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Its PRIDE TIME!!! Respect Asexuals or catch my fucking hands.

Sincerely: Ace Cadet

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Ponyboy's Diary

Hey y'all! It's been a hot ass minute since the last time I was on here. I don't really have an explanation (not that anyone cares anyway) other than just pure laziness, but I'm here now. And I had an idea for a fanfic/headcanon/imagine whatever that I wanted to write in which Ponyboy keeps a diary and basically confesses his love for Johnny (yes, I ship Johnnyboy more than Jally, sorry). Hopefully it doesn't suck ass too much. Enjoy!

TRIGGER WARNING: mentions of religion, implied religious gaslighting, and strong language

May 7th, 1966

I don't know what the hell's wrong with me lately. Johnny's been my best buddy for as long as I can remember, we've been through so much together and we're as close as brothers. But for whatever reason I get this real funny feeling in my chest and in the pit of my stomach when I see him. It's a weird feeling, it's almost like being on a roller coaster. You know, where you're riding up, up, up, and your heart is racing and you get all sweaty and nervous, and finally when the big drop happens you stomach feels like it's gonna jump out of your body. That's exactly how I feel whenever I'm around Johnny; when I hear his laugh or look into his eyes. Sometimes, when the wind blows his hair just right, I get the urge to just tuck it behind his ear. And whenever Dally's around and Johnny's hanging around him, I almost feel...jealous. Like I wanna go over and rip his head right off of his damn neck.

I don't even hate Dally. He's not my favorite person, but I certainly don't have anything against him neither. But I get this real lousy feeling when Johnny's with him and they're goofing around and laughing and having a good time, it make me sort of wish I was the one doing all that with him. Like, for once I wanna be the reason why he's happy, you know?

I can't even explain it. Does this mean I have feelings for Johnny? Does this mean I'm...gay? There's no way. I can't be like this. The Bible says being gay is a sin and that gay people go straight to Hell. I don't wanna go to Hell, I don't wanna be like this. But dammit I can't help it either. Every time I see Johnny I just wanna grab him and kiss his lips and run my fingers through that long, dark greasy hair of his and show him what it feels like to be loved.

Wait...did I just write that? Is this what I'm feeling? Am I in love with Johnny Cade? I think I am. Is it wrong to be in love with another boy? I don't know. It feels so wrong, but so fucking right at the same time.

I really wish I could talk to someone about the way I feel. I definitely can't talk to Darry or Two Bit or Steve about this. They'd beat the tar out of me for sure. Hell, I don't even think I can talk to Soda. I know he'd still love me no matter what, but I think it'd just make him feel weird. Most of all, I wish I could tell Johnny how I feel about him, but I think I'd scare him half to death and that hurts just thinking about it. I'd rather have Johnny just as a friend than not have him at all.

Maybe someday I'll tell him, but definitely not now. I think for now I just need to go read a book or something and get my mind off of him. But it seems like the more I try to not think about him, the more I do think about him. I wish I knew what to do...

- Ponyboy

#the outsiders #the outsiders imagine #ponyboy curtis #sodapop curtis #dallas winston #darry curtis #two bit mathews #steve randle #johnny cade #johnnyboy #b x b #lgbtq headcanons #gay #romance #love story #diary

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What state do you live in?

constant stress

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there is no medical component to a trans kid transitioning

if a little trans boy comes out to his parents & is like 4 all youd do for his transition is cut his hair, buy a new wardrobe, & switch pronouns & possibly change names

no one is gonna put a little 4 year old on testosterone OR puberty blockers until theyre actually about to start puberty & then they give them a few years to really decide if they want to start hormones

a trans kid existing isnt “child abuse.” child abuse is refusing to let your kid live their lives as they truly are & forcing them to present as a gender they arent

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i love having secrets for no reason that arent scandalous or sensitive…like going to cvs but refusing to tell anyone at all abt it bc i decide that information is just for me bc i feel like it

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when will Ted himself.. finally show up to the Talk ?

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reblog this if you’re jewish or your blog is a safe space for jewish people

in light of recent events as well as a new rise in creating nazi ocs I think this post is an important one to have on your blog if you stand behind your jewish followers or are jewish yourself.

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Important question for neurotypicals:

Why is it that y’all will gladly refuse to use the N-word and the F-slur for the LGBTQ+ community because you recognize that those are not okay to say (which is fantastic, those are hurtful words and should never be used), but the goddamn second we asked y’all not to use the R-word, you are quick to say stupid shit like “Oh iT’s jUsT a WoRd, gEt OvEr iT.” ??? Racism and homophobia are not okay in the slightest, but why is ableism perfectly acceptable????? 😡😡😡😡😡

Sincerely,

An Autistic Girl Who’s Sick and Tired of Your Shit 🖕🏼

#autism #neurodiversity #neurodivergent #adhd #r word #r word tw #dyslexia #dyscalculia #dysgraphia #odd #neurotypicals ain’t shit #rant #ableism #fuck ableism

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If you guys didn’t see some white girl posted a montage of her colonizer experience in Hawai'i and has been getting dragged for days now lmao I’m not gonna link it cause it’s just her and some other haole girls she met her literally dancing on graves and sacred places and showing off her dirty hair.

But I did a little thread on why these romanticized ads of our home harms us (not super in depth but touches on some important points). And I was a lot nicer about it cause I actually do care if you come to visit and I’d actually prefer that everyone leave us alone forever but colonizers gonna colonize and settlers gonna settle 🤷🏽‍♀️

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R.I.P. The 2976 American people that lost their lives on 9/11 and R.I.P. the 48,644 Afghan and 1,690,903 Iraqi and 35000 Pakistani people that paid the ultimate price for a crime they did not commit

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scream

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Tag your favourite flower, fruit, colour, scent, season and tea!

#lilac #peach #yellow #vanilla and floral #summer #not a tea person sorry lmao

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I love

Drag Queens

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Hi y’all, I made an edit of the love of my life, Lil Peep. It’s been almost 3 years since his death and I’m still not over it, so I made this to help me cope. Enjoy!

#lil peep #gustav ahr #peep stan #gothboiclique #RIP #my love #star shopping

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Johnny: It's too hot for a leather jacket.

Dally: I look cool.

Johnny: You look pale and sick.

Dally: Sick as fuck.

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Where my introverts at?