, and the connection between neurodivergence and gender queerness

#autism #special interest #mental health #ok but base 12 math would make way more sense #the Egyptians kinda did it

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oh... so that's what that was

A lot clicked for me when my mom said the reason she was so reactive towards me as a kid was that she assumed intent behind things I did, rather than recognizing my behaviors for being normal kid behaviors or normal autism behaviors. So I got treated as if I was an adult who was intentionally doing things to upset her. She'd react to me like I had the maturity and wherewithal to do things in a cruel or manipulative way, making her life harder, when I was just existing. Just trying to learn how to cope and be a person myself. When she told me this I stopped in my tracks trying to process. Why would anyone's default assumption be that a kid is trying to antagonize them instead of like, struggling with something they're experiencing? But she was also raised the exact same way, treated like everything she did carried the weight of adult responsibility, not seen as a kid.

#i hate my mom #she genuinely expected me to be the bigger person and I was #I am making damn sure she cannot do the same to my sisters #Mental Health #Recovery #Trauma

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u know I had to

I hate when my brain goes all dog while I'm at work bc it's like, "who let a dog operate a forklift?"

#low effort art #low effort meme #therian #? #petre #idk man

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I hate when my brain goes all dog while I'm at work bc it's like, "who let a dog operate a forklift?"

#petre #? #i don't actual know what to call it #I just do it #it needs to stop happening during work hours tho #dogs should not drive forklifts #puppy regression #therian #maybe?

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I like you, have a dogboy /ref Having one of my phases where I hate all my art but I really want to try and be active and make friends so

#art #oc art #dogboy #dogboy art #cw bright colors #kinomimi #new to tumblr

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My little sisters have to be my favorite people to have come out to.

The older one was just immediately "Oh, what are your pronouns?" and "I always wanted a brother." And she had her friends start using he/him for me and they genuinely see me as a man.

I never really formally came out to my baby sister but she's gen alpha and her favorite plushies are her family of frogs with trans and gender-nonconforming parents so she heard someone use he/him for me and has kinda rolled with it.

#trans #comingout #transgender #transmasc #ftm #transcoming out #coming out #lgbtq

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Even though I'm pre-T I'm apparently androgynous enough that a lot of people cannot tell if I'm afab or amab or even trans at all. It's really funny bc they try and be mean about it half the time but they're confused and end up going backwards half the time.

Once at the gym had a well meaning guy say, "Woah, dude. I thought you were a girl." before staring at my unbinded chest for a solid 10 seconds before going "wait a minute." I wasn't even wearing a hoodie or anything, I had a tight workout shirt on.

Maybe it's my dysphoria but I don't think I look really masc, I can't bind half the time bc asthma and I am tragically well endowed but I think I dress like some cis hick just enough that so long as I don't talk everyone just rolls with me being male.

#transmasc #pre t #pre t ftm