#-choosing to end their own lives.

[runs-red]

I hate how radfems talk about trans suicide rates because they treat it like such a trivial thing. Like we just kill ourselves for the trend, because we just wanted to guilt trip people, or just because we didn't "get our way". It has the same energy as people who think it's "the easy way out" because it just completely ignores how serious ending your life is, how hard it is, how much of a dark place you have to be in, how real it is.

#I also can't imagine how much of a hateful person you have to be to talk so flippantly about people- #-choosing to end their own lives. #cw sui mention #cw suicide mention #fuck radfems #tw radfem #reds.queercourse

[foursidecity]

Now I don't know if it's just because Im physically disabled, but I feel like it's not a stretch to interperate Lindsay pepper-bean saying she's stupid everytime she tries to walk withiut assistance/realizes she really does not know how to walk on her own as another thing her society has cut out from themselves, like the rich- white- young-able bodied model of the bubble people really stands out of a "yeah of course she would say that. If you can't walk your dumb." As well as constantly calling ruby and the doctor stupid and dumb for not knowing 'basic things ' just that whole high and mighty thing alot of privileged people say without even thinking twice.

It's interesting characterization to me because she CLEARLY thinks VERY HIGHLY of herself, so why on earth is she calling herself stupid for not knowing how to walk? No one here does obviously, of course aside from Ricky September who she calls crazy for knowing these things

#ITS INTERESTING TO ME. really good characterization shown that it really dosnet come as a suprise when you get to the ending #like of course this rich privileged babies living in their own little bubbles are racist. #they have the oppurtunities to elarna nd grow and choose not to #no one gets a character arc here #dr who #doctor who #dw spoilers #dr who spoilers

[bubblegumr1ck]

Listen. Listen. I am gripping your shoulders painfully. I know this is just Morty in The Hole and the whole thing is about his dependence on Rick but. They buy a house together. Why are you dialling the number for the psych ward

#i've watched this episode over 5 times but it will never stop killing me #rick and morty #rickorty #please. they buy. a HOUSE #they LIVE together on their own and morty WANTS that #i know i'm unhinged just let me have this ok #something something rick is also shown to keep steering morty away from jessica and morty doesn't fight it #something something rick letting go of diane and choosing morty which he /technically/ did in the end of fear no mort for real #listen if you don't like rickorty you're not the target audience for this post and i probably seem insane that's kinda my whole bit here #i've wanted to post about this since it aired i'm just getting it out of my system

[feroluce]

So I adore time loops and I think Sampo would be very fun in a time loop AU. Because despite having so many onscreen interactions with so many characters, he almost always seems to hold people at a certain careful distance, so it's fun to imagine what or who he's willing to use a time loop for, how far he's willing to go, how much he actually does care.

At the end of the Masquerade Duet companion quest, Sparkle mentions a catastrophe soon to befall Jarilo-VI. And some players have interpreted this as a past event (the catastrophe being the story quests we took part in there), but other players have speculated this as an upcoming disaster that Sampo is trying to mitigate.

And so, Gepard finds Sampo in Belobog, right after he was supposed to return from Penacony...or whatever it was called, Gepard had almost been too relieved to remember the name after Natasha assured him that Sampo was fine and not missing or dead, just on a trip since the planet was finally open for travel.

He had assumed this was some kind of vacation, or some shady business endeavor (valid), but when he sees him, Sampo looks. Exhausted.

His usual smirk is there, but there's something horribly off about it that Gepard can't put into words. His voice doesn't have the usual bounce in it. His gait slightly off. There are bags under his eyes, his hair is just the slightest bit out of place. Sampo looks exhausted.

His feet move without him really thinking, he goes up to Sampo to say...something. Maybe just ask him if he's ok. But he can't leave this alone and not do anything, because Gepard can feel it, something is wrong.

