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rais-messy-thought · 4 months

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i ate too much fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

i feel so nasty whyd i eat that much

dad wants to go out for dinner how do i avoid that

excuses dont fucking work for them they dont fucking care fuck FUCK what do i do

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rais-messy-thought · 4 months

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hey hey, so while i havent been able to stop myself from b1ng3s recently, i DID just buy Just Dance 2024 and plus. gonna start bringing my switch to work and dancing on my lunch breaks!! i also plan to start slowly uping my f45ting times and lowering my intake!! ugh ik this is wierd to say but im so excited!!

as always- dms open and blessed be!💜💜

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rais-messy-thought · 4 months

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someone from work brought donuts and when i tell u i felt so fucking guilty eating one but couldnt stop myself from eating 3 more?! fucking WEAK of me! anyway im gonna do a minimum 24 hr fast now (only water and 0 cal drinks allowed) lucky thats all i 8 today if i can get by with it i may just not eat tomorrow 🤷

as always- lmk of any tips dms are always open!

blessed be💜

#4n0r3xia #4norexla #i wanna be weightless #i wanna lose weight #an0r3c1a #low cal restriction #skinny girl #thin$po #mealsp0 #i will reach my ugw #i wanna be slim #i wanna be perfect #anorexcya #bonespø

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rais-messy-thought · 5 months

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RE-BLOG IF….

- You FULLY support recovery and WANT people to recover.

- You think people should AVOID “@na coaches” AT ALL COSTS.

-You are against “f@t-sp0” . (becosue it’s just down right wrong.)

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rais-messy-thought · 5 months

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reblog if you wore lip gloss today

or

if you ate more than your kcal limit

and don't say which of the two

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rais-messy-thought · 6 months

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weighed this morning and finally broke 130. not by much but being under is being under🤷

but i cant see any differences- my thighs are still fucking huge and my stomach is still big, ive taken to wrapping my fingers around my arm and thighs and i cant even wrap them around my mid forearm!!

ughhh

im on hr 37 of a fast and the only things ive had with a bit of calories is coffee and thats only because i know i can walk all of it off in less than an hour🥲

as always dms are open for tips or motivation hope yall are having a good day💜

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rais-messy-thought · 6 months

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ngl i kinda miss being a student. now that i dont have hw to occupy my thoughts i actually think about food and its so much harder. ofc i have work but that doesnt help a lot. ive been trying to fill time with stuff and tbh its not helping!! dm me with ideas??

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rais-messy-thought · 7 months

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-some stuff bout me

sw- 174

cw- 140

cgw- 130

height- 5'6"

ive been very lax on restricting, working out, and fasting and tbh i just want some motivation to pick back up. going on a cruise in 2.5 weeks and have to lose by then.

dms are open for tips or comments.

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rais-messy-thought · 10 months

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on day 12 of the diet and litterally havent lost anything, i tgink ive actually gained and fuck me for that. fr tho ive followed all the rules so wtf is wrong with me??!?!?

any ideas feel free to dm me please help

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rais-messy-thought · 10 months

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me about to break my fast AND go over my limit bc i havent shit in three days and I FUCKING NEED TO?!?! more likely than we think👍

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rais-messy-thought · 11 months

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7-17-23

ate: 750

steps: 7k

C4l burnt: 2357

Currently having to up my intake bc were developing a nasty habit of just completely blacking out and cant have that. So for now limit 700/800. Hope this helps otherwise im fucking up for no reason.

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rais-messy-thought · 11 months

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110 days till halloween (fav holiday) and thats enough time to hit a gw (130 then 120)

been completely shit with self control lately and fuck does that need to be fixed

as always, tips, m34nspo, sw33tspo and motivation is appreciated and welcome.

prob wont reply to comments but dms are open so lmk💜💜

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rais-messy-thought · 11 months

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dad: "you know what fixed (my name) mostly? work."

fixed. fixed?! oh like i was such a goddamn problem before?? keeping to myself and not bothering anyone?? i was so broken that I needed to be "fixed"??

guess what?! im not fucking fixed. im still depressed im still anxious. still have a fucked up sleep schedule. and i still have all the bad habits that HE didnt know about.

fuck him. im a human not a goddamn problem that needs to be fixed.

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rais-messy-thought · 11 months

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Leaving for another mini vaca with family saturday. cw=145 gw (min)= 140

luckily im on my period so i have a fantastic excuse to be in the bathroom for a long time and a reason behind not 34ting (nausea, dizzy, overall just sick)

all i ate today was 5 pieces of sushi and a small piece of cake (bout to purge the cake if possible, i dont have much of a gag reflex so idk)

wish me luck and love💜

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rais-messy-thought · 1 year

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mom has decided that work is "interfering" with my school work and "we need to figure out a way for you to get it done" so im working on homework rn and im NOT CLOCKED IN AT WORK but im sitting at work and instead of letting me do my hw she left me with work to do. what the absolute fuck???

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rais-messy-thought · 1 year

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shits getting bad again. losing motivation and emotions have been hell to actually handle. the thoughts are coming back and tbh i cant find the energy to make them go away. to force them away. thinking about the bad habits i use to have and how easy it would be to relapse and fuck

logically ik its mostly bc im overworking myself and getting burnt out but i have fucking responsibilities and i cant let them down.

#mental health #disordered eating thoughts #tw self destructive thoughts #tw sui ideation #burnt out #overworked #tw disassociation #tw disordered thoughts #tired thoughts #im sad and tired #tw depression #tw depressing thoughts #tw anxious

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rais-messy-thought · 1 year

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me getting pissed off bc dad bought me a sprite instead of a zero sugar sprite but not letting him know cause it was simple mistake??

more likely than you fucking think.

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