#- put thru so many changes

[upsidedowngrass]

HELLO here is............ reference art for my liam design/interpretation!!!!!! a lot of these r ideas ive already had and/or included in my liam art already BUT !!! now its all in ONE PLACE!!!! :)

#hfjone #liam plecak #hfjone liam #hfjone backpack #my art #i feel like there was more i couldve added but i sifted thru my liam ref art and couldnt find any #but!!!! im very happy w how i draw him so this was fun to put all in smth :) #esp bc i was able to explain my thought processes on him a bit more!!!! bc i put. SO much thought into how i draw him #its why my design for him changed like every week for a few months a good while back. was adding n adjusting stuff SM #this is not even counting the bone diagrams i made. i am not including the bone diagrams #(theyre just for limbs but ive spent a long time on this already and im TIRED its been over 5 hrs and it is now 2 am) #BUT!! this will be queued for a good time !!!so i may not be awake when this is posted lol!!! #(also i am VERY much willing to discuss my designs if thats smth anyone wants to ask abt.... i have so many ideas) #additional fun fact that i specifically dont draw his shoulder ANY higher than his pocket bc thats as high as it goes on my design #ANYWAY im tired so im gonna queue this now

[luck-of-the-drawings]

WWWOOOPS FORGOT I MADE THIS. drew this back at around when the hyperbolic time chamber training arc was just starting. remember that? huh? remember the hamspter??? ohhhhhhhh youll remember the haspter!!!! oh my god yknow what else i remember. williams overwhelming love for christmas. oh my god. spooky zombie boy loves the christmas.. literally the best possible thing for him...

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi pd spoilers #VYNCENT SSOOOOOLLLL I STILL DONT KNOW HOW TO DRAW YOUUUUU AND YKNIOW WHY?? YKNOW WHYYY???? BC WHEN I FIRST DREW EVERYONE: #I DIDNT LOOK AT ANY REFS. DREW EM STRAIGHT FROM OFF THE TOP O MY HEAD. AND WELL. IN MY HEAD SOMETIMES #I PICTURE THE CHARACTERS LOOKING SIMILAR TO THE PLAYERS IN SOME WAY. NOT THE BEST THING TO DO REALLY. BUT YOU SEE. #VYNCENT CAME OFF AS A VERY SOFT AND SWEET CHARACTER. BUT SEEMED TO CARRY ALOT OF STRENGTH. HES LIKE A BEAUTIFUL AND POWERFUL BULL TO ME. #SO I DRAW THE GUY REAL DENSE! BUT THEN YAKNOOOWW THE OFFICIAL ART CROSSES MY EYES N IM LIKE FFFYUUUUUCKKK HE DOESNT LOOK LIKE THAT!!!!!! #IM LIKE AAUGUHGH IM DRAWIN HIM WRONG!!! BUT THEN IM ALSO CRAAAZY STUBBORN N I AAALREADY ESTABLISHED THIS DESIGN FOR HIM AND I DONT WANNT #I DONT WANNA GO N JUS CHANGE IT AAAALL UP NOW!!CMAHHHNNN BUT I STILL GOTTA DO SOOOMETHIN!! #LEST HE BECOMES SO FAR REMOVED FROM THE SOURCE MATERIAL HE FAILS TO BE RECOGNIZED!! ANYONE ELSE GO THRU THIS? GIMME UR TIPS #anyway AHH THE DEMON THAT DESPISES ART FROM MONTHS AGO!! just means im improving so so fastly and cool-like. tbh im so proud o my recents #bUT HEY THOUGH I FIGURED OUT THE QUEUEUE THING AHAHAH NOW I CAN GET ALL MY THOUGHTS N DRAWINS OUT IN A DAAAYYYY #CONSISTENT POSTING FOR A MONTH HERE I COME. DAILY UPLOADS FOR A WEEK. YEAAHH BABY!!! PREPARE FOR SHOTGGUN BLASDT!!!!!! #ALRIGHT ALright one more thing before i go im. SO IN LOVE WITH MY SHAPES HONESLY... they are not just one shape but so so many put together #fucked up innit??? im seeing soo many problems in this piece though but i rest easy knowing i captured my feelings in the moment.

