#(if you ignore when i was 12)

[canonkiller]

do you consider your self made?

#my art #self portrait of sorts #been musing a lot on disability recently and how being relatively freshly unable to do Most Things has changed my perspective on things #for a long time growing up i was fixated on the idea of being An Impact On The World yknow? mainly the next Big Writer #(and that it would be sooo impressive that everyone would make my books bestsellers when i was only 12 because it was That Good) #and i mean. obviously that didnt work out as originally planned because i was 12 and learning. but I've felt a lot like #I've kind of built my sense of self on those big achievements. even if they were only big to me. and a lot of them #are now out of reach or very difficult to reach. and it's been a lot to. recontextualize #to take what ive been told my whole life and ignore it in favor of just being being enough. #things will happen as they happen. i havent earned anything by suffering but it hasnt ended the world either #im here doing what i Can do for as long as I'm able to do it. and thats all i need to be for now #just making sure that i Do do the things i can do rather than assume i can do them later #anyways. love you #cw: #top nudity #artistic nudity #the dreaded ambiguously presenting nipple #if you put any pro weight loss eating disorder shit on here ill kill you btw #my body is sexy because im in it and im still alive. not because its struggling to stay that way #lindwormposting

[tranakin-skywalker]

youre giving my togrutakin brainrot i NEED to draw him and ahsoka and shmi i need to see more i need it injected into my neural synapses.

so in love with your redesigns and everything oh my gosh like im actually exploding.

i love the fact that the skywalkers r several generations into living on tatooine so of COURSE they'd have adaptations...... ough...... ahsoka and anakin..... thing 1 and thing 2....... youre making me go insane i need more

Share in the togruta brain rot with me. It is inescapable.

Here, have some Togrutakin fighting for his life trying to put Ashoka’s lekku jewelry in

#he’s like one of those single dad’s who learning how to braid his daughter’s hair #I need to just roll around in the tog au like a hog in mud #might write something for it one of these days #I’ve got this idea in my head that Anakin and Ahsoka actually knew each other growing up #since they were the only togruta at the temple close in age #and when ahsoka got around 12/13 and no master showed any interest in her she started to panic that no one would take her on #so Anakin decides he’ll just have to get knighted asap so that she can be his padawan #everyone is like”Anakin you are 19 you can’t have a padawan yet #Anakin ignores that and does it anyway #yoda allows it because he likes causing problems on purpose #myart

[kkryboygayman]

I lost focus and had a consensual workplace relationship

#i lost focus and had a consensual workplace relationship #LOSING MY MIND OVER THIS #laughing my ass off #mcr #my chrmical romance #gerard way #frank iero #frerard #triple r #grank #this is satire btw. i don't ship them #(if you ignore when i was 12) #my chem #g way #try guys #ned fulmer

[horizon-penblade]

#i have like. a few hours left to do this. more if i let myself work on it on sunday #i have already drawn the bonus image version #but if i use the tee for one of the costumes that's actually required for class it *might* save a bit of time/creative energy lol #if you don't get the context check the post i reblogged before this lol #my costume history homework is designing costumes for two predecided characters (i picked ham and oph) in like 12 different time periods #and ever since we got into the latter half of the 20th century it's been a bit tougher to plan #because like. I absolutely hate when modern shakespeare adaptations put every character whose involved in politics in a business suit #but for the last few time periods (now decades basically) I thought I had to do it and then I was like 'wait no that's dumb' #so now i am just ignoring that aspect of the plot. he spent a nonzero amount of time on the run with pirates he can wear a t-shirt

[succikko-draws]

"Day 7: Rainy days"

@kisames-corner 7th and last piece for Kisame week! Ending it with a soft note :3

[Image ID: A digital drawing of Kisame petting samehada outside in the rain. Nagato and Konan, with her wings deployed around them, are by his side. Kisame is crouching, cupping Samehada's face as she wags her tail happily like a dog. Konan has her hand on Kisame's back, a soft smile on her face as she looks at Samehada. Nagato reaches down with his hand to pet Samehada too, with the same kind of soft expression as Konan. The three of them are dressed in their akatsuki robes. The rain pours on the four of them, forming puddles on the ground. The background is teal with hint of blue mist. /.End ID]