And that feeling sticks with him, like the persistent cold, like frostbite, all day. Gepard can't seem to shake it. There is a collective unease seeping through Belobog, sinking deep, tangling around their bones. And the only one who seems to be reacting truly different to it is Sampo.

Gepard tries to tail the guy a few times, anything he can do to learn about what's going on and ease this devouring dread, but Sampo seems to know where he's hiding and calls him out every single time.

He dodges every question (normal), slips out of every grab and grasp (normal), barely even looks at Gepard (decidedly NOT normal).

And maybe it's the darkness that seems to hover over them. The way the air feels like it is pressing down and smothering the breath out of his lungs. But Gepard's patience finally snaps, much sooner than he ever would have thought it would, and he finally grabs Sampo by the collar, hauls him up and forces his back against the brick wall of the alleyway. Because maybe Sampo makes his living double crossing and stabbing backs and he wouldn't understand this, but Gepard has a family, he has people he wants to protect, and so he needs to know what the fuck is going on.

And he knows he's crossed a line the moment he says it. He knows it's not true. Gepard has seen the way Sampo and Caelus sneak around in the Fragmentum or meander down the alleys, snickering with their arms slung around each other. He's seen the way Sampo lets Hook climb up his back onto his shoulders while he takes the moles on little adventures. He's seen the way he and Serval rib each other like it was natural, easy, and the way he goes out of his way for Natasha like he wouldn't any other client, had even trusted her with the knowledge that he was leaving off-planet.

Sampo has people he wants to protect, too, and Gepard shouldn't have accused him otherwise.

But before he can even apologize, Sampo does something stranger still.

Instead of telling him off, or taking a swing at him- both things Gepard would admit he deserved- Sampo just. Lifts one hand, lays it over Gepard's fists still balled in his jacket. Like he's keeping him there. Even through his gloves, his hand is warm.

And Sampo doesn't even really look at him, he leaves his head hung low as he quietly tells Gepard to just go home. Stay in with his family. Don't come out. Please. Please.

But eventually, the catastrophe strikes.

And Gepard can't. He can't stay safe inside his home while this is happening. He can't ignore this. He tells Serval and Lynx to stay in. Don't come out. And he dons his armor and marches out to protect as many people as he can.

When it's all said and done, all Gepard can see is rubble piled around him and a blackened sky. He can hear fire crackling. He can hear a voice he recognizes as Serval's wailing and screaming his name, and he knows she's not going to find him in time. She shouldn't even be out here.

A bloodied face swims into view, bright green eyes looking hollowed and haunted, posture weary and defeated. Gepard reaches out a shaking arm, trying to grab at Sampo's pantleg, trying to make any sound other than gurgling the blood filling his throat, because he knows it for certain now, he knew, Sampo knew.

"Not this time either, huh...?" The sigh he heaves isn't theatrical, for once. Somewhere, rubble groans and loudly collapses. Sampo doesn't even startle or turn to look at it. "I'll figure it out soon, I promise. There has to be a way to pull you through this alive. There has to be."

Something materializes in his hand, something red. Gepard's vision dims at the edges as he watches Sampo hold the mask over his face, as it seemingly attaches itself directly to his skin.

"See you on the next go around, Captain."

#hsr #sampard #gepo #gepard landau #sampo koski #I love open endings for things like this #but I did have the thought that like. the aeons are powerful enough to be immune to Sampo fucking with the timeline. so they all know. #(Aha is watching with a bucket of popcorn bc Sampo is Their Little Guy and They love to see him thrown into Situations ndmzjznd) #but this means that Qlipoth is also aware of what's going down. and They see how no matter what happens no matter what little things change #-Gepard still chooses to preserve whatever life he can. he chooses to protect every single time. and that becomes his saving grace. #Gepard DOES pull through not by compromising his morals but as a reward for keeping them because Qlipoth turns Their eye upon him. #They choose Gepard as Their Emanator. and that's what finally gives him power and the chance to live through his own actions. #and thank god lol bc Sampo would NOT be having an easy time with this au. i think everyone else he cares about would be relatively safe. #but Gepard considers it his DUTY to protect people. this is his RESPONSIBILITY. and he is so so goddamn stubborn about it. #so this isn't a case of man vs act of god. It's not Sampo vs The Catastrophe that's not what's going on here. #it's Sampo vs Gepard's unyielding will to protect whoever he can #and he is fighting a losing battle