[bottombaron]

it honestly surprises me that i don't hear anything about the very real possibility that Nandor could have sired Dracula

#wwdits #what we do in the shadows #nandor #nandor the relentless #in case you're wondering: Vlad jr. and his brother were raised in the Ottoman empire in the 1400s #and would have been exposed to many generals and other important people coming and going thru the palace #or during their military training #if Nandor didnt know him then he could have clashed with him in Vlads' rebellion against the Ottomans when he reclaimed his throne #or even after that #Vlad had a /lot/ of Ottoman interactions to the point that I can't beleive that making Nandor an Ottoman general #when its a little tricky consindering the Ottoman empire didnt really gain traction until the 1300s and originated much farther north #so i have to believe someone made that choice - that would have put Nandor in direct contact with Vlad - on purpose #or my wild theory of Nandor being the true inspiration for the Dracula character and Stoker just took the name b/c it sounded cooler #(which is what actually happened in real life) #Nandor was Bram Stoker's ex and Dracula was a salacious hit-piece with name changes #ok ok but getting back to Nandor being Dracula's sire #imagine the angst! the drama! #Dracula is the archenemy of Van Helsing! how delicious!! #give me 20k fics of the antics of Nandor sireing the 1 enemy of Guillermo pls and thank you 🙏

[cheswirls]

looking @ old fic i started when i was 14/15 is so funny bc im realizing once again why i never mark fics as abandoned even if its been literal years since i've touched them. specifically i was checking docs for stuff i started and either did or didn't post to ffn.

and its like. nothing is bad??? like i can see where my outside-the-box ideal of fic writing comes from. not just fics but writing in general, i'm p sure. even if it's a total cliche plot setup, there are details on each that rly make it stand out like oh yeahhhhhh i did have this great idea once upon a time.

funny too bc was it executed well in prose??? no absolutely not i wrote like shit when i was 15. would i revive an idea one day and revise it to be less cliche or cringy while still keeping the stand-out elements??? yea maybe. i might. everything i'm currently working on that i started from 2021 up to now still holds my supreme interest, but like i'm not gonna say never.

esp since i write fic first and foremost for my own need and specifically what i like to read, it makes it impossible to consider an idea i've thought extensively about "not worth writing anymore". anyway not making this too long i jus found everything interesting to consider

#writing #this fic i pulled up from JUNE 2014 crazy was the old chosenshi au i was trying to write for a friend #i dont ship blue/silver and never will and thats prolly why i never finished it #but i do still like!! the idea of rocket!blue raised w silver and breaking free of tr while running the hoenn branch #no idea how i remembered bc it wasnt in the plot pts on the doc but she was gonna get sent to the battle frontier #to nab jirachi and have encounters w frontier brains and change her mind at the end of it all #hell i could go back and not make it ship fic at all - have silver be a little one-sided obsessed or #even jus like.. attached to blue as a rivalry like as a way to show her up at every turn #another fic around the same time was the old pokespe hs au where i changed all the dexholder's names for some reason #i have no idea where i was in reading spe bc i put lyra in for some reason and had the sinnoh trio even tho i never read past v2 of dp #idk if it was more gameverse or what but its so funny looking @ the ship list n seeing i had gold paired w black #bc i had manga!ss and manga!ferriswheel so was it rly speverse or was i projecting???? #actually i think black was supposed to die and gold was gonna go thru this whole thing abt grieving #looking at the ship list so funny bc i never shipped gold/crys or entourageshi #and clearly i did not know the superiority of pmshi if i threw lyra in jus for silver #god but i do love (most!) of the alt names i gave them #would absolutely fuck up the ship list if i ever redid it tho #also have perfectworld tho im sure i have the most recent rewrite on pen and paper somewhere #that one i also gave up bc the idea i had for flare!sycamore was cringe along with #every time i went back to work on it enough time passed that i thought my writing sucked #i rewrote that damn thing so many times but oooooooo i still love the idea #as long as i changed the cringe parts to smth better i could still rock w most of these #that fic rly had everything... psychic!korrina. leaf/serena. sycamore hacking the secret to mega evo. lys/syc that ends in failure #bc of the ending line i will never forget > only in a perfect world could you and i be together. destined and doomed from the start #im rambling n im boutta run outta tags gimme a sec