#kisame week 2023 #kisame hoshigaki #hoshigaki kisame #nagato uzumaki #konan #konan akatsuki #nagato #nagakisakonan #nagato x kisame x konan #samehada #rainy days #day 7 prompt 2 #i'm scheduling this post hoping it doesn't go live earlier than i asked it to #if you see this before the 12 ignore it and go back to it when it's the 12 gsfgdfgq

[goldensunset]

surprise art attack!!! here’s @deityofhearts ‘s cashmere, everyone’s favorite whimsical tiefling

#pose taken directly from the kikuomiku4 album cover bc i’ve been listening to UFO on repeat for idk how many days now #finally gave me the inspiration i needed to do something like this it’s like both sad and super whimsical #actually tbh it gives me more wishful vibes now that i think about it but 1. idk what wishful looks like and 2. cashmere design my beloved #kikuo just in general has a lot of whimsysad and/or fundark which is why i love him #tbh ufo has quickly shot up to one of my fave songs it’s the iconic accordion and the tempo being unstable in places #uh anyway ignore me being a kikuo nerd again #wahhh this was fun to work on it has consumed me these past three days #jumping up and down hehehehehe #glad i finally cut to the ‘it’s done *collapses*’ stage of the arting process bc i’ve been having trouble finishing pieces lately #man i WISH i could come up with poses this good on my own. idc i’m still proud of this #my art #ok yeah i just got the time total. 12 hours #i knew it would be a long time but i didn’t think that long #tbh a lot of that was spent inefficiently bc i kept having to resize the image up when i realized the pixels were too crunchy #and when you make an image bigger the lines get blurry so then you have to redo them. yeah i had to do that TWICE. like a dummy. #12 hours used to be like par for the course for me but i’ve finally gotten faster. or maybe i’ve just stopped doing as many full figures #lol

[some-mari-thoughts]

What do you make of the idea of Blackspace kinda fusing with Hellmari after a post-good ending Omori gave her true life, therefore making her the entire realm by technicality? Omori would do that cuz he needs something to kinda fill the void that appeared when Sunny left and he's getting desperate after not finding anything in Headspace to do that...

(woooooooooo explaining my omori au lore-)

Truthfully this is so wildly different to my idea of headspace and omori and after-good ending that i cannot make anything of this! i think that's up to u to decide

#they kinda have to coexist anyway in my head #yes they had a big ass fight abt things and sunny's headspace is kinda all crumpled once again and white space is emptier than ever #omori's still the inner 12 y o kid who is also the anxiety and escapism and so many things and he isn't going anywhere immediately #so they do have to work together and fill it w new things. make smth of it and make it comfortable again in a better way #idk we're not letting the nightmares fester #your story is yours though its just so different from mine that it feels like a string of words that i can't tie togetjher #in a way that makes sense at least #so here you know your story best #also pleas #if u wanna put smth that u made and make me see it please let it be related to me and my blog in my inbox #i WILL spit my hcs and story at u if u put unrelated things here #i don't have the responsibility to react to Your omori content that i did not sign up or ask to see! #that's almost your own post material. let me come across it in the tag when i want to see it #and if i don't it was not meant to be #its an honor to receive your omori art of mari btw if u do put it here. just make sure it's not a constant and rather an occasion #cannot publish your omocontent for you #sorry for the tag rant its offtopic from the post #i do get severe urge to ignore/delete asks that seem wholly unrelated to my blog or a fully cooked personal omori post #and not an ask to tumblr user some mari thoughts who makes art and posts hcs and shares some art sometimes #OMORI Sunny #OMORI character #Knife boi #Son boi #my doodles

[arsonist-chicken]

The new PJO series is great because they made Percy really Just Some 12-Year-Old with all the justified unhinged rage a 12-year old who's being mistreated has in him

#i'm finally watching it and he really said that thing pulverised my mom? let me charge at it with nothing but a pen and rage #clarisse's being a massive dick? I'm yelling back. #mr. d and chiron expect me to go to the underworld for some guy who ignored me for 12 years but suddenly calls himself my father #now that he needs something from me? lmao and fuck you all very much I'm Sally Jackson's son #i'm so in love with this series already #like literally was whipping around on my chair and kicking my feet and giggling to myself and laughing out loud and couldn't stop #smiling at my laptop with heart eyes #okay maybe time for bed now but I'll definitely continue watching today and then cry when i haven't gotten anywhere with uni work #because hey. no impulse control. like someone else i just watched yell at a drunk god and call a god just some guy #pjo series #mine #also perfect cast; amazing

[izzythehutt]

If Irma is "Prime Walburga" then how the hell did Cygnus get away w/ a teen pregnancy? I'm surprised she didn't kill him on the spot lol

Have you ever heard the adage writers cannot do math? It applies here.