[vegaseatsass]

DFF Finale

Alright alright alright that took me on a rollercoaster like some REAL high lows in that episode, I love an ambiguous ending but also I crave so much more closure owwwwwwww However for now I'm just coming to share my theory. Ever since this post pointed out that New hallucinated Non in his death t-shirt, I've been sitting on the idea that the Janta drugs have actual supernatural qualities. These aren't just any old hallucinogens New cooked up, they're a strain of a drug that serves a specific purpose for a death cult. So now that EVERYONE hallucinated Non in his death t-shirt, even though Tee is the only one who ever saw him in it, and it's highkey unlikely that he described the shirt Non was wearing to them at any time (and certainly not to New when he hallucinated Non wearing it years ago), I would like to propose the theory that the ghost of Non they see is a very real very true ghost, and the things he says to them are very real very true things. The "thank you" he gives New is not a figment of New's troubled mind, but what Non actually has to say to him, just like everything else he says to everyone else: their actions may be the product of their guilt, but Non is actually speaking his ghostly mind to each of them.

#which means his message to tee was like why the fuck didn't you let me DIE #the way you tried to help me just prolonged my suffering #but yeah :( #there's ambiguity about if anything we saw happen this ep actually happened which means EYE shall of course be living in delulu land #with picking and choosing my own ending hehe #and that means there's ambiguity with this of course #is new hallucinating forgiveness and closure to make his desperate actions have meaning and value #or is non actually grateful someone fought for him? #we just don't know! #but i want that tragic final hand touch to be real #so it is. to ME #dead friend forever #dff #dff spoilers #dff the series spoilers #dear diary

[coquelicoq]

when you're the only person who keeps living through the time loop, the people around you cease to be people and become mere characters. your treatment of them doesn't matter because they're not real and they won't remember. the only way to give anything meaning is to end the loop; their actions don't affect the loop and therefore are meaningless. you're the only one who has the ability to change the future, so anything you do in service of that goal is justified.

but. kim dojka looks at yoo joonghyuk and says no, actually, these characters are people. whether they remember or not is beside the point because they are real right now. and you don't give your life meaning by achieving some accomplishment that retroactively makes everything that came before worth it - you give your life meaning in the living of it.

#'meaning' isn't a reward you get for clearing a scenario...it's something you actively create every day as you make a life #kim dokja: it's WORTH IT! i know it's worth it because we are making it worth it!!!!! #ohhhhh waoaohhohh getting a transmission to my brain...suddenly feeling the urge to rewatch palm springs (2020) #time loop fiction is sooo fucking potent like ok you can read about this person who alone out of everyone has agency #thereby alienating them from all their fellow creatures...but watch out #orv #time travel #agency #existentialism #kdj #yjh #omniscient reader's viewpoint #my posts #f #also the fact that it's kim dokja - the 'reader' - who's creating meaning...sorry excuse me. there is something in my eye. #and this is coming from the guy who is very much committed to reaching the end of the scenarios! that is very much his goal #and what he's working toward. but the meantime is not something to get through. it's life and he's choosing to live it #he's like maybe this is fiction maybe we're all characters but it doesn't matter because the story is real to the people living it #his whole thing is that he refuses the idea that the story is unchangeable. he refuses the lack of agency #he's like well i will just make my own story. i will make my own meaning #and if there's some author out there that i'm the character of well good luck keeping up with me. mwah

[nightswatchdisbandmentera]

I think one of the reasons why the theory that Arya will go away at the end of the story because she’s too far gone to assimilate back into society is so unconvincing is because she literally spends the latest two books (AFFC and ADWD) doing that very thing! Like her training hasn’t been about her being a reclusive murderous hermit. She literally spends the two books talking to people, making friends, integrating into new cultures. She’s around people all the damn time! And even if we bring up her ACOK and ASOS arcs which were rather dark in nature, she’s still around people interacting with them, still being a part of society (even if she’s quite low on the totem pole in those books).