[callixton]

my secret chess opinion is i actually think the london script is pretty much fine and never needed to be changed

#idk i think it does have fairly coherent plot and characterization #and as a director the minimalism of the storytelling is actually more interesting for mee #*me #wish more modern writers set up their scripts with the opportunity for interpretation #now i DO think that all of the changes have given chess an absolutely Fascinating history and i’m ultimately glad they were made #i don’t think it’s the strongest book in the world and there r pieces i prefer from rewrites but like. i do think it stands alone fine #i do really like the way relationships are developed in new versions. i’m glad they do that. i just don’t really get Why the og script was #- put thru so many changes #i just think that most of the things that are left without development are the director and actors responsibility to create #idk tbh. i’m sort of thinking though this as i type these tags. this isn’t a long held opinion lmao #chess #ted talks #tumblr keeps doing this fun glitch where it hides my keyboard and i have to type on muscle memory

[glassiskies]

i want guillermo to be turned into a vampire actually. is it going to actually make him happy? no. is he prob going to be disappointed about what being a vampire is actually like? oh yea. he needs to learn the hard way that being a vampire sucks (hee hee)

#what we do in the shadows #wwdits spoilers #ok like…idk how exactly to articulate my thoughts on this #but i really want the writers to actually go thru with turning him #and then have Guillermo learn the hard way that being happy isn’t dependent on vampirism u know??? #it’s soooo crazy because I feel like everyone regressed in the season finale #and Guillermo is gonna be an agent of change BUT he still regressed #because he’s gone back to putting his happiness on being a vampire #not that he ever really…stopped BUT he did have a life of his own idk idk #anyway I literally have so many thoughts I loved the finale so much #and I want Guillermo to be happy with being a vampire ultimately I just #REALLY want the writers to go through with it plz i am giving you all of my money #ok anyway #guillermo de la cruz #not art

[nerosdayinanime]

ok wait i realized i can just use my gallery's text & draw thing this is great

this is what i mean by 'the clan au doesnt have a set story'. theres all these places that it can branch off of and the possibilities r endless and i have *counting* ..14 scenarios/storylines so far and every time i think of a new scenerio another gets added<3

[slight bit more info for all the branches so far]

i havent done much with the kny-canon leaning ones they're more just like if i did follow canon thats how it'd be done ykno? im thinking they get raided by the shinazugawas for control of the trade routes and either they both survive like that one post or only giyu survives, either way Sakonji takes in the living tomioka(s)

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most of the stories arent tied down to canon theyre more whatever worldbuilding i have and stories pop up from them- one of the first ones was the shina-tomi failed peacetalks bc i wanted to draw sanemi & giyuu fighting (i just realized i placed the branches perfectly bc thats closer to canon than the others lol)

if the peacetalks worked(wouldve been later/after sanemi took over) then it kinda snowballed into a few nearby/allied clans forming a village, then from that theres the Tomi-Daki diplomat/trade envoy w the fox trio(giyu makomo & sabito)

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the rescues are like. little to no formal interactions between any of the three clans(shina-kumeno is always allied), in the first one its winter and giyu's on his way home when he catches the trail of bloodline hunters and saves Genya & Masachika.

in the other one giyu's pinned by a rogue shinobi and sanemi & sabito both find him at the same time and they make a lil truce bc giyu has severe chakra exhastion and cant make it home

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undercover mission has one thats purely sanegiyu; sanemi is disguised as Kazura & giyu as Gikuro and actually i looked back at my notes and this ones like. in the past before the village branch. so it connects to that one but it can also be a standalone. the other undercover mission is sabisanegiyu where sabito & giyuu went undercover as a master/servant thing and sanemi was disgusted by it and didnt know that it wasnt Real so he tried to 'save' giyuu and got invited to the polycule<3

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the lil unnamed branches inbetween is that one where giyu got chased out the clan by tsutako for killing their mom, there was a spy who had taken her place and giyu noticed and killed the spy but tsutako only saw him killing their mom and she lost her shit in dispair & heartbreak. theres a branch for Giyu staying alone, Sabito ditching the urokodakis for his packmate while makomo stays behind to fix things with tsutako, and both Sabito & Makomo ditching the urokodakis for their packmate