#why twist yourself in knots over something that clearly makes no sense when you can just ignore it #in my universe cygnus was born in 1930 #and was therefore 24 when his daughter was born #jkr sucks at math we all know this #does anyone really think she was intentionally having Bella be born to a 12 year old? Like...really? #or 21...you know what i mean #i too cannot math

[whumpy-wyrms]

can someone just like spam me with tllr things you want me to draw. can be anything i just neeeed motivationnn

#wyrms says stuff #speaking of asks #i should PROBABLY answer them shouldn’t i #i’m not ignoring u guys i’m just lazy or busy or i forgor #it’s weird i have soooo many wips but when my art has a deadline i can finish it EASY and FAST #(i did an art secret santa yesterday and i finished mine in 4 hours ON the due date and even though i finished it at the last second #it turned out AWESOME. and i drew so much cool stuff during art fight in only a few hours. but when it comes to my ocs or fanart #i’m just slow without a deadline) so guys. honest to glob just threaten me in my ask box. #i wanna get all my cool tllr art wips done but i have no motivation!!! feel free to threaten me with a deadline. or something else #in fact just scream at me to finish chapter 12 i actually work very very well under pressure you guys #anyway i don’t know what im rambling about. its just me procrastinating drawing/writing again isn’t it #OH SHIT I JUST REMEMBERED MY GOOSE CAME IN TJE MAIL

[strawberrytalia]

@ the people in that poll who are mad that some of us chose canon instead of fanon:

you are aware that every bat writer rn is appealing to YOU, right?

#when we say we prefer canon we’re talking about the traits relationships events and more that were built up over decades #and we’re also talking about our female or poc faves who get ignored by YOU LOT #imagine being so absurdly weird towards poc characters that i gotta choose fucking dc writers over you #anyways canon rn sucks #and it has sucked for the past 12 years bc it’s trying to appeal to ppl who only know 4 bat boys

[lenteur]

waking up and seeing exo members terminating their contracts with sm was not on my bingo this year

#but good for them #i still can't wrap my head around the fact they do not give proper compensation to one of their most successful groups? #like they're the ones that made a lot of money #they're super popular and yet you ignore them when they ask for the money they earned #i hope exo win this lawsuit and they get all the money they so well deserve #add on top of all that the mistreatment the getting casted super young (for most artists at least) and overworking them #& the length of contracts too!!! (i thought a law was passed where companies couldn't make their artists sign contracts that long #ie more than 7 years? idk if they're still making their artists sign 12/13 year long contracts but wow no wonder the artists are tired) #all of that for what? nothing. radio silence #that's unfair and i'm glad exo members are reacting #smal talk #exo

[sunblazes]

Been reading a lot about death culture recently Fuclkk man I love that shit...always been a big thing for me

#IM Reading from here to eternity andd its so good #it's aboutlike. different cultures and how they deal with death #it's such a westernized thing to be this like. to have the attitude of desperately ignoring death? #and we find it so disgusting etc to think on eating corpses but that is a very loving thing in ankther culture and probably much more #HEALTHY like mentally than what is common which is the innate fear of shit like bodies and even the thought of it #it should be completely normal to like take a loved one's body home and spend a day withh them And put them in nice clothes for the burial #or etc But its complegely not!!!! its weirdly looked down upon AND THATS SO INTERESTONG #Its like the idea We are so scafed of death but that's not common in a lot of cultures!!! very interesting book I LOVE THIS SHIT #sorry. I LOVEV THIS SHIT so interwsging to me. i used to research victorian deagh culture like a maniac when i was like 12 Sooo good.. #man you ever want death culture facts IMM your guy KNOW THIS.

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so. #literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

[dribs-and-drabbles]

#BADBUDDYREWATCH

Ep 12!

The fucking timeskip.

Look, I'll be honest...when I first watched this and saw the 'Advanced English Grammar' book on Pat's bedside table* I wondered if it was a hint that he and Pran were still together - after all, who would need that book more, Pat in Thailand or Pran in Singapore? - but I didn't trust myself to believe...I thought I was clutching at straws. But I should trust my instinct in the future.