Arya is a character who feels so strongly and whose arc is often dictated by how she interacts with the people around her. So to take that away from her is not only a bad understanding of her character arc (not to be condescending or anything), but it’s also not very satisfying as far as character/narrative progression goes. Because if the narrative has proven so far that even in her darkest moments, Arya can laugh and love and be such a passionate member of society, how then does it make sense for her to go away and be on her own?? How does that make sense when AFFC and ADWD prove that she still loves being around people?

#I cannot think of a single instance where Arya going away because she’s too far gone #And can’t do ✨ society ✨ anymore makes sense from a character development point of view #Had her story arc been her gradually choosing to not be around people anymore then ok maybe yeah #If she spent ADWD waxing about how she just wants to live in a cave because ✨ society sucks ✨ #Then sure whatever #But her arc has been about her surrounding herself with people even when her identity and safety are taken away from her??! #She goes to Braavos…..and then spends months on end talking to people and hearing their stories #And she says she loves it! #Or did people conveniently forget that part when she says she loves spending time listening to people’s experiences? #She constantly thinks about how she loves her family and home #So how does it make sense to have her go away on her own when her arc has been the opposite?? #Someone pls explain idgi #looking at you Reddit btw #y’all continue to just suck donkey balls #arya stark #asoiaf #my rant I gues…

[guinevereslancelot]

babe would you still love me if we were superheroes and you were in danger and i went absolutely bonkers and crossed every moral boundary imaginable to protect you at literally any cost?

#would you still love me if i was covered in blood for you? #anywayyyy more superheros going of the fucking deep end for love thanks <3333 #this isn't based in anything in particular unfortunately i would simply like to see it #anyway.....people compromising their morals for love!!! doing the wrong thing for selfish reasons!!! #too many people commenting on my betrayal post think its about ur lover changing your mind/making you realize u were wrong #no!!! its about choosing the wrong side in purpose!!! going against ur beliefs bc u love someone more than ur conscience #KNOWING its wrong but doing it anyway in absolute AGONY because what other choicebdo you have!!! #anyway <3 #sacrifice ur soul for ur lover or don't waste their time #this has been a shitpost #please tag your blorbos <3 #ig this is lowkey and anidala post but i want the superhero version please and also without the totally implosion of the ship and hero #i want the good guy lover to live with the weight of his sins knowing he can never atone but he would make all the same choices again 🤌 #devotion to your lover above everything!! past the point of redemption or the ability to forgive yourself!!! #(this is good when the lover is horrified but better when they forgive their lover for the atrocities committed for their own sake) #otp dynamic fr #worm discourse

[haridraws]

✦ COVER REVEAL! ✦

Into the Tower is a choose-your-own-path, masquerade ball fantasy heist into a spellbinder’s tower, with multiple special endings for each character and some incredible guest art from some of my favourite illustrators.

It's available to pre-order now from IDEALLY YOUR FAVOURITE INDIE BOOKSTORE or also here

psych, that link ALSO lets you support indie bookstores!!! It also has more info, artists and previews of the first pages.

FAQ Is it queer: yes. Can you topple the government? Yes. Can you become lost forever in the twisting realm of memories and fears that’s the source of all magic? Yes. Can you make friends with a woodlouse? YES.

~ INTO THE TOWER ~

#Into the Tower #fantasy books #choose your own adventure #that's actually a specific trademark and tbh this book has different mechanics so it's actually #CHOOSE YOUR OWN PATH #interactive story #I'm genuinely so excited about this one. Also the cover perspective was a living nightmare but I feel it worked out in the end

[lunarharp]

figured i'd do this again..bit early i guess..