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the arranged marriages are sanegiyu with the first branch being after sanemi takes over and giyu asking for it ot of goodwill & he likes him(his pack gets to stay w him). other two Kyogo requested(demanded) it for trade routes, he doesnt allow the urokodakis to go with bc theyre Not Tomiokas and these routes more heavily portray the different biology of the southerners/mountain-pass(a/b/o)

ones angsty bc sanemi is like. CRUSHED that he cant find love on his own. his father takes literally everything away from him. while sanemi is kind & respects giyu he doesnt really care for him. and for giyu to go from a very close-knit family-oriented culture to the stone cold-cutthroat/conservative/severely traumatized/individualist culture of the shinazigawas with literally No One there for him he gets pretty fucked up w the emotional neglect

the other ones less angsty bc sanemi actually Tries in their relationship and finds that he actually enjoys giyu's company- and cuddles. the cuddles r fuckin great. but kyogo's still a cunt and a massive hindrance to emotional and mental healing of everyone around him. but sanemi's not alone now so its Better

#kny clan au #im Hoping that by posting this ppl will ask abt some of them n add their own two cents for ideas to flesh them out more #actually im realizing now that this is. probably incredibly niche and self indulgent. its naruto systems x kny characters #+ giyuu-centric as fuck w a lot of sabigiyu & sanegiyu #i swear its not all about giyu im making a better map of the world & it has so many other clans & fandoms to play with #i just havent focused on anything other than giyu bc hes my lil guy. my lil loserboy beloved. u understand right???? #i wanna explore more shit with other people i have an entire continent of political shit to figure out #all i got so far is that w the bigass mountain straight thru the middle the tomi-daki pass is the safest for traders so a lot go thru there #and they specifically run like. protection details for passer-bys so people dont die from the elements. which means they get access to #literally every trader that goes through. theyre fucking GOLDEN and other clans either want to ally w them or attack them for their own #control. but theyre mostly safe from that bc their compounds r way up in the mountains & theyre used to the rough terrain. #its like people invading russia in winter- its just not on your side dude.. go back home.. #theres also the Inarizaki from land of water trying to stake a post on the mainland near the kochos. so they went to the shinazugawas for #Reputation & actually really good firepower against attackers. even if theyre on the other end of that half of the continent. #i love worldbuilding #i did it for ocs but it started as a kid so its like. all over the place. i cant make sense of it & my ocs kinda bore me & i ended up Here #using my anime characters as lil dolls w a vague sense of their original character/personality bc i changed So Much- #if anyone inquires or not i Will be posting more about any and all of the branches Eventually #hhh stop typing Send Post #oh wait fuck i have to put it in the maintaga for people to see #fuck. shit. post be upon ye #kny #kimetsu no yaiba #demon slayer #giyuu #sabito #makomo #sanemi

[sentientobjects]

hiiiiiii :) some Things i have designed <3

#osc #object oc #my art #theyre not SUPER developed yet. and i couldve sworn there were more of them? #but idk #also sorry you can tell i lost steam midway thru </3 #also . limits arent algebra. so calculalians? maybe smth like that?? #i have other object ocs but also these are all very specifically like. all part of one thing #and the others arent part of this. so #imaginarys eye wasnt originally floating . i might change it back but i think rn i prefer it this way? will have to think on this more #also most of these were designed abt a week ago? #the only exceptions being socket and disinfectant can #there was also another silly algebralian(?) guy but i didnt like the developing ratio of them to objects? i might add them in again tho #(i enjoyed their design but limit and imaginary HAD to stay. and measure already had a personality. so) #SORRY for so many tags #also idk what tags to put on object oc posts im used to drawing art for specific shows. wuh oh. this is ok

[hawkeyedflame]