*and Pat's red and blue bedsheets, and that Pat got up straight away, and Pran's mint green towel, and Pran's red, yellow, and blue bedsheets, and that Pran still had The Watch, and that Pat took a photo of Pran's dorm room door, and the mint green balloons... 🤦🏽‍♀️

I can't get over how bad Wai's trousers are, they're too high-waisted for him, they don't look good at all.

"You keep staring at him. Why don't you punch him already?" Don't get fooled by those stern expressions. One is the face of the man who went to the wrong airport to pick up his boyfriend and the other is the face of the man who didn't get picked up by his boyfriend because he went to the wrong airport 😂 Oh Pran's disappointment and Pat's guilt...and both lamenting the missed opportunity for reunion sex 🤷🏽‍♀️

I have to say it, I still think the pacing of this ep isn't great. We spend far too much time with the reunion party, with the flashbacks and the music and the photo and the mc character...each of these could have been shorter and we could have gotten on to Pat and Pran being together quicker. I think the impact would have been just as strong but without all the waffle. I mean, ELEVEN minutes could have been reduced to 5 tbh.

Add Pran's shoes to the bad wardrobe choices.

This ep's not giving us good 'girlfriend representation' - three male characters now have implied that their girlfriends are controlling or demanding of them...whereas it could have been framed more like wanting to get home because they love their girlfriends so much. smh

Oh but Pat swallowing when he sees Pran on the other side of the door...PRICELESS. And Pran's "I'm delivering food." Horny devils.

My absolute favourite moment of this ep? The way Pat is lying at the beginning of part 3.

Their fucking grins when they're being 'comforted' by their mothers. 😂😂😂

I WANT PRAN'S SWEATER FROM WHEN HE LEAVES FOR SINGAPORE. I WANT IT!

God, Feral Musky Scented Hoe Pran was unleashed this ep!

And my absolute second favourite moment of the ep? The way Pran looks/says "Really?!" at 10:44 of part 3.

Oh and also add Wai's shirt in the bar to the questionable wardrobe choices...

The smile t-shirt from ep 1!!! We've come full circle.

I LOVE Pat's mum's reaction to Pa seeing Pran. She perks up so much - she must know that it means Pat has a reason to be happy again...and that he might visit home...and he does not even a minute later! And she's so enthusiastic about Pat's 'friend's' gift...so obviously from Pran...and Man Baby Ming is just sat there sour-faced 😄

Why does Ming picking up the whisky glass make me emotional?! ffs 😭 And Dissaya leaving the guitar. And Ming leaving the post. AND Dissaya's fucking smile after she hears Pat and Pran laughing. 😭😭😭 ajslkefnFNA;LNFLKNGLAKDNGLAKD

Oh no Oh no... When We Were Younger instrumental...and the tin can scene...oh no I am not ok... No don't... It's when they switch to their younger versions that breaks me.

NOOOOooooooooo it can't end. I need more of them!

The rooftop/balcony scene! And we end at peak PatPran - the competitiveness, the feral musky scented hoe Pran-ness, the "Pran, it's not a porno!".

Quite frankly, it's perfect.

#bad buddy #badbuddyrewatch #bad buddy episode 12 #lin-live rambles the bad buddy rewatch #I fear this is more incoherent rambling than anything else #there's something telling about how I'm more critical about the ep early on - when Pat and Pran are still 'estranged' #and it's only when they're back together that I start gushing and ignoring all the 'faults' 😄 #I can't believe it's over! #I need more of them #my perfect blorbos #patpran my forever beloved #thank you ayesha and nuria for organising this! #userconcrete #usernuria

[skyplayssplatoon3]

"This Ways are ALWAYS important!" /Teammate uses them 11 times in one Salmon Run Round /Teammate gets 0/8 (No revives, 8 times needing to be saved) Given this is 95% of my experience with people who spam it, I think most people who do are just being bossy or needlessly frustrated /dies

(And yes, I looked over at them for every This Way, they literally were not addressing anything important, the rest of us handled the waves perfectly fine, got eggs, slayed bosses, and stayed alive)

#SquidWhaling #SkysSalmon #Spammers I will legit ignore you if your first 3 This Ways are pointless I promise you /bricked #AND I will immediately leave your team #Use them when they're important!! Not for a batch of 4 eggs in the distance when we have like 12 closer to the basket we can get #I promise you dont have to try and play 'leader' we are all a team and you are getting into trouble on your own way by shore for no reason #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #Anyway GGs to 90% of my teams today!! Just one annoying person /dies