#to cheer me up.. i feel bad atm.. these things don't even make me feel very good tho bc i'm such a narrative/sketch-based artist.. #but Proper Beautiful Finished Pieces are what grab attention and look good at the end of the year all neatly lined up lol..... #so looking at a “yearly review” where i can only choose 'the best image of the month' (??) is like...What have i even been doing... #i did a month by month look back on twt for myself instead..but even that doesn't express the quantity of comic-based stuff.. #that i do put a lot of time/heart into..but alas i feel bad bringing even them back..RTing/reblogging my own art simply feels bad lol.. #AND WHY IS IT ALL B&W...trying to accept that i LIKE doing that and sketching and scribbling..not like i'm trying to like..Get Artist Job.. #this year was so profoundly lonely at times bc i spent all my time drawing instead of socialising and trying to find friends.... #please please please have achieved more of your dreams in the future so you can look back at 2023 and think.. #It was good that happened so that it got me further to the future. Or whatever i guess..................... #regardless i did have a great amount of fun drawing and improving this year and dwelling deeply & heavily on witch hat atelier. #art-wise and emotionally....march july & september were the best months i think..AUGUST WAS SO WEIRD SUMMER IS SO EVIL ALWAYS. #thank you very much if you are reading this for enjoying & leaving nice tags & such like <3 i've realised how fulfilling that is to receive #really keeps me posting stuff here instead of keeping it all to myself in my head #i wish everyone in this world could have a safe and happy end of year. i wish living in this world were easier

[zuppizup]

Circumstance IV

Circumstance III

They made it all the way to the drains without running into another guard and Rayla’s anxiety had begun to lessen just as they ran into Soren.

He sighed upon seeing them, his sword slung over his shoulder. “I was beginning to hope you weren’t as dumb as I thought.”

“I don’t want to fight you, Soren.” Rayla unsheathed her blades, stepping in front of Callum. He’d surrendered his staff before being sent to the dungeon and there wasn’t even a slight breeze this far underground. Potentially, he could use the puddles of water under their feet, but it would be weak magic.

“I wouldn’t want to fight me either.” Soren smirked at her, holding his sword in front of him for a moment, before he sighed and sheathed it.

Rayla frowned at him, not in anyway relaxing her swords. She glanced at Callum, finding him similarly perplexed.

“Soren?” He stepped around Rayla, eyes fixed on the crown guard.

“You had to know everyone suspected you’d do this, right?” Soren rolled his eyes, a hand on his hip. “For a smart guy, you can be really dumb, Callum.”

“You’re not stopping us, Soren.” Rayla gripped her blades tightly, confused as to what was going on. “I’m not going to let them sentence Callum to death.”

“Wouldn’t that make sense? That’s what he’s done to the rest of us.” Soren glared at Callum, his expression harder than Rayla had ever seen it.

She gripped her swords tighter, watching Soren, noting his every move, preparing for him to reach for his sword again-

“Go.” Huffing, he shook his head and stepped aside, gesturing down the tunnel. “They’re expecting you to run to Xadia, so don’t go there. Or go the long way around or something.”

Rayla looked at Callum, finding him similarly confused.

“Seriously,” Soren pursed his lips, looking like he was warring with himself. “Before I realise how dumb this whole thing is too.”

Exchanging a glance with Callum, Rayla took the lead, inclining her head at Soren as she passed him.

“Thank you, Soren.” Callum nodded at the crown guard.

“I’m not doing this for you.” Soren turned to face Callum; his eyes fierce. “Either of you.” He looked between them. “I’m doing this for Ezran. You both have put him in an impossible situation. First you, giving up the Cube-” He glared at Callum then turned to Rayla. “And now you, being so stupid as to bust him out. Ezran doesn’t want to see either of you hurt, but his hands are tied.”