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#im not vagueing anyone specific so if u think this is abt you don't get your underwear twisted okay this is about like. so many ppl. #but it's so fucking frustrating seeing people i know (friends/family/coworkers/etc) going thru so much mental health struggle #often accompanied by physical health issues like weight/skin/pain problems #and knowing their diet is absolutely dogtrash #and trying to come up with a way to tell them that is nice but will maybe get them to think or change their ways #i know i know. you can lead a horse to water and all but it's just fucking agonizing knowing that people are suffering so needlessly #and it would go away if they just put the right food in their bodies #and no this isn't even an injunction to carnivore you can recover significantly with meat-heavy noncarnivore ketogenic diets #but people are so resistant to the idea that they can eat their way out of mental illness even though this is well documented #it just makes me want to rip my hair out that people would really rather stay the same than try something that could make them better #like i really can't fucking relate the whole reason i ended up a carnivore is because i was so *desperate* to be healthy #and trying something for a month just to see sounds so much better than letting everything get worse until i'm literally dying #but then i see so many sick people with garbage diets just completely resist the suggestion that the solution could possibly be so simple #like what more can i do for you? i dont want you to be sick. YOU dont want you to be sick. what do you lose from just trying?? #ugh i cant. im so. i know this is going to be my career path but god fucking damn if it isn't infuriating

[jvzebel-x]

🎶 sweet bread, sweet bread,

portuguese sweet breeeeaaaad 🎶

#... no it isnt a song at all lmao its just the song i was humming while kneading the bread LMAO. #i love sweet bread. so so so very much lmao. &portuguese sweet bread is huge back home. &i am. island-sick lmao. #the most notorious sweet bread shop is actually on moloka'i&(if it hasnt changed since) you literally go down an alley #to a door w a little sliding window&you put your cash thru tell them how many loaves of bread you want&they slide it back to you. #ive literally done drug deals that are less strange than picking up moloka'i hot bread LMAO. #anyway another fun fact about breads bc i love bread is that sweet hawaiian rolls are portuguese sweet bread made w pineapple juice :) #also traditionally pão doce is made&served for easter but im months late bc of course LMAO. #yas #my food #♡

[unproduciblesmackdown]

in the power of Noticing Things The Xth Time Around the instrumentals-imitative "doot. doot. doot. dooWAH" vocals that kick in during the second verse of centerfold? superlative

#i've heard the song a fair number of times & always enjoyed it a lot. high energy & fun; a little goofy in great ways in subj & sonic style #it is extremely correct to work w/imitative vocalizations in your music no matter what. put in more. More #(and the Vocal [doot] being on the backbeat as opposed to the Instrumental [doot]....superlative!] #and did i Mention that [verse into chorus] synth line...the drumming underneath it... #even the faux Live Performance psychout ending. a song about a Specific Ass Situation thank fucking god. deserved to chart like that. #also anytime i say Dad Rock i use it fairly neutrally lol. i'm a fan plenty of songs that would qualify; to be more specific #lmao love the instances of [no matter how many ties i hear it i cannot distinguish this sequence into phonemes in a way that corresponds to #words (or words that fit into the context in any comprehensible way)] i.e. went ''okay time to look up lyrics b/c i will always be going: #flowers What about her dress??'' & the line is apparently ''while i was thinking about her dress'' lol love when the revelations of #mishearing are funny like Ah right....and claims it's ''slipped me notes'' rather than ''slipping notes'' but doesn't change too much #being like [i cannot decipher these lyrics] is generally a more fun casual version of ''especial tendency to struggle w/audio processing'' #versus like not knowing what tf someone's said in this part in a movie or smthing no matter how many times you hear it #or of course the most A Problem: not being able to parse what's being Spoken in some in-person situation #might be an occasion you can't get anything repeated; might be an occasion where for some reason/s a repeat doesn't even help.... #also forever the Idiosyncratic Origin Stories behind [genuine friendships formed when you are autistic] e.g. like yeah one of my good #elementary school friendships? was one where we did parallel play; maybe never or very rarely actually Spoke; our Distracting Each Other #was punished with more of a singular intensity than i ever saw Anyone's ''distracting each other'' interactions.... #took years of being at the same job (part time; so not like monday thru friday 9 to 5 Always being there at the same time anyways) #for me & a coworker to start talking & become work friends; then regular friends #their name was angel; so the menace i became when we had such a dad rock station on & these alignments occurred #though i would be engaging in singing along to things in general lol so

[calaathmaza]

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#i have been working on many many different arts but have had to put art on pause for a bit #i dont feel bad abt not posting but i am missing my art time :(( it is very therapeutic for me #things have been a non stop shitfest for *checks watch* two months!!! with much stress and crying and truckin along #literally truckin i just moved! big life changes #so anyway if you see me posting less for a bit thats why <3 #all will be well #more grateful than i can even put into words for the friends i have made thru these gay little goblins and elves #personal

[mechawolfie]

i thought 9-1-1 lonestar was just going to be a funky lil firefighter show i didn’t think it was going to be about relationships and people and love and hope and

#smudgy.txt #9-1-1 lone star #sorry just seeing these different relationships seeing how they grow & change #how the ppl in them grow & change #putting in the effort for each other #COMMUNICATING when they finally realize they need to #it's just it i i just i- AAAUUUGHHHHH 🥺 yknow? #sorry i love relationships in fiction i love when there's actual effort put into them #i see so many fictional relationships that blow up just for the drama #& this show definitely does thhat too lmao #but then seeing the characters work thru the drama #bc they CARE & initially didnt know how to show it #or realizing there was a misunderstanding/miscommunication #& trying to work thru it #i just...... goddddddddd #it IS a funky lil firefighter show.... but it's so much more...................

[absul]

OH NO i thought too hard abt auvanne and her sister. oh god. oh fuck

#screech #my characters #THEIR PARENTS TRIED SO HARD TO PIT THEM AGAINST EACH OTHER BUT IN THE END THEYRE STILL SISTERSSSS #AND EVEN THO THEIR PARENTS TOUTED AUV AS THE 'FAVORITE' SHE STILL WASN'T PERFECT ENOUGH FOR THEM AND THEY TREATED HER LIKE SHIT #AND NATIENE RESENTED HER FOR HER 'PERFECTNESS' THAT DIDN'T EVEN REALLY EXIST LIKE HOW THEIR PARENTS ACTED #AND YEAH AS SHE GOT OLDER HER BITTERNESS GOT WORSE BUT WHEN THEY WERE STILL LITTLE SHE WAS SO CONFLICTED BCOZ THAT'S HER SISTER!!!!!!! AND S #*SHE DIDN'T UNDERSTAND THE FULL REALITY OF THEIR SITUATION #AND SHE SPENDS SO MANY OF HER YEARS GROWING MORE AND MORE HATEFUL & AUV SPENDS SO MANY WONDERING HOW AND WHY THEY GREW SO FAR APART #AND SHE ASSUMES THAT NATI SHARED THEIR PARENTS' FEELINGS(THAT AUV HAD TO BE A PERFECT DOLL) AND IS SO HURT AND FEELS SO LOST W/O HER #THINKING THAT THEY DIDN'T HAVE THAT SHARED TRAUMA AFTER ALL(THEY DO) #BUT NATI IS STILL HER SISTER AND AUV STILL LOVES HER SISTER EVEN THOUGH THINGS HAVE OBVIOUSLY CHANGED #JUST WISHING THAT THINGS WERE DIFFERENT AND THEY COULD BE FAMILY AGAIN W/O THEIR PARENTS LORDING OVER THEM #AND ALL OF THE YEARS NATI SPENDS CHASING AUV DOWN AND TRYING TO KILL HER THINKING THAT IT'LL MAKE THEIR PARENTS LOVE HER #AND REALIZING ALMOST TOO LATE WHAT THEIR PARENTS HAVE DONE TO THEM AND FINALLY LOOKING BACK AT THEIR CHILDHOODS THRU AN ADULT LENS #REALIZING HOW MISERABLE AUV WAS AND HWO HORRIBLE THEY WERE TO HER #TO BOTH OF THEM!!!!!!!! #AND SHE'S PUT OS MUCH OF HER LIFE AND SOUL INTO THIS WORTHLESS MISSION THAT WOULD HAVE NEVER EVEN DONE ANYTHING BUT TAKE MORE FROM HER #AND SHE ALMOST LOSES HERSELF AT THE THOUGHT BUT JUST THINKING OF THEIR REUNION GRANTS HER RENEWED STRENGTH TO GO ON #AND SHE'S SO NERVOUS AND SELF-HATING FOR EVERYTHING SHE'S PUT AUV THRU BUT SHE HAS TO TRY AT LEAST ONE TIME #BUT WHEN SHE FINDS HER AGAIN AUV IS LIKE HALFWAY IN HER OWN GRAVE FROM A BIG BATTLE(ending of EW???) #AND NATI NEVER EXPECTED TO VERY NEARLY SHATTER INTO THOUSANDS OF PIECES AT THE SIGHT OF HER SISTER BLOODIED AND BROKEN #WHEN JUST A FEW MONTHS AGO IT WOULD'VE BEEN THE GREATEST DAY OF HER LIFE #(ALLEGEDLY. she barely even knew what she wanted she just ASSUMED AUV BEING DEAD WOULD SOLVE EVERYTHING BCOZ WHAT ELSE WAS THERE TO DO???) #AND NATI JUST FUCKING. BREAKS DOWN #AND SHE'S SO ANGRY AND SAD AND *ANGRY* #AT WHAT HAPPENED TO AUV. AT HERSELF. AT ALL OF THE WASTED TIME SPENT THINKING THEY WERE NATURAL ENEMIES #AND OBVIOUSLY NOONE KNOWS WHAT TF TO DO WITH HER BCOZ 'UH HAVEN'T YOU BEEN TRYING TO KILL HER FOR LIKE EVER????' #AND THEY TRY TO KEEP HER FROM AUV AS SHE'S RECOVERING AND NATI IS JUST SOBBING AND WAILING AND CLAWING TO GET PAST THEIR BODY BLOCKADES AND #EDIT LOL I RAMBLED TOO MUCH AND IT DELETED THE REST OF THE TAGS UH OOPS. #uhhhhh tldr SISTERS.