Rayla looked away, unable to maintain eye contact. Of course she knew this, all of this, was betraying Ezran more than anyone. What was the alternative though?

“Here,” Soren’s voice was hard, and Rayla braced, not knowing what might be next. Instead, Soren leaned into the shadows and produced Callum’s staff, the miniature primal stone glowing brighter as soon as Callum’s fingers touched it.

“Don’t make me regret this,” Soren held Callum’s gaze for a moment, then looked at Rayla.

Callum nodded, taking Rayla’s hand in his. “We won’t.”

#and then they rode off into the sunset and lived happily ever after #never confronting Aaravos or coming back to face the music because meh 😒 #… kidding #but seriously it’s choose your own ending from here #rayllum #rayllum fanfic #the dragon prince #tdp #the dragon prince fanfic #tdp fanfic #rayla #callum #tdp callum #tdp rayla #zuppi fanfic #zup tumblr ficlets #fic: circumstance #snake boi callum

[rhymaes]

Mysterious Lotus Casebook, Ep. 40 // The Acts of King Arthur and His Noble Knights, John Steinbeck

#the entire fucjing series. that last line was floating through my head. from eps 29-40 I couldn’t believe. how cruelty it held up #AND MERLIN BADE FAREWELL TO THE KING HE HAD CREATED #TO DIRECTOR DI’S ‘there will always be new legends’ & EVERYONE NOTICING FANG DUOBING’S GROWTH #AROUND THE EXACT TIME HE CHOOSES TO ABANDON THE GOAL OF RECOGNITION BECAUSE HE WANTS TO STAY WITH HIM #he wants. to live with him. SORRY BUTIT IS THE EXACT THREE AUTUMS FIC QUOTE ‘I want to be alive with him again’ AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN #ITS WHAT HE CHOOSES. AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN HE CANNOT HAVE IT. #because li lianhua believe his life is his legend & his legend is over. and it’s fang duobing’s turn & its. it’s. SOMETIMES YOU LOVESOMEONE #SO MUCH YOU END UP ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THEM #anyway u wouldn’t believe the ammount of screenshots in my album rn so yeah you’ll all b seeing a lot more parallel posts soon SO. THEY ARE #JUST. THE PERFECT TRAGEDY. YOU CAN DIE AND COME BACK BUT YOU DONT COME BACK AND YOU DONT GET TO DIE QUIETLY AND YOU ARE SO PRESENT YOU ARE #INEVITABLY REWRITTEN OVER AND OVER IN FROMT OF YOUR OWN FACE!!!! anyway. okay. okay. the End. for now #mysterious lotus casebook #li lianhua #li xiangyi #di feisheng #fang duobing #parallels

[drbtinglecannon]

The plot of Scott Pilgrim Takes Off is actually better than original plot, by a large margin

#not only did we get so much more ramona screentime & growth but I actually really liked that everyone lived & changed & grew #also the handling of scott & ramona's relationship feels way more healthy. also the show was SO QUEER omg it was great #I love roxie lmao shame she & kim didn't work out. wallace was kind of a bigger scumbag but I loved him finding his own sparkle at the end #also julie? me. I look similar & constantly swear constantly. she was hilarious & her x gordon was really funny #ramona's green hair look is what I wish my hair always looked like. OH ALSO RAMONA CHOOSING HERSELF? I LOVED IT #but yeah like. this rewrite helped the story age better imo. appreciate all the constant criticism of scott dating a high schooler in his #20s like finally it's addressed as fucked. lucas lee tho lmao “she's actually 31!” #anyway excellent show 10/10 animation was so fluid. the art style matched the comic perfectly. the story was a fun & refreshing spin #scott pilgram takes off #scott pilgram vs the world #scott pilgrim #ramona flowers #tc posts

[in-the-multiverse]

I really enjoy the life series being a thing that goes “thrown into a death game and shit gets intense and we all end up needing therapy” BUT ALSO the meta version where it’s “Grian invited us to a death game and we voluntarily went and shit got intense but it’s all good we know we’re doing this for entertainment, no hard feelings anywhere (although some players hold grudges stronger than others)”