[microwaving-tesilid-argente]

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#girl i have so many teshes thoughts its INSANE #me starting with haha actually this ship has no basis i just want to Put Tesilid Through It #but over the past few months of brainrotting their dynamic is now like. #what if we were doomed from the start and there was never anything either of us could do to save the other #(not even talking about the regression but rather the stigma bearer thing and how they have no social power) #(but also the regression thing) #what if we loved each other throughout all the lifetimes but there could never be a happy ending. tragedy dogs our footsteps #what if we were 'guy who has a good head on his shoulders and recognises our low social positions and looks out for his friends in similar #predicaments' x 'guy who is way too giving and this is bad bc the world is out to get him and he loves ppl too much to care about #the danger to himself' #what if we were 'guy who is way too giving' x 'guy who wants to protect him but Cant' #doomed ships..... #swings hestio around i like you SO much. i need to put you under a microscope and in a fish tank #(statements that should not ever be viewed by people outside of tumblr) #some of my fic outlines has notes that are like 'wow if they had the transmigrators privilege this wouldnt even have been a problem' #and im suddenly very appreciative of canon #god bless canon tesilid may you be happy. not my fanfic tesilid though im making him miserable #anyway. the more i think about it the more interesting hestio's internal conflict could be #it's about being so acutely aware of how shit their lives already are that he knows having a r/s that is frowned upon would just #make things worse #also i am very much hooked by the fact that like. nowadays i keep seeing ship posts about 'killing myself in front of you to change the #trajectory of your life forever' #for teshes its the opposite. hestio is desperately trying to make sure tesilid doesnt off himself #and also its not hestio dying that changes the trajectory of tesilid's life forever it's hestio confessing #and somehow this inflicts more pain on tesilid in the long run #which is extremely funny bc for all the notes that ive written abt teshes hestio has only confessed like umm. checks notes. 3 times #1. drunk (tesilid is not in the room) 2. the world is ending #like if hestio had managed to take this to the grave like he had originally planned then this could have been avoided #but the tragedy is that tesilid lives thru this multiple times so at least ONE time hestio's going to blab and that forever changes things #crying in fic writing being stupidly hard

[achilleslyre]

i just went thru my old account and i always forget about this old post which i captioned “the plot of [paulinho matarazzo teixeira]”

#i cant stop giggling at this #i really just drew shit back then huh #and theres SO many just random funny shit i drew gawd i miss that. #i made this when i was like 13 or 14 hsjsjdjskskdk #also paulinhos old design…… (all my characters old designs)……. by god look away #so crazy to think about how ive been creating plotting and building this world for my ocs since i was like 12? i think. #no matter how many changes i put them thru i’m never giving up on these fuckers