But what if it was combined? Sorta like genloss

Maybe it’s only the winners who see eldritch beings holding cameras or floating cameras. The winners get a special mic held up to them while they rant about their strategies or thoughts. Maybe everyone else sees it too, but it becomes invisible to them as the season progresses. As shit gets intense and they get their head lost in the game

And Gem, the newest addition, doesn’t have seasons worth of ignoring the things out of the corner of her eye. She catches a camera and stares right at it. At the audience. Us

The eye imagery still stands, because what the players perceive as floaty glowing eyes are actually camera lens. Reflective black “eyes”. Watching. Waiting. Recording

#secret life #trafficblr #traffic series #reminder that everyone can interpret and enjoy the life series however they want #this is just one take on it #I do love me a concept where everyone brings their own special cameras #and at the end of the day they go back to their lil editing rooms and make their lil cinematic episodes #break time is everyone having a picnic together #but like #the angst potential of everyone being in their own worlds #and every so often having to live through betrayal and drama between friends #I eat that up too #OOO AND GENLOSS THEMES #the audience choosing what the characters will do #the tasks being harmless and silly in the beginning #but get more risky dramatic and aggressive as the episodes go #the final few shoving and kicking each other to stay in the spotlight #to stay relevant #to stay alive #but it’s all an illusion of choice #there is no true escape #not until the audience loses interest #and you know how that goes

[venti-death-watch]

yknow based on freminet’s emphasis on being controlled & the director’s weapon vs making his own decisions, and looking at xiao’s everything, if one of the house of hearth kids is going to betray the fatui/join the traveler i’d kinda expect it to be him

#thoughts #they all have complicated emotions around arlecchino but. she directly saved the twins #and lyney’s got his whole responsibility thing & lynette & lyney will stay together #but frey… if he ends up in a place where he can make his own moves/decisions. id be very interested in what he’d choose #he was a child assassin for the previous director. arlecchino paired him up w the twins. i don’t think we know what he does now? #besides diving and fixing things. and we know he doesn’t like killing & that it’s stunted his emotional/mental growth/made him distant #and all. so i’d be very curious as to what’ll happen especially w xiao/frey living weapon/our master’s knife parallels #genshin impact #freminet #and w the traveler intersected. it’s not like xiao is perfectly healed. but freminet isn’t even out of the toxic environment yet #he seems to find a sense of comfort in not having to make the choice bc he offsets the guilt from murder through it #if he doesn’t have a choice and he’s just a weapon/windup toy then he bears no responsibility. and all #anyways save my boy from the fatui. get him outta there!!!!!!! #he’s already canonically su/c/dal if he doesn’t get out someday….. #anyways xiao freminet meeting when. self recognition through the other. i think xiao would dislike/be uncomfy w freminet. #frey take ur fate into ur own hands challenge #also someone get this boy some serious therapy.

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Anybody else slowly disassociating more and more as you slowly lose all of your touchstones in this world?

#it can't be just me right #also i am stoned and can't sleep why is it already past 2am damn #disassociation #no close family any more #one half sister where we have a weird relationship because i basically raised her for a while #so when we're around each other we just remind each other of our horrific childhoods and various mental health issues from that #all of my friends either live too far away are too busy with their own lives and loves (understandable) or have just forgotten me #starting to feel like I imagined that whole fling with d #but geez it'd be pretty pathetic if even a romance I made up in my head didn't end up with someone choosing me #then again I have trouble enjoying fantasies too far from the realm of possibility and maybe it's just not realistic to have someone want me #as more than a passing entertainment lol #anyway every day i feel less like a real person and more like a ghost or something imaginary or like a stranger in my own body #dang man i wish i could afford therapy i probably could use some huh #although my last therapist was pretty lackluster honestly #mental health #life of faye